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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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EarthHealth Justice

Human healthy trust ecological experience,
including wealthy peak sensory transubstantiations,
uniquely recreate Divine sacred co-empathic feelings
of theological confluence,

InterReligious mystical integrity
enveloping what had been felt,
before this timeless temporal metamorphosis,
as a more autonomous egocentric identity.

Theo/Eco-Logical neuro-systemic communication
of inside/outside/sacred-co-inside echoing
co-incidental relationships
reframe compassion’s regenerative processes

Such as indigenous
pantheistic
theological integrity
co-arising shared sacred feelings
of anticipated/anxious sensory longing
for win/win EarthTribal resilient
resonant re-connection
re-ligious Awe
re-weaving Wonder
regenerating peace

Restoring
Re-storying EarthMother past narratives
of pristine
sacred pre-Anthropocene
pantheistic health
is also perennial Golden Rule
co-arising humane climate recovering
bicameral
bipartisan
divinely beautiful wealth.

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Seventh Generation ReOrientation

What have we learned?

What is our big 2020 revision takeaway
from this win/lose
zero-sum failure

To transparently cooperate
for our most inclusive win/win health
and long-term safety,
economic
and political
and social
and physical
and mental health
resilience?

From my own observation,
probably colored
multihued and complexly patterned
by Integral Permaculture Design,

And Community Mediation
for restorative peace resolutions
in perennial win/lose retributive conflict situations,
clashes between conservative LeftBrain dominant
and liberal RightBrain interdependent cultures.

  1. To optimize resilience
    for at least the next seven generations,
    the next 140 years,
    bringing us to the year 2160

Here, on our cooperatively co-invested home planet,
we could choose to return to indigenous wisdom,
to include health and safety of our trees,
our neighbors,
rivers,
our soil
our water supply,
our green renewable energy resources,
our fresh and clean river valleyed breezes,
our plants,
our domestic animals,
our wild animal cousins
our sacred EarthMothers.

We do better when our healthy safe priorities
remain broadly contextualized,
less LeftBrain boundaried,
broadening our ecosystemic spatial identities
and deepening our speciated individuation
back through monotheistic history
of this now troubling
post-millennial
StraightWhiteMale privileged
LeftBrain corporately dominant
Anthropocene

Predicting unprecedented ecocide,
genocide,
rabid polarization,
economic divestment
and overwhelming political mistrust

During which no healthy democracy
could resiliently endure
as long as our infrastructure,
concrete
steel beamed
bricks and mortar,
budgets and financial planning,

Omit choosing cooperative win/win games
and ecofeminist green co-investment strategies
for health and safety
of our now excluded trees,
plants,
planet

EarthTribe
everyday multiculturing
sacredly resonant
creolization liturgies
of LeftBrain co-intelligence
loving RightBrain co-empowerment.

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Alpha’s Omega Passion

I am recirculating red
and dark blue blood,
through veins
and springing arterials
of integrity’s compassion

Altering
wounding segregated pathologies
of death avoidance
not life danced

When we
together
see Alphas
StraightWhiteMale dominating
every space
in timeless now

Circulating Anthropocenic
panentheistic parching Earth
in Alpha taste
and touch
and see

Omega’s green capital face
and organic viscera,
MeWe Janus de-polarized
feeling dizzy
with dissonance

Traumatized
by unsecretive eyes
for not-not objectives

With healthy names
usurped by straight
white anthro-engoddened men
no one dare name
or look upon
without shame,
monotheistic
punishing blame

Throughout our dynamic history
of multiculturally systemic
panentheistic
iconic
sacred becoming universe

Omega’s tipping point
toward integral win/win
strategic green
bi-hemispherically balancing
co-messianic intelligence

Recirculating red
and dark blue blood,
through veins
and springing Alpha arterials
of integrity’s Omega co-passion.

Note: Note: Inspired and written in dialogue with Jorge Luis Borges’ “The Aleph”, pp. 130-131.

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Distancing Communication

Distancing communication
seems like an oxymoron,
like dissonant communion.

My ego center speaks communication
while my organic systemic body listens
for communion

Discerning what feels confluent,
resonant with ecological
health is wealth
EarthTribal indigenous experience

AND what feels like aggressive,
possibly predative,
lose/lose DIScommunication
distressed communication
dissonant noise
dissociative distancing,
sometimes ominously silent
dormant
terminal absence
of verbal communication

AND what feels like dualistic
win/lose MIScommunication,
missed cooperative win/win opportunity
too Either my way
Or hit the highway
competitively risky,
too egocentric
too anthrosupremacist
too StraightWhiteMale privileged
too LeftBrain verbally dominant
too lacking co-passion,
too unwoke,
but feeling more like ignorance
than lose/lose malignant
despairing
pathological intent
to DIScommunicate.

My ecosystemic body feels
Trust in win/win active hope,
DIStrust for surviving lose/lose despair,
economic and ecological degeneration,
MIStrust of win/lose monoculturing monopolies
monotheistic
monochromatically anthrosupremacist

Preachers
and teachers
of pure white
bright paternalistic capitalism
as Earth’s only way
truth
life toward healthy salvation.

Trust breeds neuro-systemic integrity.
DIStrust feeds overwhelming feelings
of violently weaponed despair.
MIStrust of win/lose
either/or
LeftBrain dominant thinking
not compliant with ecologically healthy experience
is, on my best feeling days
and peace dreaming nights,
a therapeutic opportunity tool
for responding to health risk trauma.

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Blues Boating Home

Human history is difficult;
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
and sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy

Through co-empathic singing passions
which may,
too often,
feel stressful

Irritating
depressing
stormy
before unconditional win/win regard
for Self AND Other
reconnect,

Like EgoTheistic re-ligion
and EcoMatriarchal
indigenously multicultural
wisdom

Of Ego/EarthTribe mutual becoming
more green therapeutic together
than win/lose competitive
dissociating
controlling and too egocentric
and too anthro-dominant
held too LeftBrain supremacist
apart.

On my drive back
to my blue turbulent home,
I struggle with postpartum depression,

Common when I separate
from spiritual sojourner musicians,
fellow wandering sacred wonderers
would-be soul-full,
not hopelessly ego-engorged, harmonizers
and intuitive dancers,
expressively embodied movers
and economic-political shakers,
mindful ecological leaders
and GoodNews infused chorus girls
and everyday win/win polyphonic boys,
maturely compassionate men and women
and exotic in-between
bodhisattva polytheists.

Why am I feeling irritated
against you?

What could I have said
and gestured,
and shared,
and done,
and not done
to let you know,
to let you in
on how unheard
unseen
and unappreciated I am feeling
as this evening,
this mortal life,
this sacred opportunity
slides
and swims
and sails by.

In more recent weeks
our original intent
to listen deeply
with informed compassion
for wounds
becoming unweaponed,
for win/win communion therapies
that join
conjoin
rejoin past win/lose traumas
feels unraveled,
sidetracked,
drydocked
in issues about pain,
suffering,
loss of control,
severances overwhelming renewals,
universal climatic turbulence
flooding remaining hopes
for unitarian green/blue EarthTribe
boating peaceful home.

Why do you seem so triggered
by alpha stressed competitions
with our sometimes surprisingly controlling
too egocentric
capitalistic spiritual director,
sacred leader,
ecopolitical peace activist,
theological love teacher,
ecological panentheistic mentor,
health-is-wealth core care facilitator,
multicultural mediator,
operations conductor
of musicians, at our musing
and amusing best,
and not cacophonously win/lose strategists
at our distrusting
and mistrusting worst.

I become curious
about why you want to control
our musical mountainous expression
of plain and solid standing
to sing together
by remaining distant
from my inside rolling oceans
of peak sensory
musical movement experiences.

Why do you seem less curious
about how I struggle to joyfully continue sailing
never, ever having known safe harbor
or healthy home portal,
on this straight white privileged place?

Sailing on this epic journey
for positive regard
that I know,
without shadows of depressing doubt,
will stand
and sit
and lie,
listen and speak and sing with me
as I am embraced
with all my woundedness
and all our co-empathic sacred brilliance
to joyfully celebrate,
quietly appreciate,
gratefully acknowledge
everyday sacraments
of kindred sailing souls

Making our blue ways home
under stars of full moon heavens
embracing revolutions
of therapeutic light
and traumatic night,
wondering

How frightening it feels
to age away from peak mental
spiritual
physical
natural control

Facing inevitable mortal degeneration
threatening to steal back
my sureness
that below Me
and within
We feel no motion,
no terrifying emotion
while standing firmly in control
of this plain
everyday
yet mountainous
musical event

Of rolling co-operations
and conflicts,
voiced and hidden,
in overwhelm surviving mode
so not able to access confident
curious co-thrival
co-passionate means
to deeply listen
and appreciate
being born to sail this Earth
together in this time
of climatic changing
blue boat swamping terror

Within the fathoms
of our turbulent oceanic universe,
traveling salt-teared Earth
driving home
wondering why you are now less curious
about why my fluidly
legato love story
requires a cappella blues,
reflective repetitions,
emotive nuances
as slow
and widely engaged,
deeply felt
as floating thoughts
diving into EarthTribe’s most sacred
peak systemic experiences

Blue blues
rolling through oceans
of warm
salty wet Earth tears
of universal compassion

ReMembering
human history is difficult,
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
with sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy
sacred mused harmonics.

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Song of LoveSongs

Prologue in BrideVoice

Let Him kiss me
with his patriarchal
colonizing
monotheistic straight white mouth.

His Yang passion
is more blissful than intoxicating wine;
delicate
elegant
integral in fragrance
of his scent,

His rich capital name
is a regenerating wet
warm oil poured
spasmodically out
and that is why
WoMan loves divine Man.

Lead me in your sacred footsteps,
let us run together.

EmPowering Yang has seduced me
into his unenlightened bedroom;

Sacred Integrity will become our wombed joy
and our climatic gladness.

WoMen shall praise your co-passion
more widely
and deeply than exotic
darkly erotic wine;

How right[brain]
we feel
and fail
to co-passion left
with only Us.

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Divine Integrity

Integrity
pursues a sacred panentheistic journey
in conjoining interdependence

While integrity’s sacred potential
is a still emergent
health-wealth salvific optimizing
transcendent engoddessing
EarthTribal progressive process

Of co-passionate
eternally timeless
momentary being
becoming united
through humble-theistic co-relationship,

Both sacredly We divine
and secularly Me humane.

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Straight White Privileged Silence

Listen to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans
wavering white noiselessness
of silent futile passing

Absence of passion
hope
care
happiness
or creased
and reasoned sadness.

Hear this void of madness,
lack of hunger
or parched thirst
for conversation
splendid nutrition
scandalous emission
empowering immigration
enlightened emigration
or angry fear emanation
of forced solitude migration

Into mortal loss
of sensory reception
political deception
economic perception
theistic inception
septic conception.

Smell nothing.
Taste everything
becomes dust
delustered rust
lust for transcendent
disembodied consummation
omnipresent transportation
omniscient evaporation
full latitude
for fragrance-free
plastic platitudes
feckless attitudes
disdainful blows
to further fertile emanations.

Sing where nothing
settles into rounding octave rings
to never
ever want to dance
in robust spirals
again

Against depressions
felt repressions
thought impressions
known suppressions
unheard deflation
worn through integration
transcultural conflation

Of panentheistic elegant Zeroes
absorbed by a monstrous
monopolistic silent
slick One

Listening to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans,
white emptiness
of silent
restless passing.

Glare at it.
Rake it in.
Sleep with it
if you dare
to care
without an inch
or squeezed moment
to spare.

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On Religious Integrity

Let us begin
by explicitly undressing
what may have been
implicitly held
multicultural feelings:

  1. For the overwhelming masses
    of teeming and scheming
    healthy human adults,
    and especially adolescents,
    peak sexual experiences
    are also our peak
    lifetime
    spiritual experiences
    of compassion
    co-passion
    shared orgasmic passion.
  2. Our elder right hemispheres do not,
    because they cannot,
    distinguish between spiritual
    and mental
    health,
    brain
    and body wealth.

With these two declared assumptions,
please join in revisiting
public sector sensitive issues
about constitutionally protected
religious freedom
in the USA,
and probably in other
monotheistic
left hemisphere dominant
cultures,
making privileged spaces
for straight
male sensory places.

Religious expression
is rooted
in spiritual/mental
healthy felt connected
safe experience
of win/win nonviolent communication,
compassionate communion
sacred memories.

Family businesses
and corporate executive boards
and healthcare professionals
are constitutionally allowed
to make choices
inconsistent with our own
interdependent spiritual/mental peak
win/win
panentheistic organic experience

But, such a profound lack of integrity
does not help us develop
a more universally democratic
and multicultural frame
of spiritual/mental health care,
well-being
prosperity
resonance
resilience.

Whether nonviolence practitioners
can be constitutionally obligated
to pay war and military,
violence and win/lose aggression,
consumptive capitalist exploitation,
and weapons development and production
taxes
and yet retain meaningful constitutional protection
for spiritual freedom of co-passionate conscience
becomes left brain cognitively complex,
if not downright chaotic.

Whether faith-based communities
can continue to be tax-exempt
feels as clear as democratic
multiculturally celebrated
separation of nonviolent religious expression
and nation-state defensive affiliation

Why a minute of silent
compassion-focused spiritual/mental experience
feels both constitutionally appropriate
and healthy democracy useful
for opening self/other governance meetings,
team huddles,
graduations and commencements
from and into great
and even smaller public transitional events,
bolstering spiritual/mental health resilience
of shared trust consciousness.

Whether inclusive multicultural
non-supremacist religious symbols,
such as a PeaceDove,
a Chalice of communal hope,
a messianic Manger scene,
and a Menorah,
can be installed in public spaces
to evoke spiritual/mental health experiences
and not toxic memories
of homophobic,
racist,
sexist victimization,
trauma,
and chronic stress experiences,
may depend on how inclusive
and compassionate
our own childhood
and adolescent
peak social health experiences
were celebrated,
revered,
honored,
appreciated.

Whether spiritual/mental health education systems
can effectively exclude
non-supremacist expressions
of positive faith
in peak sensory experiences
in the classroom
may depend on whether we believe
a healthy democracy
is rooted in trust
or in capitalism’s competitive
mutual mistrust.

Whether faith-based non-profits
can apply on equal egalitarian footing
with secular corporate privileged organizations
for compassion regenerating
governing grants
to increase spiritual/mental health experiences,
may depend on whether we are remembering
good faith peak experiences
or bad faith competitive
fear of losing out
bullying experiences.

Whether healthy win/win
faith-based communities
and individuals can,
and even must,
advocate for public policies,
including integral health care,
that are consistent with their membership’s
most personal spiritual/mental health experience,
or not so much

These issues
and peak spiritual experience concerns
about loss of healthy wealth
also pertain to freedom
of nonviolent communication speech.

Compassionate communication,
win/win freedom
of resonant
primal inter-relationship,
is the fundamental healthy democracy
trust experience
on which all other integral rights
to spiritual/mental health
are rooted,
wombed,
incubated,
rewoven,
morphed,
regenerated.

On the other hand,
if we begin with different,
more dualistic
and monotheistic assumptions
about this relationship between synergetic religious
and peak spiritual/mental experience
of everyday sacred connection,
then our constitutional conclusions
may vehemently
and irreconcilably
and dogmatically
differ.

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