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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Left Getting Right Off

“The left hemisphere’s assault on our embodied nature
is not just an assault on OUR bodies,
but on the embodied nature of the
[sacred EarthMother]
world around us.”
Iain McGilchrist, The Master and his Emissary, p. 440

The WhiteMale monotheistic privileged hemisphere’s attack
on regenerative co-passion
was already our unwell
under-enlightened Way
by time’s orgasmic peak ReGeneration.

With rising eroticism,
as might be sacredly anticipated
shifting balance bisexually in-between
right BeautyFull panentheistic Health
and left HandSum enthymematic
Holy Open Systemic Wealth

Growth in neuro-erotic feeling
sensual integrity’s surfing in
and out potential
peak transubstantiated co-passion

Not so much reciting LeftBrain dogma
and re-opening more sensual
sacred holonic,
panentheistic
holy worship
wonder
awe

By contrast with monotheism
equating homophobic White AnthroGod
with conserving ZeroSum competitive justice
against Both/And co-operative panentheists
feeling MotherEartha’s energy
empowering all integral
win/win erotic
exotic
quixotic
handsome informed Yang
beautiful outflowing Yintegrity
wu-wei sacred co-relationships.

Western white homophobic monotheists
decline their own panentheistic ecofeminist spirituality
denying monoculturing force
post-millennially decapitating

White patriarchal capitalism
withering emasculated away
with advancing global
panentheistic sacred synergy,
enthymematic secular awareness
inflaming climate anxiety
is neither healthy
nor safe
nor wealthy
nor compassionate
nor 1/0 sexy.

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Designing for Healthy Beauty

PermaCulture DeSigners
of sacred spaced places
could commune with timeless
PolyCultural Beauty Consultants
I suppose.

HealthCare Consultants
with compassionately enlightened clients
want to co-invest their peak experience wealth
in slow growing indigenously humane health
and conservational safety
survival of the WinWin fit-
in-to-flow-out-
and-not-not-in-again
Open Whole systemic
green ecological
psychological
multiculturally co-mediating
slow-grow regenerating
global co-empowerment

Within each locally/globally win/win equitable plan
cooperatively contracted and managed
relationship between a Designer
and a NonZero Zone dynamic system
of emergent properties
lies an exponentially wealthing
ego/ecosystemic potential
for Wealth and Beauty optimization
worth more self-governing capital-effectiveness
than the sum of their/our constituent parts

Capital-minded,
compassion and healthy beauty endowed,
sharing visions
for cooperatively installed
and polyculturally occupied
synergetic
resilient Whole GreenBlue
Self/Other Governing Systemic

Open dynamic spiraling
interdependent inter-religioning
panentheistic energy networks
for ecopolitically LeftBrain enlightened
and RightBrain co-empowering
indigenous polychromatic wisdom
and health-wealthy Beauty

Goals
objectives
cumulative synergetic 4D spacetime
naturalBody/spiritualMind
double-boundary wu-wei lines,
seasonally regenerative nutritionYang-nurtureYin
spiraling recycles of natural resources
and spiritual communication capital
reinvestments.

Only clients
with nutritional health
and nurturing beautiful wealth
peak inspiring local investment goals
for EarthTribe’s global cooperative
need bother to contact
our polycultural Wealth and Beauty Consultants

Which excludes no one
not at right-now death’s portal,
because even mortally wounded survivors
hope to CoOperative EarthCulture thrive
when we no longer need worry
about mere win/lose climate survive

Regardless of income,
health,
beauty,
we are perennially engaged
in annually
and diurnally regenerating
sufficient humane health
and divine panentheistic safety
to survive local and global environmental trauma,
sacred EarthMother polluting,
and anthrosupremacist predation challenges
at this critical peak transition
PolyCultural Communication moment
in whole open GreenBlue Systemic EarthTribe
resonant
resilience-seeking
enterprise

Co-consulting to optimize
global mindspace beauty
in local-body polyculturing trusted time
for peak root
through gut
through capital head experiences
in permacultural community health
and safety
eco-therapeutic sacred communication
co-mediating compassionate design

As FatherSky enlightens bright blue trusted futures
and MotherSoil empowers
peak investment re-entry
into rich dark-fertile beauty
Truth in Passion pasts.

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Seventh Generation ReOrientation

What have we learned?

What is our big 2020 revision takeaway
from this win/lose
zero-sum failure

To transparently cooperate
for our most inclusive win/win health
and long-term safety,
economic
and political
and social
and physical
and mental health
resilience?

From my own observation,
probably colored
multihued and complexly patterned
by Integral Permaculture Design,

And Community Mediation
for restorative peace resolutions
in perennial win/lose retributive conflict situations,
clashes between conservative LeftBrain dominant
and liberal RightBrain interdependent cultures.

  1. To optimize resilience
    for at least the next seven generations,
    the next 140 years,
    bringing us to the year 2160

Here, on our cooperatively co-invested home planet,
we could choose to return to indigenous wisdom,
to include health and safety of our trees,
our neighbors,
rivers,
our soil
our water supply,
our green renewable energy resources,
our fresh and clean river valleyed breezes,
our plants,
our domestic animals,
our wild animal cousins
our sacred EarthMothers.

We do better when our healthy safe priorities
remain broadly contextualized,
less LeftBrain boundaried,
broadening our ecosystemic spatial identities
and deepening our speciated individuation
back through monotheistic history
of this now troubling
post-millennial
StraightWhiteMale privileged
LeftBrain corporately dominant
Anthropocene

Predicting unprecedented ecocide,
genocide,
rabid polarization,
economic divestment
and overwhelming political mistrust

During which no healthy democracy
could resiliently endure
as long as our infrastructure,
concrete
steel beamed
bricks and mortar,
budgets and financial planning,

Omit choosing cooperative win/win games
and ecofeminist green co-investment strategies
for health and safety
of our now excluded trees,
plants,
planet

EarthTribe
everyday multiculturing
sacredly resonant
creolization liturgies
of LeftBrain co-intelligence
loving RightBrain co-empowerment.

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Love Begets Resilience

Back in our preverbal day
of healthy regenerating time,
indigenous wisdom
pursued peak experiences
of cooperative pleasure,
deep co-empathic embrace.

Sometimes,
especially when this pleasure was sustained,
euphoric,
ejaculatory
and reverberating in cycles
of deep wombed ecstasy,
procreation happened,
preferably in the spring
when new life is more likely to thrive
with bountiful rain
and lusty bullfrog refrains.

Not until later did monotheistic minds
decontextualize procreative purposes
from pro-ecstatic deep dark intimate meanings

Co-gravitations
dipolar co-arisings
coupling erotic organisms
regenerating co-passionate feelings
evolving love’s healthy ecological intent
to regenerate outward together
before degenerating inward apart.

Love is a pleasant feeling,
and a healthy wealth principle
of recreative compassion,
enlivenment.

A principle of ecological integrity
describes,
without dismembered dogmatic prescriptions,
these regenerative healthy ways
truths
trusts
in which living communions
thrive on this sacred planet

Interdependent networks
of cells
organisms
bioregions
ecosystems
EarthTribal species,
multigenerational families

Find our co-identities
while also compelling MeWe
individual/cultural
health/wealthy relationships
win/win egocentric within
AND with ecohabitat Others

Loving integrity reigns
within humanity’s historical context
of compassionate win/win integral
multicultural
polycultural systems surrounding Earth,
spring raining down upon Earth birth,
breezing across and warmly through,
sunlighting our days
and star studding shared nights.

Finding balance between one’s ego,
our individual cooperative win/win narratives,
and those of compassionate Others
represents EarthTribe’s win/lose wounded heart
of passion
love
unconditioned warm
and wet mesmerized regard
for mutual pleasure
pressure
passion
pulling and pushing
precognitive integrity.

In my curious stories
of win/win love,
when my deepest darkly hidden desire
includes my Other partner
enjoying our neuro-sensory
greatest
healthiest
robust
playful happiness,
some resonant relationship
more contextually co-empathic
profoundly unitarian
and multiculturally universal
than a personal procreative intention
happily emerges.

Right to Left bicameral climaxes
are not so much for a creative future purpose
as swimming in multisensory recreative meaning
here
for passion now,
embodied
for compassioning minds,
neurosystemic wholesome space
for EarthTribal regenerating
eternally connected
timeless time

In storming
maelstrom moments,
new expanding love stories
become

Fundamental flowing nature/spirit
body/mind narratives
re-membering how we have become
healthy alive,
enlivened,
undeadened.

This multisensory neuro-system
of regenerating contagious achievement
in cooperative win/win
ego-health/eco-wealth global networks
is where re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-membering
re-weaving
re-lusting
re-creating freedom
of compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communicating egos
hope to become co-invested curiosity

Resiliently harmonizing
biosystemically resonating
within Earth’s whole open
win/lose risk-avoidant
cooperative beauty/pleasure seeking
eco/theo-logical
embodied left
and sacred right
bilaterally resilient mind.

Note: This piece is in appreciative dialogue with Andreas Weber’s Matter & Desire: An Erotic Ecology, especially the first paragraph on p. 9.

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Where Lives HAPPeaceness?

Where lives aliveness,
healthy wholeness,
organically fluid integrity?

Despite trauma
unwanted present irreparable loss
separation
divorce
apartheid
excommunication
impeachment
shunning
incrimination
shaming
bully victimization
suffered also in our past,
personal
and/or vicarious

Now all right feeling
sometimes noticing chronic stress
in a systemic light/dark skinned racist
and homophobic bisexual-erotic
exotic past still felt present
deadening business as loser usual

In competitive CapitalHeaded values
for LeftBrain dominant privilege
monoculturing
monotheistic
monopolistic
purely white bright light
monochromatic
monological
non-ecological
verbal written down HIStory

Not much about woke-up
EarthMother wombed aliveness
with
and for
and of
and from polycultural EarthCreation
fully wholesum
widely pre-cognitive
and deep intuitive integrity,

Potential for win/win nature-spirited compassion,
love for felt trusted Truth,
passion for harmonic uniting Beauty

Inside as outside
inhaled
as neighboring green-leaved
and alively needled trees
exhale empowering,
nurturing,
nutritional enlightenment,

Co-operative Way
co-empathic Truth
and democratically Green
co-passionate wellbeing Life

Read analogically
top left toward bottom right
AND metaphorically
Bottom right felt Life on through
waving Ways
toward wellbeing cooperative.

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Straight White Privileged Silence

Listen to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans
wavering white noiselessness
of silent futile passing

Absence of passion
hope
care
happiness
or creased
and reasoned sadness.

Hear this void of madness,
lack of hunger
or parched thirst
for conversation
splendid nutrition
scandalous emission
empowering immigration
enlightened emigration
or angry fear emanation
of forced solitude migration

Into mortal loss
of sensory reception
political deception
economic perception
theistic inception
septic conception.

Smell nothing.
Taste everything
becomes dust
delustered rust
lust for transcendent
disembodied consummation
omnipresent transportation
omniscient evaporation
full latitude
for fragrance-free
plastic platitudes
feckless attitudes
disdainful blows
to further fertile emanations.

Sing where nothing
settles into rounding octave rings
to never
ever want to dance
in robust spirals
again

Against depressions
felt repressions
thought impressions
known suppressions
unheard deflation
worn through integration
transcultural conflation

Of panentheistic elegant Zeroes
absorbed by a monstrous
monopolistic silent
slick One

Listening to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans,
white emptiness
of silent
restless passing.

Glare at it.
Rake it in.
Sleep with it
if you dare
to care
without an inch
or squeezed moment
to spare.

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Loving Jose

Yes, Jose,
this is another love letter
from anthroprivileged me
to LeftBrain dominant you
for multicultural us.

I’m still here
sinking into my deep blue camp chair
with feet resting on a weathered
wooden platform
for my monastic tent

Now folded
and masterfully squeezed into its storage bag
like a fat green sausage
with a thick
black fly zipper,
secure,
awaiting it’s next orgasmic coming out
to camp and play.

And you,
warm and glistening
listening you,
are still driving
west toward this transition
Saturday’s bittersweet sunset.

Perhaps already lonely
thinking
of what
and feeling whom
lies ahead
while all else feels left behind

Another week of adventure lost;
another week of memories gained

Yet memories have grown cacophonous
while adventures in knowing
new frontiers
grow old as shrinking Earth
grown bodies

Fading hope to feel
taste
see
hear
smell
touch abundantly enough
for this full life
experiencing love
quenched time

Comparing future now to back there then,
wishing we could have us all
warm and pleasant
in our head,
heart,
bed of intimacy
without embarrassing
premature limits,
boundary issues,
health precautions.

You tried to apologize
for not asking more
about my wounded kids

And I did not think to apologize,
but wonder, now, that I didn’t,
for not asking how you are feeling
and dealing
post prostate cancer

Remissions
feel like uncertain transitions,
undemanding admissions
both healthy opportunities
and diseased risks
lie beyond this day’s journey
toward Albany.

Perhaps you,
like me,
fear
and already feel
loss of intimacy
imagined
yet not touched,
thought
but not appreciably,
healthy needed
but not safely found,
sacred bound
for joy’s immense integrity.

When I walked into our group’s enclosed porch
this past Sunday
for my first check-in circle,
your first facilitation,
I thought of my former boss.

You look and sound
like Bishop Tafoya,
when he was your age
and I was half your age.

I had trouble
shaking this sage off.

It helps
that you sing
with warmth and passion
in fulsome baritone,
as the good Bishop
decidedly did not.

Nor could I imagine him
dancing with a white scarved fan
with integrity
flirtatious machismo
joyfulness
deeply resounding playfulness.

Do you have a type?
I wonder
Are you familiar with mine?

Those romantic,
erupting into erotic,
miracles of preference
we cannot control
or calm our appetites
to accept
AND appreciate,
anticipate
those with us
here and there
in and out of Gayla 44,
after and before
now heading west
away from east.

So much to hide,
to learn,
to unveil,
to set aside
for graceful aging,
and to warmly embrace
for compassioned wisdom
felt together,
rather than silently,
less sacredly,
apart.

The Center’s lunch bell rang
and now has gone

Absorbed by quiet shushing
and rustling
high in evergreens
baking in Mama’s summertime
weekend of commerce
and less commercial passions,
traffic rituals,

Pre-empting ancient natural liturgies
of sea,
flowing water
and strong mountains
inspiring bonfires
bond-fire between rising
and falling phoenix
conjoining
co-investing
multi-generational passions;
daddies and sons,
masters and slaves,
tops and bottoms,
poles and holes,
straights and rounds,
dipolar co-arising

Riding forward home
to what continues repurposing why,
reworking hidden meaning
as yet unredeemed
in sensory Business As Usual

Backward east
returning promises
of safe and healthy
bright happy new dawns
transcending broken hearts,
troubled mind’s
loss of time’s
most cherished values

Love’s integral compassions
resting first
returning last

Already
I miss you
ready to miss us.

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Human History Class

Tempting to offer an anthropological history class
and call it Earth History,
beginning with our current
messy
riled up
LeftBrain emergently dominating
our fracturing Anthropocene.

While trust seems true
and wise
when our public educational system
holds up humanism
and capitalism
as, together, supportive
of our underlying survival
of the fittest evolutionary orthodoxy,

Over in the Religious Studies Department,
we enjoy a wider variety,
from monotheistic
through panentheistic,
of dynamic political
and economic EarthHealth History.

Cultural climate history
also feels true
and trusted
from a more inclusive lens,
remembering back
and back
and back

When Earth’s most robust
and resilient capitalism,
competitive organisms,
required an underlying universal
multicultural value
for win/win egalitarian life-norms
supporting robustly transactional
regenerative
positive
healthy
ecosystemic creolizing outcomes.

Where normative expectations
of cooperative rules
for human
and Other life-systems integrity
are absent,

Including healthy democracy
educational systems,

EarthTribes do not experience
a satisfying competitive atmosphere
of resiliently developed
win/lose zero-sum capitalism;

Instead,
throughout recorded
LeftBrain dominant
Anthropocene history,
humans decry lack of sacred integrity
as theft,
greed,
piracy,
toxic corruption,
viral eruption,
bad business deception,
egregious predation
technological militarization

Of these shunning
shaming
blaming things,
EarthWars evolve;

Not Trust
and Truth
and Integrity
through nonzero-soulful
healthy wealth

Of cooperative green economies
dustily uncovered
in Taoist co-governing Balance,
polypathic Zeroism co-binary ballast,

YangUniversal-YinUnitarian
win/win transactional
primally interdependent
relationships

Of SunLight/EarthPower energy systems,
synergetically co-gravitating
left/right bicamerally internal
west/east bilaterally external
north/south ecopolitically dipolar

Co-arising polyculturally healthy
co-empathic learning
ego-1/eco-0
not not win/win living
double-binary
both Left and Right
secular/sacred health
co-pedagogically interdependent

Regeneratively robust
cooperative healthcare
as experienced in safe
perennially enlightened/empowered
bicamerally resilient
educational systems

Offering an anthropological history class
called PolyCultural Earth History,
beginning with our current
messy
riled up LeftBrain
emergently dominating
our fracturing
traumatic
stressful
troubled
anxious
multicultural school closing
Anthropocene.

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Universally Unitarian PRIDE

Buying corporate profit tickets
to this June’s PRIDE event
does not feel therapeutic,
where once lived public trauma.

Another annual rite
of well-bred socialization
political masturbation
with no flavor of resistance
to white-washed Capitalism’s greed,
to straight Patriarchalism’s need
to rapaciously breed
to gluttonously feed
on humble margins
of truly empowered
LeftBrain dominant humanity
not RightBrain depressed
demonically repressed
satanically oppressed
devilishly suppressed
Right supremely unimpressed
by deeply felt insanity
born a profanity
against Earth’s Straight
White
God

False idol
of patriotic
nationalistic pride
parades before
and lingers after
sins against EarthMother’s uncapitalized
anawim

Our planet’s
traumatically wounded child,
x-rated
x-rayed
x-cised
by homophobic toxins,
divinely inspired hate,
monotheistic vengeance-is-mine
militaristic fate.

This, and future, summers of inclusive love,
I would give away invitations to PASSION,
co-passion
compassion
compassionate integrity
of Left erect
correct cognition
greets Right flowing
enlightened growing
synergy glowing
sacred felt reconnecting
concelebrations

Of timeless
dipolar co-arising parades,
out-rageous raving displays
of globally spectral
spectacular
spiraling circular rainbows

Sacred hope promises
from regeneratively ribboned faith
for love
of EarthTribe’s holy
co-emergent DNA diversity
deeply held
in silent summer whispers

Inviting year-round
and full
and sweaty wet PASSION plays
stories
narratives
epic songs,
starred night light
and lunar displays

Flowing Right
Left strength
universally full
uniting Color

Healthy polycultures
wealthy multicultures evoking
not revoking
compassionating
never mindlessly sedating
fully woke
out celebrating
Earth’s PASSIONTribe.

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