DisOrganized Religion

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized elitist creeds,
including religious and judicial,

I am even more terrified
by my experience of disorganized natural spirituality,
dissociated bicamerality,
unenchanting mono-laterality,
win/lose egocentrism,
lose/lose climates of nihilism,
anthropocentrist chauvinism,
inhumane unnatural straight white male business as usual supremacy,
left brain dominant elitism.

I get it,
I notice,
unpopular conflict of legitimate interest decisions
have followed win/lose monotheistic
evolutionary economic modeling
of mortal depression trends,

we could expand this win/lose left-brain dominant assumption
to include confluence of multicultural interests,
multiplication where lies monoculturing divisions,
summations where now lie win or lose negations
of all that lies outside patriarchal structures
of incorporated militarized competitions.

We might, together, warmly notice
chaotic decisions follow monoculturing elitist paths
of least win/lose Business As Colonizing Usual memory patterns.

We might refocus
away from in-toxic-ation with lose/lose mortal nature systems
oppressed by win/lose monopoly, at best, future aggressive prospects
for EgoCenters v EcoEarth natural power economies,
eventual inevitable loss,
degenerative ultimate pathology trends
of dissociation.

We might notice
who chooses to make elitist SWM corporate
retributive justice decisions.

We might notice,
with more win/win warm empathy,
disproportional placement of military-industrialized young adult wounds,
reducing sacred MotherEarth to a convenient waste disposal site,
natural (so un-spiritual?) resource extraction,
and anthro-centric theft,
pollution of air,
left-brain dominant minds,
win/lose informed deformed anti-bodies.

We might notice
several displaced non-elite subcommunities
subclimates suspicious of SWM enculturation
having been history’s stress absorbers,
and elitist
and sexist
and homophobic dissociation,
non-elite capital income prejudice
and win/lose ecopolitical perpetuation,
limited win/win communication access,
left/right co-empowerment life-skills,
co-relational peace intelligence,
co-empathic intention toward healthiest wealth,

We might win/win notice
limited access to mind and body health resources,
regenerations of integral wealth and value polities

Listening with more multicultural right-brain intelligence
and speaking with less monocultural left-brain verbal dominance,
on behalf of noticing
rigvht’brain’s long matriarchal ecofeminist herstory
of interdependent
domestically and globally intersectional metaphor,
poly-paradigmatic health systems
for win/win EarthMother thrival.

We might notice
this 2020 bicameral revolution
revisions every win/lose Business As Usual
systemic thing

Into an interdependently living
global, yet universal
multicultural communication
regeneratively resilient
energy democracy.

As traumatized as I am
by the history of organized religion,
I am even more terrified
by Earth’s subclimate of succeeding spiritually
without also winning EarthRight naturally.


PlayDate Victories

Parental labor days and nights,
memories and contemporary echoing traumas
of declaring Hippocratic Commitment victories,
“No one got much hurt today,”

“Non-violent communication” prevails,
verbally and non-verbally laborious,
locally and globally viral,
monoculturally and multiculturally,
on our best days,

But “not violent” is such a negative
humorless LeftBrain way
to say,
to communicate,
resiliently resonant communion’s
heart-felt possibilities.

We have hope and faith potentialities
for cooperative spirits of life and love,
As well as secular natures of competitively incorporated death
and corporate loss,

But only one ZeroZone uniting Holy Nature/Spirit,
not only co-invested in non-violent life and love,
but further committed to solidarity
of resilient uniting life as resonant universal love,

Where Fear-of and Anger-about
past lose/lose competitive trauma
cannot repeat their either/or
devolutionary Names.


ReDesigning US Monkeys

Designs we find democratically attractive
include designs for acquiring healthy trust powers
with all others to be positively infected
by our mutual discussion,
dialogue, respectful discernment,
our listening with silently authoritative skills
before responsibly speaking,

Democratic designs acquire cooperative consensual power
of a healthy
care-giving super-majority,

Messiahs, economic and politically empowering actors,
producers of well-being,
empirical without imperialism,
without pietistic Raptures,
historical escape magic-hatches
removed from RealTime felt and thought integrity,
heart and mind synergy

Still actively listening for remaining white supremaists,
anti-democratic colonizing fundamentalists,
un-evangelicals too clear only about what we are against
while teaching Sunday School
and weekday extractive extorting capitalist competitions,
calling out fellow slum lords,
watching enviously while weapon sales
generously feed automated death lobbyists,
and mystify angry ecofeminists
about what we stand healthy for

Nondualistic, undividing natural health from spiritual wealth
responding to left-brain dominant designs
with monoculturing effects
disempowering into self-isolating fear
and anger
and bigotry,
lack of courageous curiosity
to empathize with anti-democratic intolerance.

This difference between democratic cooperative designs of attraction
and anti-democratic capitalist principles
of egotistical design,
monoculturing extractions from MotherEarth refinements

Health care supported by all
who would replace aristocratically misshaped
distant patriarchal God the SunFather
with Gaia the Original AtHand EarthMother.

All who would replace left-brain dominant thinking
with left/right bicameral prominence
of win/win
about ego health attracting eco-wealth
more than worrying too awfully either/or
win/lose much
about extracting ego wealth from everyday resident designers
nondualistic SunGod/Gaia dialogue refiners
of romance
logos eco-habitat voices
with theo/democratic cooperative trust empowerment
awesome sacred/secular wonder
revisiting lavishly holy/holonic designs.


Hijacked Identity

I awake again with this left-brain thought
that an economic conservative
about balancing his ever expanding budget
looks at my mountainside forest of firs
as a green commodity
for potential exploitation.

Yet when this same conservative
resides in this same fir forest,
now threatened by a large lumbering corporation,
he sees these same trees,
like himself,
as prey
in a win/lose zero-sum value-retention game.

Then I have this right brain passion
that an ego/eco-logically harmonic nondualist,
all about right responsible relationships,
feels and acts with compassion toward these same trees
in this cooperative win/win forest
internally governed by WiseElder firs, regenerative,
from whom we learn
to nutritionally
spiritually climax
and recommence together, after loss,
in secular/sacred solidarity
of co-passioning seeds
structured to anticipate four-seasoned wealth givers
and receivers
of Earth’s forested pro-active health care,
robustly optimizing self/other value maintenance.

These reviewed landscapes are not mutually exclusive.
Yet only the last is cooperatively left and right
nondualistically inclusive,
like ethical truth with aesthetic beauty,
compassion spiritually foresting natural integrity.


Liberation’s Pride

I wonder if fully liberated consciousness
can only focus on integrity

If partial consciousness
and unconsciousness of left with right awareness
is the default of dis-integrity,
of wandering through detachment
of unwanted apartheid
and mutual apathy
about integrity’s personal
global governing pride,
organic capacity to know
and appreciate
with active listening
and non-violently speaking

In “Why Liberalism Failed”
Patrick Deneen
wonders aloud
if Business As Win/Lose Usual
is “the dying gasp
of an old white working class
and the lashing out
of debt-burdened youth”
disenfranchised from classic Enlightenment
and Reformation hope
in a global
multicultural climate
of integral healthy-wealth.

Deneen worries,
as does post-millennial emerging consciousness,
We are 20-20 witnesses
of climatic pre-revolutionary ecosystems,
and so, thereby,
victims of individual ego-systemic failure
due to lack of active consciousness,
active hope for liberating organic integrity.

Complex Reformation/Enlightenment,
EitherOr/BothAnd integrity
co-arising democracy’s win/win cooperative trust,
now at risk of becoming
a failed natural experiment
in multiculturing organically proud curiosity,
integral courage
to listen with compassionate attachment
before speaking foolishly
of competitive
mendacious mechanisms.

Human experience is not rooted
in win/lose evolutionary machine models
of robotic mutual autonomy, detached,
Although these attributes
lie within the organic planting and harvesting skill set
of left-brain’s active integrity,
listening for how best to seed
and feast on co-empathic health awareness.

This morning
my Fetal Alcohol inspired
dis-integrity daughter
pulled out her tight white T-shirt,
a gift from her brother’s African-American nurse,

In big black letters,
except for the hot pink cursive “ignoring”
her black on white shirt announces,
BUT ignoring YOU

Polarized self v other,
ego v eco,
left v right,
northern white patriarchal privilege
v southern ecofeminist integrity
of all courageous curiosities
except racist and sexist intolerance,
does involve and invest heavily in “ignoring”

But, resulting detached and mechanistic models
of win/lose global lack of positive
organic experience,
are not easier to consciously perceive,
they’re just less extended family pride awareness,
too disassociated identity
reified from integral roots
of EarthMother’s multicultural compassion.

Integrity as revered and worshiped,
sung and danced
by both health Reformers
and would be wealth EnLighteners,

Left activists
and Right bicamerally active listeners
to proud liberated integral memories
and future climates of win/win images
mapping organically interdependent experience,
political and economic
Yang thought and Yin felt
co-passioning integrity.


Climate Work in RolePlay

I know this sounds like theater
of the absurd,
but I wonder if healthy role play
might be left-brain’s work ethic
inviting right-brain’s first and last impassioned word.

We might pretend our LeftWing
loves to play
irresponsibly back and forth repositioning
while RightWing
is crazy busy with win/lose economics
and disempowering politics
of arduous fragmentation,

Where God would paradise play
with roles of humane-divine
mutual infatuation,
cooperative ego-deferment
unto obsequious giggles
of “Oh no, you first.
I gracefully and divinely insist.”

AntiGod does hard vocational work
to teach pagan pilgrim players
and idle, irresponsible nature worshipers
to get back to harvesting souls
to be drained of daylight hours
manufacturing need and greed
to build our deadly war machines
and our ever higher and mightier towers
of anthro-hubris Babel.

Babel sounds like a healthier place to play
with natural sounds
and spiritual languages
for hide and seek with God
as scriptured, sure,
but also unscripted role play
between too autonomous to be realistic Egos
and too interdependent to be ungooey-theistic EcoLogicians.

I hear lose/lose ecopolitics
of hard work polarization
sounds dramatically absurd
while I continue to listen more imaginatively
to ego-eco
co-passioning play

Muse of RightWing stern capitalistic vocations
underplaying Win/Win co-arising
LeftWing wealthy health creations.


Hate Management

Managing anger
is too hard work.

Our passions, positive and negative,
when strong,
have their way of managing us,
or me, anyway.

Perhaps you are better
noticing with courage,
then distracting curious strong passions,
positive and negative,
as a resource of your RightWing
return to conservational business
as win/lose usual.

More calming long-term thoughts
of last laugh
getting even more overpowerfully even,

Which my LeftWing passions
remind me is not really even
More source for and of future ugly
competitive LeftBrain dominance
makes right-mind curiously dispassionate,
uncourageously more wrong
to pine for loving win/win passions,
co-passioning harmonics,
communion/communication co-regenerative resource
from dipolar, un-bipolar, sources.

For me, anger and fear
and self/other hate management
is much harder than role playing
what courageous,
yet curious,
reactive passions feel like
when acted out divinely,
yet humanely,
embodied mad-grace
by my ego-recovering identity,

Passionate communal identity,
noticed courageously and replayed out imaginatively,
curious original-ego
yet grace inhabited eco-
systemic daring drama
and yet more tactfully listening

To how human experience ought to be
and yet how important harmonic becoming
communioned communicators
cooperatively impassioned already
is my greatest ego/eco-centering resource,
dipolar communing courageously left
best when also curiously right

About challenges of anger management
and how to rethink
my own identity’s autonomously felt mindfulness,
more role play left with right
interdependently communicating.