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GoodHumor Issues

I’ve felt it said
here
time and again

That a personal issue
is also about political tissue
reconnecting economic responsibilities
risks
opportunities fiscal
annual
perennial

Centers of felt pleasure
and good humor
are Passions,
not only small
and great transitional
but resonantly
resiliently multi-anecdotal,

Excluding all DisPassions
DeGenerations
and humorless passions
actively resisting future dispassions,
loss
suffering
mortality
and all that dualistically dark stuff,
sensory tissue memories
of sacred issue images

My peculiar ecosystem
co-empathically admiring Ultra NonViolet
rainbow
spectrally ionic Heaven
multiculturing emergent organic Paradise

And personal political insider trading
in Gospel EmPowering Passions
co-emerge eco-Paradise here
with ego-Pleasure now,
sacred place
with historically enculturing
triangulated
bilateral
tipping pointed hierarchical
and reverse root systemic revolutionary
upside-down

EarthHealth PleasurePower
anticipating more HeavenWealth ParadiseLight
win/win peace-viral
evolutionary PanSensory
bicamerally enlightened
eco/ego double-binary
unboundaried co-empowerment.

And so I try to co-discern
discuss
cooperatively dialogue
about whom I am supporting,
investing in,
and why
I might reasonably expect
mutual win/win health/wealth outcomes.

And, on the other hand,
when such mutual intention becomes
and belongs within anti-losePleasure/loseHumor
transparently shared limits,
then it is time to set chronic stressed
win/lose compromises
anticipations
evolutionary theories
existential angst
depressions
negative impressions aside

To grab hold
of cooperative
systemic revolutions
toward enlightening
empowering
re-ligioned win/win
SecularLeftMinded/SacredRightHearted
ego-impassioned EarthHealth Justice
resolutions

Embracing Pleasure
and Paradise,
Power
and Light,
Earth
and Heaven,
Secular
and Sacred,
Deductive
and Inductive
cooperative GoodHumor,
with NonZero-Soul remainder.

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Earth Momma Blues

Momma
don’t help me
grow up to love CowBoys,

The ones
who can buy you
or sell you at will,
or tell you
they don’t care
whether healthy or ill,

The ones who know good ole’ boys
were born
unredeemable pills

Smoking up weeds
or stoking up stills,

Klanish threats
to the cattle
without sufficient
commitment
to armed forcing kill will.

Momma don’t help me
grow up to hate CowBoys,

Grown tired of their noise
their boys will be boys
armed violating toys
dark win/lose ploys
most trust in just goys
red true white blue
patriotic employs

Momma
don’t buy me
another white cowboy,
they just don’t work out
they leave with a pout
I just wanna shout,
What’s it all about
when your Alpha’s a cowboy?

Who has no clue
what he’s to do,
which side to chew
in red,
white,
and true blue
blues.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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Ironic Revolving History

Interesting
is it not?

Not so GrandChildren of immigrants from Europe,
seeking religious freedom
and economic advantage
and almost certainly of self-examined HAVE-NOT status,

Because, if not of personally
and economically
persecuted persuasion
and unenlightened neglect
and politically disempowering abuse.
then why would these wise GrandElders
have immigrated
toward this more cooperatively enlightened health
and empowering democratic safety
promised MotherLand?

Interesting that some of their NotSoGrandChildren
are now feeling Elitely entitled
to StraightWhiteMale libertarian privilege,
are evangelically entitled,
chosen children and then adults
for wild red rapture DeathCulture fantasies,

Dark conspiracy theories
to explain chronic HAVE-Not economic
or political
or even right-mind personal status

Supporting ego redemptive nihilistic insurrections,
ecofeminist rape,
and pillage,
and strange black guerrila mob lynching theater
defensively justified anthro-supremacist extraction rights
without exploiting left elitist government officials
snobbishly intellectual
know-nothing betrayers
of those left neglects,
leaving under-privileged behind
without academic elitist learning

Not to trust
green clerical ecofeminists
storming mainstream privileged liberals

In love,
preaching EarthDay promises
of win/win co-redemption,
restoring divine natural EarthJustice,
healing the win/lose sick
and tired
and already retired,
and low self-esteemed,
wounded and broken

Without LeftBrain relevant
interdependent natural compassion creation stories,
recreation development narratives
severed from RightBrain spiritually interdependent
sensory impassioned memories

Of RightWing judging wounds,
steeped in red-blooded American StraighWhiteMale
blaming and shaming,
revengefully right reactionary
against intolerable and ungrateful GrandChildren
too multiculturally alien

Immigrants,
underemployed spiritual pilgrims
seeking new EarthVisions

ReVisions of Old Testament hospitality
GoldenRules of polycultural religious light
of freedom,
economic cooperative powers
of resilient ego-health
and EarthDay safety

Win/Win cooperative Paradise,
green democratic delivery of Heaven
away from self-proclaimed HAVE-NOT Hell
monoculturing
Not So Grandchildren daily ZeroSum lack

Of liberally civil love,
civic status,
multiculturally re-connecting,
religioning NonZero Souls
found interesting,
are we white systemic privileged not?

NotSo GrandChildren of poor and tired immigrants
from Europe,
too often weak and broken and tired,
suffering losers and sometimes
too heterodox sinners,
seeking multicultural religious freedom
and more cooperative economic advantage
and almost certainly hoping for integral green compassion
in ego-as-ecoOther re-examined
HAVE-NOT sufficient green cooperative
healthy democratic
win/win bicamerally empowering
enlightening interdependent status,

Because, if not interesting,
then continue spinning
win/lose patriarchal
LeftBrain dominant history
instead of win/win matriarchal
co-enlightening mystery
of green ecofeminist win/win powers.

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Curiosity OutPlays Patience

Whether LeftBrain dominant
or RightBrain feminist prominent,

Whether outty
or insy,

fast
or slow,

stop
or go,

yes
or no,

decline
or grow,

inhale
or blow,

hide
or show,

strength
or flow,

sun
or snow,

cry
or crow,

Yang’s cognitive power pleasure needs
are also Yin’s emotive enlightened paradise feelings

On an octave spiraling communication
double-binding DNA spectrum

For positive blue/green spirituality
redeeming from negative overpriced
sliced
and diced red
through blah beige
naturally privileged secularity

Equity,
dignity,
beauty
trusty truth
is never NotZeroZone Wholeness
ecological Wholesomeness
theological Holiness

Whole/Hole
Eco/EgoSystemic
original democratic intent
of BiCameral Balance

Across the great dissociative
object/subject apartheid
becoming impatient
with our late
great nature/spirit
transitional polypathic divide

Of LeftBrain restorative Law
And RightBrain win/win ReOrdering
resilient
reweaving healthcare systems
for individual wealth spiraling fabric
intrinsic strings reconnecting
holistic EarthPeace safety cloth

As nonviolent nonverbal
green communion
predicts yet more curious compassioned
verbally impassioned
bicameral communication.

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This Is EarthJust Us

This is Us,
my waist too big,
his check too small,
she’s not the fairest
of Them all,

We must confess,
This is Ugly,
we are a mess,
the Earth’s ungrounded
greatest pest,

But, This is Us,
our only home
to share it well
before its gone,
extracted
refracted
denuded
and fracted,
deluded
and impacted,
polluted
and red Raped… …

Sacred
health neglected
and wealth abused,
THIS IS US!
We’re all we have
and are,

All we remember
and imagine,
reimagine
our compassion
for Earth’s great final passion;
This is Us

Filled with puss,
make it
or bust,
some say
“dust from dust,”
our parts
too often rust,
we smell
of patriarchal must,
need everything
right now or bust,
This is Us… …

Not unlovely Them;
what will we do
when established trump
doesn’t rule
our wild and free imaginations
of how I can be,
live true to
my own flawed beauty,
re-connecting
re-ligioning
re-membering
through all our neglected wild cards,
This EarthTribe is Us

We’ve each made god
in our best imagination
of how united nations
remember recreations
of great and wealthy destinations
from home regeneration
for health to safely hold
future generations
singing this our great examination
of how we are
in this Great Green Transitionalization,
This is Us

When we
most brilliantly choose
to see
This Us is Earth
regiving birth
forgiving death,
our wide democratic
and deepest
existential mess,
This is Us.

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Grand Old Trump Party

President Trump,
shortly after his singularly smelly election,
declared emphatic comparisons with Elder Republican
Abraham Lincoln.

Early on,
he described Lincoln as his kindred political soul,
admired mentor,
and the former President he was destined to most resemble
in spirit and success;

Presumably not including assassination
causing an abrupt end to his second term in office,
won by a landslide–
even if mainly because the ancestors of many Trump loyalists
were not in a northern political position to vote that year.

More recently,
President Trump,
not one to drop names of people who don’t actually exist
outside his own narcissistic imagination,
relayed the uninvited twitter message,
People tell him,
apparently hoping for the privacy of anonymity,
that he is already the greatest Republican President
in US history,
including Abraham Lincoln,

Who would be so supportive of Trumpian caging of children,
supportive of DT’s mockery
of women,
of people with disabilities,
of those homeless,
of people poor,
criminalized
traumatized by violence…
The list goes on in a remarkably non-Lincolnesque
non-spiritual
unChristian
snarky kind of way.

I imagine the President has heard Lincoln’s observation about trust
so necessary for even a quasi-healthy democracy,

“You can fool all the people
some of the time,
and some of the people
all the time,
but you can’t fool all the people
all the time.”

President Trump isn’t known for being a reader
outside consuming twitter posts
and Fox non-news banners,
but it seems he might have heard,
possibly read,
this Lincoln proverb as a challenge,
or just went with optimizing the promise that he could fool some people
all the time–
good enough for government work.

President Trump made it clear,
even before his Inauguration Day,
that only those people who could appreciate the splendorous beauty
of his naked narcissistic garments and greed would:

  1. get to heaven,
  2. become TrumpMedia empowered
    to hate multiculturally resilient democratic constitutions
    and healthy co-governance systems.

Speaking of aphorisms,
this night of January 6th,
my ecosystemic soul bows to the post-full moonlight
remembering,
“It is always darkest just before dawn.”

I grab onto this hope,
but then realize
Whoever knows this to be true from experience
could only speak this with reassurance
after the first hint of emergent light to the East,
source of sacred light
and EarthlyPower.

Is this as dark as fragile democracy
and patriotic civility must fail
this self-governing experiment?

I can’t quite yet see an Eastern sky of fading stars
although I would love to be vision corrected,
perfected to see light and power
in this climatic polarized time
of win/lose ecopolitical rabidity,
eating our children’s future,
wasting their water
and formerly fertile soil,
and decimating shading fruitful trees.

I can imagine a darker hour.

I can imagine my children
speaking with their grandchildren
about now vanquished land and water mammals,
the improbable kangaroo
and porcupine
and skunk

About former forests of mature trees,
huge plants
strong rooted
and reaching up
and out
much taller than the tallest remaining human;
now aging memories of neighbors lost forever.

Earth’s elder democratic,
healthy,
polycultural,
living biosystems might well survive
our species,

The only one that appears motivated to elect leaders
invested in fooling all the people
all the time,
of ignoring the rights and pleasures,
truths and beauty
of all “lesser” species
and “weaker” people,
now reduced to natural commodities
throughout Earth’s darkest hours.

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My RightWing Family

My RightWing
all white male
or venus invidiously envious
family

Is way quick to remain gated
away from drug
and alcohol
and automated arms dealers
and users,
black market buyers
and sellers
and renters.

Yet these same straight
boxer whitey patriarchs
are curiously too comfortable
with gingoistic
nationalistic
patriotic commodified statistics

Athletically supporting
made and paid in the USA
Drug
and alcohol
and arms dealers STEP RIGHTWING UP STORE
for natural resource stealers,
pharmaceutical and military-industrialized
international wheelers
and corporate dealers,
straight white patriarchal marketers,
corporate buyers
and lobbying tellers
and sweller sneed sellers
and human traffic renters
exploiters
predators
finers
criminalizers
shelter fillers
dog killers
ecopolitical therapy shillers
sociopsychology magical thrillers
communicating decaying climate chillers…

My RightWing family
is horrified
at the very self-righteous thought
of prostitutes and pimps
living and transacting their filthy business
within our own sacred straight
white capitalist neighborhoods,

But,
I don’t recall
aversion to political prostitutes
underwritten by corporate sponsor pimps
happy to separate us from our cash
for desecrating entertainments
underwritten by corporate lobbyists
and get even more rich incorporated
while competitively divided
investors in gross
national
toxic consumer reproduction.

My RightWing family
freaks at URBAN VIOLENCE!!!

But has only recently reconsidered
more domestic wisdom
moving away from criminalizing
marginalizing
death sentence violating
judiciously punishing
victims of parental
and systemic
and educational
and capitalistically corporate competitive neglect,

LeftBrain ego-wounded addiction
to cheap self-medications,
violent entertainments,
domestic chronic battlefield stressful violence,
economic and educational disinvestment,
social nasty distancing apartheid,
and what does “compassionate communication”
even actively
hopefully mean?

As if individual egos
are solely responsible
to authorize their own
choice of sacred birthing Earthwomb.

My RightWing family
is horrified by spousal abuse,
especially among those lower class
non-straight
non-white
non-capitalist privileged Folk,
who don’t need no custody of the eye
proper training
glaring toward disempowering Earth
and not enlightening Heaven
green cooperative rebirth.

These same ego-righteous non-abusers
persist in neglect,
remain in denial,
about our MotherEarth,
only sacred EcoHabitat,
abuse,
neglect,
with our fake anthro-supremacist
nationalistic
kleptocratic wealth,
absence of healthy eco-political
resonance and resilience

InBetween Left/RightWing rebalancing revolutions
reducing double-standards
against expressing actively hopeful curiosity
how we might, together,
cooperatively forgive our own individualistic
nationalistic
anthro-centric RightWing errors
while simultaneously denying mercy
restoring win/win ego/eco-justice
to all those frightful LeftWing communists

Communing breath
spirit
anima
wind
YangPower out
and YinLight back in,
Again up
and back down,

ReConnecting forward and backward
to and from
our ego re-ligiously wounded
marginalized
left behind
disinvested
unincorporated
extended non-binary
non-white
non-wealthy
non-healthy
fading
degenerative family

Of monoculturing RightWing predative
secularized and commodified
monetized and economized
politicized and psychologized
ecologized and theologized
recognized and reanimated
re-enlightened and re-empowered
bicamerally rebalancing
Blue/Green
NonViolet reconnecting
AnthroTribes

Breathing integrally
holistically
cosmically
regeneratively in
then out,
Yang
as Yin,
Left
as Right,
Power
as Light

Remembering past empowering/disempowering delights
within my own Left v RightWing
all white male,
or venus invidiously envious,
extensive healthy family tree.

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Do Speak Kinder Ways

Dear EveryThing AntiObama Donald,

It is a humbling,
not so Great Again, truth,
is it not?
This statement,

“Don’t ever talk to
[or about]
The President
that way”

Sounds and feels much 20/20 different
when you are a belittled
and/or challenged
and/or blamed
and/or shamed President
judged as insufficiently Winner effective,

Than what you may 20/16 see,
and longingly return to competitively golden touch,
when you were belittling
and challenging
and blaming
and attempting to shame
as too multiculturally weak
to be resiliently strong,
without offering a shred of evidence
for your narcissistic bias,
running as a RePublican candidate
against a healthy democratic Presidency.

If you had this Win/Lose divisive Presidency
to do all over again,
how might you respond
to your own now wiser advice?

Don’t ever talk
about a multiculturally health-wealthing
democratically inclusive
and cooperative economic
empowering
and enlightening Presidency
that shameful
and WholeEarth unpatriotic
straight white patriarchally privileged
ChosenPerson narcissistic way.

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