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Appropriately Polite Company

It seems maniacal,
Black Rabbit Hole easy
kinda sleazy
to sexualize every thought

And, yet,
all too easy
to desexualize
to decontextualize
multisensory feelings
deep and widely organic
roots from ancient EarthMother wisdom

Sometimes polycultural transparency above
conjoining multicultural vulnerability below
give peak orgasmic conversational sway

To passion’s Left/Right co-balancing day
of protruding Yang verbal dominance
seducing Yintegrity’s river-valleyed
eagerly inviting pre-verbal
pregnant wombs of co-invested
cooperative win/win interests
in peak and valley neurosystemic
indigenous traditions,
spiritedly natural

Seldom known to partisan politics
and weaponized capitalistic
colonizing rapacious prominence
of patriarchal nationalistic populism

As if, somehow,
matriarchal EarthTribe integrity
of deeply thought/felt hearts
with womanist
deep valley ecopolitical minds
were less morally appropriate
than indecent ecocidal exposure.

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Grand Mothers Day Dream

My husband and I always enjoy visiting
GrandMother Eartha
on Mother’s Day

She often shares
last night’s dreams,
which often follow rather disturbing peak experience themes

Because,
you know,
or maybe not because,
how would I know?

Dreams about Her Straight White AlphaMale trauma

Or maybe inspired by emotional
and sensory neglect
from both SunGod Light
and EarthGoddess Powers
exercised back when GrandMother Eartha
was a fairly happy hooker,
addicted to patriarchal voices
of enlightenment.

She likes to teach us how to share
Her deepest co-invested dreams

In densely present nervous moments
felt native and indigenous
vulnerable and transparent,
healthy and safely sacred

Without grasping
for Business As Usual top-down,
1 PolyNomial YangPole
always feels better
stronger
more immediately…
uhm…
satisfied?

More importantly than
not-not 0-Soul Yintegral Black Hole,
as clearly as +1P, YangPolarity
is healthier and safer than -(-P), Yintegrity

LeftBrain invariant languaged
1 polar light
is better and stronger
than 0 round
empowering whole night
of lunar stars
and wisdom bright

Bilateral appositions
dreaming of less traumatic experiences
while therapeutically servicing
Great White AnthroFather hubris
in whatever worshipful ways
might have felt more sacredly successful,
perhaps even more cooperatively satiating,
possibly even more verbally co-invested
and especially nonverbally co-infested…

Nonviolently communicating,
with eyes and ears wide open,
enjoying sacred smells
and tastes,
touched by voice
and mutual choice
felt secularly lusty
and sacredly trusted

Co-empathic
1/0 ego/eco-balancing
convex/concave co-habitating peak
hysterical
and herstoric
and therapeutic
bicameral double-binary experience
ecobalancing GrandMother’s
bodhisattva EarthTribe

Her way of dreaming
inhumane rapacious past’s intrusion
on Her sacred Dream experience
re-connecting ecofeminist equity

Found by choosing felt sacred presence
through Win/Win ego/eco-therapeutic dreams
filled out in timeless co-presence

Anticipating Great 0/1 ReGenerative Transitions
toward polyculturally positive
Green Health/Wealth TraumaPrevention
bihemispheric neurosensory opportunities.

When GrandMother awoke
just now,
within this Mother’s Day Dream
she remembered previously sharing

When we awaken
we can choose
healthy-left Green Polypaths
AND wealthy-right Red
Straight White AnthroMale privileged
monoculturing monopolies
of both FatherSun Light
and MotherEarth Power

Re-exploring curious mindbodies
expand emergent win/win
evolving dreams
and lives
and loves,
bipartisan co-passions
felt healthy at their peak
and wealthy in our valleys,
so to speak
of core dream values
appropriate to Mother’s Day,
of course

Notice
GrandMother Eartha instructs,
positions,
patterns
and rhymes
and rhythms
more Right MindBody

Your positive intentions
will re-emerge
when you take one timeless moment
to sit
and receive minute messages

Notice
dark inside
and lighter outside sounds
voices
filling verbal air
and nonverbal atmospheres
around
and within multi-sensing integral awareness
of interdependent you

Ego synergetic sensations
rooted in phylogenic deep memories
in bilateral arms
and legs
and eyes
and ears
and nostrils
and lungs
and bicameral hearts
and mind-spirit hemispheres
dreaming ecofeminist left win/wins
and nightmares of AnthroPatriarchal
monotheistic right Revengeful Wins
overtrump Sacrificial EcoFeminist Losses

Multisensory memories
of traumatic duty
to service the AlphaMale’s
darkest pleasures
without equally considering
my own polysensory
peak therapeutic experiences

In age
and time
and place appropriate
Mother’s Day Timeless moment,

Much of what we complexly receive
with all six sensory receivers
now feel much more complexly peaking
in long dense sensing
intense awareness

Of relationships felt here before
and resurging now

Becoming more densely organic
re-organizing win/win thriving

Positive win/win enlightenment
and not-not merely felt faith empowering
ecofeminist bodhisattva

Eartha’s Day dreaming
peak multisensory experiences
co-arising dipolar
found and round
rewound unraveling
enlightening SunGod
empowering EarthGoddess
polyculturally embracing
strong polar 1 and flowing round 0

In/Out Binary for ecological health
and Whole Open EarthTribe
resilient safety again

Still moving forward
through this now surpassing Mother’s Day

Dreams can out-embrace
this inside felt
silent peace pace
in resonant space

Between polynomial Language
speaking of polynormative

Denying win/lose
as anomalous trauma
contextualizing future win/win
economic and political
and multisensory persuasions

Healing GrandMother’s
LeftBrain invariant
concavely traumatized ego
yet also
outside convexly too eco-competitive

For Mother’s Day
mindful intention,
HealthyLeft and WealthWise Right
bicameral balancing hemispheres
Here/Now copresent

Liberally conserving EarthTribe presence
in universal dreams of peace
restoring justice
while Self/Other win/wins reorganize
polyvagal polypathic delight

In both win and lose rediscovery
of paradoxical
SunGod trauma invites EarthMother therapy
daoist Light and Power dreams
of Yang/Yintegral Balance

Mother’s Day moment
avoiding lose/lose despair,
dark depression,
degeneration

Straight White AlphaMale Historical
Religious and Royalist Colonizing Supremacy
distaste
bad smell,
tightening of the posterior,
custody of the eyes
and all those other shameful
and blameful
judged insufficient organs
unorganized
to resist
and bend to receive,
as is my prostate duty.

In better
and healthier,
wealthier and wiser
EarthTribe dreams

restoring justice
and Mother Eartha’s forgiveness
for raping
what She would have gladly
sacred peak experience given
gracefully
multi-sensorily received

If you could have been more polite
and grateful
for health care nonverbally given
as wealth more penetratingly perceived
with unconditional warm regard

Especially as compared
to good old red-blooded
rapacious colonizing days.

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Mindfulness As Usual

If I had an IQ of 17,
would this be normal?

My son,
with cerebral palsy,
no language capacity, no LeftBrain ability to read or write
or speak using linguistic tools,
with no hint of verbal or violent dominance issues,
has an angelic peace-loving IQ
in the 17 ballpark

On several behavioral measures of IQ
(does he have a swallow reflex?
Does he flinch
if his toe is pinched
or his foot is tickled?).

For him,
this IQ is normal,
when he’s feeling healthy,
relatively free of trauma
(including social
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theological
and biological, etc.),

Having a good win/win cooperative,
synergetic,
unconditionally warm regarding day.

And, for me,
his IQ seems normal,
or he would not be
the magnificent young man I know
and love
and care for
and listen to,

As he most times sits in silent
(hopeful bliss?)

Yet sometimes roars his verbal agency
to be seen
with unconditional warm regard
and heard with warm and sacred prophecies,

Our indigenous EarthTribe time
will never be less wisdom
than restoring ecojustice
compassionately co-invested
healthy and safe enough.

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Deep Valleys

Perilous fall risks
these double-binding thoughts
with feelings still nascently attached
positive and negative,
often complexly ambiguous
as an old variegated sock
chew toy

Stumbled over in emotive colored sequences
contrasting tasteful language
comparing visions sweet and sour,
bland touch not grand
but better than feeling bitter
qualitative resonant/dissonant scales
of magnificent maleficence
and malicious magnificence

Narrow
overflowing personally compelling
dispelling private passions
remain within a high and wide
yet deep and narrow
multigenerational polyculture
of co-empathic compassion

To heal sacred MaternalEarth
and thereby correlate
all Her multiculturing
divinely languaged
singularly health-hearted
dizzying slip-shod business

Positive and negative
universal uniting
and severing
ecopolitically co-invested emotions

Eco-logically restorative
climate resilient growing
peaceful co-messymanic valleys
of resonant reconnection

As reliable as an old
hand knit pair
of variegated socks
before repurposed
as sacred scented chewtoys.

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DisEngaging Privilege

ReEngaging Integrity

How might the ego-narrative
of a sacred Tree
speak most profoundly
of old growth economic
and political
environmental trauma?

How might MotherTrees
avoid sacred Self-serving
by secularizing Other-deserving
separating and unequal
StraightWhiteMonoTheisticMale privilege
to punish
disturbing chronic anxiety
approach/avoid issues of mind/spirit integrity
about being personally fed and bred
through not healthy best separate,
but more co-related,
and not a sustainably healthy organism
or wealthy unequal organization
AND [more saliently sacred]

A historically patriarchal-capitalist
LeftBrain verbal monoculturing
anthro-supremacist vendetta
against the unconditionally warm co-passionate
communion communication
expected of a MotherTree
in a healthy, robust forest

Constantly repurposed
and mined
and pumped
and glorified,
grasped
and let go,
squeezed in
and freely exhaled,
to embrace
and release
Other’s Mother MinoriTree narratives

To discover what Her AnthroTree words
and nomials
variables uncovered
and co-relationships
recovered
positive and negative correlations
balanced and rebalancing
exclamatory peak
and declamatory valleyed phrases

Her ecocidal non-applause pause
might betray
negative core EarthLife feelings
emerging slow-grown
Anthro-panentheistic
inter-religious
multiculturing
creolizing
co-passion

And monotheistic despairing loneliness
of self-love EarthLoss of Life
eternal isolation

Of love and monoculturing hate
and fear and polycultural rebate

Of Win/Win surprising Aha! peak experiences,
ecstatic and/or exotic and/or erotic,
and Win/Lose frustrations
and sadness
about kinda stupid malevolent competitions,
while prying for more therapeutically peaceful
outcomes.

How might the TreeEgo’s trauma narrative
disengage from ecocidal Lose/Lose despair
to search for deeper roots
toward Earth health care
through restoring therapeutic justice
and cooperative peace repair

Restoring ego/communal
bilateral
bipartisan
cooperative TaxPayer-Ego/Eco Justice

Embracing universal warm
unconditional health care values

Discovering
uncovering extended pre-historical family trees
recovering from Othered long-suffering
win/lose
sawdusted up
stress-ringed
drought and buggy matriarchal histories

Suffering win/lose servants
shading EarthTrauma blisterings

To recover systemic win/win health care
forest re-constitutional optimization
and co-invested resilience
in this inter-religious polyculture
of multiculturally co-rooted
deep learning CoMediators

She may hear
what AnthroTribe is feeling
and She cares about our empowerment
and S/He is curious about
our potential sacred meaning
co-invested
enlightenment
of a MinoriTree’s Trauma
Therapeutic ReHashed
Smashed EarthHistory.

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Earth Hugging

What could I do?

What to do
when your biological,
and even formerly sober ecological,
relationships suddenly veer insanely romantic?

Or worse,
mistrustful
and yet
not always distrustful,
or not,
maybe deeper sadness
and occasional manic gladness
emerging inclusively wider questions
of approach and/or avoid

Both romantic
and yet soberly pedantic
sometimes before,
to plan, for after
feeling up
and/or sore
predicts anxiously down,
as genocide
predicts ecocide,
as biological attraction
follows ecological co-invested transaction
secular lust
must be felt sacred just
to know need for win/win romance
from greed for a winner take all
anthroprivileged chance
to flex power
without sharing light,
capital wealth
without nutritional health,
disvalues of Yang infestment
without Yintegral co-investment values
predation
without co-operative elation

My rabid rabbit hole
suddenly re-opening inter-religiously
grasping indigenously divine romantic
mystery
or sacred nomadic history
not told
or remembered

When mother trees
and father limbs
felt sexy
and bark,
like skin,
felt consensual,
ecologically curious
and biologically courageous

Mystically nondualistic
Yanged up healthy
and yet also,
more kinda ecofeminist
Yintegral safe sex
yet curiously pantheistic MotherEarth
[is, and is not my sacred EarthMother]
outrageously romantic wombing

What to do when
win/win romantic co-investments
don’t go green cooperative ecstatic
resiliently resonating peak experience?

Instead, may feel not just egotistic
but also HumanPredative
pedantic privilege
more than ecologically resilient
and/or romantically brilliant,
depending, I suppose,
on which side of the secular courage
v sacred curiosity
I may feel,
and need,
and want this day

Worshipping manly mountains
and crouching in warm breezed grassy valleys
multiculturally enlightening
and polyculturally empowering

New ego/eco-logical systemic questions
about what to do
when One dominating monotheistic
StraightWhiteMale
dogmatically scripted
incorporated
religion in Power

And yet
disproportionately GrandMother funded
and nurtured
and fed
while marginalized,
still feeling disenfranchised
and stuck

On what to do
when your biological
and even formerly ecological
sacred relationships
suddenly veer insanely win/win romantic

I suppose it has something to do with
avoiding your personal slam-bam purposes
to feed and breed
our EarthRevival slow-grown
inspiraling cooperative
deep sacred meaning
is also highest and best mindbody use,
not abuse

Tipping WuWei toward
P = N(NP)
equitable chance
of ego/eco-systemic
win/win resilient
bio/eco-logical resonant
brilliance,
as LeftBrain Either/Or
Light v Dark
is to RightBrain Both/And
+1/-(-0)= PolyMathic EcoPolitical Equity

Expressed in
polyvagal neuro-systemic communication
polypathic eco-systemic not not mental health systemic
natural/spiritual
thought/felt trauma prevention
internal/external resonant affection
resiliently romantic
good health humored
co-inspiring balance issues

Which keep obsessively
and compulsively,
defensively
and liberally
avoiding
and approaching
fleeing courage
and fighting/freezing curiosity
looping back
to what should I do
when my biological health
fights my former ecological wealth
of co-empathic communication systems,
suddenly and insanely veering
pan-sensory win/win romantic?

Seems a whole lot more
than merely not so win/lose traumatic.

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Narcissists Unanimous

I might feel grand
aspiring to omnipotent
omniscience

Whereupon omnipresence
might feel less necessary,
or even possible,
or desirable

In a secularized
reduced
dissociated apartheid,
sacred Us v sinful Them

An omnipotently inflammatory place
for every Other individual thing
and all Other routine
and orthodox Things,

Omnipresent capital events
in anonymously rational
linear
fundamentally dualistic frames

Either sacred Me
or secularized You
will win our antagonistic win/lose
evolving worldview news

Preferably reduced from
supremely anthro-privileged
down deep into
my ego’s highest omnipotent potential
best win/win omniscience sacredly encircled
to ubiquitously favor
least global cost
and most localized efficient
ego/eco healthcare
resonant balance

In a way not omnipotently possible
nor omnipresently invited
nor yet omnisciently compassioned

If only we were more adept
at losing win/lose
and playing win/win
Gods and Goddesses,
OmniPresent Icons
and OmniPotent Idols

Inviting sacred Gaian EcoFeminist spaces,
omnisciently omnipotent places,
unconditionally disregarding
LeftBrain Iconic Narks
Phallic Idols,
profit prophets
for Narcissists Unanimous.

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Inside Climate Mess

Inside monotheistic ego aware
feeling
outside polytheistic co-empathic

These inside enlightened intuitions
outside verbal empowering cognitions
reflecting cooperative
in-between positive co-relationship
representing explicit wants
and implied needs

Win/Win co-relational regard
awareness
noticing all genetic roads lead back
back
back

To outside EarthTribe stabilization
inside
four-dimensional whole system fractals

Winters inside dormant outside

Springing active outside leading
feeding inside wealth of hunger
and healthy thirst

Summer ego/eco-climaxing systems
nurturing nutritional
identity individuation
full Yang cooperative maturation

Falling mortal outside leaves
failing freezing young root systems,
buried inside nuts
and seeds
of potential refertility

Autumn’s harvest integrity
reflecting
fomenting inside naked souls
feeding outside depleted soil

Positively regarding balance
tipping winter solstice promise
of ecosystemic past inside
and future outside
regenerations

Yet to EarthTribe thrive
despite genocidal
climate warnings

Inside ego aware
encultured feelings
outside co-empathic.

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Funeral For A BiPolar Alien

Friends,
Trumpians,
EcoFeminists

We gather here
to no longer hear divisions
across a win/lose
zero-sum aisle
so we can see revisions
within a win/win
nonzero-exponential
future free of buried guile.

Green flowing fullness
no longer mourned
for lost love of deep polytheistic
polyculturing wealth
buried in deep
indigenous
metaphoric meaning

RedBlooded LeftBrain anthro-alien exceptionalism
may open whole resurrection systems
to universal anthro-healing skillsets
widely re-educating
re-birthing
re-incarnating analogical
ecological
theological shared purposes

For getting,
and not forgetting to get,
out of bed healthy
and potentially happy
win/win optimistic

Even on this cold
wet grey Monday morning
buried inside claustrophobic
windowless
closed door
meet and meet
and greet and regreet
and regreet meetings
curiously scheduled
and rescheduled
and unscheduled
and overscheduled burials
of hidden win/lose agendas

Continuing sacred graveside
all afternoon
on into early dusk
late life
of peace returning
eventide outside

Benediction
for formerly divided
green ecofeminist aliens
and our redblooded
health happy wealth
of inside/outside allies.

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When Profound Feels Sacred

My youngest
of three AfricanAmerican adopted sons
has profound nonwhite
nonstraight
nonverbal cerebral palsy.

Profound
in at least not being privileged
or victimized
by internal LeftBrain dominance,
violent micro-aggressions,
zero-sum competitive thinking

Either positively True and Good
or negatively False and Bad,
laughable
or humorless

Sacred indigenous consciousness
feels more Right-Elder brainstem
bodymind nondualistic synergy
friendly energy
which is my son’s political blessing
and his capital secularizing
segregating
colonizing
economic disabled curse.

Youngest son communes
with music
more fluidly co-empathic
than linguistic communications

He touches
and sings
and chants
through echoing shouts
and exclamatory barks,
short nonphonetic phrases,
lip smacking,
and belly laughs.

When he cries,
which is seldom,
he cries silently

No vocal cords

Profound inhaling wet gasps
and exhaling sad sacred shakes.

He laughs unconditionally
from his root chakra
warm unguarded soul
and cries
from his buddha
bicameral eyes.

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