Critical Reminders

The faith that capitalism
is the only viable democratic economic system
we have experienced,
or could even ecologically imagine,

Reminds me
of the faith that retributive punishment
is the only viable governing political system
we have cooperatively experienced,
or could ever theologically
and resonantly
and compassionately imagine
restoring healthy peace,

Reminds me
of the faith that continuing to do the same competitive things,
make the same win/lose mutually feared assumptions,
will eventually result in some different
and less EarthClimate overheated
and critically pathological outcome,

Reminds me
of Einstein’s faith that repeating this business as usual default
unreasonably defines left v right handed insanity.


Better Public HealthCare Planning

How much simpler
and yet vastly more complex,
diversely resonant,
past decisions to hire the credentialed professional elite
also choices not to hire a charismatic

And how much more resilient
urgently cooperative
corporate win/win covenant repercussions might have been
if we stopped compartmentalizing,
and started intersectionalizing,
co-arising and co-gravitating
Win/Win assertiveness with non-violent communication Training,
CoInvestment Practice,
Multicultural Restorative Justice experience,
Truth and reconciliation,
Remuneration of cooperatively-owned health values,
Interdependent ecological and theological merit,
Compassion wealth.

If we could hear her outloud notice:

I feel sometimes angry
sometimes fearful,
sometimes courageous
sometimes curious,
and always disappointed
that I took this vulnerable risk
to transparently offer all that is my leadership gift
and then experience why this is still not enough:

Because I lack leftbrain dominant credentials,
Because I do not speak with cold white patriarchal dispassion,
Because I do not know disconnection as capital-business as usual,
Because I will not despair
of win/win felt outcomes
as if win/lose default unrealistic.

What then,
following this assertively non-violent vulnerability,
this win/win compassion,
this transparent noticing of:

Systemic Win/lose trending toward Lose/Lose monocuturalism,
Systemic racism without racist system conscious intention,
Militarized Patriarchalism,
LeftBrain dominant Either/Or deductive-reductive
Linear cause/effect logic,
Analogical purpose over metaphoric meaning,
over Integral HealthWealth Win/Win Ecology?

What win/win compassionate ego/ecotherapeutic truth
and restoring peace
and reconciling EarthClimate Justice
might we more critically return to next?

Perhaps I might find our communal life safe enough
to share:

How angry I am
that I cannot hear our cooperatively-owned anger
that both neoliberal and neoconservations
of military-industrialized capitalism,
that worship of winlose and lose/lose violently transparent intent
continues blatantly budgeting to invest in more war,
in more hate-crimes,
in more automatic death sentences,
in more EarthWealth faster
and deeper
extraction of multigenerational resources,
in more corporate short-term blind investors in win/lose landfalls
instead of cooperative owner-workers invested in win/win health.

I am angry
and terrified,
deeply and widely win/lose disappointed
and lose/lose despairing
when I cannot hear
and feel
and see
and know
our mutual terror
and anger
about this Earth
and Earth HealthTribe
and Positive Energy Democracy CRISIS
of Ego v Eco
of Yang v Yin
of Left v Right
of Thought v Feeling
of Secular v Sacred
of West v East
of North v South
of Elite v NonElite
of White v Black
of Either v Or
of Bipolar v Dipolar
of Competitive Arising v Cooperative CoGravitation
of 1 ZeroZone Nomial v Non-0 Zone Bilateral Prime Relationship.

I am angry
and terrified
internal and external lose/lose climates
worship Capitalism
while marketing greed as
Catholic GoodNews of Holy-Elite Predative Communion.

Sacred meals and global EarthHabitat
separating us in our shadowed silos
of nontransparency
and nonvulnerably hiding the bread and wine reserves
violently defended, if necessary,
codependent absence of integrity,
positive communication,
cooperative EarthClimates
of polypathic health,
polyphonic resonance,
polycultural wealth,
universal sacred cooperative employment
co-invested in mutual warm listening
rich polycultural paths

Angry and terrified,
courageous and curious.


Feminist Ecolory

When Yin was growing down
and into belonging
still in EarthMother’s warm wet womb,
she followed her interdependent 0-wheels
of enscripted color and sound octaves,

Appreciation for multicultural sensory integrity,
primal relationships of sight and scale
felt polyphonic longing and/or belonging,
meta-physical creolization,
gratitude for polycultural dialogue
and consensual democratic circles
warm to discernment,
co-empathically seeking full-round consensus.

as Left-hemisphere dominant Yang
was colonizing out
and patriarching up,
he conserved 1-universal BusinessAsUsual monochrome
in triumphal shades of dark static non-elite nights
and peak triangulated wealth experiences of white
universally transcendent bright.

Yang thought in bipolar Either/Ors
of black or white
while Yin felt through dipolar Both/And
circles and cycles
spirals of nuanced multiculturing colors,
hues and felt cries
and sighs
and shy.

As they learned gratitude
for each Other’s 0/1 GoldenRule
and 1/0 GoldenRatio preferences of bipolar thought
and dipolar intersectional warm feelings of belonging
they deep learned democratic cooperative compassion
for healthy regenerativity
as positively and politically and economically
and ecologically and theologically
and analogically polypathic,

And mutually-owned disdain
for competitive win/lose longing,
reductive RightWing dominating seductive LeftWing
with aggressively monochromatic degenerativity,
negative paradigmatic dissonance,
both cognitively and affectively ineffective

Especially as Yin deeply repurposes growing down
and in
still under MotherEarth’s warming
multicoloring NonZero-Sum womb
loving democratic
ecofeminist healing life.


Humanity of Horses

My internal experience of depression
today shames
external ecology of elation,
all I might know as warm extended family
of profoundly peaceful impressions
still bare surviving
at end of this slow-fading thread.

This morning
one Epictetus sentence
speaks of blaming left-hemisphere dominant GodVoices:

“People are disturbed not by things,
but by the view they take of them.”

Similar to proving and approving:
Universal Gods are undisturbed not so much by peaceful events,
but by the transcendent view they own
by loving them.

Some days,
like yesterday,
I feel excruciatingly intolerant
of Earth’s
Losing healthy systems–LeftWing
Losing wealthy democratic resilience–RightWing
suppressing what might,
more positively,
notice integral bilateral energy trends.

This synergetic,
yet distinctly negative,
degenerative feeling travels far beyond
compassion exhaustion
to despair.

Even an omnipotent God
could not have,
could not even evoke to grow,
further and faster extensions of sufficient compassion
for such death and dying misery;
all peacefully forgiven.

Among humans,
of course,
but extended to other dying
and already extinct species
reduced to fuel
for some predator species’ relentlessly extracting fire

And beyond all creatures here below,
to macro-political living systems
like self-cleaning rivers,
healthy surfing salt-water oceans
with multicolored coral reefs,
wealthy bones,

And topsoil organic life systems
and MotherTree forests,
and wild, complex boundary areas
of creolization,
petri recircling research and discovery
positive covery
negative covery
expanding covery
shrinking covery
elation covery
depression covery
exhalation covery
inhalation covery
investment covery
divestment covery
empowering covery
disempowering covery
not not double-binding cooperatively owned covers,

divine hopes and humane fears

I disagree with Epictetus;
This person is empathically disturbed by experiences.

Rape and violent militarized sadism
and politically sanctioned death sentences
come immediately to mind,
cold hearted starvation and dehydration
of innocent children,
peaceful fathers,
faithful stallions.

Meanwhile corporate gods drilling and fracking
greedily extracting
win/lose against future healthy regenerations
of Earth’s organic life.

Tell God:
A mother
watching her children stabbed
and/or starved to death
is not disturbed by events
but by the subjective view parents take of them.

If He agrees with you,
find a different Goddess Earth
with sufficient win/win compassion and hope
to change our competitive
Left v Right-hemisphere story.

All creatures are disturbed by negative events
and by Win/Lose
and/or Lose/Lose
views we take of degenerative ZeroSum violence,
and neuro-psychological,
whether horse or dog
or cat or rat,
grateful and co-empathic predator
or cooperative divine-human nature.

But, my divine elation Right
unitarian yin climate,
reminds my humane depressive Left
universal Yang culture,
deductive proof of negative pudding
is in inductive gratitude for positive multiculturing outcomes,

All creatures are undisturbed by positive events
and by Win/Win views
and memories
and designing images
we receive for regenerative NonZero-Sum peace,

I know
and deeply appreciate
an ecofeminist equestrian farmer
who says all this
depressing and elating stuff
much more simply,
“I trust the empowering humanness of horses
far more than the competitive horsiness of humans.”


Out To Pasture

Retirement from community development,
facilitating cooperative economic justice
in this post-millennial time of climate crisis,
feels like being put out to pasture
with the rest of us toothless and feckless horses

Stalking senior centers
and gated communities
to weather the fade-out storm
of physical
and mental,
and spiritual encroaching unease
and disease.

This was not my fade away intent
to graze quietly
with quivering and lame
retired race horses;
although worse company
is readily at hand.

I do like pastures,
forest and ocean beach trails,
grains and crunchy carrots
and apples.

But, I also like song and dance
and restorative justice more than retributive injustice,
and skilled multicultural mediation
rather than monopolistic invasion,
and economic cooperative win/win public health investment
and politically empowering regeneration
more than competitively disempowering degeneration,
and polypathic compassionate therapies,
and polyphonic healing designs
and listening with healthy young bicamerally balanced
holistic lives of active hope.

It has taken me so long to get here
in this valley of the shadow of climate death,
and I am so grateful for this vulnerable moment
to share all I can compassionately hear
in multicultural mediation pastures,
including senior health-discernment circles,
of course,
but also echoing off granite bold walls
of win/win ego/eco-historic bicameral mountains,
polycultural peaks
cooperatively grateful
for bilaterally resonant river valleys
of ancient wealthiest memory.

Old nags never die.
We just keep gumming
around Earth’s double-binaries,
longing to speak compassionately
as we have learned to curiously hear,
seasonal pasture space
of all Earth’s pastoral reasoned time.


What Is Love’s Difference?

What is the difference
between an anti-theist
and a pro-humanist?

What is the difference
between a terrorist
and a terrific zest?

What is the remainder
when subtracting NonZero-Sum WinWin EarthBodied outcomes
from Zero-Sum WinLose capital incomes?

Why do
Permaculture Designs
and Restorative Sacred Justice Resolutions
share the same healthy wealth goals?
If they do,
and why don’t they,
if they don’t?

What is the health value comparison
between competitive LeftBrain dominant educational disciplines
and cooperative Right/Left predominate deep learning co-invitations?

What is the therapeutic value
noticing differences between invidious comparisons
and virtuous contrasts,
between bipolar oppositions
and dipolar co-arising appositions?

What is difference
and sameness
within non-violently healthy communication
and compassionately wealthy co-empathy?

What are cooperative tipping point systems
in-between ecological LeftBrain health-cultures
and theological RightBrain sanctuary climates?
Between secular
and sacred,
and spirit,
and inhale,
compete against pressure
and cooperate with atmosphere?

What is the difference
between a win/lose agnostic
about Earth’s sacred integrity
and a Win/Win bicameral humanist
within Earth’s health-optimizing
regenerative synergy?

What is cooperatively owned
pantheistic DNA
and profoundly democratic-trust energy,
bicamerally trans-humanistic,
polyculturally self/other empowering,
Win/Win co-investment
in wealth of health nutritional
bio- and geo-systems,
ego- and eco-therapeutic networks
yang- and yin-healing operations?


AzaRiah’s Earth Requiem

He was too old
to speak of active hope
for ancient creamy dreams
not yet boldly told

Inviting curious homeless nomads
to imagine what we could become
if we were not yet brazenly born
into this time of tragic burning,
predicting hunger,
and coastal drowning nakedness.

Into this epic brown despair
AzaRiah was innocently born
within fading red shadows
of a crumbling
white cathedral.

She never knew an old Golden Era
of endless capital expansion
and monopolistic worship
defying GoldenRules
applied to those like her,
the least and blackest last
of Earth’s Golden SpaceTime Ratio.

AzaRiah’s stormy education
had no LeftBrain Ego v NotEco luxury
to ponder why 2D full moons
are also 4D revolving half-lit norms,

Why spatial nomials
predict temporal bilateral binomials,

Why positive polypaths
predict not not negative
polyphonic ultra-nonviolence,

Why binary Zero
fulfilling One bipolar Zone
predicts double-binary 0/1
wave-linear dipolar co-arising
win/win DNA resplendent Tone,

Why fractal-structured regenerativity
nativity predicts octave spiraling scales
of resonant
resilient non-degenerativity.

She was much too busy
singing with hurricane winds,
listening for flaming conflagrations
of reactionary hate,
inviting still small ecofeminist circles
to dance again with GrandMother Moon
in compassion’s silent storms,
self and other recreating
perpetual healthcare perception

Belonging in grateful silence
where her grandfathers
spoke with terrified tears
of Earth’s great loud longing.