My eighteen yeared daughter
living and dreaming with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome,
As she grows up and out
hopes to become
“An old princess
with long purple hair
living in a GroupHome.”
I’m not sure if this indicates
I did a shockingly good
or alarmingly bad
job as a thirteen-year dad
with positive therapeutic intent.
Until she smiles,
looks up at the blue-grey sky
with unimagined delight.
Yang (1) and Yin (0) Zones
are place-holders,
polynomial variables
for appositional co-arising relationships,
tensions, creative and not so much,
intentions
Such as white and color,
monoculturalism and multiculturalistic transubstantiation,
RightWing and RightBrain
conservative of past and progressive into compassionate future
elite and non-elite, in political philosophy
and history
of colonization with active hope for creolization,
Patriarchal and EcoFeminist polycultural intent,
healthy wealth,
win/lose competitive games
pretending not to want win/win cooperative
co-passionate
co-investments.
In grade school
many of us learned about plot development
as variations on a WinLose theme–
Person v Self,
Person v Other,
Person v God/Universe/Earth/History/Evolution–
But
probably nothing about cooperative garden plot development.
Literature is replete
with manly patriarchal ubiquitous competition themes
required to hold consumer marketing interest,
and usually the writer’s own self-therapeutic
or pathologically toxic fascination interests
as well.
Yet these WinLose themes
are difficult to find in day to day organic history,
because not the primary framework
in WinWin polycultural plot development.
Western patriarchal literature flirts with
Every Wounded White Man
lived happily ever WinWin after
despite a WinLose opportunistic
and self-hypnotizing Rapture
not quite fully humane
divine White capitalistic competing Historical World.
For some LoseLose avoidance reason
WinWin polyculturing outcomes came to mind
when I outlined
my morning and evening cooperative gardening plan
for friends and extending family.
1. I recall all the 101 recent weedy moments
when I reflected,
inflicted,
deflected grief
and loss
and shame
and blame
and WinLose repression
suppression
oppression, etc.
On my Person v Self
and my EgoPerson v EcoOther
and my Person v OpenEarth Organic WinWin Systems,
and my Yang Autonomous Person v Yin-Matriarchal
CreatorGaia
EarthMotherLand
and WombingSeas
and Warm through Colder Seasons
of my business as competing usual day.
2. I do my best to think of one or two
or even three
cooperative just-right moments in between all the WinLose weeds above,
when I and We recreated WinWin,
as I fed and watered no Loser victims,
including myself.
3. I declare and explore
partial not notWinning success.
4. I celebrate my potential sacred opportunities
for more
and stronger
and healthier flowing
WinWin tomorrows
as a secular PositivEnergy Person
within a confluent EgoSelf,
as a sacred vocational identity
with a future for
and a past of
WinWin resilient EarthTribe Others,
as a HealthingEgo
within Sacred WinWin ecological His/Her-CreationStory.
5. AND,
I spring and summer evening ignore LeftBrain
transposition tensions,
analogical words for RightBrain potential ecological integrity
AND WonderWander my LeftBrain Ego
and Awe Zero-sum my RightBrain CoPresent
sacred ecological extended family
SacredOther recreating re-memories
Reweaving my best WinWins
getting down,
even sexy
organic garden stalking
and eating time
nutritionally co-invested.
The younger Albert Einstein
was more intrigued by geometry of experience
than mere metaphysical abstractions.
During this younger time,
he wrote about bi-optical illusions
of Ego against Eco consciousness:
“This delusion is a kind of prison for us,
restricting us to our personal desires
and affection
for a few persons
nearest to us.
Our task must be
to free
ourselves from this prison…”
Einsteinian Elders
may remember dreams
Once upon time’s bi-optical illusions
of all Sacred Species
uniting for cooperation
rather than unifying polarities
furthering competitions.
Cooperatively invested children
within Elder Paradise Dreams
grow personally then politically,
ecologically nutritious then economically healthy,
sacred as Matriarchal ElderWombs before.
Gaian Einsteinians
told campfire creation stories
of organic healthy purpose.
Sacred Teachers
assisting EarthSoul’s cooperative process
of realigning harmonies
resonantly resolving
Reforesting Agrarian Paradise.
Elder Einstein
suffered an enormously disempowering
depressive sense of loss
after his uniting nuclear fusion Though Experiment
turned into society’s atomic militarized-ballistics.
Genocide of sacredly uniting Earth,
the anti-ecological conclusion
of Yang LeftBrain supremacy,
raping and blasting
secularizing patriarchal powers
of AnthroCompetitiveness
out of systemic balance
with Elder RightBrain
Matriarchal MemoryWomb
of CoOperative CreationStory Paradise.
Elder Einstein
grew toward dementia,
but high functioning.
Perhaps he joined the oncoming spectrum
at the top of awesome wonder
inhabiting manic dreams of nightmare blasts
sensing insatiable overpopulating risks
of rabidly competing human expansion
toward cancerous monoculturalism
and concomitant territorial risks
of ever more war-mongering
in a post-nuclear
fission-dominant Age.
A time of Great Transition
toward post-millennial death of a HomePlanet
through nuclear and nationalistic fissions,
losing solidarity with Sacred Earth
as mere collateral damage
for LeftBrain Reign of stubborn WinLose ego-empowerment
and bigotry
and sexism
against RightBrain cooperative matriarchal health care restoration
and regenerative spirit-nature receiving,
preferring consciousness of fusion’s deep rich nondualistic opportunities
EcoTherapeutic Fusion Dreams
frightened away by fission’s growing Great Walls
rather than slowly revolving blue-green orbiting revisions,
as curiously slow as watching paint undry,
restoring justice Paradise.
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