Tonight I heard a terminally cancered
yet not cancelled
singer songwriter say
“I can’t wait for life to not be hard
before choosing to be happy.”

She spoke well from her own experience
and I remain moved,
but also curiously confused
about physical v mental
hardness.

For someone with chronic depression
or suffering from loneliness,
chronic climate anxiety,
lack of nonviolent
and actively compassionate communication,
pathological attachments,
monocultural self-depreciation,
transparent and vulnerable dissociation,

For someone profoundly missing
resonant and resilient
spiritual and natural healthy wealth,
mental and physical,
sacred and secular,

Our primary suffering
includes not having ego-empowering
and cooperatively enlightened choices
to be happy,
nor healthy.

Although, perhaps more individual choice
can be slow-grown
to positively engage EarthMother’s outside nurture
with robust healthy integrity,
intent,
cooperative investment practice,
courage,
active curiosity and hope,

Lurking,
hanging out,
furtively searching around dark mystic
re-connecting sacred corners
for co-empathic compassion,
light,
power,
sufficient win/win energy
not feeling outside alone
as also inside lonely,

Not feeling heterosexual
as also homophobic,
any more

Or less than I can
and will power
to enlighten health wealthiest opportunities

Here as Now engagement
is not over There and Then war
against PatriarchalCapitalist PC Them v Healthy Us

Left spatial seen
and heard consecutive Right deductions,
temporal happiness reductions,
felt and touched cumulative inductions
of each ego LeftBrain dominant voice
is not hopelessly PC alone
bereft of ecosystemic RightMind
felt Here/Now happy
healthy EarthMother’s solidarity choice.

To choose existential EarthHappiness,
sacred celebrating sacramental joy,
divine con-celebration,
is to choose to extend
and embrace polyculturing health

InsideSpace as Outside PC Time,
Ego as part of Earth’s healthy resonating
WholySpirit inspiring
to choose optimizing integral AnthroWealth
of ego/eco-resilient compassion

PhysicalHere/MentalNow
throughout Earth’s integral
Space/Time well-being,
with flashes of healing happiness
leisurely breaking through
like dawn seducing sunlight.