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Listening for Sustainability

My daughter,
with Fetal Alcohol crippling emotional intelligence damage
and Cerebral Palsy perpetual TerribleTwo
“is too many,
because Earth is all about ego-defiant me”
has taught herself
to attach her lips,
and sometimes her wet licking tongue
when she is feeling particularly needy
and/or playful
or maybe just hungry,
to my male dominant capitalist-head
when she needs to feel noticed
attached
connected
invested in
better.

This Saturday morning
she commits the unpardonable sin
of waking up before seven a.m.
Eleven is closer to her business as usual.

After bath and costuming,
both accomplished with as little support from me,
autonomously distracted, as possible,
she goes to our kitchen
to watch her favorite animated song and dance loops
on It’s All About You
Tube.

I am hanging out with my son,
also with cerebral palsy,
but unable to walk without balancing assistance
and unable to talk in either direction,
talk back or proclaim forth,
which is more his sister’s favorite skill set.

After a few minutes
of only slightly compromised peace
this sunny summer Saturday morning,
the daughter comes in
to demand her support staff (me)
prepare her royal breakfast (immediately).

I invite her to self-serve.

She says No!
repeatedly
while I remind her
she is capable of going to the freezer,
extracting one microwave pancake and sausage
on a stick,
wrapping it in one square of paper towel,
opening the microwave door,
placing it on the rotating glass plate inside,
closing the door,
pushing 1, 0, 0,
waiting for the ding,
and removing her breakfast by holding the stick,
waiting for it to cool,
removing the paper towel,
and devouring the pancake,
then the sausage,
as usual.

She responds
I want you to do it.

I respond
I want you to do it.

“No, Help me!”

“I am helping you!”

“No!
You do it; not me!”

“Why?”

“Because I”m watching my tablet.”

“And I’m trying to meditate
and write!”

“No! Help me!”

So, I ask for a time out.
We have been at this same impasse countless times.
It’s a ritual,
obsessive and compulsively lose/lose.
We are both not listening
while we are also not meditating
and watching
and writing healthier song and dance stories.

What’s happening here?
You know you can make your own breakfast.
Is this about not wanting to be alone?
Do you want me to show you
how crazy I am about you?

“Can I have a kiss?”

And then we do the “my lips on your head”
And “my head on your lips” ritual.
I give her a back and shoulder massage
while she has her therapeutic attachment breakfast.

My daughter smiles,
leaves the room without further demands,
goes back to the freezer,
pulls out a Blanketed Pig
on a stick…

I go back to writing
about resilience
and remediating potential lose/lose Earth climates
and emotionally cooperative reparations.

My son goes back to sleep,
having had a good belly laugh
at our curiously outspoken craziness,
reminding me
Curiosity is a more effective left-hemisphere tool
than working hard to feel right-hemisphere patience
in the face of apparent weapons
wielded by alien win/lose forces
in an otherwise win/win potentiated
interactive ego/eco-system.

He sits up,
groaning
repeatedly,
until I re-emerge
aware
He needs a diaper change,
on this peaceful sunny summer Saturday morning
riding still-revolving climates of Earth
re-creating green-blue-red
ultra-nonviolent win/win living systems
of actively communicating co-enlightenment.

Maybe we’ll have lunch on the backyard deck
under our barn red umbrella
as the Thames River continues to flow downstream
from northern stars
toward southern sun sustaining states.

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Tools Become Weapons

LeftBrain uses words
like communal tools
and autonomous weapons

While RightBrain invites rhythms and patterns of sound
and silence
like poetry
and lyrics,
sometimes angry and frightened turbulence
sometimes loving and reassuring sibilants
murmuring Earth’s quietness.

Of these,
LeftBrain weaponed words
cannot be truly free
speech to unwarned
so unprotected
listening libertarians,
messages fired against militant non-listeners
already armed to demolish
voices unprepared for retribution.

Healthy tools become deadly weapons
when used against
those they were transparently designed
to vulnerably serve
strength of LeftBrain truth
as RightBrain’s chiming beauty.

Without these two
held proactively together,
free speech is any message
from any medium
tragically unfree.

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Climate Work in RolePlay

I know this sounds like theater
of the absurd,
but I wonder if healthy role play
might be left-brain’s work ethic
inviting right-brain’s first and last impassioned word.

We might pretend our LeftWing
loves to play
irresponsibly back and forth repositioning
while RightWing
is crazy busy with win/lose economics
and disempowering politics
of arduous fragmentation,

Where God would paradise play
with roles of humane-divine
mutual infatuation,
cooperative ego-deferment
unto obsequious giggles
of “Oh no, you first.
I gracefully and divinely insist.”

AntiGod does hard vocational work
to teach pagan pilgrim players
and idle, irresponsible nature worshipers
to get back to harvesting souls
to be drained of daylight hours
manufacturing need and greed
to build our deadly war machines
and our ever higher and mightier towers
of anthro-hubris Babel.

Babel sounds like a healthier place to play
with natural sounds
and spiritual languages
for hide and seek with God
as scriptured, sure,
but also unscripted role play
between too autonomous to be realistic Egos
and too interdependent to be ungooey-theistic EcoLogicians.

I hear lose/lose ecopolitics
of hard work polarization
sounds dramatically absurd
while I continue to listen more imaginatively
to ego-eco
inside-outside
co-passioning play

Muse of RightWing stern capitalistic vocations
underplaying Win/Win co-arising
LeftWing wealthy health creations.

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Hate Management

Managing anger
is too hard work.

Our passions, positive and negative,
when strong,
have their way of managing us,
or me, anyway.

Perhaps you are better
noticing with courage,
then distracting curious strong passions,
positive and negative,
as a resource of your RightWing
return to conservational business
as win/lose usual.

More calming long-term thoughts
of last laugh
getting even more overpowerfully even,

Which my LeftWing passions
remind me is not really even
equitable
symmetric;
More source for and of future ugly
competitive LeftBrain dominance
makes right-mind curiously dispassionate,
uncourageously more wrong
to pine for loving win/win passions,
co-passioning harmonics,
egoLeft/EcoRight
personal/planetary
communion/communication co-regenerative resource
from dipolar, un-bipolar, sources.

For me, anger and fear
and self/other hate management
is much harder than role playing
what courageous,
yet curious,
reactive passions feel like
when acted out divinely,
yet humanely,
embodied mad-grace
by my ego-recovering identity,

Passionate communal identity,
noticed courageously and replayed out imaginatively,
curious original-ego
yet grace inhabited eco-
systemic daring drama
and yet more tactfully listening

To how human experience ought to be
and yet how important harmonic becoming
communioned communicators
commingling
cooperatively impassioned already
is my greatest ego/eco-centering resource,
dipolar communing courageously left
best when also curiously right

About challenges of anger management
and how to rethink
my own identity’s autonomously felt mindfulness,
more role play left with right
interdependently communicating.

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Making Earth Great Again

Do we still belong together,
long to compassion with each other
more than against?

Do we still believe
Earth is more of a regeneratively developing memory
than a degeneratively unraveling lack of cherished experience?

Can we still distinguish between
organic becoming
and autonomous mechanical being
despite over-heated and windy climates
of migrating left/right change,
global west/east
and U.S. nationalistic south v north
and non-communal ambiguous faith commitments
to commodifying capitalism and communal communion of saints
and sinners,
and anti-win/win compassionate parenting,
and not not disassociative anthropocentrism,
and chronically stressed win/lose egocentrism…

I don’t believe I have,
and you have,
and They have one right answer
to this question of compassionate solidarity’s
true and trust potential.

But I do have active faith
we could create a safe discussion
for ways we do still feel win/win healthier together
than win/lose apart,
and ways we do not,
and in-between do not not,
yet unresolved polynomials,
networking interdependent paradigms
toward healthier wealth.

I do have active hope
we could choose to hold us win/win wealthier together
than autonomously apart,

More resilient than further win/lose fragmentation
of a healthy civil democratic
liberal arts and sciences informed
by original multiculturing wombed resonance
great turning away from further degenerating
our climate woundedly fracturing
disempowering futures apart.

A lifetime of win/win conversions
comes down to how we everyday ask
and every breath and heartbeat answer
these questions,
Do we still belong together,
long to compassion with each other
more than against?

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Contract Against Greatness

In Ayn Rand’s “Atlas Shrugged”
she paints a nationalistically wealthy saint
where also lives a monochromatically utilitarian narcissist,
sucking on attachment to fame and power
for bought and sold ZeroSum accounting Souls.

If the perfectly powerful pure patriarchal patriot
were your own Atlas father,
you might feel certain
he would prefer you grow to be Trumpian
and probably not a peace activist
vegetarian;
certainly not half-naked Gandhi.

Donald Trump
is the formerly cooperative democratic Enlightenment-inspired,
white privileged
monoculturing logical conclusion
to a now almost fully win/lose left-hemisphere autocratic disenchantment
predicting our PostIndustrial Totalitarian Revolution
and Anti-Christian
Anti-Islamic
Anti-Spiritual Experience
dogmatic left-commodified hemispheric Rapture;
not to be confused with Rabbi Heschel’s left with right integral
spatial wonder regenerating timeless awe.

Donald Trump
as the shrugging Atlas UnPresident
of boring old-fashioned cooperative win/win spiritual hopes
and global fake-fundamental ego
non-conservational
win/lose ecopolitical
monocultural aspirations,
And yet also,
a shadow perhaps,
of ecological/theological respirations,
still silent speaking against his predator rights of wealthy nations
in his “Art [and Reductive Science] of the Deal.”

Nowhere, in his Chapter Two,
“Trump Cards: The Elements of the Deal”
will we find any value for win/win ego/ecological cooperative evolution;
Like the evolution you and I have
every left-hemisphere dominant day
and right-hemisphere prominent win/win night.

While climate restoring Schumacher activists
advocate Think Small,
Trump begins with “Think Big”
and autonomously take out win/lose contracts
against a more civil win/win empowering multicultural society
with explicit constitutional commitments
to natural/spiritual Enlightening nondualistic prosperity,
well-being
global,
and national,
and communal,
and familial,
and personal health/wealth care.

“Protect the Downside
and the Upside
Will Take Care of It[My]self.”
In this second Trump principle of the Big Deal
we see more the science and math of his egocentric,
monoculture supremacist,
anthropocentric terrorism;
His prejudice against God’s weak and vulnerable migrants
outside U.S. borders,
and illegal immigrants inside U.S. borders.

Here, in TrumpLand of win/lose zero-sum dealmaking,
healthy diversity is anti-natural
and ‘bad boy’ bullying sacred law and order
assumed to be an appropriate response
to a pernicious communioned interdependent threat
to wealthy monoculturing uniformity–
never mind about polypathic right/left integrity.

The entire global biodiversity of regenerative species
gloriously together sing out, and in,
restorative win/win peaceful creolizing anthems,
to the contrary-reversion principle
yang/yin
win/win polyphonic re-integrity.

“Maximize your [EgoCentric] Options”
by never getting too attached to winning just one deal;
Yet do remain ego-invested in autonomously winning all deals,
all places and spaces,
all the time
reinvesting in left-hemisphere dominance
as if a fully universal map
for an unbalancing ego-uncentric territory.

“Know Your Market”
instinctively overpowering
and repressing right-hemispheres
preferring win/win co-investment
in the healthier contagion of compassion,
peace,
possibly even democratically-held joy.

“Use Your [Either Win or Lose] Leverage”
rather than return to compassionately empower
our healthiest democratic win/win co-leverage,
capital co-invested leverage,
cooperative employee-ownership leverage.

Notice that “Use Your [access to capital wealth] Leverage”
sounds quite different than Principle 11
in David Holmgren’s
“Permaculture Principles
and [Poly]Pathways Beyond Sustainability”
where cooperative permaculture designers
actively caution each other
not to assume you
and/or a nation-state
are on the right health track
just because it is an overly wealthy
beaten-down pathway to anthropocentrism
and narcissistic xenophobia,
“Use Edges
and Value the Marginal.”

And so this Trump v sacred cooperative economics
culture-war continues,
polyculture v monoculture,
yanging our way toward climate apocalypse
rather than a 2020 healing win/win yin/yang revolution.

Trump advocates
“Enhance Your Location”
autonomously owned for personal yang profit.
Holmgren invites us to
“Obtain a [cooperative win/win yin] Yield”
sufficient for ego and eco-empowering resilience.

Trump, Get the [EgoCentric-AnthroCentric] Word Out”
so philanthropic Atlas,
bearing the messianic suffering of Earth,
now degenerates into self-glorifying President Narcissus.
Holmgren, “Apply Self-Regulation and Accept Feedback.”

Trump, “Fight Back.”
Holmgren, “Integrate Rather than Segregate.”

Trump, “Deliver the Goods,” as fast as possible.
Holmgren, “Use and Value Renewable Resources
and Services,”
cooperatively managed by left-hemisphere’s natural secularity
and right-hemisphere’s sacred integrity,
economic ecology.

Trump, “Contain the [personal checking account] Costs.”
Holmgren, “Catch and [public regeneratively] Store Energy,
nutrition,
non-violent communication,
wealthy health care of planet,
people,
plants.

Trump, “Have Fun” making more wealth-acquiring
colonizing
win/lose deals.
At whose expense?
Holmgren, “Produce No Waste,”
which sounds a bit left-hemisphere Victorian
and purist,
maybe even ideological,
to a Trumpian,

But, is originally intended
to return a cooperative messiah leadership profit
to reconsider not not ZeroSum geometrics
may also become biometric
polypathic-polyphonic
Zero ZenSouls
of Yang/Yin
Left/Right timeless
health/wealth Tao,
both universal and unitarian,

Which seems like a better place to end
than the Conservative Science
of Making the Trumpian ShortTerm
Win/Lose
lowest commodified denominator
Deal.

Cultures,
including business cultures,
and democratic public sector cultures,
are either multiculturally healthy
or monoculturally pathological,
or somewhere in-between
integrity and audacious mendacity.

 

 

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Rugged Crosses

For me,
but not for my kids,
it was The Old Rugged Cross
teaching my ego/eco-logic crossed
to believe adults could deprive their Earthly minds
of sacred co-passionate investment
and yet thrive uniformly healthy bodies
of equitable wealthy,
yet sacrificially lonely,
dignity.

Not until I uncovered
The Blessings of the Earth and Sky (K. Patton, J.S. Bach)
did I think to wonder win/win why
Earth and sky, crossed and yet recovered
more resilient Earthly bodies together, than apart,
with skyward polyphonic minds soaring
not uniform aspiring
prey avoiding predators
yet unity inspiring Earth’s communal co-relationships.

How ever did we get this strange left-brain nightmare,
wealthy bodies
can be severed,
crossed out
away from mental passion for health,
co-responsive
interdependent webs
of Earth and Sky
secular and sacred,
liberating science and liberal multi-enculturing arts,
integrity’s double-crossed communion
of Earth’s original healthing wealthy purpose.

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