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Cannabis Culture

Already an apology is due,
which is only better
than one already overdue,

Yes, I know cannabis
is a place of multiple
and diversely celebrated
subcultures,

And, yes, I realize chaos
and complexity may be civilly sipped
and thirstily gulped
from diverse alcohol
subcultures,
pedigrees,
castes of enumerated strength,
weakness,
risk,
opportunity.

Even so,
although it may feel peculiar
to follow this bi-cultural thought experiment

Let us explore
what we might heuristically mean
by a Cannabis Culture (CC)
versus Alcohol Culture (AC),
as we might pursue a feminist
versus patriarchal history.

I have two CC sons
in their AfricanAmerican 20s,
both politically and economically at high risk
of lifetime failure to thrive.

To mental light
and physical power survive,
younger son is dominated by dark fear;
older sun by redhot anger
burning against an ecopolitically punishing system

With win/lose
hostile
white privileged
lack of good and healthy
RightBrain
interdependent networking manners

Oblivious to CC dense
possibilities
for healthy
cooperative
multi-therapeutic intent;

Stuck in blood poisoning
AC self-traumatizing medication
worthy of a patriarchal
capitalist
straight
white supremacist wounded child
traumatized by Fetal Alcohol Syndrome

Hostile
oppositional
defiant
aggressive
curiously threatened by CC organic-fed
and clear watered
bicameral awareness
of polypathic climate anxiety

About outside degenerating subclimates,
faltering public, global healthcare systems
and concomitant inside struggling
polycultural CC values
for multiculturing ego-health
encountering empathic eco-wealth.

It interests CC biased me,
and causes grave AC concern,
that RightBrain prominent
younger son’s disenfranchising fear
wishes older sun’s angry hot potential allies
were more LeftBrain curious
about therapeutic values
of nonviolent communication.

Angry-CC suns are often under-
and unemployed, in part,
because their trauma medication
is a hiring barrier
to securing a secular job,
and to attracting a sacred vocation,
while their AC former friends
and learning peers,
more white and patriarchally privileged
pass with patriotic fervor
their blood
and uncriminalized background tests.

Angry-CC solar flaring suns
demand their Fear-CC brothers
and timid sisters
aggressively demonstrate empowering eco-political courage
to erupt CC hegemony.

Yet all the CCs and ACs above
behave as if we suffer less
because of our employment marginalizing,
and potentially criminalizing, choices

And feel as if we win more
when we suns and windblown daughters
recognize and appreciate each AC/CC
bicamerolling Other

When we organize deep CC nonviolent listening circles,
open to our patriarchal
capitalist
straight
white AC
LeftBrain degenerative nemesis.

Alcohol-natured and Old Cannabis-spirited
indigenous nature/spirit wisdom
among bicameral polyculturalists
could synergetically co-mediate global thinking
and feeling

Bilaterally rebalancing internal
external co-passion communions

Globally conscious
Ego/EcoSystemic CC
politically resonates with
and for
and of public health solidarity systems
reconnecting all bicamerally co-binary
eco-wealthy EarthTribes.

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HeartFelt–MindFull

I read Eisenstein’s sacred economics
a year or two ago,
and it is one of the few I still remember
and often think about
and long for.

This ecological
theological
economic read
was my ego’s cooperative investment
in TruthLeft with BeautyRight
Charles had paid-forward
in writing this cooperatively-invested exchange.

I love his WinWin ego/eco-system
not not ZeroSum
degenerative/regeneratively ambiguous imagination
listening to history’s healthy wealth and unwealthy pathology
for ego-patriarchal/eco-feminist
bilaterally creolizing health/wealth value purity
of innocent EarthTribal Beauty flow-power.

If such co-passioned love economy
makes me a crazy ambiguously trans-regenerative investor
in polypathic WinWin health and wealth of beauty
wizard/wild wikimess

With truly shape-shifting liberal love
of deeply conservational green eco-normic
metaphoric learning truly gorgeous virtuous feedback value
from healthy non-violent eco-political communicating voices

Then,
so be my personal and political health systemic investments.
I am
what we are LeftWin/RightWin becoming,
so let’s just move on
and fully occupy this trouble-shooting transubstantiating
trans-regenerative 4D
ZeroZone spacetime
EarthTribe Paradise potential
Truth/Beauty polynomial

Integrity of healthy cooperative Win/Win economics
with wealthy ecologics,
organically empowering systems
with bilateral Left/Right rhythms,
Yang/Yin
Universal/Unitarian,
Nature/Spirit promoting
dipolar co-lateral Zero InvestmentZone
of interdependent BeautifulDiversity

Guilty of re-syncing
as fully WinHealth/WinWealth
LeftEgo/RightEco-normatively charged,
and still changing,
and recharging
and prechanging
and uncharging
and not not polypathically changing
exchanging
Win/Lose competitive economic systems
for Win/Win ecopolitical
eco-logical webs
of heart-felt, fully-infested muses
for beautiful Myth,
co-operating nutritional organic exchanges
of healthy/pathological interdependent information

FeltFull MindHeart : FullFelt HeartMind

 

 

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As We Speak

When wandering through a clinical studies program,
I began a practice of writing verbatims,
capturing the essence of conversations
messages
for their therapeutic integrity.

In this frame of mind and heart,
several years ago
I wrote this verbatim
on behalf of my daughter
with oppositional defiant disorder
and cerebral palsy.

Rereading it just now,
I wonder how different
really
are her imagined thoughts than mine
or ours,
in diverse senses
speaking with each other
across our less than confluent divides:

You asked me to ask when I need help,
and to add a please and thank you,
if at all possible.

I have done that often.

You ask me to ask to hold your hand
when you can’t otherwise hear me ask for help.

I am doing that right now.

I am not like you.
I wish I could be,
but I cannot.

I need you to appreciate me for who I am
more than attack me for who I am not,
and probably will never become.

My mind and body work similarly to yours,
but do not produce feelings and faith,
language and love
as effectively as does your incarnation.

I worry.
You and life often make me anxious,
stressed,
confronted by possibiities that I am not fully human
in your eyes and mind,
perceived as not only different but inferior.

I tend to panic.
Frequently your world overwhelms me.
I lose self-control when bombarded by too much stimulation.
I want time and Earth and life and you and us
to slow down.

In these anxious situations,
if you want to help me,
then please stop,
slow down with me,
look at me,
wait until I am ready to look back.
Just give me a moment
or two
or three
or a lifetime
to catch up.

If I can trust you to do this,
I and we will be OK.
I will learn to trust that I could be OK,
and I will feel grateful,
occasionally
to live with you,
to share my life with you
as you share yours with me.

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Windstorms of Neglect

Dearest Sons
and dearest Cinderella StepSister,
I regret ways I have failed each of you.

From today’s view of memory clips,
frames as farms of teaching-learning times,
my Great Lover Eldest, yet perpetually unfulfilled,
AfricanAmerican black male urban Thug,
driver of van repurposing other’s grateful loss,
transporting toward highest and best
ecologically healthy use.

You needed me to choose to continue bedside reading
just a little longer,
you wanted me to choose family-no-phone daily dinners,
just a little longer,
to choose not to add StepSister
to your adolescent chaos.
Your challenges with reading
other people’s emotional verbal rhythms
and rhymes with reasons,
speak to me of missed opportunities
to invest more eye-to-eye and same-room time,
rather than those other more nutritious monocultural choices,
the kind my dad made without me.

You needed and deserved more time invested
in revesting what it could mean to learn together
about muse and music,
about rhythms with natural rhymes,
cultural songs and political sounds and rapping economic voices
of poetry as temporal rounds of time’s seasons
investments in political
with cooperative economic treasons.

My middle shy wilting flower
MidWay Fluent Son.
Co-empathic gifted and cursed,
Polypathically resonant,
and therefore often suffering
through over-heated bright,
you needed more shared sun-screen time,
a partner in your fascination
winning cooperative relationships
bartering transactors,
on-line cooperatives,
competing team strategic outcome choices.

Life Game Outcome Values
assessed against
Cooperative Economic and PolyCultural Political WinWin
PolyNomial Objects with PolyPathic ReGenerating Objectives.

I always love our mutual WinWin
cooperating “both-and” cultural opportunities to share,
avoiding our competing “either-or” risks of wrong presumptions,
encoding Game Theory versions of Golden Rules with Natural Ratios
applied to all golden-natural ecosystemic relationships,
transactions bilaterally light and dualdark,
4D (0)-centric,
Tao-Soul Revolving RealTime,
BiLaterally Revolutioning LeftThink to RightFeel
to Left sadtry again.

My youngest son
who has no bodylanguage filters,
who cannot voice his temperate words
with languaged rhythms and icons,
to you I leave a human race
that has already paced too fast
to be sure we can sustain
a future that could support
your incubator and medical needs
in your own future’s less viable infants.

Who will sing with our damaged children in their own keys
of rhythm and joy and laughter,
where will your song be heard
as cherished elder-music memory?

Who will remember to tap your shoulders and back
and bounce your bum to the beat
of gospel and rhythms of blue light
speaking through your skin
“I hear it too, as do you?”

Who will hold you through
internal earthquakes
rolling across inside neural plates
seizing chaotic rhythms,
waves of seismic volcano rebirth,
struggling waves
surfing up and down
in as out as in again…?

You I leave your mindbody
as your beautiful song
and daily liturgy of dancing sounds
in resonant colors
of your warm love of light and scents transcendent
echoes of singing voices past,
ringing flowers singing
flowing through your veins,
beating your thumpthump heart,
breathing your in-out balanced flying mind as body
that could not walk.

My struggling StepSister Princess
baptized in embryonic toxic chemicals,
mixed slyly with MotherManna,
you are born to Yang monoculturally through
Cinderella life,
as Princess or Ugly StepSister,
your moment by moment,
hour by hour,
day by day choice.

For you there can only be one Sun Goddess
of EgoMe,
for whom all others were divinely sole-vested
for worshiping your Cinderella feet.

You vigorously want
and need
and expect Prince Charming
good and beautiful and truly healthy
and kind,
loving and good-faithing,
listening and fulfilling each hope
instantaneously,
whether for more or critically far less,
to have sole control of all you know,
exterior robotics serving interior ego-manic,
to Yang about by day,
and struggle against all night,
playing WinLose games of confrontation,
either-or assumptions,
when both-and are so obvious
with more bicameral-temporal-neural balance
than you could ever become.

I have given you all I have to invest,
all my Zero-interest EgoLeft/EcoRight MindBody
could think and dream of
to play and sing and story
in our puppet fable rhythms
of superheroes and romantic witches
of hope as a shared magic smile
over humor that is most certainly
not politically correct.

You sing up,
I dance down.
You say smile,
I smile frown
upside down.
You say yes,
I say notnot.
You say why,
I say forgot.
You say did not,
I say you caught me,
our co-elating truth,
StepSister don’t now how
to give a shit,
to return our opposite
with her own,
economy of survival
in her made up
why dogs eat cats
dipolar dissonantly dialected
neural challenged world.

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Breathing Through Design

“…making this shift [from ego to Authentic ecoSelf] usually requires inspired [inductive Right to Left +health-reiterative messages] intention and consistent, diligent effort [and a supportive vocational and residential and eco-logically balanced environment.]”

“And the way this is achieved is through using the greatest gift that evolution has given us: the power of [polyculturally healthy or monoculturally pathological] choice [for ourselves as for our potential future regenerators].” Andrew Cohen, “Evolutionary Enlightenment”, 2011.

PermaCultural HumanNaturalOnly Choice:
ReGenerative Health/EcoTherapy for all
or degeneration of Earth’s bio- and eco-systems,
including political and eco-not-so-normic deductive-competitive,
bicamerally-unbalanced,
enculturation system dominance.

Free Choice to intend and will Exterior Landscape behavior
confluent or dissonant with
Interior Landscape
metaphysical language enculturing ecosystemic iconically
analogical information,
exegetical rich-resonant normative strings
of historic WinWin “Yes” polycultural choices of genetics,
PositivePresent-OVER-
DoubleNegative FoldFunction and FlowTrend memory,
regenerative (RNA/DNA) iconic syntax,
in either PresentAptic Polycultural tense and ionic-elational distension (concaving),
or PastAnger SynAptic Predicates FutureFear avoidance,
cognitive-affective personal and cultural dissonance.

FutureFear Choice Corollary:
Monocultural Lose-Lose decay
and decompositional preparation
for composting future natural health/ecotherapy
co-arising regenerativity of time’s incarnation into space;
reverse-temporal-neural double-dimensioned (bilateral-linear)
therapy WinWin clockwise self-perpetuating polynomial health-rationality
OVER
egoLeftYin/ecoRightYin chronic cognitive-affective stress
of trying to find regenerative health
swimming through a sea of mediated and immediate
dissonance-pathology hell.

Present CoPresence as DiPolar Bicameral Basic Attendance Corollary:
Positive DiPolar Meets and Greets and WinWin intends
Mutual-Positive-Namaste
as AngerPast Teaches FutureFear
how and why and when to co-arise
(-,-) Double-Negative LoseLose
equals Double-Positive PolyNomial-PolyReGeneration
WinWin as YinYin Balancing DoubleNegative
PositiveYang Politically EcoNormic.InFormating
SelfOptimizing CoGravitational SpaceAsTime 4D Systems.

The logical conclusion of overpopulating
overly-competitive and aggressive human natural dominant trends,
of suicide and other irrationalities
and errors in self-enculturation
through evolutionary cooperative sciences and arts and history
and myth and logos-icons of symmetric rhythmic exegetical (0)
ecobalance
CoPresent Soul of ReGenerative
Balanced CoGravitational Time,
deciding to head toward hell of anger and fear anyway,
not taking time to recall these are Angry Prophets of Past Sins,
predicting lack of even hellfire’s last flame of Fear’s SelfHatred,
awash in self-perpetuating not-not reiterations
of disbicamerolling negentropic chaos.

Then stop
notice,
you still empathically elate positive nutrients,
all heading in a more cooperatively polycultural direction
appositional nondual dipolar bilateral-linear
reversed wu wei Tipping Point
of an endosymbiotically positive-positive CoPresence
ReVolutionary inhale with exhale economics.

If you are still breathing
you have already begun this practice
of absorbing both positive nutrition and toxins,
co-arising collateral negatives, fear and anger,
teaching your oppositional anti-death MidWay WinWin,
while those FearAnger Twins inevitably follow
planned or unplanned
eitherway increasing consistently aggressive Yang ballistic Way,
toward Ego’s ever-faster inevitable demise.

Ego without EcoRight CoPresence
always loses in Ego’s own Win-Lose dominating way.
Incarnations die to fuel further regeneratively healthy incarnations.

This ecology of diastatically rational life
predicts continuing BusinessAsUsual,
breathing positive self-dominance
while intentionally absorbing more anger-fear fighting nutrients
than love-peace synchronously-flying menu choices,
and to thereby emerge
ecopathologically even further anthro-centric,
monoculturally fixated,
hypnotized by our own fear of fear of ego’s death,
absorbing further toxins and collateral corporate insult,
injury,
self-abuse and other-neglect,
violence and cognitive-affective dissonance,
addiction to possession and dispossession
of ego’s increasingly constipated
anger-fear ruminations,
with negative loser messages.

WinWin cooperative co-regeneration optimization
would be just the opposite of competitive monocultural,
dissonant-trending
ecosystemic political and economic
private and familial
BusinessAsUsual double-binding negativity.

Our ecological and economic cooperative project
of natural regenerativity
as also spiritual ecoconsciousness
basking in love of health and timeless co-relational security,
empathically and deeply attends,
sitting within LoseLose competitive decomposition,
embracing our shared BusinessAsUsual predative/co-messianic
culture,
dis-assembling each dominating seasonal stage
of LeftEgo’s struggle with RightEco’s Present CoPresence
Love of Harmonic Balance,
Symmetry
Septum DiPolar Yang/Yin Dynamics of Time as Breath.

Ego, alone and bereft of an exegetically co-arising
sea of ecoconsciousness environment
and nutritional culture
and cooperative political and economic networking capacity,
plays “lose” intentions with Other,
and Earth,
substituting short-term survival
suboptimizing anthro-centric designs
for Eco’s Right brain inductive
regeneratively deep eco-normic meaning,
healthy choice of life as love,
Golden Rule positive assumption with and for each Other,
written into bilateral Yang/Yin time
within this EarthBound
Balancing
neural networked
Ego(+/-)/Eco(-/+) Bicameral-Fractal WinWin
Co-ReIteratively
EcologicalExterior/AnalogicalInterior
CoPresent
Neural-Temporal Bionic Network Systemic
TransParent
Universal/Integrating EcoBiNomial Fold-System
Positive Psychological Identity
Resilience
Resonance
ReSolution
ReGenerating PolyNomial-PolyPathic Time.

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