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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Another Love Letter

So, this is a love letter
from me
to you
for us.

Quiet Cream
and well moisturized Tan
were my first warm
and appreciative glimpse of you

Engaged listener.
Looks gay men in wounded eyes
while listening,
then speaking,
searching for
and finding acceptance,
at least for here
and now.

While both our neuro-systems ask,
with each breath inhaled,
Am I safe?
Each breath exhaled,
Is this healthy?

Or maybe,
ummm…
“I’ll have to think about that.”

Not so much
as a glance my witnessing way,
Wondering,
Is he why I am here?
I hope

Would I be appropriate
to here become
for just one Other?

You were not distracted
easily
from eyes
and voices
surrounding your place
in this 44th chapter
in not patriarchal,
but truly not green ecofeminist either,
Gayla BTQ versatile,
exclusive top,
promiscuously inclusive bottom,
anonymous,
romantic-erotic,
occasionally sacredly orgasmic,
political sex health history.

I wondered
then
as now
where we could fit

In gaps of loneliness
of not being fully known,
exposed,
spiritually and naturally naked
transparent
vulnerable,
fully co-invested,
transculturally cooperative,
co-empathic
co-passionate,
quietly completing each other’s unsaid senses,
thoughts,
integrity,
warmth,
refulgent quenching wetness.

Then, that first smile
just for me.

I am lost to your white teeth,
left-sided dimple,
eyelashes heavy lidding brown-eyed welcome
despite it all

Trust in integrity’s healing potential
after considering all losses,
stressors,
past troubling relationships
in gay white male privilege.

There we were
and here we are
ongoing

Me
writing this love letter,

You
curiously waiting to hear
and see
and feel,
to touch
and be touched by,
something possibly on your way,
a lovely surprise

Because
No one writes love letters
evermore

Painlessly including
those in quiet ecstasy
for quiet Cream
and well-moisturized Tan.

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Critical Sex Theory

Critical race theory
could also dynamically camouflage
critical sex theory,
critical gender theory,
critical binary theory

Which might look like
Analytical Feminist Theory
on Earth’s creolizing Eastern Hemisphere

And speak of more competitive
DisPassionate Predation Expertise
toward the colonizing
riled-up Western Hemisphere

Dipolar co-arising
a great transitional dialogue
within each individual
Left and Right mindbody
engaging theoretical experience
of competing cooperative
integrally spiraling
potential wealth
of EarthTribe health.

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Surprising Elders

I wonder if there are Elders
wise
or more perennially surprised
who, looking back at their youth,
regret all their erotic time
invested in having peak
experiential sex,

And wish they had, instead,
done something, most anything,
more left brain dominant,
more theoretically
politically correct,
more economically prominent.

I so hope not.

Better off, I feel sure,
invested in abundant splatters of messy,
sometimes musical, health

Than overly divested
away from EarthTribe’s gloriously peaking race
carried away by abstemious matters
of more disciplined pace
for securing capital infested wealth.

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School Bored Theories

Twenty-two
and our School Boards
are hoppin

Madly divided
’bout race
and white saving face
in-between fashion shoppin.

Dear Red and Blue
School Board Candidates,

Regarding Critical Race Theory
that ignores our own lack
of multiculturing experience,

Perhaps a primally significant reason
we have issues
discussing racial divisions
throughout historical seasons
of revision

Textbooking Straight White Patriarchal treasons
against EarthTribe’s polycultural humanity,

Sacred celebrating multicultural divinity
once felt as synergetic
universal Beauty,

Continues to divide
and conquer
our best LeftBrain schooled dominions
is because rich violent red
patriotic bloodshed
is difficult to own
within our own fascist
unmatriarchal histories

Of capitalized ownership
and encultured Earth corrupting
supremely anthro-worshiping
lack of healthy eco/theological
green stewardship
through co-empathically felt
relationship.

Red candidates predict
Critical Race Theory
becomes a cynical prescription
for an inevitable future
of win/lose
zero-sum unfolding

Continuing Business As Usual
White versus Black
reverses White,

While Blue candidates refocus
on Critical Race personal experiences
of historical individuals
investing in divested
separated
divided communities,
privileged versus unprivileged
polarized nations,
degenerate climates
of active distrust
in our apartheid studied past,

Not to prescribe an inevitable future
of rightwing supported hate,
but to describe our win/lose racist past

To inform a therapeutic win/win potential future
humanely balanced,
multiculturally healthy
for our democratic
planetary future.

Twenty-two
and our School Boards
are hoppin

Mad
divided ’bout race
and white saving face
in-between fashion shoppin.

Well, your Mama Eartha’s rich
and your Papa’s Sun
shines bright enlightenin,

So, hush co-despisin,
don’t you,
won’t you try?

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Chill Dillen

Are you ready to greet
this new day, Dillen?

To get up off your
couch-chilled feet,
to bring new warm meanings
to life lived without deadly restraint
embraced with sparse complaint
to repurpose all our favored ways
and means for chillin

Are you ready
to give up all ego-fattening strategies
to hardly survive
the WhiteMan’s rage
raving consumer competitions

Are you ready
to gratefully engage
all EarthTribes
cooperatively willin

To take
and make
and rake
and shake
and bake
this day’s new choice cake

not fake
for thrillin

All who meet you feelin
you, our fully engaged
young Black American son,
the only one
Earth brings forth
for this still perfect multicolored day,
chill Dillen.

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Disempowering Systems

Systemic racism
is a social/cultural pattern
of racial prejudice
originating within individuals
and their anecdotal experiences
and lack of multiculturally enriching discernment

Shedding light,
and shredding dark,
power analysis,
political and economic,
on patterns of white privileged events
unveils systemic patterns of win/lose empowered privilege
and disempowering lose/lose prejudices,
race and male and heterosexual privileged
anthropocentric unredeeming
lack of communication
events.

Take, for example,
a power analysis of John 3:16:

For God so loved the world [Earth and EarthCreatures]
That He gave His only begotten Son [patriarchal frame]
So that whosoever believes in Him
Shall not perish
But have eternal life.

Literalist
Fundamentalist
Conservative
Evangelical Christians
(should this prove not to be a complex oxymoron)
have supplanted believing in God’s radically interdependent EarthLove
(first phrase)
with doctrinal belief in Jesus of Nazareth
as God’s only begotten, privileged
humane/divine hybrid Son of
StraightWesternWhiteMale
LeftBrain Dominant
Military-Industrialized
Retributive Win/Lose Judging God.

This substitution of belief
in the privileged sacred status
of a Jewish male Teacher
and Prophet,
sharing his potentially viral experience
of Jewish AbbaCreator
as win/win power of universal multiculturing
regenerative Love,
is a culturally profound
early straight white western
(not particularly eastern nature/spirit nondualistic)
privileged-prejudicial moment
of defining God’s economic
and politically empowering grace
in troubling oppositional terms:

First phrase, Regenerative Source is universal Love,
and, third phrase,
Regenerative Source is historically-culturally,
systemically racist.

If, to be orthodox and effectively Christian
is to be spiritually privileged,
then those not born into evangelical Christian homes,
King James Bible reading communities,
Western dominating cultures
are disproportionately
and systematically
and historically under privileged,
disempowered
unredeemed
with less win/win graced
direct experience of Love
Light
Word internal/external
ego-refining/ecopolitical-defining win/win
potential spiritual/natural life optimizers.

Jesus of Nazareth’s prime experiential teaching,
story telling
prophetic “God is multiculturing universal win/win Love”
not revengeful monoculturing
win/lose systemic
racist Judge

Is not resonantly heard,
not resiliently felt,
neither tasted nor seen
through eyes and ears,
hands and heart,
mouth and nose
of straight white male privilege

Too leftbrain dominant
to divinely know
and nondualistically respect
appreciate
primacy of empowering cooperative green/blue Love experience
over disempowering competitive redblooded Lust
for theologically dogmatic unecological lack of relationship,
anthropocentric
xenophobic
narcissistic
individualistic ego-salvific power

To claim sacred wealth of life
for yourself and only your Tribe
by denying truths of sacred/secular empowerment
through win/win cooperative everyday experience
of communion
throughout all EarthTribes

Divine/humane
right/left
yin/yang
green/red
nonviolent communicating Light
of ChristMass Love
Words
Stories of CoRedemption

Democratic,
not autocratic,
experiences both ecologically natural
and theologically spiritual;

Devoid
Cleansed
Wiped Clean of racist,
straight male dominant,
leftbrain misculturing
unhealthy
unwealthy supremacy.

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Back the Black and Blue

What do you do
when you’re a black cop
at a Back The Blue protest
with a Black Lives Matter
counter-protest
in front of you,
to left and right,
and possibly pursuing your rear
and career?

Which direction
does your identity choose,
if not to feel troubled
by a false choice
either way?

Is there some platform,
strange principle,
peculiar position
among Mattering Political Black Lives
that you cannot have
a healthy vocation
while carrying a ballistic weapon
and continue being a Black Life
in good and valued standing?

Or, to Back my Blue,
must I succumb
to StraightWhitePatriarchal Privilege?

Are there any color boxes
still widely open
and deeply inviting?

Can I not aspire to become
a non-binary bound,
non-white,
ecofeminist for EarthRights
to health and safety
and peace
and restoring green justice?

Recognizing
and appreciating
only Earth as Master,
Mistress,
Goddess,
Sacred Eden.

Discarding old school memories
of enslaved custody of imprisoned eyes
and ears for hearing,
suppressing custody of healthy taste
and fragrantly smelled beauty,
of cooperative touch
and globally compassionate feeling,

Regarding green lives matter schools
and reschooled deep learning
full 20/20 ownership
of Black and Blue
and Green proud lives
for multicultural mediation.

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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Planning for Grace

Last night I arrived very late
for a GRACE planning team meeting.
GRACE’s mission advocates against
all things racist,
whether systemic
or the normal chaos of hate
and sin
against everyday non-violent win-win
choices
policies
procedures
positions
platforms political and economic
sacred and secular
sociological and neurological.

I stepped into discussion of a thesis
that all policies are either racist
or anti-racist.

We were trying out various policies
to see if we could discover which they were.
This reminds me of a popular radio show
outing “HIDDEN RACISM!”

This discernment process
also reminds me of a hiring incident
in our Southern Region
In which a job description
with preference for academic credentials
over indigenous democratic leadership experience
led to hurt feelings of being disrespected
and concerns about systemic white male privilege
within our Unitarian Universalist Association
for egalitarian
and interdependent compassion.

Are budgeting procedures
that begin with authority of last year’s status quo
and are then incrementally nuanced
through recommendations of currently empowered authority figures,
like Treasurers
and CFOs
and Board of Invested,
often age Infested,
Directors,
racist or anti-racist?

Is prejudice just about policies
that must be bilaterally explicated
as healthy or unhealthy for inclusive empowerment,
or is white male privilege also hidden in our procedures,
our therapeutic proposals,
our strategic plans
to do more of the ZeroSum same,
whatever that may competitively be?

What about all our communications,
verbal and non-verbal,
personal and public?

What about all our investments
of time
and money
and positive or negative
or ambivalently uncommitted attitude?

And are all these things
just racist or anti-racist?
Or might they also be
egopatriarchal or ecofeminist,
ageist or multigenerationally inclusive,
nonbinary-phobic or pansexual,
aristocratic or democratic,
communal or capitalistic,
cooperative or competitive,
polycultural or monocultural,
WinWin or LoseLose,
NonZeroSum or ZeroSum,
RightBrain prominent or LeftBrain dominant,
non-violent or violent?

I can hardly wait to read more
about this thesis or antithesis
to find out what I may have missed
all my racist or anti-racist years.

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