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Communicating Gratitude

My non-communication
and dissonant
dysfunctional miscommunication,
and occasionally aggressive
challenging win/lose dogmatic
refusal to bother with communication,

These all degeneratively punish
and unpleasantly neglect
open systemic civility

With marginalizing effects
further reinforcing
disempowered
and unenlightened
trauma-avoiding behaviors

Toxic for those most wounded
and disabled
by LeftBrain dominant
monotheistic divine omnipotence
v hedonistic human non-verbal
non-violent impotence

A non-communion corporate spirit
of LeftBrain individual is supreme
divisive worldviews
harboring “gifted” classrooms
and partisan parties
and elitist societies
for StraightWhite
anthro-hierarchical evolutionary power
to suppress RightBrain
healthy Trust
co-passions wealthy Beauty

Resonant resilient communication
may invite a long operatic epic
but does not suppress communion
of non-verbal health/wealth intuitions,
does not repress
felt polysensory-neural healthcare
community

Passionate gratitude
positive attitude
inspired by sacred place
of generous natural Trust
meets secular corporate time
to co-invest in ubiquitous spiritual Beauty

Communicating mindful thanks
humble joy
reminds me
my “disability” labels
lie uncomfortably close
to dis-enabling resonant integrity’s
deepest sacred potential,
resilient love communication
in multicultural experiences
of communion

Wide passions
of co-empathic gratitude
for each day of Truth is Beauty
growing multi-sensory
neural-systemic health-is-rich-wealth
polyculturing communications.

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Sabbath Hope

I hope to visit next Sunday
on a warm
sunny
early PeaceGiving afternoon

Outside with my wounded Daughter’s
extending therapeutic family
with win/win playful
and richly resonant intent

Inside her new
young
empowering
and cooperatively enlightened

Thankful
mind-full music
and muse dancing
mythically
mysteriously
majestically joyful home.

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Mother Eartha’s Therapeutic Choice

I have an inside Mother Eartha Voice
which She would prefer
to keep hidden
given any cooperatively healthy
democracy choice.

Mother Eartha
does not necessarily trust
the sexy grace
and beauty
of all Her StraightWhiteMale
potential Allies

College educated
but RightBrain contextually
environmentally
straight white privileged
tone deaf

Unaware of Her
inter-connecting
inter-religious
panentheistic
paradigmatic
compassionately co-invested
therapeutic
dipolar co-arising
spectacularly unsurprising

BiLaterally systemic intelligence
dialogical
non-combative
non-violent
co-passionate dialectical structures

Wherein LeftBrain conscious
mending and amending effects
follow RightBrain healing
safe health feelings

Stem
from biochemical roots
of Win/Win Trust,
anti-dogmatic Win/Lose MisTrust,
and anti-apartheid
RightWing anthrosupremacist
monotheistic
colonizing chronically anxious
Distrust

DisConnection
from evangelical parental sinners,
business suit
fundamental Either My Dogmatic
StraightWhite PatriLinear Purist Way
or life’s great traumatic
Business As Usual
marginalizing
dissociative
disabling
criminalizing
predative
commodifying
degenerative anxiety

Provoked by RightWing
PatriCapitalist Win/Lose
unhealthy deformative
RightBrain anxious degenerative
traumatizing highways

Do not make the best
healthiest
safest pedagogically therapeutic
bicameral Yang/Yintegral
deep health/wealth listening
restorative justice
bipartisan balancing TaoWays

As yet under-explored
by raspy voiced
StraightWhiteWesternMales
in tweedy academic
and competitive corporate
and commodity misgoverning addictive
alcoholic cycles

StillBirth worshipping
outdated Win/Lose dominant evolutionary theories
justifying society’s punishing violence
as divinely bestowed dogmatic authority
to wear ballistic
monotheistic
monoculturing harmful
capitalistic Business Suits

Of subconsciously disarming despair
confused by why multisensory media
are most nonverbally fluent
affluently well-sung
gracefully danced
True indigenous Win/Win Nature

Dipolar bicameral democracy
equitable interdependence
co-arising co-investing
Mother Eartha’s co-passionate Soul
of bicameral message/media
SecularTruth/SacredBeauty
holonic spirit voiced choice

ReLigiously ReConnected
mysteriously
mythically
musically
operatically
epically revolutionary

As to why EcoFeminist Sacred S/He
would not trust
StraightWhitePatriarchal He
to share our cooperative
co-invested Mother Eartha bed

Or head
or heart
or more root chakra
sacred harmonic
dialectical
dialogical
active dia-thematic
therapeutic parts

Safely good and healthy
for what traumatizes
Mother Eartha’s sacred
diminished
disabled
RightBrain prominently wounded
intuitive mused Voices.

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Disabling Corporate Culture

Dynamically spiraling fractions
of potentially integral energy
win/win cooperative
and win/lose disruptive

Against peaceful eight octaves
of eight
is one hundred per day
full-octave spectral revolutions
during bilateral peace-sentry nights

DoubleBinary
for fractal 4 = NonZero ReGenerative
indigenous spacetime dynamic
century sensory wisdom

Integrity’s sacred RightBrain ReWeaving Potential
to Climax Reset
for yet another Business
As Naturally Usual
Fibonacci Octave-Neural Outcome
Holonic Spirited day

Ecstatically filled
with intersectional FractalGroup
primal family

Organic in/out-sided experiential
WinWin
Holonic LifeHealth Play

With regenerate pattern
synergy rhythmed
ribboned
spiraling bilaterals
of health structure maps
for fractal collaterals
like sacred integral
territorial DNA

Redeveloping another dynamic
experiential
pedagogical
eco/theological envelopment
of Music,
Myth,
and MetaPhonic
MetaPhysic
MetaPathic
MetaPhoric
bicameral
historical euphoria

LeftBrain seas
in 3/12
three dimensional
hourly and daily
temporal space
pace

While RightBrain hears
in 4/4 sacred surfing fractals
for annual
seasonal un/redevelopment
cooperatives

Deep RightBrain interweaving
binomially thoughtful maps
with flowtrend feeling
integrity territories

DoubleBinding
dipolar co-arising
regenerative four-seasoned
structured time

For healthier pedagogical maps
deep RightBrain
interdependently sacred connected
by transparent vulnerability
ability to recommunicate
resistance to monoculturally marginalizing
autistically ghettoizing
mental hospitalizing
unhoused
unhinged OTHER populations

Oppressed remains
for cooperative peer-educated persistent
monocultural domination
of middle class straight white
PatriCapitalist AnthroSupremacy

AND, in this polycultural win/win
therapeutic cooperative
co-passionate resistance,
we thereby restore public
and climate health education systems
engaging in wealthier deep learning

So, oppressed Earth’s great climatic health
returning
as polyculturally woke
fractured fractal wounded wealth

EcoTherapy for re-educating
history’s English privileged classroom
for unstraight
unwhite
un-monotheistic
un-vested
discommunioned
traumatically suppressed people,
for oppressed organic
living
integral planning and implementing
secular purpose
and sacred meaning systems
more favorably impressed
by Teacher Mother Eartha

Dynamically spiraling fractions
of potentially integral
octaves of harmonic energy
win/win resiliently cooperative
and win/lose
degeneratively disruptive.

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OppressedCulture Therapy

HealthCare giving
in a cognitive disability space
includes cultural LeftHemisphere trauma,
perhaps chronic autistic distress,
disrupted thrival flow
of wellness serotonin
and safe happiness dopamine
internally felt
sensory

Elder RightHemisphere spiritual
nondualistic
eco/theo-logical
outside/inside
warm womb-felt therapeutic
win/win
EgoChoices/EcoVoices
of health and safety resilience.

When we combine
what we know
about bicameral
bilaterally contextual intelligence
with what we have experienced
as healthy-positive
is also not pathologically negative
dissociative
anthro-supremacist languaged defiant behavior,
LeftHemisphere Either/Or Dualistic
monoculturing dominant
Pedagogy of the [Left-Disability] Oppressed

We can better multiculturally mediate
Restorative Justice
by wrapping in Paulo Freire’s
nonviolent educational communication
for a Left/Right bicameral liberation
wellbeing experience.

EcoFeminist marginalization
follows AnthroSupremacist
StraightWhite Patriarchal
Anglo-MonoTheistic colonization histories

Of ecopolitical BusinessAsUsual
RightWing
LeftBrain dominant
nationalistic
patrilinear
chauvinistic
monoculturing
monotheistic

Predative
win/lose devolutionary
lazy and uninformed impassioned revolutionary
lose/lose ultimate pathological loss, uninformationary
absence of healthy deep indigenous learning trends
co-relationary

EcoPolitically partisan confusion
about where to draw a toxic line
between sacrificing YHWH’s disabled
LeftBrain cognitive marginals
to practical fascist realities
of devolutionary win/lose patriarchal
capitalist theory

Supported by nationalistic
individualistic StraightWhite Supremacist history
prejudiced against RightBrain contextual
interdependent
intersectional
inter-religious
inter-transformatively connected strengths
to know a retributively unjust
cruel win/lose monoculturing coldness
abusive and/or neglectful dissociative
environment
inhospitable to synergetically felt
compassion feelings
for natural/spiritual nonviolently indigenous
wisdom

Against our collective educational abuse
of the unusually
unchosen
unsympathic creatures
whom we must regretfully CancelCulture

Other
Alien
UnClean
Useless
Hopelessly LeftBrain Unfit
Disabled…

Yet again,
if we had sufficient curiosity
and courage
to gaze into EarthMother’s disabled
EarthTribal historic lives
of prehistoric oppression,
where would we likely Fall
to Win/Lose sins
of punishing our RightBrain prominent kin?

With more than sufficient sacred integrity
to revolutionarily comprehend
who and what is healthy Trust
and wealthy indigenously natural/spiritual Beauty

All doing our win/win best Duty
to restore EarthHealth Justice
is to also redeem Earth’s highest
and best,

Deepest
and widest
Healthy BiCameral Wealth System.

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Sacred Falling Stars

Once upon a time a gymnast teacher told a girl,
and all her classmates,
to gather around the trampoline
to spot the student currently bouncing on the trampoline.
They circled around
to volunteer a ring of imperfect
but positively intended
desire to help,
should the witnessed bounce go horribly
accidentally wrong.

This same request for a spot was one familiar to this same girl,
and these same classmates,
when they were bench pressing at the gym,
not because the teacher asked,
but because the fully abled weight lifter asked
if they could work out together,
and spotting each other during the bench press
was simply Standard ReAssurance Operating Procedure
for humane care givers
and receivers.

Anyway,
the unfortunate girl bounced sideways when one of her knees gave out
and she came flying directly toward our spotter
who did her very best to get out of the way,
to go to the other side of the street,
to walk on by,
to pull out her cellphone camera
to get it all delightfully recorded
for the more proper punishing authorities.

The teacher was
(1) concerned for the wounded
splattered girl on the matted
and yet still not inviting
floor, and
(2) furious with the spotter turned distant recorder.
When the classroom administrator asked, “Why?”
the girl said her father told her not touch others
at risk of injury
on their way down
because she might be liable for post-touch injury
and, besides, it’s not like she’s going to be financially rewarded
should she be successful with mitigating harm,
so, there is no “on the other hand” potential reward system
worth mentioning.

It’s the same reason she,
and those witnesses huddled
in a supportive constellation around her,
pulled out her star-gazing
witnessing camera
while George Floyd struggled to “I can’t breathe” communicate
while being deliberately suffocated
to overpower him when he was already down,
and about to blink
wink out.

The liability attorneys
and corporate accident insurance actuaries
get paid bigger bucks to tell front-line administrators
why touch
and help
and prescriptions
and medical procedures should be denied,
because the risk of trying to care for each other,
when it just isn’t enough,
is a last touch liability.
And, on the other hand,
there is no reward for the person,
the agency,
the health care giving and receiving
reassurance win/win anticipating
corporate system
doesn’t economically
cooperatively exist.
Compassion doesn’t pay–
it just regenerates more health care risk
and personal star witness liability.

Care giving,
especially for those who have already sustained transparent
vulnerable losses
in their compromised physical and mental health lives,
is responsible for first and last caring touch of hand and voice
every day,
every custody minute of care,
whether standing behind,
in best-effort solidarity,
or standing nearby,
spotting each win/win cooperative constellation,
reassuring wounded OtherStars.

Care giving opportunities,
health care spotting for each other, pays poorly,
when compared with what star corporate liability insurance attorney
and accountants
use to buy second homes;
sometimes including financial bonuses
for successfully avoiding any realistic possibility of harm,
unnecessary financial loss.
Care giving with active compassion
bears a long patriarchal tradition of being feminist underpaid
to believe cameras up,
but hands and eyes down,
deflect,
stand back,
don’t get involved–
are not politically disempowering
run-away capitalist actions and inactions.

Potential financial risk for helping to prevent further harm,
for doing your win/win best,
for cooperatively investing in all sacred stars,
for health care compassion,
for nurturing at-risk humanity in the face of immediate injury,
wounds,
losses,
suffering,
especially falling risk to marginalized persons of color,
it doesn’t pay well to the left brain dominant
patriarchal corporate
win/lose zero-sum mind–
but really is what life is all about,
at its most invigorating compassionate best chance
of win/win solidarity success
to the right brain feminist
constellation of enlightening hearts.

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Organic Therapy

Sogyal Rinpoche,
and all the Rinpoche family before him,
prescribes therapeutic merit
of contemplating my Master’s face.

For ecotherapists
the Master of Regenerative Intent
is also Mother Earth’s face,
climate,
multicultural health
in ecological/theological harmony.

EcoTherapists,
like ancient saints and sacred scriptures,
teachers and teachings,
oral tradition Tellers
and Experiential ReTellers,
do not distinguish
between secular ecological relationships
and sacred theological co-passions

Because we cannot see
or hear,
feel
or touch,
taste
or smell any difference
that makes a difference
between exterior left-hemisphere dominant
YangNature
and interior right-hemisphere ecofeminist
YinSpirit

In appositional dialogue
and not unhealthy oppositional debate.

Anyway,
whether because of dualistic blindness
or nondualistic wisdom,
or both physical experience
and metaphysical theory,
or all above and below
tipping points of universal mediation,

Gazing on the Face of Earth
is, for this ecotherapist,
a growing awareness
of changing enlightenment,
beginning with dawn source East
and ending with dusk’s last gasp
surrounding light’s enculturing dominance
fading from East toward West.

In this light’s day
my brown-skinned daughter
with lively brown crossed eyes,
born addicted to alcohol,
leaves the light and darkness of my home
to enter a residential facility

Paid for by the State of Connecticut
and staffed by a non-profit Lutheran agency,
with professional behaviorists
and egotherapists,
left and right hemisphere teachers
of deep learning
spiritual emotions with natural thoughts,
natural thoughts expressing spiritual
sensory sensed
healthy healthed feelings,
co-arising Earth’s facial ease
v disease,
light v dark,
empowerment v entropy.

But, even today,
as we finish packing
and travel for an hour
and go through this postVirus placement,
the profound and most significant drama
of light unfolds
across the Face of our exterior Mother

Where sun and shadow
again sweep
and climax
and wane

Where seasonal climate
and daily temperature and humidity,
rooted in yesterday’s pre-millennial climate
and global subclimates,
branch out
toward tomorrow’s regenerative
and degenerative
health wealth and pathology stealth trends,
co-arising this day’s unique permacultural opera

Witnessing
and celebrating operations
of daily changing
uniquely evolving
resiliently revolving Face
my daughter’s new and old homes
of light and shadow
resolutely best embrace.

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And Still We Search

I’ll be turning 68 this spring
and still looking for a health wealthy home.

This feels remarkably like a younger traveler’s game,
with less baggage
and furniture
and tools.

Embarrassing
for an ecotherapist
to be so Earth-habitat unrooted.

Not to indulge in self-shaming,
yet my youngest son,
dependent on EarthTribe to support him
because of physical and verbal dysfunction,
is especially threatened
by Dad’s disability
to seek deep and wide root systems
of affiliation
with natural and spiritual neighbors.

My support system
continues with good faith feedback
that every challenge represents opportunities to learn
and doing so keeps us feeling young,
flexible,
even springy,
optimistic.

I wonder how much older I would feel
if I had never left my family farm birthplace
in Michigan
where this nomad epic wandering
was first inspired
to run into young adulthood
on my own two strong legs
and back
and more orthodox mind.

Now more imaginatively stimulated
by heretical thoughts of a well-cushioned rocker
next to a comforting fire,
surrounded by neighbors,
people
and birds,
squirrels
and rabbits,
chipmunks
and woodchucks,
fox
and shy coyotes,
wild turkeys
and horses
and cattle,
sheep
and goats,
mother trees
and lilac bushes,
a blue lake
and a green alpine mountain,
a shade speckled rocky river…
And still I search
for compassionate companions
on this daily revolving journey
through Earth’s nutrition nurturing seasons
active and dormant,
light with rain and snow,
sometimes feeling far too fast
and sometimes anciently slow…

And still we search,
my son and I,
for yet another right place to go.

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NonProfit CoOperatism

An important truth of non-profit cooperatism,
as contrasted with for-profit corporatism,
is democratic wisdom
of co-investing capital and equity and interdependence,
giving from a healthy egalitarian heart
is also receiving a wealthier, more resilient, bilateral mind,
mind and body fullness,
ego- and eco-therapeutic resonance.

While true of all non-profit
non-competitive economic and democratic cultures,
this may be peculiarly enhanced by religious multicultures,
interfaith communions of active hope for local,
and thereby,
emerging global health of nutrition-cultured outcomes.

It also seems curious to me
that people with disabilities
and chronically homeless people,
people with significant mental and physical health concerns,
are disproportionately aware
of mystical correlations between internal
and external climate conditions,
chaotic and complex,
peaceful and resonant,
dissonant and confluent.

A balmy blue sky day
is more likely to evoke joy,
Just as cold,
damp
inside depression
political repression
social suppression
lack of economic impression
predict winter’s long hibernating darkness.

It may be
dying and dissonant faith communities,
and zealous triumphalistic fundamentalists
favoring red state nationalistic patriarchal
and homophobic
and anti-feminist fake-patriotism,
are enduring the dreg effects of theological apartheid,

Competitions in who has the most redeeming
right-wing economic effects
while ignoring green growing local democratic multicultural inclusion
hospitality
advocacy
healthy resilience
polycultural resonance.

Such competitors may need
Active participation of those with climatic disability experience,
Those who have recently been released from imprisoning cells,
Those who winter in overnight shelters
and summer outside under the stars,
Those torn apart by inside violence
looking longingly toward memories of outside childhood resonance,
Those trained by State machines to kill
as automatically and robotically as commanded
by the AntiEarth voice of a violent god.

And, such wounds
and lingering climate vulnerability
through trials of impoverished internal spirits
and externally hungry natures,
may need active hope and faith and compassion cultures
communities,
communions,
more than elitist and segregated
lukewarm inside win-or-lose capitalistic faith communities,
removed from worshiping outside blue sky memories,
cooperative climates of healthy resonant faith.

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Commanding Solo Performances

It had been a hellish week.

On Monday
my lonely and tired AfricanAmerican husband
told me, as gently as possible,
that what I had hoped was a temporary separation
is to be extended into perpetuity.

This separation had been scheduled to terminate
when my Fetal Alcohol daughter turns eighteen
and can move into a new, more therapeutically endowed, home
not our non-group home
which could not feel like a private home to him
and to a more peacefully vulnerable me.

He told me his autonomy of residential sight
and sound
and smell,
temperature and feel,
thought and absence of forced transparent thought,
has grown ever more compelling for him,

Like a new life system
organically emerging from calcified minerals
mixed with melted wet.

This permanent separation,
less about not wanting to share a roof and walls
and multicultural floors
and more about wanting a more private
monotheistic habitat.

I had been working on my adopted daughter’s emergency group home application;
Her eighteenth, and first qualifying, birthday was Friday
of this same hellish week
filled with demands,
as usual,
but more so,
more self-prophetically entitled now;

A “big [supremely self-disempowering] girl”
as multiply messaged from school
and therapists
and family,
jonesing to live with submissive peers
who will best be lesser care receivers
as she intends to appropriate all care giving staff,

Demanding preferred foods,
and music
and stories
and dance,
and diaper change
and bed
and bath times
ignoring needs of lesser beings;

Like living with a constantly ticked off Gaia
showing us who’s our jealous Boss
in response to our climate endangering ways
of patriarchal colonization
disrespecting matriarchal communion,
ecological creolization.

Demanding routines she and I have evolved
since she was five,
unable to see up,
only downstream,
unable to hear well,
unable to speak in consonants
articulate enough to defy caregiver ignorance,
lack of subservient cooperation,
submission to her aggressively iron will,
triggering every slaveholder
property owner
reactionary nerve in my husband’s long-term
matriarchal-limned
unnerved memory.

Our more cooperative and trust-building relationship
soon took care of Gaia’s communication problems
but we created, thereby,
a princess entitled ‘I win so you lose’ monster
of immediate and really loud
NEED!

Yet, now that she is maturing to leave this nest,
how much do I need her
to keep me safely home at night
and off the larger terrifying climate stage
of degenerating ecopolitical performance?

On the following Sunday morning,
I was to sing “Let Your Little Light Shine”
a less popular spiritual,
and at least not unnatural,
gospel message;

A sung prayer from enslaved history,
humiliating origins surviving valleys of vulnerable despair
by holding up
and out
dim fading lights of hope,
sometimes accessible from other enslaved properties
with more resilient hope in green and brown and black
communion.

On Saturday night
my heart spoke of grief
lost in deep dark valleys
isolated
abandoned
down-sized
empty-nested
shallow-chested
ancient old person despair,

And my lungs sagged
pushing against narrow edges of freezing panic

Terror about forgetting left-brain words
and reminders of past sung and danced solo performances
not nearly as fun
enriching
fulfilling
health wealthy
as past group participation
in full-nested harmony
synergy
resonance
regenerativity
sacred communions spiritual
while naturally co-present

Green
and brown
and black,
ultra-nonviolet
and transparently clear.

On Sunday morning,
after earning a strategically planned
full night’s rest,
I felt much worse

Unable to imagine leaving my sanctuary
much less singing
much less performing
a song longing for the Lord
to shine even the faintest ray of hope
down into this valley of well-earned despair,

A grey climate of hopelessness,
nihilistic thoughts,
narcissistic preoccupations
trapped in a shrinking fragile egocentrism.

I took an anti-depressant
which got me to the church on time
but now feeling anxiously disembodied
within my own Beloved Sanctuary
too universally white
straight
and too removed from outside green
and family brown
and EarthTribe Native black resonant voices,
fragrances,
touch,
tasting and seeing.

I could not remember words,
or think of alternative reasonable sounds,
could not find my opening pitch,
felt deserted by a cappella
absence of accompaniment,
by a choir relegated to background support services
rather than foreground cooperative resonance
of care giving
co-passioning care receiving.

But, there was something else
bad,
REALLY bad,
a repugnance that stayed with me
through rehearsal,
through first
and then final performance
and on through the return home
after a technical tepid success
lacking the resonance of producing music
transcending rhythm and pitch and lyrics
demanding better held and managed light systems
for my self-isolating despair

Afraid of drowning
in this internal river valley.

Although not sure what happened Sunday night,
I awoke next morning to emotional fragility,
again
to fears of too much aloneness, loneliness,
worries about ageing in a place not quiet enough
from road rage
and too demanding of soil
and water
and energy stewardship,
warm accompaniment,
propriety of grace,
cooperative well-being.

What was different, on this reawakening,
was recognizing my,
and our,
monocultural misappropriation,
supremacist ideation
of “Let your little light shine”
as if we are, and I am,
the Lord’s great solo hope
for all the autonomous
disconnected
apartheid
indigenous nature/spirit
EarthTribe life-systems
of healthy care giving/receiving
singing and dancing in revolving circles
of gospel fire,

Choired resonantly together
in active shared home harmonies,
extending families back through enslaved ancestors
reminding an AfroCentric Lord
this light begins
from hope sung dance together
with multiculturally resonant intelligence

Leaving no one behind
trying to soulfully enlighten
my darkest valley of despair.

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