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Still Processing: Please Don’t Wait

Does sacred MotherEarth
too often want to stop
to process Her nuanced feelings?

Does our desecrating Dad
too seldom demand we stop
to consider grace
and win/win gratitude
for creation
as it has systematically developed
to this current post-millennial date?

Revisiting loyalty to Earth’s global systems
of nutritional economics
and cooperative psychological
bicameral enlightenment
of healthy democracy
bipartisan empowerment

Solidarity with RightBrain integrity
restoring EarthJustice
nonviolent ecofeminist
co-invested communication

Deep listening
to identify EarthPatriotic feelings
of safety,
provision,
protection

And more matriotic co-passionate needs
and wants,
felt voices
and thought choices
for healing
from PatriarchalCapitalism
chronic LeftBrain overstressed disorder

Haunted by night mares
ing about feckless EarthMothers
stalled to win/lose process competitions
in autonomous lack
of polycultural communing

Win health to win safe wealth
bicamerally reprocessing
nondualistic thoughts with interdependent feelings.

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Dubious Miracles

My EarthMom used to stand easy
at our kitchen sink,
looking out across our fertile backyard
vegetable garden,

Rising from humbly short
but brilliantly red/green
bodhisattva radishes
inside white but spicy,
not the least bit sweet privileged
and vanilla nonperformance,

To the back soldier rows
of sweet yellow corn,
husky green
and stalky tall
militaristic Northern erections
toward seductive southern sunlight,

While my WaterBearer
SeedPushing
WeedPulling Mom
leisurely savors cold well water
drinking away thirst
from her misty blue metal cup.

One summer hot afternoon event,
yet this time industriously revisited
until deeply worn into sacred meaning,
without turning toward me
or any other optional consumer audience,

She reconsiders the Messiah’s most mysterious miracle,
to her open,
but first and last questing, mind
was turning well water
into wine.

“I’ve tasted patriarchal wine.
I don’t believe it’s an improvement.”

While I didn’t say it,
but I admit thinking it hungrily unfit,
I’m not so sure about those capitalist wafers either.

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Moaning Out Meaning

The meing
and mining
and mowing
and moaning
and meaning of life
could not be so different
for girls and boys,

She and he and s/he speaking indifferent
hearing purpose

Enlightening wealthy spirit mess
empowering healthy nature nest,
polyculturing Earth’s most profoundly beautiful
and resiliently truthful
nonviolent EarthPeace future
empowering health investiture

And sacred enlightening safety
for all EarthTribe duty
regenerating mature
degenerating immature
fighting integrity’s great green
transpositional culture.

Future meaningful prediction
depicting past prehistoric light
and power
and energetic meaning redaction

Of Heavenly boys and Earthly girls,
surfing oceans and organic lands,
raining waters in fertile soil
expiring seeds and inspiring eggs
of bicameral toil

Consciousness of EarthTribe’s meing
mining
moaning for more cooperatively resilient
co-empathic
compassionate post-sacred meaning

Contextually integral
polypathic sensory synergy,
multiculturally cerebral
polymathic energy
in meing
and down mining
and out mowing
and deep moaning
and wide meaning
of love’s co-passioning potential.

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Respecting Hearts Inspecting Minds

When I feel differences
between respected wisdom
and inspected knowledge
becoming invisible,

When I discover transparent distinctions
between rightbrain easy Awe
and leftbrain articulating Wonder,
with or without flavors of unease
between invisible time
and distinguishable space,

Then I here and now believe
we are all in deep climatic trouble
when patrilinear capital competitions
dissociate Yang strong knowledge
from Yintegrity’s potential,
Western knowledge
divorced from Eastern wisdom,
deductive information
severed from inductive systemic needs
for bioculturally indigenous reassurance

Dipolar co-arising
universal health knowledge
of unitarian wealth wisdom
devoid of anthro-supremacist
monoculturing
StraightWhiteMale colonizing,
predative,
win/lose competitive
ballistic bias.

Cultural knowledge
without climate wisdom
is like faith
without good-humored works,
resembles invisible enlightenment Here
without empowering compassion Now,
reassembles theological beliefs
without ecological Great Turning experience
of transparent wellbeing knowledge
within healthy multiculturing wisdom.

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Feeling Old and Lost

I noticed just yesterday
while glowering about something else
now already
once again
forgotten…

I seem to have lost my good-sensed humor
along my stumbling
isolating internal say

Toward this red STOP! sign
searching for a different way

To find a new Earth center
for healing active hope,

To sing new scales of joyful
sad sharp focus

Performed more locally
and possibly reformed less reflectively
mesmerized by fame’s monopolistic grope.

This new reselective time
Less silently reserved
Less anxiously depressed
Less repressively suppressed.

Each morning’s dawn warning
to worship at new altars

Renewing robust octaves of communion
encompassing organic green nutrition

To redesign all creatures here below
more positive above
good-humored love
with timeless passions
hilariously sensed together
yet tragically shoved
apart.

If I were not so sweet sixteen
prepared to restart home’s immigration scene
again for my first time,
what would I rechoose to do
becoming compassion’s singing rally
with rainbow hearted allies?

If I were thirty-three,
my age of messianic crossfire
for all to red angry
horrifying see,
what would I choose to resurrect again?

And why would this revoiced
rechoiced healthier community
support potentiating integrity
with more robust good humor
this well-timed passed over
and back around
on sacred wellbeing ground?

If I were twice
my god’s reflective age
revived,
what would we joyously choose
to re-member
as half-life good golden sense
for revolving salvation’s humor?

For this tragic comedy
of tumorous migration
anxiously anticipating
integrity’s full ZeroScores
restoring just right species

All together one predation
praying for exterior relations
more integral summations
than humorless,
silent rumorless
quiet aging absence
of eternal sad-paced mercy,

At least sufficient for noticing,
just yesteryear
while glowering about something else
now already strange sadly queer,
once again forgotten.

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GoodHumor Issues

I’ve felt it said
here
time and again

That a personal issue
is also about political tissue
reconnecting economic responsibilities
risks
opportunities fiscal
annual
perennial

Centers of felt pleasure
and good humor
are Passions,
not only small
and great transitional
but resonantly
resiliently multi-anecdotal,

Excluding all DisPassions
DeGenerations
and humorless passions
actively resisting future dispassions,
loss
suffering
mortality
and all that dualistically dark stuff,
sensory tissue memories
of sacred issue images

My peculiar ecosystem
co-empathically admiring Ultra NonViolet
rainbow
spectrally ionic Heaven
multiculturing emergent organic Paradise

And personal political insider trading
in Gospel EmPowering Passions
co-emerge eco-Paradise here
with ego-Pleasure now,
sacred place
with historically enculturing
triangulated
bilateral
tipping pointed hierarchical
and reverse root systemic revolutionary
upside-down

EarthHealth PleasurePower
anticipating more HeavenWealth ParadiseLight
win/win peace-viral
evolutionary PanSensory
bicamerally enlightened
eco/ego double-binary
unboundaried co-empowerment.

And so I try to co-discern
discuss
cooperatively dialogue
about whom I am supporting,
investing in,
and why
I might reasonably expect
mutual win/win health/wealth outcomes.

And, on the other hand,
when such mutual intention becomes
and belongs within anti-losePleasure/loseHumor
transparently shared limits,
then it is time to set chronic stressed
win/lose compromises
anticipations
evolutionary theories
existential angst
depressions
negative impressions aside

To grab hold
of cooperative
systemic revolutions
toward enlightening
empowering
re-ligioned win/win
SecularLeftMinded/SacredRightHearted
ego-impassioned EarthHealth Justice
resolutions

Embracing Pleasure
and Paradise,
Power
and Light,
Earth
and Heaven,
Secular
and Sacred,
Deductive
and Inductive
cooperative GoodHumor,
with NonZero-Soul remainder.

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Earth Momma Blues

Momma
don’t help me
grow up to love CowBoys,

The ones
who can buy you
or sell you at will,
or tell you
they don’t care
whether healthy or ill,

The ones who know good ole’ boys
were born
unredeemable pills

Smoking up weeds
or stoking up stills,

Klanish threats
to the cattle
without sufficient
commitment
to armed forcing kill will.

Momma don’t help me
grow up to hate CowBoys,

Grown tired of their noise
their boys will be boys
armed violating toys
dark win/lose ploys
most trust in just goys
red true white blue
patriotic employs

Momma
don’t buy me
another white cowboy,
they just don’t work out
they leave with a pout
I just wanna shout,
What’s it all about
when your Alpha’s a cowboy?

Who has no clue
what he’s to do,
which side to chew
in red,
white,
and true blue
blues.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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Ironic Revolving History

Interesting
is it not?

Not so GrandChildren of immigrants from Europe,
seeking religious freedom
and economic advantage
and almost certainly of self-examined HAVE-NOT status,

Because, if not of personally
and economically
persecuted persuasion
and unenlightened neglect
and politically disempowering abuse.
then why would these wise GrandElders
have immigrated
toward this more cooperatively enlightened health
and empowering democratic safety
promised MotherLand?

Interesting that some of their NotSoGrandChildren
are now feeling Elitely entitled
to StraightWhiteMale libertarian privilege,
are evangelically entitled,
chosen children and then adults
for wild red rapture DeathCulture fantasies,

Dark conspiracy theories
to explain chronic HAVE-Not economic
or political
or even right-mind personal status

Supporting ego redemptive nihilistic insurrections,
ecofeminist rape,
and pillage,
and strange black guerrila mob lynching theater
defensively justified anthro-supremacist extraction rights
without exploiting left elitist government officials
snobbishly intellectual
know-nothing betrayers
of those left neglects,
leaving under-privileged behind
without academic elitist learning

Not to trust
green clerical ecofeminists
storming mainstream privileged liberals

In love,
preaching EarthDay promises
of win/win co-redemption,
restoring divine natural EarthJustice,
healing the win/lose sick
and tired
and already retired,
and low self-esteemed,
wounded and broken

Without LeftBrain relevant
interdependent natural compassion creation stories,
recreation development narratives
severed from RightBrain spiritually interdependent
sensory impassioned memories

Of RightWing judging wounds,
steeped in red-blooded American StraighWhiteMale
blaming and shaming,
revengefully right reactionary
against intolerable and ungrateful GrandChildren
too multiculturally alien

Immigrants,
underemployed spiritual pilgrims
seeking new EarthVisions

ReVisions of Old Testament hospitality
GoldenRules of polycultural religious light
of freedom,
economic cooperative powers
of resilient ego-health
and EarthDay safety

Win/Win cooperative Paradise,
green democratic delivery of Heaven
away from self-proclaimed HAVE-NOT Hell
monoculturing
Not So Grandchildren daily ZeroSum lack

Of liberally civil love,
civic status,
multiculturally re-connecting,
religioning NonZero Souls
found interesting,
are we white systemic privileged not?

NotSo GrandChildren of poor and tired immigrants
from Europe,
too often weak and broken and tired,
suffering losers and sometimes
too heterodox sinners,
seeking multicultural religious freedom
and more cooperative economic advantage
and almost certainly hoping for integral green compassion
in ego-as-ecoOther re-examined
HAVE-NOT sufficient green cooperative
healthy democratic
win/win bicamerally empowering
enlightening interdependent status,

Because, if not interesting,
then continue spinning
win/lose patriarchal
LeftBrain dominant history
instead of win/win matriarchal
co-enlightening mystery
of green ecofeminist win/win powers.

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Curiosity OutPlays Patience

Whether LeftBrain dominant
or RightBrain feminist prominent,

Whether outty
or insy,

fast
or slow,

stop
or go,

yes
or no,

decline
or grow,

inhale
or blow,

hide
or show,

strength
or flow,

sun
or snow,

cry
or crow,

Yang’s cognitive power pleasure needs
are also Yin’s emotive enlightened paradise feelings

On an octave spiraling communication
double-binding DNA spectrum

For positive blue/green spirituality
redeeming from negative overpriced
sliced
and diced red
through blah beige
naturally privileged secularity

Equity,
dignity,
beauty
trusty truth
is never NotZeroZone Wholeness
ecological Wholesomeness
theological Holiness

Whole/Hole
Eco/EgoSystemic
original democratic intent
of BiCameral Balance

Across the great dissociative
object/subject apartheid
becoming impatient
with our late
great nature/spirit
transitional polypathic divide

Of LeftBrain restorative Law
And RightBrain win/win ReOrdering
resilient
reweaving healthcare systems
for individual wealth spiraling fabric
intrinsic strings reconnecting
holistic EarthPeace safety cloth

As nonviolent nonverbal
green communion
predicts yet more curious compassioned
verbally impassioned
bicameral communication.

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