2020 ReWeaving Vision

Speaking With NonBully VoiceBoxes

Dissociative injustice,
like racist slurs and disinvestments,
retributive oppression
for not being SWM enough,
has ecological roots
in LeftBrain anthro/ego-centered fruit
of fragile disconnected autonomy,
against all competing odds
still struggling to win
against all other elitist competitors
for greatest capital gains
over losses.

in RightWing militarized marching squares,
LeftBrain monocultural EitherNature/OrSpirit dualisms
place anthropocentric narcissists
at the SWM Western apex
of a cognitive/emotive intelligence pyramid,
made in Father God’s whitest image,

Privileging SWMs over not-SWM also-rans,
and championing all loyal
humane Earth residents
as endemic only to USA
PatrioticLoyalTrue nationalists
immorally and anti-redemptively overruling
the dark remainder
of ecofeminist systemically entrained
warm and wet EarthWomb-inspired consciousness;

Lacking the LeftBrain verbal communication obsession
to imagine only the idea of God
as Other than self-identifying Gaian nurture presence,
health advocate
true defender of nutritional wealth.

Reflected in each holy living system,
a co-passioned win/win expression of,
and participation in,
this ongoing Great Transformation
of Gaia’s rebirth into indigenous LeftBrain consciousness
of RightBrain’s interdependent faces
resisting Earth HealthLoss
and mortal EgoLoss,

Gaia’s sacredly immanent warmth
required to feel safely connected
to cognitive/affective resonance
with Earth’s secular/sacred balancing climates
of yesterday,
and tomorrow.

With that said,
we warmly invite ourselves to ask:

How has my own eco/theo-logical
and anti-logical dialogue
with co-emergent God/MotherEarth relationship
constrained within internal/external holy communion
articulating global ecosystemic metaphors
favoring all communicating healthy,
warm co-presence?

Yet, how do we still struggle with win/win active hope
north/south challenges, appositional
(both/and, not only either/or oppositional),
yang/yin competitions?

In this LeftBrain dominant RightWing USA
or the HighWay monoculture,
insufficiently responsive
to our ego and environmental health crises
overpopulating and carbon-burning Gaia’s former wealthy climate,
now facing self-effacing lose/lose trend-analysis
without healthy communication
of cognitive and emotive democratic co-authorizing resonance


DiSpiritual Aches and Pains

I have questions
about spiritual problems
with natural causes.

These questions
assume a metaphorical double-bind
co-passion in-between
Left with Right hemispheres
in Nature with Spirit bilateral dialogue

Informed, I hope,
by win/win historic experiential roots:

What has “nature v spirit” tension meant
in my life?

What have been my win/win
lose/lose experiences
with natural Earth?

How has my relationship with nature
been a solitary
and/or communal

What are my poems,
about nature
that feel meaningful?

How do these communications
separate humanity
from nature
and/or include human beings
becoming compassioned within nature?

In my learned theology
are we spirits
or saints
or souls
or divinely inspired supernatural creatures
wanting to be raptured away from natural Earth?

Is Earth both an exterior natural
and interior spiritual potential
integral Paradise,
an EarthTribally cooperative Garden,
growing both spirit nurturing healthy truth
and nature healing wealthy beauty,
democratic health/wealth trust,
secular/sacred energy
synergetically balancing democracy?

Do I sometimes feel hopeless,
and do I long to be able to feel warmth,
and belonging from Earth HerSelf?

Am I often confused and bewildered?
Do I wish I remembered
or knew
what eco/theo-logically harmonic clarity
might feel like?

Do I feel a distrust so deep
that I would need a win/win trust transplant,
a replanting revolution,
in order to ever feel faith
in anything again;
including my own ego/eco-identity?

Do I need acknowledgement of my original mortal life-line,
from win/lose natural beginnings
ending in inevitable loseEgo and loseEarth?
Was mortal self-identity
like a spirit v nature bomb
that destroyed my original win/win promise
born of Earth
and all of win/win rapturous humanity
in each timeless moment
of human nature’s spirited experience?

Do I need absolute guarantees
of win/win protection,
compassioning simplicity,
and restorative peace
reweaving short-term
through long-term

After engaging this list of self-medications,
does climate resonance,
internally spiritual
and externally natural,
feel lose/lose further apart
or win/win
more cooperatively ego/eco-therapeutic?



Most questions above are adapted from two sources:

Justice On Earth Discussion Guide, by Gail Forsyth-Vail and Susan Lawrence, p. 14


Your Resonant Self, by Dr. Sarah Peyton, p. 177


Complex Causes

Do you believe racism and colonialism,
and maybe corporatism and LeftBrain dominance,
are coincidental,
causally related,
or co-arising?

If causal, which is cause
and which is effect?

Do you believe political and economic values/disvalues
are coincidental,
causally related,
or co-arising?
If caused,
which is cause
and which is effect?
Which form of empowering/disempowering investment
takes first position?

Do you believe contagious hate
and destructive predation
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?
If caused, which is cause
and which effect?
Which came first?

Do you believe masculine
and feminine
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?
If caused, which is cause
and which effect?
Which comes as first trimester
delineating DNA default?

Do you believe living
and dying
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?
If cause-effect interdependent,
which is currently causal for you
and which is dipolar effect?
Which comes first
for you
and for all sentient beings?

Do you believe transcendent becoming
and immanent being
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?
If cause/effectively interdependent,
which is primary
and which is secondary
for you
and for all sentient beings?

Do you believe compassionate communication
and healthy relationship
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?
If cause and effect,
which is cause
and which is effect
and which came first for you?

Do you believe regenerative health
and degenerative loss
are coincidental,
causally related,
and/or co-arising?

Double-twining emergence of dipolar appositions,
where once lived left-brain bipolar oppositions,
both-and positive and negatives,
where once lived either LeftHealth
or RightPathology trends,
Elite and NonElite
days and months and seasons
of individuals
and homes
and species
and habitats
and revolving
regenerative more than degenerative
win/win living Earth

Composed of daylight predators
and nightmare dreaming prey,
yang overpowering yin,
left and right political
and social
and economic
and ecological wings
and hearts
and minds
and reproductive systems
for soaring up and down
out and in
breathing regeneratively in,
degeneratively out

If unidirectionally causing changing life
without static death,
then which is cause and which effect?
Which comes first?
For an egosystem;
for an ecosystem;
for an holonic ego
within a robust
re/de-generative system;
for an interdependent ego/eco climate web
of life becoming love’s healthiest communion.


Historic Healing Projects

I had two big projects
from 1970 to 1975,
The first,
to earn a usually white Bachelor dual-major degree
(which sounds at least sexist
as a usually black, brown, red, yellow Mistress nondegree)
of deep learning about yin/yang,
east/west interconnections
cultural communions
between persuasive Speech [and non-verbal] Communication
and attitude changing Psychology.

My second project,
like the first,
was about coming out of my investigating queer closet;
how to find peace
within a new, yet resilient, extended family
through healthy attitude change
about GLBTQ identity
and hetero/homo interdependent family persuasions.

These two projects,
one feeding my left brain academic hunger,
the other watering my right mind emotive thirst
for healthy communicating win/win relationships
of untold infinite harmonic historic resonance
for EarthTribe rememory climates,
theological inside metaphors
for resilient outside ecological communions,
creolization of interdependent gratitude
rather than heterosexual colonization attitude;
became One curious and courageous investigative aptitude,

This comes to mind
as I think about how the religious,
theologically driven, sector
of my local community is,
and is not,
prepared to lead us into climate rapture
rather than more degenerate business as usual climates of trauma,
lose-ego/lose-eco death.

Healing competitive win or lose climates,
sadly heading toward almost inevitable traumatic loss
of living EarthTribe identities
and living Earth
invites historians to remember
“traumatized parts stay frozen in time
for a reason, right?”
(from Sarah Peyton’s “Your Resonant Self” p. 105)
therapeutically interdependent parts stay fluid
across historic climate changes
for a reason, left and right?…

Whether theologically perceived as secular NotGod nature
or ecologically felt as sacred Gaia spiritual webs
of interdependently complex emergent EarthMother
historically co-present rebirthing wombs,

Disconnected religious-theological memories
protect business as usual
eco-illogical exploitation
of sacred Earth,

Ecological life continues
while local faith community theologies
are planning for other rapturous and hellish things

Bowing to our own collective trauma
of universal sacred interdependence
giving way to immersion experiences
in disconnecting traumas
of fallen
fallow win/lose competitive human egocentric nature
more powerful than right mind Earth-climate balancing spirits
creolizing hetero/homo historical resilience,
multi/mono-cultural resonance.

our early 2020 historical revision project
begins with revisiting our diverse faith community
local histories.
How were these motivated
to bring together for healing
lives ignored
and otherwise abused
by already established good/bad faith communities?

How were established theological communions
potentially enriched
by their new neighbors?
Prepared for healthy win/win creolization climates
rather than ever more chaotic trauma
of win/lose side-by-side stiff-jawed tolerance
of not cooperative gospel-singing divisions
between lives co-present on sacred Earth
intended for interdependent raptures
of healthy-wealth webs and wombs
for actively hopeful life?

What are the original founders,
our local saints of communal faith inheritance,
inviting us to reconsider?
How to grow theological and ecologically healthy resilience
to end traumatized-by-negative-climate degeneration
rabidly competitive over-populated
and under-inspired
merely tolerated secular multiculturalism
rather than actively curious poly-culturalistic sacred immersion experiences
in locally complex histories
reweaving future win/win communal potentialities,
left brain resilient climates
with right mind theologically resonant local nature/spirit
transubstantiating theo/eco-logical communion
for present
and future
co-inhabiting past
health/wealth climates of co-revival,
inter-religious thrival.


For Every Light, A Season

For every state,
property, inside or out,
every unchanging constant,
a hint of hopeful restating,
healthier transitioning, outside and in,
correlation communicating constant change.

For every constant changing (x) variable
a hint of timelessness,
resilient eternity,
dynamic (y) rediscovering.

For every open touch function,
potential for deeper resonant feeling flow.

For every win/lose courageous risk,
potential win/win curious co-opportunity.

For every new sound,
a chance for wider hearing
with new ears.

For every leftbrain either/or thought,
a rightmind emotive hint
toward both/and polyphonic ease
of warmth with light, co-resident.

For every voice of God,
a hint of warm wet Goddess.

For every co-present Gaia,
a hint of constant seasonal change.

For every negative anxiety,
a hinting glint for positive anticipation.

For every secular psychological experience,
potential ecologically sacred relationship,
complexly interdependent.

For every historical process,
potential for multiculturing progress.

For every synergetic procedure,
a chance for integrity’s deep and widening potential.

For every warm-lit eco-balancing life,
a hint of cold-dark ego-supremacy death.


Inclusive Epiphany

Your euphony
sounds like my epiphany
he explicitly noted.

Your polypathic resilience
feels like my polyphonic resonance
she compassionately warmed and comforted,
nurtured and nutritioned.

Your theologically divine relationships,
progressions through historical multicultural experience
think and feel my ecologically natural communions,
processions through polyculturing anticipations,
s/he silently sang,
imaginatively danced,

Not for future performance,
but from past inclusive participations,
compassionate regenerations,
dispassionate degenerations,
passionate incinerations,

Euphonic epiphanies.


Outdoor Sanctuary

I am much more likely to feel like a respectful,
trusting family member
than an entitled warrior,
when outside “property improvements”
than when inside anthropocentric habitats.

even as I approach my favorite sanctuary,
an AllSouls Unitarian-Universalist built structure,
I feel more sacred peace before I open our front door
of intended mutual hospitality
accompaniment on life’s great spirited journey,
than after closed off into merely human monoculturing nature.

It’s not that I see or hear myself
as some great and profound nature mystic.
A post-millennial John Muir
I am clearly not,
although I would like to at least feel myself this communal way.

This contrast between indoor and outdoor trust
and resonance
comes not from feeling trees embrace me
but from me embracing trees
through sight
and sound,
occasionally taste, if no humans are watching
with judgmental eyes.

Trees are much more tolerant of my curiosity,
than my cousins,
and most of my siblings.

Perhaps tolerance is not the best word choice.
Acceptance sounds more reassuring.
Inviting into co-presence feels too grand,
yet honorable,
worthy of vocational commitment,

Where indoor mistrust and distrust relationships
speak of selfishly heartless patriotism
and national monoculturing identity
and language and cultural antipathy,
rather than positive integrity
of a sanctuaried people
longing to live free
and comparatively loving lives
under and within paint
and textured sheetrock
looking a bit like bark
if high-end
and if I am feeling generous;
boundaried boxes smelling like chemical toxins.

This unfortunate comparison feels too simple,
for sustained resolution
of internal unsancturied sensitivity,
to notice I need to get out more,
because this means leaving my good faith community behind
as if I were so autonomously strong
in active outside hope and passionately robust love
that I need not hear human stories,
Need not see and conjoin liturgical non-verbal dance,
sacred rhythms
and patterns of compassionate dialogue,
mutual esteem and support,
warm accompaniment,
not of warriors,
but of peace-builders,
cooperative listeners, prayers

My oppositionally defiant daughter,
when in a forgiving mood,
refers to me as a “Talking Head.”

I find too much truth in her smiling tolerance
of this inflamed ego’s hunger and thirst
for regard
rather than a quieter mutual righteousness
of co-presence,
stalking hearts
inside as necessary for communion’s nurture
and outside as profitable for everyday sane nature.

I respect the limiting fact that pipe organs
and grand pianos
cannot sustain in the rain,
but I also seem to respect the possibility
of rapture in a cappella chant
and fire-circle sanctuary dance
witnessed by trees
and stars,
spoken of only by sacred smoky breezes.