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AnthroScenic Genes

My matriarchal genetic line
of narrative
not quite sublime
resonantly erupts
regeneratively abrupt

Loves repeating
robustly carnal wisdom’s long
drawn out song

Continuously unabated
with unconditional
transgenerational regard
is something emerging more
than simply not not hated

Unlike our discontinuous patriarchal lines
drawn win/lose competitively
dominating lies
across sandy soils, now quaking
under shaking stubborn feet
awaking.

Where Mom will wake
each morn to greet
this life feels glad
to peacefully repeat

While Dad will scowl,
invoke defeat
his love was lost
in-dus-trials
of empty sad
repeat

Monotonously monotheistic
monopolizing maniacal statistics
monoculturally atheistic
monochromatically dominating
anthro-supremely
down with EarthRights
hedonistic.

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Spirited Therapeutic Systems

It might become too ironically
and iconically embareassing
to admit
I am taking a (s)hit
while exploring
my latest
and perhaps final
nutritional surmise
compressing peak climax
surprise

A well-capitalized
Systematic Theology
of EcoLogical Systems
is not such
an inviting much
of a moving title

Yet herein
we might energetically
not also massively invite “should”
raise up Yang’s enlightening strengths
without also evacuating Yin’s paradoxical
outgoing flow
of nutritional exchange
from what was brown
and healthy egocentric ownership
going down
into integral potential
for ecosystemic stewardship
as dull
as giving a crap
might not resound

Yang
could become LeftHemisphere’s name
too often verbally expressed
overly impressed with ecologically
abstractly decontextualized
secularized lack of curiosity
about patriarchally
well-capitalized
anal Trumpistic retention

AND
Yintegrity’s dipolar co-gravitating
unconditional regard
for self-therapeutic indigenous wisdom
often nonverbally nonviolently felt
too often ecowomanist suppressed
Yang obstructive repressed
economically and politically oppressed
polytheistic sacred sacramental
excremental integrity
of health care giving
wealth share receiving
nutritionally nurturing
fertile regenerative
co-assets.

Yang dominant
conditional curiosity
about what is safe
and also healthy
to cooperatively
and transparently
black
v brown
v suspiciously blond disregard
too often seeks inside enlightenment
from outside above

While Yin’s anally repressed integrity
wants to soil
and soul empower
by releasing egocentric resources from within
not perpetuating anthrosupremacist
agonizing constipation
pushing down against
royal ceramic throne imbalance

In a frightening gut-wrenching worldview
wherein positive does not quite logically
or ecologically
or analogically
or psychologically
or gastro-intestinally
or polyvagally neuro-systemically
equal not negative

Like 1 outgoing nutritional pole
and 0 outflowing nurturing hole
feel like Yang
unconditionally positive regarding
not not paradoxical Yintegral potential
self-health care
reproducing Earth soil’s
repurposing wealth-share potential
nonzero soul.

Yang integrity
hears
and bears down
with deep-seated dualdark brown
systemic enlightenment
biologically whole
holy open for fertile
Yintegrity.

I painfully need now
and want here
to communally co-hear
coherent co-empowerment
through eco-theological
Yang secular bodies don’t stink
where sacred Yintegral minds don’t blink

Against o-empathic
co-invested
co-binary
polypathic
co-passionate
nonviolent co-governing
polycultural fecal communion

Favoring fertile EarthSoul
fulfilling co-gravitating
mindbody happy
healthy
wealthy
doin my daily duty
early morning ablutions

Sacred EarthDay practices
gastro-intestinal
mutually-invested
nurturing nutritional
ego/ecosystemic balance

Co-operative Win/Win
synergetic potential,
my embarrassingly unconditional regard
routine for full iconic
and wholesome ironic
ego-evacuation

Not quite so
Yangishly Trumpian
triumphalistic
narcissistic
anthrosupremacist
LeftHemisphere dominant
Straight White Male privileged
royal ceramic throne traumatic
chronic anal retention

Once finally again last
speaking out of my (gr)ass
about my own stressed-in
long-term stuck stuff
don’t stink
extensive pretension.

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MisGuided Meditations

I am sorry
about my judgmental,
sadly disdainful,
tone
in earlier messages.

Even worse,
I remain embarrassed
for spreading it out
for key staff
and leaders
to well-positioned see
and hear
and feel,
touched by toxicity.

My training
and experience
includes community mediation.

Within this mindful context,
I have tried to understand
what you want,
what you are learning,
what feeds and waters you
in your Presidential Position.

Your responses:

  1. that you know
    and care
    about our residential members,
    AND
  2. that you have unusual expertise,
    skills training,
    and/or Business Administration experience
    not available from other members,
    at least not any
    willing to step up
    and out into saying,
    Yes, I’ll help.

I failed to fully fit these
with past mediation interviews.

I was not as surprised by the second one,
as by the first,
because usually those seeking arbitration help
feel they live
in a high-risk win/lose
zero-sum system
punishing loss,
while looking for
their personal most loss-avoidant path
toward personal gain.

More closely regarding #2,
that you have unusual contractor,
business and project budgeting,
business management,
and significant financially successful property management experience

I was impressed
with what you bring
to our leadership table

And yet this does not,
in and of itself,
speak to skill sets
for PRESIDENT
of the Board.

On the contrary,
it seems to me
all this volunteer work
must detract from where your most cost-effective
personal focus needs to be
on your too busy workdays,
probably extending into evenings
and family/friend-lost weekends.

With regard to #1,
knowing and appreciating
win/win health and safety feelings
for residential members

This also did not sound
quite like my personal experience
could typically recall.

When I ask for personal motives,
usually what win/lose business men
speak of begins with financial motivations,
sometimes secondarily supported
by ecological concerns,
occasionally theological beliefs,
political aspirations,
retaining a positive community relations image,
community leadership aspirations,
wanting to be perceived
as a good and competent leader,
legislator,
teacher,
and/or,
in the case of religious constituencies,
wise spiritual Elder.

I have clearly failed
to understand why
you want to continue
Presiding over the Board.

This remains a mystery
shared by everyone I’ve asked.

When I share with them
your two responses to
“What’s in Presidency for you?
this fits with their
Successful Business Leader view
but raises dissonant questions

How could you afford to donate
this much time
and personal interest
without any personal financial return?

This dissonant mistrusting feeling
grows further
by those who have been residents
for many years
yet still do not feel seen or heard

So how could you know
and care about us?

As a mediator
with therapeutic,
nonviolent communication
intent

What do I do with my inability
to accurately and compassionately empathize
with you
on your journey toward fulfillment,
success,
happiness,
prosperity
and, preferably, unconditional regard?

To truly understand
and support you
in your personal and social
health and safety self-interest,
and to continue as our business leading
Presider?

I do not know how
to do both of those things,
and no one who encouraged me
to join the Board
wants me to support you.

That said,
one way sure not to help you
or me understand
and support you
is to publicly judge,
shame
and/or blame you
for circumstances beyond your responsibility
and authority to control.

If I have done that,
when I have done that,
while I am doing that,
I have not been a good person,
I have been a disappointing
multiculturally trained to listen
community-mindful mediator

And,
I have not practiced
even basic nonviolent communication skills

And,
you
presumably
are experiencing further high-risk
chronic trauma
as a result of my negligence.
For these failures on my part,
I apologize.

I often recall
a line of self-discovery
learned from a favorite
and famous spiritual director

“Who,
in your life now,
and perhaps in your past,
has been with you
at your most passionate
positive best?”

These are often romantic,
and sometimes earlier
healthy and safe parental
win/win relationship histories.

“How would that person,
or those people,
probably describe your sense of humor?”

If you have no idea,
you might want to start there
to therapeutically respond
to deeply engrained
trauma-avoidant
chronic stress disorder.

If you do have an idea,
some warm and welcoming ideas
about what helps you laugh with yourself
(not at yourself)
and with another you trust
and have found attractive,
compelling,
in some integrally soulful way,
then try to use that co-passion tool
to feel better about yourself,
your personal relationship history,
and your potential
for future healthy
and good-humored
win/win
nonviolent communication
for achieving resiliently co-mediated
health and safety outcomes.

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Natural Matters/Spiritual Desires

Natural sensory matter
organizes spiritual deep desires
metaphorically co-infested
co-invested
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial

Positives
more than equal not pathologies
naturally outside
remains not not spiritual inside
poly-estatic
panentheistic
polynomials
not not polycultural wisdom
polyphonically polypathic

LeftBrain thought
is an internally perceiving sense

Like right-brain implicit spiritual feelings
for deep inside win/win healing
not win/lose hurting
and not-not lose/lose
Yang hurting v healing Yintegrity,
colonizing v creolizing,
conquering v liberating,
controlling v freeing,
YangStrength v YinFlow,
hierarchical monocultural bandwidth
resisting integral polycultural depth

ReOpening
CoPassionate sunlight evolution
and green/blue Earth revolution

TransPartisan
EnLightenment and EmPowerment
wu-wei indigenous wisdom

Of natural sensory matter
re-organicizing spiritual deep desires
metaphonically co-infested
co-invested organic systems
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial
not not polypathically health humored
self/other optimizing wealth
of cosmically blissful laughter.

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BoneDeep Lonely

Imprisoning textures
and routine lectures
in loneliness,

“your own fault”
“not Other’s loss”

blame
shame
dipolar co-arising

Loneliness effacing
cognitive/affective reason
and denying access
to more social future seasons

Including primal memories
of self-appreciation
self-sufficiency
communication resource-fullness,

And yet,
and yet,

Beneath such reasonable busyness,
even when I can sustain
opulent MeWe identity,

Even so,
even so,

EgoWe remains curiously distinct,
courageously Not Other,

Embracing
peak biosystemic health,
abstractly known
falls short of panentheistic lust
specifically touched
sensory
and sacredly sexual
mystery

Mysterious loneliness sees,
smells,
hears,
tastes,
appreciates
deeply depreciates
absence of fully embodied
love touches
of verbal sound,
of nonverbal skin
hair
fingers
toes
and other shyer shows.

Loneliness knows opulent warm textures
and peak sensory experiences

Efface more theoretical reasons
win/win
for co-empathic healthy seasons

Of nurturing resonant,
full-embodied resilient,
Self/Other recombinant
transubstantiating
panentheistic full-color wealth,

PolyPathic
PolyPhonic
PolyCultural
not yet climate loneliness

Including multicultural SelfAppreciation
BioOrganic SelfSufficiency
CoOperative resource-fullness.

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Endlessly Speaking Out

ReGeneratively nonspanking speaking,
co-empathic
co-operative
co-governing
co-passions
of and for
resilient health
and safety
win/win communication systems

Are also non-violent communication networks
rooted in bicameral
bilateral
binomial
bioregional
polyculturally healthy ego-purposed
voices co-arising wealthy eco-sacred
choiced meaning

Regeneratively deep listening
within compassionate verbal/non-verbal communication
systems flowing in
bicameral branching
co-gravitating up
and out
from Earth’s internal
immanent Power
revolving
evolving Sky external
transcendent Light.

Sky bright
why can’t you stay with us
tonight?

Dawning Yang
appreciating
inviting in-betweens
co-passioning Yintegral dual dark
Eastern dawn
not not Western dusk

RedLight
StarDust
warning Earth’s living waters
witnessed by
transcendent Patriarchal Gods
and EarthWomb western co-operatives

Passionate Red MonoGamists
conjoining enlightened Green PanenTheists

DiPolar depolarizing
vocal EgoOnes
in bilateral voiceless NonZero Zones
regenerating long-term resilient
health/safety choices
regenerating generations
of wealthshare.

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ComPetitions for DisRegard

Am I unhealthy and unsafe oppressed,
suppressed,
repressed,
depressed?

Not really all that:
competitively impressive,
first through last impression
newsworthy,
enticingly marketable,
profitably commercial,
slickly corporate,
predatively intelligent

More camouflaged
unnoticed and undefined
unrefined
and, frankly, perhaps unstable
because of my environmental circumstances?
as liberal lovers
would have failing to ego-thrive anthrosupremacists
monoculturally privileged
and multiculturally misunderstood
underprivileged
shunned
and Othered

And/Or

Am I health/safety oppressed
because of my personal
bad ecopolitical choices?
like having unprotected sex
instead of going to the mall,

Not really reflecting on
wider and deeper context
like True Faith
and Healthy Happiness
monotheistically delivered
monopolistically endowed
StraightWhiteMale privileged
monoculturing LeftBrain transcendent
AnthroDivine judgment
falling shy
of unconditional regard

As win/lose divinely inspired Capital investments
support PatriarchalGod’s purely patriotic hierarchy
not-so-blindly selecting
who deserves Restorative Win/Win Justice
second
and third
and fourth chances

And who should not
escape Lose/Lose Retributive Dissociation
(repression, suppression, oppression, depression)

A social sympathy so thinly simpering
judicial powers are too comfortably scampering
to throw away personal freedom keys
with polarized dispassionate Disdain

Icing on Earth’s soggy cake
for feeding climate rabid
polarizing
angry
traumatized
lose/lose anthro-victims,
producers and consumers of Othering.

To get out from under-cussed non-classedness,
must I truly choose
between circumstantial ecological Voices
for resonant healthcare,
Or personal theological-felt internal Choices
for resilient wealthshare?

Do natural
polycultural healthcare systems
not co-arise
egowealthy green EarthPeace
spiritual co-investments?

So yes,
I guess,
answers to my oppressed prayers
by our liberal lover circumstances
and my conservational personal
integrating/desecrating
either Saint
or Sinner Choices

Do LeftBrain ignore
Both systemic conserving circumstances
And internal liberating intuitions

RightBrain questioning
interdependently unrecognized
NonVoices.

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When UnGifted

“A gift is different from something you buy, possessed of meaning outside its material boundaries. You never dishonor the gift.” Robin Wall Kimmerer

A social gift,
a gift for compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communication,
a healing gift,
is different from personal cash investment,

Possessed,
sometimes haunting, gifts
with sacred meaning
timelessly transcending
secular
egocentered
anthrosupremacist
monopolistic double standards,
double gifted/ungifted boundaries.

Healthy inter-religious
interdependent
creolizing polycultures
societies
nation-states
restorative justice systems
regenerative green peace networks,
never dishonor whole-sum gifts as tools for
and not weapons against

Trashed as ballast
for Great Straight White Father’s
unfortunately necessary wars,
originally sinful threats,
collateral human resource damage
of the also-rans
ungifted
unpowerful
disposable

Justified despite thereby losing environmental health
and losing active hope
for resiliently gifted human peace.

It is harder for an unstraight
unwhite
unmale nonbinary child
to emerge from genderphobia
feeling sensually gifted
neurosystemically cherished
wanted as is
than it is for a gifted matriarch
to sing and dance
feeling cherished
(and not marketed)
in transcendent eyes
of a God-needled gatekeeper.

A wounded gift
is different from some Thing
we try to buy
because multicultural integrity
is too high a climate health price
for Patriarchal
Corporate RedRight Capitalists
to stop hoarding Earth’s
Cooperative BountyCircled
Multiculturally Valued Gifts.

A sacred Blue/Green non-binary child gift
asks something of us
not quite so RightRed dominant
mishanding healthier non-binary sway
toward bicamerally balancing intelligence

Taoistic
Zeroistic
WinWin Game Theoretic
and Organic Systems Therapeutic
nonviolently gifted communicators,
green EarthTribe full-sensory educators,
ecofeminist theologians,
poetically prophetic ecologians,
compassionately multiculturally proficient
as not not gifted Positive You

Tipping straight up
as down dipolar gift appointed
Me/SystemicWe
multiculturally therapeutic
co-empathic resonance

PolyCultural EarthJustice resilience gifts
have always 1/0 binary DNA spiraled
through YangStrength/YintegralFlow

Sun enlightening/Earth empowering,
LeftGreen/RightBlue seasoned
red sky boundary reasons
for morning mourning warning
while red sky at night
dimly follows,
sailor’s gifted delight

East yintegrally dawns
on each cooperative living system
throughout Her resilient emergence
to this YangNow/YinHere
Speaking/Deep Listening
bipartisan healing opportunity

To reconnect
and reverse monoculturing powers
spoken in Yang v Yin competitive sexualized dissonance
transposed to sensory LeftGreen/RightRed
ultraviolet neurosensory confluence

Panentheistic
synergetic goddess senses
for regenerative religious gifts
and resonantly co-empathic
sensory-sexual win/win shifts
communed through health-systemic trust
in cooperative
pay back Earth forward thriving democracy

Built
developed
gifted
in cooperative win/win ownership
alternative economies
ecologies wherein those thriving
with the most nutritional value
in autumn’s harvest Earth-gift season
are those most generously delighted
to share next spring’s seeds
and nuts,

Roots
and winter’s roosting eggs
as widely gifted
and deeply co-invested
as possible

To reassure each gifted Other
that our intended wealthy climate
and personal ego healthcare chances
are way win/win way
better together
than win/lose ungifted
unwanted
unlovely drifting apart

Toward Lose/Lose nihilism,
ecopolitical genocide,
militantly RedRight fascist dominant
Whole EarthSystemic ecocide.

But, at least
no one will ever force RedRight you
to reconsider queers
and transexuals
and ecofeminist women
as if, just perhaps,
also sacred gifts

Or, at least not reconsider giftedness
of anyone you know was,
or is…

You know…
that OTHER wounded
ungifted
ungraced
curiously displaced

In MotherEarth’s healthy
regenerating gifted
Wealthy Life is Love Revival.

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Parsing Partisanship

Gay Rights are not Civil Rights
grabs my Yahoo facetime
fast-paced news rhyme

Civil Rights are not just Gay Rights
on my administrative time
bounces back a Left WhiteHouse reprise
that Civil Rights
include Gay Rights
as a necessary subset,
but not multiculturally sufficient anthem
to cooperative network define
a green ecosystemally co-passionate refinement

Sacredly inspired divine,
panentheistically supported,
indigenously wise
green party spirited natural civil rights

Are not
uncivil capitalist
straight Anglo Corporate Rights
are not particularly humane Civil Rights

Grabs my bilateral
dipolar-coarising attention
consciousness
awareness
green woke upness
ecofeminist positive
also means healthy and safe awakeness

“Gay Rights”
by your definition
on my Right,

Are those also “Women’s Rights”?

And/or “Lesbian Civil Rights”?

What about “Transgender Rights”?
if you are a tadpole
or a flower,

Would that be OK for you?

What about “Anal Intercourse Rights?”
for mammals?

Then there’s the ever popular
“Abortion Rights”
for trees
dropping her nutty egg seeds
before their time
in times of drought
and fire
and sensual deprivation;
lack of environmental support.

Could “Civil Rights”
include “Bisexual Rights”?

Would these be “Up-To-Half-Homosexual Heterosexual Rights”?

Or, more simply,
less schizophrenically
less blatantly half secular/half sacred
less curiously half wiki-spiritual/half natural

Not quite so mentally unhealthy
bipolar RightWing dominant
parsing
and non-parsing
rumination
ruination
of what might have been
bicameral “Healthy Democracy Rights”

Which are not UnCivil Rights
of AnthroSupremacists
to commit ecocide

While LeftWing
RightBrain repressives
wonder why their RightWing God’s
LeftBrain dominant monotheistic
monoculturalism
defines conservatism only negatively,
uncreatively,
degeneratively,
dissociatively,
dissonantly,

As economically
and politically needed
to reassure us
LeftBrain
Straight AngloCorporate worldview
on restoring EarthRights to Basic Climate Thrival
really must lack Win/Win green
emotive
contextual civil rights intelligence
of the average
woke up synergetic ecofeminist.

Regardless of species
doing their basic sensing
and complex feeling
personal
and global
and tribal
and familial
and multigenerational
and polycultural
and panentheistic
and systemically integral
sacred health care
organic civil rights homework

Which is what I was supposed to be doing
when
Gay Rights are not Civil Rights
grabs my Yahoo facetime
fast-paced news rhyme
and it’s not yet dawning
Sabbath spacetime.

Sunday morning nap time
is not uncivil screen time
for writing not really news rhymes.

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THAT Talk

So!
Well…

ummm….

When you are,
someday,
experiencing coitus
of some generic buzzy kind
common to all species
of loving life,

And you are about to have
a peak
polysensory
full mindbodied experience…

Excuse me for interrupting,
but I think you mean a peak
polyphonic engagement
or maybe
a polyvagal peak win/win default moment
in a neurosystemic
kinda pleasant
transportive
enlightening and empowering
serotonin and dopamining way.

Yes.
Both/And
All of the Above,
speaking with polycultural compassionate
nonviolent communication intent

And,
more back to the less LeftBrain verbal
original focus,
cooperatively acting,
co-investing
in a poly-lateral
compassion story game
you hope might never need to end,
alone again,
yet waiting for a repeat,
active hope
embodied wealth
whole-sum happiness regained

This sometimes ritualized
regenerative
sensory pleasure praxis
goes back in time
and out to include all Earth’s
regenerative
polyculturally self/other co-governing
Ego/Eco BiCameral Systems

YangLeft/YinRight
positive dialogue
between non-apartisan engagers,
mindbody co-investors.

Yet, to speak of Living Green/Blue Balance
of Earth’s healthiest wealth
as any living body of co-relationships
told and retold throughout
our global history

Now retold without shame
or punishment
assuming Sacred EarthMother’s
regenerative
holonic polyentheistic nature
spirit is to put an all-encompassing
multiculturally regenerative win/win meme
ahead of monoculturing
predative YangBang memory

As to how we win/win co-passionately got here
and feel mutually engaged
when, as global green health allies,
we stay focused on Earth,

Most sacredly pleasurable
Light yintegrity mysteries
and Power yang natural histories

Of our original non-zero polysensory
polymathic bilateral zeroism

PoliCulturally Light Hot!
and subversive Wet Empowering
regenerative
fast and slow-grown
peak resilient experiences

So,
yes,
THAT!
ongoing nonviolent talk

About procreative
health-wealth
mostly pre-verbal care
in pleasantly cooperative
deeply and widely engaging
thriving sensory relationships
of EarthTribe loving
regenerative revolutionaries.

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