Bad May Be Good, Someday

But probably not today
will positive neurological compassion
express without win/lose capitalistic traces
of intent,
expecting only win/win cooperative discussion
and deliberation
and bicameral discernment,
these eco-politcally empowering hopes
and dreams
and non-violent communication investments
will restore EarthTribal Peace

Earth MatriarchalPeace
is also positive
sacred ecofeminist
green power

Doors to Perception
Revolving changing nutritious light
and nondualistic dark bicameral healthy memory

Restoring caretaking and caregiving EarthJustice
is also democratic grassroots inclusive energy,
positive and negative historic multiculturing/monocultural root systems.

Energy is
EmPowered Mass is
spatial place
and transportive time-power is political
whether involving the cooperative politics of a root system
or the more competitive politics of run-away monocultural
colonization by one species
against all polyculturing Other species,
theocratic ecosystems,
Green Goddess YinRivers of Transport,
GrandMother Full/Empty MoonLight
SunLight ReSourced ReFlection.

Compassionate global win/win communication
light=energy=ecopolitical therapy opportunity
could restore health-optimizing EarthJustice,
multiculturally mediating EarthTribe Peace,
including GrandMother Moon,
both Full and Empty,
but not tonight.


Winter’s Writing Choices

Approaching winter…

OK, maybe encroaching mid-winter
of life’s seasonal span
with resonantly compelling grace,
perhaps even transparent vulnerability,
feels controversial,
too laissez-faire

Too much courage
in declaring preliminary success
with too little curiosity
about what happens next
on planet Earth

Continuing to revolve all four seasons
holistic lenses.

I recall the poet’s admonition
to not go quietly
into this winterish
cold night.

Life’s final reflective opportunity
does not invite quiet
so much as impassioned peace
of a windless snowfall
blanketing all I can see
and more faintly hear,
touch and awkwardly feel,
smell and bittersweetly taste
unsafe passage.

I recently moved from autumn habitat,
a creative tension between summer’s midlife climax
and this new winter habit
above Connecticut’s exquisite Salmon River.

This is a compromised writer’s winter hermitage
shared with my son who cannot speak
but can roar,
who cannot walk by himself
but can scoot
and belly laugh at his own internal sensations
and my external sensational sounds.

And, following Daquan
from my fall habitat
to winter’s eremetical search for peace,
however coldly displaced,
with social
and political
and spiritual
and natural distancing,

Behind Daquan
are daily in-home nurses
and his most avid companion,
my romantically distanced husband.

He comes bearing gifts
of clothes,
cleaning supplies,
far too much meaty food
for a proper hermitage
and not enough
for sufficient redemption
and for self-forgiveness.

He comes unaware of my ecofeminist wintering spirit,
longing for Earth’s warm womb justice
restoring peace
resilient through all four seasons
of present
and future Earth lives.

My ecofeminist lineage
feels too white to him,
not a journey for him
and our two brown sons
and my brown and cerebral palsied daughter
and Daquan.

So, this writer’s winter hermitage
remains newly compromised by past fall
and summer
and even spring
of extended multicultural family life.

May it always be so
or no,
I’m not sure which to pray for
or against
as I quietly write
into this warm and peaceful night,
just right,
not too dim or bright.


Goddess Gospel Spirits

how dominant or repressed,
predative or victimized,
winner or loser,
positive or negative,
show up in so many paradigms
of light,

And/Or predetermined
prejudicial shadow
too bipolar–

Not enough dipolar both/and
cause/effective co-arising circles
[not lines
much less militaristic vanquishing squares]
recycling civility,
repurposing cooperative humanity,
integrity narratives
of PermaCultural Designers,
Restorative Justice Black and Green Allies.

More nuanced
wicked Black Witches nightmares
may, by mysterious sacred night,

Also become wise circling
multicultural storytellers,
nonviolently pre-polypathic
polyphonic Earth GreenPeace Warriors,
cooperative singers,
win/win development incorporators,
beautifully choreographed grace dancers.

Hypothetical predictions
of the yet unseen
and unheard
may follow leftbrain paranoid
about powerful plotters,
venomous disempowerers
who are, thereby,
unlike my mortal
repressed story,
depressing ego-identity,
being and yet also becoming
more lost
and loss.

Or, my ego could follow wisdom circles
of rightbrain affective multicultural communication
through resonant win/win discernment cycles
and more disturbing periods
racist climates
sensory monosexual supremacists,
more and less evangelistically anthro-supremacist
against universal cooperative network building
predicting the opposite of lose/lose fighting monocultures,
neglectful lack of relationship

Feels unlike both/and
not(not) ZeroZone Win/Win
wikipathic yintegrity.

Such imaginative compassion
equals oppositional dualistic
passes in reverse of dreamlike night,
yin Over yang
Principle of Temporal Power Reversion

Power of Not ZeroSum
open systemic bilateral thinking
Over leftbrain dominant ZeroSum
closed system chaotic repressing
Ego v TheoLogical
Nature/Spirit tipping point confusion,
dissonance for most

But, also,
turning yang-dominant risk
toward not-polynomial yet hidden empty
timeless time’s eternity
of fertile circling
yintegral opportunity.

What would you feel,
happy or sad,
or hopefully something more widely amusing
and deeply profound
than One
without the Zero Other
causes wisest ecofeminist tears
falling democratically,
inclusively, both up and down,
smile and frown
with bold prevision
and with custody of 20/20 revising herstory
of anti-patriarchalism
more grace-filled anthrohumility,
Green New through Old Golden Rules
between humane sacred Mind
and cooperatively reassociated EarthNature,

In between
sacred ego individualistic personal theology
and secular green global communication ecology.

Mother Earth Goddess,
what could you hope to feel
if I were to say of you,

“This bicameral Creator
could not non-violently feel
and experience sacred gratitude
for my irresponsible ecofeminist spirit.”

Must you hear that observation
and post mortem hypothesis,
my Fifth Quarter PermaCultural analysis,
as a pre-mortem judgment,
disdain for what might become
good faith news

We are each and all
doing our cooperative best
with one Restorative EarthJustice
Bodhisattva-Messianic Vocation,
to heal our own organic
sacred Gaian Habitat
or suffer revenge
of EcoFeminists laughing loudest
and eternally last.

If it helps,
and we mutually hope
Truth and Beauty co-habitate wisdom
to help all ReGenerators,
sacred as Great-Horned Owlish Prophets
and Prophetesses
watching our future rich eggs grow.

If Trust helps,
perhaps you may appreciate
a judgment I neither said
nor intended,
neither explicated nor implied,
did not intend as a colonizing weapon
nor a creolizing tool,

a healthy bicameral anthropoid
SHOULD non-violently feel
and experience sacred green gratitude
for my irrepressible ecofeminist attitude.”

Judging past behaviors
and absence of behaviors,
and communications,
verbal and nonverbal,
is not helpful to you or me
as compared to ego/eco-healing future behavior
and communication
toward inviting cooperative dialogue
more than competitive debate
in bicameral eco-political capitals,
heads of stated being

Rebecoming temples
sacred inside voices
speaking outside Beauty’s Truths.


Positive Neurological Psychology

The problem with positive psychology,
said the good doctor,
it is too social science squishy,
not leftbrain prickly enough
for natural science pathologists
and invasive neurologists.

I must concede
not prickly enough
said the polyvagal systems neurologist,
but sometimes premature complexity
looks like yet another chaos theory,
and sometimes spiritual prepowerment
feels like merely natural enlightenment
yet deja vu,
and sometimes too bilaterally sticky
predicts co-arising redundant dipolarity,

Neurological bilateral structures
of left meets right hemispheres
as West greets East
multicultural mediation
as ego hugs ecosystemic health-rooted trees
of reverse hierarchical
above Truth lies downside Beauty.

I’m sure,
temporized the Earth Therapist,
while human nature
military-industrializes ancient cooperative relationships
the remainder of EarthTribes
continue to evolve and emerge,
breathe out and in
bilateral gooey prickles
social and natural
metaphysical and physical
ecosystemically informed egocenters,
communitarian capitals,
well-timed spatial places

Not knotted polyvagal positive theories
of EarthMother’s original neurological root systems,
bicamerally restructuring
to emerge new leftbrain capital-invested upstarts
of deductive
either/or dominant thinking

When too engorged,
unilaterally engaged,
prejudicially divested,
profoundly detached
yang v yin pathology
for sufficiently prickly/gooey
mountainous river valleys of in-between
ego/ecometric bardos balance

inside outside EarthTribe
cooperative bilateral empathy
ecologically theological,
naturally social sacred,
historically multicultural,
anciently new green organic age,
biological neuro-system flowing

Fractal DNA
primal four dimensional spacetime
not ZeroSum

prickly full of Either/Or bilaterals
and gooey Both/And bicameral
not not empty
enthymematic reiterations
of prickly force Yang
and gooey flow Yin,
win/lose exploration
and win/win absorption,
exhaling capitals
and inhaling communions,
natural empowering light
and social enlightening beauty
of positive eco-political psychology.


A Feel for White Privilege

Sometimes I need to hear
what straight white male dominant privilege
what racism
what degenerative ungreen anthro-supremacism
what xenophobia and yin-repression
what homophobia sounds like
and smells sour and acrid and decaying

Before I can fully appreciate,
invest in,
and investigate what regenerative EarthJustice
and multicultural communion
eco-womanist green resilient health care trends,
climate optimizing wealth
inclusively democratic cooperative reweaving
looks like

And feels more like
a robust organic garden

Than extracted
irreparably severed
capital-hoarding oil and gas fields

Or kleptocratic
military-industrial business parties

Where not wearing masks
has become a denialist symbol
of health disdain
as compared to financial profit worship,

Climate and culture of wealth-fundamentalists
and anti-SacredEarth evangelicals
and unpatriotic disowners
disloyal to Earth’s healthy democratic constitution.

Sometimes I need
a degenerative religiously fascist reminder
Where there is no healthy EarthCentric culture,
There could be
No resiliently regenerative
multiculturally democratic
healthy climate.


True and False Beliefs

believe in universal exemption
from Earth’s cooperatively resilient wealth
of resonantly-held holistic health.

at our best,
believe in universal redemption
with EarthMother and LoveFathers’
cooperatively gracious compassion.

at our most transcendent heights
and intimate depths,
believe in experiencing universal causation,
resonant correlations
of atoms and waves,
of staid matter and flamboyant energy
of space revolving place
and spiraling evolutions
causing effective sacred time:

Invested with transcendent
through intimate Earth,
natural vision
through spiritual listening,
polypathic thoughts
and caused by
polyphonic feelings.


Hell of a Heaven

Both paradise and hell
have their detractors.

I find some exaggerated truth
in this belief–
one person’s paradise
is another’s hell.

An eternity
of worshiping an unchanging
mono-egotistical god
is not my idea of healthy re-creation.

I have never heard this
in reverse–
One person’s hell
may be required
for another’s paradise.

Heavenly Capital Adoration
begins to sound like sexist
and xenophobic
and anthropocentric rationalizations
of rampant capitalism

Sublimation as extension,
perhaps a corollary,
justifying capitalism and slavery,
violent settlers’ colonialism,
systemic racism
and straight white male
and left brain deductive domination
over who is empowered
to define
and refine
and confine
and double-bind
winners’ Paradise
v losers’ Hell.

If paradise is a healthy
wealthy place to freely live,
And hell is a pathological
patriarchal chested
rapaciously unbreasted
place to not be
ecofeminist sufficiently,

Then losing bad humored,
terrifyingly rumored,
anti-organically tumored
hell is a dualistically shocking way
toward winning good humored
terrifically enamored,
organically amored paradise
of integral win/wins;

Economic and political
Neurological and biological
Ecological and geological
Egological and theological

Secular and sacred
Natural and spiritual

Space and time
ZeroZoned and TaoBalanced.

That said,
I doubt
we are without
universal Paradise
as absence of Hellish attributes

Such as autocracy
and kleptocracy,
fascism and racism
are multiculturally known
and felt as hellish.

Healthy democracy
may not be
a monotheist’s Paradise,

democracy’s win/win potential
for cooperative ownership and management
speaks louder than capitalism’s win/lose reductions
of ego’s participative paradise
in omniscient theocracy.


From Our Front Porch

attached decks,
intimate places for alfresco,

These make a difference
between a fortressed house
and a transparent home,
between an ego castle
and an eco-habitat.

We also spread rhododendron bushes
and hostas,
flowers and ferns
around our stone
and concrete bound foundations.

We want stable defenses
but prefer to camouflage houses
in organic color,
life giving and taking shapes.

These boundary vistas
speak of heart felt reminders
our habitat is rooted
in Earth’s wilderness

In vulnerability
hidden from transparency
except with those who share our sacred space
and upon,
within our co-passioned present time,

Presence bonding,
re-membering past wildness
anticipating future re-generative
re-bounding win/lose less
for more win/win paradise

Just barely 2020 visible
and silently audible
and fresco fragranced
and tasted,
and so nearly touched
longing into belonging
on our cooperatively-owned front porch.


It Feels Unfair

It feels unfair,
the doctor said,
to blame all pathological -isms
on LeftBrain dominating
NorthWestern enculturation;

Too geopolitically ecological,
too globally sweeping,
where my reason looks
for biological neurology,
more inside linguistic powers
more intimate.

But, both neurology and ecology,
both natural biology and spiritual theology,
these four each and all agree,
whether secular or sacred paradigm
for discernment,

Monocultural ecosystems
divest of originally healthier
polyculturally robust wealth,
multicultural resonance,
harmonic compassion.

So it is with LeftBrain dominant egos,
monotheistic dominated ego,
securely enslaved servants
divest of originally healthier
robustly cooperative,
and compassionately felt,
true polypathic wealth,

liberal cultural-istic phobias
conjoin with
conservative historical-isms
to regenerate more democratically robust
global ruminations,
political power and light dialogue,
cooperative investment.

well,… the doctor responded,
and colonialism,
and capitalism,
and sexism,
and anthropocentrism,
and egotism,
and ageism,
and even omnipotent monopolistic monotheism
feel unfair as well.


Generating Healthy Labels

Good and active healthy thoughts
produce and reflect
left-brain regenerative labels,

Bad and entropic death of feelings
effect left brain degenerating labels,

ambiguously left brain
and ambidextrously right brain
not not generate,
still actively ruminating.

Positive enlightened life,
Negative disempowered death,
Not not in-between these Yangs and Yins
all binomial egocenters
and ecosystems
positively regenerate restorative thoughts
and negatively degenerating retributive feelings

sacred in-between Paradise
and Hell,
and Earth,
compassionate communication
and demonic debating demagogue experience,
healthy ecological thoughts
and punishing felt theological enculturation

Healthy democratic communion
and pathologically autocratic disunion,
sacred resonance
and secularizing dissonance.