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LongTerm ReAssessments

Dad,
how old were you when you first tried THC?

It was not until my freshperson year
at the University of Michigan
when you could not go from one end of any dorm
to the other
without inhaling that not really oregano oily fragrance.

Why were you such a late bloomer?

As I recall,
back in premillennial times
those who were high school pot heads
were recognized by all,
including themselves,
as destined for malodorous lifetime outcomes,
if not outright sociopaths
then at least hopeless malcontents
and scofflaws
without civil redeeming value.

Really?
So how did all that play out?

We were correct
in these pessimistic predictions
at least in large part.

You don’t sound surprised,
as I so hoped you might.

Only because
those of us who waited
until we had high school graduation credentials in hand
fared about the same unremarkable neither better or worse,
certainly not rewriters of history
as far as I ever heard.
And,
although I might well be mistaken,
those who self-promote
as never having inhaled
either sooner or even much too later,
have outcomes possibly least happy of all,
except for those who also
have not found enough real food to eat
or too much booze to drink in one remorseful night.

Interesting.
I hope that is a population of zero
in my postmillennial era.

Watch out for those who deny evolution as evil.
They are those least likely to learn
from our mistakes,
thereby proving the foolishness
of their own anti-evolving theories
about traditional unchanging consciousness
and humane nature
and EarthMother’s sacred spirits,
inhaling to exhale,
reweaving nature out with nurture in.

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Praising Our Feminist Wind

Our forest habitat
gusts breezes
across our skins,
as darkness slowly turns
toward bright sky light.

My son
who cannot walk
nor speak his name
talks vociferously forth and with
and adding as this morning breeze
together part of Her embrace,
playful tickles
across his advocating happy Yanging face
teaching out and taking in, as possible
what and whom is impossible
for any of us to see,
whether blind as he
or sighted as we
might actually hope to be.

D is an avid scooting son
toward virgin forest greetings,
able to smell and feel morning seasons and rhythms
of days and night,
dark and persuasively gusty bright
flow of solar and lunar breezes
across our democratic EarthBound skins,
nurturing solidarity
older than concrete avenues toward cities
of overwhelming unforesting,
unraveling
tribes producing what once was nutrition,
good food more than fake food,
healthy love of gusty bright mornings
over toxic repressed-yin darks,
nightmares of climate acclimation
to separating multi-sensory linguistic pathologies.

D’s life is liturgy of love
blemished only by occasional aversions to entrapment
and suffering alone
when we might become possible
to produce healthier webs of cooperative nurture
together,
Dad and D
as We.

Daranyani D,
celebrating sacred forest winds
as feminine matriarchal principles
gracing his brown naked skin.

Diversity of days and holonic nightdreams,
democratic nutritional pluralism,
principles of forest reweaving civilizations
older than cities
surrounded by fading cultures of wealth
through deforesting this EarthTribe Morning
which,
on its very best warm gusty day,
has become worthy
of concelebrating Daranyani D’s
forest optimizing breezes,
liturgies of EarthTribe’s
Secular Out and Sacred In
brightest elder
matriarchally principled
(0)Soul bilateral sacred brain-dance,
Elder RightBrain
Still-PolyCulturating Light-RainDance Choreographies
Sacred (0)Sum EcoPolitical
BiCameral Green-Dominant.

Just like his preachy, but basically happy, ElderDad
co-eco incarnating
our forest habitat
gusts breezes
across our skins,
as darkness slowly turns
toward bright sky light.

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Sacred Ecology

I first ran across this term
Sacred Ecology
while reading Gregory Bateson
sharing a phylogenic
and holonic creolization
of biological ecosystemic language
with others speaking of integrity
as more primal and powerful
than ecopolitical and psychic separations
of ecosystemic feelings-Right Sacred (0)Soul
and egocentric developing language facts-Left Secular (0)Sum,
balanced together
also captured by WinWin Cooperative-Matriarchal Gaming Cultures
following Nutrition’s ReGenerative Flow.

Vandana Shiva,
in Staying Alive
Women,
Ecology,
and Development
might agree with my own growing appreciation
for Matriarchal Reparations.
It’s time, straight guys,
to return Earth to more Her/His
Yin/Yang
cooperative Tipping Point balance,
rather than perpetual patriarchal squabbling.

Outcomes Ms. Shiva prescribes,
with some Taoist-Zeroist embellishment
are as follows:

1. Grow matriarchal localization and eco-regionalization
instead of ever more patriarchal lives matter most globalization–
Which looks a great deal like competitive capital-infested nationalism.
So, a corollary of #1:
Decrease ecopolitical fascination with national patriotic identities
as both too egocentric large and too Earth-uncentric small,
patriotism as anti-matriotic repression
within nationalistic supremacist ego-identities.

2. Yin as WinWin nonviolence
instead of competing over-aggressive Yang domination,
Right with Left bicameral balancing,
as per Edward DeBono and Julian Jaynes,
and maybe Gregory Bateson’s double-bind
notnot Sacred WuWei Ecology,
also spoken of by Ronald Laing
as a pathologist
and by Positive Psychologists
of diverse healing campuses
and therapeutic vocabularies.

3. CoOperative equity
and nondual co-arising reciprocity
instead of overbearing toxic competitions
within global through local
economies and sacred ecological politics.

4. Respect for sacred matriarchal nutritional integrity
of nature-spirit bicameral consciousness
and all Earth’s spiritually-naturally integrative co-arising species.

5. Understanding humans as part of,
instead of as patriarchal masters over,
natural-spiritual ecosystemic climates
and bio-systemic interior and exterior landscapes.

6. United Nations matriarchal protection
of nutritional production,
rather than fake junkfood,
overly-commodified and domesticated,
and put out as totally commercial bullshit pasteurized health assurance realities,
and promotion of biodiversity polyculturation
in cooperative production
and actively balancing Yin/Yang co-arising consumption,
education,
deep sacred ecological learning,
as also matriarchal/patriarchal uniting nations wisdom.

I recently heard some talk about United Nations structural reform.
At first,
it seemed to have nothing to do with Sacred Ecology,
or any active hope thereof and therefore.

Yet, I wonder if we might consider
restricting national delegates
to previously poor and disenfranchised women of color
with their GLBT global through local alliances,
at least for a postmillennial era
for redeveloping
reweaving
climates of cooperative health
rather than more of nationalistic
and sexist
and racist
and violent Other.

This might be called Matriarchal Reparations
for ecopolitical change
driven by (0)Sum WinWin
restorative reforesting peace and justice
for all EarthTribes
uniting integrity as nations
actively supporting WinWin bioregional health networks–
which would most certainly require an upgrade
in our ecopolitical wealth reparations
for restorative EarthJustice.

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Rivers of Degrading Memory

Once upon a time
I was merely prescient
in the genes and blood
and air and water
and other ingestions
of our ancestors.

Among these were Elders
who may have stopped along the banks
of the Connecticut and Hudson Rivers
to drink from their sacred streaming source
and fish
and camp under maples and oaks nearby.

When these elders come within prescient me
to see these same rivers now,
perhaps from nearly the same spot,
now an eight-lane concrete highway
for transporting faster capital-invested competitions
lacking sufficient slow river-time for healthy redevelopment,
together we hear and smell,
but dare not taste
nor feel compelled to feel
cool once-clear bathing and drinking water
as when we were here
back in the day
and nights of great river love
and life,
happiness and vocationing prosperity
with plenty of clean and delicious water
and fresh fragrantly invigorating breezes of quiet joy
with pine needles needless
under sometimes naked running feet.

But we,
my generation
and that before
and before
back discontinuously through industrializing
and commodifying
and commercializing
and capitalizing degenerations,
we are now trying to remind ourselves
that what we currently must not drink
or even taste,
probably don’t want to touch
much less smell
and even less actually jump into it
and all the broken glass
and rusted car parts
embedded in its toxic death bed,
this is what we must accept as our new normal.

This unraveling of my Elders’ rivers
to the point of toxic exhaustion
is my expected price of admission
to all my New England happy birthdays
for continuing prosperity
and freedom and dignity for all,
except the rivers
and the air
and those they feed,
and the pine needle kindling
that remembers our Elders to this day,
back when we were more cooperatively invested
in asking and responding to
Why can’t we all just get along
together?

Rather than compete for how rationally
we could tear apart
memories of Elders
first seeing and hearing and smelling
promising prescient delights
of bountiful Hudson
and Connecticut Rivers
still healthy flowing
for and with and of and in their great grandkids.

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Mother Earth CommercialIsms

Mother Earth
brings virgin birth
to hunting and gathering EarthTribes,
reforesting and rechorusing choreographization,
ionizing and lionizing harmonization,
ergodic rhythmed and seasonally rhymonizing,
thermodynamic and radiant ecstaticizing
native First Nations
through Last Shall Be First ReCreations.

On the more RightWing side,
the commodified planet of earth
and water
and air
and fire
to be aimed at
and against
each other
is what’s rightfully,
if somewhat ballistically, left
of the raped and pillaged,
drilled and fracked,
industriously enslaved
Breeding and Bearing and eventually Butchered Bitch
once known as Sacred Mother Earth,
as venture-capital invested
by Father SunFire.

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Beloved Sacred Communities

Prisons fester further desecrating guilt by association
as churches
and synagogues
and temples
and mosques
foster sacred innocence through re-association,
communion of the wanna-be saints
and Bodhisattva suffering warriors
for EarthRights Peace and Justice.

When our faith communities
feel like monoculturing monotheistic prisons
of fundamentalism,
then our non-elite prisons
begin to sound more like gospel protests
against further guilt containment
through hypocritical disassociation
with the great unwashed sinners
and economic cheaters,
and politically competing liars,
and lack of polypathic lovers.

Ecology is about oikos,
home,
habitats of and for progress
noticed in two appositional directions;
progressive enrichment of nature-spirit systems
and regressive decomposition,
loss,
guilt,
failure,
heading toward death unless balance can be restored
to help our systems
become more cooperatively resilient,
from prison through cathedral
through capitols of nation-state investments.

If decomposing guilt
can grow through imprisoned associations
then no ecological surprise
that regenerative innocence of Bodhisattva Saints
can grow through polypathic
polyphonic
polycultural
poli-economically balancing
positive nature-spirit good faith communities.

If we removed more not-funda mentalistic bad faith
from GoodNews communities,
then perhaps we would become clearer
about how we each and all live love between guilt
and innocence,
associated with fellow prisoners
and hardy integrity of mutual trust investors.

Prophets of prison habitats
as our own defensive nation-states
grow in violence
and enslaving racism
and addictive sexism
are tragic comedians,
self-fulfilling and perpetuating
hate and fear futurists
predicting necessary further bad descending climates
of evil ecopolitical faith
and further Business As MightMakesRight Usual
guilt by disassociation from ecological wisdom.

Mentors of good faith communities,
polypathic and polycultural health outcome predictors,
investors,
are, sadly,
about as likely to be found on death row
as in the back row of kneelers and prayer rugs.

Our loss of faith in a resilient nature-spirit future
is also our gain in bad faith resolves
to continue disassociating
from impending climates of violence
and supremacist nationalistic racism
and monoculturing sexism

Imprisoning separations
inviting regenerativity of GoodNews,
sacred ecological reweavings
re-integrations

Suffering and guilt and grief
inviting healing of cooperative ecotherapies
from death row to front pew,
EarthTribe patriotic health
of good faith solidarity.

An anti-ecological denialist notion of systemic ego-identity
derives from over-active disassociations
from our native nature-spirit imprisoning wombs
inviting rebirth
into Left with Right
Ego with EcoConsciousness
of prisons opening revolving doors toward good faith
and fundamentalism’s bad faith closed doors
against EarthTribe PolyPathic Solidarity.

To be present to our own imprisoning pain
is to grow toward communities of habitual polyculturing outcomes,
cooperative economic investment
in political solidarity,
mutual trust among all Sacred EarthTribes,
living in profoundly sacred animated forests
and oceans
and deserts
and full through new moon stardust skies.

Beloved EcoPolitical Communities,
where half sacred cooperatives Yang-full
also see and hear and feel
notnot half degenerating Yin-emptying
flow of nondual co-arising
double-binding WinWin
wu-wei
Tipping Points toward TaoTime.

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Open PolyPathic Universes

Open polynomial eco-metric universes,
multiculturing systems, inside and out
Zero-0 Core RealTime 4D GeoBalanced SpaceTime,
bilaterally harmonic now,
between past and future trending relationships,
WinWin, regenerational
WinLose, through
LoseLose, decompositional.

History’s regenerate cooperative
and decompositionally too-competitive Yanged,
speak together in fractal double-binding appositional octave spirals
of color and music and revolving seasons of health,
rather than dissonant, irregular, special cases
notnot polynomials of reverse-Yintegrity,
nondual co-arising dipolarity
rather than dualistic co-gravitating bipolar monopolistic angers and monoculturing fears,
reweaving dualdark Sacred Black Hole
integrity of potential ecological spacetime warm-wombed relationships
as regenerationally seen and heard,
smelled and tasted,
felt as sacred sensed,
nondual co-arising Tao-RealTime,
4D BiNomial folding and unfolding and refolding
inviting Open EcoPolyPathic EgoSystems
of CoOperative (0)-Soul Integrity,
from which we all began,
EarthTribe
born of Mother Earth’s RNA
and Sacred Great Father SunLight,
Eulerian (0)-Core Prime Relational, fractal-DoubleBind Torus ReGenerational,
polyphonic homology of DNA
born of RNA regenerative WinWin ethology
of Earth’s HealthyWealth Optimization,
LeftInterdependent Love-Yang
DoubleBind Balancing
Right-Vacuous Universe NotNot (0)-Sum YinYin
equals WinWin short through long term
polycultural sustained climaxing revolutionary Yang-ego/WinWin-eco-consciousness.

Economic Yang climaxing (Fuller, aka precessive)
Political WinWin co-gravitating,
nondual ego/eco-balance,
(0) 4dimensional RealTime,
Here as also balancing Now,
bilaterally past speed of FatherSun’s Light
through and for and of
Mother Earth’s not quite foreseeable
yet ecologically equivalent nutrition/toxin
dualdark-fractal/octave/spiral
Historic Nature-Convex/MetaPathic EnCulturationSpirit-BiLateral ConCave Futures
regenerative ego/ecoEarth-patriotic-democratic-multi-consciousness,
empathic co-awareness of shared light/dualdark tribal identity,
Yang/Yin
Left/Right
optimization of ecopolitically cooperative WinWin,
positive equals double-negative nondual integrity,
double-binding 4D pasts through (0)-Soul binomial-binary reverse-Bayesian CoArising EcoPolitical CQI futures.

(0)Sum’s YinYin Suffering, LoseLose
also brings (0)Soul Yang’s Redemption, WinWin,
and every stumbling reforesting Eden project
in-between
wu-wei
Tipping Points of EcoPolitical Trust
in Ego/Eco-Conscious PolyCulturing EcoPolitical ReEducation,
regarding LeftBrain’s history
of patriarchally competitive violence,
and lesser forms of over-extending stressful dissonance,
paranoia,
sleep deprivation
from playing LoseLose Monopoly Games
when not bored during Anger Management Sessions
in a formerly BiCameral Congress
of and for EcoPolitically Expanding Democracy,
as ReGenerative Natural Law Original First Native-Constitution Intended,
prayed for,
and of,
and to,
and with
Mother Earth’s further Regenerative Games.

If metaphysically ecological pi
were ever to become metrically-systemically-dynamically equivalent
with physical (0)Core bilateral TaoTime,
then polynomial health trends
could nutritionally balance polypathic WinWin wealth trends.

Or
so it has been said
since atmospheric winds of healthy light
first blew across Earth’s dualdark wealthy fractal-octave waters.

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Community Gardeners

I’ve noticed
since early years on the family farm
with large matriarchally planted and harvested gardens,
that food,
for moms,
is a natural,
and yet also spiritual,
communion relationship.

Nutrition evolves from and for communal relatives
of which we are ourselves made
and nurtured into healthy interdependent maturity.

By remarkably disappointing contrast,
food, for the agribusiness farmer,
is a commodity,
owned,
to be used,
sold for cash profit.

Food,
on this patriarchal side of the ball and chain,
is a product
with market valued nutritional properties.

On the matriarchal side,
a cooperative relationship born of Mother Earth,
mutually nurturing characteristics,
functions primally interdependent
within a (0)Sum Commons
heart of our multiculturally shared food chain.

And, so it also seems
a Left and Right Brain nutritional inter-relationship
prevails between matriarchal cooperative habitats,
nests,
hives,
homes,
neighborhoods,
villages,
polyculturally incarnating within patriarchal competing properties
with commodified values and disvalues
on the real estate buy low and sell high market,
as often as possible,
to accumulate as much wealth as possible,
in defense of starving drought-induced wilting future commodities.

For a multigenerational family farmer,
selling one’s own nutrition-invested history
could only be a once in a defeated lifetime event;
invested too richly
beyond competitive commodity market values
for realtime property
even with unusual nutritional properties.

Buy low and sell high
for agri/bio-business
is more of an annual plant and birth
and harvest and butcher
process in the commodities market,
while farmhouse with garden real estate values and disvalues are,
well…
you gotta live somewhere,
right?
Why not where you work,
and have plenty of room
for the little wife’s gardens?

Vegetable and flower,
feeding the kids
and nourishing the colorful fragrant neighborhood,
while dad competes with distant grey-scale agribusiness buyers
and seed sellers
bar charting and coding how best to buy low
and sell RealTime Highs.

My own dad didn’t actually do very well with that monopoly game.
While mom’s cooperative gardens flourished,
regardless of which commodities were up in spring
and predictably down again at harvest and preserving time.

Joanna Macy refers to matriarchal ecofeminist gardeners,
nutritional economists,
as “the greening of the self,”
reconnecting our LeftBrain dominant egocentered Yang
with our Sacred EarthNurturing RightBrain,
more recessively eco-logical Yintegrity,
eco-systemic nature-spirit co-empathic gardeners,
feeding well-nurtured kids and neighborhoods
greening multiculturing communities
and polyculturing bioregions
and Blue-Green States,
while boring Business As Usual commodity markets
continue wondering why
it’s always those damned irrepressible cooperative democracies,
with their interdependent WinWin planting investments
and harvesting re-investment polypathic properties
that continue riding out
angry RedBare Markets and FearMongering Political States
buying the cheapest fighting mad politicians
yet wondering why these provide such poor nutritional returns
when it comes time to harvest
EarthRights Peace and Justice.

Our LeftBrain ego-personal
is also our RightBrain eco-political communal,
just as LeftBrain Yang love nature
is also RightBrain Yin sacred healing nurture,
just as LeftBrain’s competitive political empowerment
is RightBrain’s cooperative ecological health relationships,
Sacred Economics,
just as LeftBrain’s healthy patriarchy
is also RightBrain’s wealthiest matriarchy,
on back to original ego-personal constitutions
born of matriarchal interior wombs
and exterior extended family gardens.

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UnPublished Thoughts

Darling?

Yes dear.

Have you ever had an unpublished thought?

What does that mean?
Is this about my profligate tendencies?
Of course
You know perfectly well I’ve never been published.

No, I mean
Have you ever had a thought
that included the thought
that maybe you need not actually say it
out loud?
or even whisper it to yourself?
Whether there are other ears to eagerly listen in
or not.

No,
why would anyone think that?

Oh, I don’t know.
Maybe so those around you
would have more time and space to think
their own unpublished thoughts?

Not to change the subject,
but I have a more interesting question for you.
Have you ever had an unpublishable thought?

Oh my yes!
All my favorites.

So what would make your favorites
without value for promulgation?

If you have to ask
then I know you could not afford to buy them.

I have no idea what that even means.
Maybe an example.
What would be a favorite thought
you have never shared with anyone?

How lovely it would be
if you had more unpublished thoughts.

I’m not sure what to say.

No.
But that didn’t stop you from saying something
did it?

Is this about me thinking out loud too much?

Maybe.
But I’m sure it’s about not listening enough.

To you?

Maybe,
but certainly not listening enough to yourself.

Well that’s how I listen to myself,
by talking to myself,
or whispering, maybe, sometimes.

So then, yes,
I guess it’s about not listening enough to the silence
of my favorite unpublishable thoughts and feelings.

That sounds deeply provocative.

Only if you listen right.
Is that a silencer in your pocket?

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You’re Fired

I’m sorry to have to tell you,
but we’re laying you off,
effective immediately.
But, please don’t feel too badly about this.
It’s nothing personal.

It feels personal,
maybe because I’m the person
you’re downsizing without.

But it’s not personal;
it’s just a budget problem–
insufficient revenue.

Which I am being invited to resolve
in an exclusively personal kind of way.
I can see why you prefer to keep the personal
separate from political,
and political power and authority and responsibility
separate from economic choices,
and economic goals
separate from ecological health,
yet I find little wisdom
in these dichotomies,
too conveniently walled off
away from each other.

I’m sorry you feel that way.

I’m not.
I’ve worked hard
to see EarthTribe this global patriotic-matriotic way.

There is no hidden agenda here.
No disparagement of your performance,
or character.
This is not personal or political;
it’s just a financial necessity
for you to pack up your personal items,
if any,
and head out the front door
with your head up,
personally and politically,
but not economically.
Not here and not today anyway.

See, I told you it’s personal,
and political.

Point taken.
Goodbye.
Don’t let the door hit you…

On my way out.
Yes, I know.
Thanks for nothing.

Why are you choosing to be bitter
about a loss not intended as punishment?
Why does this overshadow
all the years
your political and economic relationships
worked cooperatively together here?

Frankly?

By all means.

I think our cooperative corporate personhood’s
political and economic returns
would be better served
if this economic knife were at your throat,
rather than mine.

Now see, that’s why I’m letting you go.
Never trusted you.

So this is both personal and political,
as well as economic,
all to better serve your egocentric ZeroZone.
Not so much about what’s best
for our cooperatively-owned corporate personhood.

I don’t see the difference.

And that is among your outstanding issues.
You don’t see enough difference
between your egocentric and Earth’s eco-centric balance,
yet you build walls too deep and wide and high
between what is personally healthy v pathological
an what is politically healthy
and what remains of economically cooperative investment
in Big Picture ecological health care giving
and receiving
of and for WinWin ecopolitical healthy wealth optimization.

Are you still talking?

Yes,
still talking about our cooperative business planning incapacities,
but,
unlike some people,
I can talk with both sides of my mouth
and walk in the same direction
at the same time.

As long as your direction is cooperatively out the front door,
the way you first came in.

Actually, I first came in through the back door closet.
Your front door was accessible to straight white males only.

Oh, right.
The good ole boys days.

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