Turquoise Pond

Earth’s turquoise pond faces,
green life
blue reflecting

Re-membering under each calm surface
re-ligioning disparate
dispolarizing themes
of Spiral EcoPolitical Dynamics,

Surrounding forest factors,
time flowing forward
and re-connecting backward,
spirited and well-natured space,
health-reconditioning place,
win/win ego/ecosystemic democratic
developing pace

Awakens EarthHumane empowering systems
within curious individuals
living amid courageous global multicultures

Designed to win/win strategize with,
and co-acclimate to,
co-articulating BlueHealth/GreenWealth
calm-faced repositions.

Some individuals may be born
deviantly blue/green
in and out
through timeless spiraling time

apparently placid,
yet full
ripe mindbodies

Win/win reset for a 20/20 turquoise millennium
just beyond green/yellow current depolarizing horizons
of most non-red Others
human and not not quite extinct
instincts of non-violent thoughts
with eco-feeling climates.

In this best of health/wealth EarthTime,
positive psychopolitical feminists
are revered as non-violent bodhisattvas
and matriarchal messiahs,
20/20 peace-revolutionary visionaries.

In other bubbling
autocratic red-dominant times,
Turquoise ecofeminists are imprisoned,
pimped out,

for a healthier
calming wealthier
pond-faced place
in Turquoise Timeless Time.


Religious Ties That Bind

could be more spiritually grounded
in healthy ecological relationships
were theologians and governors
to remind each multiculturing Other,

This re-connecting work
of religious economic and political enculturation
is less about unchangeable past history of TruthSpace
and more about continuous,
resonantly reculturing
EarthBeauty Time

Less about petrified fear
unhealthy distrusting demonic place
and more about fluid compassion,
timeless double-binds of graced eternity.

Double-binds are sometimes recognized
in moral theology–
damned if you do
and damned if you don’t;

Seldom blessed if you do
and grace if you don’t.

Two negatives equal a positive
but two polarized positives
equal a mess of confusion.

R.D. Laing connected verbal communication
between individual victims
and socially empowered authorities
like parents
and teachers

And perhaps evangelical theologians
demanding we love God
more than Ego,
Yet if we understand Ego
as merely autonomous from God’s omnipotent grace,
then we have not yet
personally enough
accepted God’s love
into our self-made hearts.

Double-binds are double-negatives
as double-binary x’s and y’s,
1’s and 0’s,
binomial prime relationships
like Yang and Yin
and dipolar bonds of appositional association

eco-refining Earth’s regenesis
with fractal DNA and RNA
double-bilateral structures

Like 4-dimensional spacetime
of co-arising
co-acclimating bi/di-polar dynamics
either/or AND both/and
left resonant
with right hemisphere interdependent communication
so, compassionate–

These are not often enough
positively re-ligioned
rewoven into the fabric
of double-binding win/win choices,
healthy, mutually trusting, democratic discernment,
nondualistic dialogue
theological and ecological,
psychological and neurological,
organic and democratic,
sexual and sensual,
historic and cultural,
memory and mysterious hope

For dipolar co-gravitating
spiritual death and natural life
ecosystemic experience,
systemic divine climax,
sacred wonder
and secular
regenerating awe

to branch
to flower
to seed
new/old root re-ligioning systems.


Light/Dark Powers

If a maturely individuated ego…

Honey, you just left out most of us.
Could you work on being more inclusive?

is organically
holistically SelfAware,
codedefining as
Not some Other conscious egocentered person,

Some Other living sensate creature
composed of interdependent
organic health-maintenance and development functions,

Including reproductive capacity,
regenerative fertile potential
for repurposing
recycling into Earth’s polyglot future,

And, if Earth
is also an organically living
global ecosystemic Habitat
revolving and recycling
within universal light and dark energy fields,

Expanding complex positive energy systems
and chaotic negative entropic potentials

Not ZeroSum
and, more positively, Win/Win co-gravitating
ionically re-ligioning systems

re-emerging from interdependently dancing Black Holes,
dark spiritual energy chakras
for transport
and Whole Open Systemic ReDevelopment Processes,

Admittedly, a grandly dark-staged IF,
if interdependently holistic ego systems
interact within a universal win/win energy environment
of unitarian meta-energy balancing light/dark
health/pathology systems,

Then where could GodSun
and EarthGoddess starlight
have SuperEgo bilaterally emerged from?
SuperOther than our original
prime ZeroSum double-binary
co-empathic relationship

Fertile light Mother
and darkly embryonic sacred Child
co-empathically polypathic
Polyvagal energy
positive light
inviting self-conscious rebirth

Of deep
wounded postpartum
unwinding win/lose
with BlackHole commencements

As YangBright truths and trust
greet YinDark sacred beauty,

As regenerative democratic life
predicts and evicts
degenerative unrevolving death
of continuously monoculturing
patriarchal egos

Marching in predative capital-infested squares,
rather than dancing
in BlackLife Matter
holistic energy chakras,
bright and beautiful.


Attachments and Aversions

I wonder if
what Buddhist classic meditation teachings
refer to as “attachments”
and “aversions,”
a Western medical doctor
might label with different words,
such as addiction
and dissociative diversions.

In both frames
negative illusions may be recognized
and appreciated
as deep opportunities to learn;

Negative delusions are not accurately cognized
and are depreciated
as too risky
not to repress
and hide
from any therapeutic
transparent (not self-shaming)
and vulnerable (not self-blaming)
with our contemplative EgoTherapist within
and our medical-model EcoTherapists without.

Positive illusions,
attachments and/or addictions,
may be accurately cognized
as sensory attractions,

Whether smells and/or tastes,
touch and/or feelings,
sight and/or sound,
eco-reception and/or mind/body communication,
exterior and/or interior,

May have potential
to therapeutically transport
away from addiction
and toward less ego-obsessive attraction,
and away from self-serving,
potentially predative, attractions
to positive sensory pleasure,
cooperatively intended
and personally
and bilaterally
and bicamerally healthy wealth
of becoming completely satisfied
centered in HereLeftYangSpace/NowRightYinternalTime
and in past sensory satisfying memories
and in future images
imagination of pleasures
climatically encompassing
all of the above.

Addiction to cooperative multicultural
and bicameral
bilateral peak sensory experiences
could be a healthier opportunity
than addictions to competitive ego-monoculturing
and mono-atheistic
and autonomous predator/prey
sensory risk ambivalence

Where things don’t necessarily smell
or taste inviting,
don’t necessarily feel grateful to touch
or feel inside my mindbody,
don’t necessarily transcendently transport
when compromised win/lose beauty seen
and ambiguously uninviting truth heard,
falling short of healthy co-addiction
to Earth’s vast multicolored wealth
of sensory ultra-nonviolent
EarthTribe Yintegrity.


Nurturing Faith

How does one nurse,
feed and water,
advocate for,
witness to,
listen for good healthy faith
in globally resonant possibilities,
in universal holistic integrity?

Of course
I do not know
how to answer your question
without you.

I do know
my answer
to this question,
rooted in my own experience,
will most certainly NOT include:

Invest heavily in Earth’s demise
as a living planet,
as a beautiful home,
as our future
healthy and safe habitat,

As matriarchally iconized by MotherEarth
Queen Gaia
Queen Sabbath
Green EcoFeminist Eden
Positive Yin Flow with Yang Power

and multiculturally open
to healthiest wealth
of nature-spirits.


Winter’s Writing Choices

Approaching winter…

OK, maybe encroaching mid-winter
of life’s seasonal span
with resonantly compelling grace,
perhaps even transparent vulnerability,
feels controversial,
too laissez-faire

Too much courage
in declaring preliminary success
with too little curiosity
about what happens next
on planet Earth

Continuing to revolve all four seasons
holistic lenses.

I recall the poet’s admonition
to not go quietly
into this winterish
cold night.

Life’s final reflective opportunity
does not invite quiet
so much as impassioned peace
of a windless snowfall
blanketing all I can see
and more faintly hear,
touch and awkwardly feel,
smell and bittersweetly taste
unsafe passage.

I recently moved from autumn habitat,
a creative tension between summer’s midlife climax
and this new winter habit
above Connecticut’s exquisite Salmon River.

This is a compromised writer’s winter hermitage
shared with my son who cannot speak
but can roar,
who cannot walk by himself
but can scoot
and belly laugh at his own internal sensations
and my external sensational sounds.

And, following Daquan
from my fall habitat
to winter’s eremetical search for peace,
however coldly displaced,
with social
and political
and spiritual
and natural distancing,

Behind Daquan
are daily in-home nurses
and his most avid companion,
my romantically distanced husband.

He comes bearing gifts
of clothes,
cleaning supplies,
far too much meaty food
for a proper hermitage
and not enough
for sufficient redemption
and for self-forgiveness.

He comes unaware of my ecofeminist wintering spirit,
longing for Earth’s warm womb justice
restoring peace
resilient through all four seasons
of present
and future Earth lives.

My ecofeminist lineage
feels too white to him,
not a journey for him
and our two brown sons
and my brown and cerebral palsied daughter
and Daquan.

So, this writer’s winter hermitage
remains newly compromised by past fall
and summer
and even spring
of extended multicultural family life.

May it always be so
or no,
I’m not sure which to pray for
or against
as I quietly write
into this warm and peaceful night,
just right,
not too dim or bright.


Good and Bad

“Shih” translates into Good
as “Fei” becomes Bad.

And so moral textured oppositions
Right and Wrong
Healthy and Pathological
True and False
Win and Lose
Healing peace and Punishing revenge

Yang and Yin
distinguish rational appositions,
not sufficient as Either/Or left-brain calculations
and necessary Both/And right-brain
correlative associations

Like Yes and (not) No,
Positive and (not) negative
Is and (not) Is Not
EgoCenter and (not) EcoSystem
Inside and (not) Outside
Wax and (not) Wane
Rise and (not) Fall

Each of these implied
double-binding terms of co-related contrast
includes an enthymematic hypothetical boundary
bound with both Full and Empty Zero
languaged as not numeric
or stagnantly spatial framing
but more dynamic temporal dipolarity
co-arising into consciousness

Ego’s secular empowering Zeroness
is also EcoZerofilling articulation,

Healthy democratic
and not pathologically autocratic,

Trusting cooperation
is not over-capitalistic competition,

Moral value evolution
is other than merely rational avocation,

is not precluded by induction,

are not absent of feeling,

Moral balance
expects more than relativistic legal shadows,

Conserving Earth’s lifetime resilience
is not merely avoiding EgoCentric
cognitive/affective dissonance,

LeftBrain truthful polypaths
are not instead of RightBrain beautiful polyphonics,

Polycultural EarthTribe outcomes
are not sufficiently predicted
by Monoculturing narcissistic incomes.


Daddy Dreams

Strange dreams last night
include gathering enthusiastic consumers
to shepherd and possibly own
cheaply decaying properties,
ghettoes of hopelessness,

And, later,
an all male bacchanal
of real estate agents,
toned agencies for commercial acquisition,
surrounded by witnessing properties
of no sensory interest
to any realtime guy,
straight or gay
or in-between.

Gathered to teach their purchasers’ desire
and demise
while getting naked
in a boorishly unsexy way,
while dispassionately watching
in time’s eternal mirror.

and our witnessing
and witnessed properties
nakedly longing for resilient sensuality
and settling for this brief
spasmodic climax
of Time’s young adult male supremacy
over realtime commodified markets

Iconic of mass mediated
male mattered

and, at best,
marginally sensual

Inviting touch without true feeling,
sight without warm hearing,
natural taste without spiritual fragrance,
being without belonging,
mass without energy
yang without yin
space without sufficient time
to dream,

Breathe in
as out
invites Earth’s new dawn

PostViral 2020

If I were to shamelessly indulge what should remain hidden in 0/0 mystery, and boldly attempt to interpret this dream, which, of course, I would never publicly admit, I would timidly guess these dreams could be about defining patriarchalism as a world view in which sensuality could not remain connected  and valued as an ecologically and theologically relevant form of intelligence, perhaps even ecofeminist wisdom of profound ego/eco-therapeutic merit.
strange dreams last…


Allies Toward Nirvana

Our Buddhist alllies,
moving away from samsara,
like Abrahamic Westerners,
and MidWesterners
and East-West Earners,
emigrate toward nirvana–
secular illusion
evolving toward sacred enlightenment,
natural delusion
revolving into spiritual prelusion,

Yet we have this climatic problem
of pathology,
win/lose evil corrupting
ZeroSum energy systems,
power networks,
regenerative empowerment.

Genesis narratives
speak of empowering Eden,
then the Great Unraveling,
Win/Lose decay into samsara,
left-brain dissonant dominance,
Either EgoMe or eco-you,
RightBrain nirvana win/win recession
awaiting remission

Of a wise ecofeminist serpent
where lusty predation
revolted against God our PeaceCreator.

Like Unitarian–RightYin hemisphere–
Taoists speak not of God as Creator
but of Tao as Regenerative Process
of Earth’s intelligent fractal seasons
reincarnated in DNA’s fractal functions,
double-negative paradox
double-binary primal Four Dimensions
of NonZero-Sum polypathic
neurological nirvana

Evolving from ZeroSum samsara
reverting back toward nirvana

Inhaling EarthJustice
exhaling EgoCentrism
evolving Restorative Justice
revolving AnthroCentrism

Absorbing samsara–
God of capitalism
God of retributive angry injustice
God of systemic racism
God of Yang v Yin
God of Left v Right
God of West v East
God of North v South

Reincarnating nirvana–
polypathic Regenerative Power
BiLateral Light
BiCameral Energy–

Theological cooperative branches
AND root nutritional systems
Revolutionary Win/Win
for all Allies toward Nirvana.


Temple of Grain

They prayed a Buddhist prayer:

And may we cooperatively dwell
in Earth’s great equanimity
free from attachment
and dispassionate aversion.

As regenerations continued this bodymind practice,
MotherEarth Attachment transposed
disassociated from healthy relationships
with all empowering
and enlightening creatures,
and was replaced by “greed”
and correlated “envy”

Greed rooted in fear
individual egocenters are not enough identity,
bodies carrying minds
with unspoken messages,
they did not have enough;

Envy co-arising anger
as greed invokes fear
about insufficient empowering time
and inadequately enlightening life.

They rediscovered envy co-arising anger
because we are born with win/win attachment promise
but discover our autonomous mortality
through death of lovers and enemies,
and all creatures in-between,
through suffering dreams
of those with timeless robust health
and greed
for immortal wisest wealth.

And this is how these NeoBuddhists
reconnected ancient metaphors
of Taoist non-zero sum roots
left/right bicameral intelligence
Yanged and Yinning

And this is one way
we might both start
and conclude
each mindbody full day
free from greed
and envy
and patriarchal aversions.