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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Silent Conspiracy

My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.

With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat

Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.

Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today

Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs

Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.

My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious

To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles

Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions

Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations

Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly

For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series

Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day

Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion

Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds

Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.

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Hearing With CoPassioned Eyes

S/he listens for powerful words
and hears deeper moving sounds
resonant sighs
empowering peace replies
corroborated with his eyes.

I see Her capitalized nurture meaning
and trust what remains visible
long after forgetting short-lived
persuasive
purposes he has veiled
and she unveils

Especially when sight
displays dissonance
betraying trusted
faithful sensate confluence

Without faithless flaws
bad-humored
mistrusted words
vicious circled tumors
not consonant
with what I can hear
and see nonviolently
however nonverbally
with sacred communion eyes

To perceive
regard
anticipate
compassion
slowly disregarding fear
of chronic
addictive win/lose compulsive problems
regardless of past disempowering angers
without unguarded win/win passions.

When I can see Her story
I can hear my narrative
spiritually unfold
naturally inside

MetaPhysically where
and sacred when
and soulfully why
s/he speaks
through his lovely
wholesome open eyes

And listens with unguarded ears
to words for power’s integrity
communionating robust agency,
and not against win/win vivacity,

Widening deeper
enlightening
elegant round unsound
intricately felt soul-filled sounds

Intimately touched trust
resiliently seen as heard
resonant resounds.

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Together Will We Part

Cells work is play
to resiliently thrive
only in organic systems.

Individual yolked cells
each with her own ego-governor
survive healthy together
and divide tragically apart

More like symbiotic regenerations
of surfing cantilevers
than degenerations
outside predations
storming waves
recolonizing cancers.

Transgendering
transubstantiating
transitions can be both

Too hard on ego yolks
and too soft for ecobodies
become some One boundaried else
while too soon severing
into not yet Zero

Sacrificed for tomorrow’s
unconditional regard
organically in-between
One secular EgoZone
and not yet Zero sacred
systemic EarthTribe soul

Remembering past memories
mindful of mind-cell fullness
side by side solidarity
re-imaging severed cells

Crests of history’s
great transitioning wave
from individual hot burning stars
to seas of cold
dead
dry dust

Awaiting wetter rust
for light and power
to co-arise
more resilient lust

Inside crusts
of ego loving centers
and their living eco-kin
becoming back and forth,
together and apart
again

Enlightenment
and death,
empowering cantilevers
losing out to expatriating cancers

Co-invested
ego risks of past power
and eco loss of future opportunities

Individuating
systems for regeneration
and recycling seasons
of privation

Therapy
and trauma,
health
and pathology

Unconditional regard
and conditioned
hardening cells
of disregard

For innocent Othered cells
whose work is also play
to resiliently thrive

Only in organic systems
unconditionally regarding
this enlightened
empowering day

Swings of Yang bright light
empowering Yin’s eternal sway.

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Repair Justice to Restore Peace

Before restoring perfection,
perpetual pleasures
of prosperous peace

I remain responsible,
compulsively responsive,
habitually receptive
to repairing win/lose
past competitive aggressions,
negatively suppressive
non-communications

My resilient repentance
must include self-forgiveness
for over-stressed addictions
to trauma repressors,
for failing to do my best
on a bad day

I usually fail to trust win/win strategic play
and work my best truth
healthiest way,
wealthiest co-managed gift
of sensory sensate
not always so elderly sedate
indigenous life

Among compassionate EarthTribe
redeemed through co-empathic curiosity
impressed by organic co-invested communication.

I struggle toward win/win intentional
restorative justice
adeptly mediating win/lose
bipartisan conflicts
exploring nonviolent communionations

At peace
remaining cooperatively responsible
responsively receptive

Quietly
anonymously
relentlessly repairing wounds
of AnthroSupremacist elitist cold regard
felt both outside blaming
and inside shaming

For cashing out of warm wet pleasures
of unconditional regard
too cheaply
too quickly
too sadly

Even for LeftBrain verbal narcissists,
smugly patriarchal
dishonorable corporate pirates

Champions of retributive poverty-punishing
justice of mercenary prison/court/police/military
monocultures
preying on our young
homeless,
stressed,
terrorized
and traumatized

Left rightwing outside
StraightWhiteCorporate patriarchal visions
of never needing to repair
vicious win/lose circles
growing capital monopolies
rooted in monotheistic true health values
for win/lose survival
of the RightWing anthropocentric
inhumane bigoted fittest

Devolutionary pathology
inviting further monoculturing climates
tipping toward
ecocidal trauma ideation,
warm and humid stress
fire and wind wilding
while wicked partisan polarization issues
distract my highest and best
therapeutic intentions

Before restoring perfect
perpetual communication pleasures

And prospering bicameral
dipolar co-invested balance

Cooperatively invested
in co-empathic curious gifts
for a more resonant
resilient
EarthTribe sacred peace.

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Health ReNewing Years

Polymorphic design
for kids from one
to ninety-two
wondering how to see
local through global
EarthJustice trauma prevention
more clearly through

When we recognize
what inspires healthy polycultural design
of polypathic minds
and multiculturing bicameral hearts
and polyphonic non-zero zone
resonant souls

Is both stress-reductive
good humored
win/win strategic practice
and good trauma-informed contextual governance

For safe
and happy co-governance

Then,
in this Here and Now
renewing year,
healthy business
and safe good humor
will no longer appear like two
incompatible win/lose
either/or
universal Left
v. unitarian Right

Monoculturing Yang dominant
v. polytheistic yin prominent
antagonistically competing WorldViews
v. EarthJustice GoodNews
indigenously opulent wisdom.

Here and Now becomes
our Christ Mass
Pagan Solstice
polypathically healthy
and polytheistically safe
polycultural co-governing
Earth PeaceTrain

PolyMathic win/win happy
socially wealthy
and Earth double-binding wise
co-binary refrain

Merry ChristMass
PaganSolstice
light peace and dark justice
with you

Is MeWe
two thousand twenty three
universal unitarian
West and Eastern hemispheres
north and south
up and down
out and in
Yang wuwei Yin
cooperatively co-managed
prosperity.

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Stepping Outside to ReGather

Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
our neglected hearts

Breathing in and out togather
fumes of historically fueled
graphite sheeted walls
too all-encumbering to smell
as monoculturing trauma

Failure to wonder
nuanced appositional
non-positions,
bipartisanly dipolar
looking for mediating
median win/win dispositions
still felt alone inside
too all-encumbering
expositions

Cumbersome
for buoyant
unconditional gratitude,
sacred panentheistic regard
for MeWe potential co-passionate
co-investments.

Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious walls

Outside my age-appropriately lust
for good-humored transparent
mind/heart bipartisan embodied
spirited natural bust

Inside my vulnerable skin,
sacred root bilateral

Bipartisan
Red RightWing integrity
of indigenously wise
bicamerally thoughtful
green positive feelings

Fresh transcending verbal-yang
and nonverbal-yin

Win/Win Green LeftWing Yang
either/or deficient
RightWing Resistance
to LeftBrain
both/and
magnificently efficient

1/0 co-binary
co-arising dipolar
Yang/Yin
Ego/EcoSystemic

BiNomial
polymathic universal
and polypathic unitarian
polyphonic octaves
of double-binding double-fractal
dialectical
health is social wealth
co-invested nutritional policy

PolyCultural resilience
non-violently win/win championed
power-with healthy bicameral democracy
for internal/external better homes and communities

Balancing inside-only
ego-claustrophobic
dissociative
Either/Or
Win/Lose
zero-sum thoughts
concerns
stressors
chronic leftbrain dominant trauma

Creolizing with GreenGaian
polytheistic
ecofeminist
polycultural
polypathic win/win
unconditional co-mediating regard

For both secular thoughts
and sacred 1+Yang/-(-0)Yin
root chakra

WuWei balanced
tipping point ego/ecosystemic balance
for co-governing health and safety

Co-arising
dialectical sacred circles
of regenerative communionation

DoubleFractal
bicameral co-binary information processing
co-passionate binomial win/win
co-binary resilient compassion structures
cooperative owned best
when indigenously managed
with ecofeminist L/R=1/0 co-empathic
ego/ecosystemic
trauma-informed
restorative ego/eco-justice
co-governing healthy democracy
Taoistically indigenous space/time
bicameral co-empathic wisdom:

Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
my own neglected
win/lose traumatized
RightBrain connected heart

Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious
anthrosupremacist walls
to blessings

More universally sacred synergies
unconditionally EarthTribe co-invested
warm and joyfully trans-sectarian
copassionate regard
for unitarian health
and better LeftBrain verbally dominant
nonviolent safety
from further Win/Lose
polyvagally neuro-systemic
chronic genocidal lose/lose trauma
leading to ecocidal climate drama.

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Self Regard

Opportunities to rest
in unconditional self-regard
also present risks
of unmitigated narcissism.

While self-respect
is a prerequisite
for pursuing resonant win/win integrity’s
full bodied potential savor
flavor
favor

MeWe co-passion
for EgoSelf
as also part of
sacred EcoOther
co-arises global
unconditional regard
for healthy life
over harmful death
and all conscious
curious creatures
in-between Alpha
and Omega
great transitions.

Ego wealth of self/other compassion
values love
above all else,
although perhaps more could be said
for an unconditionally regarded
sense of humor,

Ego/EcoSystemic joyful
resilient compassion
remains cooperatively therapeutic
powering through competitive
narcissistic trauma histories

Of win/lose closeted
micro-aggressions
miscommunicating
what was originally intended
to express warm unconditional regard
for oneself
as part of cherished Other

Dipolar
(not bipolar)
co-arising regard
co-gravitating toward
a shared sense of healthy humor

Which is a loving fruit
of the Holy Spirit
the serious narcissist lacks
in his dominating patriarchal
capitalist
anthrosupremacist
EarthView

Of unconditional
LeftBrain prominently learned
disregard
for empowering cooperatively curious
and warm
and enlightened joyful
bipartisan co-relationships

Loving
open
transparent
vulnerable
non-judgmental
means compassionate
unconditional Me-and-We
integrally cooperative regard.

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Rewarding Inclusion

I doubt it was a philosopher,
more likely an emperor,
but possibly both,
who first explored this sad relationship
between exclusion
and punishment,
colonialism
and repression.

I’ll bet it was a Taoist mother
afraid bad weather would smother
all hope of restoring future peace
who first engaged our glad elationship
between inclusion
and cooperative reward,
creolization
and multicultural
graceful impressions

This, our win/lose
zero-sum
retributive justice point

And yet also our win/win
nonzero-exponential
spiraling
revolving
restorative peace
counter-point

Balancing tipping points
toward cooperative polytheistic
polycultural possibilities,
secular and sacred,
for slow-growing resilient healthy seasons
and polyvagal
universal feelings
of neuro-sensory evolving
revolving safety.

Accidental exclusion
and intentional derision
of people with disabilities
win/lose dismay
disqualification
from LeftBrain
RightWing dominance

Together,
neglect and abuse
co-arise feelings of shame
self v other blame
punishing judgment
for being born
not LeftBrain
RightWing dominant enough
to earn our keep
in a commodified work force
neither enlightened playful
nor empowering peace-filled feelings

Industrially confined to slave
and prison
and asylum labor

PreIndustrially restoring wisdom
includes priority for inclusive
and incisive win/win intended
healing communication,
sustained healthy and safe
nurturing relationships,
growing multicultural
and ecopolitically rewarding trust.

Retributive justice
worships powers of royal affluence
while sacred restorying
of democratically inclusive peace
engages effluent co-powers

Of LeftBrain
RightHeart conserving
enlightened health
through resilient polycultural
anthro-wealth
of cooperative vocation

AND

For RightBrain
LeftHand liberating
feelings of safe empowering wealth
through resonant polycultural
polytheistic vacation,

Universal warm disregard
of pompous kings
and distinguished philosophers
disabled by LeftBrain
RightWing greedy punishment
exclusively disabling
anthro-integral
polyculturally resilient
tipping point balance

Rewarding inclusive RightBrain peace
restoring LeftBrain justice.

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Therapeutic JustUs

Lori Gottlieb
describes mental health mediators
and dream translators
prescribing more cost-effective therapeutic questions:

Who am I?
What do I want?
What’s in my natural health/spiritual wealth
bilaterally balancing way?

What do I want more:
to autonomously control
OR
to be part of some monopolizing,
possibly monotheistic, Thing
bigger than egocentric Me?

May morph
more effluently co-therapeutic
than affluent expertise advice
into:
What do I want
to safely control
AND YET ALSO
be part of some EarthTribe
polyculturally intelligent Relationship?

Healthier
more inclusive
and indigenous
and holistic
and organic
and resilient
than excluded
and punished
and wounded
and thereby imprisoned
and victimized Me

And my LeftBrain capitalized dominance
affluently attracts Gottlieb’s rational health
and safety questions
about wounded AnthroEgos

AND my RightBrain effluent impressions
of slow-growing ecopolitical affluent feelings
grow improved for win/win cooperative global thrival
midst monoculturing win/lose competitive survival
of local health and safety therapeutic improvement
as a resilient panentheistic stress-reducer
organically connected cooperative management
re-connecting
iEarthTribe inter-religious narratives
sacredly inviting
more effluent trickles
and streams
and rivers
and oceans
of EarthTribe living
loving indigenous waters

Descended from prehistoric
more polytheistic
matriarchal cooperative economies
of co-invested local democratic
domestic energy

Tipping toward Tao balanced
bilateral co-governance
healthy communing nutritional cycles
and recycles of ecofeminist
fertile restorative justice
regenerative healing wombs
also asking:

Who are sacred We?
feeling
when we most effluently
fluidly feel
and formatively think?

What does bicameral MeWe intelligence want?

What’s in our ancient monotheistic
anthrocentric
LeftBrain dominant
encultured win/lose dissociative
wounded
traumatized
stress-triggered
climate anxiety

Rabidly emergent RightWing
punishing
and excluding
and victimizing
denial of anthropocentric harm
and fundamental EarthHealth despairing
Lose/Lose polyvagal
neuro-systemic
binomially dissonant
+P v -NP
EitherLeftOrRight unbalanced
+1/-(-0)
BothLeftAndNotNotRight rebalancing
co-therapeutic Way?

Yang affluent
AND
Yin effluent

Ego/EcoTherapeutically
restoring personal secular Justice
AND BICAMERALLY COMMUNING
panentheistic
co-empathic sacred Peace

And maybe a little joy
now and then
becoming more faithfully
inclusively
restoratively
resonantly
resiliently
regeneratively frequent

Bicamerally communioning
co-arisingly dipolar
nonzero open
sacred
integral
WholeHolyHolonicEarth

Systemic eco/theo-logical
trust in therapeutic
not RightWing anthro-elitism
embracing
EarthTribe restorative justice
public health affluence
is also resilient sacred peace
public safety effluence,
reformatively reflowing political ego/eco-integrity,
co-empathic panentheistic compassion.

Unlike our left-hemispheres
taught
and monoculturally
RightWing capital over-invested
win/lose zero-sum assumptions,

Truly therapeutic
EarthTribe resilient polycultural wisdom
is more of an effluently joyful
Eastern bodhisattva peace-growing process
than an affluently measured
messianic critical judgment event

Which I believe
is what the New Testament
good news of Jesus narrative
is ego/eco-systemically
all Holy Nature/Spirited about
indigenously peaceful
Truth affluent
and sacred Beauty effluent,
definitely not RightWing
LeftBrain dominant,
wisdom.

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