Uncategorized

Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

Standard
Uncategorized

Designing for Healthy Beauty

PermaCulture DeSigners
of sacred spaced places
could commune with timeless
PolyCultural Beauty Consultants
I suppose.

HealthCare Consultants
with compassionately enlightened clients
want to co-invest their peak experience wealth
in slow growing indigenously humane health
and conservational safety
survival of the WinWin fit-
in-to-flow-out-
and-not-not-in-again
Open Whole systemic
green ecological
psychological
multiculturally co-mediating
slow-grow regenerating
global co-empowerment

Within each locally/globally win/win equitable plan
cooperatively contracted and managed
relationship between a Designer
and a NonZero Zone dynamic system
of emergent properties
lies an exponentially wealthing
ego/ecosystemic potential
for Wealth and Beauty optimization
worth more self-governing capital-effectiveness
than the sum of their/our constituent parts

Capital-minded,
compassion and healthy beauty endowed,
sharing visions
for cooperatively installed
and polyculturally occupied
synergetic
resilient Whole GreenBlue
Self/Other Governing Systemic

Open dynamic spiraling
interdependent inter-religioning
panentheistic energy networks
for ecopolitically LeftBrain enlightened
and RightBrain co-empowering
indigenous polychromatic wisdom
and health-wealthy Beauty

Goals
objectives
cumulative synergetic 4D spacetime
naturalBody/spiritualMind
double-boundary wu-wei lines,
seasonally regenerative nutritionYang-nurtureYin
spiraling recycles of natural resources
and spiritual communication capital
reinvestments.

Only clients
with nutritional health
and nurturing beautiful wealth
peak inspiring local investment goals
for EarthTribe’s global cooperative
need bother to contact
our polycultural Wealth and Beauty Consultants

Which excludes no one
not at right-now death’s portal,
because even mortally wounded survivors
hope to CoOperative EarthCulture thrive
when we no longer need worry
about mere win/lose climate survive

Regardless of income,
health,
beauty,
we are perennially engaged
in annually
and diurnally regenerating
sufficient humane health
and divine panentheistic safety
to survive local and global environmental trauma,
sacred EarthMother polluting,
and anthrosupremacist predation challenges
at this critical peak transition
PolyCultural Communication moment
in whole open GreenBlue Systemic EarthTribe
resonant
resilience-seeking
enterprise

Co-consulting to optimize
global mindspace beauty
in local-body polyculturing trusted time
for peak root
through gut
through capital head experiences
in permacultural community health
and safety
eco-therapeutic sacred communication
co-mediating compassionate design

As FatherSky enlightens bright blue trusted futures
and MotherSoil empowers
peak investment re-entry
into rich dark-fertile beauty
Truth in Passion pasts.

Standard
Uncategorized

UnConditional DisRegard

Unconditional disregard
sounds similar to my issues
with Straight White Male
AnthroPrivileged MonoPolistic
property developers

Taking a contract out
against caring for healthy soil
and resiliently protected access
to a wealth of water,
yet something less than flood waters
and super hurricanes.

How is unconditional disregard
not not also a local choice
for retaining a systemic health
is also wealth
gestalt?

Co-arising equivalently dipolar
LeftBrain healthy egos
and RightBrain wealthy ecosystems
recreating unconditional positive
not disregard for EarthCare?

How far
and wide
and deeply intimate do you care
to see
and speak
of where you dare to cum?
and go?

In our shared unconditional
regenerative regard narrative
from nascent egocentrism
to wellness-matured ecosystemic consciousness

Where unconditional health
is an ecologically positive
polycultural regard
and wealth is a biological not negative
Earth-patriotic capital co-investment
future EarthTribe regenerations

Unconditionally co-regarding
bicameral
bipartisan
ego/ecopolitically cooperative
win/win co-investments
in unconditional sacred/secular regard.

How deep do unconditional regard
root systems need to emerge
into health
and safety thrival
exploring more than win/lose
this quarter
this year
raw and naked survival?

To see
and speak
what any ignorant narcissist
can remember
of indigenous neurosensory experience

We all enjoy a sacredly ecstatic peak experience
potential to break through mundane side
by predative sideness.

We share so much more potential
than autonomously taking a perfect
non-conditioned disregard
for slow grown eschatological dumps
to seed Earth’s polyculturally panentheistic
nonviolent communing

Healthy and safe
unconditionally regarding
secular soil
and sacred win/win peak experience toil
to not spoil
what MotherEarth
needs to rear Her
unconditional warm self and Other
regarding future regenerations

ReMembering
Safety and self-optimizing
health care
are also unconditionally
well regarded
organic
sacred wealth share.

Standard
Uncategorized

EcoGovernance Notes

Give as you can co-invest green,
Receive as you need,
Be all we are cooperatively becoming.

A deep root chakra foundation
of healthy polycultural life,
positive/negative mind-embodied
consilient unstrifed life
is far more than pre-death
in win/win whole open systemic
EarthTribe regenerative/degenerative networks
supporting transportively cooperative pedagogy
through mental/physical
spiritual/natural
theo/eco-logically integral
sacred/secular potential
green resilience.

Universally unitarian egos
co-passionately speaking up
and out
for and from
polyculturally polyphonic joy
regenerate sacred celebrations
of interdependent energy
positive/negative
one full and open
zero not empty and not closed
co-binary wu-wei energy
of TaoZen
nonzero zones
for global health-wealth care
kindness
gratitude
compassion
integrity of wide ecological purpose
and deep theological meaning.

Whole Open Systemic CulturaList:
Mono
Poly
PanEntheistic
Womanist-Feminist
Patriarchal
Green
Red
Blue
Turquoise Spiraling Spectral
Color
Black/White Bi
Full/Empty DiPolar
WuWei Trans
Octave-Fractal Holonic
NonZero WinWin
ZeroSum WinLose
Open
Closed
Holonic
Holy
Whole
Health
Multi
Sacred
Secular
Academic
Cognitive
Intuitive
Technology
Information
Organic
Democratic
Autocratic
Kleptocratic
Colonizing
Creolizing
Conservational
Liberal

Patristic traditional choices
for conserving sequestered wealth
through retributive justice
hierarchical systems
may re-member
re-connect with older
womb through tomb
EcoFeminist health liberation
for restoring cooperative peace
and resilient global justice
global ecosystemic governance
networks of co-passionate binomials.

EarthTribe resiliently
and resonantly organizes
around nonviolent communication experiences
of win/win health/wealth optimization
supported by whole open pedagogical
creolizing
multiregenerational systems
bicameral
bipartisan
bilateral polycultural co-remediation.

Pursue ecotherapeutic NEEDS
taking on CHALLENGES of win/lose risks
communicating with nonviolent skill RESOURCES
for win/win OPPORTUNITIES

Win/win open whole resilient criteria
for cost effectively achieving
Health/wealth optimizing systems:
Green REVITALIZING
Ego LeftBrain EFFICIENT
EcoSystemic RightBrain COMPASSIONATE
Health/Wealth nondualistically IMPACTFUL

Whole open revolving EarthTribe
neuro-sensory
visual-audio
smell-taste
touch-feel bilateral systems
seem to prefer outdoor
green STEAM classrooms
for deep learning multicultural
EarthGoverning
work and play
study and meditation
song and dance
plant and harvest
dormant and peak
nondualistic co-present
co-passionate communication

To give as we can co-invest green,
Receive as we red-blooded need,
Be all we are cooperative blues becoming.

Standard
Uncategorized

Deep Estuaries

Behind Summer’s fullness
richness,
nutritional and nurturing sunlight
empowering bounty

Lies another deep
darker sacred truth
of EarthTribe’s inevitable mortality,
death
loss
cosmic stress
universal trauma

MonoTheistic distrust,
disaster,
despair
of patriarchal supremacy

MonoPolistic colonizing,
divisive,
aggressive,
violent,
rapacious,
racist,
sexist
climatic pathology

MonoCulturing Straight Western Male
historic white
protagonist light

Against deep dark green
ecofeminist
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-arising bicameral
panentheistic empowering
harmonic mindful balance.
EarthTribal enlightenment.

Standard
Uncategorized

Resilient Redemption

Probably few of us
have capacity
to see ourselves
as both Angel
and Demon.

Many of us
have had the experience
of demonizing
and punishing ourselves
for sins of the past
extending into our present
festering
unresolved trauma.

Hopefully many of us
have also had the experience
of forgiveness
and saving ourselves
from sins of the future
because someone shared with us,
in some effective way,
that nothing
is always your autonomous fault

If only because
no organic creature,
anthro or otherwise,
is born
or can survive
radically autonomous
from non-ego centers.

Personal identity
follows interpersonal
ecosystemic individuation
developmentally
causally
and effectively.

I hear healing opportunity
in this responsible
yet not solely responsible
both/and way of consciousness

As well as traumatizing risk
of denial,
too cheap self forgiveness,
too easy hiddenness
of our secret
most private
feelings of guilt
about harming another

Both intentionally
and without malice,
accidentally.

A woman’s reluctant decision
to abort may feel unresolvable
between angelic win/win desires
and demonic win/lose fears
and angers

As might
her reluctant decision
to buy a gun
and several ominous rounds
of deadening ammunition

To protect herself
and her children
from traumatic demons
at her flimsy door

Not considering
her lack of experience
with braver angels
hoping to reassure her.

Therapeutic angels
may also wait,
curiously
and impatiently,
outside that same door,
searching for health’s
most wealthy bell
to dispel
shared dark shadows

In-between silent demons
we abhor
and sacred angels
we redemptively adore.

Standard
Uncategorized

Economic Wounds

My capital investment wounds
don’t define me;
they refine MeWe
into Earth’s green peace
win/win strategic barrier
beyond which lies win/lose
and EarthLove v AnthroLife
nihilistic
entropic lose/lose
co-arising degenerative gravitation

MeWe have become
tragi-comedically
Me v We
on this good Earth
healthy and safe timeless
ReGenerative Day.

Trauma refines my humanity’s
risks
as Therapy defines EarthTribe divinity’s
co-operative economic opportunities
in Earth-Eden’s Peace

Where trust in healthy spacious Truth
refines
what Beauty
wealth slow-grown defines

Like sacred trinitarian space
in dipolar co-arising
green Anthro/Earth
recommunion peace-filled time.

My self-appreciation,
and Other non depreciation, assets
regenerate
whole-sum holonic gifts
to redefine MeWe,
and not Me v We;

Strategically played Win/Win
nurturing healthy nutritious wealth,

Refines my depression impressions
inhibiting repression
disempowering right-integral mind
suppression
from and yet also toward
unenlightened
unhealthy
unsafe silos
of neglected Me
against oppressed We.

My greatest appreciations
are my slow-grown co-invested wealth songs
and spoken word resonant health choice
voices

EarthMother’s cognitive/affective
double-binding verbal/non-verbal intellectual properties
invite curiosity about personal/political reflections
on and in
EarthTribe’s economic ecological compassion

WholeEarth
healthy Me
and safe-We assets,
impressive win/win gifts
for restoring EarthJustice

One timelessly nonviolent moment
in empirical
global
universal
systemic spacetime

Transcending embodied MeIdentity’s
inevitable mortality,
physical/mental dichotomy,
Lose/Lose end-time unverbalized lobotomy

Severed from EarthTribe’s cooperative-ownership
democratic healthy trust experience
within boundless sacred win/win curiosity,
personal/political nonanimosity,
ecological enculturation
of divine ancestors,
Whole Open Systemic
NonZero SkyYang/EarthYintegral Organic
organically and spiritually
nutritiously nurturing

Indigenous wisdom
defining/refining
panentheistic win/win
ecopolitically cooperative
bicameral experience

Liberal NonZero Soul
regeneration revolution
free from slow-growing mistrust
of cognitive/affective dissonant stress
about chronic
EconomicConserving
ClosedOff ZeroSum
degenerating AnthroOnly Revenue

Longing for long-term familial
resilient competitive capital
win/lose degenerative
bare survival of the predative wealthiest

Absence of win/win regenerative
therapeutic
cooperatively-owned
impressive ecological
economic green co-arising values.

Standard
Uncategorized

Internal Dialogue

I have an internally repetitious desire,
need,
want,
to seek reassurance

Not so much about,
Am I the fairest/ugliest of Them all?

But, lately,
more maturely,
rationally,
calmly and yet curiously,
compassionately,

Am I healthy?
How am I healthy/unhealthy?
spiritually/mentally
naturally/physically
politically/personally

Meanwhile,
nonverbal rightbrain gut-felt instincts
follow a similar light toward healthy purpose,
but more intuitively systemic
than leftbrain verbal analysis.

If healthy consciousness,
then when,
where,
and why are we most safe
and least unsafe?

An appreciation/depreciation question
of healthy rational purpose,
or not

Rational, yes
but also,
more deeply,
a felt personal curiosity quest
for safe compassionate meaning
in relationship to
and from
EarthTribal
drawn-to-the-light
progenitors

Our indigenously wise
felt fellow
hearty
hardy
hale anthro-familials,
co-passionate organic environmentals,
edibles
and ornamentals

Mountain forest transcendent spaces
and river valleyed mellow
intimate meadows,
neighboring animals,
hospitably animated delicious insects,
singing birds
and fat and happy
yet clearly athletic
beasts

Bisexual flowers
and bilateral branch and root
universal health
and unitarian safety systems

Bipartisan public health enlightening
and safety empowering servants

Bilateral co-passionate
personal and systemically political
intelligence

Binomially resonant
resilient
repetitive
Left-secular-health/Right-sacred-wealth
feelings
of why MeWe
needs ego/ecosystemically win/win
safe thrival
and endless curiosity
about win/lose survivalist
unsafe risks
compromises
monoculturing egocentric
anthrosupremacist values

Predicting how lefthemisphere thinks
autonomously notices
individually processes NonZero Zone
is never ego-apartheid healthy
and always win/lose compromised,
potentially traumatized
for lack of abundantly democratic compassion
not autocratically virulent.

Standard
Uncategorized

Growing Trust

We do not listen
or learn,
sing
or dance easily
when we do not feel safe

When we are not sure we can trust
the voices not speaking and listening
with us,
but speaking over us,
around us,
against us,
beyond us,
without apparently caring about us

Our Lose/Lose
through Win/Lose
through Lose/Lose
neurosystemic imaginations
are triggered by toxic anxieties

Trauma anticipations
infilling vast lands
and oceans
of omnipresent win/lose uncertainty

Reinforced by capital investment
and patriarchal LeftBrain dominance
in our would-be deeply green
sacred GaiaFeminist
compassionate listening
learning dialogue
in-between cooperative thought
and compassionate feelings

Longing for healthier
safer
more resonant
and resilient
educational systems

Engendering the robust trust
that builds
and maintains healthy democratic
nonviolent communication
for restoring EarthJustice.

Standard
Uncategorized

Reflections On Ancient Love

Long before sun light
was born from starkness

Long before Earth’s dawn
broiled unsteady hot star fire

Long before She filled
Her scarlet mind
with Yang’s high hills
time was this love

This ancient life
is reborn.

Long before our trees
greenly filled
Mother’s forests

Long before a wind
unsailed to sing
Earth’s wholesome songs

Long before She filled
Her turqjuoise mind
across Her seas,
time rewinds love

This ancient life
health born.

Long before Earth’s great chain
of being
forged ecocidal
egosystems

Long before a voice
could speak
divine creation

Long before She filled
Her bleeding heart
to grow a child
there is Earth’s love

This ancient life
wealth torn.

Long before a Truth
of love’s life
could be broken

Long before our wounds
were nailed upon a Mother Tree

Long before She laid Her body down
under His light
time spins this love

This ancient life
still born.

Wakeful each night
Greeting Earth’s dawning

Stubborn as trees
rebirthing burned
wounded hills

As we fill our healing minds
to hold Earth’s timeless time
This ancient love
Her aching life
flows stumbling on.

Note: This is a theological/ecological reflection on the lyrics to “This Ancient Love” words and music by Carolyn McDade, Copyright by Surtsey Publishing/ 1996, by Carolyn McDade.  These are the word choices I hear when speaking and singing Carolyn McDade’s beautiful composition. Not experienced, meant, intended as an improvement, update, or correction, but as a Both/And communion of sad sacred gratitude, in preparation for Earth Day, 2022.

Standard