Resilient Redemption

Probably few of us
have capacity
to see ourselves
as both Angel
and Demon.

Many of us
have had the experience
of demonizing
and punishing ourselves
for sins of the past
extending into our present
unresolved trauma.

Hopefully many of us
have also had the experience
of forgiveness
and saving ourselves
from sins of the future
because someone shared with us,
in some effective way,
that nothing
is always your autonomous fault

If only because
no organic creature,
anthro or otherwise,
is born
or can survive
radically autonomous
from non-ego centers.

Personal identity
follows interpersonal
ecosystemic individuation
and effectively.

I hear healing opportunity
in this responsible
yet not solely responsible
both/and way of consciousness

As well as traumatizing risk
of denial,
too cheap self forgiveness,
too easy hiddenness
of our secret
most private
feelings of guilt
about harming another

Both intentionally
and without malice,

A woman’s reluctant decision
to abort may feel unresolvable
between angelic win/win desires
and demonic win/lose fears
and angers

As might
her reluctant decision
to buy a gun
and several ominous rounds
of deadening ammunition

To protect herself
and her children
from traumatic demons
at her flimsy door

Not considering
her lack of experience
with braver angels
hoping to reassure her.

Therapeutic angels
may also wait,
and impatiently,
outside that same door,
searching for health’s
most wealthy bell
to dispel
shared dark shadows

In-between silent demons
we abhor
and sacred angels
we redemptively adore.


ComPetitions for DisRegard

Am I unhealthy and unsafe oppressed,

Not really all that:
competitively impressive,
first through last impression
enticingly marketable,
profitably commercial,
slickly corporate,
predatively intelligent

More camouflaged
unnoticed and undefined
and, frankly, perhaps unstable
because of my environmental circumstances?
as liberal lovers
would have failing to ego-thrive anthrosupremacists
monoculturally privileged
and multiculturally misunderstood
and Othered


Am I health/safety oppressed
because of my personal
bad ecopolitical choices?
like having unprotected sex
instead of going to the mall,

Not really reflecting on
wider and deeper context
like True Faith
and Healthy Happiness
monotheistically delivered
monopolistically endowed
StraightWhiteMale privileged
monoculturing LeftBrain transcendent
AnthroDivine judgment
falling shy
of unconditional regard

As win/lose divinely inspired Capital investments
support PatriarchalGod’s purely patriotic hierarchy
not-so-blindly selecting
who deserves Restorative Win/Win Justice
and third
and fourth chances

And who should not
escape Lose/Lose Retributive Dissociation
(repression, suppression, oppression, depression)

A social sympathy so thinly simpering
judicial powers are too comfortably scampering
to throw away personal freedom keys
with polarized dispassionate Disdain

Icing on Earth’s soggy cake
for feeding climate rabid
lose/lose anthro-victims,
producers and consumers of Othering.

To get out from under-cussed non-classedness,
must I truly choose
between circumstantial ecological Voices
for resonant healthcare,
Or personal theological-felt internal Choices
for resilient wealthshare?

Do natural
polycultural healthcare systems
not co-arise
egowealthy green EarthPeace
spiritual co-investments?

So yes,
I guess,
answers to my oppressed prayers
by our liberal lover circumstances
and my conservational personal
either Saint
or Sinner Choices

Do LeftBrain ignore
Both systemic conserving circumstances
And internal liberating intuitions

RightBrain questioning
interdependently unrecognized


To NotNot Saint Hillary Elect

If you run into first smart 1970s feminist to become President Elect Hillary,
please relay this message,
if you would remain so kind
and thoughtful of our regenerative nurturing selves,
cooperating together.

I appreciate and applaud your ability to nurture more positive,
preferably WinWin,
ecopolitical relationships
especially where less generous ecological normativities
remain so premillennially Washington BiCameral WinLose.

And, while I am not accusing you of becoming a saint,
one who consistently listens
to follow shared ecologically nutritious integrity,
consistently cooperatively WinWin,
mutually empowering ownership of political economies ourselves,
for after all,
what otherwise could we mean by a Saint becoming?
born of embryonic ecological-bicameral integrity,
both Humanely regenerative enriching
with Divine dipolar enlightening EcoLogos Fertile CoRedemptive Passion
for Public/Private Health.

I do hope you remain smart feminist enough
to have richly cultivated multicultural relations
and co-investing transactions
without ever having sold out your WinWin integrity,
and thereby missing a challenging economic and political opportunity
to enrich our polypathic ecological future outcomes
as a healthier acclimating nation within an extended family
of interdependently networking relations.

Speaking of which,
I want to encourage you to have a PermaCulture Design Teacher
develop a new transmillennial pre-service training program
for all Peace Corps
and VISTA/SCORE volunteers.
After all,
who better than an ecologically integrative healthy multicultural ecopolitical outcome optimizer
to teach ecological development toward fertile climaxing landscapes
within our public-sector messiahs for and with climate-marginalized populations
becoming better together through mutual-empowerment,
resonant enrichment,
more ecologically peaceful and just,
more saintly, if you will,
eco-missionaries for global public health,
designing rainforests from deserts
of thirsty Middle Eastern Terrorists,
currently breathing too much stinky premillennial oil-polluted air.

Domestic and international volunteers together
rebuilding cooperative global investment and withdrawal networks
where qualitative values
are measured in self-optimizing regenerative outcomes
of (0)-sum healthy cooperative wealth,
gifting forward co-messianic ecobalance
and shadow receiving spiritual loving sainthood
Paradise Enlightenment
in active ecopolitical response
within co-empathic trusting Earth Tribes.

With two or three years of experience,
turning climate pathologies toward climate health,
maybe the Peace Corp and VISTA/SCORE senior volunteers
could train the Pentagon
and all incoming officers of global climate peace,
how to co-invest in ecologically self-optimizing health
and safety within more challenging EcoPolitical Landscapes,
still longing for smarter feminist nurturing climates
with wealthier tribes
of regenerating bicameral-balancing Saints.

I could no more notnot refer to anyone as a saint,
born a saint and yet also becoming an ecological-ecopolitical sinner,
some more self-and-other co-redemptive than others,
but always born both saint and maturing sinner.
Baptism, after all,
does not turn born sinners into saints,
it is a blessing on the family of saints,
to raise another as our grace-filled selves.
Christianity is about a society of saints
ecologically therapeutic for the saint/sinner lines
of Yang/Yin cooperation/competition
written within each fingerprint and heartbeat.

We are all born smart ecological-ecopolitical feminist saints;
but most of us forget,
selling out to LeftBrain dominant empowerment of WinLose
deductive-monopolistic ego-identity concerns,
Yang’s negative agenda about dualdark dissonantly unraveling
while maturing embodied climates.
Positive Psychology favors smart feminists
because cooperative ecopolitics
is rewarded by healthier climates of regenerative Earth.

So, please don’t resist conjoining the Marine Corp
with the Peaceful PermaCulture CoOperative Public Health Network.
The navies could bring therapy to the oceans and seas
and polar caps of ice.
The armies could enrich well-watered nutritious soils,
refreeze our glaciers.
The coast guards could protect the health of rivers
and tidal streams.
The homeless and hungry could grow gardens and organic farms,
cooperatively owned therapeutic communities,
repurposing and recycling networks
expressing nature-spirit reweaving arts
and political ecological sainthood sciences
of permaculturing ecotherapy.

But, as much as I too love Jeane Dixon,
do try to find someone more transmillennially formed in permaculture design.
Talk to Joanna Macy,
she’ll know who to recommend
for teaching/deep listening PermaCultural Climate Peace
as EcoJustice.