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MisGuided Meditations

I am sorry
about my judgmental,
sadly disdainful,
tone
in earlier messages.

Even worse,
I remain embarrassed
for spreading it out
for key staff
and leaders
to well-positioned see
and hear
and feel,
touched by toxicity.

My training
and experience
includes community mediation.

Within this mindful context,
I have tried to understand
what you want,
what you are learning,
what feeds and waters you
in your Presidential Position.

Your responses:

  1. that you know
    and care
    about our residential members,
    AND
  2. that you have unusual expertise,
    skills training,
    and/or Business Administration experience
    not available from other members,
    at least not any
    willing to step up
    and out into saying,
    Yes, I’ll help.

I failed to fully fit these
with past mediation interviews.

I was not as surprised by the second one,
as by the first,
because usually those seeking arbitration help
feel they live
in a high-risk win/lose
zero-sum system
punishing loss,
while looking for
their personal most loss-avoidant path
toward personal gain.

More closely regarding #2,
that you have unusual contractor,
business and project budgeting,
business management,
and significant financially successful property management experience

I was impressed
with what you bring
to our leadership table

And yet this does not,
in and of itself,
speak to skill sets
for PRESIDENT
of the Board.

On the contrary,
it seems to me
all this volunteer work
must detract from where your most cost-effective
personal focus needs to be
on your too busy workdays,
probably extending into evenings
and family/friend-lost weekends.

With regard to #1,
knowing and appreciating
win/win health and safety feelings
for residential members

This also did not sound
quite like my personal experience
could typically recall.

When I ask for personal motives,
usually what win/lose business men
speak of begins with financial motivations,
sometimes secondarily supported
by ecological concerns,
occasionally theological beliefs,
political aspirations,
retaining a positive community relations image,
community leadership aspirations,
wanting to be perceived
as a good and competent leader,
legislator,
teacher,
and/or,
in the case of religious constituencies,
wise spiritual Elder.

I have clearly failed
to understand why
you want to continue
Presiding over the Board.

This remains a mystery
shared by everyone I’ve asked.

When I share with them
your two responses to
“What’s in Presidency for you?
this fits with their
Successful Business Leader view
but raises dissonant questions

How could you afford to donate
this much time
and personal interest
without any personal financial return?

This dissonant mistrusting feeling
grows further
by those who have been residents
for many years
yet still do not feel seen or heard

So how could you know
and care about us?

As a mediator
with therapeutic,
nonviolent communication
intent

What do I do with my inability
to accurately and compassionately empathize
with you
on your journey toward fulfillment,
success,
happiness,
prosperity
and, preferably, unconditional regard?

To truly understand
and support you
in your personal and social
health and safety self-interest,
and to continue as our business leading
Presider?

I do not know how
to do both of those things,
and no one who encouraged me
to join the Board
wants me to support you.

That said,
one way sure not to help you
or me understand
and support you
is to publicly judge,
shame
and/or blame you
for circumstances beyond your responsibility
and authority to control.

If I have done that,
when I have done that,
while I am doing that,
I have not been a good person,
I have been a disappointing
multiculturally trained to listen
community-mindful mediator

And,
I have not practiced
even basic nonviolent communication skills

And,
you
presumably
are experiencing further high-risk
chronic trauma
as a result of my negligence.
For these failures on my part,
I apologize.

I often recall
a line of self-discovery
learned from a favorite
and famous spiritual director

“Who,
in your life now,
and perhaps in your past,
has been with you
at your most passionate
positive best?”

These are often romantic,
and sometimes earlier
healthy and safe parental
win/win relationship histories.

“How would that person,
or those people,
probably describe your sense of humor?”

If you have no idea,
you might want to start there
to therapeutically respond
to deeply engrained
trauma-avoidant
chronic stress disorder.

If you do have an idea,
some warm and welcoming ideas
about what helps you laugh with yourself
(not at yourself)
and with another you trust
and have found attractive,
compelling,
in some integrally soulful way,
then try to use that co-passion tool
to feel better about yourself,
your personal relationship history,
and your potential
for future healthy
and good-humored
win/win
nonviolent communication
for achieving resiliently co-mediated
health and safety outcomes.

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Whole Systems Reconciliation

When holistic
interdependent
sacred Earth integrity
remains EarthTribe’s primal goal,
polycultural systemic meaning,
panentheistic normative networking purpose,
reconciling holonic win/win peak experience,

Then past win/lose unreconciled histories
remain our bodhisattva
co-messianic challenge

To not settle too quickly
comfortably
into agreeing to disagree,
continuing autonomous
individual ego-supremacist perspectives
long familiar with “just us tribal folks”
truly
and fairly
seek resilient win/win redemption
from our past oppressors
colonizers
dividers
bullies
predators.

To openly
holistically
systemically repair disuniting trauma,
to actively reweave reconciling therapies,
to reconnect
to re-ligion
what monotheistic
monopolizing
monoculturing
capitalizing Truth
patriarchal Adoration,
colonizing dreams of privileged
Divine Paradise…

What this unreconciling timeless form
of unflowing constipation
binding LeftBrain stuck on dominance
has stolen
from panentheistic Beauty
unveiling Joy
disclosing Win/Win Wonder
CoPassion with EarthTribe’s interdependent web

Further opening
stretching Truth/Beauty bipartisan
conserving deductive inductive liberating
bicameral intelligence
still actively reconciling awesome PolyCulturalists,
health wealthing ecotherapists
curiously
inviting evermore widely fertile
and deep nutritional
co-redemption

Inside/Outside
Whole Open Systemic
sacred reconciling
restoring EarthTribal Integrity,

1 Non-0 Zone relationship
out
in
polyculturing MeWe time.

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Where Lives HAPPeaceness?

Where lives aliveness,
healthy wholeness,
organically fluid integrity?

Despite trauma
unwanted present irreparable loss
separation
divorce
apartheid
excommunication
impeachment
shunning
incrimination
shaming
bully victimization
suffered also in our past,
personal
and/or vicarious

Now all right feeling
sometimes noticing chronic stress
in a systemic light/dark skinned racist
and homophobic bisexual-erotic
exotic past still felt present
deadening business as loser usual

In competitive CapitalHeaded values
for LeftBrain dominant privilege
monoculturing
monotheistic
monopolistic
purely white bright light
monochromatic
monological
non-ecological
verbal written down HIStory

Not much about woke-up
EarthMother wombed aliveness
with
and for
and of
and from polycultural EarthCreation
fully wholesum
widely pre-cognitive
and deep intuitive integrity,

Potential for win/win nature-spirited compassion,
love for felt trusted Truth,
passion for harmonic uniting Beauty

Inside as outside
inhaled
as neighboring green-leaved
and alively needled trees
exhale empowering,
nurturing,
nutritional enlightenment,

Co-operative Way
co-empathic Truth
and democratically Green
co-passionate wellbeing Life

Read analogically
top left toward bottom right
AND metaphorically
Bottom right felt Life on through
waving Ways
toward wellbeing cooperative.

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Integrity of Forests

Students enjoy a question
often wisely asked
especially of teachers
parents
and preachers
who seem not too often recall
curious younger learners,
deep listeners

If I must choose
which to trust,
your words without compliant
healthy resilient action,
OR your less mindful actions
not supported by your invocations
for divinely healing reactions,

Like telling your kids not to smoke
in-between stinky toxic puffs,

Which will have primary influence,
and which a wider and less deep
secondary smoke screen
of ambivalence
where we had hoped for integrity?

I question how to safely and astutely trust
a source of incompatible verbose
and poignant inaudible messages
brought by legs with feet,
arms with hands,
minds with hearts,
rooted nutritional systems
with sensory complex faces.

What primal communications
are most likely
to miss communion’s full
of grace potential?

Our more obvious EarthTribal point,
we deeply trust only Earth’s naturally
spirited resources,
healing advocates,
ecological green nurturing leaders,
indigenous species of integrity

Like trees
bushes
plants,
blessing soil
water
breezes in integral, sacred forests,
beautiful and true
trusted green
breeze in
and not relentlessly blue
breath out

Where healthy deeds
and safely consilient
brilliant
refulgent
resilient communications
are integral,
confluent,
in sync with humane
and divine local
through global
green EarthWealth care

For upright inaudible meaning
with downleft poetic purpose.

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EcoGovernance Notes

Give as you can co-invest green,
Receive as you need,
Be all we are cooperatively becoming.

A deep root chakra foundation
of healthy polycultural life,
positive/negative mind-embodied
consilient unstrifed life
is far more than pre-death
in win/win whole open systemic
EarthTribe regenerative/degenerative networks
supporting transportively cooperative pedagogy
through mental/physical
spiritual/natural
theo/eco-logically integral
sacred/secular potential
green resilience.

Universally unitarian egos
co-passionately speaking up
and out
for and from
polyculturally polyphonic joy
regenerate sacred celebrations
of interdependent energy
positive/negative
one full and open
zero not empty and not closed
co-binary wu-wei energy
of TaoZen
nonzero zones
for global health-wealth care
kindness
gratitude
compassion
integrity of wide ecological purpose
and deep theological meaning.

Whole Open Systemic CulturaList:
Mono
Poly
PanEntheistic
Womanist-Feminist
Patriarchal
Green
Red
Blue
Turquoise Spiraling Spectral
Color
Black/White Bi
Full/Empty DiPolar
WuWei Trans
Octave-Fractal Holonic
NonZero WinWin
ZeroSum WinLose
Open
Closed
Holonic
Holy
Whole
Health
Multi
Sacred
Secular
Academic
Cognitive
Intuitive
Technology
Information
Organic
Democratic
Autocratic
Kleptocratic
Colonizing
Creolizing
Conservational
Liberal

Patristic traditional choices
for conserving sequestered wealth
through retributive justice
hierarchical systems
may re-member
re-connect with older
womb through tomb
EcoFeminist health liberation
for restoring cooperative peace
and resilient global justice
global ecosystemic governance
networks of co-passionate binomials.

EarthTribe resiliently
and resonantly organizes
around nonviolent communication experiences
of win/win health/wealth optimization
supported by whole open pedagogical
creolizing
multiregenerational systems
bicameral
bipartisan
bilateral polycultural co-remediation.

Pursue ecotherapeutic NEEDS
taking on CHALLENGES of win/lose risks
communicating with nonviolent skill RESOURCES
for win/win OPPORTUNITIES

Win/win open whole resilient criteria
for cost effectively achieving
Health/wealth optimizing systems:
Green REVITALIZING
Ego LeftBrain EFFICIENT
EcoSystemic RightBrain COMPASSIONATE
Health/Wealth nondualistically IMPACTFUL

Whole open revolving EarthTribe
neuro-sensory
visual-audio
smell-taste
touch-feel bilateral systems
seem to prefer outdoor
green STEAM classrooms
for deep learning multicultural
EarthGoverning
work and play
study and meditation
song and dance
plant and harvest
dormant and peak
nondualistic co-present
co-passionate communication

To give as we can co-invest green,
Receive as we red-blooded need,
Be all we are cooperative blues becoming.

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Immanent Transcendence

Internal immanent powers
of panentheism
are nearly as traditionally endemic
to Western religious teachings
as is external transcendent light
of monotheism.

In scripture,
in Prince of Peace spiritual experience
and promise of Jesus’s teaching
rests prophecy of pentacostal panentheism

A radically liberating experience
of divinely manifest
Holonic Spirit
restoring peace
and global
inter-religious
multicultural
polycultural
resonantly polyphonic
resiliently polypathic justice.

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Natural Matters/Spiritual Desires

Natural sensory matter
organizes spiritual deep desires
metaphorically co-infested
co-invested
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial

Positives
more than equal not pathologies
naturally outside
remains not not spiritual inside
poly-estatic
panentheistic
polynomials
not not polycultural wisdom
polyphonically polypathic

LeftBrain thought
is an internally perceiving sense

Like right-brain implicit spiritual feelings
for deep inside win/win healing
not win/lose hurting
and not-not lose/lose
Yang hurting v healing Yintegrity,
colonizing v creolizing,
conquering v liberating,
controlling v freeing,
YangStrength v YinFlow,
hierarchical monocultural bandwidth
resisting integral polycultural depth

ReOpening
CoPassionate sunlight evolution
and green/blue Earth revolution

TransPartisan
EnLightenment and EmPowerment
wu-wei indigenous wisdom

Of natural sensory matter
re-organicizing spiritual deep desires
metaphonically co-infested
co-invested organic systems
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial
not not polypathically health humored
self/other optimizing wealth
of cosmically blissful laughter.

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Deep Estuaries

Behind Summer’s fullness
richness,
nutritional and nurturing sunlight
empowering bounty

Lies another deep
darker sacred truth
of EarthTribe’s inevitable mortality,
death
loss
cosmic stress
universal trauma

MonoTheistic distrust,
disaster,
despair
of patriarchal supremacy

MonoPolistic colonizing,
divisive,
aggressive,
violent,
rapacious,
racist,
sexist
climatic pathology

MonoCulturing Straight Western Male
historic white
protagonist light

Against deep dark green
ecofeminist
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-arising bicameral
panentheistic empowering
harmonic mindful balance.
EarthTribal enlightenment.

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Song of LoveSongs

Prologue in BrideVoice

Let Him kiss me
with his patriarchal
colonizing
monotheistic straight white mouth.

His Yang passion
is more blissful than intoxicating wine;
delicate
elegant
integral in fragrance
of his scent,

His rich capital name
is a regenerating wet
warm oil poured
spasmodically out
and that is why
WoMan loves divine Man.

Lead me in your sacred footsteps,
let us run together.

EmPowering Yang has seduced me
into his unenlightened bedroom;

Sacred Integrity will become our wombed joy
and our climatic gladness.

WoMen shall praise your co-passion
more widely
and deeply than exotic
darkly erotic wine;

How right[brain]
we feel
and fail
to co-passion left
with only Us.

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ReCycling Days and Nights

Harvey Feinstein,
in I WAS BETTER LAST NIGHT
reflects:

“Artists
return to paint the same landscape
over and again,
but
they do so looking forward.”

“The goal isn’t to copy
what they’ve already done,
but to try to capture it all anew.”

“The question isn’t ‘What did I see?’
–it’s ‘What DO I see?’

And what might we hope to feel
recommemorating
organically reconnecting
inter-religioning
multiculturally regenerating again?

And so it is also true,
I hope:

Artists
and ecofeminists
and compassionate bodhisattvas,
green messianic panentheists
and wounded
suffering GLBTQ+ woke servants

Return each morning contemplating
how and why
to paint this same nurturing EarthTribal landscape over
and again,
but to do so looking compassionately
win/win
cooperatively co-invested
ecopolitically health wealth optimizing
forward

Not to competitively win/lose copy
our leftbrain dominant
straight white male privileged past
but to win/win try to capture
blue starlight ecstasy
and full green GrandMother Moon integrity
indigenously anew.

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