Seduction’s Loss

I feel like I lost you yesterday.

Perhaps I overstepped
Some as-yet unestablished boundary
between Trust
and MisTrust

Between winning cooperation
and losing fear and anger
competing trepidations,

Like we tripped
over a fuzzy
dis-establishing line,
Unarticulated landmine
I am still not explicitly aware of
where, exactly,
it lies

We lie together
and yet apart

InBetween winning Trust
cooperatively co-invested
in not not losing active DisTrust
competitively co-divesting
re-individuating private
apartheid EgoSystems

Both encultured,
but separately developed,
by human natured
pathologically privileged
standing apart
from healthy
gospel winning wealthy
ecosystemically restoring
our bilateral peace
within polypathic EarthJustice,

CoPassionate winners of cooperative Peace
with intent to remain regenerately co-invested,
healthy days and safe nighttime dreamers,

My active mistrust
in-between noticing growing
feeling fear of having lost you
and an even narrower way
toward winning nondualistic co-acclimation,
inviting cooperative
democratically healthy dialogue
devoid of degenerative fear of losing
what was never mine to autonomously own
and defend
with autocratically unhealthy debate
against tomorrow’s even greater wounds.


Growing Integral Revolutions

In some integral green ways,
and blues truths,
and red-hot fear-filled/angry rightwing lives,

We all began as the ecofeminist
EarthMother-wombed and -birthed

And, thereby,
co-attached with her EarthMother’s health-egged
mind/body habitat-nurturing womb

win/win committed

Win/Win ReGenerative Living
Loving Nature EcoSystemic
Holy EnSpirited back
to when we were each
a mere NonZero Egg
integrally potentiating
another EarthTribal Living Soul.

Each individuating
original win/win toward win/lose
conversion experience
severs EcoSystemic Mother
from New neuro-systemic EgoDeveloping

Originally one dipolar co-arising win/win
eco-political conversion communication system
for transactional nutrition
and bilateral neurosensory co-invested exchange
for Ego/Eco BiLateral Intelligence

Emerging into a segregating
comparatively autonomous physical win/lose
heuristic neurosystemic mind//body
conversion experience
for new EgoLife

Into monoculturing LeftBrain dominant
straight white patriarchal-hierarchical orthodoxy
competitive BusinessAsUsual verbal debate
following rational deductive Either-X/Or-Y
complex branching distinctions
of many multiculturing differences
definitions not also seen as potential refine-moments

That we may also convert
out to expand multicultural experience
with co-empathic
Both-X/And-Y RightBrain interdependent memory
of primal X/Y Win/Win Attachment

Draws us toward healthy win/win EarthMother Justice
polyculturally thought/felt ego/eco-systemic
CoPassion NonVerbally-Felt Healthy/Safe Communion,
ComPassionate Verbal Communication,
CoEmpathic Health/Wealth EcoPolitical Community
EcoSystemic Conversion Experiences.

Written with capital headings
because LeftBrain dominance
seems to prefer capitalism
Either-X/Or-Y debate
over Both-X/And-Y discussion
about historic merits
of Win/Win multicultural creolization
over Win/Lose monocultural colonization.


Sacred Earth Undone

Earth feels undone.
Not only incomplete,
but now unraveling,

but not resurrecting,
not fully alive,
not healthy enough
to listen for sacred survive
whispers, ReWind

What Gaia has joined
ego-centers within ecosystems
must not secularize
disconnect natural analogical likenesses
inviting spiritual
profound illuminations

and for
complex empowerment,
full living regenesis truths
beyond unsustainable
left-brain dominant
human ego-isolating
supremacist economic
politicized ways

As if we are each a struggling
undead YangGod
unraveling toward our individualized mortality,
unable to ever become done

With self-creation

From where
and when
originates this undead
undone SelfQuest?

And to where
and when returns
YangGod’s yintegral spiraling
multilaterally reforming
DNA seasonal structural systemic shadow
soul of organic light
regenesis powers
of wealthiest communing?

Global and yet local,
external wealthiest EarthClimates
and internal multiculturing
health undone
polyculturing promise
of and for regenesis.


HealthCare Civics Lessons

A natural/spiritual,
bicameral dialogue
develops a healthy cognitive/affective individual,

So too,
development of a metaphysical system,
is, through diverse seasons,
and re-creative
and pre-creative
and un-creative
and not un-creative
in-between synthesis

Of physical facts
and metaphysically felt ideas
out of which a new contagious
resilient paradigm
not un-merges
democratically organic
holistically in-between interdependence
and equitable independence.

Universal principles
and ego/ecosystemic
nondualistic unitarian theories
organically develop
within each ego/eco bilaterally healthy system,
whereby resilient networks of consciousness
undergo continuous co-acclimation,
physical and metaphysical,
natural life territory
and spiritual wound healing maps,
self/other revising
changing definitions,
double-binding pan-transformations,
holistic communions.

Like a democratic intended constitution,
or multicultural health,
or equitable
and wealthy robust climate
of truth and safe beauty,

Any polyphonically resonant thought/felt system
becomes resiliently health-wealthy
only in its co-relational
interdependent dipolar co-arising entirety.

Ego/eco-systemic prime indigenous learning
provides a win/win therapeutic-historic way
of perceiving ego-centering
polyculturally communicating persons
wiith bicameral balancing curiosity,

And this deep health-learning
graces natural/spiritual
open whole systemic climates
of bilaterally revolutionary
natural health/spiritual wealth
green cooperative wisdom

Co-arising natural civil health,
non-violent communication,
with spiritual
metaphysical wealth
of non-violent communion.


Permaculture Designs

Multicultural Appreciative Design
begins with how we nutritionally feel,
nurtured or afflicted,
resonant and/or dissonant about a few issues,
spiritually healthy
and naturally wealthy,
growing out
into more robust global matters.

Polycultural outcome win/win strategies
follow principles of cooperative economy
and regenerative choice-making
to improve health care giving
and receiving
for each humane resident’s sacred habitat.

ZeroZone is first priority,
and then out to spacetime climate periphery.

Once we notice and plan past
Zone One,
Zone Two,
Zone Three,
and perhaps more,
depending on the scale of our restorative justice
healing ambitions,
we eventually conclude by observing
wind and light/shadow patterns,
climate trends
humid and dry atmospheres,
social good humored cultures
and nationalism’s bad humored
blaming and shaming
win/lose capital commodified monoculture.

ZeroZone interviews
ask Who Are You
at your healthiest
most nutritionally communicating
win/win eco-political best,
especially in cooperative relationship
with Zone One,
often defined as those spaces and times visited
and felt revisited
at least once per day
and night.

Zone Two,
less frequently,
maybe once a week.
The grocery store,
farmer’s market,
cooperative credit union,
compost bin,
edible and aesthetically pleasing boundaries,
inviting barricades
between Zone Two

Zone Three,
about once a month,
such as ambiguously friendly neighbors.

Zone Four,
once or twice a year,
maybe tracing tentacles out
to the dentist’s office,
the voting booth,
the state park,
the state capital.

Zone Five,
Climate health
v pathology,
Polycultural wealth
v monoculturing degenerativity,

Each of these layered Zones
extending out from each ZeroZone individual,
cooperative humane residents,
responsible and responsive green new deal team,
restorative justice residential authorities,
each Black Lives Matter intentional community,
each Green Lives Matter advocacy anthro-pod,
sharing a residential labor of love home,

a ZeroZone cooperative,
each Permaculture Designer
is trained to notice,
multiculturally mediate
bilaterally resilient left hemisphere
and resonant right hemisphere
nonviolent communication win/win relationships
of deductive thought
and inductive feeling,
breathing in
from Zones One through XY-polynomial layers
while also breathing out ZoneZero
feelings about healthy v pathological,
co-passionate climate dialogue
for win/win discernment
of global integrity’s timeless potential
for democratic health, more–

So, by the indirect way,
pathological outcomes
win/lose left hemisphere dominant either/or thinking,


Bored President

I once invested a year
as Board President.
Indeed, I was often a bored resident
of our State Affordable Housing Coalition.

My platform,
to speak grandly
of what was more of a healthy whim,
was for safe and beautiful affordable housing

Habitat is not just an optional frosting
on the State’s health
and wellness
and prosperity cake,

A nurturing confection
to become multiculturally accessible,
co-responsively owned and managed,
and filled with resident ingredients
trained and experienced,
invested and engaged
in supporting each other’s cooperative needs
and hopes
and polycultural faith
in healthy outcomes

Presiding ingredients as essential as 7-grain flour
AND the warm slow-flowing
rich and savory
golden brown honey
of an organic
carrot cake.

At the end of my first non-lustrous,
unfrosted year of the healthy carrot,
we were planning our annual conference,
to include our annual meeting,
the election of officers
from a slate nominated by the Board of Directors.

During the Board’s planning meeting,
We first heard from the Executive Director
about the conference theme,
which was to be
“Housing is the Answer”
[to all white male privileged executive financial questions].

Housing is the exclusive answer
to my bigger and better health and well-being cake.

I undiplomatically suggested
perhaps this is a monocultural answer
to a nutritional question
hardly any voters are asking,

Which was, I further supposed,
the reason we have an Affordable Housing Coalition,
to gather our failing corporate wagons
of besieged non-profit housing developers
and their corporate survival lobbyists,
who usually make about three
or four
or even more, times
what their median income residents
take in each year.

I thought, instead,
that affordable,
and compassionate housing,
cooperative environments
and structures
and support systems,
are part of the liberating
and secure health care question,
potential resolution,
integral climate for Earth’s health care,
and farming,
and feeding,
and repurposing,
and recycling
resident future through past EarthTribe compassion.

we discussed our slate of more mentally healthy officers
for next year.

In the past,
we assumed by hoary precedent
that Presidents
stay president
until their board term expired,
Then we tried to talk some other ambitious,
yet already over-committed, extrovert
to be our unanimously acclaimed
presumably fearless
and nearly flawless

Second in real world presence and power
only to the Executive Director
and, OK,
maybe third,
after the Financial Director.

Even so,
Board members present and accounted for,
sitting in our wisdom busyness circle,
seemed discouragingly relieved
when I began this agenda item
by announcing that we need to find a new President
because I was clearly not hearing
their politically correct questions
without questions of my own agenda.

I was happy to nominate
a young up and coming Latino leader
from my home town at the time
who was new to the Board.

After the Annual Conference and Meeting,
and his quasi-democratic elevation by affirmation,

Off to the north side
of the chandeliered ballroom,
holding less than sacred space
for mostly Ivy League graduates
without the good sense to dim the lights
and dance to The Beatles together,
maybe sing “Let It Be”
in multicultural harmony,

The new President confided
that he shares my taste
for the health care giving and receiving cake
and the 7-grain housing
and the golden brown honey
of resilient Earth cooperative residents

But, does not feel
it is safe
or liberating
to talk about that
as President resident.

I was his first clue;
probably not his last.


Atheistic Need Not Equal AntiTheistic

Ecological interdependent systems,
networks non-personified co-relational
therefore holistic

EcoTheistic networks
for active cooperation,
if you radically
and democratically
prefer creolization
over OldSchool colonization,
Business As Competitively Usual,

Missions with more effective
and historically
and culturally valid cooperative outcomes
than patriarchal missionaries
of verbal dogma over-powering trans-sectarian opportunities,
healthy integrity experience,
wealthy synergetic hope

Emerged from warm wet wombed
Zero ZenZones of nutritional co-passion

Speaking systemically
of health theo-logical pasts
through transportive futures.


Power: Love v Whatever

What might it take for love to conquer anger

How is holistic compassion already more contagious than a-holistic self-hatred,

There is more than one way to hear a**holistic here,
but they all have to do with sectarian divides,
sometimes felt more intimately, reductively personal,
and sometimes more transparently, seductively political,

Sometimes closer to home-caused and owned,
and therefore remedied,
and sometimes more great transitional,
and therefore more uncooperatively and disintegratively,
violently communicating
and pro-actively transporting
toxic viruses across monoculturing unhealthy unwealthy
absence of passionately healing opportunities.

Growing holistic compassion,
like growing organic THC,
depends on environmentally empowering supports
for positive,
resilient relationships
with all Earth’s co-passionate NatureSpirit systems
and ecotherapeutically integral strategies
for wealth optimizing health,
mental and physical,
spiritual and natural,
theological and ecologically inter-related,
co-arising dipolarities
of contrasting inside and outside Janus-faces
internally/externally co-passionate.

Compassion for oneself opens doors
and windows of consciousness
to pro-actively discuss changes toward robust health
with others
within an authentically wealthy and responsive society
with mainstream healing,

Rather than too often punishing deviance from bullish patriarchal nihilism,
meekly acclimating to non-relational toxic neglect,
failure to nutritionally appreciate yourself,
for who we truly
compassionately already are,
at least in our best positively deviant moments.

So, there lies our individual fundamental key to happiness
by moving from self-punishing habits of thought
and feeling entitled to misdemeanors
and even more aggressive and violent felonies
unpardonable blocks to this journey turning toward compassion
for oneself
Earth, now
and compassionately revolutionary future
Great GoldenRule Transition.

Investing in self-judging voices,
You screwed up again!
You are worse than useless!
You are lazy,
have no healthy work ethic,
want to play all the time
like an irresponsible two year old!
On and on and on…

Such self-afflictions are way less compassionately healthy
than calmly accepting past errors,
sins against compassioning humanity,
without absolving yourself of therapeutic reparations,
carrying all these negatives more lightly
as also enlightening potentially positive partial truths
validly applied to all of us
on our worst days
and most uninvited moments
reacting to perceived neglect, abuse,
diverse toxic pain

While living together in God/Gaia’s city (farm, sanctuary) on the Hill
is more about our universal SuperEgo’s bicameral pilgrimage
to restore Earth’s original holistic compassion.

Passion between a judgmental LeftBrain,
seeking retributive justice,
and a more compassionate RightBrain holism,
longing to restore resilient peace,
wealth of health,
without division between LeftBrain’s sectarian divisions
between what is natural and what grows spiritual

Secular/Sacred cultural divides
grow invisibly transparent outside/inside contrasts
in ancient WilseElder RightBrain memory,
rooted in narcissistically sectarian and co-passioned experience,

WinWin v LoseLose,
political health v economic/ecological toxicity,

Domestic/Global co-passions,
supported by multicultural cooperative responsibility
for actively pursuing health through positive passions.

Passion opens doors to external/internal,
even international/individual
compassionate ecopolitical health outcomes,
deep learning environmental incoming support
for further positive passion iterations

Deepening robust webs and buds of healthy future
secularLeft/sacredRight WiseElder evolutions,
DNA structurally supported
WinWin non-violent expectations

Positive psychological
and political
holistic compassioned powers
polypathically as accessible as green organic grass.


Therapeutic Revolutions

You mentioned you work with a therapist.

Has she encouraged you to incorporate centering exercises
and holistic thinking and feeling experiences
healing interior and exterior nondualistic climate events
in your everyday thinking/feeling habitual non-violent practice?

Has she encouraged you to disclose what you can realistically pray for
while making and selling automatic rifles?
And living cooperatively with those who choose to profit
in this terrorizing way?

You mean those tedious bicameral bilateral practices
like tai chi and yoga,
drumming while singing
and whistling
and laughing
and tweeting
or something wild like that?

I suppose I might,
although none of those are in my own daily repertoire
against depression
and climate crisis anxiety,
and an already compromised critical immune system.

Have you tried any of these holistic things
your therapist has suggested,
or not,
perhaps in passing
or passing by,
as alternative supplements to your talk therapy?
Has she suggested walking on the beach
and through forests,
and over and back down mountain trails,
tracking rivers flowing up and down,
circling around lakes rising and falling,
down competitive MainStreets
and up more cooperatively communalized by-streets
with under-capitalized
organic communioned
community eco-school gardens?

I don’t recall anything quite so athletic
or communal
I don’t know…
something about a PolyCultural DNA EcoCommons?

With your ADHD,
your high YHWH revenge-climate crisis anxiety,
your non-violent cooperative feminist
reverse-hierarchical solidarity philosophy,

And with your chronic depression,
disassociating repression,
ecopolitical suppression,
invited by LeftBrain dominant paranoid
self-justifying Yang v Yin concerns,
your mindbody might prefer bipedal
as well as bicameral
centering exercises
you can do every enchanting day
whether walking through a forest,
with or without peer therapists being-doing
walking non-violently while talking
as you walk from one room to the other
and up and down ancient stairs to nowhere/everywhere
inside your own home
and other divinely inspired green-potential sanctuaries.

I don’t think I can talk green and meditate ultra-nonviolet
even in a sanctuary.

It’s more like non-violent walking and talking
and ultra-nonviolet medicating
at the same time,
like thinking with your LeftBrain and right-dominant foot
while feeling-listening with your Right CooperativeBrain
and left-prominent foot
reverse backward through time’s history,
then upstream forward
into EarthTribe’s healthier green-shared future Commons.

I’m not sure I even trust that such a risk-management practice
would be a loyal
and patriotic
and faithful thing to do
and think
and/or feel.

Too startling,
to just deductively think about 2020 polypathic vision,

Too dissonant against BusinessAsUsual
LeftBrain competitions between think dominating felt
RightBrain response to LeftBrain oppressive
mechanistic system thinking
disassociating from RightBrain feels discerning harmonies of pace
and cooperative/dissonant hue,
and climate cry
and spiral walking through and by
doing being
saying seeing.

Yet if your LeftBrain does choose to reconsider,
all thoughts include implicit healing feelings
as all feelings, resonant or dissonant and in-between,
re-associate with LeftBrain conservational
conversational deductive/inductive balance
of natural/spiritual healthy thoughts with feelings,

While right foot follows left
following right
through each day’s inside and outside
ego- and eco-therapeutic journey
through life and death
between cooperative natural breath
and communal spiritual death, release reverse

Right foot forward into life
Left foot backward
into RightBrain’s sacred regenerate passage of timeless
journeying back through all past incarnate imaged lives

Patriarchal Right forward
and matriarchal Left reverse-hierarchical Time
co-governing pace through slowing our RightBrainBody
green organic herstory
negentropic timeless
run-on empty sentences
composed of re-associative double-binding phrases
like the sound of one foot not not walking

Perhaps I could feel called
to walk some small part
of this bipedal bicameral health journey.

But, how do you know when it is time to stop
and get on with your competitive egocentric day?

I’m not LeftBrain sure how I know
when to stop walking this pilgrimage
into cooperative WinWin.
I wake up each morning
more happily determined
to walk and talk in bicameral solidarity
until we have all found this healthy being Right
is doing Left journey
we were good-faith organically born to look for
and cooperatively expect
communally respect
polypathically request
of each EarthTribe
sacred eco-schooling
deep learning

As therapeutically taught
by MotherEarth EcoRevolution School.


Summer Plot Development

In grade school
many of us learned about plot development
as variations on a WinLose theme–
Person v Self,
Person v Other,
Person v God/Universe/Earth/History/Evolution–

probably nothing about cooperative garden plot development.

Literature is replete
with manly patriarchal ubiquitous competition themes
required to hold consumer marketing interest,
and usually the writer’s own self-therapeutic
or pathologically toxic fascination interests
as well.

Yet these WinLose themes
are difficult to find in day to day organic history,
because not the primary framework
in WinWin polycultural plot development.

Western patriarchal literature flirts with
Every Wounded White Man
lived happily ever WinWin after
despite a WinLose opportunistic
and self-hypnotizing Rapture
not quite fully humane
divine White capitalistic competing Historical World.

For some LoseLose avoidance reason
WinWin polyculturing outcomes came to mind
when I outlined
my morning and evening cooperative gardening plan
for friends and extending family.

1. I recall all the 101 recent weedy moments
when I reflected,
deflected grief
and loss
and shame
and blame
and WinLose repression
oppression, etc.
On my Person v Self
and my EgoPerson v EcoOther
and my Person v OpenEarth Organic WinWin Systems,
and my Yang Autonomous Person v Yin-Matriarchal
and WombingSeas
and Warm through Colder Seasons
of my business as competing usual day.

2. I do my best to think of one or two
or even three
cooperative just-right moments in between all the WinLose weeds above,
when I and We recreated WinWin,
as I fed and watered no Loser victims,
including myself.

3. I declare and explore
partial not notWinning success.

4. I celebrate my potential sacred opportunities
for more
and stronger
and healthier flowing
WinWin tomorrows
as a secular PositivEnergy Person
within a confluent EgoSelf,
as a sacred vocational identity
with a future for
and a past of
WinWin resilient EarthTribe Others,
as a HealthingEgo
within Sacred WinWin ecological His/Her-CreationStory.

5. AND,
I spring and summer evening ignore LeftBrain
transposition tensions,
analogical words for RightBrain potential ecological integrity
AND WonderWander my LeftBrain Ego
and Awe Zero-sum my RightBrain CoPresent
sacred ecological extended family
SacredOther recreating re-memories

Reweaving my best WinWins
getting down,
even sexy
organic garden stalking
and eating time
nutritionally co-invested.