Hell of a Heaven

Both paradise and hell
have their detractors.

I find some exaggerated truth
in this belief–
one person’s paradise
is another’s hell.

An eternity
of worshiping an unchanging
mono-egotistical god
is not my idea of healthy re-creation.

I have never heard this
in reverse–
One person’s hell
may be required
for another’s paradise.

Heavenly Capital Adoration
begins to sound like sexist
and xenophobic
and anthropocentric rationalizations
of rampant capitalism

Sublimation as extension,
perhaps a corollary,
justifying capitalism and slavery,
violent settlers’ colonialism,
systemic racism
and straight white male
and left brain deductive domination
over who is empowered
to define
and refine
and confine
and double-bind
winners’ Paradise
v losers’ Hell.

If paradise is a healthy
wealthy place to freely live,
And hell is a pathological
patriarchal chested
rapaciously unbreasted
place to not be
ecofeminist sufficiently,

Then losing bad humored,
terrifyingly rumored,
anti-organically tumored
hell is a dualistically shocking way
toward winning good humored
terrifically enamored,
organically amored paradise
of integral win/wins;

Economic and political
Neurological and biological
Ecological and geological
Egological and theological

Secular and sacred
Natural and spiritual

Space and time
ZeroZoned and TaoBalanced.

That said,
I doubt
we are without
universal Paradise
as absence of Hellish attributes

Such as autocracy
and kleptocracy,
fascism and racism
are multiculturally known
and felt as hellish.

Healthy democracy
may not be
a monotheist’s Paradise,

democracy’s win/win potential
for cooperative ownership and management
speaks louder than capitalism’s win/lose reductions
of ego’s participative paradise
in omniscient theocracy.


Growing Up Divided

Growing up in twentieth century USA,
without a recent immigrant history,
nor a Native American indigenous heritage,
just another in-between victim
of Straight WesternWhite Male privilege,

I recall a smirky fuss
about Eastern mind/body connection,
unrealistic philosophy,
meditation as if medication.

It did not occur to me,
in my enthusiastically extractive
and exhausting youth,
that in the East,
Buddhist and Taoist teachers
might have indulged
in a smirky fuss

About Western mind v body disconnection,
secular science severed from sacred arts,
dualistic divine spirit v corrupt nature theology,
just war theories
rooted in retributive justice theory
instead of restorative peace experience;
body medication
without mind meditation.

In my more enthusiastically inclusive
and creative-tensioned age,
it occurs to bicameral mindbody me,
that Eastern ecosystemic connection
is also Western ego-recentering compassion,
experienced by Left-dominant hemispheres
as felt by Right-prominent
mind/body biospheres,

Searching for why binomial structures
religiously emerge from organic co-relational nomials,
dynamic spirit/natured variables,
inside/outside co-determinate sociables,
theological ecology.

western polypathic autonomous variables
and eastern polyphonic relationships,
Earth double-binding polyvagal dancing bodies
wrapped around,
and developing through,
revolving polymorphic minds
equally not not polynomially independent,
communal saints
and divided sinners.


AzaRiah’s Earth Requiem

He was too old
to speak of active hope
for ancient creamy dreams
not yet boldly told

Inviting curious homeless nomads
to imagine what we could become
if we were not yet brazenly born
into this time of tragic burning,
predicting hunger,
and coastal drowning nakedness.

Into this epic brown despair
AzaRiah was innocently born
within fading red shadows
of a crumbling
white cathedral.

She never knew an old Golden Era
of endless capital expansion
and monopolistic worship
defying GoldenRules
applied to those like her,
the least and blackest last
of Earth’s Golden SpaceTime Ratio.

AzaRiah’s stormy education
had no LeftBrain Ego v NotEco luxury
to ponder why 2D full moons
are also 4D revolving half-lit norms,

Why spatial nomials
predict temporal bilateral binomials,

Why positive polypaths
predict not not negative
polyphonic ultra-nonviolence,

Why binary Zero
fulfilling One bipolar Zone
predicts double-binary 0/1
wave-linear dipolar co-arising
win/win DNA resplendent Tone,

Why fractal-structured regenerativity
nativity predicts octave spiraling scales
of resonant
resilient non-degenerativity.

She was much too busy
singing with hurricane winds,
listening for flaming conflagrations
of reactionary hate,
inviting still small ecofeminist circles
to dance again with GrandMother Moon
in compassion’s silent storms,
self and other recreating
perpetual healthcare perception

Belonging in grateful silence
where her grandfathers
spoke with terrified tears
of Earth’s great loud longing.


Enough to be Dangerous

Do you know the concern?
“S/he knows just enough
about a through z
to be dangerous.”

I am uncomfortably familiar
with this analysis,
a weapon often wielded
from ivory towers
overly influenced by ideology
masquerading as theory
rooted in statistically measured experience,
severed from historical-cultural,
biological-neurological indigenous context.

Even so,
one feeling I am sure of
my own too robust expertise
is Intolerance.

And, now I am discovering
I have chosen to join a community
with a multicultural intention
to embrace,
or at least tolerate,
all souls,
all species,
all living systems
except those deemed too intolerant,
too wounded,
for multicultural health
as a resonant indicator
of economic and political wealth.

We are exclusively intolerant
of intolerance
because we would provide safe sanctuary
to all souls,
especially victims of monoculturing intolerance,
of win/lose economic and political supremacy,

I find a tension here
between unconditional love
and lacking sufficient curiosity
and courage
to discuss shared values
and disvalues
with those too defensive
too hurt
too lost
too conservative
to tolerate intolerably queer me,
to tolerate the alien Other.

This reactionary intolerance
of intolerant prejudice
often straight white male supremacy,
feels like further breeding ground
for misunderstanding,
mutual divestment business as usual,
more win/lose devolutionary anger and fear,
more potential violence,

More egocentric privilege
rather than universal ecosystemic love power

Actively hoping to cooperatively uncover win/win
polycultural resolutions
resiliently curious
and courageous
when in the presence of win/lose competitions
intolerant of active hope
for restoring peace
by retiring retributively inflicted punishment
for past sins of intolerance.


Let’s Become HealthWealthy

In his essay “Let’s Be Reasonable”
Rev. Todd Eklof [The Gadfly Papers]
reduces reasonable to logical;

This is a common left-brain dominant error,
confusion between deductive premises
and coldly reductive conclusions
calculated assuming cause v effect linear formulas
more than feedback loops
of complex neurological relationships,
ecological analogical
experiential math
not reducible to algebraic calculus.

So, this is a big topic
and I can already see right-brain feelers’ eyes glazing,
longing to step into warmer,
more fluid
green organic systems
in which light feeds natural growth
and darkness starves into nutritional dormancy.

Narrowing down to a specific example,
“If an organization has a policy [a left-brain dominant product]
against hiring nonwhites for top management positions,
[T]hen it will not hire a[n Asian heritage candidate]
as its next CEO.” (p. 88)

In linear cause-effect logic,
IF…is the antecedent clause
THEN…is the consequent clause;
If x, and only x,
then y–
a perfect positive correlation
seldom seen in real life’s geometric non-equations,
except where found true
by left-brain definition,
rooted in either true cause
or false effect
dark v light
competitive thinking.

Notice a similar statement
about historical experience,
left- and right-hemisphere resonantly remembered;
not cognitively/affectively dissonant,

IF a culture has a history of not hiring nonwhite leaders,
THEN it is unlikely to hire a nonwhite CEO in the future.

Why would the sun shine on a culture tomorrow
that has never done so in past collective memory?

For left-brain deduction,
either cause
OR effect,
practice could only consistently follow explicit policy
or it would be wrong,
incommensurable with safe precedent,
dangerously unnecessary risk-taking
and unexplainable
within SWM privileged and dominant monocultures.

On the other hand,
perhaps literally
and figuratively,
right-brain’s interdependent web
of complex cause-effect-recause-re-effect
feedback loops and lattices
networks and sometimes chaotically scary lack of stable systems
with accompanying anxiety about what is significant
and safe climate
and what is unpredicted and therefore unknown
and alarming wildness habitat,

Procedural choices,
including designing and development processes,
in a privileged culture
normally follow past historical practice.

predicts calcification;
not positive deviance.

Precedent predicts practice
especially where no explicit prohibitive policy
intending to inhibit past practice
is anywhere within sight
to empower change
in a more therapeutic direction,
to restore justice
non-violent communication
where it has been sadly lost.

Left-brain deductive reason
is reduced to predicting
within the context of linear
either x is an explicit healthy/toxic antecedent
or y is a logically implied
and predictable valid outcome.

Right-brain wisdom from positive and negative experience
is able to extend reasonable connections
beyond what is explicitly logical
within an assumed Win/Lose competitive
corporate capitalist normative system.

IF, and only if, we uncover beliefs about what feels right,
what neurologically AND biologically
and naturally AND spiritually resonates,
within a specific polycultural experience
influenced by far more
than explicit laws and regulations,
by far more than scriptures
explicitly translated and transcribed
down through ages of oral history,
by far more than moral behavioral codes
that do not add to experiential internal conviction,

THEN compassion,
sufficient motivation
to do
and say
and choose what is valid
for healthy interconnected
grace-filled sacred life systems
may be less ignored

In favor of merely logical conclusions
that can feel too aggressive
assertive more than merely rational,
self-assuredly privileged
yet cold
and calculatingly hurtful
when weapons of empowered narcissists
instead of limited tools of non-elite compassionists.

IF StraightWhiteWesternMale incorporated privilege
seems to validly conclude
what also feels organically
and interdependently unreasonable
given contrary historical NonElite experience,

THEN we might release
competitive and privileged assertions
conserving right-brain ignored darkness
where light longs for multicultural
bicameral liberation,
where bright longs for better safe and sufficiently resonant systems
of polypathic thoughts
with long polyphonic systemic feelings
of harmonic secular/sacred
natural/spiritual stability,
[not so much ecological wealth anti-reasoned]
therapeutic integrity

and NeuroPsychological


LeftBrain Trauma

My leftbrain deductive reason
now sadly sees 16/20,
since 2016 a patriarchal white privileged hierarchy
of orthodox RightWing religious social history,

Where I am either egomaniacally at the self-righteous top
of my competitive win/lose hierarchical game,
or I am a victim,
bleeder prey,
mortally morally wounded,
living in the treacherous and hated boundary
between today’s fading hellish life
and inevitable loss of leftbrain dominant reason
for autonomously existing
merely to survive
for yet another depressing
rainy Monday of meaningless
grey capital-monopolistic
Business as either/or
win/lose degeneratively natural
depraved predation

My more both/and co-empathic rightbrain
inducting fluid 20/20 emotions
feels ecofeminist
[not ego-militant]
green, yet full-spectrum,
multicultural warm Earth-lattice of interdependent circles,

Reverse revolving matriarchal
anti-hierarchical encultured
co-passioned empowering
non-violently embedded
resonantly wombed
intersectionally organic
transubstantiating left intelligence disempowering
into right wisdom, up inside down,
win/win positive healthy communication
of interactive win/win hope,
resiliently enduring faith,
robustly wealthy webs,
not so much either/or walls,
of polypathic
polynomially ZeroZone balancing
bicameral compassion,

enduring warm significance,
curious cooperative inquiry
and co-investing trust

Despite leftbrain’s hierarchical non-elite
non straight
non white
non male bottom-bleeder victimization,

RightBrain’s most robust
and resilient EarthTribe
remembering 20/20 fire circle multicultural singers
and polycultural liturgical dancers,
lyrical speakers
who non-violently listen
with well-balanced co-passioning breath

Bicameral heart-beaters
compassion power,
healthy democracy of left with right
GoldenRule balancing climates
through positive health co-investment.


DisOrganized Religion

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized elitist creeds,
including religious and judicial,

I am even more terrified
by my experience of disorganized natural spirituality,
dissociated bicamerality,
unenchanting mono-laterality,
win/lose egocentrism,
lose/lose climates of nihilism,
anthropocentrist chauvinism,
inhumane unnatural straight white male business as usual supremacy,
left brain dominant elitism.

I get it,
I notice,
unpopular conflict of legitimate interest decisions
have followed win/lose monotheistic
evolutionary economic modeling
of mortal depression trends,

we could expand this win/lose left-brain dominant assumption
to include confluence of multicultural interests,
multiplication where lies monoculturing divisions,
summations where now lie win or lose negations
of all that lies outside patriarchal structures
of incorporated militarized competitions.

We might, together, warmly notice
chaotic decisions follow monoculturing elitist paths
of least win/lose Business As Colonizing Usual memory patterns.

We might refocus
away from in-toxic-ation with lose/lose mortal nature systems
oppressed by win/lose monopoly, at best, future aggressive prospects
for EgoCenters v EcoEarth natural power economies,
eventual inevitable loss,
degenerative ultimate pathology trends
of dissociation.

We might notice
who chooses to make elitist SWM corporate
retributive justice decisions.

We might notice,
with more win/win warm empathy,
disproportional placement of military-industrialized young adult wounds,
reducing sacred MotherEarth to a convenient waste disposal site,
natural (so un-spiritual?) resource extraction,
and anthro-centric theft,
pollution of air,
left-brain dominant minds,
win/lose informed deformed anti-bodies.

We might notice
several displaced non-elite subcommunities
subclimates suspicious of SWM enculturation
having been history’s stress absorbers,
and elitist
and sexist
and homophobic dissociation,
non-elite capital income prejudice
and win/lose ecopolitical perpetuation,
limited win/win communication access,
left/right co-empowerment life-skills,
co-relational peace intelligence,
co-empathic intention toward healthiest wealth,

We might win/win notice
limited access to mind and body health resources,
regenerations of integral wealth and value polities

Listening with more multicultural right-brain intelligence
and speaking with less monocultural left-brain verbal dominance,
on behalf of noticing
rigvht’brain’s long matriarchal ecofeminist herstory
of interdependent
domestically and globally intersectional metaphor,
poly-paradigmatic health systems
for win/win EarthMother thrival.

We might notice
this 2020 bicameral revolution
revisions every win/lose Business As Usual
systemic thing

Into an interdependently living
global, yet universal
multicultural communication
regeneratively resilient
energy democracy.

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized religion,
I am even more terrified
by Earth’s subclimate of succeeding spiritually
without also winning EarthRight naturally.


In Our Taoist Zone

Yang (1) and Yin (0) Zones
are place-holders,
polynomial variables
for appositional co-arising relationships,
tensions, creative and not so much,

Such as white and color,
monoculturalism and multiculturalistic transubstantiation,
RightWing and RightBrain
conservative of past and progressive into compassionate future
elite and non-elite, in political philosophy
and history
of colonization with active hope for creolization,

Patriarchal and EcoFeminist polycultural intent,
healthy wealth,
win/lose competitive games
pretending not to want win/win cooperative


Appropriate Cultures

Cultural ownership,
disproportionately lavished upon kings,
the occasional ecopolitical queen,
white male Republican Senators,
elite corporate CEOs
overdriving inside monocultural management
feeding consumer acquisitive appetites

Leads to cultural entitlement, encroachment?

Elitely leads to cultural appropriation,
where I win appropriate proportions
as your disproportionate loser misfortune,

sometimes to multicultural creolization,
where everyone wins Golden Rules and Ratios
co-arisingly together.


Written On Our Hearts

Some issues,
some opportunities,
are written across great Western and Eastern cultures,
Northern and Southern economies,
Left and Right hemisphere structured minds,
breathing out- and in-forming lungs,
beating in- and then out-flowing hearts.
Flight toward freedom
and open-air healthy impressions,
and fight against racial oppression,
health depression,
patriarchal suppression,
competing capitalist corporate repression

Frighten by blaming
and anger by shaming
who might otherwise consider sharing responsibility
for growing climates and monocultures of fragility.

Our individual and collective win/lose contempt
hate acted out
expressed verbally and non-verbally
leave wounds,
disproportionately worn by NonElites;
poor, regardless of color, gender, but especially our young,
girls and women,
LGBTQ individuals, families, multicultural communions,
people exhausted by incorporated straight
LeftBrain Either/Or competitive
male dominant
anthropocentric fragility
divesting of healthy EarthClimates
unraveling through too long histories
of colonizing ecopolitical Elitist cultures.

When a society is rabidly growing rage,
fear and anger climates
frighten and anger people,
especially young and old NonElites
too close
yet too far from cooperative Green NewDeals
we expected from EarthMother’s earliest
and most resonant Womb and Breast.

Our Elite/NonElite journey
to WholeSelf/Other learning
to express fear and anger
looks for Green NewDeal ways
to heal
and all creatures sharing Earth with us;
all living systems,
all subclimates,
all habitats,
all communions, sanctuaries, asylums, ghettoes of apartheid,
our covenanted and un-covenanted Allies,
extended families cooperatively co-investing
to heal fear and anger apart-ism
win/lose wounds,
by reorganizing our cooperative re-investments
in repairing healthy wealth of MotherEarth
and lesser elite/non-elite coalitions
public/private health investors

Following dipolar structured scripts
written across each ego/eco-living heart
pumping nutrition in,
then out,
and in again,
out again
breathing in,
then out,
then in again
predicting outgoing wealth
then outgoing
wealth in
as health outcome
co-investing experiential climates
balancing tipping points
of internal externalizing nurture,
warm accompaniment
restoring peace incoming
as justice outgoing
di-polar co-arising
recreative intention
self/other perpetuation.