She seems afraid to say too much
and not listen enough.
Perhaps fear of becoming misunderstood
and, worse, too quickly dismissed,
even in this small-staged sanctuary,
She wants to share with us
her deviant dissonant sufficiency
usually seen as negative degenerating autonomy
but, occasionally, in epiphanies of positive
revolutionary ZeroZen deviant resonant potential,
Receptive tingling silence
thumping and breathing
autonomously ringing singing
within domesticating unreal world paradise,
unwombed worn integrity re-memories
echoing between nightseed dreams
and switching off her leftbrain daily alarm.
Until she smiles
I am impressed by her nothing is sadly wrong
yet everything goes unsanctuary too patriarchally long,
Business As RightWing World gone,
anxiety about personal and political
and social and psychological
and mental and physical health issues
for future climate chaos kids
reversing integrity’s robust synergetic win-win potential.
I notice then
soft teeth with nearly infinite hard work
and not not spiritually autonomous
feminist suffering deviance
often in counterculturing ways
to help others,
more win-lose predominant,
suffer unspoken withdrawal less.
I see her primal eyes smile
and suddenly my own competitive mistrust,
my own positive deviant naked fear,
dismissed by curious eagerness.
Compassion therapeutically co-arises.
I ask if she too suffers
without sufficient release
from mutually withheld win-win loneliness,
mistrust of fully disclosed intimacy
now turning toward wealthy belly laughs
mutually vibrating abdowomen,
soul sound of synergy’s vast wisdom
loudly rooting for win-win potential global health
through her sanctuary solidarity,
still curiously becoming.
She seems fearless to listen too much
and eager to not say enough.