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Fading Figments

Deep sleep
seems to be a figment
of my ruminating imagination

Just as my sex life
seems to be a fading figment
of my dark penetrative
and glad light receptive
co-passionate imagination

And trauma
feels like a figment
of my Master Knows Best addictive history
limiting legitimate compassionate love
to exclude all my body’s wrong
but feels so right
sacred places

Thinking I am a bit queerly curious
about integrity’s 1/0 bigenderal
iconic Taoist co-governance
for health care
giving Light
receiving wealth share
Power

Dipolar Co-arising
convex-1/concave-0
bilaterally co-passionate hot potential

Regenerating ego-1/eco-0 co-empathic mindfulness
appreciating timeless win/win balance
yang-1/yintegral-0 cooperative

Co-invested
since before indigenous wu-wei messages
SunRadiant Light/Earth DarkMoon Powers

Deep wound
whole wombed Black Hole
not-not 0 = +1
holonic co-balancing non-systems
felt pursuing win/win grace

Wind
a penetrating figment from above
seems to become flirtatious
with deep and wide
creation-bearing seas
yearning
churning pregnantly below

Where troubling sleep
becomes a figment
of deprived
traumatized
self v other
win/lose chronic
“Always Lose” re-imagination

As colored in
between white supremacist lines
Black Hole sacred figments
of timeless wounded blues
empty of champion crews
for compassionate thrival news.

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Dancing Pequot River

Flying free
in rooftop ecstasy

Raptor’s wings direct
with feathered pins strong, erect
swelling mountain chests
then wings
brought safely down
protecting Earth’s
most sacred wounds.

Standing Yang
with wings wide spread
Left then Right
rebalancing

Bent over filling in Yin’s flow
extending gratitude for out
bold attitude brought back in
for more sincere
out wanting more
more
more sacred practice
mindful praxis
moving axis

Practice makes Yang
with Yin
happy together once again
in this million hole
with pole
extravagant excursion
upstream North
growing deep down South
flowing in/out surfing mouth

Dancing round root chakra
river source
to up reach
down stream right
to left dividing swings
gone sacred South

River’s needy mouth
to feed
time’s seas
of timeless pirate peaks
opposing valleyed surf
inhaling exhaled needs

Healthy seasons too tidal full
swelling now and why and how
toward empty skies

Anthrocentric light
invites this ecocical night,
upstream
patriarchal might
toward down wombed times
round cycling source
of Great White Father fright

Root wise spread out predation
penetrating river’s source
shifting toward rich mountain rivered valleys
flowing up
then down White streaming pole
with Black uncovered silenced hole,
designing doublebinding
God-dressed nature’s inspiring views

Inviting dawn’s
past sunrise dance
sweeping light
round downstream
falling failing
EarthTribe’s meager
flowing sacred
rivered night

Flying free
on rooftop ecstasy.

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Healthy Caring Systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more

Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil

And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust

Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes

Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow

Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival

And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions

CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.

That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.

First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos

despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system

Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences

Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know

Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.

What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?

Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.

That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential

This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.

Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.

What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.

To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.

Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences

As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today

False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You

Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me

Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow

Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts

Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit

More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation

Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories

Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities

Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.

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SmokyBrown Passions

Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool

Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school

Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule

For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts

And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.

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Abortive Trauma Tales

When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.

“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”

Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?

The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan

Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting

UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.

Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement

I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted

Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.

If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery

Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons

A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race

On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion

Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.

Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed

As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds

With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort

And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience

Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth

Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.

And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life

Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death

Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.

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Thoughts With Sacred Feelings

Thoughts with feelings
worthy of engaging
to achieve humanity’s full potential

Perhaps
in part
because these memory thoughts
about feelings
are impossible to resiliently achieve
as individuals:

Peace
Integrity
Health
Love
Compassion
Communion
Grace
Sacred Wealth
Beauty

And
because EarthTribal Loyalty
is impossible to achieve
as merely red-blooded
anthrosupremacists:

Sacred Trust
Hope for Beauty
Omniscient Enlightenment
Omnipresent Empowerment
Omnipotent EcoPolitical Power
one win/win moment
in eternal bilateral time

Impossible Polyphonic Resonance
for global Polypathic Peace
preventing win/lose anthrosupremacist
ecodical trauma

Restoring EarthCare Justice
to achieve EarthTribal Resilience.

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Claiming Grace Out Proud

Giving thanks
for insight
outside normal space
grows more grace
than taking from fertile Earth
without gratitude
thoughtless everyday attitude.

We give thanks
gathered here today
for all God’s edibles
and ornaments
surpassing even sacred platitudes,
obscure beatitudes.

I give thanks
for this our timeless gathering
of family
proclaimed, not defamed
together more holy felt
than severed when apart.

Taking from Earth
without gratitude
heartless attitude
slow grows groaning grace,
our disturbing pace
before this silent pause

this sacred space
for giving thanks.

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Giving Way

Who am I
to give Light’s sway
to Earthly kindness?

Who am I
to praise
love’s bold told synergy?
sun sung soprano
diva voiced

Through life’s more challenged
LeftBrain capitalized energies
in dark basement shunning
echoing not yet dead
predicting survival choice.

Yet choice
may here
and there be wrongly voiced
regarding numerous sins
without apparent smothered victims
preferring to expand
win/win resilient
thriving to rejoice
is obviously brilliant

Restoring justice
non-verbally unchoiced
sacred Whole Systemick-identity
could become our mind repletely full
of fertile health defaults
reseen as wealthier
when just-right
choice

To avoid further trauma narratives
degenerating loss losing fried-out markets
in a regenerating win/win land
where 1 is not
not also 0 empty nonchoice
out to sea

In/out
Back/forth mindful
of the timely voice
sung and signed silent
inside thoughtful
Integrity’s rejoice

For resiliently healthy
universally salvific
synergetic
win/win wealthy
making

Baking
up-shaking
frosting on the cake
remaking

Abating win-1 to lose-0
less than restoring win/win kindness
Yang and Yin’s binomial rebalanced
choice

When mindful with this quest
for who are We to give
Light’s empowering sway
to Earth-compassioned
win/win wealthy
choice?

Of
We’re all doing our therapeutic best
toward a trauma prevention Earth
easing off inside loathing diatribes
becoming Kindness Tribe
full-voiced

Curiously repeating
How do we already
give Light’s empowering sway
to grow Earthy kindness?

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Healthy Caring

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more

Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating empowerment

And this trusting more
implies unlearning
letting go of trauma’s lessons
in surviving hale and hearty
RightWing distrust

Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
and without other physically iconic sounds
and sights
and smells
and tastes

Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
for self-regenerative thrival
much more healthy
than mere pathic
militaristic
narcissistic survival

If we would
together,
rediscover sacred Beauty
CoPassion

CoInvested in integrity’s historic
pre-historic win/win revival
and future multiculturing
nonverbal nonviolent
communication potential.

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