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Why I Am Here

At the Planet Gym
embodying my best business
when suddenly I wonder

Why am I here?
repeats
and repeats
in my wandering ear

And what magic
might appear

Isn’t that queer?
Not WHY am I here
with these Straight People

because this overpopulated question
may obscure other
quieter
ambidextrously resourceful directions
less shaded by fear
of robust diversity

I suppose
But, what can I hear
about why am I here?
and not over There
on the Other side

What two-sided relationships
would I need
to become fully here today?
and all seasons yet to arrive
in this sacred home of People
Plants
and PlanetEarth

With gratitude,
I suppose…
but, Why am I here
again?

Cannot mean
only those purposes and means
asso-sedated with my home address
and sometimes needy
sometimes hostile
[downright spankin mean]
neighbors

More creature comforts,
certainly
AND we search for sacred meaning
inside
more intimate

Spiritual enlightenment
perhaps shyer,
timid
early childhood Loser-Trauma

Drama messages
win/lose valuable

Vulnerable communications
with imperfect win/win transparent closets

Hiding chronic stress histories
of anxiety
longing for sacred peace,
or even just a secular piece, you know,
now and again

For chronic stress,
anxiety

Longing for peace
or restored ego-resilience,
or at least a restored recliner

Happiness, and a marketable craft
and EarthMother teaching skills

For relearning not sad gladness
in hope,
joy
in anticipation,
gratitude
for opportunities
to co-invest
in always interesting neighbors

In the Planet Gym
mindbodying
our best health business.

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Nature Nurturing Questions

Why is misery said to love company
while depression demands solitude?

And
is it always true that nature abhors a vacuum
and/or
sometimes true nurture adores expansion?

Misery,
depression,
anxiety,
negatively respond to trauma.

Negatives do not look for like company
but can positively appreciate co-passionate listeners,
lit up not not glisteners,
dark solitude
giving sway
power
light
to more festive solidarity

Negative energy,
entropy
transforming toward
positive integrity,
synergy

Perhaps reparations
restorations
regenerations
reassure these positive feelings
to grow increasingly rational
as negative trauma events
continue to outreach,
and/or discontinue to inreach,
our cooperative,
and/or competitive,
therapeutic plans
problem-solving designs
rational regard
healthy projections
wealthy predictions
positive anticipations
and/or negative anxieties
about recession
depression
oppression
suppression
negative impression
retribution sticks
are not restoring carrots.

Misery loves solidarity
when ready for some kinda manic,
co-therapeutic
good-humored
win/win enthusiastic
spirited
dynamic problem-solving

Outside depression’s
BusinessAsUsual
secularized
severing
secretive locked box,
brain-and-body stormy,
rather than embodied brain full storming
love’s transcendent positive possibilities

Why does re-creative planning
to heal our polymorphic
whole open organic
thinking systems
co-passionately co-invest shared feelings?
negative through positive,
not negative non-zero positive
regifting anticipations.

Why do depression
anxiety
misery viciously
and virally escalate
in isolation?
excommunicated vacuums
of discommunication

Absorbing left-hemisphere
self-wounding negative labels
for feelings of Introspective Loser
UnreNouned Retard
Dirty Nigger
Floozy Faggot
Bull Dyke
Silly Sissy
Flaming Fool
if not selfing shame
then othering blame,
felt trauma nurtured fear
rebecoming terror’s natural anger.

Why do victims of past win/lose
wallow in a perennial vacuum
denying communal
win/win therapeutic
integrity?

When does compassionate solidarity
abhor unnatural trauma events
and dispiriting nurtured
disempowering denatured
misery
post-traumatic stress disorders
chronic depression
feelings of all is lost?

Loser Ego
re-cognizing Loser EcoCommunity
inside/outside despair,

Disrepair
beat down
defeated
by monopolistic
monoculturing traumatic
weed-choked aggressions

Despite what we hoped
would become a cooperatively managed
organic
health paradise
wealth-resilient garden

Rather than a silent
demilitarized
remilitarizing zone

Fearing I will awake
to yet another day
alone

Abandoned
unable and unwilling to be heard

Asking this loser victim
of self shame
and callous Othering myopic
and epic
blame

Why s/he abhors emotionally negative vacuums
yet silently loves
therapeutic positive ideals

Of communities communicating,
win/win company
co-empowering win/lose problem-solving

To repair
restore
replace chronic trauma risks
with potential therapeutic opportunities
for ecosystemic
ego-extending
co-passionate communication

Decelerating win/lose traumatized communities
of monoculturing trauma climates
by restorying risks of isolating anxious vacuums
with opportunities to anticipate company
healthy community
wealthy solidarity
nonviolent communication

Deep and wide feelings
re-membering eco-matrimonial
panentheistic
sacred integrity’s questions

About primally warm
well-moisturized
glistening
listening
integrity of sacred swelling
wells.

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Choosing Happy Health

My round white anti-depressants
were trying their faithful best
to listen to my ecofeminist
wise old woman
gardening neighbor,
pulling aggressive weeds

Sharing with me
her morning meditation reflection
immediately after entering dawning eyes
and before exiting her dreamy
comforting
fertile bed

Her opening
and excavating self-invitation
to choose body health nutrition
and mind happiness nurturing
which are snugly associated
for her
like peas and carrots
remembering well-versed voice
intention

But,
not so much for me,
now able to choose health
almost every dawning day
and dusky night
but still struggling
for post-traumatic omnipotence
to thrive toward happiness
by empowered choice,
even if not enlightened voice
articulating all the many thankful ways
remembering well-cultivated rejoice.

What my gardening neighbor
and I speak of
feels like my dull
and darkly present
spatial stuck unchanging place

Which she
unlike me
can also remember
as having evolved through time
from current EarthTribe regenerating days
becoming nurturing seasons
within each annual surviving incarnation

Reversing back toward warm
welcoming first dawn light’s
empowering sacred
thriving invitation.

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Where Lives HAPPeaceness?

Where lives aliveness,
healthy wholeness,
organically fluid integrity?

Despite trauma
unwanted present irreparable loss
separation
divorce
apartheid
excommunication
impeachment
shunning
incrimination
shaming
bully victimization
suffered also in our past,
personal
and/or vicarious

Now all right feeling
sometimes noticing chronic stress
in a systemic light/dark skinned racist
and homophobic bisexual-erotic
exotic past still felt present
deadening business as loser usual

In competitive CapitalHeaded values
for LeftBrain dominant privilege
monoculturing
monotheistic
monopolistic
purely white bright light
monochromatic
monological
non-ecological
verbal written down HIStory

Not much about woke-up
EarthMother wombed aliveness
with
and for
and of
and from polycultural EarthCreation
fully wholesum
widely pre-cognitive
and deep intuitive integrity,

Potential for win/win nature-spirited compassion,
love for felt trusted Truth,
passion for harmonic uniting Beauty

Inside as outside
inhaled
as neighboring green-leaved
and alively needled trees
exhale empowering,
nurturing,
nutritional enlightenment,

Co-operative Way
co-empathic Truth
and democratically Green
co-passionate wellbeing Life

Read analogically
top left toward bottom right
AND metaphorically
Bottom right felt Life on through
waving Ways
toward wellbeing cooperative.

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Healthy Life Integrity

I find a consistent
constitutionally protected value
hidden in Preambulation
and historical Declaration
reaffirming U.S. healthy democracy,
our Holy Grail.

Life
liberty
pursuit of happiness
well-being

During Enlightened Elder
1700s,
and still largely our worldview today
in deindustrializing MidWest
sweltering South
acid raining East
and, most mystically,
among empowered Californians
and Oregonians
and Washingtonians,

Healthy democratic intent
for integrity of humanity
supports HEALTHY life,
INTERDEPENDENT liberty,
and win/win pursuit
of resiliently SUSTAINABLE
happiness,
well-being,
peace.

This non-issue
of our constitutional republic,
with healthy,
growing
still-evolving
dynamic democratic intent,
purposed with sacred meaning
to nurture and support
HEALTHY life

Becomes more obvious
when considering what an “ethic of life”
would look like
if our eloquent ForeFathers
and wise GrandMothers
had UNhealthy life
as an economic
and political aspiration

Any quality of life,
regardless of how compromised
pathological
sinful
demented
unhappy
joyless
violent
pathological
ignorant
greedy
belligerent
traumatized
chronically stressed
dissociated
severed from a shared reality
of cooperative peace
and co-invested contentment

Could not be a consistent ethic,
or family morality,
of HEALTHY life
for all organic creations,

Not preferential for Straight White Men,
but a healthy polycultural democracy
to support healthy
interdependent
sustainable human lives
of all cultures,
inter-religious beliefs,
compassionate feelings,
nonviolent communications.

More recently,
ecologists
and creation theologists
and climatologists
have added an interesting footnote
to healthy democratic aspirations

If we would have
nutritionally
politically
economically healthy resilient lives,

Then we need
and want
to extend our democratically appreciated agenda

To include HEALTHY lives
of oceans,
forests,
river systems,
air,
bioregions,
food chain
interdependent
sustainable
life-care systems.

As far as I know,
my Republican friends
and family
share this expectation of our governors,
legislators,
executives,
court systems,
to seek HEALTHY life care

And, not so much
PATHOLOGICAL
diseased lack of caring
for all Earth’s sacred tribes,
species,
networks,
cooperative win/win
organically interdependent
sustainable health-care systems.

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Brass WindChimes

Brass windchimes
ring melodic time
backed up
and down,
back
and forth
by boisterous breeze voices
blowing somewhat more silent choices
below

Before benighted rejoice
reprise to rise
and fall
wounded fail
yet again

Melodious inside intentions
to ring true
love’s restoring stories
of local justice circling
dynamic spirals inside
looking resounding out
virally
conspiratorially
anticipating healthier life within
Mother’s sensual gusts

Overpowering peaceful chimes
global resting
arresting rhymes
with powerful enculturing space
enlightened green spring out times
up happy,
healthy

Driven by bountiful breeze
and this northbound tidal
grey-blue iconic river
flowing drifts back
and surging forth,

Downstream
yet again back up
in-between
indigenous natured out
spirits in

Chiming outside colonizing industrial windows
noticing
re-connecting stressful winds
and anxious tides
of not so well chimed
compassionate green change
loudly rang

While icecaps,
empowering South
and enlightening North,
silently
soundlessly
melt integrity’s just right divine
and humane left

Eastern Earth greets Western Sun
chiming resonant hospitality
of eco/theo-logical nurturers
nourishing brass rounds
of resighted
respited
holy sounds.

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When Resisting Danger

My GreenLeft side
resists AngryYang
win/lose competing AngloPowers
for making money
commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world conquering views

Supporting GodGiven economic rights
to colonize sinners,
more easily divided
from the AnthroHerd
when not white
not straight
not male

While my RedRight inside
recovers from ancient wounds,
frightened
angry
disappointed
sacred sad absence
of Holy Yintegral
Win/Win cooperative
EarthTribe co-investments

In
By
Through
Of
From
Sacred ecological nurturing
pan-sensory
systemic bicameral co-passion

Liberally nurturing AnthroWealthy love
consuming EarthIntegral values
co-arising healthy newborn life

Like sunlight above
is to Earth dust
lust
must
bust
crust below

LeftGreen consciousness
of previous peak experiences

Rooted in regenerative
sacred
supernatural is also spiritual subliminal
inter-religious multicultural values

Are green/red ultraviolet positive,
unless disvalues
or misvalues

Are not not unvalues
unconscious
unknown
unloved
uncherished
ungifted
undivine
not humane,
unbecoming

To my emergent GreenLeft side
sense of healthy EarthTribe
indigenous integral balance

Resisting AngryYang
win/lose competing elitist AngloPowers
for making money commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world views
exclusive of PanenTheistic
EarthCare opportunities
for compassionate
therapeutic communication.

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When UnGifted

“A gift is different from something you buy, possessed of meaning outside its material boundaries. You never dishonor the gift.” Robin Wall Kimmerer

A social gift,
a gift for compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communication,
a healing gift,
is different from personal cash investment,

Possessed,
sometimes haunting, gifts
with sacred meaning
timelessly transcending
secular
egocentered
anthrosupremacist
monopolistic double standards,
double gifted/ungifted boundaries.

Healthy inter-religious
interdependent
creolizing polycultures
societies
nation-states
restorative justice systems
regenerative green peace networks,
never dishonor whole-sum gifts as tools for
and not weapons against

Trashed as ballast
for Great Straight White Father’s
unfortunately necessary wars,
originally sinful threats,
collateral human resource damage
of the also-rans
ungifted
unpowerful
disposable

Justified despite thereby losing environmental health
and losing active hope
for resiliently gifted human peace.

It is harder for an unstraight
unwhite
unmale nonbinary child
to emerge from genderphobia
feeling sensually gifted
neurosystemically cherished
wanted as is
than it is for a gifted matriarch
to sing and dance
feeling cherished
(and not marketed)
in transcendent eyes
of a God-needled gatekeeper.

A wounded gift
is different from some Thing
we try to buy
because multicultural integrity
is too high a climate health price
for Patriarchal
Corporate RedRight Capitalists
to stop hoarding Earth’s
Cooperative BountyCircled
Multiculturally Valued Gifts.

A sacred Blue/Green non-binary child gift
asks something of us
not quite so RightRed dominant
mishanding healthier non-binary sway
toward bicamerally balancing intelligence

Taoistic
Zeroistic
WinWin Game Theoretic
and Organic Systems Therapeutic
nonviolently gifted communicators,
green EarthTribe full-sensory educators,
ecofeminist theologians,
poetically prophetic ecologians,
compassionately multiculturally proficient
as not not gifted Positive You

Tipping straight up
as down dipolar gift appointed
Me/SystemicWe
multiculturally therapeutic
co-empathic resonance

PolyCultural EarthJustice resilience gifts
have always 1/0 binary DNA spiraled
through YangStrength/YintegralFlow

Sun enlightening/Earth empowering,
LeftGreen/RightBlue seasoned
red sky boundary reasons
for morning mourning warning
while red sky at night
dimly follows,
sailor’s gifted delight

East yintegrally dawns
on each cooperative living system
throughout Her resilient emergence
to this YangNow/YinHere
Speaking/Deep Listening
bipartisan healing opportunity

To reconnect
and reverse monoculturing powers
spoken in Yang v Yin competitive sexualized dissonance
transposed to sensory LeftGreen/RightRed
ultraviolet neurosensory confluence

Panentheistic
synergetic goddess senses
for regenerative religious gifts
and resonantly co-empathic
sensory-sexual win/win shifts
communed through health-systemic trust
in cooperative
pay back Earth forward thriving democracy

Built
developed
gifted
in cooperative win/win ownership
alternative economies
ecologies wherein those thriving
with the most nutritional value
in autumn’s harvest Earth-gift season
are those most generously delighted
to share next spring’s seeds
and nuts,

Roots
and winter’s roosting eggs
as widely gifted
and deeply co-invested
as possible

To reassure each gifted Other
that our intended wealthy climate
and personal ego healthcare chances
are way win/win way
better together
than win/lose ungifted
unwanted
unlovely drifting apart

Toward Lose/Lose nihilism,
ecopolitical genocide,
militantly RedRight fascist dominant
Whole EarthSystemic ecocide.

But, at least
no one will ever force RedRight you
to reconsider queers
and transexuals
and ecofeminist women
as if, just perhaps,
also sacred gifts

Or, at least not reconsider giftedness
of anyone you know was,
or is…

You know…
that OTHER wounded
ungifted
ungraced
curiously displaced

In MotherEarth’s healthy
regenerating gifted
Wealthy Life is Love Revival.

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Surprising Elders

I wonder if there are Elders
wise
or more perennially surprised
who, looking back at their youth,
regret all their erotic time
invested in having peak
experiential sex,

And wish they had, instead,
done something, most anything,
more left brain dominant,
more theoretically
politically correct,
more economically prominent.

I so hope not.

Better off, I feel sure,
invested in abundant splatters of messy,
sometimes musical, health

Than overly divested
away from EarthTribe’s gloriously peaking race
carried away by abstemious matters
of more disciplined pace
for securing capital infested wealth.

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Advent of Serenity

Which sounds healthier
to you?

Advent Serenity
or Christmas Birthing Terror

Separate identity comes from sacred Mother
and embryonic Child
interwoven bio-roots

As awareness of serene light
emerges from safe
and warm
original wombed
dark nutritious night

As regenerative individual delight
of nascent
flowers integrity’s potential
to evolve from organically disconnecting
birthing powers

As LeftBrain ego identity
revolves with sacred democratic integrity
of healthy EarthMother
imprinting each divine Gaian infant

Trusting Truths
born of Serene Beauty

Like purple Health
co-acclimating red/blue Wealth

Like C centered resilience
emerging from A/E re-membering resonance

Like positive 1
mediating serene
NotFull/NotEmpty 0
co-emergent
double-binary compassion.

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