I would feel our way
toward green restoring justice Earth

Designing integral peace
through Default Mediating Networks
remediating LeftBrain dominant
win/lose thoughts
sniffing toward retribution
before settling into stagnant
self-satisfied
smug silence,
substituting for cooperatively restoring peace.

My resolution opportunities
are as HUGE as my cognitive dissonance stuckness,

What competitive difference could I possibly not make,
pre-structure,
autonomously build,
perennially fight for
and against?

Bicameral Taoists assume
presume
consume
either/or intellectual
and both/and moral commitment,
thought, yet felt,
natural, yet spiritual,
ecological, yet theological,
polypathic, yet polyphonically robust,
most viralish resilient, when also virtuously resonant.

My deep twinned
twining
inter-regenerational natural spirit
demands win/win modeled responses
profoundly left/right bilaterally intersectional.

I find myself
a retributive justice victim
while planning to become
a restorative peace advocate.

My ego has problems
our ecosystem has pathology;
My egosystem finds warm wet wombed resolutions
our economic re-creations would win/win resolve.

My litany of personal care
sacred vocations
siloed intentions
each day
grows longer than
all my competing days
and cooperatively-held nights.

My rainbow communion
has a deliberate monocultural divestment cause,
shaped by centuries of left-brain patriarchal extraction
benefiting producers with greatest capital resources
for purchasing further empowerment.

This is ego-centrism
narcissism
denialism
fundamentalism
dualism
nihilism defined by alienated Other,
and capitalism refined by supremacist We.

My litany of dying places,
formerly sacred spaces,
now objectively and subjectively less healthy wealthed,
less integral,
more win/lose evolving
toward lose/lose devolution,
combine to predict climate failure,
within
as without,
ego-unhealthy
as eco-unwealthy.

I travel deeply within
uncovering my own complicit
explicit win/lose structures
of left-brain over-power,
self-authorization,
competitive organization
right-brain abusive
and degeneratively fragmenting EarthSoul
within without,
universally unitarian.

With courage
and curiosity
and more cooperative conviction
and commitment to interdependent dignity
equality
multicultural intersectionality,
I remain invincibly invisible
united within
and whereby
Energy’s vast universal democracy.