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Integrity v Privilege

You, like all human embodied minds,
whether individual
or collective, tribal

Right hemisphere feelers,
sometimes left handed,
Left hemisphere thinkers,
dominant right handed,
have suffered wounds,

Self-esteem losses
for not being internally transparent
and externally vulnerable enough
for a holistic communion
of EgoLeft and EcoRight inter-hemispheric integrity
that comes only to a few,
usually with advanced mindbody healthy age,

Ego healthy interdependent bodies
compassionately expanding
throughout Right-hemisphere prominent
multicultural
resonant
interdependent
ecosystemic minds
attracted to other ecofeminist bodies,

Male yang strength of holistic
whole open EarthSystem Truth
with yintegral flowing Beauty

Left compassionate thoughts
supporting Right integral feelings,
sensory healing resonance
underlying sexually energized resilience

Restoring internal justice
overpowering historic wounds
of retributive violence
aggression
repression
suppression
oppression,
absence of win/win impression

Unjustly privileged StraightWhiteMale
LeftBrain dominant systems

Internally conditioned
because externally win/lose
strategically positioned

Capital infested atrocities
over minion invested democracy.

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CoEmpathic Experience

Could what we believe
is our neurological humane nature,
growing up
and cooperatively out
from LoseMe/LoseWe depressions
about ourselves
and our subculturally dynamic environments,
toward WinMe/LoseWe capitalistic patriarchalism,
toward WinMe/WinWe nurturing co-empathic communication,

Also feel
as if theologically new ancient redblooded spiritual
flowing up
and cooperatively out
ecological green/blue energy
growing from retributive injustice guilt and shame
toward WinEgo/WinEco absorbing compassion,
ego/eco-political EarthTribe healing
healthy nature of wealthy spirituality?

Could what we believe
is our positive/negative multi-regenerational
psychological internal nature

Have grown from
our ecological prime EarthMother Attachment,
flowing divine ZeroSum individuating energy
growing from discontinuous detached WinMe/LoseWe
post-partum dark experience
toward Win/Win eco-political healing
green new deal healthy
internal/external nature

Of wealthy holistic healing
health/wealth multicultural
multigenerational
multi-pathic
polyphonic
meta-euphoric experience?

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Privileged Testosterone Cultures

One of my several disabilities
of personal knowledge
through experience
and, therefore, empathic intelligence,
is to know what estrogen-driven “horniness”
might feel like,
look and sound like,
taste and smell like.

Gay men require alternative
deviant paths
toward green/blue/red
ultra-nonviolent
cooperatively owned
and perpetually self/other-managed
multiculturally mediated
open WholeEarth systemic
ecofeminism.

I suspect a primal contrast
between an empty holed
deep chakra longing for compassionate relationship,
rather than a pole-addicted belonging
to assertive plundering
the newest available warm wet
unholy hole,
might be one way
of contrasting secularized patriarchal privilege
with matriarchal holistic submission
to eco-political windy waves
of increasingly rabid aggression,
unilaterally pleasure polarized
and further polarizing capital-headed dominance
of debate horniness
rather than dialogue compassions.

Which brings me to my strong ability,
outgoing,
discontinuously flowing,
capacity to feel and know
smell and taste testosterone-driven “horniness”
of re-membering experience,
although not necessarily that well re-ligiously contemplated,
reflecting on how I might re-connectedly improve
continuous, rather than discontinuous, win/win outcomes
and avoid future win/lose disasters
of sexual
sensual
sensory
spiritual/natural conscious practice,
compassion practice,
passion practice
until I get testosterone/estrogen horny us
at least imaginatively balanced,

Left dominant red
and right recessive green/blue
states of humane-peace/divine-justice
bright toned passion

Because that, “passion”
and power
and positive/negative energy,
may be sense-synonyms
for “horniness”
felt and known,

Ergodic balancing exterior structured
cognitive spaces
and
Ionic harmonic interior flowing
affective revolving nonbionic-binary
irrationally felt
positive longing
and negative belonging
empty passioning times

Whether testosterone
or estrogen
or some bisexual multicolored culture,
some multicultural environmental combination
of these two
become one ego/eco-rooted
in cosmic polyphonic
polypathic win/win energy democracy,

EcoPolitically seen
when compassionately heard,

EcoBiologically felt
when passionately touched,

SocioNeurologically tasted
when co-empathically smelled

With win/win informed/exflowing gratitude
cooperative testosterone/estrogen attitude

Compassionate multiculturing global energy
of sufficiently bicameral
disciplined powers

Non-violently mediated integrity
deep learning opportunity

Even while facing manic
ego-centrically runaway rabid
capitalistic
patriarchal
heavily testosteroned
dominating
privileged
narcissistic
horny
prickly
polar passions of great unraveling
unease
about climates of potential
integral health/wealth
lost to yesterday’s EcoPolitical disease.

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Agreeing to DisAgree

I have noticed
in negative strong
long feeling settings
a willingness
to accept impatience
to reluctantly embrace tolerance
and Agree to DisAgree.

Yet, to equate this conclusion
with cooperatively
and actively Agreeing to Positively Agree
with anticipation
rather than further win/lose anxiety
would be to overvalue tolerance
and to underestimate
differences between systemic logic
and self-deceiving fallacy.

We do not meet
win/win standards of nonviolently held energy,
powers of positive communication praxis,
by Agreeing to DisAgree,
shrugging
and leaving the dialogue
with win or lose, who knows?
back to hopeless stuckness,
but now further entrenched
in frustrating
increasingly impatient,
look some other way
tolerance

Of a society
too dumb to GoldenRule agree
to act as decent as a healthy family,

And too ignorant
to co-invest in present
and future green integrity.

To believe agreeing to disagree
is sufficient for short-term bridges,
let us be forewarned
agreeing to not yet agree
on reassuring regenerative plans
for healthy green democracy,

Is quite far from cooperative value enhancements
of agreeing to co-passionately agree
we are here together
for all EarthTribe’s health and safety

Multiculturally cooperative
eco-political regenerativity,
revolutionary 20/20
democratic positive energy.

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Damp Grey Climate

On rain drenched mornings
words may feel too heavy
to absorb dense Truth,

May smell too bleached
to taste thin Beauty,

May sound too restrictive
to recreate revolutionary visions.

Yet, absence of words
may sound too drenched
in universal drizzle
to comfort,
to circulate lively blood
for warm interior climate cleansing

Rain water
distilling
tomorrow’s more fertile
silent soil
silk skinned soul.

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Positive Neurological Psychology

The problem with positive psychology,
said the good doctor,
it is too social science squishy,
not leftbrain prickly enough
for natural science pathologists
proctologists
urologists
cardiologists
and invasive neurologists.

I must concede
not prickly enough
indeed
said the polyvagal systems neurologist,
but sometimes premature complexity
looks like yet another chaos theory,
and sometimes spiritual prepowerment
feels like merely natural enlightenment
yet deja vu,
and sometimes too bilaterally sticky
predicts co-arising redundant dipolarity,

Neurological bilateral structures
of left meets right hemispheres
as West greets East
multicultural mediation
as ego hugs ecosystemic health-rooted trees
of reverse hierarchical
above Truth lies downside Beauty.

Mesmerizing,
I’m sure,
temporized the Earth Therapist,
while human nature
military-industrializes ancient cooperative relationships
the remainder of EarthTribes
continue to evolve and emerge,
breathe out and in
bilateral gooey prickles
social and natural
metaphysical and physical
ecosystemically informed egocenters,
communitarian capitals,
well-timed spatial places

Not knotted polyvagal positive theories
of EarthMother’s original neurological root systems,
bicamerally restructuring
to emerge new leftbrain capital-invested upstarts
of deductive
reductive
extractive
either/or dominant thinking

When too engorged,
unilaterally engaged,
prejudicially divested,
unknotted,
untied,
profoundly detached
yang v yin pathology
for sufficiently prickly/gooey
mountainous river valleys of in-between
ego/ecometric bardos balance

Living/dying
inside outside EarthTribe
cooperative bilateral empathy
ecologically theological,
naturally social sacred,
historically multicultural,
anciently new green organic age,
biological neuro-system flowing

Fractal DNA
primal four dimensional spacetime
not ZeroSum

ZeroCore
prickly full of Either/Or bilaterals
and gooey Both/And bicameral
not not empty
enthymematic reiterations
of prickly force Yang
and gooey flow Yin,
win/lose exploration
and win/win absorption,
exhaling capitals
and inhaling communions,
natural empowering light
and social enlightening beauty
of positive eco-political psychology.

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My Economic Life, and Death

My life thoughts darkly whisper
of mortality,
hidden,
like shame,

As my death lightly wanders
through eternity,
infinite,
like timelessness.

Economic wealth roots from light,
enlightenment
as
Political health branches through power,
empowerment.

Space captures deducted form
as
Time frees inductive function

As punishing absence of peace exhales
bad monotheistic climates
so restoring justice can refill
creolizing multicultures,
co-passionate dipolar co-arisings
like life
and death
and bicameral paradox
bilateral fractal box
in-between

Space invites unconfined energy,
co-gravitating as
Time remembers unSourced energy,
democratically uniting co-passions
throughout past
and future regenerations.

Left hemisphere ergodically longs
to restore immortal justice
as
Right hemisphere ionically belongs
to wondrously interdependent
contextual
multicultural
transubstantiating
synergetic
holonic
holy
sacred peace
Kingdoms of God
QueenSeas of EarthMother Wombs,
Fathers
and HolonicWinds/HolyWaves.

Yang invests in ecosystemic light
as
Yin divests of egocentric
economic
capitalistic
win/lose anthro-centric
anti-ecological
degenerative
patriarchally predative
LeftBrain monoculturally dominating
power.

Economically cooperative experiences
darkly whisper of mortality,
hidden,
like egotistic shame,

UnCompetitive fear of death lustily wanders
through enculturing eternity,
infinite history,
like angry timelessness.

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Health Addictions

Health brings freedom to live
intentionally
resplendently
maturely
resonantly
integrally
regeneratively
compassionately
resiliently
kindly.

Freedom is personal,
but also social,
political
but also economic,
ecological
but also theological.

Health requires freedom from addiction
to beliefs:

Some people are born to rule
and own Earth,
while others are born to be serfs
and slaves,
laborers
and frightened/angry addicts.

Some people are born
to be born again,
while others are born
to be unredeemed,
idol worshipers,
poor,
sinners.

Some straight males are born to be White
Evangelical Supremacists,
while others are born
to be Other.

Some people are born to extract
from healthy Earth
as they choose to expand personal
and corporate materialistic “wealth”.

Others are born to be entertained by,
and sometimes envious of,
these violent stories
of capitalistic rape
and plunder.

Multicultural dreams of inclusive democracy,
expanding throughout all cooperative economic strata,
encompassing all politically engaged genders,
all nations and tribes,
all positive energy systems
to regenerate a global health network
of wealthy freedom
for all interdependent creatures
globally here below,
and those who fly,
and revolve,
and generate light
power
energy,

These are ancient
indigenous dreams
of non-addicted trust,
non-dualistic Truth,
polycultural free-trade outcomes
for EarthDwellers,
EarthPatriots
EarthLovers
EarthSabbath Worshipers.

Regardless of age
gender
race
left-brain dominant enculturation,
colonizing violent history,
capitalism’s win/lose supremacist games,
energy’s zero-sum secularizing theology,
degenerative ecological fears
and angry
unfree
fossil fuel addiction,
consumer-driven overpopulation,
lack of freedom to sleep safely,
to live healthy outside
in familial communion
with Original Sacred EcoFeminist Earth,
etc.

The Dali Lama,
born to sainthood?
a view I doubt he would support,
says his religion is kindness.

Perhaps his spirituality
resonantly respects EarthMother’s kindness
and unkindness–
much easier to do outside
than inside a dimly addictive
unfree temple.

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Positive Directions

If you have some negative judgment
aimed directly at me, and only me,
I prefer,
in fact require,
expect,
demand you verbally
and directly confront me
with that distancing blame,
assaulting my ignorance
and failures of compassion,
too active dispassion,
furthering Earth’s emerging win/lose dissonance,
violence,
toxic climates
and egocentric narcissism;

Or, informed more fully by nonviolent communication

I am feeling sad,
disappointed in our relationship,
shut down,
angry
because I want our mutual compassion,
my vulnerability to you,
and yours to me,
our cooperatively-held trust,
to invite your directly communicated curiosity,
your hypothetical questions,
your transparency
honesty
integrity
when you observe some message from me
that feels like it carries negative energy,
lack of compassion,
too assertive
past a tipping point of aggression,
a potential trigger for past win/lose stress,
traumatic experience,
miseries of unfortunate events,
dissociation,
cognitive/affective dissonance,
the momentary despair
of not being fully listened to
with compassionate appreciation,
as we each deserve
within this interdependent web
of win/win polypathic
polyphonic
polyculturing
ego/eco-political life.

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Humanity of Horses

My internal experience of depression
today shames
external ecology of elation,
all I might know as warm extended family
of profoundly peaceful impressions
still bare surviving
at end of this slow-fading thread.

This morning
one Epictetus sentence
speaks of blaming left-hemisphere dominant GodVoices:

“People are disturbed not by things,
but by the view they take of them.”

Similar to proving and approving:
Universal Gods are undisturbed not so much by peaceful events,
but by the transcendent view they own
by loving them.

Some days,
like yesterday,
I feel excruciatingly intolerant
of Earth’s
Losing healthy systems–LeftWing
and
Losing wealthy democratic resilience–RightWing
depression
suppressing what might,
more positively,
notice integral bilateral energy trends.

This synergetic,
yet distinctly negative,
degenerative feeling travels far beyond
compassion exhaustion
to despair.

Even an omnipotent God
could not have,
could not even evoke to grow,
further and faster extensions of sufficient compassion
for such death and dying misery;
absolution…
redemption…
all peacefully forgiven.

Among humans,
of course,
but extended to other dying
and already extinct species
reduced to fuel
for some predator species’ relentlessly extracting fire

And beyond all creatures here below,
to macro-political living systems
like self-cleaning rivers,
healthy surfing salt-water oceans
with multicolored coral reefs,
wealthy bones,

And topsoil organic life systems
and MotherTree forests,
and wild, complex boundary areas
of creolization,
interbreeding
petri recircling research and discovery
recovery
uncovery
incovery
excovery
anti-covery
pro-covery
positive covery
negative covery
expanding covery
shrinking covery
elation covery
depression covery
exhalation covery
inhalation covery
investment covery
divestment covery
empowering covery
disempowering covery
not not double-binding cooperatively owned covers,

Labels,
nomials,
variables,
experiences,
memories,
rememories,
memes,
images,
imaginations,
designs,
divine hopes and humane fears

I disagree with Epictetus;
This person is empathically disturbed by experiences.

Rape and violent militarized sadism
and politically sanctioned death sentences
come immediately to mind,
cold hearted starvation and dehydration
of innocent children,
ponies,
mothers,
mares,
peaceful fathers,
faithful stallions.

Meanwhile corporate gods drilling and fracking
greedily extracting
win/lose against future healthy regenerations
of Earth’s organic life.

Tell God:
A mother
watching her children stabbed
and/or starved to death
is not disturbed by events
but by the subjective view parents take of them.

If He agrees with you,
find a different Goddess Earth
with sufficient win/win compassion and hope
to change our competitive
Left v Right-hemisphere story.

All creatures are disturbed by negative events
and by Win/Lose
and/or Lose/Lose
views we take of degenerative ZeroSum violence,
eco-political
and neuro-psychological,
whether horse or dog
or cat or rat,
grateful and co-empathic predator
or cooperative divine-human nature.

But, my divine elation Right
unitarian yin climate,
reminds my humane depressive Left
universal Yang culture,
deductive proof of negative pudding
is in inductive gratitude for positive multiculturing outcomes,

All creatures are undisturbed by positive events
and by Win/Win views
and memories
and designing images
we receive for regenerative NonZero-Sum peace,
eco-political,
neuro-psychological,
theo-ecological.

I know
and deeply appreciate
an ecofeminist equestrian farmer
who says all this
depressing and elating stuff
much more simply,
“I trust the empowering humanness of horses
far more than the competitive horsiness of humans.”

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