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Who’s DisAbled Now?

I have an Elder RightBrain prominent son
to watch and listen to,
to feel confluent and resonant with,
to love
as any parent with silent old-soul child

Yet this is more of a mutual mentoring of
not sad
not bad
not mad thalamus
begets resiliently glad
within a vocally limited
compassion nurturing
sensory environment.

My speechless,
yet often charming as also charmed, son
has no thought of how tomorrow could
or would
or should be any different than today.

This today
he is expecting
to become as resonantly
not unpleasant.
not dispassionate.

Now, if I understand A. Damasio correctly,
this BrainStem with Thalamus primal RightBrain relationship
is a polypathic oneness we all have,
regardless of genetics or gender.
Here we find central communication and locomotion relay networks
between the WinMe+WinWe polyamorous cerebral cortex

LeftHemisphere verbally dominant cognitions
and RightHemisphere nonverbally felt intuitions,
synaptic (+,+) cobinary
and aptic (-,-} reverse double-bind

That is,
RightBrain intuitive intelligence
is not only historically-culturally older memory function,
but also what Gregory Bateson students might recognize as
double-bind dipolar
co-arising mutual ‘generate’-‘generate’
Left Ego + Right EcoHistorical messages
of bilateral
CerebralCortex (+,+) = Root-BrainStem (+,(-,-))
bicameral ego+eco confluent
Me+We.dialectical balance
anticipation
expectation
acclimation.

Healthy ego and wealthy eco logically felt
aptic-bliss neurosensory default
for my cherished son and charmed me
vicariously co-empathic We
strolling through the park
not talking, but holistically together
when not fragmented apart

(0)-Root BrainStem + = (-,-)
peaceful polynomial default
felt healthy-wealth inside
responsively fluid,
and safety outside
confluently stable.

My speechless son
remains entirely unconflicted
about control:
of sounds and sights,
smells and tastes,
digestive/nuture feelings
within his touch-embodied
and non-touch disembodied
days and nights
free to roam

BrainStem intergenerational memories
of familial culture
and landscape climate
communication and locomotion,
chemistry and hormones,
only occasional acute pain,
night seizures,
disrupting pleasure’s peaceful norm.

He knows,
without capacity of climate change awareness,
that he lives in a lavishly Win+Win
co-arising +1 Ego = -(-0) Eco-logical
bicamerally intelligent abundance
of Gaia’s Hypothesis

Here-perceptive + Now-receptive,
which is where he always feels SafeHome,
until it isn’t

When he becomes someone else again
with some capacity to respond
with ecstatic belly laughs
to what LeftBrain dominants
hear as Win v Lose competition
reproducing acute vicious anxiety,
not predicting a return
to chronic virtuous anticipation

He cannot imagine negative-intended communication,
he is not capable of feeling
engrossed in present peace,
good-humored resonant anticipation.

At his Win v Lose strongest pain/threat moments
he expects suffering together,
not apart,
because neurosystemic trauma
has not significantly disrupted his interpersonal supports,
allies,
compassionate caregivers
to whom he offers angelic pleasures
of sharing perfect grace.

Not for one moment is he capable of choosing
to see and hear that other LeftBrain Dominant possibility,
that he might live amongst Win v Lose cheaters
sad and mad Anthropocene deniers,
anti-empathic distrusters,
paranoid homophobic anti-pleasure rapturists,
nihilistic Lose-SacredLove + Lose-OrganicLife
players in EarthTribe’s sandbox of despair.

My son has no nightmares
without warm company of day-stallions
running through his Left+Right re-balancing thalamus,
laughing eco-messianic,
humaneMind/diviningBody bodhisattva angelic,
amongst others sharing our Beloved Democratizing Win/Win Unity.

So, this is why my speechless son
is the happy and warm nurturing center
of each room and outside space we enter.

Where he is,
that is also my best anticipated here/now center,
as his is mine.
And this is why
I try to also see his Win/Win-Only RightBrain PolyAmorous WorldView,
through his positively resonant thalamus
inducing co-arising nondualistic peace
within empathic feeling me,
mirroring my own joy with his glad not sad
NewLeft +,+ aspirations with OldRight +,(-,-) BrainStem
Crown/Root
Yang/Yin spiraling passion’s pleasure flow.

It’s not hard, really,
this polyamorous bodhisattva
democratizing grace.

In fact, I find his vulnerable trust
in unblemished interpersonal transparency
therapeutic.

He reminds me
to review those moments when I have felt healthiest and happiest,
safest and most comfortable,
compassionate and please

Some blissful form
and nurturing function
of regenerative +1 ego-performance
and -(-0) depolarized felt outcomes
of EarthTribe’s Crown/Root celebration

Remembering full climax experiences,
full boom and bloom,
agapic/erotic co-incidentally co-arising
nondual eternally resilient ecstasy
of neuro-sexsensory memory.

Whose faces and what songs and dances and romances
can I remember?
with richly nurtured anticipation?

Which tastes and smells
sounds and sights
touches and feelings
most resonant and poignant,
fill my WinCrown/WinRoot polyamory?

I may be alone
but never feel lonely
in these moments.

With these warm memories
of greatest polypathic climax,

The only resonant thalamus way
solitary memories can be imaginatively enhanced,
is if these compassionate experiences
extended family and friends

Fellow sojourners through organically impassioned life
and degenerative death,
fellow bicameral heart-beaters,
fellow breathers,
in-Yang and out-Yin,
back through nurturing time
and mutually nutritional species

United in Mind/Body
Crown/Root healthy democratic
Yang/Yin bodhisattva polyamorous engagement

Climate Health and Safety
sung and danced
with crown and root
thalamatic peace-making integrity

Following Elder RightBrain’s
Win/Win co-empathic golden rule
with all warm organic breathers,
compassionate pleasure
and dispassionately displeasured
transparent
and vulnerably democratic communicators

Polyamorous panentheists,
like my cherished perfect
bodhisattva son.

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