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Pandemonic Hope

“I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining”

I remember someone recently resaying
what has long lain unsaid
inside my paradoxical head,

When asked if I believe in God,
I don’t know what to say.

I might not believe in your God,
at least on my worst
pain-darkened day.

And,
I seem to believe in my own
only in those rare rain-free moments
healthy ego- and eco-gratifying

When I am having a climax heart
and head
song
and dance remembering
re-ligioning
reconnecting EarthMoment

Shared with at least one Other,
perhaps for our first through last time
in this
our day of sacred synergy

Sustaining
surrounding
celebrating a yellow morning
mellow sunrise
promising this wealthy day
without soggy rain

As we prepare to health harvest
warmly fragrant sun-dried hay
I quietly say

So, there is a God,
after all.

“And I believe in love
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God
even when he is silent.”

These two additional beliefs
feel like one Relief Belief
to my bicameral head choice
and heart voice.

For it has often been said
and felt
that God is love

Especially when
Matriotic HolySpirit of Love
doesn’t act like a Patriarchal Fool

And, by that,
I reference my own sociopathology
of privileged entitlement
monoculturally over-invested
in capitalist Straight
White
Earth Predations
Colonizations
Extractions
Rapaciousness

But,
my most courageous inscriptions
of whispering hope
often not felt enough
sacredly chosen silence
in spaces between
my LeftBrain dominant
distracting notes

Where my own AnthroSupremacism
falls vibrantly listening
to responsively hear
Elder MotherTrees
sigh
and breeze

Silently praying
for strong rooted
cooperative integrity

Within this organic Green Communion
forest of hands on
generating regenerous Hope.

Note:

Pandemonic Hope is part of a series of theological reflections offered to and from the All Souls Unitarian-Universalist Choir in New London, Connecticut. 

“Inscription of Hope” was composed for the Nebraska Choral Arts Society and Children’s Chorus by Z. Randall Stroope, in conversation with a Russian Folk Tune.  His lyrics are drawn from an inscription on cellar walls hiding Jews in Cologne, Germany, during World War II. Stroope’s own 1994 reflection on the significance of these words, in this Holocaust pandemonic context, “Hope was all they had to hold on to; hope was their only bridge to a brighter [nonviolently restoring justice] tomorrow.”

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Voices Doubting Sacred Choice

LeftBrain ponderous
Dominant Voice:

When did fear
of Straight White God’s traumatic punishment
for our sins
and for the Patriarchal/Capitalist sins
of our soiled soul Fathers;

RightBrain Felt as
Positive Health EcoChoice:

Overwhelm our love
for therapeutically restoring
sacred Earth Peace
and humane/divine
cooperative
co-invested Green Win/Win
Eco/Theo-Logical Justice?

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Revolution’s Peace PerSpective

Go ahead
Dare to invite him
to a climaxing fall-colored picnic

To read you his obituary for himself
and for you,
subject to future updating
round perspectives
free for changing
still-evolving revolutions

Then,
my retrospective therapeutic turn
to introspectively review again
past traumas
of EgoSpection
surrounded outside
by his contextual EcoSpectral Spectrum Spectives
warm and cool,
freezing and redhot
climaxing traumatic knots

Not to out loud trust
speaking these Interior Obituary Inspections
about myself
and also His Exterior FullSpectral ReInspected
vulnerable truths, as I would heal them
through more transparent healthy wealth
of mutual compassion
slowly moving forward.

Then,
while opening the picnic basket
and our impassioned historic mouths
to speak of our possible future
re-amending revolution,

We take in all we can become grateful
for receiving now
here,
in this sacred dining
graced reperspective place
through our correlational experienced time
space within this eternally nutritious
nature seen and nurture heard
compassionate communion
grace

In this
our eternally momentary
yet fully spacious
nonzero zoning sacred space

For further IntroVersive Speculation
Exterior AdVersive SpecuElation
RetroInversive
CoReVersive Spectator Meditations

Spectacularly vulnerable
IntroAdversive
SpecCumulative
SpecUlative Reflections

On MeWe personal health
is also our cooperating political wealth
to socially empower
and culturally enlighten
economic incorporating cooperation
with nonviolently positive
psychologically therapeutic
nontraumatic communication

WinWin v WinLose
our polyvagal wavering way
OK
but inviting more friendly
cooperatively co-invested
Left/Right DiPolar ReInSpections
reigning in co-passioning consciousness
of win/win co-relational banalities

cognitive/affective rebalancing
thought/felt binomialities
nondualistic wisdom
indigenous Left/Right
redeveloping naturally spiritual
embodied mind realities

Indi/ExtraForming Genius
genous
generous
regenerate

Ego/Eco-ReIntroductions
ReInductive outflowing consciousness
ingrowing rememory
outgoing
MeWe reflowing

NonZeroZones
of inside/outside double-boundary baskets
and tongue-speaking lungs
on a picnic for nonviolently recommunicating
our CoPassionate RetroSpectives,
autumn harvest
obituary perspectives

Of two separated
yet still married gay men
in our sixties,
with memories as a Southblack/Northwhite couple
and as parents
of four wounded
gratefully adopted children
of color
and diverse genders
and gender preferences
and transgender questions,

Longing to live
in a global climate perspective
of universal empowering healthcare
and unitarian eco-outside green respectives
multiculturally woke
enlightened consciousness
yang outside health
is also yintegral inside wealth

Of polyculturally green ecosystems
producing healthy multiculturals
ego/eco-loving
NatureEarth-ReSpirited
EcoFeminist Win/Win
cheers and chills
for this
our RetroSpective
CoEmpathic
ReUnion.

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NonDueling Conductors

A Straight
White
Elder Patriarch
came in to where I RightBrain sing
my Gay
White
EcoFeminist way

He seems to want to stay,
to overpower my say
and will to sing
our musing pray

Because…
why?
I wonder what he feels
about me,
us,
about his own deep harmonic longing
to listen for our sung together feelings

Music therapy
composed of what we economically
and politically Trust,
wanting mutual
and actively co-invested
full singing circle harmonic Wins right now
to Win more easily tomorrow’s healthing way

And what might this PatriCapitalist feel
he does not want?
Perhaps less Win/Lose
ZeroSum power and light assumptions
actively distrusted
settling for more traumatic apartheid,
denial of interdependently woven relationship,
nature v spirit non-indigenous dualism
divorced from his own prehistoric felt experience
longing to avoid further nihilistic Lose/Lose
trauma
decay
pain
loss
degeneration.

Am I distracting
dissonant
too RightBrain gooey
for serious performance competition
with Your church choir’s
true blue bought and sold
commodified liturgical purpose?

To put on a good LeftBrain entertaining show

Rituals about cooperatively enjoying
our win/win WholeEarth health-care receiving
and resilient wealth-care giving
by conducting bicamerally harmonic potential

For healthier democracies,
more cooperatively owned EarthPartnership,
more inclusive multicultural polypaths
for universally unitarian polyphonic
constellations of integral systemic Voice

Yang yintegrally
WuWei
less Western sociopathic trauma
best forgiven through compassionate
indigenously polycultural
wellness sung and danced

Win health Voices
to Win resilient wealth Choices
for green ego/ecosystemic leadership

Con-celebrating BlueSky/GreenEarth
light and power felt
warm harmonic need
for more and better
inter-religious
intersectional
interdependently reweaving
healthy democratic communion

Which is what I need
and want to say
about how I seem to feel
when a Straight
White
Elder Patriarch
comes in to where I RightBrain sing
my Gay
White
EcoFeminist way.

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ForeGiving CelEmbracions

We all have had worst days and best days,
good and bad days and nights
works and plays.

My own largest part of learning to forgive myself
for bad days
of WholeEarth neglect
and win/lose interpersonal compromises,
for bad historic days
of letting go too easily,
too conveniently
forgiving my unforgiving
and unforgiven apartisanship,
for sins of Othering heritage,
for anthro-
and ego-centric supremacy

Is to celebrate our connecting
and reconnecting
wealthiest viral health
safe return
to humanity’s multicultural Home

Silently celebrating my ego’s
largest ecosystemic spaciousness,
deepest wisdom,
widest win/win compassion.

As we learn to con-celebrate
EarthTribe
re-exploring our nondualistic
indigenous
natural/spiritual heritage,

We embrace integral
holistic
holy
transparent
and vulnerably compassionate communications

Restoring green peace
through EarthJustice,

Remerging
regenerative
redemptive co-passion
celebrating my
and our
green eco/theo-logically peaceful
GoldenRule humane/divine identities

WellBeing constellations,
healthy bicameral democratic structures,
harmonic choruses,
fire-circle heated dancers,
multiculturing communion celebrants
cooperatively fore-giving our worst days
becoming our con-celebrated best days
and nights,
works and plays.

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Sacred Music

Sacred music
is not a performance Thing,
an exterior-focused
ego-enhancement event
that expertly v nascently happens
to win/lose competitive
LeftBrain dominant Me

An individual
dissociated ego-identity
divorced from eco/theo-logically reflective
systemically interconnected We.

Music
muses and amuses
my resonant climaxing relationships
of co-passionate interior robust eruption
revolving voiced resonance
between and around robust WeMuses
forming and flowing
and resonantly reforming
our multiculturally cooperative constellations
of resilient resound,

Standing and dancing
to heart and mindbody sing
ring out and back in-between
Past’s wounding and healing history

Predicating Future’s PatriCapital transcendent
monotheistic Fracture
brokenness
sin
ignorance
AnthroDivine supremacism

And Future’s healthier promise
for growing,
feeding,
watering EcoPolitical panentheistic Yintegral Flow

Healing
restoring
bicamerally balanced intelligence
of nondual EarthTribes
indigenous
polyculturing past/future
multiculturing health/wealth

Left/Right Wing
Future GreenCommons Communion
interreligious
intersectional
interdependent
integral EarthHealth
MeWe Golden JusticeWealth
of and for
CoPassionate CommunioNation

A multiculturally cooperative constellation
of resilient MeWe-governing
win/win joy,

Like an often sun-quenched,
occasionally warm rain-drenched,
green cooperatively self-organizing
MotherTree led
natural/spiritual singing
ringing forest

CoPassionately Communioned
health/wealth
ego/eco-systemic
cooperative re-education Optimizing
regenerative systems

Are also not-not degenerating
bemused resonant Both/And health process
with and without sufficient resilient wealth
performing resonant
co-empathic progress

Polyculturing music
polyphonically flowing from Right
through polypaths strong syncopating Left
synergetically co-invested
in copassionately integral
resonant co-infestment
re-creating
re-membering constellations
of amusing health/wealth muses
Past through Future
copresent MeHere Space
WeNow indigenously Timeless.

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EarthMother EcoMuse

When reading
and singing
and dancing poetry
enspiriting choreography
of emotively ecological
geography,

I need not check my LeftBrain dominance
at rhetoric’s healing door,

But bring Him/Her with me
once more

To heal chaos
and restore

What EarthMothers preach
and practice
and adore

No severance between Earth’s natural systemic Truths
and Ego’s spiritually animated
reweaving complex Beauty
denying doubts
not not double-binding Fractures.

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Passion Works and Plays

Propriety
belongs to a
society
as dignity
sings my song strong
individuality

Both benign
characteristics
earned right through
win/win wellness statistics
comparing
individualistic
flawed integrity
of Othering patristics.

Improperly colonizing
militarized monoculturing
choosing bitter
unbetter capitalizing

A worn down path
of ZeroSum assumptionizing
improper wealth baptizing baths
of undignified conclusions
unholy rising

Directed by a demonic god
weak and/or promiscuous
slatternly sinful goddesses

Eating Earth’s own children
when Her Consort’s favorite book
calls for religious recipe looks
of meaty mighty
sacrificial ingredients, cooked

For at least comparatively improper
social climate change
and oppositionally degenerative
personal political
lack of win/win gain

Integral knowledge
of which comes first,
propriety of worshipping Earth’s
sacred ecosystemic birth
or healthing dignity
of individual bursts
into enlightening constellations
and empowering corporations
and health wealthing cooperations
for polyculturing peace
resonant rebirth.

Earth health and safety
already pre-supposes sensory
dignified Mother propriety
v patriarchally improper memory
of a nationalistic society
rather bicamerally unbalancing
would-be patriots
of universal health integrity

Of and for healing
win/lose ZeroSum fractured stealing
from win/win Futures holistic
not not ZeroZone revealing
appropriately integrative
double negative co-relatives
of individuals socially sensitive
to EarthJust dignity reweaving
propriety redeeming
resonance restoring

Compassion’s mind-invested work
and heart-infested
operatic passion play.

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This Passionate Climax

Passions bring us to this sacred EarthTime.

More regenerative
when cooperative
and less resiliently competitive
when degenerative

Less producing fruit
of Future’s regenerative
integral
Whole OpenSystemic potential.

Individual subsystems more compassionately play
than dispassionately work competitively
at surviving
midst fractured remnants of a fertile Earth

Once more indigenously
nterdependently enlightening
polypathic
than a stubborn MonoTheistic
Patriarchal
Win/Lose Capitalistic Closed Entropic ZeroSum
worldview

Of sterile
LeftBrain reductively dogmatic
cynical greed,
powerlust,
competitive lack of trust,
dissonant AnthroSupreme
MonoTheistic
Othering distrust.

If my only choice
is to deify Love
or richly commodify Hate,
I will not further blaze a four lane runway
flying off toward ballistic Hell
homophobic racist bait.

If Earth’s glad regeneration
has brought human spirited nature
to this global climate crisis
of win/lose competing cleanliness
StraightWhite purity
next to Patriarchal MonoTheistic godliness

What polyculturing rooms
and stages
and universal frames remain
for compassion
more than gloom
doom
apartheid zoom rooms

To cooperatively practice healing
nonviolent meditating
win/win communicating
predator/prey creolizing
interdependently realizing

Rainbow Holistic
iconic transubstantiating healthy-wealth
double-binding
co-arising relationships
matter too

Binomially
bicamerally ubiquitous
almost ridiculous
to dualistically ignore
nature/spirit’s co-intelligently regenerate
preference for healthy association
rather than unwealthy dissociation

Healthy/wealth reconnecting
inter-re-ligioning
prime relationship design

Win/win
cooperatively nuanced complexity
within a hyper-estatic Goddess Gaia Nest
for ecofeminist students
of win/win ecopolitical empowerment
enlightening our already holonic NonZeroZoned spirit
of EarthNature’s restoring sacred hand

Naturing Compassion’s LeftHemisphere
deductive strength of reconnecting thoughts
with RightHemisphere’s inductive flowing feelings
for restoring EarthHealth
wealthy peaceful passions

Without win/lose partisan Doubt
and with win/win eco/theo-logical
bicameral Decision

NonViolently,
and, more precisely,
compassionately delivering us
into this sacred ClimateTime
of health/wealth optimizing choice.

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UnCancelling PoliCultures

Animistic
animated health
designing intelligence,
dynamically changing
emerging PoliCulture’s wealth

Is rooted in economic
and political experiential consciousness
derived from,
and arriving for,
integral EarthTribe’s
bihemispheric balancing win to win patterns
tipping forward progressive
democratically yintegral,
not so much autocratic yanged out,
healthy process

Defining/refining
both/and equivocating perceptions
of empowering/enlightening health risks
reconnecting/re-ligioning
secular/sacred EarthWealth,
indigenous wu-wei
Me/We nondualistic
nature/spirit
ego/ecosystemic ladder Poles

Transporting pokey
prickly powering spokes
to flow-hubbed nirvana
holonic ecofeminist Wholes
playing resilient win/win
inventive pro-life-ic EarthJust games

Robusty operas,
gracefilling choreography,
multicultural sexuality of good-sense humor
naturally indigenous ego systems
emerging from deep learning wisdom

Spiritual EarthMother
warm wombed centers
forward feeling
more than conserving backward
win/lose constipating touch

ZeroSum repetitive competitive
PatriCapitalist overpowering
Earth’s Great Turning Communion,
poli-cultural
meta-phonic
Me-We wu-wei
healthing EarthClimate
restoring, not cancelling,
cultural wealth

Of polypathic
polymathic
polyphonic
polyvagal
polynomial
win/win polycultural patterns

Redesigning health
resiliently cultured
intelligent climate wealth

Animistic yintegrity
animated Yang spoke
pregnantly changing holonic hubs
emerging MeWe Woke.

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