Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool
Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school
Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule
For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts
And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.
May all sacred,
but not quite omnipotent,
fathers learn this day
as we impatiently correct
our stress-disordered sons
That respect is earned,
so maybe disrespect is too
positive and negative layered
for and against authority
for and sometimes restlessly against
repeating Business As Usual
white middle-class dadisms:
You snooze
you lose
May apply to your lethargic
chronically anxious
thuggish
couch-surfing
cannabis-fed son
And yet feels counter-intuitive
for babies
and us great grandads
who need our outside rest
away from commercial
too lit up
and loud
and relentlessly plastic
inhumane degradations
In such a rabidly anxious hurry
to wait for inevitable pandemics
and genocide,
floods
hurricanes
tsunamis
forest fires
drought
dry river beds
famine
insomnia
rabidity
Taking a snooze
feels like a healthy alternative to:
capitalist narcissism
anthropocentric monotheism
monoculturing nationalism
painful survivalist isolation
demented diseases
species extinctions
anthro-supremacist
safety and defense-oriented males
on a bad day
in a depressing moment
Become
yackity yack disrespectful
feeling privileged to rightwing exclusively define
“real [and not indefensively stupid] men.”
Yet quietly hiding
under these sacredly respected
and secular unrespectful unsuspecting layers
of diverse manhood hues and cues
and patriarchal cultures
Capital invested climates
prefer cooperative integrity
over dormant faith-based respect
and creatively traumatic disrespect
and unenlightened
stress-triggered unrespect
dis-integrity
Desecrating sacred solidarity feelings
learned today
as synergetic need/want supportive
communication systems
sometimes impatiently correcting
my pre- and post-traumatic
stress disordered father
son.
My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.
With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat
Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.
Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today
Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs
Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.
My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious
To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles
Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions
Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations
Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly
For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series
Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day
Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion
Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds
Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.
For every relationship
we can rediscover
a season
of increase
and tipping point
toward decrease.
For every correlation,
positively resonant
and negatively dissonant,
a regenerative
becoming degenerative season
for building up and out
and tearing down and in
compassion
tipping toward
dispassion
revulsion
decay
Like passionate summer powers
Falling toward
diminished winter light
dipolar co-arising
hope for continuous
contiguous fresh spring
cooperating green,
morning blue
yet warmer
cumulating skies
repredicting summer’s
fertile
climax
passions
Re-enlisted
in four fractal
reasoned seasons
for redeveloping Earth justice
and restoring Tribal peace.
Before restoring perfection,
perpetual pleasures
of prosperous peace
I remain responsible,
compulsively responsive,
habitually receptive
to repairing win/lose
past competitive aggressions,
negatively suppressive
non-communications
My resilient repentance
must include self-forgiveness
for over-stressed addictions
to trauma repressors,
for failing to do my best
on a bad day
I usually fail to trust win/win strategic play
and work my best truth
healthiest way,
wealthiest co-managed gift
of sensory sensate
not always so elderly sedate
indigenous life
Among compassionate EarthTribe
redeemed through co-empathic curiosity
impressed by organic co-invested communication.
I struggle toward win/win intentional
restorative justice
adeptly mediating win/lose
bipartisan conflicts
exploring nonviolent communionations
At peace
remaining cooperatively responsible
responsively receptive
Quietly
anonymously
relentlessly repairing wounds
of AnthroSupremacist elitist cold regard
felt both outside blaming
and inside shaming
For cashing out of warm wet pleasures
of unconditional regard
too cheaply
too quickly
too sadly
Even for LeftBrain verbal narcissists,
smugly patriarchal
dishonorable corporate pirates
Champions of retributive poverty-punishing
justice of mercenary prison/court/police/military
monocultures
preying on our young
homeless,
stressed,
terrorized
and traumatized
Left rightwing outside
StraightWhiteCorporate patriarchal visions
of never needing to repair
vicious win/lose circles
growing capital monopolies
rooted in monotheistic true health values
for win/lose survival
of the RightWing anthropocentric
inhumane bigoted fittest
Devolutionary pathology
inviting further monoculturing climates
tipping toward
ecocidal trauma ideation,
warm and humid stress
fire and wind wilding
while wicked partisan polarization issues
distract my highest and best
therapeutic intentions
Before restoring perfect
perpetual communication pleasures
And prospering bicameral
dipolar co-invested balance
Cooperatively invested
in co-empathic curious gifts
for a more resonant
resilient
EarthTribe sacred peace.
Speaking from personal
and political
and economic
and social-equity experience
Empowering cooperative ownership,
like businesses
and condominiums,
arrives slowly
yet more surely
through cooperative management experience
Robust
and resilient co-empathic tenure,
stretching unconditional regard
from enlightened win/win management
to co-empowering ownership.
I doubt it was a philosopher,
more likely an emperor,
but possibly both,
who first explored this sad relationship
between exclusion
and punishment,
colonialism
and repression.
I’ll bet it was a Taoist mother
afraid bad weather would smother
all hope of restoring future peace
who first engaged our glad elationship
between inclusion
and cooperative reward,
creolization
and multicultural
graceful impressions
This, our win/lose
zero-sum
retributive justice point
And yet also our win/win
nonzero-exponential
spiraling
revolving
restorative peace
counter-point
Balancing tipping points
toward cooperative polytheistic
polycultural possibilities,
secular and sacred,
for slow-growing resilient healthy seasons
and polyvagal
universal feelings
of neuro-sensory evolving
revolving safety.
Accidental exclusion
and intentional derision
of people with disabilities
win/lose dismay
disqualification
from LeftBrain
RightWing dominance
Together,
neglect and abuse
co-arise feelings of shame
self v other blame
punishing judgment
for being born
not LeftBrain
RightWing dominant enough
to earn our keep
in a commodified work force
neither enlightened playful
nor empowering peace-filled feelings
Industrially confined to slave
and prison
and asylum labor
PreIndustrially restoring wisdom
includes priority for inclusive
and incisive win/win intended
healing communication,
sustained healthy and safe
nurturing relationships,
growing multicultural
and ecopolitically rewarding trust.
Retributive justice
worships powers of royal affluence
while sacred restorying
of democratically inclusive peace
engages effluent co-powers
Of LeftBrain
RightHeart conserving
enlightened health
through resilient polycultural
anthro-wealth
of cooperative vocation
AND
For RightBrain
LeftHand liberating
feelings of safe empowering wealth
through resonant polycultural
polytheistic vacation,
Universal warm disregard
of pompous kings
and distinguished philosophers
disabled by LeftBrain
RightWing greedy punishment
exclusively disabling
anthro-integral
polyculturally resilient
tipping point balance
Rewarding inclusive RightBrain peace
restoring LeftBrain justice.
PermaCulture DeSigners
of sacred spaced places
could commune with timeless
PolyCultural Beauty Consultants
I suppose.
HealthCare Consultants
with compassionately enlightened clients
want to co-invest their peak experience wealth
in slow growing indigenously humane health
and conservational safety
survival of the WinWin fit-
in-to-flow-out-
and-not-not-in-again
Open Whole systemic
green ecological
psychological
multiculturally co-mediating
slow-grow regenerating
global co-empowerment
Within each locally/globally win/win equitable plan
cooperatively contracted and managed
relationship between a Designer
and a NonZero Zone dynamic system
of emergent properties
lies an exponentially wealthing
ego/ecosystemic potential
for Wealth and Beauty optimization
worth more self-governing capital-effectiveness
than the sum of their/our constituent parts
Capital-minded,
compassion and healthy beauty endowed,
sharing visions
for cooperatively installed
and polyculturally occupied
synergetic
resilient Whole GreenBlue
Self/Other Governing Systemic
Open dynamic spiraling
interdependent inter-religioning
panentheistic energy networks
for ecopolitically LeftBrain enlightened
and RightBrain co-empowering
indigenous polychromatic wisdom
and health-wealthy Beauty
Goals
objectives
cumulative synergetic 4D spacetime
naturalBody/spiritualMind
double-boundary wu-wei lines,
seasonally regenerative nutritionYang-nurtureYin
spiraling recycles of natural resources
and spiritual communication capital
reinvestments.
Only clients
with nutritional health
and nurturing beautiful wealth
peak inspiring local investment goals
for EarthTribe’s global cooperative
need bother to contact
our polycultural Wealth and Beauty Consultants
Which excludes no one
not at right-now death’s portal,
because even mortally wounded survivors
hope to CoOperative EarthCulture thrive
when we no longer need worry
about mere win/lose climate survive
Regardless of income,
health,
beauty,
we are perennially engaged
in annually
and diurnally regenerating
sufficient humane health
and divine panentheistic safety
to survive local and global environmental trauma,
sacred EarthMother polluting,
and anthrosupremacist predation challenges
at this critical peak transition
PolyCultural Communication moment
in whole open GreenBlue Systemic EarthTribe
resonant
resilience-seeking
enterprise
Co-consulting to optimize
global mindspace beauty
in local-body polyculturing trusted time
for peak root
through gut
through capital head experiences
in permacultural community health
and safety
eco-therapeutic sacred communication
co-mediating compassionate design
As FatherSky enlightens bright blue trusted futures
and MotherSoil empowers
peak investment re-entry
into rich dark-fertile beauty
Truth in Passion pasts.
It might become too ironically
and iconically embareassing
to admit
I am taking a (s)hit
while exploring
my latest
and perhaps final
nutritional surmise
compressing peak climax
surprise
A well-capitalized
Systematic Theology
of EcoLogical Systems
is not such
an inviting much
of a moving title
Yet herein
we might energetically
not also massively invite “should”
raise up Yang’s enlightening strengths
without also evacuating Yin’s paradoxical
outgoing flow
of nutritional exchange
from what was brown
and healthy egocentric ownership
going down
into integral potential
for ecosystemic stewardship
as dull
as giving a crap
might not resound
Yang
could become LeftHemisphere’s name
too often verbally expressed
overly impressed with ecologically
abstractly decontextualized
secularized lack of curiosity
about patriarchally
well-capitalized
anal Trumpistic retention
AND
Yintegrity’s dipolar co-gravitating
unconditional regard
for self-therapeutic indigenous wisdom
often nonverbally nonviolently felt
too often ecowomanist suppressed
Yang obstructive repressed
economically and politically oppressed
polytheistic sacred sacramental
excremental integrity
of health care giving
wealth share receiving
nutritionally nurturing
fertile regenerative
co-assets.
Yang dominant
conditional curiosity
about what is safe
and also healthy
to cooperatively
and transparently
black
v brown
v suspiciously blond disregard
too often seeks inside enlightenment
from outside above
While Yin’s anally repressed integrity
wants to soil
and soul empower
by releasing egocentric resources from within
not perpetuating anthrosupremacist
agonizing constipation
pushing down against
royal ceramic throne imbalance
In a frightening gut-wrenching worldview
wherein positive does not quite logically
or ecologically
or analogically
or psychologically
or gastro-intestinally
or polyvagally neuro-systemically
equal not negative
Like 1 outgoing nutritional pole
and 0 outflowing nurturing hole
feel like Yang
unconditionally positive regarding
not not paradoxical Yintegral potential
self-health care
reproducing Earth soil’s
repurposing wealth-share potential
nonzero soul.
Yang integrity
hears
and bears down
with deep-seated dualdark brown
systemic enlightenment
biologically whole
holy open for fertile
Yintegrity.
I painfully need now
and want here
to communally co-hear
coherent co-empowerment
through eco-theological
Yang secular bodies don’t stink
where sacred Yintegral minds don’t blink
Against o-empathic
co-invested
co-binary
polypathic
co-passionate
nonviolent co-governing
polycultural fecal communion
Favoring fertile EarthSoul
fulfilling co-gravitating
mindbody happy
healthy
wealthy
doin my daily duty
early morning ablutions
Sacred EarthDay practices
gastro-intestinal
mutually-invested
nurturing nutritional
ego/ecosystemic balance
Co-operative Win/Win
synergetic potential,
my embarrassingly unconditional regard
routine for full iconic
and wholesome ironic
ego-evacuation
Not quite so
Yangishly Trumpian
triumphalistic
narcissistic
anthrosupremacist
LeftHemisphere dominant
Straight White Male privileged
royal ceramic throne traumatic
chronic anal retention
Once finally again last
speaking out of my (gr)ass
about my own stressed-in
long-term stuck stuff
don’t stink
extensive pretension.
Here lies what this aged Indigenous River
thinks s/he needs
and wants, perhaps,
but most emphatically feels,
from us.
We continue to use Her
more like a shameful toilet
than her delivery system
of upstream pure
and nutritious drinking water
would suggest she had coming
from former deep green estuaries
Root flow systems
sacredly emerging functions
from deep EarthMother’s darkest
primal wu-wei
womb,
dipolar co-arising
health is wealth compunctions.
Ancient indigenous wisdom
suggests we would be healthier
if we didn’t on MamaEarth,
from whom we eat and drink,
should we hope to keep hunger
and thirst at bay
with and for future regenerations
Pursuing our healthiest dipolar nature-spirit
co-arising win/win wealth
of ecopolitically enlightened nutrition
And empowering fertile poop repurposing
for cultivating improved soil health trends
Ego- and Eco-systemic
permaculturing design,
planning,
nonviolent implementation priorities
for local community resilience.
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