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What is THAT about?

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
I can’t “manage” anger
any better than fear
and contagious distrust
and nearly constant anxiety
and chronic depression.

In nonviolent communication practice circles,
peace networks,
organic therapeutic systems,
“curiosity” slowly grows ascendent
as “patience” to resist negative feelings
and “impatience” with shameless Others
and not so blameless Selves
fades off into a less used lexicon.

Impatience about expressing anger,
verbally and nonverbally,
evokes LeftBrain dominant
patriarchal
capitalist
corporate management models
for hierarchically oppressive
suppressive
repressive
not really impressive
humorless control.

Curiosity about deep therapeutic win/win potential
for evolving healthcare competencies
comes from a political economy
of co-operative compassion

NOT: intimidating
and frightening scarcity
of control
sufficient to guarantee
a never-ending expansion
of ego-engorgement
through solitary
deductive
reductive
dualistic non-enlightenment
segregating the StraightWhiteMale
corporate well-capitalized WINners
from us unstraight
unwhite
unmale frightening
and yet uppity LOSErs

Apparently LeftBrain incapable
of managing our anger issues,
sometimes frightened by vulnerability
and emotional transparency
yet quietly curious about compassion
and neuro-sensory peak
RightBrain prominent
interdependent
co-empathic
co-invested peak spiritual experiences
biological
ecological
theologically transcendent

Exploding boundaries of autonomous ego-defensiveness
and, possibly, even Either/Or,
LeftBrain dominant Cause
OR RightBrain felt Effect,
StraightWhite monotheistic
Capital-theistic compunctions,
monoculturally supremacist,
macroeconomic win/lose predative,
pathologically angry and frightening
terrorized global apartisan politics.

Remarkably unfazed
by climax-trending ecocide
and degenerative patriarchal
capitalist
LeftBrain narcissistic
snarky
Us v Them genocide

Unconscious about our lack of control
to manage our viral global anger
while spiritually and naturally,
theologically and ecologically,
dying
from lack of win/win curious
green cooperative thrival.

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
we can’t “manage” anger
any better than climate fear
and contagious EarthTribal distrust
and nearly constant neuro-systemic anxiety
and chronic LeftBrain dominant
divisive depression.

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Distancing Communication

Distancing communication
seems like an oxymoron,
like dissonant communion.

My ego center speaks communication
while my organic systemic body listens
for communion

Discerning what feels confluent,
resonant with ecological
health is wealth
EarthTribal indigenous experience

AND what feels like aggressive,
possibly predative,
lose/lose DIScommunication
distressed communication
dissonant noise
dissociative distancing,
sometimes ominously silent
dormant
terminal absence
of verbal communication

AND what feels like dualistic
win/lose MIScommunication,
missed cooperative win/win opportunity
too Either my way
Or hit the highway
competitively risky,
too egocentric
too anthrosupremacist
too StraightWhiteMale privileged
too LeftBrain verbally dominant
too lacking co-passion,
too unwoke,
but feeling more like ignorance
than lose/lose malignant
despairing
pathological intent
to DIScommunicate.

My ecosystemic body feels
Trust in win/win active hope,
DIStrust for surviving lose/lose despair,
economic and ecological degeneration,
MIStrust of win/lose monoculturing monopolies
monotheistic
monochromatically anthrosupremacist

Preachers
and teachers
of pure white
bright paternalistic capitalism
as Earth’s only way
truth
life toward healthy salvation.

Trust breeds neuro-systemic integrity.
DIStrust feeds overwhelming feelings
of violently weaponed despair.
MIStrust of win/lose
either/or
LeftBrain dominant thinking
not compliant with ecologically healthy experience
is, on my best feeling days
and peace dreaming nights,
a therapeutic opportunity tool
for responding to health risk trauma.

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Straight White Privileged Silence

Listen to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans
wavering white noiselessness
of silent futile passing

Absence of passion
hope
care
happiness
or creased
and reasoned sadness.

Hear this void of madness,
lack of hunger
or parched thirst
for conversation
splendid nutrition
scandalous emission
empowering immigration
enlightened emigration
or angry fear emanation
of forced solitude migration

Into mortal loss
of sensory reception
political deception
economic perception
theistic inception
septic conception.

Smell nothing.
Taste everything
becomes dust
delustered rust
lust for transcendent
disembodied consummation
omnipresent transportation
omniscient evaporation
full latitude
for fragrance-free
plastic platitudes
feckless attitudes
disdainful blows
to further fertile emanations.

Sing where nothing
settles into rounding octave rings
to never
ever want to dance
in robust spirals
again

Against depressions
felt repressions
thought impressions
known suppressions
unheard deflation
worn through integration
transcultural conflation

Of panentheistic elegant Zeroes
absorbed by a monstrous
monopolistic silent
slick One

Listening to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans,
white emptiness
of silent
restless passing.

Glare at it.
Rake it in.
Sleep with it
if you dare
to care
without an inch
or squeezed moment
to spare.

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Setting the Bully Table

The often unnoticed first strategic step
in bullying
is to isolate.

Religious
political
economic
and/or sexual bullying
begins, already,
feeling entitled to pervasively disempower,
dissociate,
disinvest,
unenlighten,
excommunicate,
lock up,
terminate from employment,
send to the reservation,
asylum
ghetto,
wrong side
of the LeftBrain dominant
self-righteous tracks.

Deeply separate,
divide and, thereby, expose
and bully
that Other,
or those Others,
who need to learn their place,
separate and deservedly unequal,
to relearn their divinely-inspired space
of oppression
neglect
punishment

For being wrong,
too needy greedy,
too ignorant,
uneducated
simple
quiet and sneaky
queer
unbinary
effeminate
pretentious
hypocritical
weird looking, sounding, smelling,
frightening
angry
threatening…

Such alien Others
are first isolated
at least by disreputation,
then abused

First neglected
shunned
Othered
alienated
unaccepted,

Then ridiculed
used
raped
vilified

Blatantly and falsely accused
of being motivated
to dismiss
and impoverish
the monoculturing Bullies
through stealth
or by speaking their lying,
biased
self-serving Truth

Which is always ignored
until They get too uppity
again.

Bullies
and their Victims
are, thereby, deprived
of experiencing compassionate
cooperatively appreciated
and co-invested
dialogue.

Bullies
and their Victims
thereby declare and suffer wars
where everyone,
including plants and animals,
soil and water and air quality,
suffers and loses
except, in the bookkeeping department,
the military-industrial
short-term corporate profit Bullies

Who will not realize
their self-victimizing
long-term health and safety losses
until degeneratively isolated
from all prospects for a livable
sustainable
humane
sacredly compassionate
EarthTribe health and safety
future climate.

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Weapons Down Anger

Anger
is such a useful learning silence tool,
when not too short-term
ballistically reactive,
weaponized.

I have seldom noticed
when my own hot-burning issues
cold turn into
a Self and Other harsh
punishing vengeance weapon.

When left unnoticed,
unmedicated,
unmeditated
by forgiving lack of ego-supremacist
humility

By explicit co-invested intentions
of nonviolent verbal communication
informed by nonverbal win/win felt intuition,
bipartisan green consensus

For paying forward residual profits
of bicamerally balanced
co-passionately held
co-investments

Now silently neglected
in a more long-term LeftBrain dominating
colonizing monoculture
of win/lose shame and blame
Other
Alien
Enemy

Xenophobic supremacist
lingering long before and after
royalist reactionary
revenge,

Playing with BusinessAsUsual
Zero/Sum Closed degenerating
risky systemic compromises

Falsely agreeing
to disagree
about who profits more
from Mutually Assured Destruction
yet feeling everybody loses
in an overheated war,
no one left
to silently
reflectively keep score

Detente
camouflaging unresolved potential
for healthy and safe
win/win cooperative
green economic and political
integrally compassionate
resolution.

Perhaps this angry turn
to burning out red hot revenge,
retribution,
win/lose capital monopolistic,
vengeful and jealous,
self-rightenously extractive
and divinely-inspired
overbearing
patriarchal straight white monotheistic

Omniscient ego-saving face
of nation-states
reporting dull Loser
unhealthy climate
fading statistics
sometimes more masochistic
depressed
about deserving
emotional and erotic neglect
and physical
dispiriting abuse
from EcoFeminist Earth

CoArising
in other less than sanely sacred spaces,
sadistic
capitalistic gotcha games

Short-circuited
most win/win effectively
by bodhisattva-grade Win/Win
co-invested commitment

LeftBrain
out loud disagreeing
against RightBrain felt
Othered
depressed
repressed
suppressed
disagreement feelings

Cognitive/Affective co-punishing dissonance
stress
chronic underlying trauma
of silence
rewarmed toward therapeutic potential
co-arising cooperative reflection

While quietly accepting
and silently celebrating
renewing awareness
of inhumane win/lose Business As Usual
rediscovered as less powerful and health enlightened
than win/win cooperative co-investment
in democratic co-governance sharing
caring about all Lose/Lose traumas,
big and small,
recent
and long ago

Renewing spacious multiculturing revivals
recommiting to humane/divine
Win/Win restorative justice,
therapy of active musing
polycultural
polyphonic
polypathic joy
of Open Organic Systems

EarthTribe’s regenerative life
inclusive love
rerooting sacred hope

That agreeing
what is LeftHemisphere health care
giving communion
and receiving resilient resonance
is also RightHemisphere
intersectional safety
secure unitarian interdependence,
serene universal security

When
and where short-term uniting
ego/eco dancing dopamine
greets long-term universally co-passionate
singing serotonin

As night
dawns dance revolving into each new
ego/eco-systemic
bicameral play day

Remembering silent righteousness
trailing stone cold anger,
silent sails
back through pre-history
of polyvagal neuro-systems

Long
long before international anger
became such a useful learning silent tool
when not RightWing fired up

Leading to ballistics
as if short-term war
might finally lead
to peaceful climate health

As nonviolent co-empathic silence
leads toward
active cultures
musing forth health compassion.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Small Powers Everywhere

This little light of mine
I’m gonna let it shine

Wide and longing
for committed dialogue
not surrounded
by elitist debate,

Win/lose games,
Zero-sum asinine assumptions
requiring ego-infested shadows

Resisting win/win opportunities
of healthy
democratic dialogue

Between constituencies,
residents sufficiently humble
to become students together
and unschooled
unprofessional parents
and not totally enlightened teachers
and investigative staff
and neighborhood enquiry co-investors
in this democratic
nonpartisan
Thermos On Thames Experiment.

Where the School for Daily Integrity
hosts community resources
co-engaging win/win resolutions
producing cooperative educational opportunities
to practice
practice
compassionate praxis
nonviolent communication
to restore EarthJustice,

Where co-investors co-invite
contributions around ecofeminist friendly circles
just close enough for everyone
to hear all respected neighbors
who will not be Othered

Because we are learning,
through this pandemic of anxiety,
to anticipate more than climate floods
and fears,

Both risks
and opportunities,
dissonance
and resonance,
chaotic cacophony
and complex symphony
entrusting our capacity
for resilient health and safety
co-governance.

Not another negative
Business As Sadly Usual
competitive ZeroSum game
of wounded ego-survival
until some future small light day
still dimly hoping for big bright
ecosystemic
polycultural
multicultural win/win robust community

Co-mediation
co-operation
co-invested co-dominions
engaging spring EarthDay celebrations

Of locals feeling active hope
and mutually earned trust
predicting environmental ideas
for healing Earth’s injustices
blighting compassionate
nonviolent communication,
which would be more transparent,
risking tender lights
for growing better humored
kindness

Where silence of executives
administrators
managers
means they are deeply listening
for how we can empower each other
through heartfelt consent

And cold dark silence melts,
no longer resisting Truth
to continue postures
of professional
authoritarian
legalistic
quarterly profit-preserving business
without also recognizing long-term threats
of flooding rivers
and subzero icy windstorms.

Straight white patriarchal privileged
incorporated silence means resistance
to sharing inclusive powers
with autonomously dimming lights

Rather than unveiling
wide and bright kindness moving
away from monocultural
either/or debate,
repressing fears about surviving future floods
fears
and famine

Rather than inclusively hoping
to thrive
with good humored faith
in INTEGRAL MARKERS
of democratic health
calling for this circle
to embrace trust-rebuilding
co-empathic engagement

Feeding
and watering each individual’s strengths
and cooperatively held assets
rather than punishing our weaknesses
of fear and anger,
passive mistrust
and active distrust

Further afflicting executive professional disadvantage,
dissociations
dividing shadows
weapons for continuing
White Patriarchal privileged
and disempowered
and unenlightened
talking Heads of lined up Authority

Speaking down,
darkly withholding honest
well-lit encircling dialogue
about our shared health
interactive safety
compassionate wealth
anticipations through actively
engaging transparent dialogue

While sitting around our annual fire circle
celebrating songs and dances
of green ecofeminist healthy lights
inviting yet another safe spring thaw

Inspiring this engaging light of ours
to let our best divine co-dominion
co-investments shine.

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Light Powers

Lately,
I too often experience
anger begets anger
to also remember
love begets love.

This same appositional binary
appears in retributive criminal justice codes
culturally outweighing
restorative EarthJust climates
of healthcare giving
is also wellness receiving.

Our criminal justice codes
are designed to hurt
and disempower
oppositionally defiant individuals,
greedy
ego-self-righteous
Takers,

Terror capitalized
Otherers,

Rapists
with rapid-fire militarized
Take Up PatriarchalCapitalist Arms
against Motherers,

Angry
and coldly calculating
Murderers,

Enslavers
Addictors
Hate Preachers,

And their neglected
mental/spiritual unhealthy
Followers

Often with police
or military commodified retaliation histories
speaking in Wins
for Good Straight WhiteMale privilege
so must Lose
Other rivalrous voices

Blind to win/win restorative peace
and EarthJustice

Where compassion begets potential
for growing cooperatively held
compassion
through nonviolent communication

Verbal
and nonverbal,
secularly spoken
and sacredly felt,
ecologically healthy
and theologically wealthy
polyculturing communion.

Anger,
fear,
and hate speak harm
where unconditional regard
listens for healthcare giving
and receiving reciprocity,
for love,
for compassionate win/win healing
EgoCenters
living in organic EcoSystems.

Passionate anger
is not an intrinsic evil
nor does immature selfishness
always lead to egocentric greed
and hoarding
and aggression
sourcing original win/lose sins
of dark oppression
and disempowering violence.

Anger and greed and fear
are daily warnings
that our nationalistic
PatriarchalCapitalist cultural road
to internal health
and external peace
is more likely
through lovely PolyCultural Communion healing.

Sacred Earth Communion
may begin by simply taking a breath
to remember rainbow ecosystemic synergy
of humane light
shaping divinely synergetic powers

Just as anger begets anger
and retributive punishing
abusive and neglectful marginalizing,
dissociative wounding
monotheistic supremacist
DualDark inside/outside Systems

So too compassion and nonviolent deep listening
for win/win healing possibilities
for mind, inside
and body, outside
mental/spiritual health care
for egos still actively hoping
ecosystemic resonantly resilient
wealthy relationships
will restore interpersonal justice
through nonviolent communication

Transparently
and vulnerably communicating
reflections of a rainbow stopping traffic
to recall fleeting light perfections
of Earth’s health empowering peace.

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Hedonistic Hate

When we compare the numbers
and percentages of innocent,
trusting lives lost
in significant part because of Christian
militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic judging fundamentalism,
punishing Afghanistan
and other Islamic cultures
over the past four or five decades,

To the number
and percentage of innocent
economically and politically trusting lives
lost in significant part
because of Moslem militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic vengeful fundamentalism,
punishing the U.S.
and other NorthWestern Christian cultures

The outsized scale of human
and environmental casualties
in Afghanistan
does not redeem Bin Laden’s terrifying success
on 9/11.

But, this difference in chronic ballistic stress
does suggest why
a well-capitalized terrorist
was able to garner so much economic
and political support
from those already too familiar
with sudden
tragic
violent losses of family
and friends
on 9/11.

This is not to say U.S victims
and non-victims (should there be any)
asked for vengeful death
nor deserved such tragic
excruciating loss,

But
these same losses
may remind us
we, as a democratically healthy
responsible wealthy nation,
a polycultural society,
could have listened with more extensive
bilaterally compassionate ears
and mass mediated eyes,
to the rapacious horror,
loss,
trauma,
fear,
anger,
hate,
chronic anxiety,
post- and pre-traumatic stress disorder

Perpetuated by militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic
dogmatic
RightWing
LeftBrain dominant privilege
elitism
supremacy
autistic autocracy
greedy kleptocracy
dissociative denialism

Doubt in cooperative polycultural powers
of global compassion
love
active and provoking hope,
healthy trust in win/win resolutions.

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Fear of Failure

I know you don’t want to hurt
or even disappoint
me

And I know you don’t want to hurt
yourself.

Yet still your shame
and self-blame hurt

Your self-judging
punishing closet frame
suffocates our transparent life
my caring curiosity craves,
and mutual vulnerability
our sharing courage braves.

Addiction to feeling happy
is not free
and connected to sensory satisfaction
nor to ego significant gratification
and certainly not natural and spiritual bilateral wealth
of healthy feeling substantiation,

Which, as you know,
I also recognize as body and mind healthy
choice voices.

Before you even small voice object,
I also recognize you may feel natural
or spiritual choice
has nothing to do with driving off
without “goodbye,
see you safely soon.”

If no physically tolerable choice
of resources to feed serotonin
and water dopamine,
I know, from years of isolated,
neglected experience,
how frightening loss of lonely ego-powered control
can feel.

Speaking not of choice,
but inside swatting interminable Voice
never still
until you self-shame
and blame
hiding hurts
and unfree frames
us both,
unhappy you,
not Here,

And me
loving enough for Us,
not yet Now

Still worrying
what will voiceless nonchoice happen
disempowered There
and unenlightened Then
suddenly Amen

Our silently uninvited End.

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