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When We Are Healthy

If we are not,
is this always the opposite of
when we are?

If we are negative,
is this sometimes appositionally
in creative tension with
when we are becoming more positive?

If we are a noticed absence
is this sometimes appositional
to we are not yet perceived?

And is this more oppositional
when we are an unnoticed absence
defying hostile misperceptions
we need never become known
appreciated
positively regarded?

A newly observed absence
merely appositional integrity
waiting curiously aware
we are not yet seen
known
regarded
appreciated
cherished

And yet,
or not
still surviving
where and when
we once together thrived

Or still reviving
why
now and then
Earth once healthy thrived
wealth of positively co-relating
co-empathic
co-regarding not retributively just me
as also
more positively
restoring restorying eco-we

If I am not
merely the opposite
of who we are becoming
together
more than appositionally apart

Reconnecting egos
oppositionally
defiantly unhealthy
unwealthy
indigenously unwise
anthro-supremacist upstarts.

Pestering parents
and teachers,
nurses
and preachers:
If we are not feeling
physically sick,
is this merely the EarthTribal opposite
of when Others are thinking
spiritually ill?

Plotting, may not be planning
designing, may not be re-creating
maligning, feels disaligning
threatening, couldn’t be encouraging
aggressing, feels spectacularly unkind
regressing, not impressive
dissociating, cause for not reassociating
divesting, feels like lack of co-investment
excommunicating, simply not communicating
colonizing, sounds like a malignant tumor rumor
punishing, seldom is rewarded with compassion
traumatizing, encourages self-stigmatizing
marginalizing, chronic traumatizing
terrorizing, critical traumatizing events

Wandering
wondering if we are anthro-healthy,
is this always the opposite of
when we are feeling EarthTribe uneased?

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Immanent Transcendence

Internal immanent powers
of panentheism
are nearly as traditionally endemic
to Western religious teachings
as is external transcendent light
of monotheism.

In scripture,
in Prince of Peace spiritual experience
and promise of Jesus’s teaching
rests prophecy of pentacostal panentheism

A radically liberating experience
of divinely manifest
Holonic Spirit
restoring peace
and global
inter-religious
multicultural
polycultural
resonantly polyphonic
resiliently polypathic justice.

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Living Healthier Together

That we are

And, that we are together
more than apart,

Rather than are not
and never were

Resourcing regeneration’s universal promise
for growing unitarian integrity

Is not our hottest question,
passion,
nor academic topic
for therapeutic conversations,

Curious and courageous
EarthTribe
developing health integrity

Robust
and wealthier
than ignoring how we struggle
through Western life’s capitalistic
LeftBrain dominant muddle
to the esteemed Paradise top
of a non-existent GoldenRuled patriotic hill

Beaconing and beckoning
enlightened thought/feeling relationships
of win/win togathering compassion
actively dispersing violent
degenerative Lose/Lose
unbecoming entropy

Reversing cooperative Both/And
overwhelming competitive Either/Or

BiCamerally in-between Win/Win v Lose/Lose
ecological
analogical relationships

InBetween patriarchal red Capitalism
is not togathering
redeeming
becoming
polyculturally healthy Green Communion

Of organic political integrity
overseeing
mechanical econometric technology

Unable to comprehend
how we are

And, that we are together
more than apart,

Rather than are not
and never were

Resourcing regeneration’s universal promise
for growing unitarian integrity.

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InterFaith Green Communions

A multi-religious mediator’s mission
might include supporting InterFaith Green Communion

And might organize community-based
EmPowerment and Enlightenment Missions
to cooperatively organize
polyculturally resonant
Voices

To enact and advocate,
to gospel sing and liturgically dance
to empower Eastern metaphysical contextualists
and enlighten Western physical embodied sexualists,
to left brain say
and right brain gracefully do

More resilient ecological
co-relationally mediated
cooperative win/win
Choices

To always appreciatively use
and support,
to invite our best and healthiest
nonviolent theological/ecological reflective
mind/embodied narratives
experiential stories
existential restorative
healing Voices

Best sung,
strongest danced in partnerships
and teams
supporting public folk-harmonic resonance
polyculturally harvested and designed
to restore green EarthPeace healthy justice

In spontaneously invoked
through well-planned
cooperative interfaith events
experiencing co-mentorship communions,
remembering how theology feels
becoming Earth’s greatest invasive Species

Forgetting to mediate
win/win optimal golden health rule thrival,
social wealth
of green cooperative
new deal vibe resilient survival

Multiculturally effusive
co-empathic working play intention

To rise each day
renewed
reconnecting
re-ligioning

A multi-religious mediator’s mission
to include
supporting InterFaith
CoOperative
New/Old Deal
Healthy Democratic
Always give first priority
to passions
bicamerally win/win expressed
when actively hoping
for self empowerment
and Other best sufficient
sacred co-operative light

Of ReCreative ReStorying Energy
CoPassionately Interdependent
Health/Wealth Faith
in Green/Blue
Nature/Poor-In-AnthroPrivileged-Spirit
Ego/EcoSystemic

Same old song
with all new co-mediating contextual
bilateral
bicameral
binomial
bisensory-neurological
TranSubstantiating
Creolizing Win/Win
Integrity of Potential Left/Right
Power/Light
InterFaith Liturgical Dance
and Gospel Choir Communions
for extracting invasive species

Adding more power and light
for and from
indigenous trans-generational wisdom.

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RightBrain Victims Speak

What if we live in and out
among and yet autonomously
with and sometimes against
LeftBrain dominant enculturation?

Colonization,
predation with ego-logical economic secular outcomes
too often predicting compromised long-term health
in exchange for conserving an evolutionary win/lose model
serving industriously degenerating corporate conglomerate capital expansion
of wealth devoid of health care giving and receiving values,

LeftBrain predation theologies of WhiteGod’s self-righteous might
makes historically aggressive colonialism
just more business as usual
“Bullying boys will be bullying everyone,”
what else could you win/win ecofeminist respect?

LeftBrain education in competitive win/lose evolutionary history
and patriarchally dominant enculturation
as a divinely inspired Creation Story

LeftBrain Paradise
and win/lose Rapturously exclusive
acrimonious monocultural dogmatic anti-systemic
fragmenting
degenerative
unhealthy theo-unlovely supremacist outcomes,
predicting lose/lose eventual outgoes
rather than win/win integrity incoming.

Climate reparations
in praise of Mother Earth
sounds incompatible with
“Those who have more
most will be given
by a patriarchal privileged colonizing Creator
of exclusive anthro-centric languages
and creeds
and elitist cultures
cynical about democracy’s most healthy unspecialized opportunities.

AND,
I still can also actively love
through a rightbrain sacredly engaging multicultural passion
for light
and passionate heart-throbs
and compassionately resilient health
and resonant wealth
robust therapeutic regenerativity of EarthWombs
wherever She has time and placed us

Ecologically empowering climate communion commencements
toward Paradise,
our original EarthVoices praising win/win revolutions
advocating resilient freedom
of cooperative community ownership
with optimal transparent security
of stairs and streets,
forests and oceans for conserving wealth
of healthy waters and mountains
throughout all past climate life extinctions.

In this noetic intelligence space,
those who have less integrity
receive more nutritionally robust sensory skills
more resonantly and cooperatively received
through a matriarchally resilient,
democratically win/win communioned
eco-covenanted regenerative history
of green resilient ecologically eco-empowering
co-transactionally cooperative Earth.

What if the One great seed of historic love,
like light,
like passion roots,
is known by many healthy multiculturing names,
Animus/Anima Mundi,
Holonic Nature/Spirit,
Kcinewis,
CoArising Yang/Yin DiPolarity,
Left/Right Polycultural Healthy Wealth Win/Win SpaceTime
Regenerative-Affective
Enthymematic-Noetic Communication Theory?

What if the original divine inspiration
for humane DNA-scriptured sacramental becoming
reborn on Earth
is also air-borne stardust
originally breezed and gusted
and flame fired across foggy warm oceans?
As sperm later embraced eggs,
as privileged egg-white nutrition
clings to healthy yellow-wombed yolks,
as prescient tombs co-acclimating
to incubate healthy bicameral intelligence,
ego/eco-temporal
heart-oriented,
health-wombed.

What if Lose/Lose
by fighting against
and flight away
were rethought
newly win/win imagined
as flight toward
and fighting in solidarity with life as opportunity
against disengagement from outside nature/spirit Voices
and for healthy humanely compassionate re-engagement
with MotherEarth?

Revolutions of historic matriarchal restorations
for active economic and political
sensory and sexual raw
transparent
vulnerable spots
becoming deeply emotive nutritional places
within affectively effective
EarthWombed
cooperational
slow-sweet leisure time.

Stardust breezy memories
feeding and lighting oceans of warm sense-nurturing images,
wealth watering embodied noetic health
for better climate empowering spacetime
ZeroZones not not universally open and principled being One
yet integrally compassionate rebecoming
timeless not not ZeroSum
ego/eco Win/Win mutual reparation partners
through MotherEarth’s global health
eco-empowering economy
of non-violent
co-passionate
multiculturally intelligent
communication about co-present light and love.

What if we live in and out
among and yet within,
integrity of RightBrain prominent
LeftBrain dominant
ego/eco co-enculturation?
Where health of one
is wealth of ZeroSum not not resilient Other
hearts with non-violent speaking minds.

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CoOperative Beings

Raison d’etre,
RightBrain’s voiceless shadowed FutureSearch
begets healthy past nutrition research,
both secular-natural Left centered
and sacred-spiritual Right symmetric,
cooperating Earth Patriarch/Matriarch Balance.

Restoring Food Justice,
reborn of Green polycultural ecosystemic fuel balance,
discovers appositions,
although not necessarily recovering oppositions,
uncovers mistrust without total LoseNature/LoseSpirit hopelessness–
anti-trust
anti-love punishing Totalitarian LoseLose
nihilistic guilty and terrifying Nutrition Injustice,
fuel-sucking vampiracy
begets pathological toxic competing errors
rapaciously reiterative ego-manic intent
fearing upriver anti-privileged pathological climates,
revolutionary chaos,
thunderous hellfire lightening
fuels frightening
sacred-secular ZeroZone 4D Witness Fields
of valleyed shock
and shadow awe

Begets overpopulated LeftBrain eccentric
anti-centric
Either EcoPolitical Patriarchal
empowered evermore
bully terrorists shall remain competitively privileged

Or cooperative fuel wonder and nutritional awe
beget LeftWing yin-squared theological
matriarchal watered Earth with patriarchal empowering Sun
equivalent
notnot privileged West-dominant wind worshippers
matriarchal whisperers
of ancient WinWin health history.

Food Justice
begets CoOperative Nutrition Restoring Justice,
Peace Climates through Ego/Ecological health/wealth
MileStone Soup Creolizing Research
begets Green WinWin
secular economic science wealth Left
with sacred ecological health Right co-development
begets ZeroZone polypathically optimizing
EarthTribe Tipping Point PositivEnergy trends
beget polyphonic deep learning
four prime health development stages
beget WinWin cooperative four-seasoned implementation strategies
beget past WinWin deep learning milestones
and current Win/Lose toward WinWin stepping-stone soup
integrity for healing sufferings
begetting competitive mutual stress tolerations,
chronic Win/Lose competing compromises
with HereWin/NowWin revolutionary potential
begetting physical nurturing fuel democracy
and metaphysical Positive patriarchal/matriarchal EgoEnergy

Future Health Search for rebirthing
potentially revolutionary LoseLose nature
through WinWin spirit creolization,
secular/sacred transubstantiation
humaneLeft with divine ElderRight
beget ecofeminist nutritionists and nurturers
beget matriarchal-patriarchal Christian and Islamic,
Jewish and Buddhist,
Hindu and Taoist (with a healthy bicameral sense of humor)
polypathic polyculturists
beget ecocentric green matriotic/patriotic ego/eco-loyalty
rewombing EarthMother’s First ReForesting Nation

EarthTribal searching polypaths
beget ZeroZone nutritional justice eco-pathic paradise
organically rebirthing baptismal wealth
of empathic health
enculturation,
begets spiral valley memories of DNA with RNA milestones
fractal 4D double-binding Anima/Animus Mundi
perpetually beget divinely humane origins
of polyphonic co-passion stories.

PositivEnergy Nurturing Justice
begets EarthJustice and Rights
beget camouflaged green
cooperative ownership
begets ecofeminist
Sacred Matriarchal reborn RightBrain
begets EcoSchool Village democratic cooperative ownership flow
begets Earth Goddess heave and hoe
rebirthing
Yang polyculturing integrity
with YinYin
begets WinWin
ZeroZone nutritional flow
begets FutureYin through PastYang
cooperative stepping-stone soup
creolizing research,

EarthBorn Ego’s
Anima/Animus Mundi
Holy Spirit/Nature
raison d’etre.

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Who I Am

by Spencer Dillenbeck, my son, age 19

A chunk of clay settling into its mold
A painting yet to dry
A matching hand I cannot hold
A block of cheese before its mold
But even I do not know why
The answer is unknown to me
A rock on the cliff I cannot reach
A phantom I can’t see

I am
ABOMINATION
An amalgamation of the things that have shaped me
But nothing really seems to…
fit?
work?
stay together?
feel… right?
It all feels so…
messy.
needless.
uncomfortable.
unwanted.
The clay has yet to finish molding
But the mold refuses to hold

A painting yet to dry
A matching hand I cannot hold
A block of cheese before its mold
But even I do not know why
The answer is unknown to me
A rock on the cliff I cannot reach
A phantom I can’t see

I am
DEFINITION
A story written by hands that feel foreign
They’re mine, these hands
Surely
The story is mine
Surely
It’s all… nonfiction
Surely
But the ink’s invisible to me
The pictures don’t match the words
Because they aren’t there
But when I watch others take my hands
and paint what I can’t see
It all feels right and natural
It all makes sense to me

A matching hand I cannot hold
A block of cheese before its mold
But even I do not know why
The answer is unknown to me
A rock on the cliff I cannot reach
A phantom I can’t see

I am
DISTRUSTFUL
But perhaps I should explain
I trust those I care for
those I love
And I feel obligated to
They’ve given oh so much to me
It’s the least I can do
But once they put the mirror up
And look into my eyes
I am the only one who cries
I am the only one who sees
my LIES
I can’t let myself stay this way
Too many things I want to change
But it all feels so strange
I can’t take this hand
I can’t take this chance
So many ways to alter my stance
But I feel locked into this trance
In which I glance
into the abyss
And the abyss glances back
I have to look away
I can’t look at this
I can’t look like this
I can’t act like this
I can’t be
this

A block of cheese before its mold
But even I do not know why
The answer is unknown to me
A rock on the cliff I cannot reach
A phantom I can’t see

I am
UNREMARKABLE
I don’t see what people see in me
I’m not special
or talented
or smart
or cool
or trendy
or fashionable
I’m not that finely aged jazz you see on the top shelf
That’s the good stuff
That’s what people think is best
Nobody touches it because they don’t want it to go away
They want it to stay
But I’m left deformed and in pieces
Not because people keep eating me
If that were it, there’d be more me to go around
But, really
I don’t want me
I just give myself away
Piece by piece
Bit by bit
Until nothing’s left
That’s what I think is best

But even I do not know why
The answer is unknown to me
A rock on the cliff I cannot reach
A phantom I can’t see

I am
I am…
I am who I am?
There’s too much I hate
So much to change
Not enough to evaluate
Nothing to see
Not even my glasses give me the sight I need
My eyes just aren’t able to focus
But everyone else has great eyes
Eyes I can use to see me
If I let them like me
change me
evaluate me
see me
Then I can understand
They can tell me
Who
I
am

Now
With all of this in mind, I’m sure
That you can see
That you can tell me
What I need to hear
Make it nice and clear
I’ve waited more than long enough
for this point in time
This fortune of mine
Look into my eyes and show me the truth
Tell me what you see in me
Be my special little sleuth
The only one who can deduce
This mystery of my history
is YOU

Who
am
I?

 

Written in response to my poem, “Who Are You?”

 

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ReGenerate Our Day

Natural ecosystems include biosystems,
like people,
ourselves,
those we love,
Earth,
enemies we love to hate,
plants and animals,
internal ecosystems living within biosystemic teleologies of time,
speaking in logos-dynamic language
of love hunting health
of light filling diastolic therapies,
of life as regene-relational holonic process
swimming in a vast surfing sea of medicinal becoming.

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Natural States of Being

Who were you today,
at your best moments?

Grouchy hermit
already missing quality dream times
and rhythms
when chimes greet pre-light’s crust frosty dawn,
to get Yang, then Yin, up and out of our sangha,
ready to enter their own daytime sanghas,
tired of such anciently perennial retired,
repeat,
reiterate,
Monday through Friday.

Notice
red coal scaly patterns
in blackened ash logs,
burning to fluffy carbon chalk,
nutrient potential for some soils,
although not mine,
perhaps my neighbor’s?

Joy
for a bright, although admittedly too intermittent, sun,
sliding in and out of hiding.

A smile,
where one would otherwise have been sadly absent.

Cold
feeling Arctic on my ears and neck
and nose
and through my nose out toward my aching bone marrow,
yet near my well-heated
and brightly lit
destination.

Ellen Fisher on NPR saying
“No one gets out of love alive.”
with so much enthusiasm and passion
for regenerative feelings and empathic maturing capacity
to manage anger’s ego-offense
with a strong remembering love’s co-opportunity defense
against high risk anthrocentric,
ego-bratty behavior.

Gratitude
for Yin political and economic cooperative opportunities
seeking harmonic balance.

Terror
of untimely rest as grace,
of older-wiser intent
without time to hear Earth’s glamorous response,
to newfound mutually speaking parts
and songs of dancing glances.

Gently eagerly lifting
blue tarp skirt
of my elegantly stacked woodpile,
seducing me with more fuel
for erotic clandestine fires.

Feeling Yang feeding on my third eye spot,
sucking in any embodied nutrients she might hope to find
within such grandfatherly care,
laughing together
at just how silly we appear
even to ourselves,
together.

Still,
yet contenting with this narrow midway
modestly chasing Gods of True Love reborn
long-married to Gods and Godesses of Angry Past Deductions
meet Fear of Future’s Inductive
dualdark function,
confluent dialectical ego-demise
sinking into moonfilled eco-hibernation.

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PermaCultural Advent

If yin is Time’s regenerate intention
then yang is Spatial Will,
emerging tri-dimensional plans and structures
of evolutionary form to grow
transform
polyculturally regenerate
yin’s advent of intending struggling void of Time,
transparently and ubiquitously extended,
incarnating timespace,
excarnating spacetime
breathing in as out,
ecoconscious within as without,
birthing midway Mass of BiCameral Peace.

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