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Breathing’s Righteous Purpose

You and I may have decided
long ago,
and again more recently,
more ego-centrally
and now more large-stage ecopolitically,
that human life
has only that meaning and purpose we give ourselves,
we choose to embrace,
however ambivalently

And this dissociation from divine
theocratically orchestrated
organized
operational history and culture
leaves us free
but also isolated;
an individual without communally objective identity,
without sacred communion
orthodox portfolio.

You may have thought,
as did I,
a self-assigned secular purpose
could only be subjective,
as free as straight white male law
to become morally arbitrary,

Polypathic liberation without polyphonic natural harmonies
of graced
and original sacred objective intent–
sometimes punishing
and other times therapeutic–
sometimes both retribution against subjects
and therapy with and for redeemed objects.

YOu may have thought God is as dead
as planet Earth will one day be,
and there is no realistic
natural or spiritual escape route,

No heavenly and eternal paradise Rapture
for the Elect,
much less the merely subjective NonElect
like wounded
isolated
mortal
autonomous ego
me.

I may have come to hope
we push through in-between
nihilistic subjective freedom
to choose win/lose competititons
between leftbrain wealth
of chosen verbal knowledge
and rightbrain health
of meaningful connection
back through generations
regenerating self and other selected purpose
to reconnect Father straight white male God
with MotherEarth CareTaker CreationGiver

Choosing DNA’s secular/sacred
healthiest/wealth of opportunity
to choose vocational purpose
rejoining Earth’s win/win CareTaker leftbrain intent
either/or
win or lose
with EarthMother’s CareGiver rightbrain
composing interdependent CoPassion’s
eco-habitual
co-operational meanings.

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A Climate of Integrity

Societies,
religious and secular,
nation-states,
corporations,
extended families,
tribes,
colonies,
property owners,
owned properties
are caught in,
invested in,
an inescapable network
of climate mutuality,
cooperativity,
multicultural communion,
tie-dyed,
camouflaged in a single Earth habitat
of green-blue spectral destiny
rhapsody
rapture.

Climate injustice anywhere
is a threat to health
and justice
and peace
everywhere.

There are some climates
in our social
political
economic racist system
to which all EarthDwellers
ought to be maladjusted
divested
struggling to breathe free,
to dream expansively
inclusively
theo- and ego- and eco-logically.

Internal and external climates
of hatred and bitterness
can never cure
the disease of fear,
only mutually-owned ease,
an inside/outside climate of love,
can do that.

We must win/win evolve,
for all human climates of conflict,
a strategic method
which rejects revenge,
retributive win/lose punishing injustice,
aggression,
and retaliation
rather than therapeutic climates of restoration,
non-violent
co-passionate peace.

The religious
and spiritual
and empowering
and enlightening foundation
of such a healing method
is nonsectarian love,
integrity,
multicultural climates of warm
synergetic
active appreciation.

Before it is too late,
we must narrow
this gaping theological
anti-ecological chasm,
maladjustment
between our proclamations of separate but equal peace
and our own privileged and elitist investments
deeds
words
thoughts
feelings which culturally precipitate
and historically perpetuate
win/lose war
violence
aggression
competitions in mutual disdain,
detachment from mutual appreciation
social cooperation
resilient wealthy empower nation
of resonantly healthy enlighenment,
consciousness,
awareness,
multicultural climate noticing,
EarthCentric appreciation.

One day
we must come to see
hear
feel
touch
smell
taste this EarthClimate of peace
is not merely a distant goal
dream
theological and ecological conjoined objective
that we cooperatively seek,
but a means by which we arrive
at this mutual climate of non-violent peace,
our goal,
destiny,
fulfillment of multiculturing,
creolizing,
transubstantiating secular and sacred humanity.

We must pursue peaceful climate ends
through win/win restorative justice means.

We shall hew
carve
design
develop out of this maladjustment mountain
of climate despair,
a stone,
a cooperatively-owned pearl,
an equal and integral communion,
global theist and atheist alliance
of resilient EarthClimate hope.

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Soup Kitchen Luncheon

He said s/he was a Permaculture Designer
of cooperative economies.

I asked him/her why I should care about designs
long-term
while I am still struggling through this day
before tomorrow,
when I, best case scenario,
awaken healthy
to begin surviving yet another day
before night’s cold unrest.

So glad you asked
s/he seemed to say
without youthful presumption
of telling me what I already knew,
Good question!

Permaculture Design is rooted in Game Theory,
for those more math and economic science inclined,

Defining our cooperatively-held
long-term resilient
public and private
secular and sacred health outcomes

Through win/win projections
and ego/ecotherapeutic
0/1 cooperative bilateral co-relational zone analysis.

Before I had a chance to mention
that this does not warmly resonate
for the 99% who could care less about theoretical
and/or experiential
math and economic science,

S/he continued,
For those more politically empowerment/disempowerment oriented,
Cooperative Permaculture Design
follows your/our most optimally resonant
left/right
onezone/zerozone
nature/spirit
Western dualism/Eastern elite/non-elite nondualism
polycultural relationships
balancing polypathic designs with polyphonic health/wealth synergy,
resilient either/or deductive thinking
AND resonant both/and bicameral inductive compassion therapy,
ego-internal as integral with eco-contextual.

While this, too, seemed far too abstract
for warm and inviting lunchtime conversation,
I asked if s/he might try again
about how this could possibly change our lives together.

This same economic and political health framework
can be applied to restoring social justice,
civic cooperativity,
civil rights,
racial multicultural inclusiveness,
environmental Climate Justice

Negatively defined by
all that is equally not-not polycultural injustice;
a universal type of ego/eco double-binary restoration
of internal/external fairness

Morally
and legally
and economically
and politically
and socially health preferable
to win/lose retributive “justice”

Which can never produce win/win global green peace
today,
tonight,
tomorrow,
cold unrestful tomorrow night.

While this still feels too much like tomorrow’s promise,
at best 2021 integrity of right mindbody prominent hindsight,
I still had not finished my thin slice
of dryly donated white vanilla cake,
so I stayed through final summary.

By “integral”
we mean cooperative integrity,
synergy,
positively interdependent me/we relationship
and universally inclusive throughout spacetime

Designs composed of equivalently appreciated nutritional systems,
systemically democratic energy,
power, incoming and outgoing,
nutrients of mutually respirated respect,
communications multiculturally
and polyculturally
inclusive,
engaging,
inviting,
co-passionate,

Worthy of warm resonant lunchtime discussion
and afternoon implementation
and resilient/resonant dreams
of flying together
more than falling apart.

To this day
when I hear “climate”
I also hear polycultural atmosphere
economically and politically healthier
than monocultural attitude.

I’m sometimes still hungry
and feel homeless,
but now this is a cooperative hunger
and shared cold dry absence
of multigrain communion.

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New Year’s Recycling Journey

Stepping into a new year,
especially one calling for 20/20 revision
reform
not retribution for anger’s past
but restoration of WinLeft/WinRight bicameral sanctuary,

Stepping into a new ZeroZone Asylum,
positive deviance from leftbrain competitions
deductive,
predicting reductive,
business as usual.

Positive left/right harmonic deviance
invites cooperative resistance
against a shared predative,
light-skinned,
patriarchal,
hopelessly heterosexual privileged enemy
of all the non-elite people
emerging from leftbrain dominant climates
of EarthTribe colonization,
extraction of life,
enslaving monopolization of body-power,
abuse,
disembodied neglect,

Shared asylum against negative lose/lose nihilism,
fake elitist monotheistic Rapture,

Against positive win/win passion,
compassionate communication,
ego/eco left/right yang/yin bicameral therapy.

Stepping into this NewYear ZeroZone
can be yet another
in an undistinguished
degenerative lose/lose series,

Lacking 20/20 sensory-neural
bilateral
binomial
polypathic/polyphonic
co-passioning
revolutionary revision,
restoring peace,
Earth Climate Justice,
inside as outside,
inspiration as exhalation
enlightening as empowering
not-not yin as positive intersectional yang
exponential 0 as multiculturing 1
incoming wealth herstory as outgoing polyculturing health

Ecofeminist 2020
predicting trimtab strategic
global health possibility
of a robust 2121
compassionate
cooperative wealth-climaxing
EarthSanctuary.

May this win/win celebration game
begin not win/lose degenerating all over again,
but, instead, grab hold of regenerative becoming
NewGreen MultiCultural Asylum.

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Comedy of Impeaching Errors

The Republican congressmen,
and I do mean white privileged straight men,
came to their Democratic opposition
concerned about how depressing
December can be,
and all of winter,
come to think and feel
of dark discerning Advent,

So maybe we could stage
a comedic debate
about Trumpism,

To say the most extravagant truths
and untruths
and anti-truths
repeatedly aimed across each other’s non-listening brows,
to speak to American voters back home
of how much more reasonable they are

As they learn to transparently discuss
what we pretend to vulnerably debate,
as if we truly cared
about what our great
great
great
great
great
great grandfathers
thought and felt about great enlightenment era
liberal democratic theory
rooted in theoretical
without much experiential
cooperative co-investment,
social-political well-being
more deeply rooted in inclusive trust
and not disloyal royal mistrust
and not unconstitutional anti-trust
against global democratic social, psychological, ecological-theological health,

Wealth of trusting solidarity
subcultures and subclimates,
lefts and rights,
global ecology and local economy,
all more cooperatively amusing and good-humored,
like Ben Franklin more
and like Benedict Arnold less.

The greenish Democrats
felt this white nationalist comedy proposal
a great impeaching drama idea
to be staged immediately
with straight-forward urgency

To defend universal mental health-care
constitutional well-being inside covenants
and other serious bicameral empowering matters.

So, while winking left-eyed,
these farcical RightWing stand up comedians
loudly
and repeatedly
reminded horrible Green Democratic Predators,
Persecutors,
Pretentious Prosecutors of True Public Health and Safety,
they are thereby,
and heretoforth,
staging a painfully tragic revolutionary Coup,
without the military, just yet.

The Democrats respond,
repeatedly underlining
a most portentous liberal educated view:

The climatic sky is falling,
but you want to argue about differences
between our great
great
great
great
great
great grandfathers,
overly exercised about capitalist political theory,
while all white male privileged
and many, if not most,
slave-owners and hopelessly straight,
some of whom actually sold off property
(now liberally known as non-elite labor force)
to pay off their cooperative membership dues
to financially launch this non-partisan
revolutionary confection
known as the U.S. of A.

Anyway,
why does the prospect of President Pence
lead you to so quickly claim
a revolutionary Coup,
a denial of your Republican RightWing
straight white privileged incorporated patriarchy
that nominated
this unlikely anointed duality?

Now rabid Republicans
smell some not so funny meat:

You have hated Trump
since we profitably nominated him
and his Christianity Today muzzling
and smug side-kick
praying for a better heterosexual Rapturous Day.

This kangaroo Pelosi court
is not about green and clean and healthy people
plants
and planet;

It is also not about narcissism
and anthropocentrism
and xenophobia
and greed
and disassociative psychosis
and climate anxiety,
and over-populated rabidity,
and unhealthy patriarchal morbidity,
and globally tragic pathology
and other LeftBrain too-dominant associated pathologies.

But, this charade
instead
reminds of your original ill-intent
against the cooperative win/win healthcare needs
of The People!

Almost half of whom
actually voted for this Trumpian self-promoting Messiah
of monocultural climate pathology Denialism,
not realizing that underneath his InExperienced Emperor clothes,
lurked a naked anti-trust of Other,
anti-SacredTrust in Transparent Truth,
against Health/Wealth Faith,

Invested in AntiHope for a Great Unraveling Body
of AntiChrist Red UnHealthy
over-heated
straight White male and Earth CoFragility,
depression,
reactionary repression

Where once lived Right-tragic and Left-comedic
AnthroPrivilege of conscious good-humored Communication
and healthier wisdom about Fake AnthroSupremacy
of unconscious BadHealth DisConnection,
Lose/Lose absence of wealthy associations,
cooperative co-investments, past through future
win/win green democratic communions,
secularLeft and sacredRight
health-humored.

The Great Impeachment Debate
was discussed
and win/win v lose/lose v win/lose non-partisan discerned
by multicultural mediators,
restorative justice green-economy pundits,
permaculture design integral-ZeroZone value optimization ecologists,
LaughTherapy compassionate Buddhists,
Tao NonZeroSum NonViolent NonDualists,
Ego/EcoFeminist Therapists,
Indigenous FireCircles,
Owls and Hawks and Eagles and Ravens and Crows,
Air and Fire,
Soil and Water,
Atmosphere breezes
stirring deep and wide Waters
resiliently seeking Resonance,
Health,
Truth,
Beauty,
ReCommunications,
Sweet ProPeachments
Ways and Win/Win Means.

A consensus quickly emerged;
Networks,
organic systems,
polypathic energy democracies
felt this Impeachment Debate was over-acted,
under-presenced;
over-staged,
under cooperatively framed;
overly rhetorical,
under musical, or even lyrical;
overly repetitive
and yet under-resiliently resonant,

And undernourishing of good humor,
under-watered for long-term green health,
under-fed by compassion
and ego/ecotherapeutic bicameral intent
and warm accompaniment happiness.

With inappropriate debate themes
for teaching small children cooperative dialogue skills
and other forms of civil green communion trust
suitable for growing any healthy democracy,

We found bipartisan support
to mutually stop under-investing
in a wealthy sense of bilateral tragic-humor
to re-empower potential climates
now sadly disempowering.

Note: Much of the underlying theme associating healthy humor with feelings of cooperative trust has been informed by a contemporary, yet classic, political empowerment theory that the underlying emotive prerequisite to develop and maintain any truly democratically healthy relationship¬†is trust–more important even than feelings of loyalty, and felt needs of uniformity more than cooperatively-held unity.¬† This provokes a consciousness of left-brain investment in Uniform States in creative/divisive tension with right-brain investment in compassionately United-Interdependent States, of America, geopolitical hemispheres, Earth, extended families, associated species, etc…

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Sabbath Prayers

EarthMother’s unwilling Emissary
asked each faith community
and patriotic party
what they thought and felt
about God’s preferential option for the poor,
despised,
criminal,
homeless,
wounded and powerless women and children,
physical disabilities,
sick,
terrified,
rabid with anger and fear,
enslaved,
addicted,
insane.

Does this sound like an accurate description
of your congregation,
your self-empowering party,
your communion of saints,
your synagogue,
your sanctuary–
or are these those who best remain outside
your ego-celebrating walls?

Why are eco-they
not ego-you
on Saturday or Sunday morning
through midnight?

Why are these not Sabbath communion participants
holding mutually cooperative
and graced space
together?

What would it take
to heal this apartheid Ministerial NonAlliance?

Our homeless youth
play a young person’s avoidance game
in which all indoor human voices,
especially those of self-anointed authority,
ministerial power,
principals of punishing study
and exclusive EitherIn/OrOut system,
administrators of capital egocentric gains,
are suspect.

These same voices
have gathered from sandy shores,
river boundary habitats,
wilderness downstream spaces,
toxic dump places,
to lead competing Ministerial Alliances
in a guided poly-path toward meditation:

Imagine
you are an African black
and Latin brown
and Earth green
and Fire red
and SunLight yellow
and Moon ultra-nonviolet
and Water transparent
and Air invisible thread,
both natural and spiritual,
within Earth’s multi-regenerational systemic network,
a tapestry sunclock-wise woven,
sunset before sunrise unwoven
north with southern dipolarities rewoven
prewoven across a universe of Time.

You have regenerative
and degenerative experiences
thoughts
feelings
choices
absence of choice,
external debates
and internal discernments,
and dialogues
in-between your LeftBrain doer thoughts
to save us sinners
and malformed win/lose supporters
and RightBrain becoming together feelings
to reweave
to cooperatively heal
resilient natural Earth systems
with resonant spirit-felt EcoOrigins

From BlackHole Wombed potential
toward wealth rainbow not-not vaporous knots
of double-binding resonant climate health,
internally right hemispheric
as external LeftYang enculturing compassion
interweaving threads
learning intersectional co-passioning resilience
in four prime-revolutionary
space-time dimensions.

Imagine
how much more health we could do
and wealthy be
together,
rather than subclimates and subcultures
competitively
and resentfully
apart.

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Commanding Solo Performances

It had been a hellish week.

On Monday
my lonely and tired AfricanAmerican husband
told me, as gently as possible,
that what I had hoped was a temporary separation
is to be extended into perpetuity.

This separation had been scheduled to terminate
when my Fetal Alcohol daughter turns eighteen
and can move into a new, more therapeutically endowed, home
not our non-group home
which could not feel like a private home to him
and to a more peacefully vulnerable me.

He told me his autonomy of residential sight
and sound
and smell,
temperature and feel,
thought and absence of forced transparent thought,
has grown ever more compelling for him,

Like a new life system
organically emerging from calcified minerals
mixed with melted wet.

This permanent separation,
less about not wanting to share a roof and walls
and multicultural floors
and more about wanting a more private
monotheistic habitat.

I had been working on my adopted daughter’s emergency group home application;
Her eighteenth, and first qualifying, birthday was Friday
of this same hellish week
filled with demands,
as usual,
but more so,
more self-prophetically entitled now;

A “big [supremely self-disempowering] girl”
as multiply messaged from school
and therapists
and family,
jonesing to live with submissive peers
who will best be lesser care receivers
as she intends to appropriate all care giving staff,

Demanding preferred foods,
and music
and stories
and dance,
and diaper change
and bed
and bath times
ignoring needs of lesser beings;

Like living with a constantly ticked off Gaia
showing us who’s our jealous Boss
in response to our climate endangering ways
of patriarchal colonization
disrespecting matriarchal communion,
ecological creolization.

Demanding routines she and I have evolved
since she was five,
unable to see up,
only downstream,
unable to hear well,
unable to speak in consonants
articulate enough to defy caregiver ignorance,
lack of subservient cooperation,
submission to her aggressively iron will,
triggering every slaveholder
property owner
reactionary nerve in my husband’s long-term
matriarchal-limned
unnerved memory.

Our more cooperative and trust-building relationship
soon took care of Gaia’s communication problems
but we created, thereby,
a princess entitled ‘I win so you lose’ monster
of immediate and really loud
NEED!

Yet, now that she is maturing to leave this nest,
how much do I need her
to keep me safely home at night
and off the larger terrifying climate stage
of degenerating ecopolitical performance?

On the following Sunday morning,
I was to sing “Let Your Little Light Shine”
a less popular spiritual,
and at least not unnatural,
gospel message;

A sung prayer from enslaved history,
humiliating origins surviving valleys of vulnerable despair
by holding up
and out
dim fading lights of hope,
sometimes accessible from other enslaved properties
with more resilient hope in green and brown and black
communion.

On Saturday night
my heart spoke of grief
lost in deep dark valleys
isolated
abandoned
down-sized
empty-nested
shallow-chested
ancient old person despair,

And my lungs sagged
pushing against narrow edges of freezing panic

Terror about forgetting left-brain words
and reminders of past sung and danced solo performances
not nearly as fun
enriching
fulfilling
health wealthy
as past group participation
in full-nested harmony
synergy
resonance
regenerativity
sacred communions spiritual
while naturally co-present

Green
and brown
and black,
ultra-nonviolet
and transparently clear.

On Sunday morning,
after earning a strategically planned
full night’s rest,
I felt much worse

Unable to imagine leaving my sanctuary
much less singing
much less performing
a song longing for the Lord
to shine even the faintest ray of hope
down into this valley of well-earned despair,

A grey climate of hopelessness,
nihilistic thoughts,
narcissistic preoccupations
trapped in a shrinking fragile egocentrism.

I took an anti-depressant
which got me to the church on time
but now feeling anxiously disembodied
within my own Beloved Sanctuary
too universally white
straight
and too removed from outside green
and family brown
and EarthTribe Native black resonant voices,
fragrances,
touch,
tasting and seeing.

I could not remember words,
or think of alternative reasonable sounds,
could not find my opening pitch,
felt deserted by a cappella
absence of accompaniment,
by a choir relegated to background support services
rather than foreground cooperative resonance
of care giving
co-passioning care receiving.

But, there was something else
bad,
REALLY bad,
a repugnance that stayed with me
through rehearsal,
through first
and then final performance
and on through the return home
after a technical tepid success
lacking the resonance of producing music
transcending rhythm and pitch and lyrics
demanding better held and managed light systems
for my self-isolating despair

Afraid of drowning
in this internal river valley.

Although not sure what happened Sunday night,
I awoke next morning to emotional fragility,
again
to fears of too much aloneness, loneliness,
worries about ageing in a place not quiet enough
from road rage
and too demanding of soil
and water
and energy stewardship,
warm accompaniment,
propriety of grace,
cooperative well-being.

What was different, on this reawakening,
was recognizing my,
and our,
monocultural misappropriation,
supremacist ideation
of “Let your little light shine”
as if we are, and I am,
the Lord’s great solo hope
for all the autonomous
disconnected
apartheid
indigenous nature/spirit
EarthTribe life-systems
of healthy care giving/receiving
singing and dancing in revolving circles
of gospel fire,

Choired resonantly together
in active shared home harmonies,
extending families back through enslaved ancestors
reminding an AfroCentric Lord
this light begins
from hope sung dance together
with multiculturally resonant intelligence

Leaving no one behind
trying to soulfully enlighten
my darkest valley of despair.

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