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Inside Outdoor Voices

Just as honesty plants seeds of integrity
so too
vulnerability plants seeds of honesty.

My primary vocation
in this my gay grandfatherly retiring age
is to parent mindbody challenged adolescents
of diverse colors
as ecotherapeutically as possible
to optimize their and our wealth
of health,
growing nutritional elements and moments
into humanely co-operative organisms
with good days
more than bad.

More or less like watering the flowers
and ignoring the weeds,
or, better yet,
repurposing the weeds,
redirecting their potential energy
in a more nutritiously nurturing way.

My kids not only are vulnerable,
they know they are vulnerable,
and this tends to make them exceedingly honest
with themselves
with me
with each other
about what is funny and what is tragedy.

They are easy to parent
in this way.
Yet this same vulnerability
is their greatest risk
in a too often competitive,
and mindless of other’s special needs,
world.

We communicate connected to the feeling level,
even while learning the ABCs,
the 1 through 100 percents of good and bad numbers
and proportions and balance and symmetry,
the drawing of self-portraits,
homes,
Earth and Her Sun.

Often these inside feeling voices
do not feel well enough to care about the ABC’s,
or even the needs of those we need to love
and to love us,
to be as lovely with as possible.
Inside feeling voices
become loud and angry and hurt outside voices.

I noticed this the other day
when old family friends dropped by.
Not quite as old as I
and therefore much less retired
from life’s exterior competitions.

When we had time to visit several times per week,
we often began together
checking in about how our inside voices were feeling today,
happy or sad,
depressed or triumphant,
and usually some more richly nuanced place between.

Then we would turn to our big outdoor voices.
What we were working and playing on and with
in our back and front and side-yards,
the gardens and woodlands of our productive nutritional lives,
how the pets and pests
and domestic egg-layers were feeling,
and why
and why not.

These two voices generally resonated with each other.
What we were working on with Outdoor Voices
said something about nutrition and health we were working on
as individuals
as a family
with our Inside Voices,
and vice versa.

Only then,
if there was nothing else to do,
no further outdoor recreations
and discernment projects,
would we return to more
yet less intimate and vulnerable
Indoor Voices.
Work and play projects in perpetual interior process.
The noticing of more ornamental acquisitions
like ceiling and wall and floor coverings,
safer boundaries
about what we could see together
through all those more interior feelings
and thoughts about relationships,
past and future and present interactions,
transactions of value and disvalue,
warmth and cooler apathy.

I remembered this yesterday
when old friends,
no longer neighbors, revisited
and we began with new floor and ceiling coverings
and ended with farewell.
They arrive so late
it is already past time to be back home
to get ready for another Indoor Voices
monotonous
monoculturing day.

Which, this morning,
results in feeling blessed
to be here in this time and place
to listen and speak at our leisure
with my vulnerable no-boundary kids,
outrageously honest about their nutritional needs
and wants,
speaking with full volume integrity
in both Inside Outdoor Voices,
health
meets and greets and eventually defeats
pathology,
through honest integrity
of repurposing redirection,
feeding the flowers
and noticing how funny the weedy Outdoor Voices
sound indoors
feeling our way through the ABCs
and the 1 through 100% flowering days
and mean weedy nights.

I’m surprised and disappointed
my former neighbors didn’t notice all the new fruit trees
and berry bushes
poppies and lilies
strawberries and tomatoes
onions and garlic
asparagus and rhubarb,
and 17 new solar panels on the roof!

My kids could care less
and probably never more
what our old friends did
and did not
notice,
other than their own Voices
vulnerably maturing into integrity,
I hope.

Still,
I’m glad they noticed,
because the liked,
the new floor and ceiling covers.

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False Prophets

Disciples: How will we know True from False Prophets?

Teacher: You will cooperatively discern them
by their polycultural-loving outcomes.

When does fear that disasters are becoming too relentlessly true,
masquerade as anger that such events and facts and trends
must not be true,
conspiracies of elite-alien over-powerers?

Fear and anger are bipolar opposites
and, more importantly,
are dipolar points of paranoia’s contrasting equivocations.

Fear strikes inward
while anger lashes out.

In-between lies double-binding denial
that the other could become a deconstructive co-motivator,
a partner in paranoia’s past crimes
against reality
not faced straight-forwardly,
with autonomous power and sufficient courage
and loyalty to those who have already been hurt,
and continue hurting,
by terror and pain
violence and degenerative disintegrative mayhem.

Are deniers of bad news
responsible for what they say
and therefore free to speak their responsibility
for economic and political and ecological realities
they are psychologically compelled to deny,
especially through compulsively loud, sometimes violent, repetition?

Are those who are confused
and enmeshed in their fear-constructed worlds
responsible for their anger-mongering on bad days,
anger management on better days,
tendencies?
How responsible could truth terrorists be
while maligning the minds,
and sometimes vulnerable bodies,
of those who speak hard to hear histories,
threatening ever more violence
and terror across landscapes
and climates of one’s own lifetime,
one’s own people,
family and allies,
kin?

Early interventions,
exorcisms of fear and anger power
are most effectively performed by wise parents,
listening mentors seldom available
to rampant waves of ill-developed paranoia,
rooted in alternative angry and distorted fact-telling,
xenophobic conspiracy constituents
of pretend historical facts.

How do we respond to our neighbors
who are also angry deniers of inconvenient facts?
Alien AngerBuilders
unwilling to speak truths to further paranoia producing prophecies?
Bad news will repeat and grow
unless we learn cooperation’s RightBrain creations
co-governing inductive truths
of mentor more powerfully inter-relational than pathological climates
and internal landscapes
of dis-membering empty-nonevents.

We have been born into this time of immigrant-identified
and threatened crisis
unwilling to repent
unskilled to Right with Left reweave,
Earth’s eco-native Commons Spirits
ecological nature-power
with economic cooperative-nurturing powersharing,
Golden Rule multiculturally co-committed
to further growing with each other,
to not perish in a self-paranoid silo
of double-binding terror.

Imagine these conspiracies dis-owning you,
belonging within no alien other,
and denials of past and on-coming events and facts
magically evaporate this night
because of our dreaming healthy futures
we will cooperate together
even through this most patriarchal Father’s Night,
committed to ecosystemically reconnect
FalsoEgo with TrueEco
Left with Right co-mentoring mental health
ego/eco-centering double-binding wealth
of cooperatively loving co-arising opportunities
less hopeless bound by LeftBrain dominant denials
of RightBrain fear-taught conspiracies,
cognitive-affective learned dissonance,
entropic-chaotic dis-ease.

Paranoid denial double-binds
are empowered by negative-fueled criminalization,
violent attention,
abusively relentless shaming response,
absence of listening through Basic EcoCentric CoPresence
asking faithful questions
more than providing loving answers,
trusting through this deep ecology listening journey
mental illness faithfully listening with
searching depths of self-loving therapies,
co-healthing allies,
internal co-mentors
co-messianic Bodhisattva Warriors
of and for peace,
health’s understory
for cooperatively therapeutic ego/eco-justice.

Denying the right to publish
those who deny the rights and wrongs of ecologists,
ecotherapeutic analysts,
forecasters,
truth-tellers of pathological unweaving health-assurance trends,
to speak and listen with and to and for and of us,
our cooperative global polyphonic potential together
is not a denial of free truth-telling speech,
because confusion between True and False Prophets
cannot lead to anything other than conspiracy fears
and angry unfreely shouted untruths.

Giving ego-manic mental illness a microphone
for spreading contagious fears and anger
especially among those already vulnerable,
troubled adolescents and children,
abused and shamed and hurt and lectured-to adults
of cooperative WinWin ignorance,
ensnared in monoculturing monopoly games
of Win to Lose LeftBrain supremacist
neglect.

Rather than giving my ecopolitical microphone
to further inflame unskilled unfree to speak Truth
competitive marketers of Anger and Fear Management
as our best autonomously suboptimizing hope,
I find it better to broadcast contagious cultures of ecotherapeutic wealth,
ego/eco-centering abundant health.

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Careful Revolutions

I believe great political
and psychological
and spiritual
and natural transitions
are places of great deep learning
opportunity,
with concomitant risk;
responsible for opportunities
with authority for absorbing requisite
and repulsing unnecessary degenerative risks.

These great transitions,
like weddings
and births
and deaths
and elections
and changes from winter toward summer
are yin-death of one thing
into yang-birth of another,
a commencement into regenerate opportunity,
decomposing multilateral historical risks.

This great transitioning political season wheel
turns through psychological reasons,
trusts and distrusts,
circling revolutionary around
creolic nature-spirit stories
of creation
with concomitant decomposition,
Yang opportunity
with multilateral Yin risks of devolution
reversion
co-arising.

Within this Tao wheel of regenerativity
are great transitioning edges,
where evolutionary change
emerges more revolutionary noticed.

Great transitional edges
are landscapes
wherein climate double-boundaries
between death
and embryonic birth
grow transparently thin
and bilaterally spacetime translucent.

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Contagious Gratitudes

Honey,
sometimes I feel my grateful care-giving
for our mutual care-receiving
grows increasingly under-valued by you
and so,
perhaps for that reason,
also under-valued by me.

Are you suggesting,
my generous lover,
that positive gratitude,
like negative attitude,
is contagious?

Yes, that.
But also I worry
you believe your ultimate gratitude
for my generosity
is to apathetically receive ever more of my care,
rather than to repay in-kind
over our relational time together.

Does expressing my gratitude
with civil please and thank yous
and you are greatly welcome
and with I owe you
some good care-receiving in return
count as at least partial care-giving repayment?

Yes,
and so would taking out the recycling basket
when you fill it,
rather than just leaving it over-flowing
with your Earth-resident care-giving
for me to take out
for us,
as if I were your care-giving robot
nutritionally-compensated for a robust future
by your mere past care-receiving
patriarchal presence
within us.

Are you suggesting
the absence of my care-giving actions
speaks louder
than the presence of my care-giving words?

Something like that, yes.

Well, thanks for that future care-optimizing feedback.

You are quite welcome
to act with care
even before you speak of our mutual care.

Is the recycle basket overflowing
with my care-giving again?

I thought you might have noticed
when your glass bottles
fell to the floor.

Oh,
I thought that was just matriarchal Earth’s gravity
saying ThankYou.

No,
that’s Her way of saying
it’s past time to clean up your care-giving act.

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What I Want

What do I want out of life?

I want in,
where love still flows
fertile and strong.

I want to live fully on this Earth
with others
who need not ask
what I want
because we all grow in confidence
our answer is shared,
our univocal choice
for becoming integrity’s potential
together.

Do you believe
these different gender identities
and preferences,
those of different ages, places, times, species,
those who look far different,
those who smell worse or better
than you do this day
would answer any differently?

I think not.
I feel not,
for then I would despair
of humanity as integrity’s portion of Earth’s nature
as intrinsic to this glorious organic architecture,
Earth’s healthy grace
becoming polyphonic Promise.

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Hypocrisy in OnlyWhite

I am reading
“Democracy in Black”
by Eddie S. Glaude, Jr.
but continue reconstructing this title
“Hypocrisy in Only White.”

Because
when I let my memory
look back to my own self-interests in history
as archaeological digging and prying and discovery,
adventure and curiosity
of my internal ecological development,
I reweave back
through still on-going matriarchal lines
that include,
are shared with,
anyone capable of reading
and comprehending
these words of regenerating memory.

Back
to darker
denser
richer genes and memes
of cooperative to still thrive today,
saving competitions for survival moments.

Back to
better to prey together
side by side
as neanderthal brothers and sisters
than to grow predative
against each other.

This Golden Rule
of dark Afro-Eurasian
equatorial resonant depth
of historical origin
in normative play
at least until we substitute capitalism’s
supremacist agendas
for rationalism’s ego-ecocentric
reweaving memory
of this original Earth Mom
magical and mysterious
then worshiped and danced
ritualed and cooperative ownership co-governing,
then more modern radical eccentricities
forgetting our shared matriarchal
regenetic
memory of dualdark
hypocrisies of merely white inferiority
complexes
disease
dissonance
despair of remaining fully
who we together are,
where we have been
predating history
where we could return
each morning
with greatest polyphonic joy.

To paraphrase David Holmgren
(Permaculture, p. 113)
Containers were one essential organic innovation
necessary for this cooperative agrarian revolution.
Opportunities to refill organically produced bodies
are enormous
transitioning into recycling energy descent
for shared cooperative memory.
Reimaging full organic containers
is far better than sending us
away and down and out for recycling.
Most official ecopolitical waste reduction strategies
place little emphasis
on organic reuse refilling re-educating
deep ecologically learning containers,
or confuse WinWin refueling,
reweaving,
with capitalism’s WinLose recycling,
switching productive containers
into merely consuming eventual empties,
bleached-out white-washed faded hypocrisies
of purest supremacy against nothing
deeply densely
richly resonantly valued.

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Growing Healthier Times

If life animates predation,
dynamic investments of time grow ego’s prey.

When predative life
captures memories of time’s investments
we have opportunity to devour and constipated hoard,
and healthier invitations to absorb with love
and cooperatively re-invest.

Predation is to survival competitions
as strategic WinWin planning is to thrival cooperations
of co-animating life
with roots derived from,
and still continuously connected with,
thermodynamic co-gravitating spacetime.

This time of humane revolutions
returning back to re-invest within Earth’s multiculturing natures
is not to berate and bury shortcomings of evolutionary theories
with capital catch and self-invest applications
confined to monocultural survival
of the highest and mightiest and fittest individual
and species.
The poor in cooperative spirit
we will always patriarchally have within us.

Yet this over-praised despair
about too predative life
preying on too short time
is our understory of LeftBrain emergence
into historic enculturing dominance.
We have arrived in this time to praise this well-capitalized Caesar
not to wastefully bury him.

This story
tells our praying times
and predation places.
This evolution story
is one of patriarchal capture
as this Great Transition Revolution
becomes nondual two
of what to do
with Right to LeftBrain recapture,
turning back toward RightBrain equivalent re-investment,
Paradise Land of WinWin cooperative co-ownership,
self management and together governance
rooted in this most radical trust
that ego’s life
is to Earth’s eco-valuing time
as Yang within YinSquared double-binding
ecosystemic fractal balance of becoming
who we have most regeneratively
and originally
intended,
throughout (0)-Core Prime Relational 4D SpaceTime.

This PostMillennial Revolution Story
speaks WinWin cooperation language
to patriarchal capitalism’s idolatrous WinLose hoarding
of egocentered reified success, deductive only
where life embraces Earth’s right and gracious Time
within this global health-invested climate
culture
landscape
cooperation’s revolutionary life-time.

Matriarchal predators gather with and for regenerative healthing time,
while all pre-millennial patriarchal dominance hides and fades
back to and for re-investing captured herstory ecobalance,
understory of integrity’s WinWin revolutionary enculturing potential
Tipping Points of wu wei healthy Tao=BiLateralTime Harmonics,
where positive life becomes notyet here and notyet past
notnot double-binding time present graced
sacred ecology.

As PolyNomial Language speaks
Not(Not PolyPathic) SpaceTime,
so does EgoYang Life
embrace EcoYinYin bilateral spiraling Reversion-Time.

Major octave keys
are no more
no less
than double-minor flat and sharp potentials
waiting to resolve.

Evolving life cooperates through matriarchal revolution
strings of co-investing embryonic,
and still regenerating diastatic positive,
Abundant TaoTime.

Life animates predation,
de-animates sedation,
dynamic co-investments of time
grow Earth’s gathering patriarchal/matriarchal wisdom.

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