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Employment Trauma

My protagonist today,
a Gay Black Religious Mature Male,
not quite ready for silver-grey Obama temples

Is off this morning
to a new full-time job,
8 to 5,
Monday through Friday.

He has been out of his calming,
regular custodial collared routine,
for over two years,

And has long been anticipating just this kind
of post-traumatic economic morning.

Up with the sun,
shower,
shave,
dressing just showman right–
not shaman flashy
but not beatdown polyester–
lunch in his red and white pristine cooler
generously filled with fresh
wholesome food

He is not feeling
like he will be able
to eat.

His stomach is Post Traumatic Employment Stress
churning.

He looks into his refrigerator
while telling me
he is in knots
and at least half a mind wishing to not show up,

To tell them he doesn’t think right.
Doesn’t feel he can get through his uncontrolled fear
and self-loathing for not manning up
while They background check
his suffering character references.
He doesn’t think or feel he can survive this day
even though he has no doubt he can do this job
better without Them.

He wants to give up,
walk away if he can’t freeze
in his more health and safety habitat place.

I am stunned into silence.
This is hard to hear,
to link up with how excited he was
to apply
and to get a call
from his would-be “nice guy” supervisor,
after meeting suspicious him.
He told me how surprised he was
to feel like this Straight White Male
was one of the good,
reasonable,
non-toxic guys.

Eventually,
after our anxious potential hero heads out
with heavy feet
and knotted stomach,
I recall how he might have felt
when he left his last full-time employment day,
dismissed
without notice.

His employment record reads “tardiness.”
But, off his common knowledge record
is a victim of systemic racism,
a supervisor’s personal superiority prejudice,
global heterosexist homophobia.

Victimized by StraightWhiteMales
for being who he is,
and not getting support from brown-skinned guys
he thought were potential allies
because he has no proper heterosexual credentials.

Talk therapy may be widely used
to prepare his LeftBrain to reconstruct
past traumatic experiences.
The therapeutic goal,
to resolve through better contextual understanding
in a LeftBrain verbal
rational way.

This can be helpful, I suppose,
but PostTrauma disordered victims
need PreAbundant nurturing anticipations
fading frozen fears
of further victimization,
economic and/or political trauma
due to personal identity rejections
that have historically been cause for criminalization,
colonization,
enslavement,
sending out evangelical missionaries,
in nationalistic Patriarchal/Capitalist
drunken salvific supremacist history.

Dissociative experience of eco-political trauma
is as deep margins felt
in our RightHemispheres
interdependent serotonin/dopamine fading flight
outside our BusinessAsCompetitionUsual,
patriarchal-capitalist,
Either in
Or out,
deductive verbal labeling LeftHemispheres

Capable of calmly,
curiously,
courageously distinguishing thought-out purposes
for our win/lose past behaviors
within an overwhelming evolutionary
Fight Makes Patriarchal/Capitalist Right
competitive manly worldviews
justifying punishing severances.

Trauma,
to ecological
and psychological
and economic
and political relationships,
deeply retains fear and/or anger
neuro-sensory systemic
terrifying memories

Post-Loser re-victimized
by re-experiencing active distrust,
dissociation
as the opposite of Attachment’s sacred experiential promise
of cooperative peace,
Win/Win behavioral and verbal communing safety,
personal health prosperity
on a planet growing in eco-wealth anticipating provisions.

In my protagonist’s developmental
special employment case,
I also hear theological trauma–
deeply felt shame
and blame,
and White-righteous Straight Capitalist/Patriarchal
judgment.

Such deep trauma responds most resonantly
to having a positive gain experience today,
this morning,
while filling out pre-employment paperwork,
feeling those he meets are divinely delighted
and delightful.
Then he may feel already a bit relieved.

He may, thereby, rediscover sufficient environmental resonance
therapeutic courage
to continue showing up with a positive,
let’s get it cooperatively done,
nonviolent gratitude attitude

To open sufficient hope
for potential healthy and safe team players,
we all need respect
for human and civilizing rights,
but we are transformed
by downright resiliently appreciative
multiculturally experienced values.

Each day, at work and play,
can invite affirmation
for polypathic transparency

The gospel’s “Poor in Spirit”
are our vulnerable person-ego identities,
expecting merely reasonable
eco-therapeutic compassion
and actively hoping
for polyculturally intelligent communication.

Best therapeutic practice
for anger
fear
hate
greed
exploitation
enslavement
criminalization
colonization
predation experiences
ruminating traumatic employment narratives
are new compassionate work and play environments
of cooperative courage
to get through our shared sacred vocations
in this another EarthBeauty
and SacredTruth
re-education day.

All Mattering Employment’s vocationally Great Again
meaning is found in our economically felt
politically experienced solidarity,
our cooperative win/win generosity,
our co-investment
in pro-active peace
and co-passion;

Not our traumatic enslavement,
repressive employment,
and past discrimination
by retributive Patriarchal/Capitalist
straight white gatekeepers
who have also had traumatic losses.

Perhaps our collective traumatic experiences
are more systemically acute
for those with more difficult personal
and political
and economic births
into a Straight White Patriarchal/Capitalist religion
where one’s own dark and queer embodied experience
may be unjust
unhealthy cause
for a traumatic can’t win Loser
Life is a slow
unfair death sentence

Uttered by LeftBrain dominant
Patriarchal/Capitalist
anti-peace communications.

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EnRiching Sacred KinShips

Be kind to others
As you would have even your ecopolitical enemies
and win/lose ZeroSum competitors
be kind,
feel kinship,
speak kindly,
listen cooperatively,
take turns co-investing in win/win solidarity
with ecological empowering
enlightening interdependent Us.

Be not unkind to
or against Others
As you would not have even your Lose/Lose
non-ecological monoculturing,
out of control,
beyond healthy curiosity,
runaway wealthy StraightWhiteMale privileged,
RightWing negative Patriarchal Capitalists
become un-ecologically unkinned
against you

With the nearly unforgiveable audacity
to camouflage
patriotic nationalism
with anthrosupremacist rights of Earth ownership
to remain stubbornly win/lose
against healthy matriotic ecological views
of cooperative co-empathic integrity

As also Green CoPassionate wants and needs
for polypathic communication

Refining win/win messages
healthy choices
wealthy voices
that regenerative democratic energy
is not necessarily not PatriarchalCapitalism degenerative

RightWing Yanged-out meanness energy
does not yet equal Yintegral Green LeftWing
exponentially spiraling synergy

As Yang equals not not ecological Yintegrity
exponentially squared

As EarthSpace that kindly matters
is also not not resilient Time
ecologically ex-potentially squared
in-formationally cubed
and kindly spiraling health dynamic
co-relational wealth

Is not quite the same
as either proving
or disproving
That controlling PatriarchalCapitalism
reversed through principles
of both polyculturing and communal
healthy root systemic wealth
begets necessarily ecological kind co-relationships

Not bipolarizing out of control
not judging
disapproving
criminalizing
punishing
taking win/lose revenge
blaming with leftbrain verbal dominance,
overpowering by shaming right mindbody
neuro-sensory
co-passionate prime non-zero kind attachment

Zone of internal
polyentheistic nondenial of divisive secularizing turmoil
inviting WholeEarth Tribal co-investments
re-memeing
cooperative Green Indigenous EarthWomanist
kind memories of PolyCultural Communalists

Who really just don’t have time
for all that nonsacred
monotheistic PatriarchalCapitalist sin
and mean ignorance.

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Complicated Relationships

In complicated relationships,
and complex story telling
with regeneratively developing
and degeneratively undeveloping characters,

Personalities with powers to inflict harmful
punishment,
and healing
forgiveness,

Shunning
and harassment
or compassion,

Neglect
and abuse
or solidarity,

Who switches from and
to positive
to negative,
and back again
first
and last

Depends on where and when we choose to begin
our journey down selective memory’s avenue
of speaking and reacting
and not listening and responding,

But this primary choice
of Alpha and Omega point
is further influenced
by what we choose to notice
and assume is perceivable,
malleable,
alive

And what we fail to remember
to reconnect
to return again
to restore
to omit
to set aside
to assume

Among all our political and economic
civil and uncivil history of individual relationships
and family systems
and community networks
and EarthTribe polycultural species
come and gone before
on Earth’s round revolving stages
of unfolding
unraveling

And refolding
reforming
redeeming
rewinding
regenerating
restoring historic healthy relationships.

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SunLight SolAttitude

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through windows dawning bright,

A sharp shadow line
vertically cuts across my bridge
and brow of smell and seeing senses,

InBetween left within shadow
and right without radiance,
narrow sides of double-bonded Truth,
curious and hidden Beauty.

Right eye clearly articulating
bright prominent sight
dominantly lit up height
for best resonant enlightenment

Is blinded by bright
to not fight
automatic rays deflecting night,

While shadow Left,
not yet overpowered
with Right red-eyes blinded punishment,
benighted verbal authority,

BiLaterally
yet integrally knows he she sees
seas
and seasons dipolar co-arising contrast
best as starkest
never darkest
win/win economic dawning options
of BothLeft/AndRight gold radiating rain
in droughts known
through beatified non-pain,
bicameral light regained,
empowered feelings unslain

Again
full bicameral stereo polyphonic,
Radiantly healthy thoughts
not verbally sustained
without dark ultra winnings
winging out and in reimaged, full
golden silent solidarity
mountain-rivered,
ego-system eco-quivered,

Belonging to Earth committed bright
compassion soul
ZeroZone of full
new partial shadows
in light rememory,
undelivered solitude
for health safe night

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through this window just now dawning bright.

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Mercy’s UnBlind Justice

I suspect mercy may be more resiliently empowering
for optimizing multicultural health
as compared to uniform law
and ordered, cookie-cutter, justice
unresponsive to ubiquitous mitigating circumstances
of unique spaces
and relentlessly changing times.

Mercy recognizes society’s environmental
historical contributions to loss,
to absence of equitable justice
more aware of each individual perpetrator’s responsibility
to society
to family,
to local community

Society’s justice,
without nurturing
restorative mercy,
speaks decontextualized
un-nuanced authority of capital-measured economic systems
including reasonable and fair expectations
of retributive law,
imprisoning neglect
and sometimes violently punishing order.

I wonder if both justice and mercy
improve therapeutic co-arising potency
restoring merciful justice
AND
revising metaphysically just
equitable
reuniting mercy,
co-redemptively resolving
what Earth has positively conjoined
in thoughtful truth
and felt beauty

Breathing,
re-animating,
enspiriting
inspiring nature’s in and out climates
of seasonal development,
undevelopment,
redevelopment,
anti-development,
pro-development,
fractal phases of leftbrain space
mercifully greeting,
halfway meeting,
bilateral rightbrain TaoTime

With merciful multicultural anticipation,
so less competitive room
for monoculturing white justice anxiety.

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Dominating Capitals

Competitive capitalism
is about dominance,
which increases separation,
space between Winner haves,
and Loser have-nots

Degenerating into polarized views
more culturally dominant
than old-school cooperative middle
in-between
socio-economic median disappearances

Away from civically active democratic imagination,
focus,
functionally experiential frames
favoring cooperative democracy
over capital plutocracy.

Democracy is about win/win bicameral consensus
which grows integrity
between co-investing Haves
and HaveNots,
depolarizes our EitherHave/OrNotHave
eco-politically valued lives

Mediating in-between re-membering,
reweaving multigenerational cooperative
matriarchal empowering history
of mutually enlightening democratic health care

Through cooperative ownership
stewardship
citizenship
home and meal management
integrity of co-responsive thought and feelings,
polycultural communication
and multicultural energy systems

Refracting integral re-MEMEory
left-hemisphere empowering
right-hemisphere energetic win/win
neurological waves of light.

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Meditations on Regeneration

In meditation,
formally creative
and informally recreative,
and in similar forms of conscious self-medication,
and assiduously non-violent internal
yet bicameral communication,

In all these ways of remembering meditation,
my mindbody neural-sensory receptors
enjoying respite
from win/lose monopoly
either/or monotony
leftbrain limited theophany
monotheistic and obstructed
by my autonomously segregated human bodymind

Resident of humans only need apply
for sacred ecologically co-relational consciousness
win/win regenerating
HumanEgo/EarthEco
Incorporated Global Management.

Integral multi-creator possibilities
for passionately impassioned compassion communication,
leftbrain verbal
and rightbrain humane felt
non-verbal non-voices
of positive healing
empowering
enlightening co-investment

But, too often
sequestered in human supremacist apartheid,
negative thinking images
of wildly unenlightened
disempowering detachment
from inhumane historical responsibilities

Infinitely bilateral bromides
become fully win/win restored justice promise
when human meditating spirits
choose to reinvest
in Earth’s creative
democratic
dialogical
Ecological Political Nature

Wildly free to loyally,
peacefully,
joyfully,
polyphonically wander
among interdependent natural/spiritual,
outside/inside,
binomial/bicameral/bilateral
metaphysical both/and co-arising
all creature co-empathic paradigms

Experiencing rebirth
through primal ZeroZone solidarity
for winning essential global health
to also win potential meditative
therapeutic existence
in more than AnthroPersistent,
no less than EarthCreation Resilient
sustainable EarthTribe wealth

EgoEmbodied
multi-cultural physicality
yet also re-cognized
EcoPolitically metaphysical

Empowerment extended far beyond
mere LeftWing humane
enlightenment becoming
less RightWing domesticated

Bicameral consciousness
ensnared by delusions of grandeur
in permanent Homo-sapien privilege
as decreed by a jealous monotheistic god
for contemplative healthy humans only,

Polytheistic
and/or atheistic flies
and mosquitoes
need not apply for well-being inclusion,
for win/win co-investment,
regardless of contemplative
wild world vision
and wilderness intention
to exterminate inhumane
bloodthirsty pests

Democratically prescribed
by all creation’s living WholeEarth rebirth
and proscribed
by each creature’s
and species’ deadening unbirth.

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Dad’s Control Issues

Have you seen,
or even felt,
an historical coincidence
between monotheism
and patriarchal theism
and competitive ChosenPeople
monoculturing control issues?

Have you heard
resonant compassioned languages
polyculturing herstoric redevelopment,
ego/polytheistic
nondualistic integral multi-regenerational experience
in-between cooperative ecomatriarchal green theists
and competitive multicultural EarthTribe Circles
thrivalist Ecological Interdependent Spirals
co-empowering multigenerational ReCycles
within co-operative
ego/eco-empowering
Left/Right-Economic Winging
singing bicameral
enlightening secular/sacred bipartisan
co-governance

And Win/Win co-investment
in sublimely divinely competitive
yet playful teams
and tribes
and local community opportunities
to avoid win/lose survivalist
patristic devolutionary risks

By embracing win/win thrivalist
ecofeminist revolutionary opportunities
to polyculturally embrace compassion
when we are at high pandemic
rabid fear and anger frisk.

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Empowering CoInvestments

Feeling economically extorted
is like recognizing our collective guilt
regarding past ecological extractions.

Cooperative motives
for proactive economic health investments
are harbingers
re-enactments
co-investments in positive
resiliently democratic
ecotherapeutic communication outcomes.

Economic justice
of a particular exchange,
of any one transactional communication event,
depends not only on the mutually invested/divested
short-term
and decontextualized
un-historicized local outcome

But also,
restorative economic justice
moving toward global cooperative communication peace
depends on mutually non-competitive
non-violent
co-passionate investment intent
for long-term
historically re-contextualized
ecological health benefits
to our global regifting,
gratitude enlightened,
politically empowering economy.

Extortion is reverse face
of pro-active giving
gifting
gracing
forgiveness
liberating redemption
from isolation,
non-communication,
excommunication,
marginalization,
criminalization,
starvation,
extraction from our social capital economy
predicting more global extortion
from our communally wealthy
ecologically healthy
relationship patterns.

So too,
extraction is reverse face
of reinvestment,
natural regeneration,
spirited sacred redemption
of co-investors hearts,
co-messianic hands and feet,
co-bodhisattva roots
fed by historically multicultural,
economically wealthy voices
and ecological healthy choices

For deeply empowering
enlightening absence of distorted
competitive
extractive
kleptocratic extortion

Of historically empowered Haves
from monoculturally disempowered,
poor in spirited, HaveNot

A fair share of healthy communication potential
for re-investing
in cooperatively empowering
compassionate co-investments

And not so much feeling forced
into economic extortion
furthering ecologically unhealthy extraction
from resiliently wealthy co-investments
in future health restorative
regenerations.

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