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When We Are Healthy

If we are not,
is this always the opposite of
when we are?

If we are negative,
is this sometimes appositionally
in creative tension with
when we are becoming more positive?

If we are a noticed absence
is this sometimes appositional
to we are not yet perceived?

And is this more oppositional
when we are an unnoticed absence
defying hostile misperceptions
we need never become known
appreciated
positively regarded?

A newly observed absence
merely appositional integrity
waiting curiously aware
we are not yet seen
known
regarded
appreciated
cherished

And yet,
or not
still surviving
where and when
we once together thrived

Or still reviving
why
now and then
Earth once healthy thrived
wealth of positively co-relating
co-empathic
co-regarding not retributively just me
as also
more positively
restoring restorying eco-we

If I am not
merely the opposite
of who we are becoming
together
more than appositionally apart

Reconnecting egos
oppositionally
defiantly unhealthy
unwealthy
indigenously unwise
anthro-supremacist upstarts.

Pestering parents
and teachers,
nurses
and preachers:
If we are not feeling
physically sick,
is this merely the EarthTribal opposite
of when Others are thinking
spiritually ill?

Plotting, may not be planning
designing, may not be re-creating
maligning, feels disaligning
threatening, couldn’t be encouraging
aggressing, feels spectacularly unkind
regressing, not impressive
dissociating, cause for not reassociating
divesting, feels like lack of co-investment
excommunicating, simply not communicating
colonizing, sounds like a malignant tumor rumor
punishing, seldom is rewarded with compassion
traumatizing, encourages self-stigmatizing
marginalizing, chronic traumatizing
terrorizing, critical traumatizing events

Wandering
wondering if we are anthro-healthy,
is this always the opposite of
when we are feeling EarthTribe uneased?

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Nature Nurturing Questions

Why is misery said to love company
while depression demands solitude?

And
is it always true that nature abhors a vacuum
and/or
sometimes true nurture adores expansion?

Misery,
depression,
anxiety,
negatively respond to trauma.

Negatives do not look for like company
but can positively appreciate co-passionate listeners,
lit up not not glisteners,
dark solitude
giving sway
power
light
to more festive solidarity

Negative energy,
entropy
transforming toward
positive integrity,
synergy

Perhaps reparations
restorations
regenerations
reassure these positive feelings
to grow increasingly rational
as negative trauma events
continue to outreach,
and/or discontinue to inreach,
our cooperative,
and/or competitive,
therapeutic plans
problem-solving designs
rational regard
healthy projections
wealthy predictions
positive anticipations
and/or negative anxieties
about recession
depression
oppression
suppression
negative impression
retribution sticks
are not restoring carrots.

Misery loves solidarity
when ready for some kinda manic,
co-therapeutic
good-humored
win/win enthusiastic
spirited
dynamic problem-solving

Outside depression’s
BusinessAsUsual
secularized
severing
secretive locked box,
brain-and-body stormy,
rather than embodied brain full storming
love’s transcendent positive possibilities

Why does re-creative planning
to heal our polymorphic
whole open organic
thinking systems
co-passionately co-invest shared feelings?
negative through positive,
not negative non-zero positive
regifting anticipations.

Why do depression
anxiety
misery viciously
and virally escalate
in isolation?
excommunicated vacuums
of discommunication

Absorbing left-hemisphere
self-wounding negative labels
for feelings of Introspective Loser
UnreNouned Retard
Dirty Nigger
Floozy Faggot
Bull Dyke
Silly Sissy
Flaming Fool
if not selfing shame
then othering blame,
felt trauma nurtured fear
rebecoming terror’s natural anger.

Why do victims of past win/lose
wallow in a perennial vacuum
denying communal
win/win therapeutic
integrity?

When does compassionate solidarity
abhor unnatural trauma events
and dispiriting nurtured
disempowering denatured
misery
post-traumatic stress disorders
chronic depression
feelings of all is lost?

Loser Ego
re-cognizing Loser EcoCommunity
inside/outside despair,

Disrepair
beat down
defeated
by monopolistic
monoculturing traumatic
weed-choked aggressions

Despite what we hoped
would become a cooperatively managed
organic
health paradise
wealth-resilient garden

Rather than a silent
demilitarized
remilitarizing zone

Fearing I will awake
to yet another day
alone

Abandoned
unable and unwilling to be heard

Asking this loser victim
of self shame
and callous Othering myopic
and epic
blame

Why s/he abhors emotionally negative vacuums
yet silently loves
therapeutic positive ideals

Of communities communicating,
win/win company
co-empowering win/lose problem-solving

To repair
restore
replace chronic trauma risks
with potential therapeutic opportunities
for ecosystemic
ego-extending
co-passionate communication

Decelerating win/lose traumatized communities
of monoculturing trauma climates
by restorying risks of isolating anxious vacuums
with opportunities to anticipate company
healthy community
wealthy solidarity
nonviolent communication

Deep and wide feelings
re-membering eco-matrimonial
panentheistic
sacred integrity’s questions

About primally warm
well-moisturized
glistening
listening
integrity of sacred swelling
wells.

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Repair Justice to Restore Peace

Before restoring perfection,
perpetual pleasures
of prosperous peace

I remain responsible,
compulsively responsive,
habitually receptive
to repairing win/lose
past competitive aggressions,
negatively suppressive
non-communications

My resilient repentance
must include self-forgiveness
for over-stressed addictions
to trauma repressors,
for failing to do my best
on a bad day

I usually fail to trust win/win strategic play
and work my best truth
healthiest way,
wealthiest co-managed gift
of sensory sensate
not always so elderly sedate
indigenous life

Among compassionate EarthTribe
redeemed through co-empathic curiosity
impressed by organic co-invested communication.

I struggle toward win/win intentional
restorative justice
adeptly mediating win/lose
bipartisan conflicts
exploring nonviolent communionations

At peace
remaining cooperatively responsible
responsively receptive

Quietly
anonymously
relentlessly repairing wounds
of AnthroSupremacist elitist cold regard
felt both outside blaming
and inside shaming

For cashing out of warm wet pleasures
of unconditional regard
too cheaply
too quickly
too sadly

Even for LeftBrain verbal narcissists,
smugly patriarchal
dishonorable corporate pirates

Champions of retributive poverty-punishing
justice of mercenary prison/court/police/military
monocultures
preying on our young
homeless,
stressed,
terrorized
and traumatized

Left rightwing outside
StraightWhiteCorporate patriarchal visions
of never needing to repair
vicious win/lose circles
growing capital monopolies
rooted in monotheistic true health values
for win/lose survival
of the RightWing anthropocentric
inhumane bigoted fittest

Devolutionary pathology
inviting further monoculturing climates
tipping toward
ecocidal trauma ideation,
warm and humid stress
fire and wind wilding
while wicked partisan polarization issues
distract my highest and best
therapeutic intentions

Before restoring perfect
perpetual communication pleasures

And prospering bicameral
dipolar co-invested balance

Cooperatively invested
in co-empathic curious gifts
for a more resonant
resilient
EarthTribe sacred peace.

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Health ReNewing Years

Polymorphic design
for kids from one
to ninety-two
wondering how to see
local through global
EarthJustice trauma prevention
more clearly through

When we recognize
what inspires healthy polycultural design
of polypathic minds
and multiculturing bicameral hearts
and polyphonic non-zero zone
resonant souls

Is both stress-reductive
good humored
win/win strategic practice
and good trauma-informed contextual governance

For safe
and happy co-governance

Then,
in this Here and Now
renewing year,
healthy business
and safe good humor
will no longer appear like two
incompatible win/lose
either/or
universal Left
v. unitarian Right

Monoculturing Yang dominant
v. polytheistic yin prominent
antagonistically competing WorldViews
v. EarthJustice GoodNews
indigenously opulent wisdom.

Here and Now becomes
our Christ Mass
Pagan Solstice
polypathically healthy
and polytheistically safe
polycultural co-governing
Earth PeaceTrain

PolyMathic win/win happy
socially wealthy
and Earth double-binding wise
co-binary refrain

Merry ChristMass
PaganSolstice
light peace and dark justice
with you

Is MeWe
two thousand twenty three
universal unitarian
West and Eastern hemispheres
north and south
up and down
out and in
Yang wuwei Yin
cooperatively co-managed
prosperity.

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Sacred SpaceMaking

Dear Neighbors,
community co-investors,
sharing an outdoor green riverside Commons
and an indoor
historical CommonSpace

Both, and all, sacred
to panentheistic me
and probably more mundanely secular
to monoculturing LeftBrain dominant
verbally rationalistic
you

And yet, relationships of thought
and feeling always matter
to cooperative
and effective community
and sustainable educational design

Relentlessly curious
and not the least judgmental,
about who eats fish on Fridays
and who uses cannabis
to incense Buddha Shrines,
grown from experiencing “we” agree
however temporarily
and contextually informed
by ego-trauma narratives
and eco-therapeutic
indigenous
ecofeminist wisdom literature

That we can become
once again
bilaterally literate,
in which I can see
your secular LeftBrain enlightenment
as also
my sacred RightBrain
bipartisan Both/And
appositional co-arising empowerment
for co-empathic listening
and learning
from the “OtherSide”

To Both/And:
Trust that trauma-informed therapies
reflect indigenous
Beauty of ecotherapeutic integrity,
balance,
symmetry,
bilateral co-arising
dipolarity,
integral resilience

Potential to incorporate
and alternatively segregate
what compassion
and kind
robust polycultural consciousness
brings win/win together

To recreate safe learning environments
especially for those most at-risk
of not thriving
in a traumatic monoculturing
corporate environment
of chronic stress,
emotional neglect,
marginalization,
judgment,
ostracization,
shame served from entitled
LeftBrain dominant
StraightWhiteMale monocultural
monopolistic
monotheistic prominence

Endorsing retributive justice systems
cashed and coined in Blame
preferably self-inflicted,
internalized and hidden,
repressed,
suppressed,
not impressed

For not being stress-free
healthy and safe
mentally/spiritually liberated enough
to become smart,
attractive,
kind.

If our goals include education
in how to grow healthy
and safe resilience
for all sacredly integral species,
natural/spiritual elements
kids
children
adolescents

Safe and interactively healthy
for growing effective learning children
in safe and mentally healthy
win/win
cooperatively learning
polyculturally robust classrooms.

Climate anxiety
and denial constrictions
may further ensnare
those most vulnerable
to racism
genderism
ageism
ableism
capital-divestment
patriarchalism
political autocracy
anthro-supremacy
sexism
secularization
colonization
apartheid
classism
homophobia
straight-white-male privilege
win/win cooperative blindness
monocultural silo
of climatic
traumatic degenerativity

Less able to manage chronic stress
and depression
and ecocidal ideation
fears and anxiety,
oppression fronm LeftBrain dominant
patriarchal authority structures
retributive self-righteousness
inspired by monotheistic Father Above
capitalist intentions

To love all
with unconditional regard
and yet create natural law
thrival of the win/lose YangFittest

LeftBrain verbal dominance
having thrived in monoculturing competitive classrooms
threatens those who could offer
compassion
grown from accepting
and honoring expressions of vulnerability,
kindness
learned from nonviolent communication’s
value for radical transparency

Endorsed by Principles of CoOperative Learning,
featuring classroom co-management
for inter-generational
and/or inter-religious
mental health and safety standards

For students, and their mentors
and community
and family mediators,
atheistic and/or panentheistic,
cisgender through transgender,
low stressed through critical
and multiple serious trauma events,

Making effective
and integrally learning
safe spaces
for Ego/EcoHealthy Teams
Communities
CoInvestors
engaged in project-based learning theory,
intending to include
Sacred-Safety Lovers
of green ecofeminist places.

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When Profound Feels Sacred

My youngest
of three AfricanAmerican adopted sons
has profound nonwhite
nonstraight
nonverbal cerebral palsy.

Profound
in at least not being privileged
or victimized
by internal LeftBrain dominance,
violent micro-aggressions,
zero-sum competitive thinking

Either positively True and Good
or negatively False and Bad,
laughable
or humorless

Sacred indigenous consciousness
feels more Right-Elder brainstem
bodymind nondualistic synergy
friendly energy
which is my son’s political blessing
and his capital secularizing
segregating
colonizing
economic disabled curse.

Youngest son communes
with music
more fluidly co-empathic
than linguistic communications

He touches
and sings
and chants
through echoing shouts
and exclamatory barks,
short nonphonetic phrases,
lip smacking,
and belly laughs.

When he cries,
which is seldom,
he cries silently

No vocal cords

Profound inhaling wet gasps
and exhaling sad sacred shakes.

He laughs unconditionally
from his root chakra
warm unguarded soul
and cries
from his buddha
bicameral eyes.

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Choosing Happy Health

My round white anti-depressants
were trying their faithful best
to listen to my ecofeminist
wise old woman
gardening neighbor,
pulling aggressive weeds

Sharing with me
her morning meditation reflection
immediately after entering dawning eyes
and before exiting her dreamy
comforting
fertile bed

Her opening
and excavating self-invitation
to choose body health nutrition
and mind happiness nurturing
which are snugly associated
for her
like peas and carrots
remembering well-versed voice
intention

But,
not so much for me,
now able to choose health
almost every dawning day
and dusky night
but still struggling
for post-traumatic omnipotence
to thrive toward happiness
by empowered choice,
even if not enlightened voice
articulating all the many thankful ways
remembering well-cultivated rejoice.

What my gardening neighbor
and I speak of
feels like my dull
and darkly present
spatial stuck unchanging place

Which she
unlike me
can also remember
as having evolved through time
from current EarthTribe regenerating days
becoming nurturing seasons
within each annual surviving incarnation

Reversing back toward warm
welcoming first dawn light’s
empowering sacred
thriving invitation.

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What is THAT about?

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
I can’t “manage” anger
any better than fear
and contagious distrust
and nearly constant anxiety
and chronic depression.

In nonviolent communication practice circles,
peace networks,
organic therapeutic systems,
“curiosity” slowly grows ascendent
as “patience” to resist negative feelings
and “impatience” with shameless Others
and not so blameless Selves
fades off into a less used lexicon.

Impatience about expressing anger,
verbally and nonverbally,
evokes LeftBrain dominant
patriarchal
capitalist
corporate management models
for hierarchically oppressive
suppressive
repressive
not really impressive
humorless control.

Curiosity about deep therapeutic win/win potential
for evolving healthcare competencies
comes from a political economy
of co-operative compassion

NOT: intimidating
and frightening scarcity
of control
sufficient to guarantee
a never-ending expansion
of ego-engorgement
through solitary
deductive
reductive
dualistic non-enlightenment
segregating the StraightWhiteMale
corporate well-capitalized WINners
from us unstraight
unwhite
unmale frightening
and yet uppity LOSErs

Apparently LeftBrain incapable
of managing our anger issues,
sometimes frightened by vulnerability
and emotional transparency
yet quietly curious about compassion
and neuro-sensory peak
RightBrain prominent
interdependent
co-empathic
co-invested peak spiritual experiences
biological
ecological
theologically transcendent

Exploding boundaries of autonomous ego-defensiveness
and, possibly, even Either/Or,
LeftBrain dominant Cause
OR RightBrain felt Effect,
StraightWhite monotheistic
Capital-theistic compunctions,
monoculturally supremacist,
macroeconomic win/lose predative,
pathologically angry and frightening
terrorized global apartisan politics.

Remarkably unfazed
by climax-trending ecocide
and degenerative patriarchal
capitalist
LeftBrain narcissistic
snarky
Us v Them genocide

Unconscious about our lack of control
to manage our viral global anger
while spiritually and naturally,
theologically and ecologically,
dying
from lack of win/win curious
green cooperative thrival.

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
we can’t “manage” anger
any better than climate fear
and contagious EarthTribal distrust
and nearly constant neuro-systemic anxiety
and chronic LeftBrain dominant
divisive depression.

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Blues Boating Home

Human history is difficult;
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
and sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy

Through co-empathic singing passions
which may,
too often,
feel stressful

Irritating
depressing
stormy
before unconditional win/win regard
for Self AND Other
reconnect,

Like EgoTheistic re-ligion
and EcoMatriarchal
indigenously multicultural
wisdom

Of Ego/EarthTribe mutual becoming
more green therapeutic together
than win/lose competitive
dissociating
controlling and too egocentric
and too anthro-dominant
held too LeftBrain supremacist
apart.

On my drive back
to my blue turbulent home,
I struggle with postpartum depression,

Common when I separate
from spiritual sojourner musicians,
fellow wandering sacred wonderers
would-be soul-full,
not hopelessly ego-engorged, harmonizers
and intuitive dancers,
expressively embodied movers
and economic-political shakers,
mindful ecological leaders
and GoodNews infused chorus girls
and everyday win/win polyphonic boys,
maturely compassionate men and women
and exotic in-between
bodhisattva polytheists.

Why am I feeling irritated
against you?

What could I have said
and gestured,
and shared,
and done,
and not done
to let you know,
to let you in
on how unheard
unseen
and unappreciated I am feeling
as this evening,
this mortal life,
this sacred opportunity
slides
and swims
and sails by.

In more recent weeks
our original intent
to listen deeply
with informed compassion
for wounds
becoming unweaponed,
for win/win communion therapies
that join
conjoin
rejoin past win/lose traumas
feels unraveled,
sidetracked,
drydocked
in issues about pain,
suffering,
loss of control,
severances overwhelming renewals,
universal climatic turbulence
flooding remaining hopes
for unitarian green/blue EarthTribe
boating peaceful home.

Why do you seem so triggered
by alpha stressed competitions
with our sometimes surprisingly controlling
too egocentric
capitalistic spiritual director,
sacred leader,
ecopolitical peace activist,
theological love teacher,
ecological panentheistic mentor,
health-is-wealth core care facilitator,
multicultural mediator,
operations conductor
of musicians, at our musing
and amusing best,
and not cacophonously win/lose strategists
at our distrusting
and mistrusting worst.

I become curious
about why you want to control
our musical mountainous expression
of plain and solid standing
to sing together
by remaining distant
from my inside rolling oceans
of peak sensory
musical movement experiences.

Why do you seem less curious
about how I struggle to joyfully continue sailing
never, ever having known safe harbor
or healthy home portal,
on this straight white privileged place?

Sailing on this epic journey
for positive regard
that I know,
without shadows of depressing doubt,
will stand
and sit
and lie,
listen and speak and sing with me
as I am embraced
with all my woundedness
and all our co-empathic sacred brilliance
to joyfully celebrate,
quietly appreciate,
gratefully acknowledge
everyday sacraments
of kindred sailing souls

Making our blue ways home
under stars of full moon heavens
embracing revolutions
of therapeutic light
and traumatic night,
wondering

How frightening it feels
to age away from peak mental
spiritual
physical
natural control

Facing inevitable mortal degeneration
threatening to steal back
my sureness
that below Me
and within
We feel no motion,
no terrifying emotion
while standing firmly in control
of this plain
everyday
yet mountainous
musical event

Of rolling co-operations
and conflicts,
voiced and hidden,
in overwhelm surviving mode
so not able to access confident
curious co-thrival
co-passionate means
to deeply listen
and appreciate
being born to sail this Earth
together in this time
of climatic changing
blue boat swamping terror

Within the fathoms
of our turbulent oceanic universe,
traveling salt-teared Earth
driving home
wondering why you are now less curious
about why my fluidly
legato love story
requires a cappella blues,
reflective repetitions,
emotive nuances
as slow
and widely engaged,
deeply felt
as floating thoughts
diving into EarthTribe’s most sacred
peak systemic experiences

Blue blues
rolling through oceans
of warm
salty wet Earth tears
of universal compassion

ReMembering
human history is difficult,
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
with sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy
sacred mused harmonics.

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ReEducational Curriculum

As if EarthTribe global health
and climate safety
liberally and conservationally
mattered:

Pedagogical Core Needs
Manifest integrity’s neuro-sensory systemic
sacred potential,

In Living Soil Systems
In Healthy Water Networks
In Optimizing Food/Fuel CoOperative Win/Win Global/Local Economies
WithIn Fresh Clean Air/Energy
For Conservational Comfortable BodyMind Shelter
for Surviving
And Safety
for EarthTribe Thriving.

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