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Dreaming Within Myselves

Dreaming by myself,
eisegetically,
I believe in LeftBrain dominant deductive intelligence
furthering Yang-enculturation,
culturing,
enculturing toward
secular rational capital-investments,
self-righteous protagonist relationships
within Earth’s continuing regenerative revolution

Revolution more powerful than
evolution’s climatic threats
and crises of degenerative
Lose to Lose
dismay longing to belong within depression.

By contrast,
listening within all MatriarchalWomb Elders,
exegetically,
we co-empathically feel RightBrain recessive inductive intelligence,

Yin-squared sacred DNA
spiraling phylogenic enculturations,
incarnations healthy multiculturing
and excarnations pathologically greyscale

Together, YinRight with and for and of YangLeft
restoring full-color ecotherapeutic EarthMother-Father
revolutionary
cooperative
Win-Win eco/ego-rational balance.

I am not saying,
I do not dream,
nor believe,
nor feel,
nor is it my limited polypathic hope,
that these word-choices
and dialectal appositional dipolar labels
must also become yours,
or could
or should
or will ever become yours
for restoring healthy subclimtes
within LeftBrain dominance
or even RightBrain suppressions,
within your body,
throughout your mind,
or even our Not-Not ZeroSum-Core
Win-Win Gaming
SuperEgo Soul.

Soul enthymematic within cooperative good faith
in healthy life,
over bad faith for pathological aggressions,
ego-defiance,
socialized retributions,
and death as final just spiritual-natural reward.

I am hoping
my word choices
and appositional dipolar Win-Win coherence
is also what you might sacredly and lovingly,
wondrously and awesomely uncover
as absence of cognitive-affective dualistic dissonance

Your own human ego-nature too isolated
severed
from EarthMother’s umbilically sacred
harmonic RightBrain DNA-RNA Wisdom

DoubleBound prime fractals
dipolar octaves
of spectral
spiral
revolving Win-Win potential integrity
within mutually trusting Nature.

For my deductive-dominant LeftBrain
this feels like too much to ecotherapeutically hope for,
and with.

To my inductive-recessive RightBrain,
this dipolar nonduality is Win-Win
Great Transitional
interior-exterior
sacred choice
for Yangwealth
of ecopolitical Yinhealth.

And so I awake
each dawn of Earth’s anthropogentric distinction
between space and progenitor Time,

Awake within each new holy day for restoring cooperation
over violence of capital over-investment in competitions,
punishments of others
for Win-Lose ZeroSum defiance,

Awake to hope for restoring what healing we can
within each communication
each mutually chosen transaction
woven together
until dusk comes.

Dusk comes
with dreamtime to compress
all our rest,
advent for tomorrow’s
Sacred EarthDay.

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My Cafe CoOp

In one sense,
the Cafe CoOp
started as my therapeutic retirement dream.

But,
in quite another
the CoOp goes back to when I was eight,
and I thought,
assumed really,
everyone indulged in Thought Experiments
about what would my optimal Eden Paradise.
restoring peace and justice across Earth
look like,
feel like,
smell like,
sound like?

And how are these
a response to what I do not currently prefer
to live with,
and without.

Perhaps in both ways,
together,
I began seeing how cooperative aspirations
might become cooperatively owned and, coincidentally,
managed for mutual health care optimization
of all us CoOp EarthCafe residents,
guests,
hosts,
employees,
contractors,
talent,
students,
supported by therapeutic restorative peace
and ego-ecojustice teachers
and mentors
and scripture scholars and WinWin systems analysts,
gardeners
and cooking and preserving and medicinal herb gathering classrooms,
indoors and outside,
and, yes, of course Permaculture Design and CoOperative Implementation
and ReStorative Justice business co-investors in healing,
in family health optimization outcome projections
for 2020 ReStorative Justice
as this healthy community
polyculturing peace-filling outcomes.

All this came quite near a boil
during 2016’s Retributive Nationalistic Patriarchal Lose-Lose Selection
against Constitutional protections of multicultural Welfare pursuits
and against purity and loyalty to democratic global Unity
for PolyCultural Outcomes of Freedom
and CoOperative WinWin Liberties for all species
and subclimates.

My ego’s Yang longing for unity
belonged within Yin-Holonic Restorative Justice aspirations,
EgoLeft with EcoRight,
dualdark,
cosmic cosmological consciousness
of CoOp Cafe karma
growing through self-other co-empathic awareness.

In ZeroSum equivalent FourDimensional RealTime
bilateral Left-Right ecological history
of enculturation,
regenerative trans-poly-perpetuating sacred substantiation
we all live creolizing best
through Golden NonDual Appositional Rules
to empathize with each Other
within LeftYang and RightYin
as outside too Patriarchal RightWing
with Matriarchal NonZero-Sum WinWin LeftWing suppression
of all CoOp Cafe EarthTribe members,
participants,
witnesses,
teachers,
gardeners,
Permaculture Designers,
ReStorative Therapeutic Justice Advocates.

Why would anyone in their right balanced mind
not want to restore healthy justice
especially while Trumpians and supremacist homophobic allies
rule our most nuclear-risk of climate permanent unrest?

The CoOp Cafe
and our after-school
ReStorative Justice and Peace YouthLeadership Project
started,
in these ways and means
with middle school and high school
and community college students
and performance and journalism teachers,
then adding ReStorative Justice Parent Alliances,
and an early-afternoon crowd coming down the street
after their baked chicken lunches
at St. Vincent de Paul,
asking these same questions,
engaging in similarly themed Thought Experiments.

How do we know 2016,
or even worse,
will never happen again?
In the U.S.,
most climate urgently,
but also across Earth
in our Cafe CoOps,
wherever we can find and build them together,
on-line, indoors, and outdoors
sharing EarthBound 4D SpaceTime
fractal and seasonal DNA ReGenerative Health Values
informed with RNA bilateral Ego-RootSystems
providing true and faithful and just EcoBlossoms,
YangReasoned–IntuitiveYin Seasoned EnLightenment.

I just assumed,
when I was eight,
that these are the ways
others would co-define Paradise
as both Interdependent Earth
and nondually dipolar EmptySet EgoIdentity interiors
because how could we possibly be anything at all
without OriginalMother Sacred Intent
becoming anything more or less
than PolyPathic Yang = Not(Not PolyPhonic MatrioticYin)
because +1 Yang must always double-bind notnot (0),
just as uracil’s form
co-arises
cytosine’s notnot-folding-unfolding flow functions
of bilateral heuristic waves.

If notnot (0) First OriginalCause,
then no possible way
to doubleBind 4D SpaceFractals
through BiLateral Strings
of ReStorative-ReGenerative Justice
notnot what and when and why Lose to Lose
when each is free to choose
Win economics to Win ecologics
notnot (0)Sum bilateral ego-eco-consciousness,
when speaking trust within multiple multicultures
and transacting cooperative therapeutic business
and performance arts
and writing,
story-telling
and singing fair and true and just and beautiful lyrics
and dancing lyrically,
standing with vulnerable comedy and tragedy stories,
sweeping in chi gong co-op circle sessions,
breathing through yoga stretching circles and squares,
rectangles,
triangles, maybe,
that would be good;
could feel healthy
for cooling internal climates.

Our Cafe CoOp
started as a collective dream
about where we might feel and be safest
in our restorative vulnerability of co-ownership
with each other,
co-responsible interdependence
between consumers and producers,
between suffering traumatic past investments
and offering care-giving and -receiving therapies
for parenting and healthy childing,
for teaching and wealthy studenting,
for mentoring and menteeing grace
as healthy gratitude,
positive karma attitude
for mutually cooperative multicultural restorations.

So, less mutually competitive mistrust,
bad faith,
negative fear-mongering lifelessness,
depression and repression
and suppression
of all Matriotic ReStorative Wisdom Circles
and ego-eco balancing nature-spirit practices
of bilaterally empathic practices
for basic enthymematic
polydigmatic
co-empathic development
of maturing GoodFaith CoOp Cafe Management.

In one multiculturing sense,
our EarthTribe Cafe CoOp
started as everyone’s therapeutic retirement dream
coming together
for mutually restorative purposes.

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As Peace is to HealthCare

Trauma comes from violence
as health comes from peace.

Trauma,
and unresolved traumatic memory,
is to health,
as violence,
and unresolved threat of violence,
is to peace.

Western and Eastern cultures of competing traumas
long for cultures of health,
climates of cooperative gratitude
for Earth’s sacred and fertile dualistic Heavenly Grace
and nondualistic EarthNature-ParadiseSpirit Karma.

Hope stresses active therapy.
Despair distresses trauma.
What is absence of hope or despair for you?

Crisis or opportunity?
A potential critical depression event
or opportunity to uncover oppressive Win-Lose competitions
or invitation to recover Win-Win therapeutic co-operations?

Probably all the above.
Which makes it all the more climate critical
to be mindful of who we hang out with
and invest in and vote for,
what voices and messages and stories
we read and watch and listen with,
especially before going to sleep,
and, if at all possible,
again after we wake up
from a full moon’s night
of egotherapeutic full-conscious investment
in RightBrain dominant
restorative rest
in copresent Left with Right
Win-Win comic and cosmic sweetspot dreams
and Lose-Lose ego-punishing tragic nightmares.

Those who still laugh in our sleep together
laugh most restoratively Win-Win.
This seems a healthy therapeutic goal
for growing global peace.

Ego’s interior Universe is Left-Right polypathic
as Eco’s exterior SacredEarth
restores YangSpace = YinSquared-BilateralTime
(0)Soul polyphonic.

These metric equivalency questions
remain important and elegant,
yet obscure and mysterious,
due to unresolved science of bicameral knowledge responses
to spirit-nature issues outstanding;
cultural revolutions of Earth v Heaven
(0)Sum Lose-Lose
and YangEarth restoring YinHeaven
notnot (0)Soul Win-Win
Gaian Matriotic Principles of OctaveLight PolyPhonics.

Sacred Ecological TippingPoints
double-binding good with notnot bad faith,
comedic resonance with notnot tragic dissonance,
winning peaceful healthcare dominance
while losing RightBrain DNA-scripted
ecological
phylogenic
EarthTribal RNA memory repressions
of GoldenRule Solidarity for Peace

is to healthcare and Public CoOperative Welfare
as economic
and political
and personal
and domestic (0)-sum reactive violence
are to climates of continuing disintegrative trauma.

Twittering on toilets
with mutually assured destruction
flush buttons.

 

 

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Voting Booth Conversation

My African-American
young adolescent daughter,
since she was age five
needing a therapeutic home and family,
with Oppositional Disorder
and deviantly diverse neural-cognitive communication patterns,
would have voted for Donald Trump if she could.

In large part,
I suspect and fear,
because she is obsessively attracted
to what and whom she knows is bad for her.

Bad medicine.
Toxic sights and sounds and feelings.
Poisons for all sensory receptors,
Mutually oppositional reiterative disorder
perpetually trading barbs of blame and shame,
games she so loves to hate to play,
with tendencies toward bipolar disarray.

Why does she seem to prefer older
straight
blond boys?
Probably because she identifies herself as a younger
brown-skinned
curly-headed
(in several ways and means)
princess-diva-girl.

Anyway,
she helped me vote for our town’s Mayor,
and School Board,
and Propositions about borrowing money
to pay it back later
out of her real-estate and business tax investments.

What she thought would be more interesting investments
for her future,
rather than bridges,
and firetrucks,
and improved highways,
she thought more gardens would be nicer,
and more nutritional in the long run.

As for Mayor,
she told me to vote for “Donald.”

Well, honey,
bad news.
None of these candidates is a Donald.

I didn’t say Donald
I said vote for Dora.
(Did I mention her speech therapy,
and lack thereof?)

(Did I mention I’m deaf as a post
and old enough to be her Great Gay Grandfather?)
Honey,
I don’t think writing in “Dora”
would be a good idea
because she’s not one of the choices here.

Well,
just don’t vote for Donald Trump again.

Never mind about the “again,”
as if I ever had,
or would,
But,
what came between you and your love for Donald?

He is against my mental health
and my mental health right
to live in a good community
without fear of automatic
or even not-automatic
gunfire.

You’ve been reading my blog again
haven’t you?

No!
Why would I read anyone
not smart enough to write in Dora for Mayor?

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Death of Dreams

Our children must not die
before their parents
or parental dreams die with them.

And, for those without children,
this is easily empathized
because our dreams must not die
before we do.

Without them
our best selves have already left
whatever misery and boredom remains
for further degenerating absence of purpose.

As our own remaining children
step into young adulthood
wise parents often continue listening
for their dreams.

In this way,
as our own immortal dreams and fantasies fade,
younger dreams become our own extending future.

Here,
in the imperative parental vocation
of restoring therapeutic justice
and peace to dream love’s future,
is where I hear resounding
Millennial Generation Silence

Absence of healthy economic and political dreams
for healing over-heated competing climates
and landscapes.

Restoring inclusive predator and prey recycling justice
and healthy pre-recycling parenting
and dreams of timeless youth
all begin with loving to know Why?

If you have parented a healthy verbal two year old,
you may remember
these challenges of Why
and concomitant insufficiencies of time
to sufficiently reply
Why not?

Why do we dream in language
and icons of mythic sacred relationship?

Why do I dream
of a revolving Fallen Eden
evolving restorative forest-garden relationships,
sacred and secular Paradise Dreams
revisited
revised
rewinding
reweaving Millennial ReGeneration Dreams?

Healthy ecopolitical futures
still Yang with Yin eating from fruit trees
of Sacred Loving Dreams
and Secularized NonDual DarkDeath
we cooperatively own and appositionally manage
root systemically together

ReStorative Yang EdenSpace
with ReDistributive Flowing YinNurture Time–
spiraling bilateral timeless Mythic EcoLogosed Times
of and for PostMillennial Therapeutic Dreams
asking how and when
and cooperating where already
and why not?

A healthy parent
must not lose sacred-secular Dreams
or we all die dreamless forever,
retributing further anger
and fearing frustrating injustice
language and icons of unweaving Earth
fallen eternally to burn
for asking God WhyNot?

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PolyBoxes of Tradition

I faced alarming paradoxes
as I headed toward puberty.

First,
my King James Bible-belting parents,
extended family,
and all-hopelessly-WHITE farm community
taught me

God loves me
and all the children,
red and yellow,
and black almost as much as white.

That felt good
but then I learned God hates me
because I became queerly obsessed
with hot guys,
and not hot girls.
So, God created me
so He could hate me.
That seemed like poor planning to me,
and I was still in fifth grade.

Then I learned that God had given me two extraordinary gifts:
Possibly unmeasurable intelligence,
and so,
my grade-school principal warned
my evangelical farmer parents,
we were not to be surprised
if I was and saw this Earth
in a somewhat different way.

My second gift
was the envy of all good Bible-belted teenagers.
I could sing with the angels.

So,
the God of Infinite Love
is my Creator
and I am His Frankenstein Queer
with a mind and singing voice to soar,
full of Grace.

You and I might both be surprised
how long it took to figure out
Something is very wrong with this picture,
and I don’t think it is just me.
It was merely everyone else I knew and trusted
in that Bible-belted time.

So I sang for them in full voice
but gave as little voice to my sexuality as possible.
I wrote papers and test responses
in full A+ voice
but told no one
I knew they were asking wrong questions
for me to answer with full-versed integrity,

Free to sing with David and Jonathon
free of magic superstitions
standing in for mythic polypathic wisdom
of Solomon

Not to divide innocent organic Promise
God has conjoined as Love
of and for children,
red and yellow,
black and white,
gay and lesbian,
bisexual and transgender

And, yes, even straight-faced
Bible-belting out Hate
and Supremacist Evangelical Christian Colonizing InBred Correctness,
while continuing to give birth
to hidden,
shamed and blamed queer Grace
of a Loving God
polypathically immense,
deep and wide,
future through past
regeneratively just
and peaceful
and wickedly funny

Because if we cannot laugh at our egocentric stupidities,
then we must cry out for cosmic tragedy.

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Octaves for Belonging

I studied liturgical theology in seminary.
Even so, I was struck by the simplicity
of Robin Wall Kimmerer’s First Nation observation,
“Ceremony
is a vehicle
for belonging–
to a family,
to a people,
and to a land.”

But,
what is necessary difference,
if any,
between ceremony and life,
between liturgy and loving words
and actions,
between medicine
and healing therapy?

Language
is a vehicle
for RightBrain sacred personal meaning
and LeftBrain exegetical purpose–
for co-arising ethology of Earth’s sacred creation
and ecology of evolving and revolving,
spiraling lands and oceans
speaking in plant through harvest voices,
then Advent silence in-between
this great secular-sacred nutritional cycle
and divide.

Language of four-dimensional RealTime Seasons
with sacred and secular co-arising dynamic Reasons,
cooperative purpose
for gift economies

Flowing back toward (0)Soul Prime Relational meaning
for bilateral revolutions
of exterior Yang winds
covering interior Yin co-bilateral evolutions
of Earth’s Sacred Baptismal Waters

Water minds
flowing
winding bodies.

Elder Sacred Right
speaks through ceremonies
of cooperative light,
ethology of Western Grace
and Eastern Karma,
co-arising Sacred Ecology
of polypathic love,
surpassing any creed,
language,
ceremony

Both (0)Sum Prime Relational Source
but also divinely sacred expanding love,
more perfectly cooperative Unions,
radical ecopolitical Welfare
of a species
within Earth’s Great BiCameral Tribes

Speaking sacred Right meaning
and secular Left purpose
of restoring co-redemptive global vocations,
ego- with eco-therapies,
meditative medications,
bilateral secular-sacred co-intelligent consciousness.

Some of this
goes a bit deeper and yet wider
than what I love most
about Ecological Liturgy Studies.
So,
consider our (0)Soul BiCameral Source,
breathing Yang meaning and purpose in and up,
exhaling Yin ceremony and therapy out and down

Left 4dimensional SpaceTime Special Case,
Right Sacred PolyPathic OtherWise.

 

Kimmerer quote from “Braiding Sweetgrass” p. 37.

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