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My Avatar Son

I have a son,
in whom I am well pleased,
with more than his share of heart
and mindbody intelligence,
to comprehend vastness of Earth’s evolving history
and future demise,
to comprehend full emptiness of universes within
and without
co-arising nondual lonely/solitude
double-binary universes
de/re-generative,

Enough intelligence to become One-haunted,
Zero-empty
beyond our deep dualist dark insignificance
as a species,
and far less secular value even than his
commodification of isolated EgoCentric Futures,

His own autonomous Ego value so inconsequential
he doubts his worthiness of food he eats,
of water he drinks,
of air he breathes in solitude,
out lonesome, still in-between
much less worthy of competitive employment,
of any maturing sense of healthy vocation,
social purpose,
sacred meaning midst his human comedic/tragic environment
at its best a cooperative musical re-creation network.

This reciprocity he can more or less actually find
on-line,
but not so much within his own family,
much less school.

Well, maybe a few non-isolating exceptions
to the individual student rule
competing against all other egotestical students,
everyone playing an absurd StraightWhiteMale
Win/Lose
LeftBrain dominant game,
with loser death the inevitable ego-identified outcome
for each and all;
no exceptions for eco-therapeutic GayBrownSons.

In the meantime,
Should we continue to fiddle
and twitter
and shake dis-autonomized hands
while Earth prepares to burn in the middle
and flood on the shores?

Why not orchestrate Win/Win gaming cooperatives,
more democratically inspired fun,
more opportunity to improve communication,
co-deductive/inductive nonviolent dipolar analysis?

To live empirical-compassionate method
in an actively healthy
curiously communicative
economic and political mutual Win
kind of bicameral Taoist way.

But Taoism is off-course,
in his expansive view,
hiding in a Pandora labeled X-box
“EXEGENESIS of RELIGION”
which is about a spirituality cat half yin dead
and unfortunately only, at best,
half nightmarishly lonely yang
half alive,
as if solitude spirit
is any other than eco-dynamic yang-One nature,
as if lonely yin
were in
other than absent reverse nondual 0-sum
engaging yang’s revolving Earth-bilateral clock.

Spirituality implies he walks through a divinely inspired comedy
with few speaking parts
and no solos allowed,
which he feels could not be true
unless win/win divine game inspiration
is no more or less
than human naturally regenerative DNA
fractal programming function,
developing cooperative eco-binary Fullerian form,
informational ergodic prime nonzero-sum
regenerative patterns and natural rhythms,
synergetic invitations toward solitude gratitude
lonely attitude,
integral predestination of phylogenic bilateral
bihemispheric structural flow
revolving through Earth’s interdependent orbits
of health-timed wealthy space.

To what meaningful end
could we possibly become
for one who is humanist comedy/tragedy musical
cooperative-preferred,
competition-averse?

With polypathic/polyphonic inclined interests
rooted in rich
dense
fertile healthy sharing
this hour
this game,
this day’s night plan,
but without actively articulating cooperative invested hope
for any long-term self support systems,
thrival nutrients for his body;
not just his solitude/lonely mind,
breath,
bicameral heart-beat…

Surprising to me
how my lovely son quickly learned to re-see
win/win spirituality
as natural nonduality,
but has yet to recover his embryonic mind
as body co-arising neuro-systemic transparency,
much less divine
as also humane
musical comedic/tragic unity
not aspiring toward monolithic uniformity

Despairing eremetical non-choice
despite polypathic resonant opportunities
to feel so much yang wealthier
ego-centering Left
and yinternally healthier
eco-systemic Right.

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