Secret Lives of Shame

We could speak together,
Decry rabid violence of chronically stressed kids
and young adults acting like kids,
apparently regardless of income or race;
perhaps not of enculturation.

Feeling claustrophobic,
anxious about an unpromising competitive future,
drowning in inch-deep and narrow-specialized peer and mentoring relationships,
without therapeutic merit, or even intent;
these are commonly anticipated
in overpopulating species,
whether RNA-regenerate plants
or DNA-endowed with language and memory
about consuming and producing re-investments in people
meeting them at their diverse seasonal stages of development.

In the Secret Life of Trees
we discover MotherTrees nurturing their vulnerable saplings
in ways that balance natural nurturance with ecosystemic culling
to optimize Her ForestTribe’s ecopolitical balance and harmony
of organic thrival function.

Saplings born in poor rocky soil,
where MotherTree must choose optimal light and water for all,
not just through Her sapling’s young adult maturation,
but also their capacity to raise their own healthywealth
grandbaby saplings,
The poorly sited sapling
is ecologically abandoned too soon,
re-joining Earth’s reforesting skin
of Sacred Ecology,
holonic RNA and DNA decompositions,
preparing Time’s regenerative composting entropic mid-way.

in response to ecopolitical feelings of overpopulation
and under-whelming future resource prospects,
bears this resemblance to culling out weak futures,
typical of rabid chronically stressed populations,
especially young adults,
younger MotherTrees,
not yet ready to provide sufficient shade
and light,
water and vitality,
regenerative future potential
for Seven ReGenerations.

abortion here in secret lives of Trees
is not a hidden or shameful loss
and lack of respect for sacred polyculturing
reforesting ecosystemic life vocations,
but more of a neighborhood forest decision,
a loss to MotherTree
and to struggling Sapling
to be reborn as compost
refueling Sacred Earth’s cooperative ecopolitical root systems,
RNA landscapes
for future DNA-sensed,
and spoken,
healthier climate times,
not quite so post-millennially overpopulated
with chronic adolescent and young adult messages,
You are neither economically needed
nor politically wanted
nor ecologically even probable.
Somehow lost in WinLose
cognitive-affective dualdark dissonance
about aborting culling futures of neglect,
and even violent abuse,
and the ultimate eclipse of ego/eco,
Left with Right,
Yang with Yin,
re-alignment of (0)-Soul.

Human nature has uncovered many abortive culling tools.
Some of these engage scalpels and chemicals,
but much more popular
and accessible
are guns and knives
and nationalistic guaranteed and warrantied wars,
paranoid official and unofficial militias of Rifle Associations
and race and culture and nature and spirit Elitisms,
profoundly active distrusts
of Sacred WinWin Ecological Wisdom.

I have no active faith and trust,
that if we each responded to our on-line friends
and followers
and allies
the way we don’t respond to our RealTime families
and neighbors
and people we don’t really know
for whatever distancing reasons,
we would have a better, more cooperative, on-line time
of regenerative laughter and mutual trusting regard.

I would expect instead,
in face of isolating shaming and blaming experience,
our VirtualTime environments would decompose any remaining vulnerabilities
into monoculturing rabid chronic paranoia
of stressed-out-sourced indigestion
into further domestic RealTime chaos,
Business As ClimatePathology Usual.

Abortions by matriarchal benign neglect
may be as old as MotherTrees,
but culling marginal populations through elitist patriarchal abuse
appears to be a more recent shame and blame
DNA-inspired monoculturing decomposition
within uber-elitist inhumane populations,
root systems no longer playing WinWin reforestation.

We could speak and listen together.
We could also sing and dance
and walk and reweave root systemically together
without racing and enslaving and over-competing against
each other person and plant and forest,
to reforest Earth’s WinWin PolyPhonic Paradise.


Here As Now

Yang is polypathic health-strength Here,
ego-convexly witnessed,
while Yin revolves Earth’s Four thermodynamic spiraling seasons,
together Zero-tempered wu-wei Sacred Now
within Earth’s cooperative natured Here.

As Positive Polynomial (1)
is to dualdark (not,not) Polypathic-Polyphonic [-,-=(+,-)] fractal bilateral) 0
WinWin ReGenerative-CoOperative EcoPolitics,
TitHere for/of/with/over/under co-arising nondual TatNow.

This primal relationship,
within each 0-sum moment,
within MotherEarth’s sacred ecology
projects both back through Elder RightBrain interdependence
and LeftBrain’s secular-agnostic mistrust
of futures not yet hoped for,
of pasts now underground
with worms and RNA root systems
in a cognitive-affective dissonant understoried world
where only above ground anthro-centered lives matter,
while below, as above, grows fading pathological climates
of dualdark clouds and dusts and rusts
while we remain both secular Left
and Sacred Right
talking past each other,
rather than speaking through
Prime PolyCulturing EcoTones,
anthro-salient as sacred bicameral Earth,
as above,
so below,
as past,
so shall we become
and notnot become future EcoHarmonic.




Slow Grown Sunrise

Some mornings I slow down.
If you saw me this morning,
you might reasonably conclude
I could not possibly reduce my productive pace,
a social disgrace,
slogging through my domestic place.

Days, or at least my light within each day,
grow shorter,
while everything remains to be done
to care for future generations
of children
and puppies
and cubs
and kittens
and kids
and calves.

Yet dawn silently screeches toward timelessness
as I realize
I was produced
in a moment of ecstasy,
but also nine-months prepared to thrive
on Earth,
while my unique,
yet resonantly symbiotic, DNA
is born of prehistoric generations,
back when time and light’s productive moments
were measured in full and empty,
ecstatic and aptic,
rising toward another regenerative morning,
and setting toward yet another sacred decomposing night.

It is this slow memory of near timelessness
that revolves through my bones and flesh
and is cooperatively shared
not just with my own Win-matriarchal
and Win-patriarchal lines,
but also our globally shared regeneration
through timeless ecstatic moments
of symbiotic great transitions,
commencing nine months for each preparation
to greet our brothers and sisters,
cousins and families
extending back through competing histories
and cooperative matriarchal nutrition and health mentoring,
fire and wind and water and safety education,
revolving through slow-growth wisdom
of timeless sunrise,
oceans of DNA an Elder RNA,
places and times,
and heathy creolizing climates.

I have bloomed and wilted
where I have been planted,
and where I have chosen to plant myself,
and our future
greeting past revolving sacred memories,
here with now.


Cooperative Starts and Stops

Who wants to join a sacred cooperative
with both divine and humane purpose,
secular meanings
with organic liturgical rites
of seasonal passage?

who would not
should ego’s veil descend
like commodified energy’s nonrenewable extinction;
LoseLose trends of nihilism
within psyche,
within a paranoid society
which would reduce land and waters
of patriotic sacred space
to mere commodities
for capitalism’s WinLose
devolutionary embrace,
capture of military-industrial creolization
projecting dog eat weaker dog over-simplification,
thoughtless Either-Or fundamentalism,
when truths of dipolar appositions
RightBrain beg our sovereign in-flowing loyalty
toward renewed
Sacred Ecology,
as Gregory Bateson might teach,
while Gandhi, like Mohammad,
would give up his left-dominant nut,
to reach
and grasp
and know ego/eco-consciousness
of WinWin collateral
for ecopolitical cooperative outcomes
growing heavenly organic healthy incomes,
reinvesting future secular-sacred regenerators
of EarthJustice
for multi-speciating democratic peace
rediscovered around extended tribal campfires by night,
cooperative financial and political and social
and psychological positive trending networks
in 0-sum
notnot wu-wei
by day,
bilaterals of 4-dimensional equivalent DNA
fractal octaves thermodynamic
Prime CoRelational Win to Win
both secular and sacred
ego/eco-cooperative consciousness.

A tree begins where it has started,
to unfold again what history has brought
WinWin and WinLose,
both cooperatively eco-conscious RightMind
and competitive ego-conscious LeftBody Physics
of communication phylogeny,
dialectal linguistics
of root fractal system structure
begun through octave-ergodic infrastructural harmonics
of TaoTime
greets Mother Earth’s embryonic Virgin Space;
a DNA-invested viral seed of active hope

Each robust seed begins
in poverty of nature-spirit,
far from elitist reactionary over-blooming intent,
mutually active distrusts
present bilateral pathologies,
LoseLose remaining this autonomous
eternally paranoid seed of mere opportunity
afraid to give birth to each life’s sacred-secular potential
to transform toward shared ecopolitical destiny
to become another Tree of Life
in our Forest Eden 2020 revision
for post-millennial reforesting of Earth’s sinking climate;
lack of health care
ego-given as eco-received,
economically consumed and digested
as politically cooperative produced
for health-optimizing WinWin outcomes,
deep listening learning ecosystemic ego polypathic
resurging pre-orgasmically happy healthy
humors of positive psychology’s active hope
for Sacred Ecology
for exterior sub-climates of Earth
and interior landscapes for Matriarchal-Patriarchal
Right with Left
fractal 0-sum
regenerative octaves
noticing 4D integrity
of Earth’s 3D space
plus one 0-sum prime bilateral
of primal TaoTime,
CoMessianic West
as Bodhisattva East
as CoOperative EcoLogic of Sufi’s
MidEastern Islamic revolutionary Paradise,
paradigm of and for cooperative and inclusive sacred jihad;
just the opposite of fundamentalism’s EgoInspired Terror,
totalitarian terrible,
denialist through LeftBrain nihilism
of RightBrain’s sacred ecological-analogical-bilateral 0-sum
thermodynamic shamanic origin,
convex polynomials as concave bilateral poly-linear paths
from FatherSun
revolutionary progenitor of Sacred Virgin MotherYin’s EarthFlow;
ReVolutionary EarthWisdom.

Resides potentiated
deepest and richest and best
in humane spirits of poverty,
purity of desire for multiculturing diversity;
never monoculturing monochromatic perversity
entropy of changeless exegetical traditional Time.

If I were in the White House
or CEO of homeless services,
I would invite our bottom 10%
to lead our way
toward climates of robust resilience
ecopolitical repair
by asking,
as would any cooperative ecotherapist,
How can we extend the best parts of your happy days
and healthy nights
to shrink our ego climates of despair
and WinLose ambivalence
toward devolution,
of 0-sum regenerativity
as what is not degenerativity
and building up from there
toward universal redemption
of ego-death
for Earth’s mutual ecopolitical reforesting
repair of root systems
seeding robust polycultured outcomes by day
and dreaming FullMoon enlightening surfing peace
by diurnal

Who could not yet conjoin this Sacred Ecology
of and for humane-Left divine-Right healthing purposes?
Secular teleologies
with sacred polypathic regenerative strings
of and for Process Theologies,
cooperative ReCreation Stories
for Trees of HealthyLife over PathologicalDeath
reforesting democratic WinWin empowerment.


Parting Instructions For My Oldest

You did not choose to be born,
much less Black Lives Really Should Equally Matter born
into this legacy,
your familial and civil Two-Connecticuts destiny.

I realize that,
And regret perhaps my own choices
in response to invitations for care-giving
and healthcare-receiving
were probably too egocentrically universalized
creolized so that whatever felt best to me at the time
would necessarily be best for you,
born into this diverse range of my health and pathology choices
for me,
now also for you.

No one asked, including me
Do you think a young African-American ADHD adult,
poorly educated,
challenged as employable
with unresolved anger and fear issues
about whether he is care-giving enough
to deserve to become self care-receiving,
is left to care for
a gay virgin nerd younger adult
game-addicted brother
who believes he is actually allergic,
and perhaps alien,
to Mother Earth,
AND an oppositionally bipolar nymphomaniac youngest princess sister
with cerebral palsy and difficulty speaking,
civilly or usually otherwise,
and concomitant difficulties
not talking to herself while jumping
and slapping
and forgetting to go only on the toilet,
AND your youngest brother,
also with cerebral palsy and a wheelchair,
without capacity to speak or sign
yet with capacity to laugh and smile
with those he loves to know the best care-receiving,
and without capacity to chew and swallow well
so he eats through a tube
what he must not gnash with his grinding teeth,
and with midnight capacities for grande-mal seizures
requiring 24-7 same-room monitoring.

This is indeed
a great deal of operatic drama not to choose
to be born into
as the oldest,
raised by two gay dads,
old enough to have been your grandfathers,
one black, who seems afraid to be associated
with our polycultural reputation and self-presentation,
self-neglect, he might call us out,
and me white,
now apologizing for this mess
with which I leave you
as your birthright.

Attached are instructions
from your sister’s Behaviorist.
I suggest you adapt them,
first to take better care of yourself,
then her,
then your two brothers,
as best you can,
ecotherapeutic care-giving
is also egotherapeutic care-receiving.

When another life
reaches out to strike you down,
to damage your property and/or body,
and mind,
to touch you inappropriately
and without asking permission first,
before grabbing and damaging your thoughts and feelings:

First, remind your care-receiver,
as yourself,
to ask permission to become a care-giver
to you and/or your property,
because your life does matter equally
with each other’s;
not more,
but not less either.

teach your assailant
across permitted boundaries to violence and theft and behavioral restraints,
including use of civil voice,
to advocate for this assailant’s healthcare-receiving wants and needs
in an appropriate
mutual healthcare-giving way,
and more domestically diplomatic,
following universal multicultural standards
for WinWin Solidarity
of All Lives Equally Matter,
Golden Rules
applied to people,
and things,
especially technological co-investments
in Earth’s 7-Generation Future
of healthcare information systems
and their cooperative access
to growing Wealth Without Walls.

mentor your siblings
with healthcare-giving greetings,
listenings before speaking,
speaking back what care-receiving comes through
your All Lives Equally Matter channels
and challenges
about not choosing
to be left with these care receiving and giving
familial opportunities
to regenerate climates of health
and avoid landscapes of further behavioral pathology.

With apologies
for my Elder role
in your current ADHD challenged
ecopolitical and psychological karma,
you know,
as a gay white-trash farmboy
who developed a thing for urban black strong men
in the 1960s and 70s
when my life wasn’t even legal,
much less of any socially therapeutic value,
I didn’t think past my own parenting needs
to give life more therapeutically back
than I had not-so-well received life
in my ecopolitical time on Earth.

If you do your best self care-receiving,
you will each day and night relearn
to teach yourself as others
asking and giving permission to respectfully approach
to advocate for universal care giving as receiving,
beginning with your mentoring history
of gratitude for Earth’s abundant grace
to place
and pace
you here and now
without having even to ask
to be born
into this space and time
of responsibilities for care-receiving
and concomitant authorities of care-giving
ego/eco bilaterally cooperative
WinWin healthcare systemic network building,
4D RealTime
unfolding and reweaving instructions
from and for the Oldest.


Universal Trusts

As winter seasons dark humor,
so summer reasons hate.

Lovelock and Margolis’ Gaia Hypothesis
is Bateson’s Sacred Ecology
deep double-bound Co-Learning Thesis,
is Bucky Fuller’s fractal-rooted Holonic CoOperative Synergy
is Messiah-Bodhisattva Syncretism
is Game Theory’s WinWin EcoLogic
for both short and long-term positive ecotherapeutic hypotheses
predicting universal democratization
with EarthJustice and Humane Peace
regenerative Health-Wealth Outcomes

Also expected from bilaterally self-perpetuating Group Theories
of Perelman Polynomial Out deductive
equals polypathic inductive not-not ambivalence,
YangFather SunSpeed of Light
progenitor of YinRevolving SeasonalMother Earth
4D RealTime bilateral
ReGenerativity Theory

Like Love’sLocked Gaia Original First Principle
nondual zero = tao dipolarity
PostMillennial ZeroSum In/ExFormation Revolution.

Geometrics of science
as ecology of notnot logic
equals Yang-Yes!,
Yang of yin-squared RNA/DNA fractal redevelopment stories.

as double-binding,
0-sum octaves

Of natural-spiritual
nondual co-arising
Left with RightBrain balancing his/herstory,
self-perpetuating education
in- and ex-formation.
Special Case and NotNotYet-Begun,
past thru future EcoGaian
BiLateral SpaceTime
Hypostatic 0 Union.

As winter seasons dark humor,
so summer reasons hate.
As winter seasons hated longing,
so summer reasons ecologic’s humor.


The AntiDenialist

Let us refer to nihilism,
she sniffed,
while pompously looking down her nose
as coterminous with totalitarian
and fascist nostrils,
breathing terrors
both inside paranoid
and outside victimizing
all but mutually maligning bullies,
who never bother to listen to each other anyway.

With that as our historical background
we might notice,
although everyone is victimized by nihilism:

1. Some victims vote for empowering denialist nihilists anyway,
believing we have not nominated any healthier choices.
When everybody sucks,
the LoseLose question becomes who sucks up least
from my intended egocentric direction?

2. Poor and marginalized people,
non-bully species and natural systems,
like rivers and forests,
matriarchs and their vulnerable hurt children,
people with color and without Elite Patriarchal credentials
historical empowerment
cultural over-investment
are those first
deepest hurt by antiEarth de-nihilism,
while more plutocratic middle class conservatives
are also victims of self and other denial,
yet more likely to vote for it
along with those wealthy enough
to stay on the bully side
of universal WinLose self-nihilism
of this potentially humanely global
democratic WinWin species.

It does not seem too difficult
to me,
she sniffed again,
to recognize that love and integrity
have become more regenerative empowerment
through mutual solidarity of purpose,
nor to feel this in my phylogenic bones,
nor to play WinWin integrity
rather than eco-denial WinLose Solitaire.

My righteous opposite of LoseLose nihilism–
more wealth of health enculturing

And then she threw back her head
wrapped her shawl more tightly around her phylogenic bones
and stalked out of the classroom,
without so much as asking for a question.

I didn’t know whether to believe what she said
or what she did
or both,