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BodyMinds of Christ

My gay white boyhood
struggled with the theological problem
of personally appreciating heterosexual superiority
sacred stories
and multiply mistranslated word-choices
of Jesus Christ

Within a Christian
monotheistic
evangelically triumphalist doctrine.

This personal mindbody intimacy problem
may be iconic
unveiling my personal distancing of untrusted
homophobic
StraightWhiteMales

Felt to be unsafe predators
unhealthily patriarchal
patristic
politically nationalistic
blind to white upper-class systemic privilege,
sacrilegiously win/lose competitive
Capitalistic LeftBrain dominant
white northern
and anti-polytheistic western
anthrosupremacists.

Rather than embracing more Holy Spirited
green
co-operative ecofeminist
healthy living and safe loving
polycultural communion alternatives

Within JesusChrist’s same iconic EarthTribal
neuro-sensory recognition of a divinely intuitive
panentheistic Spirit for restoring Peace

Encompassing
Winning LeftBrain truth,
healthy life,
wealthy resilient Ways
to also Win
RightBrain yintegral balance,
beauty,
nondualistic flow of iconic intuitions,
positive peak sacramental experience,
everyday co-passioning feelings

Of warm
wet
wombed co-attachment
within our universally polycultural
neuro-sensory
ecofeminist panentheistic sacred networks
of compassionate
polytheistic Self/Other pre-cognition

of ego/ecosystemic balance,
integrity,
polypathic intuitive Win/Wins
BodyEgo-Core/SacredMind
eco-messianic

Bilateral flow
of nonviolent HolySpirit
multiculturally universal communion,
verbal LeftBrain dominant associated communication
from Elder polytheistic RightBrain
re-connected
re-connecting unitarian ego-passion
with ecosystemic personal peak recontextualized
ecological polypathic theology
of nondualistic communion

Humane left-verbal
Divine right-nonverbal
mind/body fullness

Reiterating bicameral healthy
natural/spiritual
body/mind
nondualistic development

Education
experiential formation,
theological enculturation,
historically nonpatriarchal
non-capitalist
ecofeminist nutrition-rooted core ecopolitical
body/mind
nature/spirit RightBrain both holy and segregated

Panentheistic peak co-passioning intentional experience
neuro-sensory (including bilaterally sexual) practiced
Self/Other interdependently co-empathic
co-arising dipolar cognitive/intuitive re-connection.

RightBrain both/and feeling
willing to transubstantiate,
cooperatively incarnate Non-0 Zone
1 eternal Yang/Yintegral body/mind
nature/spirit
thought/feeling of
messianic/bodhisattva Christ

Ego/Ecosystemic co-binary
interdependent Either/Or
Yang AND Yin,
not Yang v Yin,
1 AND 0
western and eastern holy spirited
loving polycultural sacred co-operative experiences
Ego/EcoFeminist MotherEarth interdependently tribal
nutritiously nurturing health/wealth resilient care
green restorative systems
communion peace networks

Rooted in panentheistic intuitive peak experiences
neuro-systemic rooted icons
of Sun’s original enlightenment
giving loving birth
rebirth
reweaving Earth’s interdependent
nutritional
ecopolitical neuro-systemic
win/win co-empowerment

Polycultural becomings
of eco/theological
body/mind value
for healthy life as wealthy love
in tipping point tension with,
and not against,
merely atheistic Beings
of win/lose competitive
StraightWhiteWesternMale
LeftBrain privileged disvalues.

We share Left/Right
1/0
Yang/Yintegral
cognitive/intuitive
informed/exflowing
being/becoming
health/wealth panentheistic intentions
within this One mind/body of JesusChrist’s
WHoly Open Nature/Spirit EarthTribe System

Both/And Elder RightBrain compassion,
not so much Either/Or LeftBrain dominant
Patriarchal-Capitalist predations

Against LGBTQ panentheistic complexities
struggled with the theological problem
of personally experiencing ecofeminist sacred stories
and multiply translated word-choices
of God is Love
Gaian Prince of Health/Wealth Peace
humane/divine
co-passionately bicameral
Jesus/Christ

Within a Christian
monotheistic
monopolistic
monocultural
monochromatic
evangelically triumphalist doctrine
of dualistic anthrosupremacism.

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MisGuided Meditations

I am sorry
about my judgmental,
sadly disdainful,
tone
in earlier messages.

Even worse,
I remain embarrassed
for spreading it out
for key staff
and leaders
to well-positioned see
and hear
and feel,
touched by toxicity.

My training
and experience
includes community mediation.

Within this mindful context,
I have tried to understand
what you want,
what you are learning,
what feeds and waters you
in your Presidential Position.

Your responses:

  1. that you know
    and care
    about our residential members,
    AND
  2. that you have unusual expertise,
    skills training,
    and/or Business Administration experience
    not available from other members,
    at least not any
    willing to step up
    and out into saying,
    Yes, I’ll help.

I failed to fully fit these
with past mediation interviews.

I was not as surprised by the second one,
as by the first,
because usually those seeking arbitration help
feel they live
in a high-risk win/lose
zero-sum system
punishing loss,
while looking for
their personal most loss-avoidant path
toward personal gain.

More closely regarding #2,
that you have unusual contractor,
business and project budgeting,
business management,
and significant financially successful property management experience

I was impressed
with what you bring
to our leadership table

And yet this does not,
in and of itself,
speak to skill sets
for PRESIDENT
of the Board.

On the contrary,
it seems to me
all this volunteer work
must detract from where your most cost-effective
personal focus needs to be
on your too busy workdays,
probably extending into evenings
and family/friend-lost weekends.

With regard to #1,
knowing and appreciating
win/win health and safety feelings
for residential members

This also did not sound
quite like my personal experience
could typically recall.

When I ask for personal motives,
usually what win/lose business men
speak of begins with financial motivations,
sometimes secondarily supported
by ecological concerns,
occasionally theological beliefs,
political aspirations,
retaining a positive community relations image,
community leadership aspirations,
wanting to be perceived
as a good and competent leader,
legislator,
teacher,
and/or,
in the case of religious constituencies,
wise spiritual Elder.

I have clearly failed
to understand why
you want to continue
Presiding over the Board.

This remains a mystery
shared by everyone I’ve asked.

When I share with them
your two responses to
“What’s in Presidency for you?
this fits with their
Successful Business Leader view
but raises dissonant questions

How could you afford to donate
this much time
and personal interest
without any personal financial return?

This dissonant mistrusting feeling
grows further
by those who have been residents
for many years
yet still do not feel seen or heard

So how could you know
and care about us?

As a mediator
with therapeutic,
nonviolent communication
intent

What do I do with my inability
to accurately and compassionately empathize
with you
on your journey toward fulfillment,
success,
happiness,
prosperity
and, preferably, unconditional regard?

To truly understand
and support you
in your personal and social
health and safety self-interest,
and to continue as our business leading
Presider?

I do not know how
to do both of those things,
and no one who encouraged me
to join the Board
wants me to support you.

That said,
one way sure not to help you
or me understand
and support you
is to publicly judge,
shame
and/or blame you
for circumstances beyond your responsibility
and authority to control.

If I have done that,
when I have done that,
while I am doing that,
I have not been a good person,
I have been a disappointing
multiculturally trained to listen
community-mindful mediator

And,
I have not practiced
even basic nonviolent communication skills

And,
you
presumably
are experiencing further high-risk
chronic trauma
as a result of my negligence.
For these failures on my part,
I apologize.

I often recall
a line of self-discovery
learned from a favorite
and famous spiritual director

“Who,
in your life now,
and perhaps in your past,
has been with you
at your most passionate
positive best?”

These are often romantic,
and sometimes earlier
healthy and safe parental
win/win relationship histories.

“How would that person,
or those people,
probably describe your sense of humor?”

If you have no idea,
you might want to start there
to therapeutically respond
to deeply engrained
trauma-avoidant
chronic stress disorder.

If you do have an idea,
some warm and welcoming ideas
about what helps you laugh with yourself
(not at yourself)
and with another you trust
and have found attractive,
compelling,
in some integrally soulful way,
then try to use that co-passion tool
to feel better about yourself,
your personal relationship history,
and your potential
for future healthy
and good-humored
win/win
nonviolent communication
for achieving resiliently co-mediated
health and safety outcomes.

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EcoGovernance Notes

Give as you can co-invest green,
Receive as you need,
Be all we are cooperatively becoming.

A deep root chakra foundation
of healthy polycultural life,
positive/negative mind-embodied
consilient unstrifed life
is far more than pre-death
in win/win whole open systemic
EarthTribe regenerative/degenerative networks
supporting transportively cooperative pedagogy
through mental/physical
spiritual/natural
theo/eco-logically integral
sacred/secular potential
green resilience.

Universally unitarian egos
co-passionately speaking up
and out
for and from
polyculturally polyphonic joy
regenerate sacred celebrations
of interdependent energy
positive/negative
one full and open
zero not empty and not closed
co-binary wu-wei energy
of TaoZen
nonzero zones
for global health-wealth care
kindness
gratitude
compassion
integrity of wide ecological purpose
and deep theological meaning.

Whole Open Systemic CulturaList:
Mono
Poly
PanEntheistic
Womanist-Feminist
Patriarchal
Green
Red
Blue
Turquoise Spiraling Spectral
Color
Black/White Bi
Full/Empty DiPolar
WuWei Trans
Octave-Fractal Holonic
NonZero WinWin
ZeroSum WinLose
Open
Closed
Holonic
Holy
Whole
Health
Multi
Sacred
Secular
Academic
Cognitive
Intuitive
Technology
Information
Organic
Democratic
Autocratic
Kleptocratic
Colonizing
Creolizing
Conservational
Liberal

Patristic traditional choices
for conserving sequestered wealth
through retributive justice
hierarchical systems
may re-member
re-connect with older
womb through tomb
EcoFeminist health liberation
for restoring cooperative peace
and resilient global justice
global ecosystemic governance
networks of co-passionate binomials.

EarthTribe resiliently
and resonantly organizes
around nonviolent communication experiences
of win/win health/wealth optimization
supported by whole open pedagogical
creolizing
multiregenerational systems
bicameral
bipartisan
bilateral polycultural co-remediation.

Pursue ecotherapeutic NEEDS
taking on CHALLENGES of win/lose risks
communicating with nonviolent skill RESOURCES
for win/win OPPORTUNITIES

Win/win open whole resilient criteria
for cost effectively achieving
Health/wealth optimizing systems:
Green REVITALIZING
Ego LeftBrain EFFICIENT
EcoSystemic RightBrain COMPASSIONATE
Health/Wealth nondualistically IMPACTFUL

Whole open revolving EarthTribe
neuro-sensory
visual-audio
smell-taste
touch-feel bilateral systems
seem to prefer outdoor
green STEAM classrooms
for deep learning multicultural
EarthGoverning
work and play
study and meditation
song and dance
plant and harvest
dormant and peak
nondualistic co-present
co-passionate communication

To give as we can co-invest green,
Receive as we red-blooded need,
Be all we are cooperative blues becoming.

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Healing With Ivy

Overly familiar with her defiance
patterns of fetal alcohol confusion,
neuro-systemic habits of resistance,

I, the consummate ecofeminist,
was sure my daughter felt
I was shutting wounded Ivy out
when she wanted me
to enter her toxic on-line
stream of Sponge Bob consciousness

When she came to me,
in self-care mode,
while I was meditating
reading
reflecting
writing
breathing deeply in,
then out

One gasp for hope
at a new pandemic time,
searching for one hour
without unmitigated despair
at this unhealthy contagion time,
one calming day at a time,
one therapeutic glimpse at a week,
one unimaginable month,
one lifetime of a year,

One retiring stage,
one quickly ancient life,
one emerging seamless love
at this time.

In exasperation
with her insistent interruption
in my sacred space,
I exclaimed
“Ivy, I can’t take care of you
if you won’t let me
take care of me!”

To which she replied,
“Can I sit here
quietly
next to you?”

I was skeptical,
cynical about cooperative deep breathing
with screaming screen-time Ivy,
but “You may,
if you can”

And so she did
sit next to me
at the head of my bed
where her paraplegic brother slept
post-seizure,

She leaned her black curled head
against my old white man shoulder
peacefully
breathing side by side

And that is how
we resiliently entered
into this passing
evolving
rising and falling,
erupting and disrupting pandemic
of Earth’s green
and sacred
virally emergent
health care.

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Resilient Redemption

Probably few of us
have capacity
to see ourselves
as both Angel
and Demon.

Many of us
have had the experience
of demonizing
and punishing ourselves
for sins of the past
extending into our present
festering
unresolved trauma.

Hopefully many of us
have also had the experience
of forgiveness
and saving ourselves
from sins of the future
because someone shared with us,
in some effective way,
that nothing
is always your autonomous fault

If only because
no organic creature,
anthro or otherwise,
is born
or can survive
radically autonomous
from non-ego centers.

Personal identity
follows interpersonal
ecosystemic individuation
developmentally
causally
and effectively.

I hear healing opportunity
in this responsible
yet not solely responsible
both/and way of consciousness

As well as traumatizing risk
of denial,
too cheap self forgiveness,
too easy hiddenness
of our secret
most private
feelings of guilt
about harming another

Both intentionally
and without malice,
accidentally.

A woman’s reluctant decision
to abort may feel unresolvable
between angelic win/win desires
and demonic win/lose fears
and angers

As might
her reluctant decision
to buy a gun
and several ominous rounds
of deadening ammunition

To protect herself
and her children
from traumatic demons
at her flimsy door

Not considering
her lack of experience
with braver angels
hoping to reassure her.

Therapeutic angels
may also wait,
curiously
and impatiently,
outside that same door,
searching for health’s
most wealthy bell
to dispel
shared dark shadows

In-between silent demons
we abhor
and sacred angels
we redemptively adore.

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Powers of Integrity

Integrity can feel overwhelming
when compared to underwhelming
disintegration

Nascent powers of joyful integrity
have emerged perhaps too late in life,
which feels sad,
at best bitterly happy
to take so long
to move from wounded child
into integral binomials

Like thinking universally
feels unitarian,
and global consciousness
grows interdependently intersectional
and even inter-religious,
and ecosystemic health
feeds polycultural joy
breeds polypathic integrity

Synergetic as win/win transpartisan
co-empathically felt
thoughts anticipating co-operative
happy dialogue

While economic co-investments
joyfully contribute
to shared green/blue
spiraling
revolving
revolutionary political co-passions

In-between
reconnecting
religioning theological
regenerating ecological win/lose
wounded children
and win/win
joyfully healthy
quietly smiling elders

Feeling sensually sinful
thinking neuro-sensory soulful
silently smirking
sainted biosystems.

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Endlessly Speaking Out

ReGeneratively nonspanking speaking,
co-empathic
co-operative
co-governing
co-passions
of and for
resilient health
and safety
win/win communication systems

Are also non-violent communication networks
rooted in bicameral
bilateral
binomial
bioregional
polyculturally healthy ego-purposed
voices co-arising wealthy eco-sacred
choiced meaning

Regeneratively deep listening
within compassionate verbal/non-verbal communication
systems flowing in
bicameral branching
co-gravitating up
and out
from Earth’s internal
immanent Power
revolving
evolving Sky external
transcendent Light.

Sky bright
why can’t you stay with us
tonight?

Dawning Yang
appreciating
inviting in-betweens
co-passioning Yintegral dual dark
Eastern dawn
not not Western dusk

RedLight
StarDust
warning Earth’s living waters
witnessed by
transcendent Patriarchal Gods
and EarthWomb western co-operatives

Passionate Red MonoGamists
conjoining enlightened Green PanenTheists

DiPolar depolarizing
vocal EgoOnes
in bilateral voiceless NonZero Zones
regenerating long-term resilient
health/safety choices
regenerating generations
of wealthshare.

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Universal HealthCare

Universal health
feeds unitarian safety
breeds universal health

A most patriotic way
we can live and breathe

In our diversely languaged nations
cultured continents
of global EarthTribe advocates

Interdependently loyal
to universal health
safety
and sacred intersectional
inter-religiously green
solidarity

Of universal sacred health
winning Earth’s unitarian safety
wealthing universal health…

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GreenHealth Heroes

All organic parties
committed to EarthTribe
as My HomeTeam
could become EarthPatriots
experiencing every day is EarthDay;
which, of course
we are revolving through
together,
more resiliently
than ecopolitically polarizing
AnthroSupremacist Apartheid.

Speaking from our felt-within
multipartisan democratic
cooperative co-governing experience
in life’s healthier
and safer feeling
thinking
green outdoor communication classrooms

For parents
domestic partners
clergy
healthy resilient cooperatively-owned corporations,
elected leaders of those greening corporations
and NonOthering ecopolitical green parties,
green civil, and not so burning-red uncivil, servants
empowering public health and safety GreenTeams
composed of community
liberalove-resonance/conserving green resilience
bipartisan STEAM healthy-policy co-mediators,
multiculturally co-invested healthcare facilitators

Of
and for
within as without
GreenTeam cooperative dialogue
not defensively reacting
to greedy public
and private capital supporters
of divisive
corrosive
cynical
win/lose zero-sum militaristic
fear-mongering debate

Overriding shared
EarthTribe health
and safety agreements
on green restorative
compassionate co-invested values

For engaging in life-long
deep win/win compassionate,
co-empathic listening
as non-violently as a MotherTree,
and green sacred learning
liberally enlightened love of Left
conserving empowered co-invested Right

In this Great About Face
Turquoise Transitional
Anthropocene
CoMessianic Sacred Rapture,
at least for Holy EcoSpirited
WholeSystemic
Nature/Spirit
Indigenously Wise
NonApartisan Bodhisattvas

Retelling green Creation Stories
of bipartisan positive
bicameral dialogue,
discernment,
actively curious
and nonjudging discussions

To increase multiculturally engaging understanding,
acceptance,
appreciation,
co-empathic economic-ecological win/win
regenerative compassion

For EarthTribe cooperative listening,
steeped in deep experiential roots
of mutual EarthMother sacred trust

Emerging from polycultural GreenSolidarity
relationships grown with enlightened ecofeminist tools

For exploring cooperative ownership
and GreenEarth cooperative management
ecohealth is ego-wealth stewardship

Health and Safety empowerment projects
for local
through global
GreenEarth Tribe.

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When MultiCulturally Presiding

As no one
never said
about nothing,

“Calling in human health care options
might not imply
calling out
lack of Earth-wealthy choices.”

I could, possibly,
but certainly not prudently,
go all the way
back
back,

Even further back,
to European roots
to StraightWhiteMale monoculturalism,
Christian-Royalist monotheistic supremacy
over educational
dogma
and development systems

(not quite so sure
about the wisdom
of severing sacred church
from secular state,
especially on matters
of conscience,
theism,
sexuality,
gender plurality
and all that nasty
green ecofeminist
suspiciously pantheistic
ecopolitical analysis)

Or even further back,
to polycultural health root systems
of health democracy
of and for all the sacred v secular
business as sexy-capital usual
AND secularLiberal branch needs evoking
inviting
engaging sacred root systemic
EarthConservancy

PanEntheistic and also not merely Anti-MonoPolistic
as Compassion means more
than simply Not Violent
Green ReStorative Justice for Peace,

Embodied complex Feeling choices
informed by inviting Verbal ego-theistic
emergent unvoiced voices,

Either secularly Humane or sacredly Divine
choices felt either from within or from without,
and not both
NonDominating Humane/Divine dipolarity, co-arising
eco/theo-logically enraptured
patrician-ecofeminist greens
with indigenous declensions
both nominative Yang
prime lines
within oblique octaves of Yintegrity.

NatureEarth/Whole System Spirit Sky
of Integral Win/Win GreenHealth
optimization potential

for Earth’s ongoing
HealthySacred/WealthyCapital
ecological co-relational feelings
minimized
as underwritten
by ecopolitical
Fundamentalist EitherSaint/OrSinner
thoughts.

Disempowering individual bodies
without cooperatively enlightening
preparing
informing
educating
experiencing
healthy
wealthy
wise co-passionate minds

Favoring synergetic nonspecialization,
non-special case,
not not polynomial integral NonZero
fractal DNA dialectical 4Prime Resonant
global EarthTribe
building mountains
preserving rivers of
nominative-oblique
passionate-nonviolent potential.

PanEntheistic BiNomials
playing Win/Lose capitalism
instead of also preferring
and actually choosing
a global EarthTribe
healthy wealth default,

Win/Win Ecosystemic Green Games
spiraling toward Turquoise Meditations
on Ego/EcoSystemic co-binary balance
within Left/Right bicameral sensory-neural
systemic resonant default structures,
networks of cognitive/emotive language,
verbal and nonverbal,
liberally empowered
and sacred conservationally enlightened
healthy cooperative democratic
bipartisan non-apartisan organizations,

Originally intended/intending
to ecopolitically co-govern
with Green/Turquoise/AquaMarine
Earth healthing nonviolence

Balancing LiberalYang/Conservational-Yintegrity
(harder to say, easier to feel)
Universal EgoWealth/Unitarian EcoHealth

BiLateral complex trees
of ancient neurosystemic memories
spiraling co-binary regenerative strings
of power/light
left is right
day before night
binomial spectral metaphors
analogies
narratives
ecologies
theologies
love stories
back to AboveWind
WaterBelow.

Calling out for climate health options
might not imply
lack of green optimizing
economic/ecological co-invested
win/winning wealth-care
resilient choices.

Calling in EarthHealth options
might not not imply
dualdark
integral
regenerative health potential
to bicamerally balance
power/light
space/time
health/wealth
monopolistic nature/panentheistic spirit
polycultural/greenpeace climate
resonantly resilient
Yang/Yintegrity’s co-governing
healthy democracy potential

To call out,
To resist ignoring Win/Win default
health/wealth choices
rather than inviting
these wealth-resonant pleasures,
sacred meanings,
indigenous panentheistic peak experiences
sensory-neural systemic

Defaulting in favor of balanced health care
integrity of internal
liberalYang strength/conservingYin flow
bilteral roots of Earth’s polycultural design
and development
Green-Blue/SacredRed-Hearted
healthy democratic dialogue standards

For no one
who never said
nothing.

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