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Claustrophobic Center

Much has been felt
then written
about loneliness at the top

Less written,
yet perhaps far more often felt,
about claustrophobia in the center.

Problems with delegation,
boundaries,
predictable timelines,
responsive management focus,
follow through performance,
competitions to be heard
listened to
appreciated

Nonviolent calm
peace,
by contrast,
invites resiliently harmonic
win/win expansive
sublimely integrating
synergetic intention,
anticipation
slowly pushing out
and fading rabidly frenetic
anxiety,
chronic stress,
unmitigated win/lose trauma histories.

Integrity’s potential,
and not universal win/win perfectionism,
delivers resonantly happy,
wholesome,
healthy,
contented wealthy outcomes,
ecologically reconnected
with mythos
and eros
and ethos
and aesthetics
of panentheistic Paradise Promised

Is not perfectly comprehensive control
of a punishingly comprehensive
self and other governance system
felt as loneliness
near a constantly threatened
egocentric top

Of a patriarchal
capital-infested
win/lose zero-sum monopoly game
of Seize My Autonomous Day

Without unconditional regard
for EgoSelf as primal mentor
of what we look like,
versus what we feel like,
at the top of our AnthroPrivileged lives
without perfect GoldenRule encircling love.

A healthier democratic trust
for expansive EarthTribe circles
of co-empathic investment
may outdoor ease
our anxious indoor claustrophobic disease
fearful of disappointing
both authority figures
and our relentlessly needy constituencies

Angry at loss of privacy,
settling for less than sacred communion experience
within EarthTribe’s full sung range
of polycultural voices

Multiculturing choices
to feel and grow better,
healthier,
safe wealthier together
than dancing,
singing solo apart

On a stage
with a too bright ego spotlight
narrowly glaring at my own soul-embodied
godlike protagonist

Either against my own claustrophic circle
of followers
or standing alone at the supremely pompous top
of those already Othered
and thereby lessened–
followers,
sheep,
rather than cooperatively informed collaborators
steeped in Earth’s sacred
indigenous wisdom
and Sun’s enlightened
whole open systemic focus.

I suppose integrity’s co-empathic potential
for both/and nuanced
warm inviting cooperative regard
might be a contagiously viral
win/win alternative ecofeminist view

Anticipating cooperatively re-integrating
re-connecting
ecological mythic enrichment
of epic Here/Now
epistemological Body/Mind
eternal Life/Love
curiously interdependent Truth/Beauty
restoring Mundane/Sacred
bicamerally balanced
Paradise Lost

In EarthTribe wounded circles,
traumatized,
but not yet broken

While much has been autonomously felt
then written in self-isolation
about uneasy loneliness at the top
and diseased dismay
in a viciously shrinking circle
of traumatic climate despair.

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Blank Page Syndrome

Blank page syndrome
feels like full page longing
to be done with some work project
that will not slowly grow worthy
of my time
and certainly no captivated reader.

I feel victimized,
tortured, actually,
by blank page syndrome

Where I want to feel some opening
and rewarding opportunity
and not dull risk
of further unnoticed failure
to richly
and wisely communicate
warm and wild communion.

My blank pages
demand content
spilled across blue horizontal lines
with a red left side vertical
demanding

Demarking where orderly thought correctly begins
to unfold top left
unfurling cause effectively
sequentially
toward right bottom

Yet Left dominance
overpowers Right feelings prominent
circling and recycling
whirling and spinning
spiraling out of win/win control
re-membering risks
of nontransparent failure
falling brawly short
of both peaceful Truth
and vulnerable Beauty.

Yet a bleakly black blank canvas
with no red
or blue bicameral communion rules
or tools
feels most frightening
intimidating of all
unbalanced
anthro-privileged
vaporous calls

My
“I can’t draw,
or sketch,
or paint,
or write,
or sing,
or dance,
or speak out woke”

Can’t preach
or teach inside voices
ignoring outside echoing choices
to evoke
childish dreams,
daydream schemes
to become Earth’s greatest love
of blank paged warm regard
for how we flew
and walked
and swam
and grew to Here embodied
meets Now compassioned mind

Greatest
deepest
widest
trusted EarthBeauty
dipolar co-arising
all scared yet sacred Time’s unfolding

Win/Win regenerative
peaks and valley sand
defining ecstatic
aesthetic lines
refining intimate circling graced spaces
etched throughout
neuro-systemic elegant
multigenerational potential

Not not synergetic journeys
deeply and widely
back and forth
out and inside
polyculturing communion

While staring at this straight lined
and otherwise white privileged
square-cut manufactured page

Holding my green health hope
and content contented circling pen
praying for worthy inspiration.

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NonDelusional Illusions

A temporarily useful illusion,

like Wall Street knows something
about inevitable climate pathology
disvalues of anthrosupremacism
worth illusive core investment value

is not necessarily
a merely utilitarian delusion
about timeless principles of value

like human dignity
and organic integrity
and profoundly polycultural beauty.

A temporarily useful illusion
may have long economic
and robustly deep political roots
in universally integral illusions,
round robust reflections,
gut feelings,
intuitions of past fruition
regenerating win/wins
and not degenerating
LeftBrain Loser deductive logos
and RightBrain Loser inductive
merely threadbare mythos

Languaged thoughts about useful things,
like narrative knitted feelings
from thriving co-relationships,
derive from articulating threads
in allusive indigenous wisdom

Long felt panentheistically
and/or enthymematically
not not yet
does not quite illuminate positively present

Win/win round cosmic
holonic, organic, systemic
rememory of Yangfull Trust
loves Yintegral Beauty

Usefully refines,
illustrates
polyculturally win/win
healthy democracy’s peak wealth illusion,
valleyed allusive delusion
in-between implicit wisdom
and explicit knowledge,
empowerment
and enlightenment

Circling
spiraling whole open
systemic energy
non-zero summoned
cooperative illusive experiences
non-zero summed
energy systemic
open whole spiraling
encircling dismembered delusions.

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Grave Feelings

I rediscover organic errors
hidden in co-gravitating
love language.

Gravity is easily noticed
as Apple falling toward Earth;
less visibly conscienced,
experientially remembered,
as co-gravitational
co-relational intent

As Apple’s ego-gravity core
falls drawn toward sacred Earth’s
Mothering womb
smothering tomb
once more
returning toward deeply divine
anthrosupremely verbal
overpowering EarthTribe core gravitas soul
slowly soaring
back down and out
into globally nutritional
seasonally appropriate
co-invested ecological
co-operative 7-regeneration
co-investment

From which this same sacred
co-gravitating Apple
dialectically
binomially
bilaterally
double-binary
co-empathically
historically
polyculturally potentiated

Organic life loves
win/win love
is not lose/lose
not not hate

Against continuously emerging
win/lose further obvious irresolutions

Like why we know Yang 1 Positive
dipolar co-gravitates
with Yintegral 0 Negative

Yet does not oppositionally
defiantly ignore
positive polynomial language
statements
events
narratives

Co-gravitating equitably Yang 1 Positive
balanced with not not Yintegral 0-squared

P=NP appositional
but not oppositional,
at least and at best,
not yet
[N] enthymematic multicultural
Both/And’s “not yet”

Not cogravitating dissonance disorder
climate stress
community exceptionalism distress
childhood win/lose stressors
wounds
losses
chronic anxiety

Not not P
unveils integrity’s potential
both/and right hemisphere
secular/sacred EarthMother
indigenous nondualistic wisdom
of integrity’s co-passioning
universal potential passion

When P also embraces
Left Hemisphere’s Patriarchal Capital
co-gravitating memories
of mountainously enlightening SunGod
erupting Win/Win
polynomially holistic Communion
Creolization
TranSubstantiation

Deeply empowering Right Hemisphere’s
dualdark immortal EarthMother soul
womb
tomb
soil
gloom
EarthTribal co-gravitating
absorbing
emerging future healthcare
regeneration
revolution

Gravitates toward gravitas
wellness-seasoned wealth
integral P=(N)NP

Polypathic Yang 1+
redefines, refines
(N)P not-0 exponential
indigenously wise GoldenRule
co-relational win/win
is not win/lose,
Both/And dipolar co-gravitation
is more than Either 1 Or 0 bipolar
intelligence

Co-gravitating win/win co-operative
Humane-Infant/Sacred-EarthMother

Original CoGravitational Win/Win Attachment
is not Original Lose/Lose Detachment Sin

Against Ego/Earth double-gravitating
decontextualized absence
of resilient co-gravitas peak experiences
with bicameral Yang/Yintelligence

Rediscovering LeftBrain dominant
Either/Or reductive Win/Lose errors
hidden in co-gravitating
RightBrain Both/And
language of dipolar co-arising
passion mountains
and deep [Not] not valleys.

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The Mural Project

Education Secretary Ellen,

Some of us
on the EarthCare Team
and also the Transport Solutions Committee
for special projects
are wondering
and, frankly, hoping

Your green STEAM students
and teachers
might research,
design,
and help residents paint
a historically accurate
AND polyculturally exquisite
series of murals

On our two-tiered
upper, more transcendently hopeful,
and lower, more historically faithful,
retaining walls

After our crumbling concrete parking pads
and steel-framed industrial artifacts
are hauled away
with respect and gratitude
for future repurposing

Our Transport Solutions
and EarthCare Elders
hope to use this transitional moment
to divert water runoff
to north and south bermed
and graceful descent
down toward our sacred RiverGaia,
rather than continuing to run
race
to disgrace our wet unhealthy basement

Thereby diverting soiled water stains
from historic runoff narrative face
retaining walled epic paintings,
perhaps combined with etching,
to tell a true and beautiful tale
about this sacred place
where we live
and work,
garden
and enjoy our EarthCare classroom
residence,
inside and outside

As did indigenously wise
Elders before us

And RiverGaia
learned Her future shape and flow
from ancient predative
cold
relentless icey white glaciers,

As will future natural construction
and deconstruction regenerators,
Thermal students
of green STEAM polyculturing Elders,
including co-invested us

Learning new Truth
and old Beauty Stories

Of how EarthCare givers
and health-care receivers
survived mistrust
to compassionately,
nonviolently
exquisitly thrive together
more better
than apart.

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Dearly Departing Christians

Many of you live
humbly and heartily
patriotically and industriously
nutritiously and faithfully
in Western and Southern States,

United in this time of shrinking reservoirs,
dying rivers,
hurricaned coastal residents

Displaced by floods,
invasive mold,
voracious rot and rats,

Barren top soil,
failing electrical networks,
drought,
inhumane heat,
decimated forests

Bereft of soil-restoring permaculture,
robust polycultural nutrition systems,
victory community re-engagement gardens.

U.S. long-term resilient infrastructure
to support your children
and grandchildren,
is so threatened by North American climate degeneration
that your own great-grand regeneration,
should they actually be born
and thrive long enough to be successfully educated
about U.S. pre-millennial history,
about rabid post-millennial partisan monotheistic
monoculturalism,
about your own Christian evangelical anthrosupremacism

These great grandchildren
will be shocked and appalled
stressed and depressed
that you substituted “pro-life”
for anti-abortion rabidity,

Mystified that you thought this non-issue
about whom more effectively supports healthy life,
blue liberals or red conservatives?
(when the answer is,
and always was,
both, responding to trauma
humanely
and divinely together)

Why have you set the long-term
EarthTribe stage for shock
and degenerative awe
against our next seven survivor generations?

Why have you spent all your Christian fundamental investments
on aborting universal health care
and not one red cent
on supporting future humane life

On a restored permacultural USA
health and resilience plan
for future survivors
of your ego-atheistic accomplishments,

Ecocide
and massively inhumane genocide,
have already become an ecological
and theological problem
for your dark
and entirely nonRapturous
legacy.

You are currently betting on unredeemed idolatry,
for Hell on Earth
instead of Heaven on rebirthing Earth

Investing divisive vitriol
carried, marketed, transported
by StraightWhiteWesternMale privileged
massive communication systems

Become so loudly
and brightly beamed
into the hearts of Earth’s green co-messiahs
and inter-religious ecofeminist bodhisattvas,

Western and Eastern teachers
and prophets
and mystics,
scientists
and artists
and philosophers
and creation theologians,
green indigenous matriarchs
co-investing in cooperative
nutritional
resilient healthcare economies
and bipartisan
bicameral political empowerment

Not mentioned by your vituperations,
solemn sermons
against sadly exigent
induced abortions,
a mote in liberal eyes
ridiculously and myopically beamed
through dogmatically theoretical
predative voices
red blood chillingly comfortable
with denying current abortion
of sacred EarthTribe.

Where in the Gospels do you find Jesus?
On the side of the Roman industrial militarized complex,
ecocidally against God the EarthCare Creator’s polycultural love
for all sacred lives,

Empowering fertile
cooperative
inter-religious
deep listening
and learning
and holy nature-spirited compassioning lives

Including your own great grandchildren
who may survive
after reluctantly relinquishing
degenerating hope for health sustaining life
in these disuniting States

No longer suitable for peaceful
humane
healthy
resilient life
because, in significant part,
you have taken your pro-life position
against individual mothers’ rights
while mute
or actively disdainful
about protests against patriarchal
Capitalist corporate
white privileged abortion
of a living
organic
sacred MotherEarth

When will your survivors
learn about your polyculturally cooperative reform,
your inter-religious green revival,
your sacred holy nature/spirit
indigenously wise
integrity?

Of and for all
that becomes divinely humane
co-messianic
co-invested
enlivened permacultural Truth
greets polycultural Beauty

As LeftBrain bicameral enlightenment
meets RightBrain multicultural empowerment

As Yang strong conservation
repeats Yintegral liberal love

In lavishly global
EarthTribe compassion
for future sacred survivors
of Western and Southern State
climate desecrating
degeneration.

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Love Begets Resilience

Back in our preverbal day
of healthy regenerating time,
indigenous wisdom
pursued peak experiences
of cooperative pleasure,
deep co-empathic embrace.

Sometimes,
especially when this pleasure was sustained,
euphoric,
ejaculatory
and reverberating in cycles
of deep wombed ecstasy,
procreation happened,
preferably in the spring
when new life is more likely to thrive
with bountiful rain
and lusty bullfrog refrains.

Not until later did monotheistic minds
decontextualize procreative purposes
from pro-ecstatic deep dark intimate meanings

Co-gravitations
dipolar co-arisings
coupling erotic organisms
regenerating co-passionate feelings
evolving love’s healthy ecological intent
to regenerate outward together
before degenerating inward apart.

Love is a pleasant feeling,
and a healthy wealth principle
of recreative compassion,
enlivenment.

A principle of ecological integrity
describes,
without dismembered dogmatic prescriptions,
these regenerative healthy ways
truths
trusts
in which living communions
thrive on this sacred planet

Interdependent networks
of cells
organisms
bioregions
ecosystems
EarthTribal species,
multigenerational families

Find our co-identities
while also compelling MeWe
individual/cultural
health/wealthy relationships
win/win egocentric within
AND with ecohabitat Others

Loving integrity reigns
within humanity’s historical context
of compassionate win/win integral
multicultural
polycultural systems surrounding Earth,
spring raining down upon Earth birth,
breezing across and warmly through,
sunlighting our days
and star studding shared nights.

Finding balance between one’s ego,
our individual cooperative win/win narratives,
and those of compassionate Others
represents EarthTribe’s win/lose wounded heart
of passion
love
unconditioned warm
and wet mesmerized regard
for mutual pleasure
pressure
passion
pulling and pushing
precognitive integrity.

In my curious stories
of win/win love,
when my deepest darkly hidden desire
includes my Other partner
enjoying our neuro-sensory
greatest
healthiest
robust
playful happiness,
some resonant relationship
more contextually co-empathic
profoundly unitarian
and multiculturally universal
than a personal procreative intention
happily emerges.

Right to Left bicameral climaxes
are not so much for a creative future purpose
as swimming in multisensory recreative meaning
here
for passion now,
embodied
for compassioning minds,
neurosystemic wholesome space
for EarthTribal regenerating
eternally connected
timeless time

In storming
maelstrom moments,
new expanding love stories
become

Fundamental flowing nature/spirit
body/mind narratives
re-membering how we have become
healthy alive,
enlivened,
undeadened.

This multisensory neuro-system
of regenerating contagious achievement
in cooperative win/win
ego-health/eco-wealth global networks
is where re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-membering
re-weaving
re-lusting
re-creating freedom
of compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communicating egos
hope to become co-invested curiosity

Resiliently harmonizing
biosystemically resonating
within Earth’s whole open
win/lose risk-avoidant
cooperative beauty/pleasure seeking
eco/theo-logical
embodied left
and sacred right
bilaterally resilient mind.

Note: This piece is in appreciative dialogue with Andreas Weber’s Matter & Desire: An Erotic Ecology, especially the first paragraph on p. 9.

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Distancing Communication

Distancing communication
seems like an oxymoron,
like dissonant communion.

My ego center speaks communication
while my organic systemic body listens
for communion

Discerning what feels confluent,
resonant with ecological
health is wealth
EarthTribal indigenous experience

AND what feels like aggressive,
possibly predative,
lose/lose DIScommunication
distressed communication
dissonant noise
dissociative distancing,
sometimes ominously silent
dormant
terminal absence
of verbal communication

AND what feels like dualistic
win/lose MIScommunication,
missed cooperative win/win opportunity
too Either my way
Or hit the highway
competitively risky,
too egocentric
too anthrosupremacist
too StraightWhiteMale privileged
too LeftBrain verbally dominant
too lacking co-passion,
too unwoke,
but feeling more like ignorance
than lose/lose malignant
despairing
pathological intent
to DIScommunicate.

My ecosystemic body feels
Trust in win/win active hope,
DIStrust for surviving lose/lose despair,
economic and ecological degeneration,
MIStrust of win/lose monoculturing monopolies
monotheistic
monochromatically anthrosupremacist

Preachers
and teachers
of pure white
bright paternalistic capitalism
as Earth’s only way
truth
life toward healthy salvation.

Trust breeds neuro-systemic integrity.
DIStrust feeds overwhelming feelings
of violently weaponed despair.
MIStrust of win/lose
either/or
LeftBrain dominant thinking
not compliant with ecologically healthy experience
is, on my best feeling days
and peace dreaming nights,
a therapeutic opportunity tool
for responding to health risk trauma.

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Where Lives HAPPeaceness?

Where lives aliveness,
healthy wholeness,
organically fluid integrity?

Despite trauma
unwanted present irreparable loss
separation
divorce
apartheid
excommunication
impeachment
shunning
incrimination
shaming
bully victimization
suffered also in our past,
personal
and/or vicarious

Now all right feeling
sometimes noticing chronic stress
in a systemic light/dark skinned racist
and homophobic bisexual-erotic
exotic past still felt present
deadening business as loser usual

In competitive CapitalHeaded values
for LeftBrain dominant privilege
monoculturing
monotheistic
monopolistic
purely white bright light
monochromatic
monological
non-ecological
verbal written down HIStory

Not much about woke-up
EarthMother wombed aliveness
with
and for
and of
and from polycultural EarthCreation
fully wholesum
widely pre-cognitive
and deep intuitive integrity,

Potential for win/win nature-spirited compassion,
love for felt trusted Truth,
passion for harmonic uniting Beauty

Inside as outside
inhaled
as neighboring green-leaved
and alively needled trees
exhale empowering,
nurturing,
nutritional enlightenment,

Co-operative Way
co-empathic Truth
and democratically Green
co-passionate wellbeing Life

Read analogically
top left toward bottom right
AND metaphorically
Bottom right felt Life on through
waving Ways
toward wellbeing cooperative.

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Integrity of Forests

Students enjoy a question
often wisely asked
especially of teachers
parents
and preachers
who seem not too often recall
curious younger learners,
deep listeners

If I must choose
which to trust,
your words without compliant
healthy resilient action,
OR your less mindful actions
not supported by your invocations
for divinely healing reactions,

Like telling your kids not to smoke
in-between stinky toxic puffs,

Which will have primary influence,
and which a wider and less deep
secondary smoke screen
of ambivalence
where we had hoped for integrity?

I question how to safely and astutely trust
a source of incompatible verbose
and poignant inaudible messages
brought by legs with feet,
arms with hands,
minds with hearts,
rooted nutritional systems
with sensory complex faces.

What primal communications
are most likely
to miss communion’s full
of grace potential?

Our more obvious EarthTribal point,
we deeply trust only Earth’s naturally
spirited resources,
healing advocates,
ecological green nurturing leaders,
indigenous species of integrity

Like trees
bushes
plants,
blessing soil
water
breezes in integral, sacred forests,
beautiful and true
trusted green
breeze in
and not relentlessly blue
breath out

Where healthy deeds
and safely consilient
brilliant
refulgent
resilient communications
are integral,
confluent,
in sync with humane
and divine local
through global
green EarthWealth care

For upright inaudible meaning
with downleft poetic purpose.

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