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Deep Breathing Muse

A poem relies on words
in a communal way
that a song need not
explicit languaged lyrics.

Great communion loves
rely on compassion’s voice
in a polypathic way
beyond life’s primal need
to share polyphonic feelings,
rhythm
patterns
tone
harmonic and dissonant
music,

Often silent
yet synergetic,
fused,
unconfused,
amused,
musing.

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Sighed Earth’s River

I heard a new term today,
sighed Earth’s River,
“spiritual intelligence.”

I have become familiar with
cognitive intelligence,
before that emotional intelligence,
before that contextual intelligence,
similar to climate intelligence
throughout life’s tributaries,
branches
and root well-springs.

My waters do not claim these are strengths;
more familiar as opportunities
for further flowing redevelopment.

But,
just as I am not entirely clear
where emotional awareness ends
and environmental noticing begins,
so too,
where might Earth’s physical context end
and sacred Spirit’s awareness transcend signs
seen,
sighs heard?

I wonder,
rooted in my ego-centering experience,
if feelings flow toward ego inside wet identity
as contextual warm intelligence
ebbs from eco-outside co-investment;

If eco-political context,
empowering and disempowering
natural flowing energies,
welcomes,
invites,
embraces,
baptizes with awe and wonder,
spiritual intelligence of universal individuation,
river-bedded identity
co-arising heart-felt rhythms,
breath
surfing up and down,
smiles clown
and frowns crown

Polypathic signing language,
polyphonic rhythm,
polyculture flowing systems,

Analogical EarthNature
unveiling metaphoric Spirits,

Secular purpose
compelling sacred meaning

Signing reasons,
sighing seasons
pushing up
and flowing down.

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Unbright Intellectual Snobbery

When I was in grade school
I was, already,
on my leftbrain dominant path
toward acting the intellectual snob.

This, in large part
my best offense,
my trump card, sadly,
against marginalizing prejudice
of our community’s non-farmer economic
and political Elite;

The few kids
whose parents went to college
and/or inherited some above-the-norm property
business, preferably not agribusiness,
professional service assets
even the most straight white male
would appreciate
like doctors
and nursing wives,
two income households
with academic bright credentials.

By the time I reached high school
being on, or at least within sight of,
the top of my class,
and president of as much political property as possible,
or at least vice-president,
became my trump card
for getting out of rural SWM oppression,
depression,
suppression,

Where I was not safe,
back in the 1960s rural midwest,
and I could never possibly matter,
become one of the local community’s Elite,
a pillar of church and state
while overcoming the guilt and shame
of being the queer son
of a below median income family farmer.

Intellectual snobbery
was my leftbrain overwhelming defense
against rightbrain amygdala loneliness,
extreme social-sexual isolation,
drowning in cortisol-baptized self-stigmatization.

Leftbrain dominant academic skills
were my best offense
for succeeding out in urban
urbane
multicultural
cosmopolitan
singing and dancing
democratically compassionate
win/win feeling and acting society.

The only healthy society
that mattered;
where I could possibly matter,
and become transparent
and vulnerable
and connected
and safe.

That defensive snobbery
still, in 2020 hindsight,
lives in my deepest closet,
longing for warmer
more inclusive acceptance,
invitation,
compassion

For right brain radical interdependence
with those of us,
regardless of income
and lack thereof,
regardless of self empowerment
and lack thereof,
capable of engaging
and energizing this tragic comedy
of small staged love lives,

Rural and urbane
Healthy and wealthy
Ego and eco-therapeutic
Left and right brained
Smart and warmly co-passionate
Proud and humble

Divinely humane
playing more win/win trump cards
through more cooperative co-investment.

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DisOrganized Religion

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized elitist creeds,
including religious and judicial,

I am even more terrified
by my experience of disorganized natural spirituality,
dissociated bicamerality,
unenchanting mono-laterality,
win/lose egocentrism,
narcissism,
lose/lose climates of nihilism,
anthropocentrist chauvinism,
inhumane unnatural straight white male business as usual supremacy,
left brain dominant elitism.

I get it,
I notice,
unpopular conflict of legitimate interest decisions
have followed win/lose monotheistic
competitive
stress-inducing
sleep-depriving
evolutionary economic modeling
of mortal depression trends,

But,
we could expand this win/lose left-brain dominant assumption
to include confluence of multicultural interests,
multiplication where lies monoculturing divisions,
summations where now lie win or lose negations
of all that lies outside patriarchal structures
of incorporated militarized competitions.

We might, together, warmly notice
chaotic decisions follow monoculturing elitist paths
of least win/lose Business As Colonizing Usual memory patterns.

We might refocus
away from in-toxic-ation with lose/lose mortal nature systems
oppressed by win/lose monopoly, at best, future aggressive prospects
for EgoCenters v EcoEarth natural power economies,
eventual inevitable loss,
depression,
degenerative ultimate pathology trends
of dissociation.

We might notice
who chooses to make elitist SWM corporate
retributive justice decisions.

We might notice,
with more win/win warm empathy,
disproportional placement of military-industrialized young adult wounds,
reducing sacred MotherEarth to a convenient waste disposal site,
natural (so un-spiritual?) resource extraction,
repression,
and anthro-centric theft,
pollution of air,
water,
soil,
left-brain dominant minds,
win/lose informed deformed anti-bodies.

We might notice
several displaced non-elite subcommunities
subclimates suspicious of SWM enculturation
having been history’s stress absorbers,
racist
and elitist
and sexist
and homophobic dissociation,
segregation,
apartheid,
non-elite capital income prejudice
and win/lose ecopolitical perpetuation,
limited win/win communication access,
left/right co-empowerment life-skills,
co-relational peace intelligence,
co-empathic intention toward healthiest wealth,

We might win/win notice
limited access to mind and body health resources,
assurances,
restorations,
reweavings,
regenerations of integral wealth and value polities

Listening with more multicultural right-brain intelligence
and speaking with less monocultural left-brain verbal dominance,
on behalf of noticing
rigvht’brain’s long matriarchal ecofeminist herstory
of interdependent
domestically and globally intersectional metaphor,
poly-paradigmatic health systems
for win/win EarthMother thrival.

We might notice
this 2020 bicameral revolution
revisions every win/lose Business As Usual
systemic thing

Into an interdependently living
organic
global, yet universal
integral
synergetic
multicultural communication
co-relational
regeneratively resilient
energy democracy.

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized religion,
I am even more terrified
by Earth’s subclimate of succeeding spiritually
without also winning EarthRight naturally.

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The Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove

It occasionally occurs to me,

as I distractedly remove my right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove,
after yet another young adult diaper change,

Perhaps getting lovingly laid
by a lifetime committed
caring and passionately consenting peer
filled with warm compassion,
active hope for tomorrow
would not be the worst conjoining thing
that could happen to neuro-alternatively-challenged intelligent beings
childishly preferring win/win cooperative outcomes
derived from compassionate climaxing thought-feelings together
while experiencing full-sensory resonant mental health.

Then again,
I suppose the same
powder-free examervation might apply
to economic and political narcissists,
and patriarchal double-binary
co-disassociative left v right hemispheres
runaway debating between lonely older aescetics
ordained to fulfill male dominant sublimation
through yin-recessive win/win co-passion’s ostracization,
diminution,
fragmentation,
cognitive-affective dissonance.

And then I wonder
how long will it take
to re-sacralize humane non-elite poop
as richly robust future compost
best for black gold richly embedded fertility,
as I race and gender and age
to throw out plastic scat bags,
filled with cotton and plastic diapers
and under/overpads,
and right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Gloves.

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Emotional Intelligence

Glutted left-brain information media
actively hope to understand

Why does emotional intelligence
speak to egocentric concerns
of mortality and discomforting toxic defeat,
loss and difficult win/lose everyday choices
in a calming voice for unself-conscious contentment?

What is this ZeroSoul content of contentment
to feel we are right
sentient full beings
here co-present
within eternal now relationships of compassion
affiliating on this Earth
in our co-passioning interdependent webs
of health co-operative
wealthy co-investment

Without mortal loss,
suffering;
Without unwanted walls between us
and them.

Why does emotional unintelligence
speak too loudly
intolerantly
of Earth-UnCentered constant concerns
of inhumane immortal overpowers
and toxic LoseHealth/LoseWealth
RightWing left-brain dominant choices
in cacophonous dissonant voices
claiming no rights to contentedly tolerate
only healthier multicultures
of win/win emotional intelligence?

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