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Still Processing: Please Don’t Wait

Does sacred MotherEarth
too often want to stop
to process Her nuanced feelings?

Does our desecrating Dad
too seldom demand we stop
to consider grace
and win/win gratitude
for creation
as it has systematically developed
to this current post-millennial date?

Revisiting loyalty to Earth’s global systems
of nutritional economics
and cooperative psychological
bicameral enlightenment
of healthy democracy
bipartisan empowerment

Solidarity with RightBrain integrity
restoring EarthJustice
nonviolent ecofeminist
co-invested communication

Deep listening
to identify EarthPatriotic feelings
of safety,
provision,
protection

And more matriotic co-passionate needs
and wants,
felt voices
and thought choices
for healing
from PatriarchalCapitalism
chronic LeftBrain overstressed disorder

Haunted by night mares
ing about feckless EarthMothers
stalled to win/lose process competitions
in autonomous lack
of polycultural communing

Win health to win safe wealth
bicamerally reprocessing
nondualistic thoughts with interdependent feelings.

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Creation Stories

A Taoist Creation Narrative
begins with healthy win/win feel this
and sick unwealthy win/lose don’t do that
too capitalistically patriarchal
Yang dominant

Including do not begin with YangGod Words alone
creating Earth
from chaotic
unYintegrally segregated
dualdark Ether

And every polypathic
InBetween
Both/And multiculturing providence,

Although a Judeo-Christian scriptural Story
of God the MonoFather as SoleCreator
is not incompatibly opposed
Against a Taoist eco/theo-narrative
humanely and divinely inspired by speak
bipartial egopatrilinear/ecowomanist
bicameral natural/spiritual questions
about how to healthiest create
wealthiest care
for our BlueAbove/GreenBelow Commons Earth
communion.

This Taoist epic journey
begins with Yang as Heaven,
radiating rain and light
on Earth’s Common
dynamic double-boundary
changing surface of blue resonant surfing waters
and green/black resilient organic lands

And Yintegral EarthPower
revolving
receiving
transubstantiating
creolizing these enlightening wet Misteries
into Her sacred MotherWombing soil
NonZero pregnant Soul

In-between these two
dipolar co-arising
all Blue/Green healthy life support systems
in
and on
and beyond Earth,
healthy and wealthy
in our cooperatively co-invested best light

And brightest win/win co-empowering
ecopolitical
egowomanist
non-anthrosupremacist
nonviolent
non-LeftBrain dominant
non-StraightWhiteWesternMale competitive busyness

Either/Or debate privileged
over cooperative feeling
both-enlightening/and-empowering
dialogue

Integral Sun’s enlightening,
and often frightening, CreationStory space
balancing
Earth’s empowering ReCreative Win/Win Time

Revolving health
bicameral wealth
restoring EarthJustice
inhaling and exhaling
nonviolent polypathic recommunicating Ways

TrueHealth universal information
SafeBeauty united exhalation

So, what God created
and Goddess Earth has given rebirth toward
takes place across each day and night’s sacred surface
of bilaterally dynamic robust brilliance
co-empathic
co-governing polyculturally healthy
informing surface space

InBetween divine rain water
and humane soiling time,
between Left radiant Light
and Right deep mysteriously felt Power,

InBetween Heaven’s YangDominant yesterday
and Earth’s Yintegral tomorrow
health potential wealth
compassion stories.

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Roots of Worship

My roots of Creator worship
are fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and curiosity

Whether this might also be true
and sometimes disappointingly false
for you

A resonantly sacred
sometimes prophetic
heart

With a resilient
health developing
ecosystemic mind

For whom my tricky part,
or one of many
as I recall…

Furtive sidewind glances
to my youthful left

Where he sat
in his magnificent
thick stacked darkness,

My closet worship thing
is impossible to come out
with perfect timing
with someone I am powerfully,
intoxicatingly, enraptured by
with
within
and preferably not without

Yet have no hope or intention
of ever being naked
or even transparent,
and certainly not vulnerable,
within his sight and hearing.

If said out loud,
then unveiled too soon
to not cause unwanted predative
seductive concerns.

If not said too soon
then inevitably disclosed too late
to retain resonant
and resilient trust

No hidden agendas,
no closet colonizing cases,
no aging platonic relationships
continuing to work
and play better
in just right silence
of unseen
unheard
unfelt
untouched emotions
without attaching motions

Back through roots of Creator worship
fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and thick stacked curiosity.

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Bread Is From EarthManna For Heaven

Deep warm-blooded
Dark brown
Multigrain Manna is from Heaven.

Sometimes,
OK, most times,
I’m not actively building a cooperatively co-invested
residential
and environmental health system,
or even a local family-safe
polyculturally resilient community

Because I am too capitalistically infested
with buying and selling
highest and best autonomously owned
unreal estates for developing future asset benefits
to my autonomous anthro-egoself

I become distracted by autocratic
automatic-acquiring capital,
by competitive win/lose assumptions,
that empowering long-term
climate in/exformation
sensory infrastructural
co-invested health priorities
are merely monocultural
patriarchally reasonable
BusinessAsUsual normative
extractions into my personal kingdom
potential Paradise

Even while watching
and hearing
and tasting
and smelling
and feeling
and touching short-term capital investment wealth
non-returns
disconnections
retributively, rather than co-redemptively,
meeting StraightWhite patriarchally privileged
over-powerment

LeftBrain dominant
win/lose realistic
ZeroSum competitive economic
for white privileged corporate survivalist
anti-ecological
presumptively extractive
white privileged outcomes
long-time not resonant/resilient thrivalist.

Messages that we all care about community safety
and respect family-protective health care priorities
make no co-operating GoldenRule
counter-historical
military-industrialized sense

While investing in LeftHand interdependent co-relationships
in between health equals wealth
Win/Win extended feminist family systemic side

While simultaneously disinvesting with RightMightHand
autonomously dissociating
anthroprivileged wealth-building
capital-patriarchal predatively dominant
dogmatic ego-uberness
over nonelite natural secularized real Estates,
monopolistic autocratic States of Mind
verbally conscious
and nonverbally felt loss of win/win
co-investment options

We are leftbrain more or less aligned
against long-term resilient win/win family climate health
and safety,
cooperative ownership and management power
and enlightened rational environmental health

Against cooperative self/other development
GoldenRule resonant
and resilient networks
for compassionate community communication
democratic contractual consensual redevelopment

Against health/wealth transactional designs
for nonviolent ecotherapeutic green peace
restoring healthy justice
residential systems
matriarchal networks
rational natural
felt also indigenously spiritual
co-investing communion estates

Way more safe
and sacredly significant
multi-sensory experience satisfying
than merely secularized
industrialized
corporatized
little ticky-tacky boxes
monotheistically monetized
real verbally static
silent ZeroSum Win/Lose assumptions

Quick
cheap profit margins
irrelevant
and actively resistant
to long-term sacred EarthCreature health
is also secular nutritious communal wealth
enlightened cooperative governance

Manna from PolyCultural Heaven
is also Bread
from and for
higher and lower
wider and deeper
outside and inside
RealHabitat EarthEstates

Reminding me
I can’t buy Holy Communion States,
we can only build them
to gather
restoring EarthJustice.

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DePloyables

We need no further
corporate monoculturally mediated information
about Donald Trump’s degenerative past predicted
and predicated future trajectory,

No further need
to vigorously stir
frantic vengeance of liberally lavish lovers
against autocratic white privileged
stark patriarchal fundamentalists
for Winning Global Salvation
or Lose your worthless spiritualized right
to win more love
than you will divinely
timelessly
personally
intimately
vulnerably
transparently
curiously
impatiently lose.

Not until we all feel warmly reassured
that cool Donald is virtuously stewing in disempowered
stubbornly unenlightened isolation,
shunned and reviled by red-blooded
heartless “Evangelical”
patriarchal
left-brain transcendently omnipotent monotheists
and unwary white supremacist cognitive alliances

Will we collectively breathe in health
and out
verbal wealth
mindful of Great Revolutionary ReTransitions
to moving on with Green New/Old CoOperative Deals

Accepting,
potentially even compassionately embracing,
our own HurtCapitalist YoungAdulthood

Missing our original EarthMother Womb,
win/win cooperative systemic,
ego/eco compassioned bicameral Child
expecting no dis-educating trauma
and chronic Win or Loser Devolutionary Theory

OverPowering our personally experienced win/win
ego/eco-evolving
sensory co-passionate communication
and nutritional nurturing historical experience

Up to that Great BlackHole Trusting Experience
into God/Goddess SunLight
and EarthPower’s Great CoEmpathic Cooperative
re-ligioning
re-storying
re-storing
re-connecting
SecularLeft with SacredRight
politically enlightening and economically co-empowering
GreenGaian ReGenerative Health

Evangelically co-balancing
EgoPeaceful Wealth.

We need no further
corporate monoculturally mediated information
about CorporateExecutive degenerative trajectories,

in which global pharmaceutical
and insurance
and financial investors
win when human populations grow
and pandemically die
and military-industriously kill each other
and invest in mind-numbing entertainments
and cheap but addictive self-medications
and victimization
by privatized criminal and justice
and probation and parole fines
and criminalization
and imprisonment
and enslavement
and mind and body-numbing ego-crushing
eco-starving punishments
of all retributively justified straight white privileged
gated
self-conserving
ego-defensive
eco-offensive
extractive minds
with racist
and sexist
and ageist
and homophobic
xenophobic
anthro-supremacist anger/fearful
fragile feeling
emotively constipated bodies.

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If I Were S/He

If I were S/He
I would look downstream
for a power so high
this mythic enlightenment feels sacredly deep
and widely therapeutic
mystical in feeling,
practical in application.

If I were She
I would declare a new Wisdom:
National superpowers corrupt
toward fundamentally polarizing RightWing dominance
Just as global enlightenment heals
toward evangelical gospel GreenQueen
MotherEarth empowerment.

If I were S/he
I would break ballistics
into cooperatively-owned shovels
shares in bioregional GreenPeace
non-violent warriors inviting
never demanding
health is wealth co-passions

Planting peace with shade trees
and berry bushes,
pollinators
grasses
enriching sandy soils
supporting water
then remediated living waters
rivers
flowing toward deep
wide surfing seas

Seasons and daughters
eco-governing five-star reasons
to both vacation
and vocation
in cooperative integrity.

If I were S/He
I would breathe out Holy Spirits
and breathe back in sacred Father’s SunLIght

Powers of bicameral
contextual
co-empathic
ego/eco
secular/sacred Great Green/Blue CoPassions

For feminist economics
supporting healthy MotherEarth
green democratic biosystems
deeply healthy and widely wealthy ecosystems,
theologically SheCoLogical.

If I were She
I would first change all First Amendment
Rights to fight
with free but misinforming speech
and armed/threatening militarized
monetized
corporate-supported assembly;
To CoResponsibly Right to non-violent
eco-politically accountable speech
and disarming co-empathic Invocations,
sacred cooperative economic visions
of EarthTribe health care planning

Enlightening copowers
defending multicultural health
and global LivingCreatures,
BioSystemic Creation,
EarthClimate Safety.

Then our grateful Republicans,
now having learned how to listen
more conservationally Win/Win Green
and healthy red-blooded matriarchal
Don’t Mess With Mama!
and Her long-term health care plans
to move Her great grandkids
onto Her green platform,
cooperatively owned plantation,
organic farm,
clean pure deep river-front
with wide panoramic mountain view
Sacred Habitat

Peculiarly South-faced
filled with past resilient regenerative light
of Holy ExtendedFamily Ghosts
of slaves
and morally unfree to love
replacing fear and anger,
hate
and drunken self-loathing.

If I were S/He
I would grab on to Restoring Climate Justice
with all our best non-violent, most joyful and liturgical,
not dirgical, communication
letting go of Retributive
FearPrivileged Punishments

Yielding downstream wide
and upstream deep co-empathically enlightening
and cooperatively empowering
Patriarchal CoPassions
with Matriarchal S/He
bicameral co-prominence

Left out of RightWing capital acquiring
zealous corporate plans
to vote against HealthyGreen ecotherapeutic climates
of feeling powerful liberating health
and conserving enlightened EarthMother wealth

Of EcoFeminist Wisdom,
If I were S/He.

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Trees of CoRelationship

Relationships
are things that invite my active RightBrain hope
despite all my leftbrain dominant distancing experience

And win/lose 0-Sum absence
of sacred faith
in Loves yet unseen,
unheard
on this deep and wide-hearted
co-habiting
co-relational Earth.

In healthy relationships
I feel a great difference
between a neglected,
wounded BodyMind
suffering in lonely silent distance

Separated in despair
away from a shunned
actively co-empassioned,
transparently and vulnerably wounded,
ReMembering MindBody,

Verbally co-empathing
invitations into win/win feedback circles
cycles
spiraling
toward pleasured peace
of healing non-elitist
well-lit empowering Paradise

Becomes a great win/win economic
polypathic
polyphonic
polyvagal
polynomial
polycultural
cooperatively co-empowering opportunity

Among all bicamerally intelligent anthropoids
reconnecting re-ligiously indigenous experience
with compassionate
impassioning rhythms

For conscientious left/right balance
bicamerally therapeutic
communication loops
and spiraling reiterations
far exceeding eco/theo-logical traditional risks
of BusynessAsUsual

Monoculturally incorporating DeathCulture sentences,
RightWing military-industrializing
LeftBrain dominating extractions
of all Earth’s Living HeartPath
health/wealth
co-arising care
giving/receiving Truths
with Great Transitional Beauty

PostMillennial EarthJustice Wisdom
restores wealthy reverse of war,
GreenPeace ReNewing EpiCenters,

CoResponsibly led
by wise indigenous
ancient green ecofeminist
multi-regenerational Wisdom
of a MotherTree

Not so much preoccupied
with inside Patriarchal viral verbal dominant
leftbrain literature,
information printed
over powering
on top of paper
made of wisdom’s green organic trees.

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LoveWar of WorldViews

YangLeft: Those still capable of right thinking,
as our more civil
humane reflections
on bilateral political
and economic investment experience,
sometimes cooperative
and democratically co-invested,
but usually just BusinessAsUsual
life remains a win/lose dis-integrity
compromising
ZeroSum political disempowering game
competition.

YintegrityRight: Sweety,
thanks for honorable mention
of integrity, green democratic felt
internal health
actively hoping and acting
activists and not soully pacifists
for, and not just against, its opposite,
external ungated free
for interdependent future
health and safety regenerations…

…EcoFeminist green health/wealth
systemically flowing out
this last minute rambling mention,
in your amusing
by the biway highway
bipolarizing way…

…but you cannot expect win/win conversion
using win/lose dissociative verbal structures
when what we all multiculturally hope for
is just some everyday…

…Green CommonSense;
a LiveGod
is not an EvilDog…

…Dawn becoming LightPower
is not Dusk becoming DualDark
in our ZeroSum MonoPathing Zone

YangLeft: Sorry, I lost my linear rational place.
What were we not actually conversing about?…

Oh yes, neurological
analogical health wealth
cooperative, not competitively dueling, systems,
trans-communicating

Yintegrally Right Behind: Ecological wealth networks
of interdependent green sacred communion
co-investment.

Autonomous Yang: No, I can’t be
bipolarizing RightWing
full-frontal attack
anxiously anticipating…

This is a topic much too big
for mere Yang beginners,
hoping to understand
why we are not yet win/lose winners…

The problem of Live-Evil bitheism
among lonely Loser sinners
in my monotheistic
patriarchal
polynomial world
rational view
Left neurologically well endowed…

With overwhelming individualistic
verbal dominance,
often obsessed with defending
retributive blame and shame
capitally entitled patriarchal systems…

Either defensive RightWing safety
or wrong
my Great NotTransitioning ReActionary Way
or highway,
among enlightened monotheistic
capitalistic
retributive nonmercy
evolving win/lose secular world-view minds
developing without WholeView Earth souls.

Yintegrity Psalms: Too big or small,
too short-term or tall
this way you think to call
our Great MonoTheistic Fall
as I recall
has nothing to do at all
with my polytheistic ecofeminists…

…are seldom found
worshiping at an inside Mall…

…When outside rages red
with wild multiculturing colors
0-range Fall.

Yang: I remain steadfastly against
your polytheistic integrity
of PanTheistic Green/Blue Goddess

Yin: As I recall
our past dipolar co-arising
co-invested consensus
for binomial
bipolar both/and nuanced in/exformation flow
of EvilDog powers,
reversing double-bind beauty flowers
for LiveGod’s bicameral ecofeminist Light…

…sounds and sight
beyond disparities
of light and night,
flight and fright,
fight and might,
rite and bite,
wrong and right

Yang: I suppose propose
what feels polynomially multicultural to you
could also appear binomially cathected,
mutually oppositional trends
and bilateral structures
merging into polarizing reductive obstructions
to monotheistic
capitalistic
patriarchal
cognitive v emotive monopolizing
Ego/Eco disassociated Me.

Yin: Worshiping a positive Goddess of Blue/Green AquaLight
and terrified of equivalent binomial dark red powers
of Evil EcoFeminists not…

…not equals not
lose to lose
double-negative
so equitably positive health/wealth bicameral
win/win multiculturing
poly-entheistic We

YangLeft: Speaking and listening
nonviolently poly-pathic
co-passionate GoldenRules
egopatriarchal-ecofeminist ways
and biways
systemic left-right yintegral…

…rivers of mountainous Tao strength
Yang

Yintegrity: positive LiveD
is not unhealthy negative DeviL…

…right brained God
would not act like
a left-brain dominating Dog…

As polytheistic cooperative dipolar health systems
do not grow more monoculturing competitive wealth.

Yin: OK, much better Yang, dear.
I feel not only recognized
and heard,
but positively anticipated
and economically appreciated…

…co-enlightened
and co-empowered,
co-redeemed
co-arising
co-revolutionary…

…co-operative

Yang: Those still capable of thinking
co-responsibly
could be feeling eco-feminist favored
by cameral merging polynomials
are equally enlightened by
not not creolizing polynomials
bilateral neurological
win to both/and win
healthier
structurally resilient systems
and safer ego/eco-systemic
conjoined compassioning wealth

Yintegrity: There we go…

…patriarchally competitive verbalizing
consecutively linear again
always needing to speak last
profoundly and summatively
and “from above” transcendently lost
like the young voice
of a benign but lonely isolating God

Yang: We love us together
more than sever those other people
apart?

Yin: Yes,
this question mark helps…

…how about ego-privileged
pathologically angry down and inside…

…potentially speaks out flowingly
up for ecosystemic healthy communication?

Yang: We are so brilliantly divine together

Yintegral Summation: …and so dully inhumane
bipolaring appositionally apart from…

Yang: Having the last summation verb.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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InExhaustible ComPassion

Solitude
not impatiently exhausted
remains open to nonviolent solidarity
through multiculturing Earth communication,
within reflective self
and without
in active dialogue with nature
spirited Other remuneration.

As yang-strong
solid regenerative nature
engages and co-invests in more
and better compassionate humane
divine experience

As objective secular outcomes
blend yintegrity within
without subjective secularizing intent

To optimize green ego-health
and blue eco-sacred
co-invested safety;
An EarthCommuniy of communities
practicing social-economic Solitude
can be regenerative,
an omni-potent
poly-pathic
non-egotistic
eco-feminist
healthy and safe place

Strong Yang-power mounted
within Yintegrative well alliterative rivers
shivers
quivers
slivers
through bilaterally flowing ZeroZones

Full of timeless NonZero
times undefinable potential,
future wealth
planted in solidarity
of now unfolding
prehistoric
indigenous green/blue EarthWombs
of and for
reweaving memories.

Active solidarity
within eco-responsive solitude,
full and empty
impersonal when co-impassioned felt
and needed safe wealth
is health
proper communication seasons

Inexhaustibly solitary
nonviolent political community
of co-investing economic green communions,
regenerating solidarity
re-membering compassionate nonhistoric nurturing experiences,
polypathically rational outcomes

Objective
through anticipating ego-health reflective
eco-wealth intent

Of communal solitary souls
full and ego empty
NonZero Zoned reflective
subjects inexhaustibly objective
passions
compassions
exhaustibly solitary
solidarity.

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