I am violent
speaking of peace.
I help those who love me
weep
as joy grows too remotely possible.
I am always angry without cause
for love.
I lie
when truth feels too accessible,
intimate.
I kill innocent life
to decompose curiously decadent death.
I evil in despair
as I might live in more patient faith.
Most times
in my family
it’s easiest to avoid stumbling
over any of an ever-growing list of things
it’s not OK to say,
by saying nothing at all
when I cannot think of anything appropriate
on the ever-shortening list of things still OK to talk about.
This mutual solitary confinement does little good.
Somehow we can still hear each other thinking.
Although I would rest easier
if I had learned to think nothing at all,
this feels deeper than mere rest,
further than I am prepared to nest
without this family,
yet
where love is hard and sparse
between continents of despair and angry fear
of silence spreading from words
to thoughts
to feelings fading
to self absent
of other silent echoes.
Joanna Macy with Molly Brown
two Earth-generation vocations
reconnecting eastern philosophy
with western open systemic-holonic health ,
dynamic natural synergy
with four-season natural spirals acting through spiritual love
of light,
angry fear of dual dark,
merging Earth crisis enculturation
delivering Anthro-opportunity to embrace Time’s bilateral language,
Earth-consciousness of dipolar light/dark
balancing organic time of life Herself,
Buddha mindbodies for co-messianic bodymind landscapes,
interior concave bicamera-rolling exterior convex,
harmonically decomposing our dissonance
to regenerate our potential integrity,
balancing positive bicameral psychology
to activate cognitive-affective research climates
of embryonic suffering, notnot resonance
defining natural dissonance
nurturing spirited diastolic-trending nature
as spirited spiral regenerate Earth life-systems
with Elder commensurability of spirit-nature,
past emerging future’s healthy love of all abundant life
as notnot purgation’s suffering death.
Show us
hear us
smell us
taste us
touch us
absorb us
your intimately co-passionate way
to incorporate our poli-economic cooperative potentiality,
our co-arising ecologicality
uniting polycultural polypathic paradigms
of Time’s light for love-Present
dualdark absorbing absent angry-fear of passage.
Natural ecosystems include biosystems,
like people,
ourselves,
those we love,
Earth,
enemies we love to hate,
plants and animals,
internal ecosystems living within biosystemic teleologies of time,
speaking in logos-dynamic language
of love hunting health
of light filling diastolic therapies,
of life as regene-relational holonic process
swimming in a vast surfing sea of medicinal becoming.
My light hunts yours
like warm to flame
is cold to dark
away from you,
our light corrupts
hunting with haunted empathic hearts
for winwin Catchers for Self-Pitchers
in light’s rye harvest.
My catch embraces your dark light
like warm to pitchy branches
win to win love’s relief,
then fall apart,
leaves composting soul
living room for Time’s future lights.
Your light finds ours
like cooperative warm transactions
to political relational light
nesting color-dense regenerate health trends,
organizing ecosystems of dynamic light
as Time’s self-perpetuating love
for coincidental adventures in wonderland.
My light hunts yours
like haunting, yet happy, flames of warm memory.
I have typically had the experience
of riding comfortably
on a polycultural,
including multi-generational,
populated bus.
But,
I also have memories
of stepping onto a subway
and not feeling I am welcome
by my fellow-alien riders.
And sometimes this goes OK,
and somewhere the line keeps going out dark
and darker
as I get whiter and
more mutually parasitic,
like haunted and hunting bugs
exploring each other’s piece of the pond,
sniffing fear and anger
about needs and eco-tribal identities,
or total defense against co-empathy.
I have walked into a Louisiana bus stop
with a brown-skinned friend
to soon notice
each of us would have been safer
checking in without knowing each other
than we were checking out as polycultural friends.
I’ve been on a NYC train
with my brown-skinned sons
and felt like they were more welcome
than I,
and other Connecticut way more welcome than they would have been
without me,
profiled by angry women of color
aggressive with those cellphones
aimed toward the police,
about my suspicious white man ways,
what business could I possibly have
with my own sons?
Actually,
now that I think about it,
we often shared this question.
How could we possibly have anything to do with
or without each other?
Whatever it is and has been,
it is ours to do and not do,
others to watch kindly,
if possible,
or not watch
with the courtesy we are learning together,
to continue exploring some other polycultural way.
Exactly where and when does Ego begin,
my creation story introduction,
preface;
and is there anything in there about a sequel?
Identity of EarthTime revolving HeavenlyStimulants,
autonomic memory unfolding Ego’s storage capacity,
regeneratively biased in favor of time’s continuance,
dipolar dynamics of balance and diastatic-diastolic harmony,
evolving Ego-function rooted in Elder PrimeTime’s
seasons of light and dark landscapes.
Birth through young adulthood
diastolic trending eco-biosystems,
and then from mature adulthood on through disbirth
decompositional interior processing trends
reviewing regenerative exterior experiential forms with ecofunctions
sinking deeply into ecoconscious CoPresent Great Transition
diastatic (0)-soul TaoTime of Yang/Yin co-arising elation,
surfing love of regenerating time ourselves,
reincarnations of all prior generations of history,
children of Earth’s RNA Tribes,
eco-polyconscious TransPresent bicameral memory
refold storage
RE: investment and divestment
for future regenerating health v. pathology
TO: Ego-Identity bicameral flowstream incubators
It’s sad to look in mirrors
and see a needy one
a greedy one for two,
to want love more
than anyone
you would ever dare to know.
It’s hard to play love’s prodigy
without first sowing what we reap
regenerating deep time lust
through eye to eye health care,
when taking care of this one you love
brings co-therapeutic love,
then loving love seen through lover’s eyes,
grows love of love ourself.
It’s sometimes OK to see oneself
as greedy for prodigious self-esteem,
to know love for more than one ego
you would ever care to grow.
In which ways were you and I born equal?
Equal rights to live,
to breathe,
to sustain our bodies,
our healthier relationships
with sufficient nutrients
of taste and sound and sight
smell and feeling and insight,
to express our truth with integrity,
with cooperative purpose and full-disclosure intent.
Yet, in all these senses of equal rights of persons
it feels insufficient to notice justice within human rights.
All nature has regenerative intelligence
of autonomic fertile/sterile memory
and interdependent purpose
speaking between the polarizing noses
and mouths
with regenerative nutritional functions
in reverse of sphincters with degenerative waste disposal functions,
one mindbody side dominant for consuming Yang nutrients,
the other side notnot recessive
double-bound knots of dialectically reiterative time
for producing YinYin of ego-dissonant/eco-dipolar full-dialectic revolution,
chaos,
cooperatively sharing global poly-regenerate rights of ecobalancing
Tao-justice.
All Earth Tribes cooperatively,
ecotherapeutically,
share a rightness for breathing clean air,
to sustain our incarnate being
with sufficient nutrients of sensory absorption,
the mutuality of co-gravitation,
the kosmic-integral,
universe-unitarian/Fullerian balance of thermodynamics
and global electromagnetics
and revolving synergetics,
positive balancing double-negative
eco-biometric function and flow capacities,
to optimally improve our shared quality of well-being.
Health rights for all endosymbiotic evolutions of all Earth’s Tribes,
as one united cooperatively networked integral confederacy
of PolyNomial Species as EcoEvolvingSystems,
all organs and cellular and quantum functions of (0)-ecocentric function
of all naturally yang-deductive:yin-inductively organized
bionic mutually informating systems.
All EarthTribe, together, enjoys equal rights,
responsibilities and authorities for optimal health,
sustainable ecotherapeutic quality
and value for DNA-and-ElderRNA solidarity
born of mutually subsidiary temporally dense-positive gratitude,
indigenous to natural ecojustice permaculturally developing
love/synergy co-operative investment relationships.
Earth Rights are not limited
by kindness OR unkindness
by justice OR humanity;
but by natural YinEco-rights
AND YangEgo-lefts
resolve our balancing co-regeneration of dipolar
diastatic
revolution-time toward Open System
notnot negentropic LoseLose,
therefore,
WinWin Positive-ReGenerative Evolution
Tipping Toward
Less LoseLose Negative-DeGenerative Divestment
in YinYin’s Love with Peace
reverse bipolar disposition,
angry-angst
facing off in
fear of fear in mirror irrationally unresolving life-health/death-pathology trends,
worthy of further winter decomposition,
embryonic seeds of Tao polyculturing climax of self-goverrnance
principles of guild synergy,
nutrient-community feeding on poly-encultured communication looping strings of regenerative normative DNA/RNA fractal-fold dipolar-bilateral prime-lines
for optimizing health-planning
and developing redevelopments
of every co-arising nomial
in a unitarian surfing Tao sea
of Ebb loves Flo.
Whoever they are,
they seem to be happy together,
so who am I to judge
about their gimpy names,
or nippy games,
in once upon whatever matters.
In my game of life
I play sometimes against,
and sometimes with,
Time as Other player.
Playing against
seems to have bad odds of feeling like a winner,
while playing with time
feels like we both win,
at least some Time,
especially if we simultaneously stretch
our love for gaming.
In my Evolution Game,
playing with and against Time as Other,
my rules emerge natural laws of healthy,
and pathology,
trends and order and political balance/imbalance,
witnessed by elder spirit voices,
iconic memories of past Games
with diastatic/static
diastolic/purgative
evolving rules of vocational recreation with co-passion play.
Nutrient rules flowing through my veins
and out through rivers of arteries of positive/negative trees
deep fertile cuts and folds,
articulating primal neural streams with suboptimizing substreams,
swelling mainframe-economy with eco-reiterating-nested synaptic revolutions
and co-ebbing aptic mutual win-sufficiency contentment,
more sustainable midway rest from playing against Other.
Now, in Time’s anthro-game of evolving life
s/he plays sometimes against anger and fear memories,
and sometimes with love and peace future investment
with winwin outcome intent,
co-arising regeneratively healthy Anthro-Egos as Other players,
also running coincidental WinWin, WinLose, and LoseLose
strategic naturally emergent health functions and dis-easing pathology
with transitionally revolutionary co-incarnate bilateral form
as postmillennial anthrocentric PlayNice frequencies of EarthTime.
In our love of eco-winning games
we play sometimes against cooperatively stretching regenesis,
and sometimes with Other natural loving life
strategic nutrient-nurture optimization players,
whenever and wherever we can hunt and haunt them up,
make them up as iconic gods and goddesses,
as necessary to harvest win-winnowing together.
In this funny little evolution game,
it is wrong because impossible
to harvest winnings we have not regeneratively seeded,
as individual ego players
and as a potentially Earth-centric tribe of team players.
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