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Roots of Worship

My roots of Creator worship
are fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and curiosity

Whether this might also be true
and sometimes disappointingly false
for you

A resonantly sacred
sometimes prophetic
heart

With a resilient
health developing
ecosystemic mind

For whom my tricky part,
or one of many
as I recall…

Furtive sidewind glances
to my youthful left

Where he sat
in his magnificent
thick stacked darkness,

My closet worship thing
is impossible to come out
with perfect timing
with someone I am powerfully,
intoxicatingly, enraptured by
with
within
and preferably not without

Yet have no hope or intention
of ever being naked
or even transparent,
and certainly not vulnerable,
within his sight and hearing.

If said out loud,
then unveiled too soon
to not cause unwanted predative
seductive concerns.

If not said too soon
then inevitably disclosed too late
to retain resonant
and resilient trust

No hidden agendas,
no closet colonizing cases,
no aging platonic relationships
continuing to work
and play better
in just right silence
of unseen
unheard
unfelt
untouched emotions
without attaching motions

Back through roots of Creator worship
fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and thick stacked curiosity.

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SunLight SolAttitude

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through windows dawning bright,

A sharp shadow line
vertically cuts across my bridge
and brow of smell and seeing senses,

InBetween left within shadow
and right without radiance,
narrow sides of double-bonded Truth,
curious and hidden Beauty.

Right eye clearly articulating
bright prominent sight
dominantly lit up height
for best resonant enlightenment

Is blinded by bright
to not fight
automatic rays deflecting night,

While shadow Left,
not yet overpowered
with Right red-eyes blinded punishment,
benighted verbal authority,

BiLaterally
yet integrally knows he she sees
seas
and seasons dipolar co-arising contrast
best as starkest
never darkest
win/win economic dawning options
of BothLeft/AndRight gold radiating rain
in droughts known
through beatified non-pain,
bicameral light regained,
empowered feelings unslain

Again
full bicameral stereo polyphonic,
Radiantly healthy thoughts
not verbally sustained
without dark ultra winnings
winging out and in reimaged, full
golden silent solidarity
mountain-rivered,
ego-system eco-quivered,

Belonging to Earth committed bright
compassion soul
ZeroZone of full
new partial shadows
in light rememory,
undelivered solitude
for health safe night

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through this window just now dawning bright.

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Banquet of Gratitude

Spirits of unnatural forgiveness
for past bullying behavior
and sacred redemption
from internalized shaming,
self-blaming

Begin in our shared multiculturing
co-empathic nature
uncomfortable with win/lose historic
and contemporary choices,
ecopolitical system analyzed
and deep egocenteredly felt

Longing for an interfaith return
to win/win healthy solidarity
as part of regenerative
indigenous TurkeyWisdom Earth
with all Her multiculturing
multigenerational
organic and energetic
matriarchal fore-giving
life systems

Democratizing
co-operating
co-empowering
co-enlightening

Skills with verbal and nonverbal,
left and right hemisphere,
non-violently laid down listening life
communication

Not playing shame
and self/other blame
win/lose judgmental competition games
embedded in negative emotions,
not positive win/win regenerate motions,
notions,
songs and impulsive dances,
positive analogies
and deeply complex metaphoric
healthy
wealthy
wiser experiences

When our gratitude remembers to ask
Is this my best
shamelessly ecological EarthPatriotic/Matriotic self?
Does this theologically reflect
our healthiest ecosystemic
ecotherapeutic wealth
of perennial win/win communion meals
ego/eco-balancing EarthWisdom?

I want to produce a Thanksgiving InterFaith Feast
that extends my feeling
and awareness of graced multiculturing family,
verbally and nonverbally communicating
gratitude for healthy compassion,

But, even more deeply,
we long to become a polyculturally deep feeding
and breeding spiritual paradise naturally pleasured
Thanksgiving Banquet
of win/win blue/green
secular/sacred communion,

Not so much triumphalistic
and communications empirical;
More deeply EarthEvangelic,
co-messianic
as purple mountain majesties.

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Sad Kindness

Neither happiness or sadness
can preclude each other’s continued personal
political
and economic,
social
and psychological,
sensory
and neurological potentiality

If only because sadness
has something to teach us
about happy health
and sad pathology,

About EarthCentric virtuous circles
competing with AnthroPrivileged vicious exploitation,

About this possibility of creative
and regenerative
v destructive
and degenerative
climate tensions,
chronic intentions
competing against
healthy win
wealthy wintegral attention

If only because MotherTrees
and other EarthFeminists
are not the only virtuous circling rings
slow-growing revolutionary spirals
capable of merging
imagining
remembering
reconnecting
restoring green justice Pleasures
in Eden’s MotherTree ReGenesis
of both win/win Health
and epic win/lose to lose/lose
Pathology of Extraction

Cannot preclude each other’s continued
InFormative
restorative justice and green peace potentiality

If only because climate pandemic pathology
has something to social
political
economic win/lose distancing
teach us about happy anticipation v sad anxiety,

About win/win v win/lose ecopolitical strategy,
leftwing multiculture-valuing healthy global democracy
v rightwing monoculturing
straight white privileged
evangelistic AnthroSelf-righteousness

Sadly willing to compromise
current and future regenerations
of green resilient
global community,
co-passionately happy communication,
sacred communion.

Economic kleptocracy
hiding between anti-green libertarianism
and AnthroNationalistic Patriotism
sadly EarthBound unfreedom to commit fully
to Earth’s multiculturally
polyculturally healthy GreenPeace
and Freedom from rightwing fundamentalistic
either/or
win individualism or lose to interdependent socialism,

Ruminating unhealthy All or Nothing self-redemption stories
confusing disvalues for uniformity
with social values for unity,

Defaulting stuckness in debates
competing for military-industrialized supremacy
for resiliently strong values felt
within flowing interdependent dialogical waves
of pre-historically timeless
win/win values
for Whole EarthSystemic Patriotism

Still happily hidden
in dipolar co-arising apposition,
in-between positive wonder
and negative awe,
between economic potential
for global climate health
and local ecologically integrating,
multiculturally interdependent political wealth

Of gladness
for ecofeminist kindness
and not so many pandemic
patriarchal climates
of unhealthy
autonomously depressing
social distancing
divisive
deductive
reductive
left v right winged sadness.

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Not Often Enough

Sometimes,
not often enough,
I connect with all the good Ones
who grow so much in me

And
when we re-member these times
lost in right now space,
We gather no grand finale harvest

But remain so very grateful
for whom We have been
and where We have gone
and when We might romp once again
before this time’s curious end.

Bending just, and unjustly, around
life’s next grateful
fateful
corner,

Zero summing all these great Ones
who grow so much in graceful We.

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Creative Teachers

Compassionate Students

Left hemisphere’s cognitive nature of mind
emulates Right hemisphere’s inductive spirit
of creation
and destruction,
regeneration
and degeneration,
and all doubly-resonant tipping points
balancing analogous metaphors in-between.

For these disciples,
polypathic travelers,
perpetual emigrants into spirit
and immigrants from secularized
mundane
under-valued nature,
students of ecosystemic resilience,
Earth’s yang nature is Master
and yin spirit is Mistress
with unflagging strength of an oak
and complex flowing grace
of a willow,

Both rooted
and further rooting
from original NonZero Sum seeds
of integrity’s sacred potential
down,

And reaching
leafing
flowering
compassion climaxing
from ZeroSum DNA origins
up

Through heart and mind
and on down
round again to
and from
many regenerations of feet
for reproducing healthy DNA roots
of sacred Earth’s rememory.

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My Avatar Son

I have a son,
in whom I am well pleased,
with more than his share of heart
and mindbody intelligence,
to comprehend vastness of Earth’s evolving history
and future demise,
to comprehend full emptiness of universes within
and without
co-arising nondual lonely/solitude
double-binary universes
de/re-generative,

Enough intelligence to become One-haunted,
Zero-empty
beyond our deep dualist dark insignificance
as a species,
and far less secular value even than his
commodification of isolated EgoCentric Futures,

His own autonomous Ego value so inconsequential
he doubts his worthiness of food he eats,
of water he drinks,
of air he breathes in solitude,
out lonesome, still in-between
much less worthy of competitive employment,
of any maturing sense of healthy vocation,
social purpose,
sacred meaning midst his human comedic/tragic environment
at its best a cooperative musical re-creation network.

This reciprocity he can more or less actually find
on-line,
but not so much within his own family,
much less school.

Well, maybe a few non-isolating exceptions
to the individual student rule
competing against all other egotestical students,
everyone playing an absurd StraightWhiteMale
Win/Lose
LeftBrain dominant game,
with loser death the inevitable ego-identified outcome
for each and all;
no exceptions for eco-therapeutic GayBrownSons.

In the meantime,
Should we continue to fiddle
and twitter
and shake dis-autonomized hands
while Earth prepares to burn in the middle
and flood on the shores?

Why not orchestrate Win/Win gaming cooperatives,
more democratically inspired fun,
more opportunity to improve communication,
co-deductive/inductive nonviolent dipolar analysis?

To live empirical-compassionate method
in an actively healthy
curiously communicative
economic and political mutual Win
kind of bicameral Taoist way.

But Taoism is off-course,
in his expansive view,
hiding in a Pandora labeled X-box
“EXEGENESIS of RELIGION”
which is about a spirituality cat half yin dead
and unfortunately only, at best,
half nightmarishly lonely yang
half alive,
as if solitude spirit
is any other than eco-dynamic yang-One nature,
as if lonely yin
were in
other than absent reverse nondual 0-sum
engaging yang’s revolving Earth-bilateral clock.

Spirituality implies he walks through a divinely inspired comedy
with few speaking parts
and no solos allowed,
which he feels could not be true
unless win/win divine game inspiration
is no more or less
than human naturally regenerative DNA
fractal programming function,
developing cooperative eco-binary Fullerian form,
informational ergodic prime nonzero-sum
regenerative patterns and natural rhythms,
synergetic invitations toward solitude gratitude
lonely attitude,
integral predestination of phylogenic bilateral
bihemispheric structural flow
revolving through Earth’s interdependent orbits
of health-timed wealthy space.

To what meaningful end
could we possibly become
for one who is humanist comedy/tragedy musical
cooperative-preferred,
competition-averse?

With polypathic/polyphonic inclined interests
rooted in rich
dense
fertile healthy sharing
this hour
this game,
this day’s night plan,
but without actively articulating cooperative invested hope
for any long-term self support systems,
thrival nutrients for his body;
not just his solitude/lonely mind,
breath,
bicameral heart-beat…

Surprising to me
how my lovely son quickly learned to re-see
win/win spirituality
as natural nonduality,
but has yet to recover his embryonic mind
as body co-arising neuro-systemic transparency,
much less divine
as also humane
musical comedic/tragic unity
not aspiring toward monolithic uniformity

Despairing eremetical non-choice
despite polypathic resonant opportunities
to feel so much yang wealthier
ego-centering Left
and yinternally healthier
eco-systemic Right.

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Barney’s Realignment Song

As I awake this morning
I remember a Barney song
for my more oppositionally misaligned daughter.

I love you
and you love me
even if I couldn’t realign my four B’s,
Brain,
and Branches,
and Belly,
and Butt,
these four aligned
good government.

If you do
then I will tool

It is part of a spiraling dream
as I awake each skeptically reciprocating morning
remembering EarthTribe
no longer the same population
living within this remedial song
as when I went to bed
last lonely night.

A few of us have died.
A few have been new born.

And so it goes each morning
since I was that new born
win/win aligned
overwhelmed by all disconcerted Four-B wisdom
of older embodied dreams
awakening each dawn
to discover a few more have joined our Tribe,
coming along behind,
and a few more ahead
are now beyond any further potential
for re-aligning compassionate leadership
or even long-lived reciprocal hums
of silent fractal-B listening.

So I will go that last night
now leading those who listen
for swelling populations of EarthTribe Crystal-B
DNA voices
greeting each new born pioneer
conjoining us for this Earth retraining
turning
journey,

Vocation for wiser co-aligning Elders
as just normal aptic naptime for others
now win/win begun
for whom we join our minds as one
in
and with
and for
and of peacefilling gratitude.

I wonder
as I gaze toward gathering light
if our purist unity as EarthTribe
is only RightBrain known and felt in dreams
where insects and reptiles and mammals
like beans and corn and squash
like soil and water and climate
all process more nurturingly alike than separate,
more interdependently than empty of relationship,
without distinctions arising sexism,
without differences co-arising racism,
without asseverated appositions causing self-righteous violence
against Great Alien Unknowns
of past and future lives,
unless we also know these as unruly nightmares
begging to restore mercy
and thereby less necessity for harsh justice,
refueling patriarchal vengeance is ours!

As I feel for my glasses,
EarthTribe slowly shape-shifts repopulation
between each daily-nightly evolving frame
roundly rolling along spacetime’s polypathic avenues
becoming not exactly who we were
together yesterday,
as we have insufficient time
to quite grasp us all so much
in one timeless time,
just as, in RealTime
unlike Common UnLanguaged DreamTime,
we cannot quite get back
to (0)Sum original win/win reciprocal habitat
of spacetime’s full-blown climaxing revolution;
Still humbly home, disappointed yet again
in this Here
and already too past Now,

But,
maybe tomorrow night
this resonant resolution
may yet come to last
for tomorrow’s recast
EarthTribe poly-protagonist win winners
yet perpetually interdependent witnessing losers,
frighteningly and autonomously mortal

Underdogs,
both preferred unaligned bulldogs
and b-word misaligned maligned identities
of antagonizing eco-injustice dreams,
where Paradise Lost
looks more same than different
throughout today’s reborn
post-creolizing,
millennializing,
degenerating still

Through this timeless multi-speciating dream,
more double-binding darkish dawn
than simplistic ZeroSum win/lose,
either degeneration or regeneration,
for no one wakes up tomorrow entirely alone
and not to recreate gratitude for dawn’s newborn delight
in Four-B ego- and eco-alignments
more intersectionally flying together
than degeneratively and egotistically coming apart.

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Contagious Health

In A Dog Lick Dog World

Are you feeling sad,
wanting your faith community,
democratic society,
to live more…
live more deeply…
live more widely…

Faithful to wealthy health, yes,
and I wonder if you are angry,
frustrated,
impatient,
wishing for more enthusiastic RESPECT,
more Aretha Franklin listened to
and more explicitly understood,
appreciated?

On my worst days,
anger.
Most days and nights,
impatient,
feeling stuck
in time moving too win/win opportunity slow,
and too win/lose risky fast.
On my best days,
impatient with capitalism
as monotheistically worshiped,
yet also multiculturally curious about remaining hope
for reconnecting personal health
with eco-political wealth.

I’m wondering if I could doubt
my own gastro-intestinal intelligence,
and what Earthly ego would I be
without bicameral ego/ecosystemic balance?

Now I’m confused.
Can you help me understand
how what you are wondering about
responds to my feelings
and win/win faithful needs,
of which I was just now speaking?

It seems like a more elite,
empowered leadership circle
in your faith community
may have trouble appreciating the fuel
investments
nutritional resources that listen quietly
and too tolerantly
too frustrated about win/lose communication patterns,
business as competitively usual
and leftbrain dominantly blind
to win/win nonviolent cooperative communion.

It feels like I am being cast
in the role of an ignored gadfly sphincter,
holding in all my compassion for healthy diversity
of theological ideas
and ecological experiences
digesting cerebrally
and intestinally,
thought
and felt nutrition
seeking healthier contagious outcomes.

I’m feeling amused
about wanting to imagine
what your perfect respected sphincter paradise,
our nonviolent win/win communicating;
what co-empathic inclusive faith community
would look like
and sound like
and smell like
and feel co-invested
and taste healthy
for you.

I feel encouraged
and supported
when you express active curiosity
about my feelings
and needs for healthy community,
safe sanctuary,
green asylum
from violent red-blooded
egocentric
anthropocentric predation.

I’m feeling resonance
yet struggling to actually connect
green restorative asylum
with concerns that “Man’s best friend.”
is a dogged species
no longer confident
our anemic human faith communities,
societies,
associations,
cooperatives,
remain Dog’s best friend.

Now there’s a species that respects sphincters!

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More Gadflies and HoneyBees

Gadflies
are not about group hugs.

Communion is more of a catholic honey bee paradigm
of win/win resonant satiation;
A winter seasonal anti-climax of body
but ecstatic dreamy democratic mind feeling
perpetual gratitude attitude,
safe ego
within this significant paradigmatic ecosystem
of compassion communication.

Gadflies are more about spring
and sometimes overwrought
over-heated climatic summer,
LeftWings tempted
by win/lose RightWing
LeftBrain dominant communication
competition
win/lose
either military-industrialized capitalism or corporate death
debate

And defensive
unsafe anxieties about chronically stressed economies
of capital-nutrition over-infestment,
political disempowering degeneration,
blind rabid faith prayers sacrificing costs
to be paid by future thirsty
drowning
burning
choking
starving
dying generations.

Gadflies
may not worry enough about death
of Earth’s global anthro-elite ecosystem,
too frantic with hungry
competitive need to ego-replicate.

Meanwhile,
honeybees gather pollen
for ecstatic winter’s
regenerative
warm sticky climax
eco-communion.

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