I prefer my home and family buttoned down
rather than too wild and disorderly,
disheveled and irrational.
I prefer natural order
and shades of color
and sequential rules of nutrition-producing order,
and yet wonder, too.
I have been hurt by too much wild
struggling against my too much gay
with fear that loss of homophobia,
struggling with fear and anger
about my too-wild sexuality,
might self-recruit toward loving bisexuality,
poly and/or meta-sexuality,
a co-arising co-gravitation
without fear and anger boundaries
might open your pen toward boundless love.
these fears and angers scare me,
preferring my home and family
more polyculturally transformed
to optimally button down
our polypathic wild.