Wishing Different Ways

As painful as your transparency is,
I appreciate the integrity you have found
To say this parting of shared habituations
has moved from temporary
to permanent
for you;
for us.

I would have preferred a resurrection
from temporary separation
to permanent mutual admiration,
but I trust you, too,
prefer this shared dream
no longer accessible
to wounded hearts.

I have loved you,
I do love you,
but I have hurt you
perhaps with more wounding skill
than my younger compassion found thrill.

For these deep wounds where you,
need trust,
I regret,
Would create healing repairs
through better bilateral winning communication,
as possible,
cooperatively embraced.

For love invested
I have no apology,
no regret,
no worries about less than abundant warm compassion returns,
deep resonance with Earth’s eternally revolving womb,
timeless culture promoting health,
best practiced when
and where
and while we find regenerating passions,
synchronic wealth.

I realize you are not seeking
warm embraces from some Other future lover;
nor am I.

And yet,
should your Right path offer a renewing embrace
I would share your joy in responding “Yes!”

And, should this miracle
descend upon bald and wrinkled me,
or even us
in some future unfinishable life,
I hope you will want no more or less
than a joyous part
of our continuously extending Family
Of warm-felt relationship
sacred communion.

That LeftBrain said,
my RightBrain has a farewell duet with Chris Walker:
How Do You Heal A Broken Heart?
(revised and condensed, lightly)

“I can’t believe what I just heard
Could it be true
Are you the guy I thought I knew
The one who promised me true love

Where did it go
Does anybody ever know

How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again
Oh no
I just can’t let go

How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
Oh no
Tonight I’ll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I’ll pretend to let you go

And were we ever what we seemed
Or were we just fools
Who fell in love
Each with his own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you’d never say

Tonight I’ll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I’ll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find that I have finally found

A new life
In my soul
And find that I know how to let you go
You go

How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
You go

Tonight I’ll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I’ll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find I know how to let us go.”




2020 ReWeaving Vision

Speaking With NonBully VoiceBoxes

Dissociative injustice,
like racist slurs and disinvestments,
retributive oppression
for not being SWM enough,
has ecological roots
in LeftBrain anthro/ego-centered fruit
of fragile disconnected autonomy,
against all competing odds
still struggling to win
against all other elitist competitors
for greatest capital gains
over losses.

in RightWing militarized marching squares,
LeftBrain monocultural EitherNature/OrSpirit dualisms
place anthropocentric narcissists
at the SWM Western apex
of a cognitive/emotive intelligence pyramid,
made in Father God’s whitest image,

Privileging SWMs over not-SWM also-rans,
and championing all loyal
humane Earth residents
as endemic only to USA
PatrioticLoyalTrue nationalists
immorally and anti-redemptively overruling
the dark remainder
of ecofeminist systemically entrained
warm and wet EarthWomb-inspired consciousness;

Lacking the LeftBrain verbal communication obsession
to imagine only the idea of God
as Other than self-identifying Gaian nurture presence,
health advocate
true defender of nutritional wealth.

Reflected in each holy living system,
a co-passioned win/win expression of,
and participation in,
this ongoing Great Transformation
of Gaia’s rebirth into indigenous LeftBrain consciousness
of RightBrain’s interdependent faces
resisting Earth HealthLoss
and mortal EgoLoss,

Gaia’s sacredly immanent warmth
required to feel safely connected
to cognitive/affective resonance
with Earth’s secular/sacred balancing climates
of yesterday,
and tomorrow.

With that said,
we warmly invite ourselves to ask:

How has my own eco/theo-logical
and anti-logical dialogue
with co-emergent God/MotherEarth relationship
constrained within internal/external holy communion
articulating global ecosystemic metaphors
favoring all communicating healthy,
warm co-presence?

Yet, how do we still struggle with win/win active hope
north/south challenges, appositional
(both/and, not only either/or oppositional),
yang/yin competitions?

In this LeftBrain dominant RightWing USA
or the HighWay monoculture,
insufficiently responsive
to our ego and environmental health crises
overpopulating and carbon-burning Gaia’s former wealthy climate,
now facing self-effacing lose/lose trend-analysis
without healthy communication
of cognitive and emotive democratic co-authorizing resonance


DisOrganized Religion

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized elitist creeds,
including religious and judicial,

I am even more terrified
by my experience of disorganized natural spirituality,
dissociated bicamerality,
unenchanting mono-laterality,
win/lose egocentrism,
lose/lose climates of nihilism,
anthropocentrist chauvinism,
inhumane unnatural straight white male business as usual supremacy,
left brain dominant elitism.

I get it,
I notice,
unpopular conflict of legitimate interest decisions
have followed win/lose monotheistic
evolutionary economic modeling
of mortal depression trends,

we could expand this win/lose left-brain dominant assumption
to include confluence of multicultural interests,
multiplication where lies monoculturing divisions,
summations where now lie win or lose negations
of all that lies outside patriarchal structures
of incorporated militarized competitions.

We might, together, warmly notice
chaotic decisions follow monoculturing elitist paths
of least win/lose Business As Colonizing Usual memory patterns.

We might refocus
away from in-toxic-ation with lose/lose mortal nature systems
oppressed by win/lose monopoly, at best, future aggressive prospects
for EgoCenters v EcoEarth natural power economies,
eventual inevitable loss,
degenerative ultimate pathology trends
of dissociation.

We might notice
who chooses to make elitist SWM corporate
retributive justice decisions.

We might notice,
with more win/win warm empathy,
disproportional placement of military-industrialized young adult wounds,
reducing sacred MotherEarth to a convenient waste disposal site,
natural (so un-spiritual?) resource extraction,
and anthro-centric theft,
pollution of air,
left-brain dominant minds,
win/lose informed deformed anti-bodies.

We might notice
several displaced non-elite subcommunities
subclimates suspicious of SWM enculturation
having been history’s stress absorbers,
and elitist
and sexist
and homophobic dissociation,
non-elite capital income prejudice
and win/lose ecopolitical perpetuation,
limited win/win communication access,
left/right co-empowerment life-skills,
co-relational peace intelligence,
co-empathic intention toward healthiest wealth,

We might win/win notice
limited access to mind and body health resources,
regenerations of integral wealth and value polities

Listening with more multicultural right-brain intelligence
and speaking with less monocultural left-brain verbal dominance,
on behalf of noticing
rigvht’brain’s long matriarchal ecofeminist herstory
of interdependent
domestically and globally intersectional metaphor,
poly-paradigmatic health systems
for win/win EarthMother thrival.

We might notice
this 2020 bicameral revolution
revisions every win/lose Business As Usual
systemic thing

Into an interdependently living
global, yet universal
multicultural communication
regeneratively resilient
energy democracy.

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized religion,
I am even more terrified
by Earth’s subclimate of succeeding spiritually
without also winning EarthRight naturally.


Citizens DisUnited

Awhile back,
in the Dred Scott decision,
SCOTUS denied rights of citizenship
to people of color
“as a subordinate
and inferior class of beings,
who had been subjugated
by the dominant race…”

So, we need not dig too deeply
to rediscover where straight white male supremacists
and systemic racist allies
might find our strongest
most toxic heritage
lack of inclusive discernment,
absence of multicultural intelligence
united citizens experience,
values of all people
for all creatures here below.

with this precedent in place,
we might similarly nuance the Citizens United language,
giving corporations the rights of citizenship
without the responsibilities of healthy stewardship,
authority to buy media speech
and heavily invest in purchasing political competitions;

This right more transparently unveiled
as the authority of a superordinate
and superior class
of capital-acquiring beings,
masters of organic Earth’s climate degeneration
who have subjugated the unstraight
suffering from non-elite lack of multiculturally appreciated face,
too slow race,

These assumptions
of who is SWM better than whom,
rooted in outworn
and unhistorical
and supremacist
win/lose environmental theories,
blossom as further toxic prejudice
against Earth’s primordial health rights
and humane responsibilities
to repair damages,
restore peace of natural/spiritual
north/south cultural hemispheres
of resonant geopolitical balance.


Sacred Stewardship

is taking cooperative care of what you don’t own,
giving and receiving care
of what you could not rightfully own.

I could not exclusively own a symbiotic relationship,
a robust string of reiterative emerging communication,
a resonant relationship,
harmonic integrity.

I would most resiliently own nothing
without profound solidarity
lived in economic and politically empowering sanctuary,
free of colonizing intent
through capital-driven reductionism.

With a more ecofeminist cooperative stewardship
arises an ancient,
yet renewing, emerging win/win
bicameral co-passion,

Not about which transcendent spirits are up
and which beastly alien natures are down;

Not either divine
or human,

Not sacred
or reduced to mere mundane secularity,

Not mindfully transcendent
or mindlessly immanent,

Not supreme ecosystemic interdependence
or severely disassociated,

Ecooperative stewardship
is about curious egos within
giving and receiving care
with and from courageous eco-life systems
interdependently cooperative,
more than hidden and competitive,
without prior resonant win/win association.

both/and cooperative
more than either/or competitive,
bicamerally re-associates
Left with Right bicameral thoughts with feelings
of warm care received from EarthWombed heritage
returned for Earth’s active compassion given
as received,

as mutually successful,

as also humane,

as profoundly communioned EarthNature,

Ego rights received
as eco-responsibilities cooperatively given

Eco-empathically co-relationed,
theologically co-passioned.


The Singing Theologian

I was gratefully listening
to a theologian musician
repeat a rabbinic tradition
of four levels of resonant soul:
individual (egosystemic),
communal (local),
social (cultural, national identity)
global (Earth,ecosystemic).

A mature musician,
like a wise theologian,
sees these four soul identities
as circular
double-binding octaves,
mutually informing up
and down,
and out.

As EarthMother’s original staging womb
organically recreates
using the fractal language of DNA inscription,
to recreate yet another individual soul,
as BrahmanEarth outside soul
is to AtmanEgo inside spirit
of dynamic resonance,
preferring regeneration as positive
as more power-indwelling
than degeneration as negative.

So, it was jarring
when this musical theologian
referred to human bodies
as machines,
rather than organisms.

Machines seem to be left-brain dominant
power reductions
as compared with
Left with Right-balancing organisms.

For robotic machines,
punishing or rewarding communities,
leviathan bureaucratic
autocratic societies,
lifeless planetary spheres,
power is either on or off,
energy is positive or negative.

For living organisms,
individual through holonically Earth-wombed,
power is both regenerative
and degenerative,
positive and negative;

Not digitally governed by our either/or switch
but analogically healed, developed
and wounded, decomposing
with both/and holistic interdependent consciousness.

Human nature
sounds like a robotic analogy
and hopelessly predictable,
dully rational
as a LeftBrain dominant machine.

Humane nature/spirits
feel organically metaphoric
polypathically rounded
theo/eco-logical music composed
and decomposed,
marvelously trans-rational
as left with right hemispheric balance,
rhythm, communal
pitch, cultural
resonance, EarthWomb global
ZeroZone regenerative
more powerful than degenerative,

Yet organic cycles
and recycles,
and repurposes of life
decomposing death
require both
to recreate
musical soul
as powerful
both-thought/and-felt structure.

But, when we started singing together
I knew
for sure
he, as we,
feels more and better
as metaphoric musicians
than analogical machines.


Fear of Success

Fear of personal
and disconnecting
feels reasonable to me

Too much adulating feedback
from old friends vaguely envious
that I would place myself above
and before them
sacrifices integrity
more resonant with us,
immersed in ecosystemic success,
embodied health,
resilient Earth-rooted wealth.

especially straight white physically-privileged adolescents,
have grown self-empowerment rights
to autonomous personal lifestyle differences,
risks of failure,
opportunities toward narcissism,
as contested by parents
who often have our own anthropocentric issues
about humane success and failure.

Democratically grateful adults
have grown rights to self-determination
responsibility of personal con-science
consciousness authority
over-against God/Gaia,

Completing the circle
of young developing secular ego-systems
rather than cooperatively owning and managing
appreciating immersion within
sacred ecosystemic Earth.

Perhaps LeftBrain’s WinLose risk
is also RightBrain’s WinWin opportunity
to aspire toward resilient God/Gaianess,
as bicamerally GoldenRuled together
ego/eco-systemic nest.