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Wilderness Silence

Escape into wild silence
Slip away into still chilled morning
Follow each brown needle cushioned trail
toward Earth’s solace
murmuring river

Whispering from where we have come
to quietly drift
through renatured meaning

Float rippling forward
into love’s expansive watered mouth
without inhumane voice

Escape into ambient silence,
comforting respite

Leaving behind human,
even humane,
passion stories
persistent voices
plastered sounds;
but not tidal memories
wilderness fantasies
pleasure feelings
thick erotic choice

These accompany

Friendly and harder lessons
healing into muffled landscapes,
sea sounds,
surprising silent breezes
teasing past surfing sense

Suspensory imprinted
colored
wordlessly intoned
rhythmed patterns resonant
and dissonant,
spaciously sensualized

Needy quiet traces
relation tracks
footsteps hungry for most any thing
every one present
and unaccounted for

Embracing
inviting
wiccan silence

Slipping away

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Porch Swing Questings

I have a lot of questions
questions
questions
he repeats
slowly creaking
and dancing
on our screened porch
peaking swing.

Radiant
in fiery ginger godliness,
mind centering omnipotence

He is so far ahead
of answers,
I feel embarrassed
to share them.

But, in not sharing
I become lost in caring
what he might think of me,
feel about we
without sufficient daring.

He swings anal retentive
in a whole new light
of previously unrepresented delight.

Ah! that could not be my question.
A hypothesis, perhaps
meriting further research;
new questings.

It feels important to me
this questing
for high and deep best male alert
dessert thick
and creamy,
dreamy wave of carnal delight,
absence of fright
or fight
in last and long dark nights
on seas of swings
just fucking right.

I want to squeeze
these pulsing questings
out of this maleness
female mess
so quickly
complexly asked
and chaotically given

Shriven
of clothes
but not masquerades
of closet questions
questing answers
not yet hard
and widely embraced
formed
invited graced queer notions

Of motions
and emotions
just right
and left
bilaterally in-between
bicameral lusts
and bisensual leisure
to swing all theories continuous
polypathic
polyphonic
polyvagal
polymetric
polyamorous ways

Of in
and out
and rebellious shout
for Earth’s most carnal freedom
of re-connecting
polycultural con-scientific re-ligioning
questions about straight and narrow
meets wide and deep

Why 1
slides so sexily
through 0
shape-shifting chakras
of natural
spiritual co-empathic pole
and holistic energy
like nuts
round bolts
and male
inside female bipolarities.

So many questions,
he gloriously proclaims
in majestic awe
meets lusty wonder

As his bi-gendered feet
gently invite
our graced swing
to sweep and seep defeat
with co-passioned
revolving Earth
back to Spring
and forth to Fall

One late summer morning
on our screened porch
secret secreting swing.

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Deviating Sisters

One of my sisters believes I chose to be queer.

Did you remind her
you had no more choice about chasing guys
than she did?

Yes.
But her favorite televangelist
says I must be mistaken,
or just lying,
because who wouldn’t choose to be hated
by all the hetero homophobes
like televangelists,
and evangelical radio heads,
right?

That makes no sense.
She can’t really believe
you would choose to belong
to any repressed and humiliated minority,
especially during early onset of puberty,
when every girl and boy in any culture
is terrified of becoming different,
or special,
or weeded out of the clickety-clak pack.

Well, as she sees it,
she is in a LoseLose double-bind.
Either I chose to be queer, and am thereby demented,
or God graces all forms of WinWin sexual expression,
which would be contrary to her homophobic enculturation,
so it is easier to believe I am nuts
to choose perversely
than to consider herself nuts
not to choose more graciously,
especially with regard to God’s creative capacity for love,
rather than simplistic judgments
which look and smell and sound like patriarchal sexism
more than radical compassion of God’s healthy pleasure
of regenerative love among all gendered children,
red and yellow,
black and white,
gay and straight
and shades of grey transgendered,
each is precious in our polyamorous
Gaian Hypothesis sight.

What about your other sister?

Oh, she agrees.

With what, or whom?

She agrees we’re all nuts.
Nuts
not to choose healthy love
over pathological hate
and fear
and anger
and greed,
craving to keep all the hot men
for one’s own privileged clan.

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Lusty Book of Lists

A book of lists
is what I need
to absolve Earth’s Tribes
of rampant greed.

Before and after lists,
being and becoming fists,
masculine and feminist mutual mentoring trists
transubstantiating troubling transformations.

I would like to hug
a warm and fuzzy theology
with prophetic philosophical appeal
to ethical reasons and taste buds
both hunters and gatherers
might sing and dance
together.

Nationalism,
like narcissism,
only bigger and worser,
is out.
So Earth-centrism is in.

Egocentrism
like eco-centrism
only inward instead of also outward,
is out,
so ecological natures back in
balancing staminate/pistillate cooperatives,
consensual yang/yin co-intelligence.

I need an updated list of reasons why
as red flames out
green grows in
and when they color in together
we rediscover rich brown integrity
of less anthropocentric polycultures,
reweaving deep dark polyamorous syncretism,
for healthier Earth rooting stories,
not only compassionate logos taught,
but also pleasure mythos revived.

I love this list
of red becomes purpling
peopling nurturing equalities
as blue states of Earth-centric redevelopment
redeem aquamarine green,
together ultra-violet
non-zero soulful octaves
Win/Win his/her-story
of cobinary passion.

I live these self-regenerating lists.
They move around
pistil-in with stamen-out
to re-emerge revival,
Earth’s fractal-rooted crown
double-binding integrity loving
living
transcendent generosity
listing forward ecotherapy
listing back toward indigenously swelling gratitude
for these organic EarthTribe lists
of sacred ebb and flow.

We need an historic list
of lusts
cooperatively owned
and together self-managed

How ancient animism birthed modern monotheism
through countless regenerations
of taoist transcendent stamen
and immanent pistil
panentheism
birthed co-arising nonduality

Patrimonious Yang penetrating
matrimonious Yin circluding
trinitarian inter-religious midways

Sacred organic networks
ego-cognitive Left
eco-intuitive Right
as Mother Earth’s shabbat

Beloved internal-mind/external-body habitat
AnthropoScenic climate balance
both universally unfrightening enlightening
and invitingly
unitingly
empowering organic Golden Rule
crown/root intelligent brightening.

I need a list
composed by pre-historians
and investigative journalists
of what happened
when we had no bad news

Where we had no commercial headlines
to gossip about
and only loves to share
with
and in
and on
and for
and of
anthro’s earthy blessings.

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Pleasing Answers Prefer Passionate Questions

Do heated questions hope to end with cool answers,
while pleasing answers never end
without yet more compassionate questions?

How are Case Studies
of anxious organic history
different than sacred Einstein’s
anticipating Thought Experiments?

Wait a minute…

Yes, well that’s not really a difference.
Thought Experiments and Case Studies
both begin with waiting a minute

to notice cause v effect assumptions,
to decompose bifurcated relationships
between sacredly interrelated organic parts

of what
and whom?

Imagining in reverse time,
from now as cause
back toward effects
leading up to my current favorite cause

current noticing,
sometimes chaotic and unsettling
waiting a minute
to notice struggling against

Feels worse
than struggling with?

Do brains
casing out disorganized thoughts
feel more important
than brawn?

And why is this different
than why that?

Does, or does not,
organic complexity
actively hope
for resonant riches?

Is this really democracy’s healthiest question to ask?

Within all Earth’s vast universe
of sacred questions,
could love invest in life more
instead of hell less?

Is this, more or less, probably more,
what you are trying to point out
before I interrupt your thoughtful minute?

Do democratic rulers
find Golden Rules flattering,
and their reverse fascinating?

When don’t richer Case outcomes
invite more fertile Thought Experiments?

Why have I never heard of,
but often experienced,
a dysfunctional paralysis case
for more dysfunctional family studies?

And how is that different than,
or the same as,
an unhealthy patriarchal
and unsafe capitalist
Case Study?

Wait a minute,
when did we begin
declaring positions
always remain the same
when not opposed?

to asking about appositions?

Do we all start with co-passionate noticing?

Can we reverse hot times
back through bio-eros networks
of bilateral climaxing opportunity?

Yes, I suppose so,
but Einstein’s Thought Experiments were metaphysical,
cold mathematics
and unnatural science,
Aren’t Case Studies more like watching non-pornographic Reality Shows,
weaponized capitalist, and usually strong-man, Disaster Movies,
Freudian Nightmares on Mean Sheets?

How do I know
you hope to respond
to your own questions
with better questions?

about how thought systems are the same
when they don’t feel different?

Sorry, honey,
do you agree or disagree,
or both, somehow,
that Einstein’s Experiments are about metaphysical operations
while Case Studies
are about physical and natural operas?

Wait, a minute…
no, that doesn’t sound ecologically correct,
nor feel logically helpful

Are we better
sticking with naturally stuck wealth
realities
or freeing Earth’s spiritually flowing health
relationships?

Didn’t Einstein hope his Thought Experiments would lead to Truth,
therefore, not also False,
much less Ugly?

Measuring statements about space and speed
revolving time
and gratuitous power

evolving mass
and volunteering light?

When you write extended Dysfunctional Family Case Studies,
do you hope you speak Truth
but not Beauty?

About positive,
and, unfortunately, negative energy,
(0)-sum speed of sharing light,
massively devolving power,
a feeling of insufficient healing time
for sufficient health and safety
final answers.

Why is Truth
not always Beauty?

Because that would be confusing

Winning facts
with loser feelings?

If you say so,
but if thoughts grow complex
when do feelings show chaotic risk
and calming climate opportunities?

Wait a minute.
Sorry love.
When do Thought Experiments shut down?

Either True or False premises?

When was the last time you indulged
winning thrival opportunities,
and not losing survival risks?

Writing a lively Case Study
about love’s Thought Experiments

In Win/Win
bilaterally climaxing
mind thought
and body felt
co-passion Cases?

Well, when you ask that way
you come across
less of a dispassionate
Me win vs You lose

Dominating ass?

Who wouldn’t have the first clue
how a dogmatic Life Case Study
might feel less inviting
than a dog-gone lovely Thought Experiment.

Wait a minute…
You’re doing thoughts again.

That thing where you LeftBrain explicate
answers
while I RightBrain implicate
questions?

That somehow do not really quite exist
just yet

Outside of spaceless now
and timeless here?

Biassed
in favor of ecstatic climax
erotic fireworks!

You’re just teasing me, aren’t you?
This cums down to foreplay
in your favorite Thought Experiment?

I feel so used.

Don’t pretend your gorgeous Case Study
doesn’t like it.

Could you talk a little dirtier,
and leave out the exploitive capital
and over-rated patriarchal parts?

Less sacredly surreal
and more organically earthy?

Ummm.
That sounds like you’re ready

to stop performing
and start engaging?

Baby,
you’re the writing Sage

Asking if you
are still my dancing Muse?

Does your musing question hope to end
sooner or later?

With only one most sage answer.

Do answers ever end experiments
without yet more amusing
Curious Study questions?

Wait a minute,
did we leave out
our sexy
and sacred climaxing parts?

My mind feels so bruised,

My body too unused?

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To Sexual CareGivers and Receivers

We all at least aspire to become adeptly fulfilled
care givers and care receivers,
as these two directions prefer becoming mutually symbiotic

To give care is neither spiritually better
nor naturally worse
than to receive,
as robustly healthy care giving is also resilient receiving–
these interactions mutually enriching each other;
growing healthy love,
evaporating unhealthy hate
and apathy.

The best care giving comes out of,
and returns toward,
love and nurturance,
not merely the exterior forms of discipline,
enduring negative emotions
and troubling thoughts of feeding tolerance
rather than intolerance

Love sublimes beat down apathy,
often with humor at our own mindfully deep learning expense

An investment in curiosity,
looking even deeper at this person’s compassionate
and dispassionate,
pleasing
and unpleasing relationships
in this time of potential healing

Learning to share Basic Compassionate Attendance
in organic life’s natural animistic spirit
of verbally vulnerable passions
and nonverbally transparent pleasures
transforming trauma-receiving communications
into therapy-giving communion.

Put another more neurosystemic way,
health care professional training has invested in
defensive attorneys
and insurance bottom-line profit-seeking,
risk-management corporations,
to articulate how to preserve one’s autonomous self,
one’s expert practice,
one’s authoritative relationships,
from inappropriate touch and language,
micro-aggressive behavior.

This is not a bad thing in our capital-hoarding economy,
threatening a scarcity of all lives matter

And yet, solely nursing win v lose monopoly games
is a less compelling choice
compared to organic life’s WinEgo/WinEco-opportunity
for both esteem giving to Other
and esteem receiving for Self

Which is all about how to therapeutically touch and feel
speak and listen
maturing compassion’s pleasing
therapeutic communication

Both strict caste-preservers
and liberated caste-abolishers can agree
our GoldenRule care giving/receiving win/win journey,
within organic EarthTribe’s associative v dissociative Anthropocene climate,
is how we further evolve together
toward optimizing healthy love communication

Compassion giving becomes pleasure receiving,
communicating with hands and feet
mouth and ears
investing sacredly cooperative
polyamorous trust.

As this conversion
away from monoculturing anthropocentrism occurs
and re-occurs
and holistically concurs,
then life-care becomes all about WinMe/WinWe optimizing
unconditionally warm
touch and feel responsive
responsible neurosensory communion.

When we have,
as an anthropocentric species,
too long-term triggering issues of inappropriate touch
and insignificant feelings,
these become historical artifacts
of a prior benighted polarization,
a former toxic age
and tragic stage
and disassociative life

Our Holy Nature/Spirit
non-LeftBrain dominant indigenous Elders
would not wish us to remain dispassionately
and unpleasantly stuck outside
life-caring Us
better together
than falling apart

Making great grandchildren
of all Earth’s organic species
yet again
this care-giving caste
care receiving re-caste
sacred communion day.

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Life Through A Thousand Deaths

Here empowering life waits
with a thousand little discontinuous unenlightened deaths,
caste again,
right here in The Evolving Self’s sixth principle
of preferable options for more humane evolution
revolutions lurking behind Mihaly Csikzentmihalyi’s
positive re-ligious integrity
is at least not negative irreligiously disintegrating
neuro-sexsensory health caring psychology.

I had seen EarthMother’s compassion
rebirthing love of cooperatively-held life
when he began by rooting around
in primally co-arising principles of thermodynamics.

The second Yang-negative principle of monocultural hubris,
dissociative limbo
somewhere between remembering contentious defeat
and promising contented repeat
with Yintegral positive
as first open universal synergy principle
toward abundantly unitarian life-system flow.

Every organic tribe tends to share bio-neurosystemic shape
sense enhanced for cooperative fertility,
crowning dialectical DNA
on back through root systemic RNA
resonantly symbiotic passions
for healthy organic pleasures,
fractally unfolding
good faith rooting designs

Monotheistically crowning
emphatically inspiring
future healthy organic clans
living within Earth’s erotic pantheistic wilderness
of deeply rooted spiritual ecstasy

Engaging symbiotic networks
of communing nature
co-informating healthy EarthPeace ecological rights,
dis-integrating anthropocentric caste-preserving wrongs
of Yangish monotheistic monopolizing
GodThesis v GaiaHypothesis excess
of sacred mind over-casting systemic trauma
against under-caste organic matter.

This first synergetic rebalancing principle,
resolving around and in and through
our 4D body-space/mind-time universe
emerges Win/Win when Yin-squared equals positive
not negative Yang
wu-wei cooperative equity, of dual-caste course,
but much more erotically symbiotic,
crown/root cobinary chakra symbiotic
resilient integrity

+(+) = 0-Yintegrity = -(-1)Yang Identity
erotically engaging body = emphatically authentic mind
ecological powers = anthro-logical light
EarthMother’s pantheistic pleasure = SunFather’s monotheistic passion

CoBinary nondualistic organic/sacred systems
inter-communing nature/spirit
regenerative Golden Rule co-empathic
caste-abolishing intent

Reiteratively polyculturing
resonantly octaved
double-fractal DNA/RNA co-gravitation
multigenerations of positive co-relations
between elder RNA seminal sacred memories
of resonantly peaceful ecological experience
projecting future DNA health and safety assurance

Navigating in-between risks and opportunities
of organically healthy Earth wildness life
where YangLeft liberating animus
and
YinRight conserving anima
do our best to make mind-passion/body-pleasure
co-arising love
and not quite so much entropic-trending
upper v lower caste co-aggravating war.

Anyway, back to Mihaly’s sixth dynamic
mistrusted and/or trusted Taoist balancing co-governance,
depending on your paranoia v pronoia predilections,
principle of authentic AnthroMind/EarthBody integrity
Win/Win sacred/organic evolution:

We have two appositional dynamics in our life journey;
Win-health v Lose-pathology potential contention
leading toward Win/Win power-with contented flow,
using cooperative energy resources
to recreate mutually co-present active hope

Yet co-passionate dynamic balance
also risks leading toward further upper/lower caste competitions
powering-over with Win v Lose mistrusts
about Earth’s life v death anthropocentric revolutions

Extracting EarthMother’s energy for monoculturing hubris,
paternalistic patriotic exploitation
of future fear and past angry condemnations,
further starving sapient ego’s potential health
through a thousand deaths and loss and suffering
of entropic maya,
conflicting competitions struggling against further disorder,
rather than struggling with today’s cognitive-affective dissonance
to deep learn ego-ecotherapeutic cobinary care.

It seems perceptually important to believe,
perhaps even to smell and taste and feel
reconnecting past love-line memories
as if implied by first yeasty embryonic experience of self,
that Yintegral flow of cooperative health
could not thrive in total 0-sum absence
of Yang’s darker competitively caste shadow
rememory.

For me,
I have come to see optimally regenerative health
nurturing wise wealth
within Earth’s double-binding bihemispheric spectrum,
between pathology of excessive eco-consumption in my accumulating past
and pathology of excessive ego-energy loss through over-production,
self-abolishing depressions and repressions,
like a bottom-caste life voting for top-caste
Trumping sexploitation.

It proves difficult to summarize
regeneration as a positive inside/outside
cobinary caste
symbiotic ego/eco
Win/Win virtuously dynamic consciousness.

But, at the end of EarthMother’s polypathically multiculturing day,
Climate Health is what we all economically and politically,
ecologically and analogically want.

EarthRights (not so much Yangish irreligious Wrongs)
are what we recognize as nutritionally positive health,
while climate pathologies are Left v Right
liberal mind v conserving body
enlightening v empowering extremes
both inside ego-capital positively identified
and caste aside eco-homebody not negatively identified,
Ego-equity/Eco-integrity
wu-wei nondualistic
indigenously mindful feelings

Continuous EarthMother re-ligious life
powering through a thousand discontinuous SunFather deaths
resurrecting ego/eco dual-caste
transformative consciousness.

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Dear Eve of Adam

Dear Eve and not so much Adam
over writing The Clitoral Monologues,

Love your book.
Just one suggestion,
expand your entitlement to
The Clitoral-Penile EcoPoliTickle Dialogues.

Feminist to feminist monopolizing monologues
make merely OK theater,
at best, the first feminist nurturing ecopolitickle opera,
if you were to also become gifted with writing songs
and choreographing exotic clitoral-clitoral non-dueling dances

Your wisdom becomes more cooperatively powerful
on an eco-policultural
co-arising dipolar
neuro-sexstemic therapeutic stage,
clitoral yintegral
with penile yang-poignant thrust
of regeneratively co-passionate revolutions

Our wisdom nurturing anthropocentered
co-empathic health caring selves,
reincarnating evolutionary predators invading receptors
into hunters loving gatherers
of weathiest wise polarities
transubstantiating holariously nonviolent
politicklish co-passions.

Strategically repositioning
the only mono-longing
Sex Business as usual
is a competitive Mine-Is-Bigger Game
with a wealthier Win/Win Clitoral-Penile synergy
of wiser transgenderal politickling co-investments
in healing bipolar oppositions
with dipolar appositions

Like Adam v Eve
reconceiving Adam/Eve
Yang/Yin
cobinary pole/hole

Crown/root polyvagal transformations.

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Play It Again

If it’s not organic
it’s not sexy
and probably not all that funny
either.

If it’s up and down bipolar movement
with your arms and legs,
it’s Yang male energy,
and potentially horned up
and/or out.

If it’s side to side dipolar,
it’s Yin synergy,
all about love
spreading liberally up
and distended out
for thrival

Up against hate
with bent body
gathering in
self-defensive down
deep root systemic protection,
survival.

If I’m sitting silently inside
feeling unconditional warm mind/body
deep listening appreciation
for and with and of
all spirit/nature
mind/body
time/space organic EarthTribe

I may also become a dancing organic muse
inside my mind
imagining peak musical experiences
outside embodied

Singing my softest
and ultra-soprano highest
and hardest
and low sexy slow
baritonist
love songs

While dancing
praying
playing
meditating mind
medicating body
moving as gracefully as might be expected
inspected
judged
appreciated
enlightened
empowering
this sexual-systemic member
of the Ancient Gay Men’s Choir.

And I really should moisturize more bipolar
AND dipolar,
more fluid
fluids
more amusical

Less silently
and lonesomely depressed
and chronically anxious,
knickers in dried-out knots

Falling down low spirited apart
co-arising up
multiculturally together

With unconditional warm
and passionate regard
for healthy and safe
song and dance
and lavishly lustful
moisturization

While driving a deep leather convertible
top down
thrusting forward
love machine

Silently humming power
while driving toward integrity
deep listening engagement
before Sabbath TeaDance

Well moisturized memories
going back
and back
and Yin back
and Yang forth

Yin down
and Yang up,
Yin below
as Yang above

Water receiving below
Wind perceiving from above
sacred moisture
unconditionally warm
erotic fertile
exotic funky
sometimes ironic
mind amusing
body music

Resiliently engaged
in silent root chakra
resonance
nurture
harmony

Neurosystemic rhapsody
healing…

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