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When I Was Eight

I owned a warm breezed first Spring day
in radiantly refulgent sun
between billowed cumulative clouds
white as sailing sheets
on our vibrating
shaking and tugging cotton clothesline
swaying multi-colored tops
and sun bleached blue jean bottoms.

Like God,
I looked curiously
benignly
warmly down

As industrious ants
with apparently urgent missions
I would never learn how to assign
chewed and sniffed their singular ways
through a forest of shading grass
over dappled shadow soil

Vibrant blades of pointed grass
as tall as trees to ambitious worker ants
sometimes militaristic
but now peacefully recovering
discovering thawed warm roots
of cooperative deep dark Earth.

I could not own a wealthier Spring day
except just now,
at sixes with seven,
often remembering this polished day
and night dreamed moment
beside breeze blown white sailing ships
of sun-scent cotton state
breathing in under first fresh cut lawn
to notice how wee ants live
side-by-side
refurbishing
rubbing up against and with
warm lamped memories

Recreating paths
by imaginatively embodying them
yet again

This first-owned warm Spring breeze
of wistful
divine memory.

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DiSpiritual Aches and Pains

I have questions
about spiritual problems
with natural causes.

These questions
themselves
assume a metaphorical double-bind
co-passion in-between
Left with Right hemispheres
in Nature with Spirit bilateral dialogue

Informed, I hope,
by win/win historic experiential roots:

What has “nature v spirit” tension meant
in my life?

What have been my win/win
win/lose
lose/lose experiences
with natural Earth?

How has my relationship with nature
been a solitary
and/or communal
experience?

What are my poems,
music,
choreography,
photographs,
scripture
about nature
that feel meaningful?

How do these communications
separate humanity
from nature
and/or include human beings
becoming compassioned within nature?

In my learned theology
ecology,
are we spirits
or saints
or souls
or divinely inspired supernatural creatures
creations,
wanting to be raptured away from natural Earth?

Is Earth both an exterior natural
and interior spiritual potential
integral Paradise,
an EarthTribally cooperative Garden,
growing both spirit nurturing healthy truth
and nature healing wealthy beauty,
democratic health/wealth trust,
secular/sacred energy
synergetically balancing democracy?

Do I sometimes feel hopeless,
and do I long to be able to feel warmth,
welcome,
and belonging from Earth HerSelf?

Am I often confused and bewildered?
Do I wish I remembered
or knew
what eco/theo-logically harmonic clarity
might feel like?

Do I feel a distrust so deep
that I would need a win/win trust transplant,
a replanting revolution,
in order to ever feel faith
in anything again;
including my own ego/eco-identity?

Do I need acknowledgement of my original mortal life-line,
from win/lose natural beginnings
ending in inevitable loseEgo and loseEarth?
Was mortal self-identity
like a spirit v nature bomb
that destroyed my original win/win promise
born of Earth
and all of win/win rapturous humanity
in each timeless moment
of human nature’s spirited experience?

Do I need absolute guarantees
of win/win protection,
compassioning simplicity,
and restorative peace
reweaving short-term
through long-term
ease?

After engaging this list of self-medications,
does climate resonance,
internally spiritual
and externally natural,
feel lose/lose further apart
or win/win
more cooperatively ego/eco-therapeutic?

 

Note:

Most questions above are adapted from two sources:

Justice On Earth Discussion Guide, by Gail Forsyth-Vail and Susan Lawrence, p. 14

and

Your Resonant Self, by Dr. Sarah Peyton, p. 177

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Too Long Past Due

What’s the point of suicide
when I feel already dead inside?

Too long past due
pulling breath’s last plug
last gasp
last primal scream
for and against capital colonizing campaigns
but acted out in dizzying silent mime,
rumored to be a scary thing
this last big surrendering event
before unconsciousness
of changing time
marching inevitably forward
and backward,
out
and back in
until no more back
or in.

But what frightens this fading identity most,
No one will know a difference,
notice I’m different,
least of all
decaying from within
me.

Already unconscious
subconscious,
merely skirting conscious life
precedes flirting with absence of awareness,
burning bridges
pulling life plugs
turning out my lights
already too dark to hear
fear memories
too alarming to feel
images
too disarming to care for power
for light

Too defining
future past experience
enlightening
too long
refining
past due
healing
organic capital investments
ourselves
too long overdue.

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Sunday Morning Training

She says she tries to be both tender
and challenging with herself,
to fall less,
to dance more,
to help others fail less
and athletically prance more.

As she drives past the library,
closed for Sunday liturgy,
she sees the Seventh Day Adventists
on the front corner
with their sign
large enough for motorists,
“What is TRUE success?”

Although understanding this question
is rhetorical
with a dogmatic answer
readily at hand
for those with more adventurous
challenging responses
and dialogical interests,
she honks her tender feminist horn
and shouts out to celebrate
“HEALTH!”

White Adventists
turn darker red
and reply
“Not HELL
but Heaven,
each day on Earth God’s patriarchal Sabbath,
for those with eyes to see Trust
and ears to hear Truth.”

“Not HELL,” she returns
while pulling over;
“Health is true success.”

“What about spiritual
and politically empowering success?”
the sign-holder challenges
without much obvious tenderness.

“Mental health
is spiritually empowering health,
at least in my experience.
And yours?”

“I may see your pointedness.
But, what of true economic success?”

“Cooperatively invested financial health.”

“Religious and cultural success?”

“Natural/spiritual synergetic health,
or so it seems to nondualistic
tenderly challenged me.”

“If health is success,
then what is wealth?”
in your challenged tender pathology,
heading toward Hell.”

“You are among those
who segregate sacred sabbath health
from secular business as usual wealth,
in an unhealthy bipolar nature v spirit way
I fear,
without intending blame or shame.”

With your same bipolar challenging division
you could also choose to hear
dipolar tender invitations
in-between hell and heaven,
secular wealth and sacred climate health,
natural informing spiritual questions
like, What is TRUE success?

As she pulls away,
tenderly upward
and challenging onward.

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I Got the D.T. Blues

When his prime time unmediated antagonist
was only “Fake News CNN”
I hoped he might merely be a narcissist,
cynical about the social health value
of articulating inclusive
transparent
historically accurate
real world truths
all the time
to all Earth’s people.

Now that he has kicked his own Fox News dog,
I would say *itch,
or even nihilistic witch,
but then I too might become known
as an outright truth denialist
over-empowered totalitarian of terror,
verbal global abuser,
where we might have healthier
and wealthier chosen
a cooperatively-owned healing climate
of bicameral compassion.

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Yang/Yin ComPassion

If you are a Zen Buddhist
a Taoist,
where wealthy resonant homology
interdependently co-governs global developing history,
past through WiseElder resilient future,

And homology co-arises pre-born
DNA-nurtured
Win/Win healthy phylogeny
of matriarchally-born Earthlings,

If you are a Zeroist,
or an in-between Zoroastrian,
not asha (1) and not all druj (0) either,

You may know,
and perhaps even over/under-stand,
what it means to your ego
to contemplate regenerative in-between,
thin toward fat,
pregnantly interdependent
contemplative ZeroNest
outside Win/Win Earth-centering
inside still a little twisted EgoCentric Win/Lose
short-term One survivalist,

Which turns out to become
a whole lot more than constricted
and narrow-minded degenerating one-ness
of integrity without mendacity;

Unless by one-ness
your non(not-Zero) Ego
experiences integrity
of inside health
reflecting outside wealth,

A community’s healthiest universal destiny
is rooted in humanity’s wealthiest unitarian integrity

Which, in return,
leaves universal Zeroists with nothing much to say
while busy balancing yang-left
with yin-right co-consciousness
unitarian full blown-out flow

Which, in re-return,
is why Zen Buddhists
don’t have much to breathing teach
in-between the win/win Earth’s
asha and bilaterally not-not win/lose druj
within appalling Apollo/Dionysian
non-sectarian languages

Non-violently communicating outside/inside learning
universal yang-left ego faith regenesis
through yin’s right ecosystemic integrity,

Sung in diminished RightWing straining chords
less monoculturally anthro-centric,
out of harmonic win/win ego/eco-balance,

Which the re-re-returning Universally interdependent revolving Unitarians
seem to never stop talking with and through
freedom from and toward non-violent communion
in-between hyphenated hypothetical
heuristic not-this/not-that
zen-zeroistic
seminal wu-wei
cognitive-emotive confluence

At our best in early spring’s full moon
when outside new born light green buds
and sprouts
appear magically united stars
of ultra-violet bright solidarity
of glowing one-nest
as noticed by zero-ness hearts
seeking beauty dualdark green
ego/eco deeply echoing
divinely humane health/wealth
resilient EarthOrganic brown/black values

In sustainable Zero ZenSouls
remembering Yang/Yin full spectral color
points of original interdependent nourishing light

From and for Holy Matriarchal NewBorn Spirits
with holonic patriarchal Zero Summations
of Earth’s danced asha/durj revolution,

Sung intrinsically
and ZeroZone originally
by health/wealth his(1)/her(0)storic soil,
homological souls
of EarthTime’s win/win evolution.

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Wait A Minute!

Did I hear that wrong?

On my way for another appointment
with the vampire bleeding Quest,
big stage conversations on the radio
travel way too fast
for me to stay tuned in
at my normal liberal-conserving pace.

A single new mom
is surprised to learn about herself.
Her post-parted mother self
is less excited about getting back to work
out in the “real world.”

Wait a minute!
When did the real nurturing home environment
become the unreal world?

Back when most of us were serfs
and slaves,
shipping clerks
and slap-happy farmer families,
wasn’t family life cultural realness?
And outside employment
our unreal
mechanistic crazy ant-nestedness?

When and why did that turn
right side down?

Then she argued,
without waiting for slow to learn me,
against those who blame the childcare victim
by challenging employers AND employees
to do better
balancing work and home life
with bi-transcendent presence.

She finds this adds undue bilocation pressure
on parents to find ever more efficient
and effective employee-parent balancing acts
in multi-tasking lack of fully engaged bicameral presence.

We need systemic change,
she says,
although I fear that’s what Donald Trump would also say,
in another UnReal Wounded World’s competitive runaway favor.

Wait a minute!
Don’t throw out the new-balancing baby
with our dirty economic laundry water!
Don’t argue against Ego/Eco balance needed
to embrace, again,
healthy Cultural Balance.

A culture so out of balance
that competitive Win/Lose economies
now monopolize our encultured RealWorld,
and cooperative Win/Win parent/child empowerment
has become privatized UnReal Healthy CounterCulture.

Then, less than a minute later,
Republican spokespersons
described President Trump as vindicated
by Mueller’s executive report
finding insufficient information to prove collusion
with Russia
and/or obstruction of justice
within America.

Wait a minute!
Is no proof of colluding with a violent
totalitarian
kleptocratic regime
threatened by our flagging healthy transparent democratic culture
and cooperative Win/Win mutual empowerment,
really vindicating
an out-loud vindictive plutocrat
too smart to go to Vietnam
and too slick to campaign for principles of un-commodified love and integrity
rather than against recession of pathological hate and mendacity?

First, he said Russia
was helping Hillary in the voting booths
of 2016.

Then, when it became clear some foreign agency
was trying to help him by hurting her,
He said it wasn’t his good buddy Putin
or his Allies.

Then, when it became clear
it was Kremlin-sponsored interference,
He said, repeatedly, No Collusion!
because his campaign knew absolutely nothing
about anything
(which, out of context, sounds plausible).

Then, when it became clear
his campaigners did meet with Russian representatives
offering to do the political nasty
to Hillary,
He said, just “No Collusion!”
without qualifiers.

Then, when it became clear
the Trump campaign had nothing to say
about having met, without reporting, foreign agents
involved in dirty propaganda tricks
in U.S. media markets,
He still said only “No Collusion!”

But, wait a minute!
Now we have been asking
why wouldn’t a patriotic nationalist leader
true-blue military industrially empowered
not jump out of his white privileged skin
to be the first to squeal on the bad bully guys
for playing mean loser-take-all
disempowering undemocratic politics?

Wait a minute!
Short of transparently unveiling how the Trump campaign
proactively attempted to let everyone know
these hostile actions taken
against the integrity of our democratic electoral system
for RealWorld informed voters,
how is No Collusion! (probably)
sufficient to vindicate
some nationally elected leader of a wounded democracy
apparently intent on breaking all Ten Cooperative Commandments
as shamelessly as possible?

Wait a minute!
What happened to obstruction of healthy restoring-trust
bicameral justice?

By the time I returned home
to my RealWorld,
I was already exhausted
trying to keep up with
a patriarchally privileged
Win/Lose
UnReal
left-unmindful dominant brain
right-mind suppressed
with monoculturing
colonizing
secularizing
privatizing
narcissistic bullying intent.

I’ll be alright though…
Just give me a minute.

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