Timely Death of a Muse

My muse died today.
Although how could I lose
or amuse
what was never mine to use
as I see fit,
hear fitness,
feel fitfully?

This muse dies tonight
not from old age
as I had long predicted
must be my sad and unread case,
but for a new voice
or vice,
for deeper lyrics
and wider melodies
and globally local choreography
perhaps a ridiculous younger person’s game.

They say
not to write, unless you must;
Not to paint
or sing
or dance
or become a prostitute
unless you would otherwise eco-bust
ego-lust away this lifeline.

If you can live with something,
most anything, else
to occupy your time
and pay the rent,
then do
and be those more civil relationships instead.

It never occurred to me
perhaps because They didn’t say so,
I might do most everything else
so I could retire into writing
and reading
and singing
and dancing

But not prostitution
because no one would pay
for what I can not give away
with integrity intact.

I miss this muse already
but doubt she even remembers me,
a right hand
responding to her labored demands
too ponderously telling,
psychic yelling,
when I longed to show in grace
integrity’s newest face
rhythm pattern pace
divinely humane race
robustly timeless space
without dissonant disgrace

not telling,
not longing,
not marching,
not shouting
to and with and for
tomorrow’s mute muses,
today’s deaf listeners,
amusing to move on
with overflowing emotions
not mere museless motions.

Now I have broken
my only two rules of unself-conscious writing.

1. Never mention the muse aloud
or dead
for She abhors a nonvacuum
of light,

2. Never write
about writing,
For the same non-reason
that optimal sexual
neural experience
cannot happen
if my sole
and sold-out purpose
is this Great Orgasm.
of we-consciousness.

My more retiring amusement died today.
Although how could I lose
or ever timelessly muse
what was never mine to use?


Tocqueville Talk

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks to Western liberal democratic experiments,
great personal enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating kettle
of competing selected fish,
and usually not cooperatively resilient
for health optimization
of local community peaceful resonant wealth.

In Tocqueville’s time and place,
liberal democracy evolved from feudal win/lose pre-industrial aristocracy
overpowering non-elite serfs, and lesser natural organic beings,
royal kleptocrats,
universal white privileged patriarchs
by right of land and title inheritance
supported by Divine Might Makes Right
evolutionary theologies.

As Deneen liberally repeats,
capital-invested democratic consumer legitimacy
to cooperatively contract individually manifest
humane superior spiritualized dignity
is rooted in monocultural presentism,
fragmenting mono-generational cultural contracts
with multi-regenerational fields
and nutritional species
mellow meadows
robust mountains
and calm river valleys.

Where Divine covenants
signed, sealed, and delivered
to predator Aristocrats
were rooted in creeds
Divinely inspired scriptures,
holy creation stories
sacred pre-historic memories,
usually of patriarchal governors
and their court-appointed entertainers,
fire-circle dancers
loyal soldiers
and oral legend-tellers,

Presentism fragments intergenerational liturgical-nutritional commitments,
argues Tocqueville,
repeats Deneen.

Yet liberal love integrates compassion
for all Earth’s regenerative/degenerative species
verbally historic and non-verbally pre-historic
patriarchal and matriarchal
deduced and induced
Divine EarthMother co-passion
multiculturally articulate co-enlightenment covenants
through cooperative win/win listening Time

Sacredly interdependent
traditionally nondual resilience
of Taoistic co-relational covenants

Indigenously spiraling
precessive/recessive iconic
dialogical EarthTime’s win/win sanctuary, ergodic.

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks
and appositionally implied opportunities
for Western/Eastern liberal democratic experiments,
great personal North/South enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating creolizing kettle
of competing win/lose
yet cooperatively win/win selected fish
swimming through climate surfing risks.


Organic EcoSystems

You are an organic system,
or you would not be capable of reading this,
much less reflecting upon its possible merit
for integrity with your own organic
networking experience,
real and as yet unrealized.

Families are systems,
functional and
Which may feel chaotic from inside sensory information,
which may be what physicists would theoretically outside,
from above, see
and not hear or feel or sense
as entropic failure,
absence of actively organized
self-perpetuating interdependent capacity
for networking,

Rivers and mountains are systems.
All of Earth together
networks our prime relational creation
and re-creation system
of complex,
hopefully not too climate chaotic,

internal quasi-autonomous ego systems
swimming and floating
among external multiculturing ecosystems,
are strategically resilient
when robustly healthy,
internally secure (yet not entropic, dead),
externally free
to win/win communicate,
system to co-passionate meta-system

Preferably reiterating affective
and effective dialogue
about non-violent historical
and contemporary interrelationships
in sacred Earth ecospace

And throughout divinely inspired co-relational time
bilaterally divine/humane implied,
binomially explicating ego/eco-metric,
bicamerally communicating
strong-flowing resilience
to restore Earth’s patriotic
ecosystemic fullness
calm integral health
of co-passionate multiculturing wealth
through reverse-hierarchical
organic networks of sensory win/win nutrition
interrelationships resonant with all of sensory-systemic time,
future and past,
resilient within Earth’s ecosystemic planetary space,
naturally here
and spiritual systemic integrity
now co-passioning co-present
divinely eco-privileged liberty of love.

If you were not a liberally interconnected
and yet securely quasi-autonomous organic system,
you would not be capable of reading
and appreciating
and standing
and feeling
and reflecting within this ecosystem
of resilient integrity,
fluid solidarity.



Asking why our partisan democratic experiment
appears to be
failing feels like asking why our global climate
appears to be
failing feels like asking why old age
appears to be
a failing.

Political minds,
natural bodies,
spiritual individuals
reflecting upon lose/lose thought and felt
tragic and absurdly nihilistic outcomes
where we originally expected win/win Paradise

Found in what is personal and political
and economic re-investment
in health and/or pathology choices

Earth and/or extending families center
toward more health
to also win wealth of yin-flow
potentiating powers slowing down
to process Business As Failure Usual,

Winning capital-monopolized shadow-wealth
to win unhealth of evermore
isolating Yang-strength
to overpower
where matriarchal/child love re-memories
could only empower with hugs
and songs

While asking
why our partisan democratic win/win experiment
in win/lose competitions
appears to be lose/lose
Failing feels like asking why our global climate
appears to be
Failing feels like asking why
old cooperatively-owned communal age
appears to be
a failing.


Liberating Perfect Pride

In a perfect world
maybe everyone would have opposite and same sexual attractions,
ambiguously passionate attachments
of compassion’s resiiient arousal.

On a perfectly sanctified Earth,
maybe every species would incarnate only opposite sexual attraction,
attachments of passionate ego-arousal,
male dominant belonging in predation
with female receptively longing prey,
monogamy as exclusive
as monotheistic worship,
monoculturally privileged love,
uniformly felt
in dyadic great nature v spirit divides
between Yang/Yin sexual energy,
faithfully dipolar co-arising,

Rather than endless partisan debates
about which of these healthy freedom
proud visions will unfold
with further commitment to cooperative win/win deliberation,
structuring health optimal nurturing wealth futures,

Perhaps we could join in double-blind solidarity
to recreate this Earthly Paradise
of compassionate integrity
in all relationships,
all curious and courageous internal/external conversations
consciousness and subconsciousness and unconsciousness
from mother-infant primal
on through international co-passionate eco-politics?
And then listen and watch
for which sensory-neural miracle unfolds?

Maybe in win/win Heaven
of our active empowering imaginations,
what looks like internal either/or sexual politics
also comes to feel like external both/and sensory investment.
What feels globally nutritional
also grows personally healthy.

Maybe if we invest less
in predicting who will win,
males or females,
straights or bents,
whites or blacks,
[patriarchs or matriarchs,
yang or yin,
left or right,
north or south,
west or east,
uniformity or unity,
totalitarianism or liberalism,
divine salvation or humane sacrifice,
fragmentation or integration,
apartheid or cooperative co-ownership,
cognitive polypathic speakers or emotive polyphonic listeners,
win/lose or win/win cultures,

We might, instead,
walk in heuristic cognitive
and emotive
solidarity toward recreating
a more win/win experiential
co-relational planet,

Where left-brain health is re-conjoined
with right-brain sacred wealth,
trusting timeless regenerations of life
will evolve such radically profound sensory passions,
that these two great options
remain both curiously
and courageously to-gathering
integrity’s sensual-neural non-mendacity,
longing’s eternally changing belonging.

Like DNA’s fractal seasonal structure
of bilateral appositionals,
in which adenine’s spring adventures
never touch guanine’s autumn undevelopments,
just as cytosine’s full emotive climax
never speaks bilaterally without
thymine’s winterish understory
co-passionately 4D listening
for polynomial either/or’s
becoming sensory valued
with interdependent not-not polyphonic
ambidextrously harmonic
profoundly integral scaled and circled feelings
for Earth’s DNA health-wealth spiraling vocation
belonging within MotherEarth’s paradise vacation,

Sensory experiences in curious thymine
rooting for left-hemisphere dominant
and courageous cytosine
seeding right-sensed bilateral co-prominent.


Lonely Nest

of individuals,
and nation-states,
leads insufficient capacity
to prophecy everyone’s collective interdependence,
and thereby remains partially blind
to Win/Win optimal health/wealth outcomes,
which could not be monopolized
by experiential loneliness
felt internal monocultural sadness.

By inviting risk to shift,
notice personal/political Lose/Lose depreciations,
bucket lists of long-standing tensions
causing unhealthy cognitive/affective dissonance
unresiliently stuck in slow ego-depreciating mortality,
absence of furthering resilient appreciative-inquiry belonging
within this
and each
and every
timeless Win/Win left-brain fragmenting
ego-prominent compassion-nest
self/other-perpetuating cooperative polypaths
implied within each unprophetic deeply pre-ingested
re-ingesting healthy/wealthy moment,

Irrational spiraling not not ego/ecotherapeutic self-care,
a dynamic healing ZeroZone
away from repressive solid OneNest walls
of silently atoning loneliness,
healthy hoping toward impressive implicit webs
for pregnant metaphoric
meteoric Earthiness,
EarthTribe nest.


On Winning GameSystems

In a win or lose
either/or binary digital technology game
created from an original WinPlayer/WinGame
co-defining definition,
each player can play regenerative win/lose sequences
faithing that eventually a win/win outcome
emerges cumulatively from possible
toward probable.

And what does it mean for the individual player
to win this one individuating winner-contextual goal?
To “beat” the game
is for the game’s creator(s)
to win as well,
a cooperative embodied/intellectual endeavor
within a closed rule system.

It feels no great right-brain wonder
such win-ego/win-eco active hope
of probable consummation
within one mortal lifetime
would become addictive

As contrasted
to the immensity of lose/lose mortal risks
and ungraspable win/win immortal ambiguity
in the vastly grand theft stages
of Earth’s revolutionary
Open Whole EcoSystemic probabilities

Of achieving nutritional win/win opportunities
and avoiding sufficient toxic win/lose risks
of one mere mortal player,

An autonomous left-brain individual
unaware of an interdependent right-brain co-presence
individuating health-game wealthing processes
as timelessly eternal
as forceful Adam with resourceful Eve

As empirical closed rule game systems
emerging from lyrically open win/win harmonic ecosystems,
win/lose Yang endurance
with win/win Yin resilience,
Left brain wealthy strengths
with Right brain healthy sustainability,

Left cognitive intelligence
with Right emotive brilliance,
together holistically open
eternally interdependent
win/win ego/eco-gaming
health/wealth memory player systems.