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Roots of Worship

My roots of Creator worship
are fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and curiosity

Whether this might also be true
and sometimes disappointingly false
for you

A resonantly sacred
sometimes prophetic
heart

With a resilient
health developing
ecosystemic mind

For whom my tricky part,
or one of many
as I recall…

Furtive sidewind glances
to my youthful left

Where he sat
in his magnificent
thick stacked darkness,

My closet worship thing
is impossible to come out
with perfect timing
with someone I am powerfully,
intoxicatingly, enraptured by
with
within
and preferably not without

Yet have no hope or intention
of ever being naked
or even transparent,
and certainly not vulnerable,
within his sight and hearing.

If said out loud,
then unveiled too soon
to not cause unwanted predative
seductive concerns.

If not said too soon
then inevitably disclosed too late
to retain resonant
and resilient trust

No hidden agendas,
no closet colonizing cases,
no aging platonic relationships
continuing to work
and play better
in just right silence
of unseen
unheard
unfelt
untouched emotions
without attaching motions

Back through roots of Creator worship
fed and watered
by Creation appreciation
and thick stacked curiosity.

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Integrity’s NonScarcity

I can experience integrity of time
and dissonance of not enough
but cannot find
define
refine a line
in-between
anxiety and anticipation

win-eg ohealthy center
to win-ecosystem wealthy advocating
divesting of a punishing win/lose shadow
anthro-supremacist leftbrain dominant world
view

Feeling committed to change
strategies restoring peace
on
and in,
above
and beyond awesome
and wondrous sacred
divinely secularized humane
EarthJustice

Could never become regenerative
through degenerative win/lose
ZeroSum scarcity
predicts dissonance about punishment

AND
Peace will never spontaneously regenerate
when diminishing multicultural esteem value
for win/win NonZero sums
of integrity’s Truth means BeautyTwo
restoring climates of warm felt justice

Through integral,
permacultural,
polycultural
global climate health Justice
restoring inside
outside Peace
of sufficiency
simplicity
sustainability
surrounded by EarthDay seas
of gratitude

Win/Win trusting attitudes
of ecosystemic deep
and emergent wide experience
through multi-sensory
multi-generational
poly-regenerational reflection
ego-inspired
and eco-witnessed

BiCameral Left with Right co-operative
co-reflection identity confluence,
curious confidence,

Integrity’s potential
slow-steeped tea
of sufficiency
robust simplicity
solidarity through win/win
elegant engagement

Restoring EarthPeace
through multiculturally appreciative Justice
integrating sustainable EarthView dialogue

AND
not diving so deeply
in disastrously dissonant
deductive dominant
EarthScarcity debate.

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InExhaustible ComPassion

Solitude
not impatiently exhausted
remains open to nonviolent solidarity
through multiculturing Earth communication,
within reflective self
and without
in active dialogue with nature
spirited Other remuneration.

As yang-strong
solid regenerative nature
engages and co-invests in more
and better compassionate humane
divine experience

As objective secular outcomes
blend yintegrity within
without subjective secularizing intent

To optimize green ego-health
and blue eco-sacred
co-invested safety;
An EarthCommuniy of communities
practicing social-economic Solitude
can be regenerative,
an omni-potent
poly-pathic
non-egotistic
eco-feminist
healthy and safe place

Strong Yang-power mounted
within Yintegrative well alliterative rivers
shivers
quivers
slivers
through bilaterally flowing ZeroZones

Full of timeless NonZero
times undefinable potential,
future wealth
planted in solidarity
of now unfolding
prehistoric
indigenous green/blue EarthWombs
of and for
reweaving memories.

Active solidarity
within eco-responsive solitude,
full and empty
impersonal when co-impassioned felt
and needed safe wealth
is health
proper communication seasons

Inexhaustibly solitary
nonviolent political community
of co-investing economic green communions,
regenerating solidarity
re-membering compassionate nonhistoric nurturing experiences,
polypathically rational outcomes

Objective
through anticipating ego-health reflective
eco-wealth intent

Of communal solitary souls
full and ego empty
NonZero Zoned reflective
subjects inexhaustibly objective
passions
compassions
exhaustibly solitary
solidarity.

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Love’s Vulnerable Pedestrian

Taoists recognize
all outside exposed inside egos
feel watched
when walking through
a new or, some stressed times,
even a long familiar
housed human eco-habitat

But some of us feel marginal,
suspected,
anxious about being judged
and shamed
and blamed
for assumed insufficiencies
at aggressively playing monoculturing win/lose
Straight
WesternWhite
Patriarchal
eco-political games

And sometimes we feel anticipation,
privileged multicultural excitement
and active hope

That the multigenerational family
moving in next door
will have kids our win/win needy age

Still health/wealth co-empathic
feeling ego/ecosystemic healing memories

Of past
RedYang/GreenYintegrity walking
waking small revolutionary
repurposing
transportive
transcendent communion experiences

ReStorying Earth’s polyculturing just Ways,
PolyPathic Means,
CoMediations of health-felt cooperative experience

In Ego/Eco-Pedestrian NonZero Zones
of active co-mediation,
win/win strategic and healing game designers
bilaterally co-passioned,
walking along 1/0 binomial
double-binary
boundaries

Anticipating ego/eco-systemic
compassionately progressing
communions.

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Creative Tensions

Anxiety pulls toward distraction
delusion
un-communication

As anticipation pulls toward absorption
in monoculturing illusions
and/or polyculturing illustrations of interdependence,
miscommunication
and/or bilateral,
or even multicultural communication,

The Earth’s rapid climate degeneration,
now rolling out faster with private transport
and industrialized meat and poultry farming,
and longer with artificial light
and factories birthing plastic products
all night,
moves into a revolutionary height
of global anxiety,
democratically felt

But aristocratically denied
by win/lose devolutionary monocultural leaders
not familiar with win/win revolutionary
polycultural outcomes
multicultural incomes
multigenerational regenerators
meta-morphic appositional (not win/lose oppositional)
dipolar (not bipolarized)
co-arising (and co-gravitating) feelers
thinkers
meditators
grassroots permaculture designers
restoring down to top
AND top to down non-violent communicating justice mediators,

All healers of toxic subclimate
and monocultural win/lose
either/or leftbrain dominant thinking,
are also, at our best,
bicameral ego/eco-systemic anticipators
of win/win global green peace

New through indigenously experienced win/win raptures,
Heaven as Earth organic gardens.

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Integrity’s Felt Promise

If I may suggest
a possible improvement
in mystic teachings
about healthy meditation experience,
structure,
discipline,
neurological
and psychological
and, in more advanced classes,
sociological
cultural
and political correctness,

I would compassionately ask
if we have not spilled
rather too much verbal ink
attending to cognitive awareness
and not enough
on affective
contextual
interdependently felt intelligence,

Distinguishing subtle nuances
ambiguity
everyday mundane in-between nest
of empowering anticipation feelings
(not merely win/win revolutionary awareness)
and disempowering darker anxiety feelings
(not just win/lose
evolutionary/devolutionary
theoretically privileged consciousness).

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An Anxiously Anticipated Event

Dear John,

All day
yesterday
I loaded up with a cascading river
of mixed anxiety and anticipation
about what to safely and kindly,
transparently and vulnerably
compassionately, so non-violently, share
communicate;

Which narrative tributaries to choose
within this vast spacetime stream
of choices
directions
felt depressions and erections.

Do you remember
communication theory
framed as Rhetorical Events?

Our initial walk and talk,
eating together,
rather than my refrigerator foraging
brunchtime usual rawfood practice,
is a graced green,
rain giving way to blue, memory for me,
and, I hope, for we
these sacred walking
secular talking
people.

Successful rhetorical events,
as I recall,
and have co-passionately experienced
with ecstatic thrills
and mysterious chills of anticipation,
wanting more and more
cascading throughout my too isolated life,

Are cooperatively held spaces
resonant and verbal and non-verbal places
longing to become resilient
as ultra-violet light
in phosphorescent mystical night,
bright
and warm
without ballistic fright,
inviting sounds of sight.

So I drove home
basking in such rich
potentially resilient
transparent and vulnerable
articulate yet impassioned
felt experience
confirming all my own ego’s grand theories
about win/win non-violent
Rhetorical compassioning
Events.

My anxieties spoke later
about mutual physical
natural, yet also spiritual,
attraction–
this smell and taste neurological chemistry
of touch exhaling
to co-empathically predict
our romantically felt quality
inhaling integrity’s great resilient passions,
shared loves
communal,
deeply green cooperative,
that rhetorical day
as true and beautiful for us.

It has been thirty years
since my last first date,
with a man who became my unanticipated husband,
partner
spouse
lover
quarreler
critic
listener
emotive voice
co-investor
political ally
communicator
miscommunicator
long-term rhetorical event
cooperative space-holder,
mediator
not really quite green enough
for resonant felt
and thought co-passionate experience
near our end
of cohabitation.

Nearly half my lifetime,
thirty years,
and I feel anxious
I have not yet learned
appropriate new old person rules
of transparency
and vulnerability
to be clear
and kind,
compassionately clear
about my natural/spiritual
physical/metaphysical attractions,
anticipations,
anxieties.

When I last dated
a gay encounter of the first kind
either ended nakedly together
or with a scheduled second date
with a bed
or a sling
or a deserted moonlit beach
front and center on our anticipated menu

Or ended in disaster,
no connection,
no further warm and resonant communication,
no passing green light Go!

I did not “date”
men who lived so very far away,
out of state,
unless one of us was planning to relocate
or both of us were anticipating
an extremely resonant
one hot night stand
lying down together,
exploring all the vertical
and horizontal dances
we could imagine ever wishing we had done
to further gather
future’s warm anticipations.

I am anxious
because I do not want to disappoint you
or me
about our embodied
non-verbal communication
and passion together.

My own nakedness
lies nowhere near my vulnerable
and transparent self-esteem
as was the case
when I last dated
and I do not know
what to do
and not do
with that.

I have no mentors,
no wise teachers,
no therapeutic facilitators,
no sex therapist
to talk and touch me through
this anxiety.

But, I do anticipate
an unfortunate comparison
I met on our silvered dating site
the same day I first heard you
connect climate pathological effects
with capitalistic causes,
which immediately won my curiosity
to know
just how deeply knowing
we might go
together,
and not apart.

I met another singer
another meditator
another deeply
physically connected
to Taoist sensory communication
yangly verbal and yin non-verbal,

More physically incarnated
and less metaphysically abstract
less theoretical
merely rhetorical
more mature
aged
connected like wine with cheese
and re-connected
than my own experience
in how to mutually
yet maturely
please.

Last evening we talked.
His voice sings and rings,
warmly chills and quietly thrills.

And, he is closer.
Teaches dance.
We anticipate learning together
how to tango horizontally
without creating an entangled mess
at our ripe old average age
of 69

Which,
when I last dated
was a cooperatively rhetorical
erotic position
and not an age
which we sensually anticipated
without great anxiety
about resilience
of sensual resonance.

For me,
this need not be a win or lose,
either-or situation.
Even less so
if I thought the two of you
would appreciate each other
in this partner searching
lifeline rivered
shivered way,
but that is not what I would anticipate
either of you would say.

So, that is what is on my mind
and heart
and root chakras
this another deep green
ego-centering
and ecosystemic rhetorical day.

Said my vertical horizontal way,
physical and metaphysical
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
love with you
and hell to pay,
anxiously anticipating
your kind
non-maligned
response.

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TransPartisan Anxious Anticipations

What is coming to pass
with my anticipation,
when passed
provokes anxiety
about my loss.

What is coming to pass
with my anxiety,
when passed through
returns toward my grateful anticipation.

Then what is coming to pass
with this anticipation…

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Agreeing to DisAgree

I have noticed
in negative strong
long feeling settings
a willingness
to accept impatience
to reluctantly embrace tolerance
and Agree to DisAgree.

Yet, to equate this conclusion
with cooperatively
and actively Agreeing to Positively Agree
with anticipation
rather than further win/lose anxiety
would be to overvalue tolerance
and to underestimate
differences between systemic logic
and self-deceiving fallacy.

We do not meet
win/win standards of nonviolently held energy,
powers of positive communication praxis,
by Agreeing to DisAgree,
shrugging
and leaving the dialogue
with win or lose, who knows?
back to hopeless stuckness,
but now further entrenched
in frustrating
increasingly impatient,
look some other way
tolerance

Of a society
too dumb to GoldenRule agree
to act as decent as a healthy family,

And too ignorant
to co-invest in present
and future green integrity.

To believe agreeing to disagree
is sufficient for short-term bridges,
let us be forewarned
agreeing to not yet agree
on reassuring regenerative plans
for healthy green democracy,

Is quite far from cooperative value enhancements
of agreeing to co-passionately agree
we are here together
for all EarthTribe’s health and safety

Multiculturally cooperative
eco-political regenerativity,
revolutionary 20/20
democratic positive energy.

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I Have A Son

I have a son
who worries

His economic vocation
requires a political vacation
from the rest of us
and perhaps even light of sun

Which hardly feels sustainable
or resonant
and certainly not win/win resilient.

I have a son
so brilliant
he could choose to hunt
and gather shopping carts
at Walmart

And find a way
to help shoppers feel
he is vacationing
with
and for all of us.

I have a son
whose most visible mistake
is believing his anger and fear
stem from missing invitations
to enter his one true
politically correct
and socially esteemed
vocation

As if any employment
he could embrace
would not become more sacred
by his warm communication,
cooperative invitation,
profound sublimation,
ecosystemic renunciation
of fear
to make wrong
ego-uncentering annunciation
articulation
of what he means
by joining in
with this multiculturing humane race

Of confusing
competitive and cooperative
eco-political pace.

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