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Tomorrow’s Warm Integrity

What love we could become
still breathing
could never actively restore
what I have stolen
silently
and you have thrown away
more protesting loudly

What I have stolen
could never be worth more
than all your warm felt passions

Compassion freely given
and I have coldly paid
to not feel again

It feels so easy to love you
more than me,
and I have always loved you most
when I can know,
without self doubt,
you might again love Us

As we are today,
unlike yesterday’s diversions
and not yet quite as great
as tomorrow’s still open gate.

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Abortive Trauma Tales

When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.

“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”

Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?

The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan

Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting

UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.

Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement

I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted

Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.

If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery

Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons

A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race

On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion

Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.

Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed

As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds

With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort

And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience

Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth

Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.

And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life

Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death

Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.

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Enabling Empathy

It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult

I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.

And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point

Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams

At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me

No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling

Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images

Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles

Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds

Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions

Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration

Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral

Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion

For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion

Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity

Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect

Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.

It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift

RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories

Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy

Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance

Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations

Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant

Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom

To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely

As they choose
to dream with you.

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Love’s Sufficient Time

I can accept that love
I have time to learn
and earn

But
can I embrace compassion
I feel sure appreciates me
far more wisely
than I have earned?

Positive passions more pleasant
than I could ever find sufficient time
to brilliantly learn

My adoration spot
on this comedy central
AnalRetentive Stage
listing
lusting
more Left Winged
liberating
than Right Singed
defensively sedating.

I am haunted
by an oppressively disabling gap
between what I have sufficient healthy time
to accomplish
to communicate
to experientially articulate
as anemically contrasted
to all I can imagine health
and safe wealth doing
togathering in this day,
this week,
this month,
this year,
this final decade
of my personal AnthroGay Pride
and WhitePrivilege
to prefer Black Lives MultiEnculturing Matter
and wild Paradise
PolyCulturing Pleasure

Win/Win bi-everything trans-thriving
positively contagious
as the clap

On a loved ones back
is my gay worldview sound
of one left hand liberally clapping
out FreeDom
ReStorative Justice
Love

Between my NonViolently WinWin Communicating
brothers and sisters

LeftBrain verbally dominant
claiming Peace
I nonverbally feel
RightBrain left outside
closeted gay emotional neglect

In my polyculturally wise universe
feeling all EarthMother’s love,
Polyester is always Lose/Lose trauma
bad news drama
while
PolyPathic Win/Win
evokes sacred warm
wet 1 within 0 zen rivers
of deeply penetrating gospel

Good regenerative humor
despite toxic rumors
that my indigenous EarthTribe
intentional family
and trauma-infested community
are suffering from an overheated climate
of monoculturing dementia

Increasingly difficult to recall
the love we have had time to learn
is earned one timeless
warm remembering moment
always liberally Here
as time conserving Now,
unconditionally warm
well-moisturized regard

For healthy hygiene
is next to wealthy
goddessness

A gay gratitude gift
more than sufficiently
out proud
well endowed.

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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Cooperative Desires

My dubiously protagonist Self
outgrows toward a co-invested
cooperative
co-governing center

A core UnWhite House communication center
Tao training for sacred positive
and trauma negation memories

Into ecologically
and economically
Right whole open
PanenTheistic Intelligence

Amping up
co-relational win/win choices
through unconditional regard
of panentheistic
inside/outside co-discernment
voiced choices

Ego secularized
by LeftHemisphere
health and safety cooperative
evolving old tired competitive
revolutionary predative theories

Not mentioning
survive together to thrive
communal co-empathic
win/win imaginations
empowering enlightened co-governance
animating histories

My intimately win/win highest and best
co-redemption narratives
feel like a sacred housed cooperative
trauma-free awareness
and copassionate intent
to live together EarthTribe curiously,
yet confidently,
win/win committed
sacredly together

On, but not overpowering,
my cusp of traumatic anxiety triggers
and co-therapeutic anticipated compassions
together deepending mutually co-invested
ownership and co-therapeutic
natural health and spiritual safety
intent

Calls my sacred housing cooperative images
merging projects for
and from
cooperative nondogmatic experiences
comforted by food and energy
nurturing resilience

Appreciating river-front environmental green
and clean
co-relational preservation
not at all bully mean

Historical-multicultural
Right-sacred/Left-secularizing
co-discernment spirit-mind/nature-body skills
of cooperative
co-governing communications

For green cooperative resilience
reproducing inside imaged
EarthPeace therapeutic homes
and panentheistic gardens
in/out-sided
wellness-rounded
competing mortal space
throughout immortal time
for EarthTribe’s Here/Now resonance.

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Aunt Eartha’s Winter Interview

What are your most winterish
critical trauma events
in these most recent
three millennia?

Why
just my traumas,
and not their corresponsive
ecotherapies
for restoring EarthJustice?

Please go on
and on
questioning my questions
seemingly without end,
like an arctic wind-blown
starless night
in eternally restless January.

As you say,
and, but for this grand analogy,
you would pay dearly
for your unsprung youth,

Back in pre-colonial daze
of sacred tribal glad,
mostly naked clad,
reunions,
Fall harvests produced fertile gratitude,
more of a positive
win/win attitude.

In those last warm and golden times
of nature nighttime naivete
some Governor,
a Wise Elder, perhaps

No matter how Patriarchal,
would deep dream think
to set defenses against
each sacred Other

Yet pantheistically inclusive Mother Earth
could not feel ripe
or right, apart

Summer fullness
and winter dormant absence
fail to positively correlate
Earth’s spirited spring minds
and physical womb-falling bodies
with metaphysical,
sacred bipartisan,
deeply thoughtful
yet hibernating
frustrated feelings
failing to confluently
and competently understand

Communicating
and excommunicating
across seasons
and present seas
of sacred vulnerable immigration
integration
creolization,
followed by thoughtfully transparent
slow-grown emigrant sacred status
rooted in wisdom
and freedom to,
not freedom from
and some other kindless
kingdom

Immigrating/Emigrating EarthTribes
exhaling summer’s sway
away
and migrating winter’s WombDream play
back in to sacred circling
and recycling stay.

Thanks for that,
Aunt Eartha.
Sounds like less of a summery answer
and more of a deep wintering question.

Yes, my dear,
and what does winter taste
and look
and feel like?

Restoring Earth’s
not-quite-so-everlasting
seemingly endless
cold white privilege,

Thawing into
more spring/fall balance,
sacred green/blue global
hibernating
matriarchal,
yet apparently dormant,
ecologists.

Sorry, Aunt Eartha,
drifting off,
wandering in winter wonder

EcoTherapy, once around again,
regenerating global
GoldenPlaying Peace

Within this silent wintered star’s
bright prolific night.

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For, and Against, Every Season

For every relationship
we can rediscover
a season
of increase
and tipping point
toward decrease.

For every correlation,
positively resonant
and negatively dissonant,
a regenerative
becoming degenerative season
for building up and out
and tearing down and in
compassion
tipping toward
dispassion
revulsion
decay

Like passionate summer powers
Falling toward
diminished winter light
dipolar co-arising
hope for continuous
contiguous fresh spring
cooperating green,
morning blue
yet warmer
cumulating skies
repredicting summer’s
fertile
climax
passions

Re-enlisted
in four fractal
reasoned seasons
for redeveloping Earth justice
and restoring Tribal peace.

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Gods of Power

If God
and gods
and other paternal powers
resource love,
and not hate

And if we believe
that love fades
with encroaching fear

Faith strong rooted
in personal
and professional
and economic
and local
through global
trauma experience

And if god
and great paternal rulers
and warriors
and heroes
are free of Loser fear

If straight white paternal privilege
felt more free to grow omnipotently capable
of unconditional multicultural regard
for EarthTribe’s surviving health
and regenerating wealth
and recreated Earth thrival

Then it seems likely to me
that victims,
self-victimized
and/or other-victimized,
of and for addiction
loss
pain
trauma
chronic stress
poverty
disempowerment
incapacity of reliable health care
for all EarthTribes,

Victims of LeftBrain patriarchal education,
parenting by verbal and physical domination,
preaching by intimidation and shaming,

Victims of peers
siblings
and professional colleagues
for punishing and mutual blaming,
escalating mis- and dis-communication

Miss out on bicameral deep sacred learning,
parenting by safe and healthy cooperation,
preaching by mentoring and listening,
peers for healing mutual mediation
and panentheistic re-framing
opportunities for compassion’s integral redaction
of sacred EarthJustice HerStory

Understoried womb
of soulful nutritional
nurturing EarthMother
regenerating ecopolitical soil,
seeds,
nuts,
polyculturing eggs

These are all potent Paternity’s most sacred
loving
engaging
co-redemptive
co-invested opportunities
for expanding mindfulness,
consciousness,
enlightened co-empathic empowerment

Free of chronic fear
angered by traumatic
patriarchal inhumanity
severance
apartheid
dissociation
imprisonment
enslavement
excommunication
marginalization
disinvestment.

Here lies sacred curiosity
to replace
win/lose aggressions
with courage to embrace
win/win
health is social wealth
naturally spirited impressions.

Fathers of communication
and learning problems
engaging compassionate
nonviolent opportunities
to expand emergent win/win resilience.

Fearless, unconditionally loving
gods
and lesser rulers
most sacredly informing
therapies for trauma,
chronic stress,
fear,
anger,
self-rabid righteousness

Anthrosupremacist narcissism,
lust for monopolies
of secularized,
capitalized Paternalistic
monotheistic
unrealistic over-powers
expensively waged against

Peacemaking unconditional regard
of fearless
flawless
ominipotently omnipresent
omnisciently panentheistic
polyculturally healthy
emotion intelligence

Nonviolent communications,
restoring free freedom
to restory
patriarchal traditions
militarized punishing injustice systems

With monocultural tendencies
monotheistic theologies
monopolistic
traumatized
neglected and abused ecologies,
eco-matricide

But, if God
and gods
and other paternal powers
resource love,
and not hate

And if we believe
that love fades
with encroaching fear

We might also trust
that loves grows more resilient
with cooperative win/win
intent to democratically
and globally initiate
create
recreate
omnipotently mindful
trauma-informed
resonantly sacred
communionation

Courageous teachers
who remain curious students,
Enlightened parents
who remain win/win empowered children,
Rulers
who remain cooperative co-governors,
Patriarchs
who remain resiliently co-invested
ecofeminists,

Messianic heroes
who repair local trauma
with bodhisattva global reinvestment
in peace

Conservative paternalists
restoring green climate justice,
fearlessly engaging omnipotent integrity
of curiosity’s copious compassion

On sacred land
and sensate seas
where kindness
and mindfulness
are free
of fear
and anger,
trauma
and chronic stress,
which cost everyone

Including omnipotent God
and monopolistic corporate gods
and the lesser patriarchs
of scriptured history
exploring integrity,
most therapeutically sacred

Natural manly health
is also spiritual goddess EarthWealth,
co-passionate
spiraling
bipartisan communal potential.

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