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Empowering Memories

As I age into merely spiritual memories
of those sadly/gladly left behind
in less/more egocentrically embodied forms

Co-acclimating/aggressing functions
feel more like contrasting/constrained flows
of positive/negative
sensory-neural energy,
communication systems,
nutrition/digestion networks
of regenerating/degenerating
natural/spiritualized memory.

It does seem
our spiritual advisors
lesson-givers
teachers
scripture narratives
stories
preachers
communities
economies
directors
democracies
theocracies
leaders feature
pathologies of heart
and mind
and body

Far more than how to positively mentor
healthily mediate
faithfully facilitate
co-gravitate spiritual wealth
of wide multicultural resonance

EcoPolitical creolization
and deep polyculturing resilient
healthy democratic
win/win GoldenRule co-governing non-kleptocracies

Some legally incorporated,
others more naturally
individually
egocentrically corporal
organic
physically organismic
holistic win/win organizations,

Not quite so lapsed
into emergent spiritual wisdom
of nature/spirit bilateral
left/right-hemisphere bicameral
yang/yin binomial
healthy balance re-consideration
re-membering
re-generational co-passions,

Co-arising dipolar co-acclimations
with and for and to
those suffering not wins as Loss
and/or Pain
around,
and now within, climate polyculturing us
this emergent eco-organic
spiritually self/other-empowering We.

I blame disorganized
apartheid,
separatist,
elitist,
supremely dissonant
wounded
lost
painful religious and atheistic fundamentalism,
patriarchalism
capitalism
left-brain denominationalism,
nationalism
apartheidism
dogmatism
racism
sexism

LeftBrain dominant incorporated thinking,
severing All from Nothing,
EitherConservative from OrLiberal,
Win from Lose
disconnecting wealthiest Win with Win,
Both with And,
Contrast differences with Compare synergies,
Cause with Effect with ReCause with PreCause
because we bicamerally can
and must
and will remember compassion
as healthy win/win communication systems

Naturally disconnecting
spiritually reconnecting
wealthiest co-investment histories
of spiritual
multicultural
and basic in-house
democratically communicating
organic
holistic health.

My own emerging natural/spiritual nondualistic experience,
eco/theo-logical bicameral systemic
reflections,
restorations re-imaging healthiest climax memories,
ego/eco-communion liberating images
imaginations
of pleasure and Paradise win/wins,

Work/play dreamscapes,
DreamCatchers of spiritual health
reincarnating ecofeminist wealthy active hope

For restoring Earth’s blue/green revolutionary peace,
regenerative justice
grown more sensory/sexually strong,
more robust
eco-empowering
ego-enlightening

Widening
stretching
deepening
deep ending
into more win-natural/win-spiritual balance

Pre-verbal polyphonic potential intention
spiritually polypathic felt,

Non-violently thought
spirit felt compassion,

Non-pathologically reasoned
healthy passions,

NonLoser win or lose
right-hemisphere intelligence
bright,
both/and cooperatively democratic
multilateral power sharing
light

NonPhysical pain focused,
NonCompetitive game realized,
NonAnthropocentrically privileged
spiritual health reflections
longings
belongings

On Earth’s universal revolving
life systemic
support history
of multiculturing global intelligence.

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ReStoring EarthPeace

Now that Restorative Justice
has raised her Gaian ecological purpose,
to restore multiculturing peace
in polyphonic
polypathic Turquoise Eden,
how do you continue to justify
a win/lose Retributive Justice evolutionary philosophy
of law and moral order
as contributing to healthy
win/win
regeneratively revolutionary democracy?

Asked the ecosystemic Judge
of UnitingNations jurisdiction.

Restorative Justice
was never intended to be effective
where either victims
or predators
are unwilling,
often incapable,
of re-engaging in cooperative
interdependent
win/win dialogue,
egalitarian discernment
in-between Trust
and MisTrust
and hostile DisTrust.

So you argue
win/win regenerative assumptions
of natural/spiritual creatures
are not safely,
and not realistically, accessible
for all the healing dreams and purposes
endemic to our Gaian muse of Justice?

An insufficiency
of experience
with healthy democratic peace;
yes.

And,
how will continuing to primally rely on win/lose retribution,
where victims and a healthy society
are presumed to Win
by punishing criminals
and Loser scoflaws,
lead us toward this noble,
and globally multicultural, goal
of achieving healthy democratic peace
for all Earth’s regenerative creatures?

Retributive Justice
is the State’s weapon
to protect the Common Good
from further injustice,
a deterring threat;
not a tool
or medicine
toward an actively remediating peace,
domestic
or international,
private
or public resonant health.

How do you respond
to peace therapeutic win/win possibilities
of multiculturally mediated dialogue
to bring together victim compassion
with wrongdoer remorse,
without hyperactive threat of criminalization;
As compared to current Retributive Justice outcomes,
case loads,
imprisoned and exploited populations
of marginalized misfits,
disproportionately poor
and dark-skinned?

Traditional patriarchal systems
do not over-invest
in democratic health
or rights
of our predative
and victimized,
traumatized
feminized
marginalized
raped and pillaged citizens,
as these are not well-established
in win/win cooperative investments.

I’m not sure
arguing for further patriarchal
competitive win/lose capital-investments
helps your justice through win/lose punishment
cause.
You invite the Court to question
whether anyone is capable of sufficient Trust
toward resiliently democratic peace,
internal as external,
to actively communicate egalitarian
restorative
healthy democratic choice-making,
Facing toward compassion,
facilitating win/win disciplines,
expanding ego-recentering non-violence
therapeutically mediating ecosystemic compassion.

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Attachments and Aversions

I wonder if
what Buddhist classic meditation teachings
refer to as “attachments”
and “aversions,”
a Western medical doctor
might label with different words,
such as addiction
and dissociative diversions.

In both frames
negative illusions may be recognized
and appreciated
as deep opportunities to learn;

Negative delusions are not accurately cognized
and are depreciated
as too risky
not to repress
and hide
from any therapeutic
transporting
transparent (not self-shaming)
and vulnerable (not self-blaming)
communication
with our contemplative EgoTherapist within
and our medical-model EcoTherapists without.

Positive illusions,
attachments and/or addictions,
may be accurately cognized
as sensory attractions,

Whether smells and/or tastes,
touch and/or feelings,
sight and/or sound,
eco-reception and/or mind/body communication,
exterior and/or interior,

May have potential
to therapeutically transport
away from addiction
and toward less ego-obsessive attraction,
and away from self-serving,
potentially predative, attractions
to positive sensory pleasure,
cooperatively intended
hoped
faithed
loved,
eco-politically
and personally
and bilaterally
and bicamerally healthy wealth
of becoming completely satisfied
sufficient
simple
centered in HereLeftYangSpace/NowRightYinternalTime
and in past sensory satisfying memories
and in future images
imagination of pleasures
climatically encompassing
all of the above.

Addiction to cooperative multicultural
multigenerational
regenerational
and bicameral
bilateral peak sensory experiences
could be a healthier opportunity
than addictions to competitive ego-monoculturing
and mono-atheistic
and autonomous predator/prey
sensory risk ambivalence

Where things don’t necessarily smell
or taste inviting,
don’t necessarily feel grateful to touch
or feel inside my mindbody,
don’t necessarily transcendently transport
when compromised win/lose beauty seen
and ambiguously uninviting truth heard,
falling short of healthy co-addiction
to Earth’s vast multicolored wealth
of sensory ultra-nonviolent
compassionate
EarthTribe Yintegrity.

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An Attractive Thought Experiment

In this thought experiment
Adults, at least,
have developed three types of attraction
and attractiveness,
chemistry,
positive and negative
and in-between energy:

Heart attraction,
romantically associated
with touch and feeling,

Mind attraction,
more cognitively associated
with sight and sound
and, perhaps, LeftBrain dissonance
and more competitive
predative instincts,

And root sexual attraction,
primordially associated with taste
and smell,
swallowing
and letting go
biochemistry,
neurologically informed
and exforming passions,
rhythms,
communion and disunion patterns,
non-violent/predative communication structures,
win/win resilient
and lose/lose dissonant,
LeftThought and RightFelt pleasure/unease/disease

Ecological and Theological,
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
physical and metaphysical.

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Positive Neurological Psychology

The problem with positive psychology,
said the good doctor,
it is too social science squishy,
not leftbrain prickly enough
for natural science pathologists
proctologists
urologists
cardiologists
and invasive neurologists.

I must concede
not prickly enough
indeed
said the polyvagal systems neurologist,
but sometimes premature complexity
looks like yet another chaos theory,
and sometimes spiritual prepowerment
feels like merely natural enlightenment
yet deja vu,
and sometimes too bilaterally sticky
predicts co-arising redundant dipolarity,

Neurological bilateral structures
of left meets right hemispheres
as West greets East
multicultural mediation
as ego hugs ecosystemic health-rooted trees
of reverse hierarchical
above Truth lies downside Beauty.

Mesmerizing,
I’m sure,
temporized the Earth Therapist,
while human nature
military-industrializes ancient cooperative relationships
the remainder of EarthTribes
continue to evolve and emerge,
breathe out and in
bilateral gooey prickles
social and natural
metaphysical and physical
ecosystemically informed egocenters,
communitarian capitals,
well-timed spatial places

Not knotted polyvagal positive theories
of EarthMother’s original neurological root systems,
bicamerally restructuring
to emerge new leftbrain capital-invested upstarts
of deductive
reductive
extractive
either/or dominant thinking

When too engorged,
unilaterally engaged,
prejudicially divested,
unknotted,
untied,
profoundly detached
yang v yin pathology
for sufficiently prickly/gooey
mountainous river valleys of in-between
ego/ecometric bardos balance

Living/dying
inside outside EarthTribe
cooperative bilateral empathy
ecologically theological,
naturally social sacred,
historically multicultural,
anciently new green organic age,
biological neuro-system flowing

Fractal DNA
primal four dimensional spacetime
not ZeroSum

ZeroCore
prickly full of Either/Or bilaterals
and gooey Both/And bicameral
not not empty
enthymematic reiterations
of prickly force Yang
and gooey flow Yin,
win/lose exploration
and win/win absorption,
exhaling capitals
and inhaling communions,
natural empowering light
and social enlightening beauty
of positive eco-political psychology.

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Positive Directions

If you have some negative judgment
aimed directly at me, and only me,
I prefer,
in fact require,
expect,
demand you verbally
and directly confront me
with that distancing blame,
assaulting my ignorance
and failures of compassion,
too active dispassion,
furthering Earth’s emerging win/lose dissonance,
violence,
toxic climates
and egocentric narcissism;

Or, informed more fully by nonviolent communication

I am feeling sad,
disappointed in our relationship,
shut down,
angry
because I want our mutual compassion,
my vulnerability to you,
and yours to me,
our cooperatively-held trust,
to invite your directly communicated curiosity,
your hypothetical questions,
your transparency
honesty
integrity
when you observe some message from me
that feels like it carries negative energy,
lack of compassion,
too assertive
past a tipping point of aggression,
a potential trigger for past win/lose stress,
traumatic experience,
miseries of unfortunate events,
dissociation,
cognitive/affective dissonance,
the momentary despair
of not being fully listened to
with compassionate appreciation,
as we each deserve
within this interdependent web
of win/win polypathic
polyphonic
polyculturing
ego/eco-political life.

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Soulful Relief

I believe
all Souls
when healthy
and wealthiest
are EcoFeminist Souls.

I believe
all EcoFeminist Souls
when health wealthiest
are safe NonViolent Souls.

I believe
all NonViolent Souls
when wealth healthiest
are secure CoPassionately Empowered Souls.

I believe
all Compassion Souls
when globally resonant
are Win/Win Gaming Souls.

I believe
all Win/Win Souls
safe and healthy
are Timeless ZeroZone Cooperative Souls.

I believe
all ZeroZone Souls
are resilient
but shifting
and changing,
multi-directional
and multi-regenerational,
dynamic,
living,
healthy BeLonging Souls.

I believe
all BeLonging Souls
are Earth’s same synergetic solidarity set
of timeless HolyWind positive enculturators,
HolySpirit creolizing cooperators,
Holonic EcoFeminists

I believe
all Holonic EcoFeminists
include sacred MotherEarth
and Her eternal Sun and MoonLight
Bright
interdependent
intersectional
international
macro-economic
multi-ecological
poly-theological
metaphonic analogical
HealthRights.

I believe
all Health Left/Rights
when wealthiest expressed,
and not merely capital-impressed
over-invested,
are cooperatively organized Left/Right Souls.

I believe
health/wealth is more importantly
and hopefully found
in what all EarthSouls believe.

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Therapeutic Touch

I would not defend inappropriate touching,
whether this touching is physically toxic
or verbally violent,
aggressive,
contemptuous,
beyond the pale of ego-healthy assertive,
reducing political economic subjects
to personal objectives.

Inappropriate touching
becomes much too toxic
in absence of therapeutic touching
of individual egos
and communal economic
eco-logical cooperative relationships.

I would speak out
reach out
listen to hearts and lungs and guts and minds and bodies
networks and systems and energy climates for appropriate touching,
physically therapeutic
care-giving as win/win compassioned care-receiving,
verbal warm accompaniment,
harmony-seeking,
felt resonance,
within our non-violent communication pale
of eco-wealthy communion,
LeftBrain empowering
and RightBrain enlightening

Further vast expanses
of spacetime positive touching,
energy exchange,
nutritional relationships

Resonant organic-balancing Earth,
Ego-felt and Eco-touching Resilience.

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Deep Primal Valleys

She darkly dreams in Anger Valley
discovered shortly after
Fear uncovered
by floating langorously downstream
to leave behind red hot footprints
of childhood work
and play
and pray for change,
health,
win/win co-passion healing,

Or terror aggressively swims upstream Fear
to warn future angels of light
against win v lose zero-sum evolving valleys
theoretically coming, climaxing frequent culture

Streams of chronic militarized lose/lose outcomes,
AngryGuilt and TerroristPanic,
predator v prey EarthClimate degenerations;

All regenerate Rapture hopes,
carelessly abandoned,
neglected,
dissociated,
disembodied abstractions
disarray
chaos.

Where first generation fear
predicts second generation anger
then moves forward
in ego-defying perpetuity,
self-fulfilling oppositional prophecies,

I can hate you
before you hate me more,

Only left-brain might makes RightWing reactions
against cooperative democratic
healthy
resilient
resonant
regenerative trust.

OverYang oppressions deny less frightened options
of Left with Right mutual multicultural balance,
deductive historic thoughts
with inductive cultural feelings,

Polypathic integrity,
secular with sacred PassionValleys,
NaturalPersons
with Ancient Originating DePersonalizing Spirit,
Ego within Ecological EarthResonance:

Primal ZeroZone Theology
flowing langorously/passionately
down and up YinValleys

Of Anger is
to reason
as Fear is
to passion.

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Commanding Solo Performances

It had been a hellish week.

On Monday
my lonely and tired AfricanAmerican husband
told me, as gently as possible,
that what I had hoped was a temporary separation
is to be extended into perpetuity.

This separation had been scheduled to terminate
when my Fetal Alcohol daughter turns eighteen
and can move into a new, more therapeutically endowed, home
not our non-group home
which could not feel like a private home to him
and to a more peacefully vulnerable me.

He told me his autonomy of residential sight
and sound
and smell,
temperature and feel,
thought and absence of forced transparent thought,
has grown ever more compelling for him,

Like a new life system
organically emerging from calcified minerals
mixed with melted wet.

This permanent separation,
less about not wanting to share a roof and walls
and multicultural floors
and more about wanting a more private
monotheistic habitat.

I had been working on my adopted daughter’s emergency group home application;
Her eighteenth, and first qualifying, birthday was Friday
of this same hellish week
filled with demands,
as usual,
but more so,
more self-prophetically entitled now;

A “big [supremely self-disempowering] girl”
as multiply messaged from school
and therapists
and family,
jonesing to live with submissive peers
who will best be lesser care receivers
as she intends to appropriate all care giving staff,

Demanding preferred foods,
and music
and stories
and dance,
and diaper change
and bed
and bath times
ignoring needs of lesser beings;

Like living with a constantly ticked off Gaia
showing us who’s our jealous Boss
in response to our climate endangering ways
of patriarchal colonization
disrespecting matriarchal communion,
ecological creolization.

Demanding routines she and I have evolved
since she was five,
unable to see up,
only downstream,
unable to hear well,
unable to speak in consonants
articulate enough to defy caregiver ignorance,
lack of subservient cooperation,
submission to her aggressively iron will,
triggering every slaveholder
property owner
reactionary nerve in my husband’s long-term
matriarchal-limned
unnerved memory.

Our more cooperative and trust-building relationship
soon took care of Gaia’s communication problems
but we created, thereby,
a princess entitled ‘I win so you lose’ monster
of immediate and really loud
NEED!

Yet, now that she is maturing to leave this nest,
how much do I need her
to keep me safely home at night
and off the larger terrifying climate stage
of degenerating ecopolitical performance?

On the following Sunday morning,
I was to sing “Let Your Little Light Shine”
a less popular spiritual,
and at least not unnatural,
gospel message;

A sung prayer from enslaved history,
humiliating origins surviving valleys of vulnerable despair
by holding up
and out
dim fading lights of hope,
sometimes accessible from other enslaved properties
with more resilient hope in green and brown and black
communion.

On Saturday night
my heart spoke of grief
lost in deep dark valleys
isolated
abandoned
down-sized
empty-nested
shallow-chested
ancient old person despair,

And my lungs sagged
pushing against narrow edges of freezing panic

Terror about forgetting left-brain words
and reminders of past sung and danced solo performances
not nearly as fun
enriching
fulfilling
health wealthy
as past group participation
in full-nested harmony
synergy
resonance
regenerativity
sacred communions spiritual
while naturally co-present

Green
and brown
and black,
ultra-nonviolet
and transparently clear.

On Sunday morning,
after earning a strategically planned
full night’s rest,
I felt much worse

Unable to imagine leaving my sanctuary
much less singing
much less performing
a song longing for the Lord
to shine even the faintest ray of hope
down into this valley of well-earned despair,

A grey climate of hopelessness,
nihilistic thoughts,
narcissistic preoccupations
trapped in a shrinking fragile egocentrism.

I took an anti-depressant
which got me to the church on time
but now feeling anxiously disembodied
within my own Beloved Sanctuary
too universally white
straight
and too removed from outside green
and family brown
and EarthTribe Native black resonant voices,
fragrances,
touch,
tasting and seeing.

I could not remember words,
or think of alternative reasonable sounds,
could not find my opening pitch,
felt deserted by a cappella
absence of accompaniment,
by a choir relegated to background support services
rather than foreground cooperative resonance
of care giving
co-passioning care receiving.

But, there was something else
bad,
REALLY bad,
a repugnance that stayed with me
through rehearsal,
through first
and then final performance
and on through the return home
after a technical tepid success
lacking the resonance of producing music
transcending rhythm and pitch and lyrics
demanding better held and managed light systems
for my self-isolating despair

Afraid of drowning
in this internal river valley.

Although not sure what happened Sunday night,
I awoke next morning to emotional fragility,
again
to fears of too much aloneness, loneliness,
worries about ageing in a place not quiet enough
from road rage
and too demanding of soil
and water
and energy stewardship,
warm accompaniment,
propriety of grace,
cooperative well-being.

What was different, on this reawakening,
was recognizing my,
and our,
monocultural misappropriation,
supremacist ideation
of “Let your little light shine”
as if we are, and I am,
the Lord’s great solo hope
for all the autonomous
disconnected
apartheid
indigenous nature/spirit
EarthTribe life-systems
of healthy care giving/receiving
singing and dancing in revolving circles
of gospel fire,

Choired resonantly together
in active shared home harmonies,
extending families back through enslaved ancestors
reminding an AfroCentric Lord
this light begins
from hope sung dance together
with multiculturally resonant intelligence

Leaving no one behind
trying to soulfully enlighten
my darkest valley of despair.

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