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Winter’s Writing Choices

Approaching winter…

OK, maybe encroaching mid-winter
of life’s seasonal span
with resonantly compelling grace,
perhaps even transparent vulnerability,
feels controversial,
too laissez-faire

Too much courage
in declaring preliminary success
with too little curiosity
about what happens next
on planet Earth

Continuing to revolve all four seasons
dynamics
holistic lenses.

I recall the poet’s admonition
to not go quietly
into this winterish
cold night.

Life’s final reflective opportunity
does not invite quiet
so much as impassioned peace
of a windless snowfall
blanketing all I can see
and more faintly hear,
touch and awkwardly feel,
smell and bittersweetly taste
unsafe passage.

I recently moved from autumn habitat,
a creative tension between summer’s midlife climax
and this new winter habit
above Connecticut’s exquisite Salmon River.

This is a compromised writer’s winter hermitage
shared with my son who cannot speak
but can roar,
who cannot walk by himself
but can scoot
and belly laugh at his own internal sensations
and my external sensational sounds.

And, following Daquan
from my fall habitat
to winter’s eremetical search for peace,
however coldly displaced,
with social
and political
and spiritual
and natural distancing,

Behind Daquan
are daily in-home nurses
and his most avid companion,
my romantically distanced husband.

He comes bearing gifts
of clothes,
cleaning supplies,
far too much meaty food
for a proper hermitage
and not enough
for sufficient redemption
and for self-forgiveness.

He comes unaware of my ecofeminist wintering spirit,
longing for Earth’s warm womb justice
restoring peace
resilient through all four seasons
of present
past
and future Earth lives.

My ecofeminist lineage
feels too white to him,
not a journey for him
and our two brown sons
and my brown and cerebral palsied daughter
and Daquan.

So, this writer’s winter hermitage
remains newly compromised by past fall
and summer
and even spring
of extended multicultural family life.

May it always be so
or no,
I’m not sure which to pray for
or against
as I quietly write
into this warm and peaceful night,
just right,
not too dim or bright.

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Family Memory Daze

My family
remembered now
and in our projected
integral future,
in this eco-political body
of spirited
natural Earth,

Birthing
and dying,
regenerating
and degenerating,
easing
and diseasing,
healthy
and pathological,
good humored
and bad hearted,

Unconsciously contemplating,
co-template-recreating
cooperative memorable days
and deep matriotic nights.

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Waking Up Lumpy

Wake up grumpy
tired
much older than yesterday.

Day fifty-seven,
an irrationally
not nice
non-round number,
since defiantly challenging daughter,
with the contextual right-brain unhealthy intelligence
of a sociopathic alligator,
last came home from school
or anywhere without me.

Remembering her school’s response
when I suggested her six-hours-per-day aide
five days per week
not be switched out every week
or two.
She doesn’t do well with transitions
including interpersonal change,
lack of power to control
a significant Other’s time
to stay
and go.

While aware this is an issue,
their larger concern was burn-out.
Aides couldn’t tolerate the intensity
of her hostility
and constant need
need
need for attention,
for food,
for distraction,
for action,
for…

Wondering how the best of her school supporters
would feel after 228 consecutive
six-hour shifts

Without any supervisor
capable of reassuring me
or him
or her
or them
or us
of how many more to go
without adequate social distancing
within our lumpy quarantine space.

No possible reassurance
or warning
we’re just getting started,
about to end,
over the hump,
or not so much,
actually.

Perfect.

Definite only about feeling humped out
and jumped in
lack of ease,
sucked out potential for unguarded rest.

Feeling sorry for myself,
yes,
but also for her,
and for all of us
who have taken risks
to give long-term care
where receiving care in response
is not a reasonable
or compassionate
expectation of hope-filled ways,
faithful truths,
loving lives

Quietly waking up grumpy
in unsolidarity
unsolitary confinement.

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Silent Skirmishes

Words as offensive weapons
dwell on ugliness of bad-humored life.

Words as effective tools
dwell on beauty and truth
of good-humored health,
empowerment,
love.

Yet, swords become plowshares.
Plowshares are used as unwieldy swords.
Regenerative intent becomes degenerative chaos.
Degenerative discontent becomes regenerate
tipping point
within silent complexity.

Can words become weapons
for active peace?
And still tools
feeling quietly unresolved internal wars?

Between curious ancient communioned minds
and courageous ego bodies,

Between original health-tooled womb
memories
And today’s wealth-weaponed tidal means,
unsustained strength
yet resiliently flowing ways,
transparent brother dissonance
voicing sister confluence
through empowering vulnerability;
revolutionary stillness
actively listening
between quiet health-wombed rememories.

Wisely employed wellness tools
for feminist well-being weapons;
cooperatively-managed words
for hearing embeautied Truths,
re-seeing Ways,
rekindling communicating Lives;
revolutionary politics,
awesome economics,
wondrous revitalization,
compassionate communion.

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Trump’s Intake Interview

Hello,
you’ve reached the EcoTherapist Cooperative.
How can we help you
without bringing harm to Others?

That’s a question I’ve never thought about.
I’m calling for the National Republican Party.
We would like to hire an EcoTherapist
for a consultation
during the 2020 Republican Convention.

How did you hear about us?

I’m not sure.
I’m required to tell you
this request does not come from the White House,
where America is already great again.

So, I’m at least equally DarkState
about whether we are an apparent match
for your internal and external health objectives.
We could probably offer a free intake assessment.

How long will that take
and when is your earliest availability?

For the Republican National Leadership,
our intake process might feel like a life sentence
of self-judgment.
I could facilitate a cooperative assessment
transparently
vulnerably
curiously
integrally
holistically
synergetically
and immediately,
whenever your event organizer
is ready.

Oh I’m not sure we have THAT long.
Impatience to get on with
Making America Extract and Exploit Again
seems like our cultural norm around here,
especially in Business Party Convention Time,
which is sort of all the 24/7
eternal enterprising time
of busyness
restlessness,
longing for some healthy ecotherapy.

So let’s start,
get as far as we can,
and then come up with a date and time
and invitation list
for conventional continuance
and/or unconventional discontinuance
of eco-terrorism’s patriarchal
StraightWhiteMale privileged
Western left hemisphere dominant
degenerative
monocultural miseducation
School of Business As Usual.

I may need to bring someone else into this call
but let’s start
and I’ll take this as far as I can
with my fake security clearance.

That’s fine.
So, what are your ecotherapeutic goals
for the Republican Party?

I wasn’t aware that would be a prerequisite requirement
for the Cooperative’s engagement.

Are you perhaps noticing
that your ecotherapeutic platform
for future action
is currently blank,
as rooted in past lack of investment?

Yes, which is why the Convention Organizer
needs an EcoTherapeutic Developer
to facilitate a platform planning session
during our Convention.

What are your most significant multicultural health concerns
about your internal
and external properties?
landscapes?
cultures?
climates?

Are we talking national
and international real estate interests?
Or personal wealth?

Yes, both internal
and external health/pathology landscapes.
What are your regenerative ecotherapeutic concerns
and your degenerative ego-pathology issues?

Oh, that question is WAY above my pay grade
and security clearance!

No, actually the question is meant to be democratically accessible.
As ubiquitous as the U.S. census,
but I can see where the Republican National Party’s response
to this first cooperative question
might need to be appropriately redirected.
Do you want to bring someone else in right now
or schedule for future intake?

Would you mind holding for a couple minutes?

Our time investment is your health-wealthy time.
We’re here,
with this multicultural health question,
at least until the Rapture
or the degenerative death of all positive energy systems
on and within planet Earth,
depending on your theological
ecological paradigm of choice.

Wow!
I’m not sure this will work
but let me see if Donald
might not duck this question.
…………………………………..

Yes, hello,
this is your President Donald Trump.
I understand you want to thank me for your check.

No, Mr. President,
you have asked the EcoTherapist Cooperative
to plan a platform development session
at your Convention.
I have some questions
to see if this is a good fit for us;
Starting with,
What are your national
and international,
local and global healthy environment goals?
And, how are these informed by your personal
internal therapeutic landscape concerns?

Oh, I see,
Like who am I afraid to shake hands with
and who don’t I want in the same room
to breathe against each other?

I’m concerned that might be a rather long list.
Perhaps it would be an easier use of our time
if you could think of who you would like
to multiculturally shake hands with
and who you would most enjoy
sharing healthy life space with,
breathing compassionately together
rather than degeneratively against.

Could you give me an example?
I’m coming up with nothing.

Maybe you would enjoy greeting
and gratefully conversing with
a Buddhist zen gardener
about the ego-recentering LeftHemisphere
and eco-systemic RightHemisphere
effects of breathing
as economically
and politically healthy conversing
with nearby resilient-wealthy trees.

And how would that make America great again?

Exactly,
that is a question
the EcoTherapist Cooperative
might help your Republican National Leaders
ask of each other
for restoring Earth Justice,
which, yes,
would also make America great again.

OK. Good.
Let’s set it up.
Did you get your check yet?
You know, don’t tell anyone,
but getting my signature on there
was my pre-election marketing idea.
Have you read my book?

The one where you recommend
Have Fun!
regardless of at whoever’s expense?
regardless of how win/lose competitive?
regardless of how anti-ecotherapeutic?
Yes, I find it helpful
for remembering what not to do
to achieve
and conserve healthy wealth well-being,
safety,
and social communication significance,
both RightHemisphere resonant
and LeftHemisphere resilient.

Good; you read it.
Did you buy it full price retail
or get it out of the library,
I wonder.
Anyway, are you having fun yet?
with that check I sent you.
Don’t forget to vote
if we ever have an election.
I’m not sure we really need one right 20/20 now,
with the lamestream media
and those radical socialist immigrants
trying to get in
and take all our StraightWhiteMale jobs
and the deep leftist anti-intelligence State
and…

Hopefully, Not To Be Continued

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My Avatar Son

I have a son,
in whom I am well pleased,
with more than his share of heart
and mindbody intelligence,
to comprehend vastness of Earth’s evolving history
and future demise,
to comprehend full emptiness of universes within
and without
co-arising nondual lonely/solitude
double-binary universes
de/re-generative,

Enough intelligence to become One-haunted,
Zero-empty
beyond our deep dualist dark insignificance
as a species,
and far less secular value even than his
commodification of isolated EgoCentric Futures,

His own autonomous Ego value so inconsequential
he doubts his worthiness of food he eats,
of water he drinks,
of air he breathes in solitude,
out lonesome, still in-between
much less worthy of competitive employment,
of any maturing sense of healthy vocation,
social purpose,
sacred meaning midst his human comedic/tragic environment
at its best a cooperative musical re-creation network.

This reciprocity he can more or less actually find
on-line,
but not so much within his own family,
much less school.

Well, maybe a few non-isolating exceptions
to the individual student rule
competing against all other egotestical students,
everyone playing an absurd StraightWhiteMale
Win/Lose
LeftBrain dominant game,
with loser death the inevitable ego-identified outcome
for each and all;
no exceptions for eco-therapeutic GayBrownSons.

In the meantime,
Should we continue to fiddle
and twitter
and shake dis-autonomized hands
while Earth prepares to burn in the middle
and flood on the shores?

Why not orchestrate Win/Win gaming cooperatives,
more democratically inspired fun,
more opportunity to improve communication,
co-deductive/inductive nonviolent dipolar analysis?

To live empirical-compassionate method
in an actively healthy
curiously communicative
economic and political mutual Win
kind of bicameral Taoist way.

But Taoism is off-course,
in his expansive view,
hiding in a Pandora labeled X-box
“EXEGENESIS of RELIGION”
which is about a spirituality cat half yin dead
and unfortunately only, at best,
half nightmarishly lonely yang
half alive,
as if solitude spirit
is any other than eco-dynamic yang-One nature,
as if lonely yin
were in
other than absent reverse nondual 0-sum
engaging yang’s revolving Earth-bilateral clock.

Spirituality implies he walks through a divinely inspired comedy
with few speaking parts
and no solos allowed,
which he feels could not be true
unless win/win divine game inspiration
is no more or less
than human naturally regenerative DNA
fractal programming function,
developing cooperative eco-binary Fullerian form,
informational ergodic prime nonzero-sum
regenerative patterns and natural rhythms,
synergetic invitations toward solitude gratitude
lonely attitude,
integral predestination of phylogenic bilateral
bihemispheric structural flow
revolving through Earth’s interdependent orbits
of health-timed wealthy space.

To what meaningful end
could we possibly become
for one who is humanist comedy/tragedy musical
cooperative-preferred,
competition-averse?

With polypathic/polyphonic inclined interests
rooted in rich
dense
fertile healthy sharing
this hour
this game,
this day’s night plan,
but without actively articulating cooperative invested hope
for any long-term self support systems,
thrival nutrients for his body;
not just his solitude/lonely mind,
breath,
bicameral heart-beat…

Surprising to me
how my lovely son quickly learned to re-see
win/win spirituality
as natural nonduality,
but has yet to recover his embryonic mind
as body co-arising neuro-systemic transparency,
much less divine
as also humane
musical comedic/tragic unity
not aspiring toward monolithic uniformity

Despairing eremetical non-choice
despite polypathic resonant opportunities
to feel so much yang wealthier
ego-centering Left
and yinternally healthier
eco-systemic Right.

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Healthy Humor Lessons

Just as I seem to have a great deal
to eco-healing say
in favor of positive energy democracy,

I long to hear much more
ego-healing positive win/win communication
highly regarding multicultural demographics,
cooperative economic-nutritional education,
eco-matriarchal spiritual naturality.

The opposite of all these blessings
is StraightMale
LeftBrain NorthWestern Geosphere
predative monocultural dominance,
both ego-testicle
and anthrowhite-supremacist.

Which feels like a whole lot
of negative
manic
autocratic energy
and absence of compassionate
eco-matriarchal communication.

My EarthMother,
and her MotherEarth,
deep learned me
way harmonic healthier than negative supremacy
when positive energy
remains a win/win opportunity.

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Wisdom’s Healthy Passions

“We have an enemy within called the ego
who prevents us from using our mind intelligently.
It hides deep within our heart
and emerges with regularity
to challenge and consume our will.”
Rumi (M. Mafi, trans.)

We have a challenger wrestling within called our Ego
emerging with regularity
to confront and distort our deeper will
for more happy and healthy eco-normal,
eco-normic
economic
ecological bi-hemispheric resilience.

Not one of us believes in optimizing incarnate power
within ourselves,
without any Other
to laugh
and cry
and talk therapy together,

A State
or Nation,
Empire,
Earth
our Solar SystemicFueled Universe,
feel incompatible with a total vacuum of any power among,
without capacity for co-empowering exchange,
transactions
barter,
borrowing,
betting,
negotiating,
laughing with
and not against.

I find no faith in omnipotent power of love’s one-way intent,
without evidence of co-evolving
revolving peace-growing practice,
good humored
more than bad and sad maligned,

No omnipotent power of love
without all EarthTribe’s ecotherapeutic joyous practice.

While Earth evolves an orbiting planet
composed of diverse tribal species,
polyculturing forms,
healthy and eco-logical social functions,
rich octaved frequencies,

Earth is also one holistic cooperative
self-regenerating economy;
which rises and falls with surfing humor
surfacing analogical tipping point balance,
sad yet glad of ego-centric Yang’s smirking
with eco-flexic Yin’s prime double-binary quirking
regenerative
double-negative
binomial not not metric nomial
and/or symmetric polynomial
with logical equivalence.

Economics evolved from agrarian
and survival instinct origins
when our original transactional intent was to sustain
cooperative breath
and bicamerally balancing heartbeats
reciprocal
synchronous
polyphonic memory of self as interdependently identified
from and with healthy and happy-balanced Other,
to culturally understand patient Self
as parasitic indwelling humor
within a sometimes benignly balanced,
normative four-seasoned,
cooperative DNA-encrypting
light/dark predative habitual Host,

Co-arousingly displayed
by good and bad humored ego/ecosystems
of nutrition transactional residency,
healthy body,
happy home,
hilarious family,
hot tribe,
humorous species,

Exchanging
bartering
fore-giving
redeeming values healing economic faltering extensions
of eco-political
cooperative
systemic
warm-humoring development.

Stimulus-Response
as What comes comedy/tragedy around, goes around,
as GoldenRules and irritating IrrationalRatios
non-zero sum
where half-root of two is always one,
as nomials predict binomial distinctions,
as half of 1 Ego
is (0)Soul eco-centric,
fully empowered
when not humorless zeroed out.

What are we health becoming,
that commerce
and markets
and sustainable new economics
pause with unholy terror
and awed stagnant, flat-line silence,
horrific wonder about our erratic change
of climate’s rhythms
and patterns
without harmonics?

Belonging good humored with joy
as this TransMillennial Regeneration’s internal healthy happy climate
predicts scorchingly manic
tragic competition
laughing against our own understory
in hypothermic silos
of homicidal and suicidal depression,
a too-polypathic absorption
into sadly dying EarthTribe identification.

What would we be
if we could justly restore
multicultural economics of ecotherapy
applied within our without synergetic
well-humored landscape,
and within our without ego-empty
(0)-sum
not not eco-centric love?

Warnings against health interference
predict teachings for good-humored interdependence.

There are those who would conquer
everything and everyone.
Their Wins are our Losses

And make of us what they conceive
in unwise dishumored desire.

One cannot ultimately win
a win/lose tragic competition game
unless there are at least two comedic survivors
willing to finish-off
ZeroSum
mean humored play
at war.

This Solar-Interdependent System
is Earth’s own ego-humored
normal eco-logical Vessel

S/he cannot be made whole by human nature’s
ignorant humorless interference,
stumbling about like trumpeting elephants
uprooting tender grass.

Those who commodify eco-happy value
spoil it.
Those who hoard this nutritious well-being wealth
lose it.

For: Some yangs go happy forward,
as some yins follow therapeutically humored behind,
like surf surging in,
then teasing back out,

Some breathe out too hot,
so some breathe in to cool off;

Some are too badly strong,
so some are goodness wilting;

Some species have madly broken,
so all species may sadly fall.

Hence Wisdom eschews human nature’s anthro-centric hubris,
evolving aversive
toward extravagant power overing
Earth,
each transparently laughing Other
avoids egocentric pride,
dissonant with ecocentric
eco-normic
comprehensive comprehension
of Nature’s prime systemic wu wei humored consciousness

Of principal tipping point healthy balance
toward optimized
sustainable comedy/tragedy of all life
wherever it can be multiculturally planted,
languaged,
spoken,
sung,
healthed,
laughed.

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Essential Reading

When asked
by my nephew
for an essential reading list
for PermaCultural Therapeutic Design,
my Taoist thoughts went back
to Unitarian-Universalist
Yin/Yang pre-history,
when Earth produced a theologian,
Dr. Thomas Starr King (1824-1864)
reaching out for non-violent dialogue
across all global healing cultures.

This 1800s Dr. King
would-be global peacemaker
noticed
and reflected
and reconsidered humanity
both Universalist YangLeft Dominant
and Unitarian YinRight Prominent,
like EgoCreators
noticing and appreciating EcoCreations
to an Integral PermaCulturing Designer
and Restorer of EarthJust Climates,
WellTimed Nutrition Spaces,
Secular/Sacred Health/Wealth BiLateral
DiaLogical Places.

To everyone’s ecologically cooperative relief,
this Dr. King had a sense of humor,
sometimes dark
and deep,
more resonant with MoonLight seasons
than SunBright reasons

Speaking of power and energy and light,
“The Universalists…believe that God is too good
[healthy, wealthy, beautiful, trusting, radically democratic Lover]
to damn us forever;
And you Unitarians believe you are too good
[wealthy beautiful resonantly trusting and healing Creation]
to be damned.

[to be pathologized,
victim of toxic apartheid,
degenerative monoculturing climates
hellfire,
global hurricanes,
tsunamis,
drought,
pestilence,
starvation, etc.]

This Dr. King
ecological theologian
spoke with a polyculturally developed sense of irony,
and died one year before
the first National Conference of Unitarian Churches
discussed merging YangLeft Universalists
with YinRight Unitarians,

Like liberal Yankees
and confederated Rebels
inviting creolizing
multiculturing
polycultural carpet-baggers
of good faith ecological relationships
redesigning theology,
preaching non-violent good governance
to those who would post-UnCivil War listen
appreciate
with positive attitude gratitude,
active polyculturing co-passion.

These EarthPassions percolated for another sixty-five years,
until Frederick May Eliot
presided
convened
mediated patriotic Unitarian Associates
of these Uniting States
for healthy democratic becoming
one cooperatively co-invested health sanctuary

Inviting a serious,
and sometimes more light-hearted
and footed
and bicameral-handed,
discussion
dialogue
discernment connecting
uniting Universalist global wealth redeemers
and healers
with Unitarian interdependent web of secular/sacred human
health/wealth pro-lifers.

Eliot’s Commission on Appraisal,
covenant for global truth and reconciliation,
reported “Unitarians should
[could, might like to]
free themselves from the sectarian spirit
[of apartheid,
bad faith,
partisan, monoculturing nature]
by cooperating more fully
[actively win/win nonzero-sum, regeneratively]
with other denominations,
[good and healthy faith communities],
by taking part in a growing [polycultural] movement
of the Free Church Fellowship
[for non-violent communing sanctuary design
and cooperative development]

And by entering whole heartedly
into the worldwide [swelling/shrinking ecopolitical] fellowship
of religious liberals
[nature/spirit nonsectarian]
in many lands.”
[protected by health conservational EarthTrust.]

Since the 1930s,
Free HealthSanctuary Democratic Communication
has further responded
to Buckminster Fuller’s ecological/theological “Synergetics,”
to Marshall Rosenberg’s “NonViolent Communication,”
to Joanna Macy’s Work That Reconnects
through “Active Hope,”
to Iain McGilchrist’s “The Master[Mistress] and His[Her] Emissary,”
to Deb Dana and Stephen Porges’
“The Polyvagal[cultural] Theory in Therapy:
Engaging [Inviting] the Rhythm of [win/win cooperative] Regulation.”

To this Taoist GreenDemocrat,
all these additional inside-voiced layers
of systems group attachment
to non-violent human compassion theory
are helpful
significant
important
yet distract from the outdoor sense of mystical humor
implied in LaoTse’s Sonnets for Self/Other
Ego/Eco GoldenRule,

Earth BiHemispheric Democratic
Health-Nutritional CoGovernance
outside as inside climate therapy,
above as below,
ecosystemic as ego-resilient
green wealth as red-blooded health.

Note: The UUA history in this piece borrows heavily from The Gadfly Papers, by Dr. Rev. Todd F. Eklof, pp. 62-3.

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More Gadflies and HoneyBees

Gadflies
are not about group hugs.

Communion is more of a catholic honey bee paradigm
of win/win resonant satiation;
A winter seasonal anti-climax of body
but ecstatic dreamy democratic mind feeling
perpetual gratitude attitude,
safe ego
within this significant paradigmatic ecosystem
of compassion communication.

Gadflies are more about spring
and sometimes overwrought
over-heated climatic summer,
LeftWings tempted
by win/lose RightWing
LeftBrain dominant communication
competition
win/lose
either military-industrialized capitalism or corporate death
debate

And defensive
unsafe anxieties about chronically stressed economies
of capital-nutrition over-infestment,
political disempowering degeneration,
blind rabid faith prayers sacrificing costs
to be paid by future thirsty
drowning
burning
choking
starving
dying generations.

Gadflies
may not worry enough about death
of Earth’s global anthro-elite ecosystem,
too frantic with hungry
competitive need to ego-replicate.

Meanwhile,
honeybees gather pollen
for ecstatic winter’s
regenerative
warm sticky climax
eco-communion.

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