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Too Long Past Due

What’s the point of suicide
when I feel already dead inside?

Too long past due
pulling breath’s last plug
last gasp
last primal scream
for and against capital colonizing campaigns
but acted out in dizzying silent mime,
rumored to be a scary thing
this last big surrendering event
before unconsciousness
of changing time
marching inevitably forward
and backward,
out
and back in
until no more back
or in.

But what frightens this fading identity most,
No one will know a difference,
notice I’m different,
least of all
decaying from within
me.

Already unconscious
subconscious,
merely skirting conscious life
precedes flirting with absence of awareness,
burning bridges
pulling life plugs
turning out my lights
already too dark to hear
fear memories
too alarming to feel
images
too disarming to care for power
for light

Too defining
future past experience
enlightening
too long
refining
past due
healing
organic capital investments
ourselves
too long overdue.

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Dancing Across Together

We came across this Earth together
and you’re still here.

We sail through all these sunlight days
and moonless nights
togathered in,
and we hear still.

We swim through all our fears to drown
what fills my rage.

We march through angry Earth apart
and disappear.

Or dance across this Earth together
so we’re still here.

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Paying CreatorEarth Back

I hear at least two national conversations
that seem mutually contradictory
and equally impossible,
or at least revolutionarily improbable
as compared to normal win/lose capital extractive
hoarding habits
in robust cooperative investment accounts,
business as not necessarily healthiness usual.

I listen to “Third World” people of color
and colonization-enslavement history
more recent than the white serfs
and spear-carriers
of my own “First World” long-term memories.

Pleas for remediation
precede unpleasant declarations of independence
precede demands for remuneration, please?

But what does remediation look like,
sound like,
feel like
in the fracturing face of ongoing resource acquisition?

How are demands for independence
from First World aristocracy
different, and the same,
compared to demands of interdependence
for ecotherapy of win/lose global climates?
Internally heading south
in a negative lose/lose external way
and a pathological internal,
left-hemisphere capital-headed,
narcissistic way to play

Courageous warrior
against our own right-hemisphere curious feelings,
emotional win/win intelligence,
attachment within this interdependent web
womb of healthy EarthMother
creative regeneration stories
for ego-healing
ecotherapeutic remediation.

How would we begin to afford
to heal our win/lose capitalism colonizing history?

How could we undo past degenerative evolutions
of multiculturally thriving bioregions,
health-wealthy robust ecosystems,
ecofeminist cooperative healers,
peace-warrior creators
“carrying all the eggs,”
nutritional communication womb carriers,
yin-flow remediators of extractive historical violence
against each First through Third World other
and in capitalistically defined wealth
at war with compassionately refined health
of cooperative win/win
ego/eco-therapeutic systems within

And anthro/Earth-therapeutic global
through local
healing win/win systems health-wealth
secular-sacred
left-right
yang-yin
fragmenting remunerative new birth trends
as integrity regenerative.

Perhaps declaring my own interdependent attachment
with She Who Carries All Earth’s Eggs
begins my internal reparation
remediation
remuneration
for all the left-hemisphere dominant capitalistic win/lose games
I have loved
simply by honoring my Father over Mother

Rather than restoring my cooperatively interdependent EarthMother
bothNature/andNurture healthy co-arising circular first
and FatherSun
left-hemisphere enlightenment
eitherLight/orDark wealthy deductive
linear cause/effect second.

 

 

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Tocqueville Talk

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks to Western liberal democratic experiments,
great personal enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating kettle
of competing selected fish,
and usually not cooperatively resilient
for health optimization
of local community peaceful resonant wealth.

In Tocqueville’s time and place,
liberal democracy evolved from feudal win/lose pre-industrial aristocracy
overpowering non-elite serfs, and lesser natural organic beings,
royal kleptocrats,
universal white privileged patriarchs
by right of land and title inheritance
supported by Divine Might Makes Right
evolutionary theologies.

As Deneen liberally repeats,
capital-invested democratic consumer legitimacy
to cooperatively contract individually manifest
humane superior spiritualized dignity
is rooted in monocultural presentism,
fragmenting mono-generational cultural contracts
with multi-regenerational fields
and nutritional species
mellow meadows
robust mountains
and calm river valleys.

Where Divine covenants
signed, sealed, and delivered
to predator Aristocrats
were rooted in creeds
dogma
Divinely inspired scriptures,
psalms
sonnets
holy creation stories
sacred pre-historic memories,
usually of patriarchal governors
and their court-appointed entertainers,
fire-circle dancers
loyal soldiers
and oral legend-tellers,
poets,
singers,
lyricists,
fools,
seers,
prophets,
WiseElders.

Presentism fragments intergenerational liturgical-nutritional commitments,
argues Tocqueville,
repeats Deneen.

Yet liberal love integrates compassion
for all Earth’s regenerative/degenerative species
verbally historic and non-verbally pre-historic
patriarchal and matriarchal
deduced and induced
Divine EarthMother co-passion
multiculturally articulate co-enlightenment covenants
through cooperative win/win listening Time

Sacredly interdependent
natural/spiritual
traditionally nondual resilience
of Taoistic co-relational covenants

Indigenously spiraling
Yang/Yin
out/in
precessive/recessive iconic
dialogical EarthTime’s win/win sanctuary, ergodic.

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks
and appositionally implied opportunities
for Western/Eastern liberal democratic experiments,
great personal North/South enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating creolizing kettle
of competing win/lose
yet cooperatively win/win selected fish
swimming through climate surfing risks.

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Faith in Politics

Faith in politics is not popular.
Other than optimistic civics teachers
and elected office holders,
faith feels troublesome
when mixed with social empowerment
over Others.

“Others” holds and hides broad diversity:
children
women
people of color
prisoners
slaves
indentured servants
pets
cattle
sheep
farms
plantations
ranches
watersheds
melting ice caps
rising sea levels
polluted air
worn out topsoil
sewage disposal and highway and military systems
industrial production and consumption and devolutions…

Good faith in power
is faithful to power WITH Others,
WITH win/win co-aspirations,
and ego/eco-active non-ZeroSum hope
for health increasing more
openly contagious co-integrity.

Bad faith in power
builds reasons to justify
power against and over Others,
with win/lose evolutionary ZeroSum assumptions
about economic closed entropic-trending systems
currently favoring Western white privilege.

The faith

[belief
reason
emotional and cognitive intelligence
left-brain win/win active hope
and right-brain felt love, compassion, integrity, co-empathy]

of Messiahs

[and Bodhisattva PeaceCorp Warriors, global mustard seed planters,
Hiawathas and Renewable Energy (inside and out) Advocates,
and Ancient EcoFeminist Wisdom Healers]

is rooted in early cooperative intent
to push together toward light

[integral harmony singing Voices of Other
health
mutual empowerment
happy, inviting climate therapy
potential for personal
and global
integrity].

Good faith in politics
seeds active hope
for multicultural empowerment,
co-passioned love for synergetic health
as also true organic wealth.

Faith in healthy empowerment
is as original

[seminal
ZeroZone right-brain prominent
sacred
sacramental
integral
creative
rebirthing]

as our first pilgrimage
from EarthMother’s womb
into this timeless light
of healthy passage
into interdependent passions
yet including autonomous
re-creative tension
promulgating win/win revolutionary intent.

Healthy intent
to see with both eyes equally

[curiously
courageously
secularly Left-Either/Or
and sacredly Right-Both/And
cooperatively win/win
nutritionally strategic]

To hear
both future right-healthed
multicultures
and past left-wealthed
polycultures
listening with
and then speaking up and out for organic
Faith in health-power
multipoly-pathic Voices

Still wise enough
to avoid monopolizing integrity’s Light.

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First SunRise Service

My first great faith journey
involved exiting EarthMother’s nighttime womb,
without even a first language
except what RightBrain inherited
from noticing emotive taste and feel
and healthy/pathological touch
memories prehistorically Win/Win
and Win/Lose
and Lose/Lose souled
unsoiled either happy or mad,
learning both/and health-resilient midways.

From such humble nutritional/toxic expectations,
and win/lose annunciations
of EarthTribe’s integral potential,
wealthy yang opportunities and yin-unhealthy risks,
through adolescent win/lose romantic invested engagements

On through my own forty-year corporate adult commodified faith journey
ensuing
pursuing my great white-male privileged American dream;

A win/lose business-as-usual pilgrimage
toward my more recent retiring win/win destiny,
for healthy wise-elder now
unhealthy other-wise then

Not really a chosen win/win destination
freely destined to and as begun
with integrity of ego-me inside sacred eco-Other
co-passion for positive
healthy
rational/nutritional purpose

And perennial meaning
this old pre-cortical WiseElder right brain
we have anciently learned interdependence
does not believe in autonomous ego-mortality,

Right brain emotive intelligence
is not overly invested in left brain ego’s embedded fragmentation
co-arising feelings of righteous predative anger
and leftist prayers conserving lose/lose fears
of YangGod’s universally autonomous climate genocide.

Ego’s de-individuation
away from Earth’s healthy habitat
rejoining MotherEarth’s timeless individulting wombs
reproducing integrity’s conjoined co-passioning potential,

ReBecoming as I began
win/win re-entering memories re- and pre-historically souled
unsoiled
inside EarthMother’s first pre-cortical dark night

Becoming bicameral felt
effectively co-caused/effective
neo-cortical ego’s individuating day

ReComposing my first great healthy transformational
co-arising in/ex-formational
re-journey
re-membering my first great transitional
sunrise developmental
co-passioning light/energy service
courageously multicultural
vulnerably global
and transparently personal.

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She Thinks About Fame

She thinks about fear
with quick step of right foot

And thinks about why
as she swings with strong left

Why she can’t think
of a name
When he’s deep in his greed
for more fame.

Should it not be the case
famous greed has a face?
This greed for His fame
should have Her blazed name
for His infamous Self

Hidden
yet naked
green greed of Her ego-less
to be known
and renowned,
pre-nouned
and revered.

She thinks about envy
to be set apart
with slower right steps
toward most famous of all
on His left.

She worries Her right
to collectively fight
to forget her DearLord’s clearly wrong
infamous death,
A long-term event
in autonomous greed
known only in crossing
His terrorizing Left

He longs for omnipotence
She knows as lack
of changing endurance.

He belongs omnipresently right
She feels nowhere left
to polypathically go.

He wants righteous omniscience
She fears nothing left to learn

Where greed envy colonies
greet Her past sullen deeds
and furious inflamations
wrestling with fear
stepped out and in right
of fame’s polyphonic refining destinations
steeped left

Marching and arching
preening while gleaning
knitting while needing
sleeping while slurping
faming while lurking
blaming in shaming
disgusting and lusting
crusting while rusting
lacking more lucking

Infamous need
to find absence of greed
in original silent green
win/win ultra-nonviolet
Her passioning seeds
His humbling tombed greeds.

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