seems like an oxymoron,
like dissonant communion.
My ego center speaks communication
while my organic systemic body listens
Discerning what feels confluent,
resonant with ecological
health is wealth
EarthTribal indigenous experience
AND what feels like aggressive,
sometimes ominously silent
of verbal communication
AND what feels like dualistic
missed cooperative win/win opportunity
too Either my way
Or hit the highway
too StraightWhiteMale privileged
too LeftBrain verbally dominant
too lacking co-passion,
but feeling more like ignorance
than lose/lose malignant
My ecosystemic body feels
Trust in win/win active hope,
DIStrust for surviving lose/lose despair,
economic and ecological degeneration,
MIStrust of win/lose monoculturing monopolies
of pure white
bright paternalistic capitalism
as Earth’s only way
life toward healthy salvation.
Trust breeds neuro-systemic integrity.
DIStrust feeds overwhelming feelings
of violently weaponed despair.
MIStrust of win/lose
LeftBrain dominant thinking
not compliant with ecologically healthy experience
is, on my best feeling days
and peace dreaming nights,
a therapeutic opportunity tool
for responding to health risk trauma.