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Hedonistic Hate

When we compare the numbers
and percentages of innocent,
trusting lives lost
in significant part because of Christian
militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic judging fundamentalism,
punishing Afghanistan
and other Islamic cultures
over the past four or five decades,

To the number
and percentage of innocent
economically and politically trusting lives
lost in significant part
because of Moslem militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic vengeful fundamentalism,
punishing the U.S.
and other NorthWestern Christian cultures

The outsized scale of human
and environmental casualties
in Afghanistan
does not redeem Bin Laden’s terrifying success
on 9/11.

But, this difference in chronic ballistic stress
does suggest why
a well-capitalized terrorist
was able to garner so much economic
and political support
from those already too familiar
with sudden
tragic
violent losses of family
and friends
on 9/11.

This is not to say U.S victims
and non-victims (should there be any)
asked for vengeful death
nor deserved such tragic
excruciating loss,

But
these same losses
may remind us
we, as a democratically healthy
responsible wealthy nation,
a polycultural society,
could have listened with more extensive
bilaterally compassionate ears
and mass mediated eyes,
to the rapacious horror,
loss,
trauma,
fear,
anger,
hate,
chronic anxiety,
post- and pre-traumatic stress disorder

Perpetuated by militarized
capitalized
patriarchal
monotheistic
dogmatic
RightWing
LeftBrain dominant privilege
elitism
supremacy
autistic autocracy
greedy kleptocracy
dissociative denialism

Doubt in cooperative polycultural powers
of global compassion
love
active and provoking hope,
healthy trust in win/win resolutions.

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Fear of Failure

I know you don’t want to hurt
or even disappoint
me

And I know you don’t want to hurt
yourself.

Yet still your shame
and self-blame hurt

Your self-judging
punishing closet frame
suffocates our transparent life
my caring curiosity craves,
and mutual vulnerability
our sharing courage braves.

Addiction to feeling happy
is not free
and connected to sensory satisfaction
nor to ego significant gratification
and certainly not natural and spiritual bilateral wealth
of healthy feeling substantiation,

Which, as you know,
I also recognize as body and mind healthy
choice voices.

Before you even small voice object,
I also recognize you may feel natural
or spiritual choice
has nothing to do with driving off
without “goodbye,
see you safely soon.”

If no physically tolerable choice
of resources to feed serotonin
and water dopamine,
I know, from years of isolated,
neglected experience,
how frightening loss of lonely ego-powered control
can feel.

Speaking not of choice,
but inside swatting interminable Voice
never still
until you self-shame
and blame
hiding hurts
and unfree frames
us both,
unhappy you,
not Here,

And me
loving enough for Us,
not yet Now

Still worrying
what will voiceless nonchoice happen
disempowered There
and unenlightened Then
suddenly Amen

Our silently uninvited End.

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Curious UnChosen Gifts

To my StraightWhiteMale
right-wing
left-brain
monoculturally dominating brothers,
and your antifeminist glamorous
amorous womanly allies,

You have not yet heard me,
if you only hear my resistance,
sharing my non-culpable experience
with non-choice of gender attraction
and gender identity.

It’s not only that my queer gender identity
is not my fault,
because not my choice;
but also my gender identity
and sensory-neural attachments, as also true of yours,
are my sacred gift.

CoArising identity and CoGravitating attraction ,
like awareness and consciousness,
are not just heavy social responsibilities,
but also enlightened
and empowering opportunities.

We’re not legitimately known by who
or what
we hate and hurt;
But we can be redeemed by who
and what
we love and heal.

We may have no more choice
about who
and what
and when
and where
and why
and how we love,
than choice to respond with awe and wonder,
or boredom and disdain,
to Earth’s natural enspiriting Beauty

Of dawn
and dusk,
spring
and autumn,
ocean
and mountain
restorative reconnections

Which feel both Healthy
and True,
of the deepest
and highest
and yet safest resilient
and resonantly robust multicolored wealth
of nonchoiced
unfaulted gifting grace.

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DeathChoice VaticanVoice

Dear Bishop Michael Cote, Doctor of Divinity
through pre-historic untold ages
through reborn renaissance stages
through industriously energetic praises
through enlightenment phases
through empowerment dysphasia

Some of us lesser health care practitioners,
good faith social workers,
teachers,
parents and grandparents,
uncles and aunts,
and ecofeminist inter-religious allies
of LGBTQ souls

Working with, not judging against,
supporting, not hate-crime creating,
helping up, not knocking down,
faithful to God’s multicultural
polyculturally robust EarthCreation,

Are hoping you will let the Vatican know
we can no longer support Roman Catholic
xenophobic
homophobic
sexphobic
non-elite caste-phobic dogma
traditions of elitist patriarchal apartheid.

We can no longer support Vatican Teachers
Preachers
WitchDoctors
Superstitious Fear and AngerMongers,
Western-Roman White Male Supremacists,
financially or emotionally,
naturally or spiritually,
ecologically or theologically.

Our LGBTQ sacred experience
of healthy LifeCulture wealth
does not classify same gender erotic feelings
and other mutually collaborative eco-political actions
as Sin,

As absence of robust virtue,

As missing the mark of multicultural communion,
regenerative Creation’s healthiest fertile wealth.

We further hope you might enlighten us,
especially those of us already among Rome’s
faithful sanctified,
Those already recognized throughout church history
as essential GodSent saints,
bishops,
archbishops,
deacons,
cardinals,
popes,
crusaders,
missionaries,
monastics,
celibates,
contemplatives,
mystics,
moral ethicists,
church attorneys,
ecclesial accountants,
sacred property administrators,
liturgical planners,
collegiate through preschool teachers,
priests who are
and have been
and will be born
and have been born again
in living lesbian waters
gay flowers
bisexual plants
queer pansexuality
transgender
polygender non-binary,

Each with a unique
GodCreated narrative
that includes no more or less sexual orientation choice
than does your own story,
presumably 100% heterosexual nonchoice,
inherited,
gifted,
graced.

Why is minority,
non-elite,
suffering servant status
not part of the VaticanTeaching
healthy GodCreation story?

Why is unconscious desire
to defy valued heterosexual norms
by masking deeply subconscious
economic and political suicide choices
a pre-pubescent sinful development
at a time of relentlessly rooted
economic health and political safety choices
essential to your own
absence of non-heterosexual spiritual
natural experience?

Why are conscious grace-filled fruits
of honest
transparent
vulnerable
integral
compassionate
loving desire for multiculturally healthy EarthCommunion
not among
your taught synonyms
for divine blessing of poor in spirit
disenfranchised by aggressive patriarchal nature
disempowered in ecological
system-balancing knowledge
unenlightened about systemic theological
hierarchical
monocultural

Is less co-operatively holistic
than inter-faith re-ligioning
reconnections,
polycultural holy communions,

Not so red Roman patriarchal
celebrating green humane/divine matriarchal
lilies of the fields
meadows
green pastures,
integrity of LifeCulture’s natural/spiritual potential

To transmogrify organic elements
of our passion
power
light
as God’s true and beautiful
humane/divine
multiculturally pleasing
Saints

And monoculturing sinners, all,
but not through lack of discipling Earth’s HealthIntegrity
by having chosen
to become non-heterosexually erotic,
exotic,
non-normative,

Nor having ever chosen to non-elite risk
in exchange
for health/wealth heterosexual reproductive
eco-political hegemony

StraightWhiteMale patriarchal empowerment
and exclusively sacred
anthro-privileged enlightenment

Intolerant
of any sexual/sensory sin
certainly not accepting inclusive eros enfranchisement,
nor ever sacredly esteeming non-elite sensory empowerment,
instead excommunicating our most holy enspirited
experiential communions

Transubstantiating mediating communicators
supposedly created to support
empower
enlight us
as God chose to gracefully make
all Earth’s regenerative LifeGiving PolyCultures

Working and playing win/win together
throughout catholic
multicultural Church History
of queer saints
male-secretary infatuated popes
pansexual Psalmists
LGBTQ ecclesial teachers and lawyers and financial officers
translators
academics

And extended ecofeminist
Holy Green Spirit ecologists
holonic catholic economic
ecosystemic
ChristianCreation theologists
reflecting on God’s angelic alliances
transubstantiating experiential communion
of LGBTQ Saints and Lovers
and Extended HolyFamily
remembered and long forgotten
Elders among us
on this Epiphany of AllSaints EarthDay.

Please advise False VaticanTeachers
we are unwilling to continue co-investing
in Patriarchal Sin
because MulticultureCreatorGod
does not invest in,
does not bless,
sins of omitting
Earth’s own health wealthy King/Queendom
at Left/Right Hand
bilaterally transubstantiating
experiential InterFaithed Culture communion

Restoring healthy EarthJustice
by not continuing to invest
in unwealthy StraightWhiteMale dominant ignorance,
sin
and superstition

As if CreatorGod/Dess
looked and sounded
communicated and communioned
unsubstantiated thoughts and feelings
appropriate to a foolishly Naked
RightWing dogmatic
Straight White Emperor,
proclaiming sacred ProLife
is DeathChoice
VaticanVoice.

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Grown In To Be CowBoys

Please don’t speak his name.

Like ValdeMore
and more
and more,
history echoes such dark memories
fettered, now and then
by death’s final reincarnation

Because some will claim
he was a name
for Wild CowBoy Lost,
a martyr for washed out
useless
stupidly competitive lives
following red’s latest overpowering authority
shifting and shifty
while barely surviving Followers
deny, or even rapturously celebrate
Earth’s final redhot climate death

And others will take up his StraightWhiteMale
miseried tune
and persistently
resistantly speak his name
as if its true
red white and blue,

He was wild;
A cowboy who could buy your ranch
and you
and all your neglected and abused riches
for tomorrow,
and all Earth treasures
borrowed from health manifest,
destiny of win/win Wild Democratic Bounty,
beautiful green Us

Who barely remember
his weaponized
violent
CowBoy name.

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Red Green and Blue

Red grows politically angry
about wealthy society’s conspiracy
to keep my ego away
from health’s abundant wealth.

Blue spreads out
economically fearful of anger’s power,
my own loss of leftbrain control,
most times less,
sometimes more
than terrifying competitive victory,
unhealthy monopolization
of light and power,
wealth accumulated
by neglecting
postponing
preempting HaveNot wishes,
accelerating Earth abusive investments
of a powerful
and punishing
highly narcissistic
inhumane
pissed off
judgmentally quivering society,
blatantly unsustainable.

Green ecological relationships
remain hopeful
the conjunction of two polarizing
paralyzing negatives,
anger and fear,
like two negatives
equaling a positive,
will produce healthier wealth,

Not more political envy
and economic greed;
but heavenly peace
and nonviolent EarthJustice.

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The Self-Invested Boss

Straight from the New York Times,
The Macho Appeal of Donald Trump:
We saw him being a boss

A take charge kinda’ narcissistic guy;
just the kind of win/lose business capitalist
to Make America Even More Competitive Again,

Especially if you have always enjoyed
StraightWhiteMale privilege

And never sworn to defend
a democratic health care agenda
for the well-being of all the people
and plants
all over the planet
at all times,
in all federally-associated
and invested places,
sacred spaces.

Others saw and heard
a self-invested capital-privileged
narcissistic Boss,
of an old
and extremely tiring supremacist vintage,
who never could be a successful multicultural business manager
in the private sector,
much less a successful multicultural democratic facilitator
of public health and safety information
in our nation’s
and our regenerative Earth’s
best and brightest
cooperatively facilitated eco-political
resiliently robust interests.

Would you want him to be your boss?
Your dad?
Your teacher?
Your preacher?
Your mental and/or physical health care provider?
Your economic prophet?
Your family’s political co-empowerment advisor?
Your banker?
Your fearless leader
so full of fear
of anyone
not a wealthy
hopelessly secular and profane
competitive real estate marketer
and straight white male privileged owner
like him?

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Seminal Enlightenment

When I was in an interfaith seminary
I noticed three models
for understanding a faith community’s purpose
in a democratic and diverse society.

  1. Conservation of SelfRighteous Anger

To compete with,
and thereby degenerate the powers of,
sin and evil and ignorance
in a monoculturally untrustable
hedonistic
degenerating society
destined for just rewards
of hellfire and damnation
because untrustworthy
and untruthfully obscuring privileged
eco-political capitalist patriarchalism.

  1. Liberating from EgoCentered Fear

To rescue us individual sinners,
benighted Earth defilers,
from our capitalist-patriarchal
competitive
oppressive
suppressive anti-feminist
homophobic
racist
ageist anthropocentrism;

To redeem our hopelessly negative
deviant bad health choices,
monoculturing,
left-brain dominantly encultured
verbal miscommunications,
disunions,
despairing experience of eternal apartheid,
loneliness,
unease and disease.

  1. Empowering win-ego/win-eco CoMessiahs
    To cooperatively enlighten each Other
    to grow in compassion
    and non-violent integrity of communication,
    internal communion experience
    and external harmonic community
    for active eco-political hope,
    cooperatively empowering faith,
    deep learning multicultural love.

When I went to Public Administration graduate school,
I, thereby,
noticed three models
for understanding a democratic constitution’s purpose
in a healthy society.

  1. Red Anger Management
  2. Blue/Green Repurposing Win/Lose Fears
  3. Ultra NonViolet
    Whole EarthPeace
    Open ZeroZone
    Win/Win EgoEco-Systemic
    BiCameral CoOperative Empowerment

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RePurposing Anger

At last,
we are angry with each other
coincidentally,
simultaneously,
which may be a coincidence,
but probably not;

Depending on active faith
in linear cause-effect relationships,
leftbrain dominant yang powers,

And/or
circular dipolar co-arising
co-passioned effective unpolarized relationship,
causes v effects = effective causal recycles
of rightbrain both/and recessive yintegrity.

Now,
at last,
we have set our synergetic communication stage
to test this ancient hypothesis
that two negatives
are equal to a potential positive co-passion,
as polynomials
may equal not not polynomials

Where positive
also equals leftbrain healthy
and rightbrain safe

And negative anger
equals leftbrain liberally
communication healthy
when rightbrain feels conservatively safe,

Despite never considering this internal hypothesis
because of patriarchal
dualistic
win/lose capitalistic faith
in not not equivalent potential
for ego/ecosystemic win/wins

Despite respite death through life
ego/eco-recycles
repurposing timeless eternity
of unity
more flexibly equitable
than uniformity
of leftbrain thoughts
with rightbrain feelings.

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Polycultural CLIMAX

There is nothing more healing,
within my own limited experience,
than a good
vulnerable
cooperative
compassionate
co-invested CLIMAX.

There is nothing more of a good
full-body
well-being CLIMAX
then healing,
restoring peace,
ease,
co-passion,
ego/eco-political justice,
democratically-held and interdependently evolutionary,
expansive,
after-glowing flow.

The thesis that environmental climax triggers
do not cause my love
or anger,
do not make me loving
and do not make me angry,
Is like saying my testicles
do not make me horny;
It’s all in my lustful head.

Like believing Donald Trump’s rabid win/lose narcissism
does not make me angry,
and could not trigger my anger,
were it not for choosing my own egocentric
and capitalistic
and predative
and extractive
and dissociatively unhealthy
rabidity.

I agree it is useful not to collapse
neurologically felt autonomic agency
with social-psychological learned triggers,
but severing environmental stimuli
from internal negative causes,
and otherwise positive choices,
too often results in blaming
shaming
and prejudicially judging
the victim’s underlying values
and traumatically learned experience
lacking choice-making toward win-win empowerment
and ecosystemic compassion,

Left/right bicameral
polyphonic resonant flow
with polypathic resilient strength

To remember no cooperative choice
could be more naturally/spiritually healing,
than an ecologically/theologically good
vulnerable
nakedly transparent
compassionate
co-invested CLIMAX.

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