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Choosing Happiness

Tonight I heard a terminally cancered
yet not cancelled
singer songwriter say
“I can’t wait for life to not be hard
before choosing to be happy.”

She spoke well from her own experience
and I remain moved,
but also curiously confused
about physical v mental
hardness.

For someone with chronic depression
or suffering from loneliness,
chronic climate anxiety,
lack of nonviolent
and actively compassionate communication,
pathological attachments,
monocultural self-depreciation,
transparent and vulnerable dissociation,

For someone profoundly missing
resonant and resilient
spiritual and natural healthy wealth,
mental and physical,
sacred and secular,

Our primary suffering
includes not having ego-empowering
and cooperatively enlightened choices
to be happy,
nor healthy.

Although, perhaps more individual choice
can be slow-grown
to positively engage EarthMother’s outside nurture
with robust healthy integrity,
intent,
cooperative investment practice,
courage,
active curiosity and hope,

Lurking,
hanging out,
furtively searching around dark mystic
re-connecting sacred corners
for co-empathic compassion,
light,
power,
sufficient win/win energy
not feeling outside alone
as also inside lonely,

Not feeling heterosexual
as also homophobic,
any more

Or less than I can
and will power
to enlighten health wealthiest opportunities

Here as Now engagement
is not over There and Then war
against PatriarchalCapitalist PC Them v Healthy Us

Left spatial seen
and heard consecutive Right deductions,
temporal happiness reductions,
felt and touched cumulative inductions
of each ego LeftBrain dominant voice
is not hopelessly PC alone
bereft of ecosystemic RightMind
felt Here/Now happy
healthy EarthMother’s solidarity choice.

To choose existential EarthHappiness,
sacred celebrating sacramental joy,
divine con-celebration,
is to choose to extend
and embrace polyculturing health

InsideSpace as Outside PC Time,
Ego as part of Earth’s healthy resonating
WholySpirit inspiring
to choose optimizing integral AnthroWealth
of ego/eco-resilient compassion

PhysicalHere/MentalNow
throughout Earth’s integral
Space/Time well-being,
with flashes of healing happiness
leisurely breaking through
like dawn seducing sunlight.

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TransCuriosity

That’s queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
panes of misty white fog
gently covering her view
of upstream tiding River’s
mysterious grey
reverse time flow

Sometimes,

OK, really too often,
I could use more courageous exercise

But, Other times
I’m more content, inviting compassionate awareness
of Earth’s queer tidal rivers,
surfing sacred oceans
surrounding anthropocentric privileged Kingdoms

Patristic Empires already capable of replaying WinWin
with both holy bicameral Hands
of better monetized Nature/Spirit Balance
blue/green indigenously wise reconnection
ComPassion ReEducation.

I tire of ageing while standing
inside here now still gazing outside
where all my best copassioned sexual imagination
interdependent neuro-sensory anticipation/anxiety
intersectionally unfolds,

Usually remarkably nonviolent
normatively win/win
without anthropatriarchal
StraightWhiteWesternMale
upstream privileged
reactions against TransIntegral EcoFeminists

My own uncurious RightBrain oppressed nudging
invites for healthier win/win both/and non-shunning
longs to divest of over-capitalized
RightWing patristic
LeftBrain queer dominatrix
curiously demented
EarthBound ManiFestering
GodWord Judging Justice
finds SacredEarth Rapture
compatible with TransMatricide.

MultiGenerational deep learning
ecosystemic education invites these curious Both/And
rivers of misty
RightBrain foggy felt mysteries
nuancing questioning comments
feeding and breeding
nonviolent multiculturing responses

My cooperatively owned QueenCuriosity
anticipates Win/Win cooperative dragging outcomes
predicting ecopolitical transregenderal,
scientifically inclusive,
collaborative communication research
and nutritional transitional change

For climatic rivers of resilient health
multi-tipping up and downstream points
inhaling
while already anticipating
transubstantiating win/win exhales
of re-inspiring recorrections,
great and small transtherapy
for blue/green health education
supporting our best
and brightest,
empowering
and enlightening wealth.

Curiosity naturally thirsts
for enspirited inspiring examples.
Let’s see…
Here (Laudato Si’, #102)
Pope Francis strategically asks,
“How could we not acknowledge the work of many
scientists
and engineers
who have provided alternatives
to make development sustainable?”

Strangely,
my simultaneous queer curiosity
invokes indigenous Nature/Spirit
felt trans-reversion Both/And also asks

How could healthy EarthMothers not acknowledge the work
and Win/Win strategically cooperative play
of many deductive
LeftBrain dominant exploring
capital-starving corporate scientists
and transcultural communication engineers
cooperatively designed mediation empowerers
facilitators
meditators
knowledge follows deep feeling teachers
nonviolent communicating parents
ego/eco-systemic trans-therapists

Who have, together, already provided
way more anthro-supremacist
over-capitalized patrilinear
monoculturally combative alternatives
to make militaristic
inhumane ballistic
LeftBrain On/Off technological Natures
-overpowering-
BothCause/AndEffectiveness co-arising organic-transpiraling Spirits;
thus, degenerating more unsustainable
inhumane
StraightWhiteWesternMale ecopolitical overdevelopment?

“What kind of skills will he or she need
in order to get a job,
understand what is happening around him
or her,
and navigate the maze of life?”
cooperatively researches
and competitively publishes
Yuval Noah Harari
titling 21 Lessons
for the 21st Century
in “Education” (p. 266)

Also transregeneratively asking,
to my troubled embodied
sensory-neural informed mind,
respiring information
and expiring transflowation,

What kind of multicultural communication skills
and polycultural nutrition systems
and health/wealth education networks
will we transcendently feel
and cooperatively want
in order to interconnect with EarthTribe’s win/win
cooperative EarthJustice trans-restory
gracefully co-inviting
sacred pro-blue/green healthy life vocations,

To understand what is locally happening
globally still fog-enshrouded grey around
upstream tidal pushing Him
and within downstream flowing Her

To win/win trans-remediate
co-facilitate
this multi-regenerational
complex space/time big-boxed maze
of co-empathic bicameral love is trans-cerebral life
as hate is apartheid death

In this secular LeftBrain HereSpace
and sacred RightBrain NowTime
yanged yintegrity,
blue/green unitarian
TransCuriously Substantiated Universe…

Still almost back to NonZero
Queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
silently suffering
grey fog-recovering panes.

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UnOrthodox Grace

Unorthodox grace
is not limited to restoring healthy face
that your queer sexual wealthy place
is not your disgrace;

Deviation from hetero-statistical means
is your sacred gift
from EarthQueen

Outstanding difference
is not only
and always
your heavy depleting responsibility;
but also your socially enlightened
and culturally empowering opportunity.

We are not illegitimately unknown
and excommunicated
first and foremost by seed planters
overruling births that could not feel more legitimate
to those innocently born
and those giving graced birth
through organic solidarity–
graced labor rights
of compassionate re-creation.

We are also not legitimately known
by who or what we hate;
But we can become redeemed
by who and what we love.

We may have no more choice
about who
and what
and when
and where
and why
and how we express love
than choice to respond with awe
and wonder,
or boredom
and disdain,
to Earth’s natural inspiring
holistic spirited Beauty
Truths of trusted grace

Revisited each dawn and dusk,
each spring and autumn,
each ocean surf and mountain breeze,
each deepening sea and elevating land,
each plant and harvest,
each beginning and ending
empowering light and dark muses

Of graced beauty
which feels racing true
and recasting healthy,
of the highest
and deepest EarthMother legitimacy,
for safest
universally uniting resilience,

Resonantly robust
multicolored wealth
of unorthodox mind
embodied grace.

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Muse WithOut Music

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
doubly anticipating and anxious times.

Silent hearts invisible
blue quaking lines
not invincible
for surviving today’s healthiest sung purposes,

Yesterday’s
and tomorrow’s musical
deep learned meaning mystery
of living
vibrant
yet unsung
private
hidden history,

Muses of multigenerational culture,
healthy sweeping wealth
and pathological empty
muted stealth

Anxious to avoid loneliness,
a life not mattering,
sputtering,
splattering,
flattering
darkly saturnine,
not working out,
not playing around,
exercising bland premedicated
meditated consciousness
of silence

Within echoing
cacophonous languaged voices
of Earth’s regenerate Muse,
sometimes too desecrated degenerate,
yet always historic co-musicating,
mediating multicultic cultures,
violet
and nonviolent

Silence
between mused notations,
anxious and anticipating
mutations

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up time
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
anxious anticipating rhyme.

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A Place For Everyone

My EarthMom,
whom I worshiped without question
at least until age ten,
often repeated,
“A place for everything
and everything in its place.”

She was usually talking about kitchen tools,
but I took this issue of place
more personally.

By age ten,
I knew universal hospitality
and redemption
do not invite
or even intend
to include me.

Well-placed safe homes
exclude me,
out of place
in a heterosexual world view
and no natural
or spiritual place to hide
except trembling within demonic secrecy.

It took me awhile,
at least a couple decades
of shunning my beloved Mom

To realize my placement problem
has less to do with choosing to hide
in my out of place closet,
and everything to do
with unquestioned dogmatic homophobia
carrying on in the family room.

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Love Hate Comparisons

I want to live in a healthy place,
at least as mature as junior high school,
where who I reciprocally love,
gay or straight or span-sexually in-between,
is not a political and economic football,
a wildly bouncing and rebounding issue
full of hot air
for others to kick around
and divest of
as they lose punishing interest.

Yet who we choose to hate,
deviantly or not,
is a BusinessAsUsual privatized non-issue
for an unhealthy society
to publicly notice
before quickly fading
into private fields
of NO TRESPASSING apartheid.

I would strongly prefer
to never apologize
for who I healthy love,
than unhealthy hate.

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