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Muse of Integrity

HeartChoice,
the Why
of my prayers,
invocations,
anxieties,
deep learning anticipations

Music of Integrity
throughout compassion’s timeless
walking wounded prayers

Felt inside Win/Lose violent history
of uncivil suffering
mystery
of Either/Or non lullaby

Discord rooted and stuck
in fundamental lack of soul
for multicultural flowing courage
swelling BothNature/AndSpirited lungs
and throats
and tongues
and bicameral hearts
and bilateral hands
discovering capital heads
in copassionately curious root
HeartChoice
compelling well-sung

HeadVoice,
the What of my prayers,
invoking lyrics

Win/Win bicameral health/
wealth of vocal ecopolitical analysis
advocating Golden Ruled individuals

Witnessing trauma’s global light
shedding shadows
whispering ecotherapeutic local power,

Enlightened mystic minds
within empowered bodies,

Balancing egos
within harmonic neuro-ecosystems
spiraling binomial
double binary dynamics
healthing HeadVoice
co-invested wealthing

HandReJoice,
the How of my active prayer
as dancing DNA regenerations
choreographing bilateralized experience
that social-psycho consciousness
is not first a matter of unsung healthy faith
but of primordially felt resonant wealth experience,
through co-empathic copassionate music practice

Singing staffed ribbons
inscribing vibrato octaves sung
well-rung resonance
both multicultural
and nonviolent,

Both nutritional
and win/win cooperative communal
ego/eco-therapeutic corollary chorus
resounds

Searching out resilient myths
of beauty’s truthful history,
thought as felt
co-empathic mystery

Unfolding Head
and Hand
and Heart

TriPolar bilateral communication
of vastly deep healthy wealth
long-term resilience
speaking up for WholeEarth Open
Radiant FullSpectral Light
and SoundPower Systems

For achieving the How
of our cooperative
co-invested operas
and spoken word projects,

Beauty prayers
hummed in mythical well-being
vibrating therapeutically together

Growing less isolation nightmares
and “Fix Apartheid SundaySin For Us”
empty prayers
invoking militarized self-righteousness
and other dystopian
Straight White privileged
AnthroSupremacist
LeftBrain Dominant
universal nation
patristic capital invocations
advocating
Either EgoWins/Or Eco-Loses

ZeroSum
Closed NeuroSystemic
Devolutionary W/L AnthroGame Theory

Cognitive/Affective dissonance
socio-psychological trauma
chronically stressed
disintegrative miseducating losses
outweighing cisintegral muses
natural/spiritual extended peer
re-education
health/wealth
muse dynamic systems

Avoiding unhealthy prayers
for unwealthy
unwise vocalizations.

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Pandemonic Hope

“I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining”

I remember someone recently resaying
what has long lain unsaid
inside my paradoxical head,

When asked if I believe in God,
I don’t know what to say.

I might not believe in your God,
at least on my worst
pain-darkened day.

And,
I seem to believe in my own
only in those rare rain-free moments
healthy ego- and eco-gratifying

When I am having a climax heart
and head
song
and dance remembering
re-ligioning
reconnecting EarthMoment

Shared with at least one Other,
perhaps for our first through last time
in this
our day of sacred synergy

Sustaining
surrounding
celebrating a yellow morning
mellow sunrise
promising this wealthy day
without soggy rain

As we prepare to health harvest
warmly fragrant sun-dried hay
I quietly say

So, there is a God,
after all.

“And I believe in love
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God
even when he is silent.”

These two additional beliefs
feel like one Relief Belief
to my bicameral head choice
and heart voice.

For it has often been said
and felt
that God is love

Especially when
Matriotic HolySpirit of Love
doesn’t act like a Patriarchal Fool

And, by that,
I reference my own sociopathology
of privileged entitlement
monoculturally over-invested
in capitalist Straight
White
Earth Predations
Colonizations
Extractions
Rapaciousness

But,
my most courageous inscriptions
of whispering hope
often not felt enough
sacredly chosen silence
in spaces between
my LeftBrain dominant
distracting notes

Where my own AnthroSupremacism
falls vibrantly listening
to responsively hear
Elder MotherTrees
sigh
and breeze

Silently praying
for strong rooted
cooperative integrity

Within this organic Green Communion
forest of hands on
generating regenerous Hope.

Note:

Pandemonic Hope is part of a series of theological reflections offered to and from the All Souls Unitarian-Universalist Choir in New London, Connecticut. 

“Inscription of Hope” was composed for the Nebraska Choral Arts Society and Children’s Chorus by Z. Randall Stroope, in conversation with a Russian Folk Tune.  His lyrics are drawn from an inscription on cellar walls hiding Jews in Cologne, Germany, during World War II. Stroope’s own 1994 reflection on the significance of these words, in this Holocaust pandemonic context, “Hope was all they had to hold on to; hope was their only bridge to a brighter [nonviolently restoring justice] tomorrow.”

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Voices Doubting Sacred Choice

LeftBrain ponderous
Dominant Voice:

When did fear
of Straight White God’s traumatic punishment
for our sins
and for the Patriarchal/Capitalist sins
of our soiled soul Fathers;

RightBrain Felt as
Positive Health EcoChoice:

Overwhelm our love
for therapeutically restoring
sacred Earth Peace
and humane/divine
cooperative
co-invested Green Win/Win
Eco/Theo-Logical Justice?

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Seeking Salvation in Retiring Spaces

Prayers,
sometimes lightly lyrical,
slyly satirical,
self-conscious,
ego-
and anthro-chosen folk
transcendently
yet personally
individually woke,
and sometimes full embodied
passions in Praise Him!
shout out

Echo in-
voking round resonance
with all Earth’s eternal
regenerating lively
lovely resilience.

Prayers
express “I feel”
so invoke “I want,
even actively need”
Trust Statements

Or,
prayers are LeftBrain dominant
performances
of True v False
Health v Pathology
internal v external
enlightening transcendent thoughts
v empowering emotional support,
Reason v Passion Stories.

“Lordy, Lordy
I sure do hope
for active Sunday hope
that Donald Trump
will someday,
although probably not this day,
enjoy a long
and healthy
and unusually quiet,
cruelly serene,
claustrophobically private retirement
into suffering
and mental anguish
over all his many sociopathological
sins against natural
and spiritual,
physical
and mental,
embodied and mindful health care
giving
by receiving
copassionate
co-invested communion.”

In this prayer,
what does grandmother Eartha feel?

Lack of sufficient hope
for robust and healthy redemption,
maybe sadness about humanity’s great fall
into partisan disunion,
probably chronic climate anxiety,
in which She betrays
and is betrayed by
fear of RightWing AnthroSupremacy.

Meditations
on red sky climate warnings
nonverbally remind MeSheWe
together invoke nonviolent polypaths
leading to polyphonic
lyrical and PraiseHim!
for what we all,
with thriving rich resilient souls,
wish for

An unusually quiet,
serene,
private retiring redemption

From Old Testament
PatriCapitalist
Nothern White epic histories
of colonization

We nearly all AnthroSupremely invoke
deep EarthTribal fears
of our own BusinessAsUsual corporate
systemic
nationalistic
white cracker violent
discommunications

And we are all dearly angry
about lack of sufficiently empowering
and enlightening retirement funds
and redeeming facts,

Spiraling polynomially spacious circles
of polyphonic prayers intoned
entombed beyond eternal silence
peacefully polypathic

Invoking
“I feel lyrical” performances
and I need more than mere divine performance
embracing deep Nature/Spirit flow
ing widely polypathic
“Praise Him/Her, We Two!”

Wu-wei extending conscious
polyculturing healthy conscience
continuing compassion’s
discontinuous
EarthPeace Prayer.

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Eighth Grade English

Back in Eighth Graded Class
of StraightWhiteMale English privilege
I learned all healthy narratives
must have at least one
of these three tension intentions:

Like sacred mythic prayers
and fables invoking
poetry and soulful
gospel anthems

Of StraightWhite Man v AnthroOther

Or StraightWhite ManBody v EgoCentric Self

Or StraightWhite ManSpirit v Earth’s Sacred/Carnal Nature

I was disappointed
with the LeftHemisphere narrow-mindedness
of these three Either/Ors
which my RightHemisphere
could more deeply hear
as monocultural lack
of inter-trinitarian
Both HumanTrauma and DivineTherapy
in integrity’s polyculturally inclusive
compassionate Earth Communion.

I thought I had seen and heard
lack of heart resources
among AnthroSupremacist early philosophers
and scripture righter downers
instinctively suppressing liberally democratized
polycultural health-systemic
polypathic compassion communicating
polyphonic harmonic resounding
polyvagal neurosystems
most actively hoping health
among win/win economically enlightened
and politically empowered EarthWomanists.

I’m sure I still can feel touched gratitude
for more healthy democratic attitude
co-governing cooperative green co-investments
in EarthMother climate
and family healthcare,
public
and domestic,
global
and local nutritional wealth conservation,

Economically bright
and politically right
ecologically tight relationships
lead
and feed
theologically mighty cooperative reflections

Politically correct
replete with regenerative
healthy co-redemptive
win/win poyculturally meditative
mediation strategies seductive
among win/lose monocultural predatives,

Encouraging, perhaps, a cannabis sedative
and easing up on alcoholic dissociatives
drunk from win/lose evolutionary theories
of AnthroSupremacy Wins Earth’s wealthiest superlative
despite stumbling into humbling wounds
of multi-degenerational EcoCide

A more Left/Right Wing balanced
evolutionary race theory of white supremacy
unbalanced
mentions intrinsic narrative tensions
between peaceful intentions
and male militaristic
colonizing
enslaving
proprietary
patrilinear monocultural domination
going way back through HiStory

Toward brighter indigenous lights
of early monotheistic SunGod Worship
preferring healthier transparent light
and wealthier vulnerable win/win
co-sensory empowerment

Among prehistoric
preverbal family groups
extended kin

PanEnTheistic
early regenerational DNA co-relatives
of wavey Time integrity
and atomic faced Space
bicamerally synergetic

PolyHealth fed
and EcoWealth watered
compassion’s
co-binary extension

InBetween Yang’s Open ZeroZone
and Yintegral NonZero
soulful bicameral response
along polypathic lines
with polyphonic ringing
spaces
harmonic singing

For panoramic
epic textured narratives
of faithful AnthroSupremacists
learning how much we BlueSky love
and GreenEarth worship
our own
personal

Ecofeminist
Green empowering
Indigenous GrandMothers
who lived and died
long before verbal language
LeftBrain robust enculturation,
and Eighth Grade English
privileged class.

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BumperSticker Salvation

I’m behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-in look
while waiting for a greener light

With more than sufficient time
to read two rather ragged bumper stickers
in radical red,
relentless white,
and smoky blue.

The left side message
right in front of my resting wheel
reminded me of my waiting shame
that Jesus had to die
because of my personal sins
for which no one else
could even be partially
pulled out to blame

Only confirming
my bad-self flame
burning along with
a ZeroSum Win now
to delay Losing later
our all-in financial
and partisan lame game

Selling out to our competitive patriarchal
hierarchical shame
of predative corporate Christian Capitalism,
which is what remains
of Cooperative Economics
after squeezing all natural
indigenous spirit wisdom
out of wealth
is health optimizing life.

If only I were less selfish
and lazy
about mediating good-faith
healthcare co-investment cooperatives
as I move along
through each nonviolently communicating
day and night

Bringing me back to the bumper sticker
on my right wing
reminding me,
There is room left
at the Cross for me

Which immediately feels threatening,
ominously judged
and found collectively guilty
for my personal lack of faithful
healthy Soul,
big shortages in potential win/win co-investments
like gratitude for PolyCultural GreenHealth Communions
wherever I might stumble into them again
acting like We care
about health wealth resilient Us.

So, I’m tragically predestined
to climb onto the same rugged cross,

[and why is our cross always so iconically “rugged”
rough and primitive
ragged and wretched
manly and rapacious?
Why never graceful,
flexible,
poignant
transformative
potentially metamorphic
compassionate?]

Losing today
to maybe survive until tomorrow morning’s
StraightWhite God
declares redawning
punishing
timeless omnipotence
to judge all my tomorrows.

Yes,
there is a room for me
at the patriarchal foot
and the capital head
of threatening
punishing mortality
inflamed by oppression
of LeftHemisphere dominant
StraightWhite PatriCapital
anthro-divine individualistic
monotheistic supremacy

Worshiping healthy SunEnlightened humanity
by denying a wounding Cross
we have win/lose ZeroSum created
and recreate each day
between each nightmare
against sacred Earth’s polycultural communioning
reunioning
reweaving
win/win NonZero Soul
optimizing sacred Integrity’s
ecological
economic empowering
EarthWealth

Of a love so radically liberal
Jesus could get more democratically down
off our CapitalistCorporate cross

And then
I’m suddenly no longer behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-out look
while waiting for my greener light.

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A CoffeeGrounded Moment

Once within eternal Time
a coffee ground
of full-spectral
spacious consciousness,
Might sink in cold water cups

Yet rise to surface in warm oil sublime
joyously buoyant juice

Happiest to float atop
a hierarchy of divinely positioned selection
station
static inquisition

Yet again,
to an individual
free and woke coffee ground,
What is out
and up on top,
In StraightWhite
Patriarchally privileged position,

Is, yet again,
What is down
and inside repositioned
eco-conscious remission
into deep learning privilege
co-arises all our history’s
revolutionary
ecotherapeutic
subdued
immersed consciousness
of dualdark mystery

Universal EarthTribe unitarian
deep health through surface
sufficiently buoyant
wealth,
Ego/Eco Systemically
indigenous wisdom

This coffee ground up
is also ground down
perspectives in-between full
consciousness
of unconscious empty
spiraling dynamics
revolving revolutionary
wisdom

NonZero conscious Zones
NonDualistic
DiPolar CoArising
basic bilateral
polypathic space

Is also felt polyphonic
in temporally respiring
harmonic octaves

Of ecologically regenerative health
double-4fractal prime DNA systemic

Double BiNomial
RedYang
coffee ground’s individual sinking strength
is also buoyant yintegral consciousness flowing

1 nomial moment is to 0-triangulated space
Open Exponential double-binary
therapy-thought/trauma-felt Times
consciously capital bicameral
ego-dignity/eco-integrity binomial
bilateral development

As EgoIdentity
embodies organic multi-regenerative
decaffeinated grounds of Health
empowering Yang BiLateral FullConscious Wealth
Left

Of Wisdom’s Right
EcoSystemic
FullSpiraling
Inspiring ReVolutionary
PolyTheistic
ReGenerous Solutionary

Enlightening yintegral polyphonic
deep ungrounded feelings
Intro/Retro CoInvested
win/win strategic resource
CoInfested

DNA 4-fractals of EcoConsciousness
universal/unitarian
space/time communitarian
left/right bilateral creolian
west/east nonsectarian
north/south repairian
secular/sacred dipolarian
dignity/integrity bipartisans rock
and roll again

CoffeeGround consciousness
naturally PatriCapital up
may be more buoyantly multicultural
Yet no more than equals
not not PolyCultural Communion
down deep

Or up top soon becomes degenerative
unconsciousness,
Lack of win/win rebounding
away from Business As Usual
StraightWhite PatriCapitalist
LeftHemisphere
slick oily
and juicy dominance
Once again on this water drenched
bad
depressing
lack of EarthTribe consciousness day

Preferring deep dark
polycultural
democratic
ego/eco-systemic
health/wealth global conscience

Singing
and ringing red sky climate warnings
yet again
against deep pools
of eroding PatriCapital
sufficient for full EarthTribal
deep root health-chakra consciousness

CoffeeGrounds rerooting
in nondualistic indigenous wisdom theory
that theological experiences
of our Great Immanent
Imminent MotherEarth Spirit
Are doubly rooted

In ecological ecosystemic co-investments,
In EarthTribe’s BluSky enlightened radiance
resiliently floating in compassionate love
with GreenEarth empowering

Health/Wealth Integral
bilateral self/other conscious
GoldenRule
up/down
in/out
ego/eco win/win Ratio

Balancing NonSectarian ReLigious Resilience
of full open-systemic copassionate
bicamerally co-empathic
verbally thought
and nonverbally felt
nonviolently communicating
integral health/wealth consciousness

Once within eternal Time
a coffee ground
of full-spectral
spacious consciousness,
Might sink in cold water cups

Yet rise to surface in sacred oils
of sublime
joyously buoyant
woke up
deep and wide compassion
juice.

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Revolution’s Peace PerSpective

Go ahead
Dare to invite him
to a climaxing fall-colored picnic

To read you his obituary for himself
and for you,
subject to future updating
round perspectives
free for changing
still-evolving revolutions

Then,
my retrospective therapeutic turn
to introspectively review again
past traumas
of EgoSpection
surrounded outside
by his contextual EcoSpectral Spectrum Spectives
warm and cool,
freezing and redhot
climaxing traumatic knots

Not to out loud trust
speaking these Interior Obituary Inspections
about myself
and also His Exterior FullSpectral ReInspected
vulnerable truths, as I would heal them
through more transparent healthy wealth
of mutual compassion
slowly moving forward.

Then,
while opening the picnic basket
and our impassioned historic mouths
to speak of our possible future
re-amending revolution,

We take in all we can become grateful
for receiving now
here,
in this sacred dining
graced reperspective place
through our correlational experienced time
space within this eternally nutritious
nature seen and nurture heard
compassionate communion
grace

In this
our eternally momentary
yet fully spacious
nonzero zoning sacred space

For further IntroVersive Speculation
Exterior AdVersive SpecuElation
RetroInversive
CoReVersive Spectator Meditations

Spectacularly vulnerable
IntroAdversive
SpecCumulative
SpecUlative Reflections

On MeWe personal health
is also our cooperating political wealth
to socially empower
and culturally enlighten
economic incorporating cooperation
with nonviolently positive
psychologically therapeutic
nontraumatic communication

WinWin v WinLose
our polyvagal wavering way
OK
but inviting more friendly
cooperatively co-invested
Left/Right DiPolar ReInSpections
reigning in co-passioning consciousness
of win/win co-relational banalities

cognitive/affective rebalancing
thought/felt binomialities
nondualistic wisdom
indigenous Left/Right
redeveloping naturally spiritual
embodied mind realities

Indi/ExtraForming Genius
genous
generous
regenerate

Ego/Eco-ReIntroductions
ReInductive outflowing consciousness
ingrowing rememory
outgoing
MeWe reflowing

NonZeroZones
of inside/outside double-boundary baskets
and tongue-speaking lungs
on a picnic for nonviolently recommunicating
our CoPassionate RetroSpectives,
autumn harvest
obituary perspectives

Of two separated
yet still married gay men
in our sixties,
with memories as a Southblack/Northwhite couple
and as parents
of four wounded
gratefully adopted children
of color
and diverse genders
and gender preferences
and transgender questions,

Longing to live
in a global climate perspective
of universal empowering healthcare
and unitarian eco-outside green respectives
multiculturally woke
enlightened consciousness
yang outside health
is also yintegral inside wealth

Of polyculturally green ecosystems
producing healthy multiculturals
ego/eco-loving
NatureEarth-ReSpirited
EcoFeminist Win/Win
cheers and chills
for this
our RetroSpective
CoEmpathic
ReUnion.

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Urgent Health Democracy

Amusing sacred A-musings
like Atheistic A-gnostics

ReDiscover resilience
where Trauma is some part of Life

Win/lose LeftHemisphere dissociating
lack of RightSung resonance

ReUncover indigenous integrity
to feel wise reculturing nuances
between naturally Therapeutic
multicultural spirit dynamics

Health optimal democracy
grows wealth of opportunity
for deep octaves
of integral systemacy

Integrity
rather than feeding
and overwatering
more Traumatic risk
of patriarchal
capital-growing
opportunistic duty

To ReGenerate eco/theo-logos reflections
on what we healthiest communionate:

Am I Self protagonist
against Other antagonist
egocentric?

Or
EcoSystemic’ly healing
healthy wealth in-forming out-goes
AnthroSublime
more than Self/Othering
AnthroSupremacist
winning over sinning today
to avoid losing disembodied identity
in some disenfranchised tomorrow

Hurtfully devolutionary
monoculturally ordinary
retributively penitentiary
cruel and unusual anti-fairy
dissociatively deflectionary
not inter-religiously extraordinary

Apartheid
lack of compassion’s transparency
experientially coreflectionary
nondeflective musicarried
win/win vulnerably co-revolutionary

Our MeWe
green peace operatic
operations wu-wei
healing PatriCapitalist historic harm
dousing further climate flames
of even more CancelCulture NonCommunion
lack of amusing charm
in LeftBrain’s dominating ways

Toxic
anti-systemic worst days
entropic best nights
endemic absence
of bilateral
binomial
bicameral cooperative plays

Musing inspirations
do not lose gratitude
for our best day attitudes
nor operatic curiosity
about Politically Incorrect furiosity

Worst day fears and angers
about what EarthTribe lives endangered
have been WholeEarth lost
to future expiring
un-musing
unraveling spirals
of dynamic
epic
Earth respirations
inspirations
exhalations
operatic muse desperations

In A-gnostic octaves
double-fractal coloring keys
Me without We forgiving
history’s broken win/lose nest
dissociating nature-spirit’s We celebration
indigenously healthy best

In tegrity,
co passion
a musing muses
of nonviolently sung communication
danced in spiraling fire circles
of octave-structured resounding sound
and music Earth empowering
and sacred Sky enlightening sight

Bicamerally co-governing
therapeutic co-invested
anti-trauma co-infested
co-amusing muse

Singing HerPassion storic
rebirthing
revolving
EarthMother/Child infantstructured
co-operations

Amusing sacred A/C-musings
co-arising A-theistic energies ergodic
A through Z octavely harmonic
eco-logos theognostics

ReDiscover Win/Win cooperative resilience
where Trauma is always red-sky warning
some win/lose non-therapeutic part
of EarthTribe Musing Life

Win/lose LeftHemisphere dissociating
lack of RightSung resonance,
co-redemptive resilience.

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NonDueling Conductors

A Straight
White
Elder Patriarch
came in to where I RightBrain sing
my Gay
White
EcoFeminist way

He seems to want to stay,
to overpower my say
and will to sing
our musing pray

Because…
why?
I wonder what he feels
about me,
us,
about his own deep harmonic longing
to listen for our sung together feelings

Music therapy
composed of what we economically
and politically Trust,
wanting mutual
and actively co-invested
full singing circle harmonic Wins right now
to Win more easily tomorrow’s healthing way

And what might this PatriCapitalist feel
he does not want?
Perhaps less Win/Lose
ZeroSum power and light assumptions
actively distrusted
settling for more traumatic apartheid,
denial of interdependently woven relationship,
nature v spirit non-indigenous dualism
divorced from his own prehistoric felt experience
longing to avoid further nihilistic Lose/Lose
trauma
decay
pain
loss
degeneration.

Am I distracting
dissonant
too RightBrain gooey
for serious performance competition
with Your church choir’s
true blue bought and sold
commodified liturgical purpose?

To put on a good LeftBrain entertaining show

Rituals about cooperatively enjoying
our win/win WholeEarth health-care receiving
and resilient wealth-care giving
by conducting bicamerally harmonic potential

For healthier democracies,
more cooperatively owned EarthPartnership,
more inclusive multicultural polypaths
for universally unitarian polyphonic
constellations of integral systemic Voice

Yang yintegrally
WuWei
less Western sociopathic trauma
best forgiven through compassionate
indigenously polycultural
wellness sung and danced

Win health Voices
to Win resilient wealth Choices
for green ego/ecosystemic leadership

Con-celebrating BlueSky/GreenEarth
light and power felt
warm harmonic need
for more and better
inter-religious
intersectional
interdependently reweaving
healthy democratic communion

Which is what I need
and want to say
about how I seem to feel
when a Straight
White
Elder Patriarch
comes in to where I RightBrain sing
my Gay
White
EcoFeminist way.

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