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Hanging On To Trauma

There is this hypothesis
I unjustly
and perhaps traumatically
just made hard and patriarchally up
is not down
and retentatively not out
soon enough for healthy comings
and goings

A ridiculous theory
that straight homophobic preachers
and teachers,
prophets
and kings,
pharaohs
and rabbis,
old crows
and magpies

Throughout too rich history
seem to have trouble with constipation below
and running of the capitalistic mouth
above

In response to multigenerational fear
of back door satanic predation
and politics
and financial rape.

Perhaps there is some cause for Buttenda Party fear
of RightWing fascist anger,
who knows,
this GWM
on my best days
and most lascivious nights
not one to wave my LeftBrain privileged credentials

As if worried
about my natural-spiritual collateral
mind embodied endowments

Badly experienced with weaponized capital
fat headedism,
invasive win/lose patriarchal intent
to punish
with Old Testament monotheistic
judgmental Great White Father predations

Hard and erect militarized enforcement corporations
seeking a return to peek
at peak AnthroSupreme monopolistic mountainous
control during non-sabbath
business as usual desecrating economic
worship on humiliated knees

To this day
offering well-endowed access
to pre-elective filthy rich political communication

TopDog
v BottomItch and Stretch,
more cooperatively in and out
communion co-invested sacred gay incentives

No Win/Lose partisan BlackHole vacuous
chaos and confusion of feelings barred
as long as your WhiteSugar Daddy
leaves you dripping in white-washed compensations
for insufficient endowments

From God’s rich exclusive grace
for Royals and Food Too Rich Governors
with Heaven above
and Hell below
pre-eminently appositional
1Me v (0)ther dispositions
of a BlackHole violating
acquisition.

With regard to StraightMale Rabbis
in particular digestive dismay

I have this other
BothTrauma/AndTherapy hypothesis
about chronic paternal empathy
administering the britis
as it had been delivered
by YHWH’s AnthroSupreme command
to him

At infancy,
when intimate neurosensory networks
were most aggressively developing
fast as revved up cancer

So, perhaps, for this painful time
perhaps delivering pleasure down
under felt much better
and safer
as pleasantly compared
to flaming pains
of upfront boychild Trauma

Now revisited each time
he sees and hears
and smells and touches
another holy britis

I wonder if BlackHole pleasure
becomes chronically anxious
as trauma avoidant constipation
non-consummation

Remembering monopolistic sufficiency concerns
about cracking down and out
on desires vaguely hard
and predative
pushing peak relief from repressed
suppressed experiences.

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Servicing The Man

What looks sexy
and aesthetically pleasing
on Society’s well-endowed Page

May not feel so hot
when StraightWhite Daddy’s capital-headed
fornication
leads toward Great White Father’s abortion
of global green forests
and blue skies
and sun-warmed water
EarthCare

Cosmic polarizing predations
against holy spirit invitations
results in an EarthTribe clearance sale

Beginning with AnthroSupremacist churches
and synagogues and temples
and spreading to
national outside natural polar imbalance

Repressing inside spiritual
holy
dark wombed
shaded
creolizing cathedrals
of remembered co-attachment

Patriarchal greed
for punishing EarthMother panentheistic pleasure
could bankrupt ocean-front insurance companies,
financial loan institutions
now borrowing on Daddy’s borrowed
colonizing monotheistic
monopolistic
monoculturing LeftBrain
verbal anthro-privileged intent
to rapaciously thrive,
win/lose conquer
this self-imposed survivalist
bipartisan competition game

Punishing those who would trespass
against the Royal King’s
vulnerable
transparent
passionate
root BlackHole sacred chakra.

Transgressions against Patriarchal profits
long and widely capitalized
heads of strong-rooted colonial estates
minds
with bodies sensate
sedate
sensual

Sometimes olive oiled
salivating
loined
oiled with sexy

Deep and thick rooted round chakra tools
for health-wealth care
including Daddy’s root chakra
responding warmly
to unconditional neurosensory
WhitePrivilegedPole/BlackNeedyHole
integrity

Inviting a more resiliently brilliant
ecofeminist EarthTribe therapeutic tool
balancing peak and valley neurosystemic restorations
for preventing further ego/ecocidal
dogmatically straight
LeftBrain monotheistically privileged
anthromale invasive polar Yang
overpowering defensive round sound Yin,
x-out v. y-in chronic
EarthTribe anthro-hypertension

Related perhaps
to the Royal view
that my sacred God’s root chakra
shouldn’t stink,
much less respond
with transparently warm
and unconditional
no poles or parties barred
regard

For compassionate
peak experience memories
going way back
when Yang sentient SunFather
warmed and lit up
EarthMother’s sacred
BlackVolcanic Holy Spirits
of healthy wealth integrity

Enlightening
bilaterally co-empowering

What looks sexy
and aesthetically pleasing
on EarthTribe’s pantheistic
Yang/Yin stage.

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Sundays Free Of Should

Remember the Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Shoulds.

A should-free cathedral
of intimate athleticism
romantic
exotic
ecstatic
euphoric
erotic

Exhausts this sabbath light
at long last
widely dawning deeply stronger
and resiliently handsome
dark as night

In virtuously enlightening response
to Saturnight’s weekly exorcism
annihilating
exhausting
expiring

Yet another weekday week
weak slow-groan degenerjism

Darkly precipitating
sweaty penetrating night seductive mares
aggravating
congregating
irritating
neighing
sedating
constipating

All my life
I’ve been waiting for you
my Sunday not not should
embrace every daytime athlete
with unconditional
warm felt regard

Up on two feet
with spiritually natural intent
of sabbath hot passions
including,
but not exclusively hoarding,
frontal poles
and backside holes

Balancing sabbaths neurosensory integrity
extending virally out and virtuously circling in
stretching strength
of bilateral heart pumps
and lung inflations
and limb elations
stretching Sunday loves
and bipartisan 1 plunging into 0
every polynomial weekday
binomial cooperative
co-invested
convexly concaved
not-not straight but spiraling round
wholesome inside/outside balance

In co-empathic sabbath passions
free of shaming Others
preaching teaching virginal should not
remember SaturNightMare’s
BlackHole peak experience
anticipating this new athletic Sunday Service

ReMembering
ReIncarnating
ReLigioning Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Othering Shoulds.

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Dancing Pequot River

Flying free
in rooftop ecstasy

Raptor’s wings direct
with feathered pins strong, erect
swelling mountain chests
then wings
brought safely down
protecting Earth’s
most sacred wounds.

Standing Yang
with wings wide spread
Left then Right
rebalancing

Bent over filling in Yin’s flow
extending gratitude for out
bold attitude brought back in
for more sincere
out wanting more
more
more sacred practice
mindful praxis
moving axis

Practice makes Yang
with Yin
happy together once again
in this million hole
with pole
extravagant excursion
upstream North
growing deep down South
flowing in/out surfing mouth

Dancing round root chakra
river source
to up reach
down stream right
to left dividing swings
gone sacred South

River’s needy mouth
to feed
time’s seas
of timeless pirate peaks
opposing valleyed surf
inhaling exhaled needs

Healthy seasons too tidal full
swelling now and why and how
toward empty skies

Anthrocentric light
invites this ecocical night,
upstream
patriarchal might
toward down wombed times
round cycling source
of Great White Father fright

Root wise spread out predation
penetrating river’s source
shifting toward rich mountain rivered valleys
flowing up
then down White streaming pole
with Black uncovered silenced hole,
designing doublebinding
God-dressed nature’s inspiring views

Inviting dawn’s
past sunrise dance
sweeping light
round downstream
falling failing
EarthTribe’s meager
flowing sacred
rivered night

Flying free
on rooftop ecstasy.

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Tao of the Cosmic Crack

Tao of the Cosmic Crack
flowing rivered crotch
between Great White Father’s polarizing
zero-sum soul

And silently suppressed
ecofeminist Black Hole
non-zero full-sum
double-bind integrity
of firm, resistant possibilities
win/win bipartisan
dipolar co-arising
deep and wide root karmic
mountain/valley copassions

Coinvested
in ecopolitical cooperatives
of sacred spirit holes empowering
and secularized natural polarities enlightening
SunFather and EarthMother’s
most brilliant rays
and skies
and eyes

For dusky starlit nights
restoring conjugal peace,
mindbodied justice

Now ecocidally sad remembering
what EarthGoddess Grace
has brought Yang/Yin together
appositionally mindful

No privileged StraightWhiteMale Corporation
of predatively weaponed privilege
could RedBlooded AnthroHealth
and Green EarthMother SafeWealth
double convex/concave-binary
1/0
peak sacred experiential
part

Divide
separate
crack

Loving Pole/Hole removing
active bipartisan
cosmic parts,
roles,
in-between win/lose positions

MonoTheistic patriarchal
and PolyTheistic matriarchal
co-religions
spiritually concave
dark holy
inbetween naturally convex light
and regenerating heat

Curiously depolarizing
complex cosmic
enlightening FatherSun
empowering dark and dusky
EarthMother volcanic
erupting
flowing fertile cosmic cracks,
co-passioned.

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Appropriately Polite Company

It seems maniacal,
Black Rabbit Hole easy
kinda sleazy
to sexualize every thought

And, yet,
all too easy
to desexualize
to decontextualize
multisensory feelings
deep and widely organic
roots from ancient EarthMother wisdom

Sometimes polycultural transparency above
conjoining multicultural vulnerability below
give peak orgasmic conversational sway

To passion’s Left/Right co-balancing day
of protruding Yang verbal dominance
seducing Yintegrity’s river-valleyed
eagerly inviting pre-verbal
pregnant wombs of co-invested
cooperative win/win interests
in peak and valley neurosystemic
indigenous traditions,
spiritedly natural

Seldom known to partisan politics
and weaponized capitalistic
colonizing rapacious prominence
of patriarchal nationalistic populism

As if, somehow,
matriarchal EarthTribe integrity
of deeply thought/felt hearts
with womanist
deep valley ecopolitical minds
were less morally appropriate
than indecent ecocidal exposure.

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Grand Mothers Day Dream

My husband and I always enjoy visiting
GrandMother Eartha
on Mother’s Day

She often shares
last night’s dreams,
which often follow rather disturbing peak experience themes

Because,
you know,
or maybe not because,
how would I know?

Dreams about Her Straight White AlphaMale trauma

Or maybe inspired by emotional
and sensory neglect
from both SunGod Light
and EarthGoddess Powers
exercised back when GrandMother Eartha
was a fairly happy hooker,
addicted to patriarchal voices
of enlightenment.

She likes to teach us how to share
Her deepest co-invested dreams

In densely present nervous moments
felt native and indigenous
vulnerable and transparent,
healthy and safely sacred

Without grasping
for Business As Usual top-down,
1 PolyNomial YangPole
always feels better
stronger
more immediately…
uhm…
satisfied?

More importantly than
not-not 0-Soul Yintegral Black Hole,
as clearly as +1P, YangPolarity
is healthier and safer than -(-P), Yintegrity

LeftBrain invariant languaged
1 polar light
is better and stronger
than 0 round
empowering whole night
of lunar stars
and wisdom bright

Bilateral appositions
dreaming of less traumatic experiences
while therapeutically servicing
Great White AnthroFather hubris
in whatever worshipful ways
might have felt more sacredly successful,
perhaps even more cooperatively satiating,
possibly even more verbally co-invested
and especially nonverbally co-infested…

Nonviolently communicating,
with eyes and ears wide open,
enjoying sacred smells
and tastes,
touched by voice
and mutual choice
felt secularly lusty
and sacredly trusted

Co-empathic
1/0 ego/eco-balancing
convex/concave co-habitating peak
hysterical
and herstoric
and therapeutic
bicameral double-binary experience
ecobalancing GrandMother’s
bodhisattva EarthTribe

Her way of dreaming
inhumane rapacious past’s intrusion
on Her sacred Dream experience
re-connecting ecofeminist equity

Found by choosing felt sacred presence
through Win/Win ego/eco-therapeutic dreams
filled out in timeless co-presence

Anticipating Great 0/1 ReGenerative Transitions
toward polyculturally positive
Green Health/Wealth TraumaPrevention
bihemispheric neurosensory opportunities.

When GrandMother awoke
just now,
within this Mother’s Day Dream
she remembered previously sharing

When we awaken
we can choose
healthy-left Green Polypaths
AND wealthy-right Red
Straight White AnthroMale privileged
monoculturing monopolies
of both FatherSun Light
and MotherEarth Power

Re-exploring curious mindbodies
expand emergent win/win
evolving dreams
and lives
and loves,
bipartisan co-passions
felt healthy at their peak
and wealthy in our valleys,
so to speak
of core dream values
appropriate to Mother’s Day,
of course

Notice
GrandMother Eartha instructs,
positions,
patterns
and rhymes
and rhythms
more Right MindBody

Your positive intentions
will re-emerge
when you take one timeless moment
to sit
and receive minute messages

Notice
dark inside
and lighter outside sounds
voices
filling verbal air
and nonverbal atmospheres
around
and within multi-sensing integral awareness
of interdependent you

Ego synergetic sensations
rooted in phylogenic deep memories
in bilateral arms
and legs
and eyes
and ears
and nostrils
and lungs
and bicameral hearts
and mind-spirit hemispheres
dreaming ecofeminist left win/wins
and nightmares of AnthroPatriarchal
monotheistic right Revengeful Wins
overtrump Sacrificial EcoFeminist Losses

Multisensory memories
of traumatic duty
to service the AlphaMale’s
darkest pleasures
without equally considering
my own polysensory
peak therapeutic experiences

In age
and time
and place appropriate
Mother’s Day Timeless moment,

Much of what we complexly receive
with all six sensory receivers
now feel much more complexly peaking
in long dense sensing
intense awareness

Of relationships felt here before
and resurging now

Becoming more densely organic
re-organizing win/win thriving

Positive win/win enlightenment
and not-not merely felt faith empowering
ecofeminist bodhisattva

Eartha’s Day dreaming
peak multisensory experiences
co-arising dipolar
found and round
rewound unraveling
enlightening SunGod
empowering EarthGoddess
polyculturally embracing
strong polar 1 and flowing round 0

In/Out Binary for ecological health
and Whole Open EarthTribe
resilient safety again

Still moving forward
through this now surpassing Mother’s Day

Dreams can out-embrace
this inside felt
silent peace pace
in resonant space

Between polynomial Language
speaking of polynormative

Denying win/lose
as anomalous trauma
contextualizing future win/win
economic and political
and multisensory persuasions

Healing GrandMother’s
LeftBrain invariant
concavely traumatized ego
yet also
outside convexly too eco-competitive

For Mother’s Day
mindful intention,
HealthyLeft and WealthWise Right
bicameral balancing hemispheres
Here/Now copresent

Liberally conserving EarthTribe presence
in universal dreams of peace
restoring justice
while Self/Other win/wins reorganize
polyvagal polypathic delight

In both win and lose rediscovery
of paradoxical
SunGod trauma invites EarthMother therapy
daoist Light and Power dreams
of Yang/Yintegral Balance

Mother’s Day moment
avoiding lose/lose despair,
dark depression,
degeneration

Straight White AlphaMale Historical
Religious and Royalist Colonizing Supremacy
distaste
bad smell,
tightening of the posterior,
custody of the eyes
and all those other shameful
and blameful
judged insufficient organs
unorganized
to resist
and bend to receive,
as is my prostate duty.

In better
and healthier,
wealthier and wiser
EarthTribe dreams

restoring justice
and Mother Eartha’s forgiveness
for raping
what She would have gladly
sacred peak experience given
gracefully
multi-sensorily received

If you could have been more polite
and grateful
for health care nonverbally given
as wealth more penetratingly perceived
with unconditional warm regard

Especially as compared
to good old red-blooded
rapacious colonizing days.

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Healthy Caring Systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more

Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil

And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust

Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes

Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow

Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival

And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions

CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.

That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.

First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos

despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system

Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences

Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know

Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.

What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?

Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.

That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential

This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.

Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.

What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.

To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.

Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences

As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today

False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You

Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me

Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow

Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts

Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit

More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation

Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories

Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities

Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.

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Tomorrow’s Warm Integrity

What love we could become
still breathing
could never actively restore
what I have stolen
silently
and you have thrown away
more protesting loudly

What I have stolen
could never be worth more
than all your warm felt passions

Compassion freely given
and I have coldly paid
to not feel again

It feels so easy to love you
more than me,
and I have always loved you most
when I can know,
without self doubt,
you might again love Us

As we are today,
unlike yesterday’s diversions
and not yet quite as great
as tomorrow’s still open gate.

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My Black God

My Black God
is real as I could imagine
worrying about defective White People
vulnerable to skin cancer
and fading water-front real estate values
in His traumatic WhiteWashed Anthropocene.

My Black God
is strong as I could imagine
on my luckiest bipolar day
and lustiest bipartisan night.

My Black God
is Source and Soul
and, hopefully, humane
ReSource and RePurposing Spirit

(But, you know…
not necessarily always
business as usual Vanilla)

My Black God
celebrates sacred peak experiences
wherever these may be
nonviolently communioned
and found,
perhaps briefly bound,
with mutually informed consent
to insatiable surprises.

My Black God
holds no boundaries
to multicultural curiosity
about every co-passionate touch,
brown smell,
EarthMan tasty
randy thoughts
with age-appropriate visual stimulation,
simulations deep resounding
regeneratively physical
and mental wealth
of how Father’s Time flies
when having fecund fun
robustly resonant
overglowing
peak neurosystemic spasms,
rhythms,
punctuations,
postures,
positions
and cooperatively friendly repositions
climate and cultural adjustments
hoping for resilient regenerations

My Black God
of universally poignant
urgently cooperative physical health
aerobic exercise
verbal and not so much talking stretch
horizontal
and sometimes vertical dance
and compassionately cooperative care
not the least bit trauma giving
is also best climax receiving
sacred communion.

My Black God
follows this sacred Yang gift,
however briefly,
with holistically restored
unconditional warm regard
sacred sexual peace,
Informed and OutFlowing JustUs Justice
received and given,
driven toward

My Black God
of compassion’s AnthroScenic period
of ReStorative Justice
after a whole lotta
NonViolent Sacred,
sometimes flirtatious and sexy,
Communication.

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